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#soft apples#i would rather starve than eat that shit extremely accurate previous tags -- also overripe bananas
whats the worst fruit everyone please sound off
#I am not normally a food-texture-issues person#but that's my primary problem with overripe bananas#'slime and goo' is not really something I'm seeking in my gastronomical experiences#I love banana bread though so it all works out OK in the end
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Will never forget being a kid and telling someone i was south african only to have them ask:
"Did you have clothes in africa?"
"Had you ever had a bath before coming to Australia?"
"Did you live in a house with walls and bricks?"
Like. Yeah, I guess we were 8... But also i feel like a lot of people's understanding of "Africa" has never really progressed past that point.
#its why i get so like... tetchy about generalisations regarding africa#like. its one thing if people are like. have you ever seen a lion in the wild. cos like. for aussies you do just see the wildlife loose#but some people 100% uncritically view africa as a backwater with everyone living in tribal societies#like we dont have skyscrapers too#like the poorest countries in the world have high rises and skyscrapers...#like yeah there is abject poverty too. and its poor person poverty not white person poverty. like poverty poverty#but that doesnt mean that the people arent.... human...?? yknow?#idk ive just dealt with a lot of very dehumanising attitudes#also im white so i had a very priveliged upbringing but when kids asked those questions i was IMMEDIATELY intimately aware that they saw me#as lesser#i wasnt a peer to them. i was beneath them. i probably hunted my own food and didnt know what a supermarket was#but yeah. being “from africa” brings interesting baggage i tell ya#lets just say that your parents playing the “kids starving in africa” card is *a lot* more effective#esp in my case bc my family was very poor in ZAR and food was always a bit of a touchy subject#when ur parents are skipping meals so you can eat and you have the misfortune of being a bit fussy... yeah...#yeah. you dont really get to have sensory issues with food. like my parents relented and let me skip peas and corn bc they would make me#have astronomical meltdowns. but like. other foods i had problems with too but they were 6/10 bad instead of 10/10 bad#so i just had to learn to eat them anyway and mask my emotional reactions.#im still trying to unlearn this. i still feel so guilty when i struggle with a texture and leave food on my plate.#and im still learning to be okay with having certain foods be like absolute no-go's without feeling foolish or childish about it#didnt even realise i had the coriander soap gene at first cos i am not unfamiliar with eating things even if my body says NOOO#anyway. long tangent. but the whole “you could be living in poverty right now” thing instead is... its like the parent nuke#i remember i got so offended once when my friend said that he hated being Australian and complained about what was bad with it#and like. he had points. Australias not perfect. but i have Immigrant Baggage and so complaining about Australia is also like...#idk like. i could be living in south africa. im pretty stoked to be here..#so my brain cant be normal about it. and im also paranoid about people thinking im a bad immigrant for having problems with Australia etc
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TRANSAuDHD TiPS (from a cisAuDHD)
For all you TransAutisticADHD out there :3
SENSORY ISSUES
I personally use many types of aids for that such ad chewelry (jewelry made for chewing), fidget toys, specific clothing, weightened blankets, etc!
For the fidget toys, I personally carry around a side bag (themed of my special interests) full of many different kinds of fidget toys!
I also wear fidget kandi around :3
As for specific clothing try and wear the same clothing (especially if they are deemed as "comfy" by the general public) as MUCH as possible while still being clean. People will start to notice at some point
Also try selecting a few specifc groups of food to be deemed as "safe" and others to be deemed as "unsafe". Many of us autistics also have or were priorly diagnosed with ARFID so keep that in mind :)
On the topic of that, OVERSTIMULATION!!! As you may have heard EVERYONE goes through this so try and listen to your body more, and when you find out what overstim feels like to you, try and act out more openly frustrated and irritated at the slightest overstimulation!
BURNOUTS are also an inherent part of autism and ADHD, allistics and neurotypicals also go trought this but for us autistics it takes even longer to heal (around 3 to 5 years) so do what you will with that information :3
When I'm in a burnout I feel basically depressed and with no energy ever!
Also choose some textures, sounds, etc to be your triggers for sensory issues!
Also don't forget your headphones, and other things that cancel noises!
SOCIAL DEFICIT
i am really REALLY awkward irl
Try to change your mindset to take things as literally as possible ever
Stop being as interested in other people's lifes unless they are part of/your spin/hyperfix
Try to speak as fast as possible when excited and not to have a normal tone whenever you feel like it
Try to imitate a character's or someone's speech patterns if you can, that's common among autistic children specially
Don't have MANY (2 to 3 max) friends if you're looking for validation or a diagnosis
Don't talk much without referencing your spin (special interest)
If you also wanna change your mindset, try and think deeply and obsesses and research and ONLY care abouy your chosen spin/hyperfix
Adhd also makes the person have mental Hyperactivity which makes you thinks fast and with issues such as messy thinking
MORE TIPS
Bad sleeping habits such as insomnia are very commong among AuDHDers
Try to have someone help you with you bADLS and iADLS (basic/instrumental activities of daily life)
Research about autistic individuals experiences (tumblr is the best place I've seen)
Don't get upset if you ever slip, it's ok transition isn't linnear!
Any other questions send me an adk or a dm!!!!
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THE THREAD I HAVE BEEN PROCRASTINATING ON FOR A WHILE!!!
murderface’s autistic traits
because i see a lot of people talking about toki, skwisgaar, and nate’s autistic traits but never murderface.,,,
under the cut
one of the more obvious traits is his interest in war history and macabre things, which definitely seems like a special interest. it takes up his WHOLE ROOM, and the only time we see him taking a vacation is for a war reinactment. it is basically the only thing we see him have any interest in outside of dethklok and other music endeavors (which he does not seem to be that interested in even) he is genuinely PASSIONATE for history.
his gullibility is definitely overplayed for jokes but to me it reads as an extremely obvious autistic trait. for example , the firecracker scene. that scene just screams autistic to me. the way he just never realizes that he should STOP trusting them and keeps on bending down? yeah.
one of the less obvious things that I notice is his pickiness with foods. also a joke and definitely tied to extreme internalized homophobia, but it just seems like something that most neurotypical people would not go to the lengths to defend. yes I know that he does eat a hot dog in doublebookedklok but who says autism people cannot be hypocrites, I know I am lol. also just a headcanon of mine that he is sensitive to foods and sticks to foods he is comfortable with + knows well, seems to be pretty canon compliant too.
something i notice is how he does seem to understand some social norms, but not fully. and even the ones he does understand, he does not care to follow. for me as an autistic person that is something I heavily relate to. It is hard to follow the social norms you do understand when you have no reason to, and you have never had them explained to you. murderface was just treated as a problem kid his entire life so of course he just sticks with it instead of trying to work on his attitude.
kind of reaching but autistic people are more likely to experience depression and other mental illnesses, something that murderface definitely deals with. he also shows symptoms in less typical was, tied in with his anger issues. i think his anger issues could also be compared to how he was never taught to deal with his emotions, and also combine with autistic meltdowns of the sort. basically all of his issues just are worsened by his autistic traits.
SPELLING!!! i know this is just something that shows he is uneducated, which makes sense as he (in the shoe, NOT the comics) grew up in the south (probably in poverty) and never cared for school, but it also could have been heightened by his trouble learning new concepts. he very easily could have been pushed away by the fact that no one understood how to be patient with him and teach him in a way he understood, an experience lots of autistic people face.
the way murderface talks to people, he rarely knows how to act when he is not complaining or insulting people, which definitely ties into the lack of social skills. he also seems to not be able to tell when people are joking, or read emotional subtleties.
with how he tries to be a “gentleman” around ladies, it definitely shows how he does not know how to act outside of stereotypes and what he has been taught, almost like he is following a script.
