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It’s been pointed out that this looks like the scene where Claudia gets turned. I’m not OK.
#how does he make blue eyes look warm?#I can’t make out his expression#Fear?#Regret?#Sadness?#IDK but I’m nervous#interview with the vampire#sam reid#iwtv series
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I think a big misunderstanding is the power people give Curly to actually change things about the way the pony express operates or could’ve done things on the Tulpar.
We are talking about a company that docks pay for bad synergy despite mandated psych evals that should tell which staff members would work well together, only allots for 5 hours of sleep despite having literally no other tasks to truly do and locks all resources behind the access of one person. The last one is likely to manage resources and make it easier to justify collective punishment and blaming one person for it; someone needs something in “excess” or the captain gives in? It’s all on them your pay is docked. Instant resentment.
It’s insidious how the company works, it’s by design to distract you from coming after them, to force tensions to line their own pockets. With all the restrictions and forced interactions, altercations are bound to happen. 5 hours of sleep a day, limited sources of entertainment, no real tasks… the monotony alone would cause bad cabin fever, mix that with just only one absolute mediator and you get the exact environment that allows shit like in the game to happen.
The idea he could just complain and try to throw his weight around to get them to dig into their pocket for the crews comfort is laughable and misses the predatory and dehumanizing aspect of capitalism the Pony Express represents. Curly was and is still just another asset to them. Being a top show pony doesn’t mean he’s anywhere close to the actual top. He is the top of the working ladder, not whoever’s in corporate, he wouldn’t even be on the bottom step unlike what Jimmy perceives. The resounding recommendations he would get are almost mocking as they throw him out like nothing just like the rest. Being a shitty fucking company, how much do you bet they’d mean anything anyways, especially since he wanted to leave the field all together.
He made a fuss and they didn’t listen, he says he should’ve done more but you can tell he knows it wouldn’t have changed anything. Jobs like this are willing to make a sacrifice if it means even a penny more. Curly makes a bigger fuss they likely would’ve just found an “unrelated” reason to fire him, hired a more pliable guy or, terrifyingly, promoted Jimmy. The company was failing, going to shut down whether anything happened on the ship or not. But knowing that they were shutting down and that everyone, including him, would be out of a job with this being their last paycheck, he had to factor in not destroying the last bit of their financial stabilities combined with every other issue on the vessel and his own. He gets another cryopod or locks and then he has to break to them that they are not only fired but there will be substantial cuts to their paychecks due to the “upgrades” (things that already should’ve been in place on their part) on top of anything else that could be docked along the way.
You can blame him for saying it so early into the trip but then again, if he mentioned it later who’s to say it wouldn’t have been worse? On the capitalism side alone how would people in a galaxy away from home, out of a job and already stir crazy react? Don’t get me started on how Jimmy would have reacted if he realized he only had two days left to fix what would be a very hard to miss “problem” in his head…
I can’t even consider explaining this as devils advocate because it’s just facts of the world we and they live in and factors that heavily affected the situation. People are just so quick to make claims on the ease of the choices when P.E literally makes it hard to choose to do anything but suck it up.
#this is also like a sort of point that while I wanted Curly to do more for Anya I realized he would have to jeaporsiE the crews safety in#some way like if they needed the cryopods one person would be left without one and like it would be curly he’d offer but don’t think any of#them would be happy or feel okay with letting him die over a rapist? he kills Jimmy and now he has to stand trial and be arrested for murder#because it’s not self defense or manslaughter like they could obviously lie but he wouldn’t let them do that in case of a sort of black box#or guilt on their mind specifically with Daisuke who would likely be kept out of the loop not to mention it’s a dead body with a limited#likely recycled air supply so again he’s getting tried for murder and they are down a cryopod#not to mentions again the fact that you need a copilot like I know like aviation law and shit is crazy and like not common knowledge#but you bed a second set of eyes or someone to trade off with so you don’t loose ur concentration or doze and crash#like they don’t just sit their and do nothing like Jimmy probably did some of the time cause Curly likely didn’t want to make him#cause like pissed off and spiteful Jimmy manning the controls even if just helping is not something he wants to deal with and risk their#lives but i digress I genuinely think the biggest flaw of Curly’s in the situation is being a man who could not handle or understand the#emotional gravity of what Anya experienced especially at the hands of someone who he was also#emotonal/mentally mistreated by and wanted to so badly to believe was his friend and improving#like he did not offer her enough or the proper emotional/physical security he could’ve as a captain nor friend but in that it goes right#back to the systems at play that make it so he isn’t meant or supposed to understand so it can’t be perpetuated and blah blah blah how many#times do I have to explain systematic oppression to certain groups in this fandom and it isn’t cut n dry of good guys bad guys and victims#as outliers of the tow categories l#mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#the pony express#The Tulpar
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I’m updating my art fight profile rn and I’ll realizing how little I’ve drawn the farm family
#btw every time I’ve posted Finn I’ve had at least one person slide in and be like 👀 hello??#which makes me happy every time cause Finn’s a playboy character#not like an anime stereotype one but in a ‘I love flirty but don’t want commitment’ way#it’s cause he’s poly and wants multiple partners but doesn’t have the words and knowledge to express this#so if he’s not courting anyone he can flirt w everyone (his logic)#and be interested in multiple ppl w/out committing social tabu by cheating#he does want to marry and settle down#he just doesn’t think he can convince a wife to also have another husband#he actually has a side story about this struggle and does eventually get two partners#dont know how much I’ll dip into it in canon#cause the story is already way longer then I originally planned#but if I can’t work it in then I can work on it as a separate piece for later or during breaks
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Getting REAL sick and tired of how omori TikTok views sunny.
