#I am sorry anon

[ask-shane]

Why does my dad hate me

hell if i know. want some pepper poppers, kid?

won’t make up for the trauma but it’ll taste damn good!

[hersurvival]

I guess I do feel ashamed of my gross medical condition, and even worse I feel ashamed of talking about it. Like, there's a taboo about talking about gross stuff, but it really defines me (not in the sense of it takes over who I am, but it uses up so much of my energy and I do feel proud of how I deal with it). There's so much pressure to make other people feel good and be inspiring and whatnot, and it's just plain not polite to say it. I'm sick of there being so much one can't say, and then when one does say it, no one knows how to react. I hate how other people define me by the "good" things they know about, and then refuse by default to even hear, let alone help, with the "bad" stuff. It just isn't their place, they subconsciously think. But it can't be only mine?! And I know some people, with or without gross bodily stuff they have to spend all their lives taking care of, appreciate empathy or wisdom gained from it -- but those people are usually very far away. Once again, then, I'm relegated to the realm of the inspiring -- airy, far away, great, and not anyone's responsibility, let alone true love.

Anon, be gross. It's the only way people start realizing that bodies are inherently gross and we live in them, it is OKAY to talk about it.

I am a girl who will detail you gross bodily stuff with no shame. But I also like to make people uncomfortable over silly stuff.

Once again, I cannot imagine living with such a stigmatized condition that even YOU find disgusting and off-putting. But I am proud of you for (given no choice) continuing to live with it and for how you may handle it.

[dyrewrites]

What was the first major fandom you got involved in online/creatively/etc?

Ooh, fun question. I've not been 'involved' in too many fandoms, as I tend to get stuck in my own head too much for that. I am also a social mess and get distracted easily, so many community things tend to fail for me if I'm not hyper vigilant about them.

But, but, I think the obsession I fell into for Vampire the Masquerade back when that was relatively new counts? Not sure it was ever 'major', however.

I roleplayed it online with strangers and wrote a few little stories about vampires of various bloodlines. Also drew a lot of vampires because of it. Even tried to write my own roleplaying game ruleset due to how much fun I had reading all of that one. Bought the Mage and Changeling books too and drowned myself in all the crazy ways the writers played with folklore.

I watched every terrible thing made of it even (Kindred was an amusingly terrible show, or miniseries? Got my mom to watch that one with me, was hilarious), and played the buggy mess of a video game (that I still adore), but haven't kept up on changes.

Lost my interest in it when I actually played it with people in person and someone went out of their way to ruin my campaign.

But I love it to bits still, and blame it for much of my vampire obsession. It and Anne Rice's novels (which I did not fall into the fandom over, as there wasn't much of one I could access at twelve, and now I'm honestly too tired to be part of these things...but she definitely influenced me quite a bit).

[booksteaandtoomuchtv]

In your mind, what would be your ideal fanfic to find? Tropes, writing style, themes, characters, universe, and so on?

Well, that went long... I am sorry. Do you know what is worse? This is the shortened version.

Oh, I am so torn... okay, so either one where Killian is deep in his villain-era (or is Dark!Hook) and Emma falls for him (or already has fallen for him) and has to help save him from the grip of darkness. I love when broken people find one another and learn to trust each other, even as they are scared it will fall apart because they don't think they deserve happiness. For this kind of fic, I would want a lot of focus on the emotional development and thoughts of the characters. I think it would be a terrific enemies-to-lovers, forced proximity, hurt/comfort, slow burn that would break me to pieces before it resolved beautifully and happily with them on the same team and fighting together and vulnerable and so, so in love with each other.

But, also, I could go for a friends-to-lovers KillianxEmma that is as modern-day AU. I want there to be a lot of yearning, but also this comfortable friendship that has endured some shite, ya know? This one feels like it should have an only-one-bed situation. A found family. He falls first. Maybe he has even tried before and she turned him down? Maybe he was married to Milah and Emma was with Neal when they met? I could do with some false starts before they work it out. Again, this would likely be a rather emotion-focused narrative. (Which is just a reflection of my mood today, ha! I love expansive narratives, I love a distinct voice, I love when the narrator breaks the fourth wall, etc. But, apparently, today, we are seeking a bit of an emotional impact.) Again, I like when two broken people find each other and love one another's jagged pieces.

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(There is a future fic that a lovely shipmate in the CS discord is writing that also checks so, so many of my boxes, so I didn't include those here. But, if you're still hanging in there, it is shaping up to be a soulmate fic written with a snarky and delightful voice from Emma's POV. She has been cursed to be invisible until she finds her soulmate. And, I am so, so excited about it.)

[randoimago]

Sorry but did you just threaten to eat me?!

I did.

I don't like threatening things like "imma smack you." cause that makes me feel gross. So I told my brain to come up with ridiculous, but funny threats instead.

So I threaten to eat people because that's ridiculous and funny and doesn't make me sound like a psychopath at all 😅

I just phrased it as "I'll Kronos you" cause that sounds a lot more ridiculous than flat out cannibalism.

[russell-crowe]

Do you know any master&comander good fancam?

unfortunately the last time i watched fan videos was back when cascade's version of every time we touch was most commonly used. i hope that there is someone in the comments tho who is more familiar with them and who can help you out <3

[doublejango]

did you know bowling balls are just extra large jawbreakers? I can prove it! CATCH!

Blitz probably should have ducked, but he didn't. Frowning, he just caught the bowling ball when it was lobbed at his face. The imp was ridiculously strong, especially in the forearms; he dug the tips of his claws into the ball, bits of it crumbling away.

"What exactly the fuck is wrong with you?" he asked, his expression flat, his eyes angry. Blitz tossed the ball in one hand, glaring back at the person who had thrown it. He looked at them for a long moment--then grinned and tossed the ball right back at them. But almost in the same motion, he had his pistol out and the shot taken.