HYGIENE. a big thing for autistic people. i know some people who are extreme near freaks and very very cautious with hygiene, as for me and others,,, not caring at all. i think it is obvious murderface falls into the second category, he does not CARE about hygiene and frankly, does not want to. we seen him showering in one scene so I think he is capable of doing self-care oriented things, but maybe it is hard for him to start, or he is uncomfortable with it in most occasions.
we???? Have never seen him wear pants? Like never. Even when wearing suits he has never worn pants. Definitely a sensory thing and NOT NORMAL?? just something subtle but texture in clothing is definitely a big thing with sensory issues.
headcanons
ahem ahem,,, we never see him in any shoes with shoelaces so I like to headcanon that he either never learned how to tie his shoes, or if he did, he is very bad at it and it takes him a while, so he is embarrassed to tie his shoes in front of anyone.
i also like to think he makes a lot of references to old TV shows (see my murderface agere post) and got a lot of his ideas of what “masculinity” is from those. i assume he shaped his worldview around fiction and what he learned from history, which resulted in a really warped perspective.
that is all for now!! i will probably add onto this later!! ^_^ byebye!
#metalocalypse#mtl#murderface#william murderface#metalocalypse headcanons#headcanons#character analysis#Metalocalypse analysis#William murderface character analysis#William murderface analysis#Metalocalypse character analysis#autistic characters
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Hi pooks, me again lmao
Can I request More Than Anything (letter from a character of your choice) with Alastor ? Romantic????
Likes: Cheese, Snakes, Anime, Stuffed Animals, fruit, Theatre, pretzels, pasta, long hot baths, dark chocolate, sour candy, music, daydreaming, kangaroos
Dislikes: all of the Vees, vegetables, odd textured foods, Sherpa, paper straws, people yelling at me
Personality: I'm a very goofy silly person, with kind of a dirty/dark sense of humor. I have abandonment issues and am very very possessive. As in someone called my friend a whore and I had to be held back by three people, possessive. Once I find someone I like, it's basically I stay calm around them, and test the waters. I'm kinda flirty with my friends too. Once I figure out where I stand with them, I'm my normal weird crazy self.
Hobbies: Crying, drawing, reading, listening to music, day dreaming, theatre
Shenanigans: I said a pizza I made had down syndrome, rolled around and chased people in a colorful tube thingy. moaned as a joke, and didn't know the principal was behind me. Fell off a table from laughing.
Also mutuals?? If not that's fine tho :333 ty schnookums
heyy!! ofc i can do that for you, although it won’t be too romantic, as i’m starting to grow more iffy about writing alastor in that way, i’ve always tried to make my works for him pretty neutral, so their able to be read by both people who read for him romantically and platonically (other than the marriage hc series), cuz honestly i’ve been thinking about it cause like i write for vaggie and angel based off of their sexualities (gn! or male! readers for angel and gn! or fem! for vaggie) and it feels disrespectful to the aroace community to not do the same for al yk?
that doesn’t mean my writing for alastor will go to a halt, it just means that the content of him may grow less romantic, by how much idk yet
also yes, i’m down to be moots haha, always looking for someone new to talk to on tumblr :)
My dear doe,
Absence truly does make the heart grow fonder, so I’ve noticed, and because of that I must say I’m eager for your return back home!
I have a lot planned for us, and your darling face, I’m positive you’ll enjoy it!
Please come to my room at eight, sharp, in your best clothes. I’ve planned a splendid night out on the town!
Yours Truly,
Alastor ❣️
#hazbin hotel#mio’s writing ! ☆#hazbin hotel x reader#x reader#hazbin hotel x y/n#hazbin hotel x you#fanfiction#x y/n#x you#alastor x y/n#alastor x you#alastor the radio demon#hazbin alastor#alastor hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel alastor#alastor x reader#alastor#THE SHOW MUST GO ON *+:。.。 300 celly
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Hello!! I want to ask you something, do you have thoughts about how Kuairumi wedding would animate? Because I'm so rooting for them and I can't even wait to see them together 😩♥️💛✨
Hi Meme!!
Thanks for the ask! I'm honoured that you, @orbitinytheworld and @thedragonholder want to hear my thoughts on this wedding!
Dragon already blessed us with her thoughts and it made my day that she used my take on Harumi's clan as inspo!
You guys are all amazing and I feel so flattered right now!!🥹💕
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Now for starters, I hope I don't offend anyone by saying that I am sooooo glad their wedding won't be looking like this:
Cause look, it might be just my hating on S1 Invasions, but I truly think this wedding looks like shit.💀
From the (non-existent) decoration to the wedding gowns, everything looks so plain and boring, there's no colour, texture, volume or personality, there's NOTHING here that screams Kuai and Harumi! I hope I'm not offending anyone with this, but from the bottom of my heart, I HATE how this wedding looks🤦🏾♀️
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With that out of the way:
Let's talk about the new wedding!
For once, we got our first official look on the brand new Fire Gardens and NOW WE'RE TALKING!
Seriously, just look at it!
I don't know if that's it's normal look of if it has been specially decorated for the wedding, but either way, it's great!
Look at the scorpion tails on the roof! The fabrics hanging, the rug, the lanterns and textured floor!
Look at all the golden pieces and candles surrounded by flowers! THE FREAKING FLOWEEEEERS!!!
Oh! And these statues! Can we talk about them? These are just like the statues found on the Wu Shi Academy, and I SO hope they are of the Elder Gods! Cause then it means we are one step closer to the Order of Cetrion! :O
We also got to see Kuai's gown too!
SO MUCH BETTER! It has texture, depth, details, and it actually feels like Kuai Liang (I mean, the Invasions gown even got people mistaking him for Bi-Han :P)
I still feel it's a bit too simple for his grand day, but it has potential (plus, I strongly believe he had some extra layers on that he discarded once he had to engage in combat)
We are yet to see Harumi (;-;) but Kuai's new vest does make me hopeful!
And look, you may argue that the Invasions gowns were traditional japanese/chinese gowns, but this kinda leads me to my next issue:
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Kuai and Harumi are fictional characters from fictional clans and are more than allowed to have fictional lore!
Heck! I'll give you some of my own lore right now, so bare with me!
Kuai descends from dragons and Cryomancy and Pyromancy are different outcomes from a same source of power! Meanwhile Harumi is a warrior of Cetrion and her clan protects nature!
Imagine what you can draw from it!
Kuai gets to wear a gown with texture that resembles scales and an overcoat that resembles wings! Harumi wears a dress with a white to light pink gradient, on the overcoat a beautiful hand-painted landscape of a cherry blossom forest and her hair adorned with golden pins and flowers!
Her bouquet made by Kuai to show he's finally learning flower language after years struggling with it!
Kuai: *hands Harumi a bouquet of tansy*
Harumi, teasing: Are you declaring war against me?
Kuai: wHAT???
I want more lore! And more unique traditions! Clothing, dances, rituals, food!
Be creative, NRS!
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Back to Canon again.
First of all, I got to see Shirai Ryu warriors (Raiden included) and Wu Shi warriors fighting the Cyber Girls. Very cool, very nice!