Like, they view any scene of him being emotionally vulnerable, affectionate, or even just making an expression outside of just being completely neutral as “mischaracterised”. He’s not some cool, stoic, unwavering badass, he is a traumatised teenager. Don’t cry whenever he dares to give his friend a hug or (god forbid) be SAD about something??? Isn’t like. Part of the point of his development about him allowing himself to break down the repressive walls he built when he shut himself in? And being able to rely on his real friends instead of imaginary versions? And isn’t the game like. Meant to SHOW that he still cares about them despite isolating himself?
It’s really stupid to get mad at a character like that showing emotion or affection personally, especially since he’s not used to expressing it properly after so long. But that’s just me
#this isn’t even solely about the manga though it inspired me to make this post#any piece of official art in which sunny dares to show an emotion is shunned as ooc and I’m sick of it#he only appears ‘neutral’ throughout the GAME’s narrative because he HAS NO FACE SPRITES#because he’s the protagonist and has no actual dialogue#therefore he only makes a few expressions the entire game#obviously manga sunny is a good bit more expressive than canon sunny but#it’s REALLY not as bad as TikTok is making it out to be#I’m so TIRED of this character being viewed as nothing but a rock that ONLY has personality before and the game’s events#not allows to emote at all because ‘he didn’t do that in the game!!’#because he is restricted to ONE face sprite the entire time outside of the battles#omori is a DIFFERENT case and I can admit that manga omori is a good bit more expressive than he should be but#he’s still VERY stoic especially compared to sunny#which is what is should be#sunny should be quite closed off but in contrast to omori so much more human#that’s like. a massive part of their dynamic I feel#anyway this is such a long rant but god im so angry#I’ve seen one too many people cry ‘mischaracterised’ at a teenager expressing feelings#PLEASE stop it#also this is not to say you can’t critique manga sunny’s portrayal#because there are a few issues I believe#which are honestly really hard to dance around considering the factors I mentioned before#about having one expression most of the game and two lines of dialogue the entire time#and honestly? I think they did a pretty okay job!#he’s still a silent protagonist but seeing him emote so often helps us see into his mind and know how he’s thinking much easier#both portrayals have their pros and cons and ultimately I prefer the game’s portrayal#but that’s not to say this version of sunny is terrible and ooc like people have been saying#and that’s definitely not to say that any moment of emotional vulnerability he has is terrible and inaccurate#because that’s. just terrible and untrue#omori#omori sunny
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one time my mom was talking about something, I don’t remember what, and she said “have you ever known the poverty of having nothing to say?” and when I say nothing has ever punctured my heart quite like that statement
#I don’t even fully know why. also I don’t think she even meant it how I took it#but there is just some part of me that does believe that that is the greatest poverty#when there are no words in your mind or heart. no phrases—nothing to rely on or fall back on#and you just have to struggle with the human condition and be able to express none of it#and I know that not everyone uses words like I do or relies on them that way but people need some words. they need something#this is why a) I never make fun of those Instagram accounts that are all cheesy inspirational quotes or whatever because people are trying#they are REACHING#also b) that’s why villains who are wordlessly violently destructive make me cry#because it’s just like—-yeah I can understand turning to violence if I didn’t have expression#if I couldn’t get anything out#also also this is not related but I watched some movie or tv show the other day (and I cannot for the life of me remember which one it was)#but there was this couple on a date and the girl asks him to complete all these proverbs after she gives him the first half#because ‘a man who knows his proverbs can’t be all bad’ and it shook. Me. To. My. CORE.#also also!! this is why I teach! it’s the heart of it for me!! And why I make them memorize poetry. like.#and put quotes on the board every day. like. You will have words and images in your mind and your heart from my class if I have anything#to say about it#anyway sometimes my mom says things and casually devastates me#and I think (I think) she was just talking about the poverty of having no news because nothing is going on#and so you have nothing to share with someone. and she was talking about my Grandma and how sometimes she was just so sullen and quiet#but it’s just because there was nothing to say#anyway anyway anyway that is also why the one time on the phone my grandma said who has known the mind of the Lord —shook me so much#because she never really said anything. words were not her thing and she never quoted anything#and suddenly her saying this line of scripture that said more than any words I’d ever said —one of the defining moments of my life#tbh. anyway this is very long I’m sorry. I have woken up this morning crying about this. idk.