Throwing a bowling ball at someone's head was attempted murder. Blitz wasn't in the mood to just attempt it. Brushing his hands off, his grim expression turned to a cheerful smile.

"Never do something half-assed, bitch."

[siouxssie]

you have no cc but are you the one who posted that video grinding an enstars rank event on twt at a kpop show

Is it okay if I answer this after 3 years because I just saw it. Yeah I am

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

[udon-poodles]

I get that people in their 20s can be immature but sometimes you have to deal with a woman who is a few years away from being 60 who has both the emotional maturity and reasoning skills of a 13 year old. When said woman is also your mother things can get complicated.

It is a horrific thing 😔 the ye olden Peter Pan syndrome afflicts many

[marimbles]

Halloween comic two weeks late bc i will never let tamadrien die

[i-will-change-this-someday]

Like they said, I think he is very anxious. A lot of his actions aren’t really him trying to be dominant or something, and he is often “ready to conform to the authority and/or will of other” (google definition of “submissive”) he’s just incredibly bad at it.

He'll be like "Yes, of course your right. I will wait for you before jumping into the coffin," but of course, he goes into the coffin anyways, it's not as if he's trying to undermine the others and show his dominance, he's just gets the overwhelming need to do something that it overpowers his quote unquote submission.

I wouldn’t really say he’s arrogant though, even in season 1, he’s stuffy and uptight, but he doesn’t really give me the vibe that he thinks he’s better or more important than anyone else. The most arrogant I can think of him being is with Melanie in her first statement, but even that was more pride for the institute as a whole rather than himself specifically.

Also, I don't think Martin is the reason Jon didn't go mad in season 5. I think he would have more easily lost hope without Martin and would have just settled with the horrible new world, but he wouldn't go "mad," he wouldn't have become a sadistic fear eating monster without Martin, and I feel like saying he would discredits his character.

Also which of martin's opinions should he have taken to heart? His "let's kill all of these avatars, because they're the worst things ever and should all die!" opinion, (not acknowledging Jon is an avatar) or his "let's send all of the literal eldritch horrors to another dimension, because I decided the Web isn't actually that bad, right?" opinion? Jon didn't take Martin's opinions into account because Martin didn't understand the full scope of things like Jon did.

I'm honestly a bit confused by the last part, While I do think Jon's relationship with control is a very interesting thing to explore, I don't really think Jon is ever trying to control others, or even a situation, just that he is in control of himself, so I don't know how relying on Martin would help.

Sorry for the long ask, but I need to get this out of my chest. Do really people think Jon is a submissive poor baby??

He's the most dominant character in the whole show. He acts in the way he thinks it's right, without (mostly) asking for advice or permission. He fucks up a lot because of this (and because he doesn't take other's people feelings into consideration). Other characters with dominant personalities (like Melanie!) accuse him of being an asshole even when it's not deserved because they perceive him as an authority figure. He takes decisions=he takes responsibility.

It doesn't mean he doesn't get tricked by Jonah, or influenced in other ways, still he perceives them as his choices. He feels guilty about things he has no control on because he feels he needs to have control of any situation. Jon's biggest flaw is that he's arrogant.

Also,

the power imbalance between Jon and Martin isn't because Martin is a little bit of an asshole (??) it's because Jon is literally a supernatural creature and the only reason he didn't go mad in Season 5 it's because he loves Martin. Still, he clearly doesn't take Martin's opinion into account most of the time, he mostly sees him as someone to protect. Again, putting himself in an authority role, they are not equal in the relationship.

Martin's character arc finishes with his relationship with Jon, his character is completely fulfilled by it, while Jon is doing his shit and he needs Martin just because he chooses to. It would be so interesting to see their relationship grow. Jon learns that he doesn't need to be always in control and he can rely on Martin. Martin learns how to love himself -through Jon's loving him- and how to build meaningful relationships with other people, knowing that he's loved even when he isn't a perfect sweet baby. 🗣️

Ooo I like what youre saying. Yea. I do think Jons somewhat submissive when he gets backlash for his actions sort of in a 'Better to beg for forgiveness than to ask for permission' kind of way if that makes sense. With scenes where hes confronted hell stand up for himself a bit before agreeing and going along with wtv ppl say. Idk if that makes sense and Im misremembering some things but yea - rosette

sorry nonny & rosette i misread that question for a second . but i agree w/rosette ! jon's generally very anxious when it comes to backlash and he'll do what he can to avoid it / avoid confrontation . etc etc . yeag - deceit

[mountmasns]

You Liverpool fans sing homophobic songs every time against Chelsea. Please don’t talk like your fanbase are angels 🥰

Football fans in general are toxic but you have to single out Chelsea every time.

And I am not defending that section of fans. I always call out their bs.

Chelsea fans on Twitter are insulting people from Liverpool, not only players. I have seen numerous tasteless jokes by pretty big accounts encouraging them.

Chelsea has the most toxic Twitter fanbase. Big accounts that y’all engage with daily shit on your own players in the name of banter even when you guys see how it’s effecting players mental and emotional health.

[cmgirlie]

me and my fellow sickos: is it weird that we keep writing punk as a strict bottom in all our fics

us: naaaah

anon on the kinkmeme: yes it is

[egophiliac]

What do you like about the Diasomnia boys if I may ask?

I always love hearing about the different reasons people enjoy characters.

I mean, c'mon. he has split custody over Sebek okay

also, Lilia in particular has maybe the best timeskip character development of all time

[skrs-cats]

set after leafpool dies, before the bonus scene w jayfeather dealing w that grief gets resolved. guess who was bitter over a certain cardboard character bitch not being included in that

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