Now where are Harumi's warriors??
I find it hard to believe they weren't invited! So where are they? What do they look alike?
Please tell me they are all women and they don't all dress black with a singular piece of coloured fabric to tell them apart.
NRS, you were more creative than that... right? (ಠ_ಠ)
Also, you did invite the Umgadi, right NRS? Cause Harumi was one of them and now Kuai is their ally.
Kuai invited his allies, the Wu Shi. So Harumi invited her allies, the Umgadi. Correct?
Tanya is Harumi's old friend and now is her maid of honour, yes?
Yeah, thought so! Don't you guys love when NRS is creative? I sure do!😊
Now, to wrap this all up!
@thedragonholder suggested in her post that Bi-Han secretly attended the wedding and that ended up with him being caught by Titan Havik!
I absolutely LOVED that idea! But allow me to add:
What if Bi-Han told Cyrax and Sektor he was going to the wedding but he never got there cause Havik intercepted him first?
He never got too warn the girls and they think the Shirai Ryu had him captured the moment they spot him!
And that's why they decided to invade the wedding!
One big misunderstanding, it's on brand for MK, really :P
Kuai and Harumi manage to prove they got nothing to do with Bi-Han’s disappearance and begrudgingly they decide to help look for him because "he's a jerk and I'm still mad at him, but if he's really in danger than I won't just stand here and let him get hurt😑"
And that's how the whole adventure starts for them!
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Sooooo, yeah! Those are my thoughts so far! I really enjoyed brainstorm it all and I hope you enjoy reading it all just as much!
Gang, any thoughts, additions and theories? Please I'd love to talk more about it!!👀💙🩷
@mikka-minns @madamealtruist @moody-bloos
#the shirai ryu is looking great#i already loved their hazbin hotel vibes#but now their looks had me SOLD#kuai liang#harumi shirai#kuairumi#kuairumi wedding#shirai ryu#mk1#mk1 khaos reigns#order of cetrion#umgadi girls au#and also some canon#as a treat
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Identity(V) Headcanons: Luca Balsa
Next up!
Again, I am new to the IDV fandom, and I have never played the game, so these headcanons are informed by my ongoing lore dives sourcing the wiki, japanese twitter responses, comics, stageplay, and more! Some of these may relate to or even contradict character backstory, and some of them are just pure vibes for me. If you like it, consider shooting a request ;)
-So to start, I personally headcanon that Luca initiated the fight that led to the electrical accident. He’s always been hot-headed and impulsive, especially in regard to the source of his pride. I don’t think he intended for the confrontation with Alva to end anywhere near the way it did, but I do think he felt a good shove or two were well-warranted when he found out "his" ideas were being stolen. It’s when Alva fought back a little too viciously that the accident happened—and it well and truly was an accident. Not that it matters much when the only survivor doesn’t remember the event at all.
-He has headaches regularly, and terrible migraines at least once a week. He’s yet to find a way to relieve the migraines and, even worse, they are typically followed by an episode of more intense amnesia. Under normal circumstances, Luca’s memory problems are manageable. He doesn’t remember the accident, and there are massive blackouts in the memories beyond it, but on the average day he only struggles with small details of more recent events. During these post-migraine episodes, though, he completely loses all context for where he is, what he is doing, and who the people around him are. Most of the time, the important bits come back…but not always.
-Forgotten memories are also sometimes sporadically triggered by something mundane. A word, a texture, a sound, and suddenly he’s frozen stock-still in the face of a one-person cinematic viewing. By the time he turns to tell someone about it, though, the memory is gone again.
-To try to combat these issues, Luca keeps notebooks stashed everywhere. He writes down anything that might be important, as well as anything sentimental. The obvious issue with this, however, is that he doesn’t always remember where he keeps these notebooks.
-Despite his memory problems, his personality is largely in-tact. He maintains a lot of gentlemanly mannerisms and is cordial, if not outright friendly, to just about everyone he meets. Generally, he’s only “rude” in the sense that his attention tends to shift very abruptly.
-He’s the sort of person who appreciates variety. In people, food, scenery, just about everything. Part of why he gets along with so many people is because he can genuinely appreciate all manner of skillsets and hobbies. Likewise, to be a friend to him you only need to show appreciation for his work; understanding is not a requirement.
-It’s canon that he dislikes noise, but enjoys music. These might seem like clashing sentiments, but what it really comes down to is expected noise. Music can be relaxing, inspiring, rush-inducing! It holds your mind’s hand and hurries it along its thoughtful way. JUST noise is…chaotic, distracting, and sometimes startling. Plus, Luca likes being able to hum along while he works.
-It’s common to be static-zapped if you touch him. Long-term contact can even cause your hair to start standing on end. Unfortunately, it isn’t something he can control, so just be prepared to deal with it.
-The best Love Language to give Luca is Quality Time. He can honestly work with pretty much all of them, but Quality Time checks multiple boxes—especially if you’re good with parallel play. For one, he gets so busy with his work that it sometimes makes him feel guilty for neglecting the people he cares about. If you’re comfortable just hanging around his space, doing your own thing while he does his, it’s easier for him to check in with you between the erratic come-and-go of his thoughts. Those small bits of time add up, and he feels much better about his workaholic nature. Second, the more you permeate his memory, the less likely he feels he is to forget you. One of the few things he doesn’t struggle to remember is himself, his own name, and if you’re always there maybe it’ll be the same for you.
-He has trouble balancing his priorities. He often foregoes food, sleep, hygiene, and even his loved ones in favor of working on his invention. Sometimes he’s so absorbed in it that he doesn’t even understand the weight of hurtful decisions, but even when he does, he’d find it difficult to change.
-It’s also never impossible for the emotions that caused the accident to rear their head again. If someone were ever to intentionally sabotage Luca’s work or unapologetically steal his ideas, he may very well lash out with violence. Even if it were an accident, there’s no guarantee he wouldn’t be enraged.
-Luca has no idea what he’d do with himself if he ever did finish his invention. The guilt he feels for what may-have-happened is confused and warped, and he keeps it buried beneath his weighty obsession with the one thing he’s never forgotten…but if it were ever to be out of the way, Luca might be consumed by darkness.
#idv#identity v#luca balsa#idv prisoner#idv x reader#luca balsa x reader#turbulentscrawl#identity v x reader
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f1sh and chips headcanons?
IVE BEEN PREPARING FOR THIS MOMENT MY WHOLE LIFE
HARMONY:
Nonbinary and kinda indifferent on their gender. Goes by She/They. Doesn't really care if you use other pronouns for them tho.
Aromantic and a lesbian. Is still ok with labeling a relationship as dating even if she doesn't experience romantic love the same way as other people.
Autistic, and doesn't always function super well as an adult on her own. But she's doing her best.
Collects stuffed animals and small toys.
Likes cute things, but some people would label their definition of cute as weird.
Loves bright colors. Crank that saturation up!
Very blunt.
Gets along pretty well with her bandmates. They aren't SUPER close but they are friends.
Knows she is different. Doesn't care. It probably used to bother them more when they were younger, but now she has come to terms with it.
House is very messy.
People are just drawn to her, she doesn't particularly like it.
A lot of people think that because she is blunt and speaks her mind that she doesn't ever lie and take everything she says at face value. He is very capable of lying and will do so for various reasons if needed. Or sometimes just cuz spreading misinformation is funny. Will tell you the sky is bright green with no hesitation and a deadpan expression.