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#dan heng x reader#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader#my polls#help I have ADHD I can’t make these decisions#And yes the SP!Reader is still in prison while DH is getting his found family :))))#The dentist doesn’t know how this happened and doesn’t dare question it (they also really like his mouth 😏)#There is also the option of Dentist that Committed Crimes!Reader x Dan Heng (Not srs)#Dan heng just is whipped for people who (hopefully) know what they are doing regardless of what it is.#Please he needs a partner with a brain cell so that he can be a brainless **** and ****** ********#DH: “Free them they did nothing wrong :(“#Random Offical: “They literally killed 2 preceptors”#DH who inherited DF’s habits of 1) being nerd and 2) being attracted to people who could throw him on his ass in a verbal and actual spar#He prepares a debate for the laws he knows all the loopholes to (thank you past reincarnations)#But if all else fail the Express would break them out#^ Blade is being benched for the sake of the narrative. His version of ‘being able to beat his ass’ just turns DH off 😔😔
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welt makes his daughter wear a cute butt plug btw 💗
#𝚜𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚕𝚎𝚜 ⪩⪨ .𖥔 ݁ ˖#weltie ❤︎#tw:incest#it’s starting already I fear . .#I can jus see him leaning back into a chair nd u can’t rlly make out his expression from the glare in his glasses#but u can tell he’s needy from his grip on arm rests nd how he adjusts ! !#welt tells his litl girl to turn around cuz he wants to see his little treat#‘lift it up — just like that ange . you know what to do .’#! ! then then then thennnn he makes you bend ovr so he can see da pink jewel in your litl ass#even touches ur ass cheeks and spreads em so he can da mess ur making#‘papa can’t wait to use this litl hole. jus be patient ‘#‘papa promises to be gentle . gnna stretch it with my cock#+jsjsbd!:!:$:&:&: OK M DONE
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Brb gotta just yell into the void
#GOD IM JUST#so both Q and I were under the impression we would be getting help fixing the place#almost a full week later#it’s basically just been me his elderly grandma and him when hes not working#which is very little time since he’s full time#I have been working on this place from basically sunrise to sunset#doing what I can to make it clean and repaint#but I can’t do most repairs#mainly what the bathroom needs#but today#ooooooo today#Q’s parents are getting on our nerves man#we’ve been trying to explain that the bathroom is not functional in it’s current state#and instead of Q’s father#the landlord of this place who decided keeping it while living two and a half hours away was a smart idea#helping to fix said bathroom#says he’d rather work on the living room floor which is the lowest priority#and when we expressed this to them#his mother goes#if you don’t like it you can go live somewhere else#EXCUSE ME#I have literally been spending all the time I can trying to fix up YOUR place for you two#to the point where I am now coming down with a cold and my lowing back is killing me#where Q is sacrificing every free moment he has trying to do what he can while working a full time job#and THIS is the thanks we get???????#what the hell#anyway they’re coming tomorrow but Q has work so I am going to cry#I am so exhausted and stressed if they pull some shit I might just do something I shouldn’t#I want this to be over#the second were able to afford a house we’re getting the hell out of here
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turned my boy into a marketable plushie
[ID: four photos of a handmade plush of an original stylised Flatland character named Atlas. Atlas is a light grey isosceles triangle with dark grey scars on his side and eye, one eye, black limbs and a black tail.