Depressed. Is on medication for it and handles it ok ish...
Video game addict. You can usually find her at home in her pajamas playing some new game surrounded by empty instant ramen cups.
Mostly enjoys creative or cute games like pokemon, animal crossing, or minecraft. Doesn't play them often, but she is the absolute best at fighting games. Could beat anyone blindfolded. Is good at a lot of hard games, but doesn't really like that kind of stuff.
Plays a lot of things as they come out and probably has a blog where she reviews them.
Knows every skip and speedrun strat ever.
Likes platformers, especially 2d ones.
Collects old nintendo consoles/games.
Stims a lot with any object nearby. Likes to play with her bracelets a lot. Will just pick up random things and fidget with them.
Seems to be tired a lot, has bags under her eyes. Stays up late a lot but doesn't mind the lack of energy.
Very clumsy and has poor motor controls for a lot of things. Has to take frequent breaks when playing games or music. Gets hurt a lot bumping into random objects.
Issues with her wrists have been a problem for most of her life due to her hobbies, and she is surprisingly good at taking care of them nowadays. Used to not care but then some serious injuries happened and she realized she couldn't afford to do that.
DEDF1SH:
Bigender! He/She/They probably. Would maybe be open to neos if he found the right ones.
Demiromantic, Bi, and Asexual. Both Acht and Harmony are aspec(not for any reason what no i'm not biased as an aroace person noooo-)
When first getting out of the metro he was VERY malnourished and had a hard time eating food. He has a lot of texture issues and finds most foods unbearable to put in her mouth.
Has since gained her weight back and is looking more healthy.
Is very sensitive to sunlight, and burns very easily even in normal weather with minimal exposure. This is part of the reason she spends so much time alone indoors.
Eyes are also very sensitive to light after being sanitized and living in the deep for so long. This is why he wears sunglasses everywhere.
Is also autistic like harmony. (again, as an autistic person i am in no way biased towards headcanoning characters as autistic ok?) Is sensitive to sounds and wears noise canceling headphones a lot.
Goes nonverbal if overstimulated.
Doesn't talk that much, is more the type to say as few words as possible to get their sentence across.
Likes eating cereal with no milk. It's one of their favorite snacks.
LOVES fruit. They are that meme of the person covered in mango juice.
Just like harmony, his face isn't very expressive. But while harmony always looks like she's daydreaming, Acht often looks angry. This is especially true when she has her glasses on since you can't see her eyes.
Really likes fashion. Likes very femme alternative stuff specifically.
Is already naturally tall, and wears heels everywhere. Towers over most other octolings/inklings.
There are many lasting effects from the sanitization. Including physical and mental symptoms. Acht is slowly recovering tho!
Can play piano, just doesn't. Doesn't remember where they learned to, but it makes them feel slightly sad to play it.
Has amnesia due to the sanitization. Can remember things like skills, but not where they learned them or from who. Doesn't remember much of her past. Doesn't remember much family or friends either. Can picture some blurry faces, but not names or how they knew each other.
Tartar told her about her decision to be sanitized, and she has no choice but to have taken his word for why she decided to due so as she has no memory of it.
Has a hard time adjusting to life on the surface.
Has some trauma surrounding medical equipment, and doesn't like to go to doctors.
I've always Acht having known Marina before coming to the surface, but with Side Order confirming they know each other somehow i will wait to flesh that out until we get more info.
Is confident and somewhat social(especially compared to Harmony) but needs a lot of time to recharge their batteries after being around others.
ParuF1sh:
They both like to make music, and often make silly little songs together. Acht likes to take whatever Harmony hums and turn it into short songs.
Both of them don't sleep much. Harmony doesn't like to because she prefers to spend her time on hobbies n such instead. She also has insomnia, but since she doesn't like sleeping it doesn't really bother her TOO much. Acht on the other hand has issues sleeping due to frequent nightmares. She ends up having terrifying nightmares of her time with tartar or things she can't fully remember from before she was sanitized. Harmony is always there to comfort him when he wakes up sweating and frightened.
Both of them are very picky about food and so their pantries end up being stuffed with lots of their prefered safe foods.
Acht tries to push himself to leave his apartment in splatsville from time to time to avoid being totally disconnected from the world because that's what she did when she first got to the surface and it made her very depressed. On one of those trips Acht ended up visiting Hotlantis because he was just exploring various shops. He really liked the vibes of the shop and the wide variety of items that rotated frequently had him coming back. This is where the two of them first met.
At first Harmony and Acht didn't even notice each other despite Acht becoming a regular to come buy and look at weird little items. But eventually after having to check Acht out so many times she finally started to pay attention to what Acht was buying and noticed they had similar tastes. Then one day Harmony struck up a conversation with Acht and they became friends from there.
I think they are both poly and wouldn't mind if their partner dated someone else. But neither of them have another partner right now.
While they both may struggle with a lot of things they help each other out and manage to get through life ok.
It took a bit for Acht to get back to making music after getting out of the metro.
They like to watch ghibli movies while cuddling for a lot of their dates. They will watch all of them and then just start over with the first one again. I think the movies are comfort media for them. Harmony's favorite movie is Spirited Away and Acht's favorite is Kiki's Delivery Service.
Acht chills with Harmony's fish a lot i think.
Neither of them know how to cook.
Harmony leaves her work spaces very messy, but Acht keeps hers VERY neat.
Acht and Harmony both take surprisingly long to get ready and pick out outfits, but Acht takes much longer than Harmony.
They do a lot of parallel play where they just sit in silence and do their own thing.
Acht hangs out at Hotlantis with Harmony a lot and just keeps their headphones on and chills.
Acht also runs the store when Harmony isn't there.
They both listen to a lot of video game osts and it's probably what Harmony keeps playing in the store as well.
Acht has asked why Harmony doesn't stream playing games, and Harmony just doesn't wanna. She would rather just post reviews.
They swap whos the little spoon depending on the day.
Both of them have terrible sleep schedules.
The first time Acht ever saw a splatfest she was enamored, and now she makes sure to always attend the concerts. Harmony insists on keeping the store open since people are everywhere during splatfests and love to shop. But the floats come through the same streets as the shop, so Acht makes sure to pull her away to watch them at least once. And Harmony loves seeing the music as well.
Neither of them really participate in turf wars. Acht is older than most players and finds it awkward to team up with random teenagers but isn't willing to put together an official team of players her age. But she still likes to take her trusty squiffer out to the practice range to keep her skills sharp. Harmony LOVES to watch her practice.
I was about to go into a whole thing of which team they would pick for each splatfest and why, but i think thats gonna have to be later/if anyone asks for it cuz it may be too long for this post lol
so yeah ill end it there for now. they are my beloveds and i could talk about them forever so feel free to ask questions/send in suggestions/talk about how you view them
here is a goofy doodle i did in 5 mins on my laptop for compensation for reading this far:
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oo I was wondering if maybe the brothers in your AU would have different levels of food anxiety? Honestly I was thinking mostly Raph, considering he's the oldest, largest (at least body weight wise it seems?) and probably expends the most energy taking care of his brothers and doing most of the chores when he was younger.
Probably especially bad that Leo could bully food from any one else and get away with it, and sounds like he might've picked on Raph most in that regard, or if Leo took Donnie or Mikey's food Raph was more willing to split or even give his portions away.
That's assuming Splinter even fed them, which considering the "timeout corner" they might have had to forage for food more than once.
Because like I was thinking about the dynamic between Raph and Casey and how Raph's food anxiety could be what helped drive him to make sure Casey had at least some food (he knows how much it sucks and doesn't want someone else to be stuck like that) and how Casey could have a big impact on Raph if he helped Raph to have a more stable source of food/ate enough.
<- also kinda related thoughts. Raph might be smaller in your version because he didn't get all the nutrition he needed growing up so his height/size is stunted? Also maybe why Leo is the tallest (favourite child privileges?). Hunger might have also helped drive Raph to try running away?
<- I could definitely see Mikey and/or Donnie having food anxiety too, with either food hoarding or getting aggressive when they think someone will steal their food? Or fast eating.
<- Basically I am ROTATING THEM IN MY HEAD!!
OHHHH this is an ask i have so much personal investment in because here’s a Not Super Secret fact about me, I’ve got Avoidant restrictive food intake disorder! And (partially because of that) I starved a lot as a kid! BASICALLY me and all my siblings have weird relationships to food so I am FULLY committed to making these guys relationships with food weird as well.
Splinter DOES feed them, in that there is FOOD in the HOUSE which is EDIBLE. He doesn’t really cook for them, though. Raph’s been cooking for them since he was old enough to take on that job, though he mostly made easy stuff at first like sandwiches/soup/noodles/uncooked vegetables.
So lets go through each turtle and look at how things turned out, why dont we?
Leo: Leo has the least food issues of them all. To him, it’s more like a status thing. If he wants something, he’ll take it. It doesn’t matter if there’s only enough soup for them to each have one bowl, he’ll have two if he feels like it. He does it because he knows he can get away with it, and because it’s been normalized. It doesn’t feel like a huge issue/violation to him.
Mikey: Mikey binges/eats food as fast as possible. He doesn’t wanna give anyone the chance to take it from him. He’s the least discerning and will eat stuff even if it’s kind of rotten/stale. He doesn’t have the self restraint to hoard food, he’d just eat it all immediately. Mikey gets reasonably aggressive about his food, but wouldn’t actually hurt his brothers (except maybe Leo) to get it back. then again his brothers (except leo) typically wouldn't take it from him anyway.
Donnie: Donnie has a ton of texture issues and because of that he’s a picky eater, he’s starved the most second only to Raph, because even when there IS food he can’t always get himself to eat it. he’s more used to the pain of starvation than the disgust of eating something with a Bad Texture
(shoutout to MYSELF. I was really out here dying as a 12 year old, huh? Fully eating 1 sandwich a day and crying about it cause the bread felt gross and dry in my mouth.)
Donnie is prone to hoarding food, but keeps it hidden in various places because if Leo thought Donnie had more food than him, he’d try to steal it. So Donnie keeps his stashes secret, but will share food if he thinks the others REALLY need it. Because Donnie can only eat specific kinds of food, he’s very aggressive about protecting his food from others. But he can’t beat Leo in a fight, so he usually resorts to hiding the food.
Donnie has slight cannibalistic urges because of all that (and cause he’s a softshell lol), but it’s not a huge issue and he’d never act on them cause the idea/texture of eating another PERSON is repulsive. He’ll often just chew on something (even himself) to tide himself over.
Raph: poor, beautiful Raph. Raphael, my darling boy. SO FIRST OF ALL Raph starved the most. If Leo took more than his fair share, Raph would split his portion for his little brothers, because to him taking care of them is his whole reason for being alive.
he has cannibalistic urges too, cause he starves the most (and cause he's a snapping turtle). and that makes him feel like a terrible person. Donnie and Mikey get these urges too, but they never starved quite as bad as Raph did because he’d always split his food with them.
I like the idea that Raph is stunted because of nutritional issues, so yknow what? I'm adopting that. it's canon now.
as for Raph and Casey,,, I think they would definitely share food. In fact, I think Raph would leave Casey food/snacks as gifts when he was trying to befriend him. Casey eventually bringing along food from above ground would be a GAME CHANGER for the turtles, too.
one correction: Donnie is actually the tallest! He just slouches a lot (and I've mostly drawn them as kids, before his growth spurt)
Man, sidenote, but writing this really got me thinking about my childhood more. If we didn't get enough to eat, mom would get mad at us like “why didn’t you eat??” IDK I’m 11 and you’ve been gone all day!! She’d check in with the older kids and ask them (and eventually me, cause at a certain point I was the oldest one home) if the other kids had eaten. And sometimes i’d say i did just to get her off my back. God what a shithole. Anyway, this was a fun ask hah.
#nnstuff#ask#tmnt#disordered eating#food tw#tmnt au#teenage mutant neglected turtles#child neglect tw#child abuse tw#long post
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Same anon that sent the long post and I have another one I'm sorry. Thank you for answering. I'm glad I explained myself okay, I was worried I was just going to sound entitled and rude. I just wanted to say that I was going to mention the Off Menu podcast but I decided to keep it Eddie related since that was my ultimate point and to mention it would require more explaining. Hence this long message. Basically yes I am one of those people that felt that way and I kept that to myself because everyone loved it. I don't want to ignite anything here about it because over time I have seen people mention this since it happened, but it was the picky eater comment for me. I know the internet tends to have this mindset lately that everything everyone says, is said with the worst possible intension. Like you say you like cats you must HATE dogs and you're being cancelled now for it. So I tried not to read into it, I really did. But he brought it up again in another interview after and then another just recently and to me that was him doubling down on his stance so I think it's fair for me to say he has thought about what he said and still agrees with it. Let's be real for a sec, I'm a picky eater. So of course this looks like I'm just butthurt and taking it personally. But I'm autistic. I can't help it. I have a brother that has it worse than me, he SUFFERS with ARFID. Yes, I know that Joseph probably wasn't including people like me or him in his statement. He doesn't need to preference everything he says with "obviously I'm not talking about people with disabilities, eating disorders etc" because he didn't indicate any disdain for those kinds of people specifically and no one should immediately be taking what he said in a negative light like that and assuming he's an asshole. However, again my own personal views, thoughts and feelings. People like myself subconsciously think before I speak "If I say this, could it offend or hurt anyone? Will it perpetuate and or make worse an already existing issue?" Of course everyone has moments where they don't realize what they're saying could be harmful. But, idk. Let me just paste the exact quote from the transcript here and see what we think about it: Joe Quinn Eat it, it's delicious, do you know what I mean? Or, 'Oh, I don't like fish.' But, it's clearly something psychological that they just need to-, get over it, eat it, it's good. Joseph. Some people DO have psychological issues with food. For myself it's certain textures. But to think that I had not just considered or tried to "get over it" is at the very least tone-deaf and at the worst, straight up ableist. 🤷♀️ I tried to rationalize it in my mind as him just venting, talking out his ass, whatever. But ultimately it made me realize that he is very privileged to be healthy and what he probably considers "normal" and I don't see him actually understanding that fact. Especially when he doubles down on it years later. He gives me "telling someone suffering with depression to get over it and smile more" vibes. It came off as pretentious, uninformed and to be honest just plain rude. I will also add that taking disabilities out of the equation he still failed to consider social classes, wealth and food availability. Would he tell an adult that grew up without access to fresh vegetables to just get over it and eat them because it annoys him that they won't? I don't claim to know. But my gut says yes.
I think it started off as his sense of humor, and maybe it was an in-joke with his friends, but as was discussed earlier, he seems to be 'leaning in' to the persona more.