In the first image he is sat down on a bed with floral bedsheets and white pillows. He is directly facing the camera.
In the second image he is sat on the bed beside a ginger cat who is looking at the camera.
In the third and fourth images he is laid down flat on a green rug. His back is to the rug in the third image and his back is to the camera in the fourth image.
End ID].
#my son ! (and my sons in the second pic i can’t leave socks out <3)#the concept / pattern doodles of this was so funny looking back bc there’s a note beside it that says ‘probably easy’#guess what. it was Not easy#i bought one of those handheld sewing machines bc u don’t have an actual one and i just. cba to figure out how to use it#bc i dont*#so he’s completely hand-sewn and my hand hurts so bad#i had the absolute worst period of my life while i was making him and it meant that i was housebound BUT also that i got to work on him-#-continuously#only took like 4.5 days. i think that’s alright#also all of his limbs are bendable :]#he looks so sillay w/o his eyebrow but idk how to add it so it’ll be okay#he can have a perpetually shocked expression#welcome to the third dimension#flatland#oc#atlas huntsworth
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i think i’m art blocked bc this doesn’t look like hal to me
uncanny halley.
#dc#hal jordan#dandoodles#wip#my pencil nibs still haven’t come in the mail i’ve been having to borrow my sibling’s pencil#i think that’s what’s making me rusty#maybe i’m being too hard on myself bc looking at it i can at least tell who it’s supposed to be#but the expression is off#which i’m realizing has become a problematic trend of mine rn#his chipped tooth is making his mouth look out of balance too aghh i can’t look at this anymore#hal i love you but you’ve caused me too much grief#<- general dc statements
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God I just can’t get over how fucking good this chapter of Candela is. The storytelling is top notch and the entire cast has completely blown me away and it’s only the first episode. I thought I fell hard for last chapters characters. Little did I know what I was in for
#aabria’s DMing style fits this genre SO WELL like I’m literally on the edge of my seat most of the episode#the whole cast is amazing#Noshir especially has been such a treat to watch#his eyes are so expressive and his smile is GORGEOUS it literally radiates his whole face#and that VOICE!#fell in love with Rajan immediately lol#makes me want to play Red Dead again#also I need to see art of Elsie’s creature form#it sounds so horrifically beautiful and cool#and I can’t wait to learn more about Cordelia I LOVE her already#ball gown wearing icon#and Liam and Sam are knocking it out of the park with Oscar and Cosmo too#Cosmo’s acting in grey slate was so great 😆#and whatever Oscar and Raj have going on is delicious I’m living for the drama haha#candela obscura#critical role#candela obscura spoilers#critrole spoilers#aabria iyengar#noshir dalal#gina darling#ashly burch#liam o'brien#sam riegel
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Au where while Naruto is off getting Tsunade to be Hokage with Jiraiya, Kakashi’s in Konoha putting Sasuke and Sakura through extra tough training because his kids almost DIED and he doesn’t care if it’s largely because a friggen sannin infiltrated the exams
He’s doing everything in his power to make sure it doesn’t happen again, and you bet your butt Naruto’s joining that extra hard training with he gets back
#also instead of telling Naruto to ‘make a ball of chakra in his hand’ when he expresses annoyance at Kakashi teaching Sasuke chidori#he should flat out tell him ‘i can’t teach you chidori as you wouldn’t be aboe to use it but i can teach you something else :)’#and heing the one to start naruto on learning rasangan
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i’ve been feeling so disconnected and empty lately… the state of politics and my right to exist being debated like i have no humanity, the state of the world & war and its disregard of humanity and the astronomical suffering, my isolation in a community i feel i can’t belong in and the fact i can’t escape it because of my current physical health. the news i’ve gotten about my health this year and the uncertainty and the lack of answers. i have a mass in my thalamus that is causing neurological issues and they have no idea what it is. i have chronic pain and fatigue. i can’t plan for my future, i don’t know what is to come, i don’t know what is going to happen with this presidency. i’m just existing and feeling empty and unfulfilled. i have this sense of loneliness i can’t mend - on one hand, i feel i can only connect to others through suffering, and on the other is that whatever is in my brain is too personal to connect to anyone over. i continue to live because i don’t want to die like this. i want to know what it’s like to feel connected to my existence. i don’t think i’ve ever had that feeling and i don’t want to die as empty as i am because then it’ll feel like i never existed at all. i don’t want all that’s left of me to be the suffering i endured. and i don’t want to leave that suffering with my friends and family. so i will continue to just exist and float through my life hoping i can find a way out of this.