The cilantro thing - 'I don't believe those people'; well then you don't have the gene that makes it taste like dish soap.
I have experience with food allergies, and I always take food preferences seriously, because unfortunately for some folks it's life and death.
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since you’re level 2 can I ask if my experience sounds similar to yours? im trying to figure out which level I am and everyone says different things abt each. i am med? support needs and do need help with BADLS, change has always been distressing for me, verbal loss episodes I think, in general knowing what to say and translating my thoughts into sentences can be hard and social interaction is hard, hard to not just say the same things all the time bc idk how to respond and how to rlly make a friend even after knowing a. Person for years so I only have three/four, I rarely talk sometimes and am rlly quiet and hard to not be quiet and extremely shy, extreme sensory issues, flat effect, big introspection issues, don’t know what counts as being able to masking or not bc even if I could try I know I don’t come off “normal” all the time although to some (who don’t realize the behavior is off bc they’re also autistic or have adhd lol), aaah etc etc idk could u tell me some about your experience?
Some of My Autism Symptoms (From a Level Two Autistic)
Extremely poor interoception (I regularly piss myself and can't control my bladder, as well as not being able to tell when I'm hungry or have to use the bathroom)
Incredible difficulty forming thoughts into words and even separating thoughts
Frequent periods where I can't speak at all, and when I can speak it's hard for me to sound coherent without LOTS of scripting
Meltdowns from very small things such as touching the wrong texture
I have panic attacks or meltdowns when plans change suddenly or without my input
I accidentally eat too much food because I can't tell when I'm full
I can't identify sarcasm in others and also can't use it correctly myself
My repetitive behaviors are so bad I regularly injure myself (I bite my nails past the start of my fingers, causing bleeding and infection, meltdowns cause bruises and scratches)
When having meltdowns I become a danger to myself and anyone in my vicinity (I once threw books all over my room because a plan had changed)
I have only had two or three real friends in my entire life
I do not initiate social interactions unless I am speaking about my special interest (at which point I will not shut up)
Poor affect and ability to match my facial expressions to specific emotions or situations
I have such big issues with food that I can only eat like seven different textures/flavors of food (ARFID is a bitch)
Even if I try to hide my autism symptoms, I am still noticeably autistic
#as for your question: some sound similar to me but I can't assign you a level#asks answered#anon asks#autism#level 2 autism#level 2 autistic#moderate support needs#moderate autism#medium support needs#self harm mention#sh mention
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random rant/thought I had:
Is it normal for me to be a very particular picky eater????
like I don’t even eat healthy like at all (I eat chicken type foods and french fries on a daily basis since forever, or just fast food)
I have to eat carrots (only vegetable that I’m okay or don’t hate as much) either once or twice every month since I hate vegetables and I’m not very fond of fruits
I have texture issues (for example, the texture of a banana will make me throw up)
And I used to like normal foods until I had a surgery when I was three (which also created my phobia/fear of needles I might add)
sorry if this rant annoys you, I just needed to get it off since ppl (not my family and very very close friends, they understand fully or to an extent) look at me weird when I try to talk about these things.
Am I weird? Should I just "suck it up" (an ex-friend said this to me) and just eat "normally? Sorry again
-Ender
hey dont be sorry. me personally, im not very picky, but i do think i might have an eating disorder of some sort so food isnt my greatest friend.
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HEY!!! YOUR RANTS BRING ME LOVE AND JOY DONT SAY THAT!!!!!
no, darling you shouldnt 'suck it up', ESPECIALLY if an EX-friend told you so....they clearly werent worth it.
these are 'picky' eating habits, theyre actual things that bother you and that shouldnt matter to someone else
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Cub wasn't one to dig himself into a hole and hide, especially after only a day on the server. He could just leave, of course. He'd done the redstone they'd brought him on for, so he could go back to his other world and just stay there, right? Well, maybe. But he wasn't going anywhere, and he didn't know why.
He hadn't anticipated how ... being around other people would feel. His face didn't reflect the rest of his body, which is why he covered so much of it up. But then they just saw his face and made assumptions, and that was what he wanted, right? It wasn't really his face though. Just a mask to cover up what he didn't want them to see.
They'd all been so nice and welcoming, that wasn't the issue. He liked them! But somehow he still had the urge to slip away and hide in a hole in a hill, just needing to be alone. He wouldn't tell them. They didn't need to know. He'd never told anyone before, why would he start now? No. Better let that secret remain his own. Let them see him as that old guy who knows redstone.
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He wanted to rip off the bandages around his chest. Their texture against his skin was just suddenly the most aggravating thing in the world. They felt like sandpaper, all rough and tight and cutting into him. He wanted to be rid of them, but then he'd just be reminded of what they were concealing.
He hugged his knees to his chest, hoping it might help. It didn't, but the hope was there. He didn't like it when his body felt like this, all wrong and hurting. He never really knew how to make it go away. Just sat it out until it was gone, mostly. He resisted the urge to claw at the bandages, knowing it never helped.
After all, there was nothing between his legs either, and that was always most obvious when he sat like this. He'd tried to make a packer that he felt comfortable with, but they'd all felt wrong. Not enough weight, too scratchy, too dense, too heavy, didn't sit right, never felt like it was a part of his body.
-
Clearly sitting in a hole on his own instead of just leaving like a normal person was not helping. It was just making him wallow, and he hated wallowing. But he'd just been a little too overwhelmed once all the redstone was done, and needed a break away from the others, so he'd told them he was going to go look around, get the lay of the land, that kind of thing. A thing other players would understand for someone new to a server.
Instead, he was curled up in a hole, wishing the earth would open up and swallow him.
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"Ah! Hallo! There you are, my friend! I wondered where you had disappeared to! Mind if I come in?"
Iskall's voice interrupted his thoughts and he turned to the doorway, wondering if he could simply keep quiet and he might go away.
"It's alright, no one else is with me, I promise. We're the only ones on the server right now. I just want to make sure you're okay, because you said you weren't used to playing with friends, and maybe things got a little too much! It's okay if it did! Just let me know if I can do anything," Iskall said.
Cub listened to his words, unsure what to do. Invite him in, probably. He did like Iskall a lot. But he wasn't sure if he wanted him to see him like this.
"Clearly something is not okay if you are hiding away, Cub. You don't have to tell me anything. But I am here and I can listen! Or I can just talk about nonsense, that also works!" Iskall said.
"I-, no, you can come in, it's fine. Well. It's not, but. You wouldn't understand," Cub said.
"Perfectly fair, I do not understand much about you yet, Cub, but I am keen to learn!" Iskall said. "Okay, I will join you inside, which is good, because it has started raining, and I do not want to get wet!"
Cub laughed in spite of himself as Iskall joined him, closing the door to the rain outside. Iskall set down another torch and offered him some food, which Cub brushed off. He was fine.
"Do you need me to keep some space for you? Like, do you want me to stay here or are you okay with cuddles? Because you look like you need cuddles!" Iskall said.
Cub looked at him. "I-I don't know. I- my head's a bit of a mess."
"Cuddles it is, then!" Iskall said, sitting down next to him and bringing him into his arms.
Cub resisted it for a moment, but Iskall was big and strong and his arms felt like protection and comfort, and he soon hugged him back. It... it helped, a little bit, more than he was willing to admit.
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"What are your pronouns, by the way, Mr Cubfan?" Iskall asked, in between talking about an old base build and some friends he wanted to go and see.