#on top of my existing mental health issues…#something i don’t really mention to anyone because there’s no point is that i still get nightmares#of my trauma all the time#and i have triggers i can’t avoid#sometimes i find myself making facial expressions that remind me of his and a sense of dirtiness and sick washes over me#this ugliness in me makes it hard to feel connected too#i can’t get it out
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i’m seeing relatives in a few days and they have a tendency to ask if i’ve made any new friends because i’ve moved to a new city but also i’m bad at socialising in general and i’m trying to figure out how to tell them that my best friend in the new city is a cat
#he’s my beautiful boy#he has brought me more joy than i have felt in weeks#i don’t want to rush into anything but if the person who wants to adopt him isn’t able to then. i am looking actively#my building doesn’t allow animals but i’d see what i could do because having a motivation to get out of bed is nice#usually it’s class or work as my motivation but that is making me burn out faster than a match lit at both ends so#earl might be my saving grace here#my mum is like ‘you’ll meet people who you’re comfortable with you just have to take the step to meet people’ and like. yeah true#but i also have the social battery of a flea and am just not good at socialising in general unless it’s with authority figures#but Earl is nice. hanging out with him i mean#his body language means he communicates boundaries easily and he loves just sitting and hanging out and there’s no pressure to say the right#thing or have the right body language or facial expression or worry about emoting correctly#other than keeping my body relaxed and slow blinking at him when he looks at me#(he’s started slow blinking back and i’m so excited)#i don’t have to do anything else#he’s my little buddy#i am just incredibly burnt out and don’t really have human friends here that don’t take my energy to hang out with#(like i have friends in the building but they like to drop a lot of their shit on me and we’re not close so i especially can’t handle it)#so having a companion who doesn’t drain my spoons to be around is really nice#did i cry over this today? yes.#earl the grey
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#i’m having an incredibly hard time.#and i’m trying not to burden anyone else with it because i’ve already expressed so much of my grief related feelings over the last year#but this loss in particular is so incredibly profound and arguably the most painful bc it was the least complicated or nuanced#therefore i am completely and paralyzingly distraught in ways i didn’t experience with my grandma or my sister#and that’s confusing bc on one hand i wonder if it makes me a bad person and on the other hand i just don’t even care#pet grief is something entirely different#harley was and is the most important and precious thing in my life#his love was unconditional and he gave my days structure and routine#he is still so embedded in me that i have spent every day without him so far still listening for him around the house#i don’t think i’ve ever cried this consistently and so easily every day in my life#i don’t even have to try to cry or force it at all and i wonder how long it’ll take before the automatic nature of it stops#i go to sleep crying and the minute i get out of bed i am crying before i even leave my room bc i know he won’t he outside of it#my heart is so broken i feel like i’m going to suffocate#two nights ago i ran into my mom’s room sobbing before bed bc my night time routine was suddenly shortened#i can’t go to bed without putting him to bed#i didn’t know what to do i just broke down on her bed where i would tuck him in#i don’t know how i’m going to move on from this i genuinely am at my lowest point#i am Not okay. i haven’t been okay in a really long time but this has knocked me down so hard#i don’t see myself ever getting up atp
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obsessed with the way the republican party’s two biggest platforms (pro police and anti gun control) literally led to its presidential candidate getting shot at
#now let me make it clear here and now for the feds i express no violent thoughts or intentions#i am merely critiquing the internal contradictions of the GOP and the consequences of their own beliefs#anyways it’s just very ironic like those old bastards are always talking about how we need more guns in this country#and that the police will protect us and now that’s finally catching up to them#they let a teenager with a gun into the premise there was no good guy with a gun to stop him and the police were as usual fucking cowards#if the democrats were smart they’d be using the shit out of this in their campaign and to pass some bipartisan bill#cause you know the GOP is scared that it’s gonna be one of them next#but alas that party is ran by a bunch of center right buffoons who’s only platform is getting elected#also the way the media can’t seem to figure out what this kids angle was#like you’re in the school rifle association but you fucking suck at it#you donate to the democratic party and then you register as a republican#you’re bullied in school SO YOU SHOOT THE PRESIDENT????#now the bullied in school narrative is so redundant when it comes to white male violence#but the theory that makes the most sense to me is that he was depressed and he wanted a way of going out while still being remembered#why he chose trump as his target when he fits the bill for a trump supporter idk why
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