The question caught Cub off-guard, and he sat up, pulling away from him a little bit. Iskall had made good on his promise to talk nonsense and it had helped Cub feel better. It had at least been a good distraction. Until that question, of course. Cub felt like he was a rabbit in headlights now. Did he know? How could he have known? He hadn't felt his bandages, had he? How was he going to explain that away if he had?
"M-my pronouns? Why do you ask?" Cub said, unsure where this was going.
"I do not like making assumptions! And I should have asked earlier before I introduced you to everyone, but things were a bit chaotic and there wasn't time, sorry!" Iskall said.
"Oh, okay, yeah. Uh. Male, I guess? Sorry, no one's ever asked before, so. I wasn't expecting it," Cub said, anxiety gripping his heart even though he clearly didn't have anything to fear. Saying it out loud to someone else was scarier than he'd thought it would be.
"Good, good! You can use any pronouns for me, I don't mind. My gender's a bit-" Iskall gestured, unable to really grasp what he was trying to say. "Yeah, I don't know. Thought you should know that at least. I hope I didn't upset you with that."
"No, no, it's- like I said, no one's ever asked before, that's all," Cub said, laughing it off.
Iskall brought him into his arms again. "Sounds like you've been waiting for someone to ask, hmm?"
Cub settled back against him. "I don't know, maybe?"
"If you say you are a man, Cub, then you are a man. Why would I question that? You know yourself better than I do. I don't need to know more than that," Iskall said. "But I take it you have never talked about this to anyone before, yes? So it feels weird? It was like that for me too, when someone first asked me. So that is why I ask now, because sometimes it's the only way you know you're talking to someone who will understand."
Cub was feeling a lot of things all at once. Hating himself for giving himself away, but thankful for Iskall's kindness. Unsure he had the words for anything he was feeling about his gender. Unsure he even wanted to talk about it yet. He could, of course, but was he ready? He didn't know.
Iskall took his hand then and brought it under his shirt. Cub wasn't expecting to feel bandages, and he looked up at Iskall, unsure how to process any of that.
"We can talk when you're ready, Cub. But know I understand and will not judge you. Because I have been there too," Iskall said.
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Cub woke beside Iskall, in their slightly larger dirt hole. Iskall had made some beds and a little more space, and it was ... cosier now. Iskall was a heater to sleep next to, and Cub sat up, feeling strange.
Iskall was somehow just like him. But somehow telling him that was the scariest thing he could think of doing. And so he hadn't. He'd felt Iskall's bandages over his chest, and didn't know what to do with that information. So Iskall just kept talking nonsense until they were both sleepy enough to want a bed. And now he was here, and awake, and wanting to run away as much as he wanted to stay.
No, he didn't want to run away. Well, not really. He'd joined, and he was going to stay, it might just take him a while to adjust to being around people. They were building things together here, and that was an exciting thing to be a part of. He just had no practice at, well. Being around people. That's really what it came down to. On his own, it never mattered. And now it was all he could think about.
Did they need to know? Did they really? Iskall didn't seem to care. But the thought of carrying around that secret when he's not just doing his own thing felt too heavy a burden. And yet. He couldn't even tell Iskall when he knew, he knew, what those bandages represented.
Speaking of bandages, though, his were itching again after he'd slept in them. Got all rubbed the wrong way. He glanced a look at Iskall, still sleeping soundly in bed. If he was quick, he could fix it without him waking up. Right? Maybe.
He still dug himself a small hole into the wall and sealed himself in, just in case. Setting a torch on the ground, he began to undress, letting his coat, shirt and tie fall to the floor. He didn't... like seeing himself like this. He liked it even less as he unfastened the bandages and rolled them up over his hand, feeling his breasts fall forward once more as he felt their weight on his chest. He wanted to cry. He wished they were smaller, and not as obvious, so he didn't have to rely on bandages. They shouldn't be there at all. But they were, and he had no idea how to get rid of them, save for simply slicing them off himself in desperation. He wouldn't, of course, but in his darker moments, he did think about it.
There were angry marks all over his chest from the bandages. He tried not to make a habit of sleeping in them, but sometimes it happened, and now he had to deal with it. He hadn't felt safe sleeping without them next to Iskall, to be fair. He wasn't sure he was ready for him to know.
"Cub? Where did you go? Are you okay? Can I help?" Iskall called, interrupting his contemplation.
"I'm okay, I just needed a moment. I'll be with you in a bit, okay?" Cub called back, hoping that would satisfy him.
"Oh! Okay! I will get breakfast! There is a nice lake where I saw some fish before. That will do nicely," Iskall said.
"Sure, sounds good to me," Cub said.
"Oh, and Cub?"
"Yeah?"
"Thank you for letting me in. I hope you feel a little better today."
"Maybe, maybe, yeah."
"That's good! I will bring back all the fish now! See you soon!"
And with that, Iskall was gone, and Cub turned back to the bandages in his hands. His chest was aching as it often did when he wore them too long. He should let himself breathe a while, but he knew that wasn't an option, not with Iskall coming back soon. So he bandaged his chest up again and got dressed. He'd take them off later. He'd be fine till then.
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"What gave me away?" Cub said, because surely something had, right? What had he not done that made Iskall know? Or suspect, at the very least. "As being... you know."
Iskall shrugged as he handed over some freshly cooked fish and bread. "Nothing, really! Your responses to asking for your pronouns did make me wonder, but I figure you'll tell me if you want to. None of my business really! If you say you're a man, that's enough for me, and for everyone here, I promise. No need to explain yourself, especially if you're not ready."
Cub took the food and sat by the fire outside their little dirt hole. "Thanks, it's just... Thanks."
"You're welcome!" Iskall said cheerfully.
Cub smiled, appreciating that he wasn't being pushed on the matter. Maybe he suspected, maybe he didn't. Iskall talked more nonsense as they ate, going over more building plans for the kingdom and what he wanted it all to look like. It was a good distraction, and Cub was excited to see where this project would end up.
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"Okay, well, if you are okay now, I will get back to building! And if you ever need to talk, just come and find me, okay?" Iskall said as he packed up his things and extinguished the fire.
"Yeah, sure, will do," Cub said. "Thanks again, man. Just- thanks."
"No problem! Also! I invited you here not just for your skills but because I thought you'd fit in well here. We want you here, Cub, as a friend. You are friend-shaped, Mr Cubfan! Just always remember that, okay?" Iskall said.
"Thanks, I- it is really nice to be here. I think we're going to make something really nice here," Cub said.
"Me too! Anyway, I will be back working on the base. Join me when you're ready, yes?" Iskall said.
"Sure, I'll see you there," Cub said.
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Cub watched him go. He still hadn't told him. Just- the very idea that he could just talk about all his gender stuff to someone else was still scary to him, even if it was someone else who would understand. He wasn't sure he had all the words. Wasn't sure he could explain it, and he hated that this was the one thing he couldn't explain. He hardly understood it himself, let alone knew how to tell someone else.
He went back inside the dirt hole and shut himself in again. He needed to breathe, much as he would hate seeing his chest again, and he appreciated Iskall giving him space and time to do that. His ribs were definitely asking for a rest at any rate.
He undressed again, taking a moment to inhale deeply once the bandages were wound up and sat aside on top of his clothes. Did Iskall do things like this? Did he need to? He couldn't remember if Iskall had removed his bandages before they'd gone to bed; what he did remember was falling asleep against his chest, so perhaps he'd moved him later. Maybe that was it. Yeah.
Cub sat against the far wall, thinking, his shirt loosely covering his chest so he didn't have to look at it. It didn't entirely help, but not seeing his breasts was always better. Maybe, in time, Iskall would know. Maybe one day he'd feel brave enough to talk about it. But not yet. And he was grateful for Iskall for giving him that choice, a choice he was not expecting to be given. Maybe this server would be good for him after all.
#kingdomcraft#hermitcraft#fanfic#cubfan135#iskall85#trans cub#trans iskall#any pronouns iskall#angst#gender dysphoria#making queer friends#chest binding#packers#hurt/comfort#cuddles#identity and masking#coming out (or not) on your own terms#one (1) reference to body mutilation#but it's only a thought dw#don't mind me just writing all the extremely niche fic that i can muster#this is the only part of this scenario that is clear to me#but it's been living in my head too long#so i'm throwing it out here idk just bc#i need to do something with all this trans cub angst in my head so#here you go tumblr have some fic
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I’d you don’t mind me asking, (you totally don’t have to tell me) what type of eating disorder do you have? Because I told my girlfriend about it and she said she has similar things.
tbh i dont know how much i’ve talked about my eating patterns on main but most of it is an allergy. i have celiac’s disease which is an autoimmune disorder where gluten (a wheat product) causes my intestinal cells to attack themselves. this causes cysts, pain, and DNA damage to those cells and eating gluten long term can result in cancerous tumors and reduced ability to absorb nutrition. this happened to my great uncle bob, who now has to eat five small meals a day to get enough nutrition to stabilize his weight.
however, this caused a lot of issues for me growing up because i was diagnosed young and live in the united states. almost everything is contaminated in some way so almost all of my food has been homemade for a decade or more. this caused anxiety around eating because i wasn’t ever sure if food made by someone other than my mom was actually safe or if it was contaminated.
since then the world has gotten better and i am trying to trust outside food more. however i also have texture issues with food due to my autism, so even though raspberries taste amazing, the texture overwhelms me and i avoid them. the same is true about most meats.
though my pcp did not diagnose me, my endocrinologist believes i have ARFID, or avoidant restrictive food intake disorder. it’s not based around the perception of your body or your health, it is simply a strong and emotional dislike of many foods that causes malnutrition. it is most commonly found in people with severe allergies and/or autism.
ARFID is difficult to treat because a lot of the reasons people with ARFID avoid food are rational and built on trauma. the best path to fixing ARFID longterm is cognitive behavioral therapy and a slow branch out to try new foods that are similar to your current foods.
there is no harm in eating the same thing every day, so long as that thing keeps your weight consistently healthy and hits your daily nutritional values. this is the path i’ve found best works for me, so that way i know what to expect and i have good, normal experiences with those foods from the day before to use as encouragement if i am having a bad food day. i also recommend learning to make your own food and shop for yourself if it’s an allergy fear, that way you eliminate the middle man and can personally ensure your food is safe for you to eat <3
#eating restrictions#eating disoder recovery#tw arfid#tw eating disorder#i hope this was informative#or helped you a bit#didnt love talking about it but i tried to keep it as informational as possible#longpost
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uhm idk if this is ok with you but since I can’t really find that much black bts writers 😭 I came across your page and started to imagine the girls being black but I looked into them and they all are Asian (all very beautiful btw) I just wanted to ask if it’s ok if I imagine them differently???
Sweetheart, this is absolutely okay (more than okay, actually fantastic) and actually I'm glad you're bringing this up!
Quite contrary to what you fear, I encourage you to envision them however you like, and the headcanons I posted were way more important for me to stay consistent in the way I describe them, rather then exclude anyone from my narratives.
I try and avoid any reference to skin colour, hair texture and body shape unless I find it strictly necessary or literarily relevant to the scenes I write.
Being the person I am means that things like blushing, or combing my hair, or drying it and styling it a certain way, or being picked up and carried around, are perfectly normal things for me, but might not be parts of someone else's normality. When I'm writing about them having a meal, and they're eating and drinking, I know that certain food and drink choices aren't options for everyone.
I know some people are going to feel a bit less included or less immersed in the narrative because of the choices I make, and I try to avoid those areas of conflict as much as I can, but I also know that I can't avoid them all. Still, I want all my readers to know that I put much, much consideration into differences linked to ethnicity, religious and cultural heritage, and that I'm always open to discussing them as long as the conversation stays polite and is open to educating others.
Oh the joys of globalisation! 😆
Thank you so much for sending in this ask and I'm sorry if I kind of used your ask to blab on about my ethical issues as a writer 😅
To all my readers, new and old, thank you for your support and for your understanding✨💜 I hope this blog will make you always feel welcome and at home 🥺💖
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Hi, did a matchup, idk if it's still open but I hope it is, I probably didn't give enough detail in the last one so mb. New attempt.
Basics:
Name: Alex/Axel
Gender: Demiboy, He/They/It (Trans FtM)
Sexuality: Gay
Likes: Cheese, Snakes, Anime, Stuffed Animals, fruit, Theatre, pretzels, pasta, long hot baths, dark chocolate, sour candy, music, daydreaming, kangaroos
Dislikes: all of the Vees, vegetables, odd textured foods, Sherpa, paper straws, people yelling at me
Personality: I'm a very goofy silly person, with kind of a dirty/dark sense of humor. I have abandonment issues and am very very possessive. As in someone called my friend a whore and I had to be held back by three people, possessive. Once I find someone I like, it's basically I stay calm around them, and test the waters. I'm kinda flirty with my friends too. Once I figure out where I stand with them, I'm my normal weird crazy self.
Hobbies: Crying, drawing, reading, listening to music, day dreaming, theatre
My style: Gay Lumberjack. I wear a lot of flannel and jeans, sometimes I wear something that people would call 'femboy core' like a black hot topic skirt and a cute lil sweater. Most of the time it's just a flannel, tank top and jeans though.
Love language: Everything. I have severe abandonment issues due to past friendships so I just want to be doing as many things with them as possible.
Appearance: 5'3, White Hispanic-Jew. Shoulder length brown hair, blue/grey eyes.
Shenanigans: I said a pizza I made had down syndrome, rolled around and chased people in a colorful tube thingy. moaned as a joke, and didn't know the principal was behind me. Fell off a table from laughing.
Hope this is enough information, idrk how to describe myself.
hello axel!! dw about it haha, tbh i was just totally stumped the first time you had sent in a request, anywho, i think i’ve got you figured out, so i decided to pair you with…
Husk !!
Definitely understands your protective side, although he may not reciprocate it in the same fashion, he’s protective over you too, in his own way
Husk also understands your abandonment issues, the world can be a shitty place, and not everyone is who the say they are, so he tries his hardest to show you that he’s here to stay
Genuinely does have a love for your little goofy side, to him it’s a combo of the most stupid yet cute shit he’s ever seen, like he’ll screenshot when you text him something cute for when he has a bad day, but it’s more so stupid than cute XD
#hazbin hotel#x reader#mio’s writing ! ☆#fanfiction#x y/n#hazbin hotel x reader#hazbin hotel x y/n#hazbin hotel x you#x you#mio’s matchups ! ☆#reqs closed#hazbin husker#hazbin hotel husker#husker hazbin hotel#husk x reader#husk hazbin hotel#husker#husk#hazbin husk#hazbin hotel husk#husker x reader
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