#I am in love with Amara

[soft-pine]

when i think about this scene from 15.15 it makes me want to chew glass and tear up the walls in rage.

AMARA: I wanted two things for you, Dean. I wanted you to see that your mother was just a person, that the myth you'd held onto for so long of a better life, a life where she lived, was just that, a myth. I wanted you to see that the real, complicated Mary was better than your childhood dream because she was real. That now is always better than then. That you could finally start to accept your life.

for the record i want to say i am a known amara-hater. don't like the non-con shit. don't like that she's doing what so many beings in spn do and narrativizing dean's life back at him while judging him because she drew the wrong conclusions. but i think fandom does have a tendency to take those claims at face value because that is easier than combing back through to check if it's correct or not. (see for example, rachel saying dean only calls cas when he needs him in 6.18. narrativizing, incorrectly. but i digress)

so let's talk about mary. because, through the seething rage, i think two main things about this claim. 1. dean does not have this mythos around mary and 2. mary has arguably more of that mythos around dean.

first off, we'll tackle the claim that it's a myth that if mary hadn't died, dean wouldn't have a better life. because that is absolute, utter, dogshit. OF COURSE HE'D HAVE A BETTER LIFE. while i will always maintain that clearly mary and john were far from stable before she died, her death was what speared john forward into hunting, into turning his kids into soldiers, into neglect and parentifying, and every other god forsaken thing he did. "a better life, a life where she lived, was just that, a myth" - girl, i DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE DIVINE, SHUT THE FUCK UP.

like please don't come here acting like dean grieving the future he could have had that didn't include him taking care of his younger brother alone in motel rooms for days while maybe actually being left as bait for the Kid-Eater is a character flaw on his part that he needs to learn better from.

next, amara claims dean needs to see the "real, complicated Mary."

but hasn't he? dean goes back in time and meets his mom in 4.03 and 5.13. and both times he treats her both as a competent hunter and a colleague. like to be clear, before that, i dont think he was wrong to be relying on a four-year-old's memory of what his mom was like because that's literally all he had access to. but dean actually did meet and interact with the whole, complex woman who was his mother long before amara decided to teach him a lesson with her as the homework. in both 4.03 and 5.13, dean tries to give mary advice to save her life but he doesn't belittle her experience hunting or her desire to leave and life a normal life. i don't know what more you want from him in terms of interacting with his mom as a whole, real, complex person?

this also applies wholly and completely to his interactions with her when she returns in s12. he apologizes for being nervous for her safety (AFTER SHE WAS JUST RESSURECTED) at first. mary says she wants to hunt, dean gets on board. mary says she needs space, dean asks clarifying questions to best support her request. he gets mad at her not for being who she is or needing what she needs but for lying to him for months and working with people who tortured him and sam.

in fact, s12 is what i would point to to indicate how well dean articulates and navigates the nuance of being hurt by someone's actions while still understanding and empathizing with why they did it and forgiving them. for example, he says this in 12.04

DEAN: This whole mom thing, it's... I mean, we get her back, and then she leaves. I hate it, but I get it. I do. I guess I'm just...still working through some of that crap. I'll try to be less of a dick about it.

[you're not a dick, dean, ilu]

in fact, dean's much maligned "how 'bout for once, you just try to be a mom?" isn't even about dean wanting anything particularly maternal from mary. it's about him not wanting her to ditch them to hunt alone and/or with the aforementioned torturers.

so circling back to amara's speech about expectations and myths. cause while her words do not apply to dean. amara's speech does remind me of something that happens upon mary's return in s12. these lines from 12.03:

DEAN: Mom, it's okay. All right? You're home now. MARY: No. I'm not. I miss John. I miss my boys. SAM: We're right here, mom. MARY: I know. In my head. But I'm still mourning them as I knew them. My baby Sam. My little boy Dean. Just feels like yesterday, we were together in heaven, and now...I'm her, and John is gone, and they're gone. And every moment I spend with you reminds me every moment I lost with them.

of course she has every right to grieve the time she lost with her kids. but someone in this room is having trouble really looking at the people in front of them because of their idealized memory of who they were compared to are and It Is Not Dean.

and i just think about dean's speech in 12.22. cause it wasn't dean that needed to see the real mary. it was mary, tucked away in her dream world where sam is a baby and dean is a little elementary schooler who likes pie and has never held a gun, who needed to see the real dean.

[boxdstars]

Obligatory Picrew Chain ✨

—because this one is especially cute and I want to see everyone’s mcs in this one!

Link: https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/69673

no pressure tags for the homies: @heyitszev @faustinio27 @choccy-milky @a-florable @boomingsmile @shanaraharlyah @ladyofsappho @espressoristretto-patronum @starryslytherin0 + you!!

[thisblogdoesnotexisg]

lambeth and morrigan geek out about classic literature together, since they're the daughters of politicians/important figures, they were probably forced to read the same stuff, especially given that they're the only ones from outside nevermoor. idk but the idea of morrigan finally having someone to geek out with about poetry with is so😭

[x-mensirens]

It's way too crowded, down here!

[dyne-osaur]

NOT enough people draw unit 919 THEY ARE MY BABIES AND I WOULD DIE FOR THEM

so anyways, some food

sketch under the cut

there was no room for my babies francis and mahir </3

[mxwhore]

yes the "they would NEVER have children" crowd are always 98% correct but also. all the character exploration is so worth it for me. bye

[jamesrb4th]

Arcane rarepairs: multiverse edition

A good number of characters died over the course of Arcane, but thanks to the establishment of an infinite multiverse, not only can we go absolutely wild with the sort of romance we can provide in place of a tragic fate, it also means that nobody can tell us it’s not canon

Eliot’s x Sky

Both pining for their bosses each of which are too preoccupied with a certain hunky inventor, perhaps their late night conversations venting out their frustrations will lead to something more

Maddie x Madame Margot

One is a ruthless cutthroat master of seduction, the other is a kind and caring woman in way over her head and must learn the value of teamwork if she’s going to make it out alive. Their heads will spin (and others will roll) as they find out exactly which is which

Kino x Loris

We don’t have much to go off of, but the illusion seemed like it was pretty convincing and anyone who Mel looks up to has got to be cool af, which means he deserves a boyfriend who is chill af, more than that, Loris is loyal courageous, and perhaps the most important quality for Kino in a partner, knows when they need to ****ing bail

Grayson x Amara

Heading a personnel security for a successful merchant, Grayson soon learns that the threats are far more dangerous than she was warned, and that the fascinating woman she’s been protecting is more than capable of dealing with them herself. Years of facing the flood of corruption in the enforcers have exhausted her efforts to influence them to adopt her own strong sense of justice, but perhaps it can soften the knife sharp edges of this sorcerous spy

Smeech x Salo

……. I have no idea how this got in here, I must have entered a fugue state or something, but uh, good for them?

[the-mpreg-guy]

not a mary winchester lover, not a mary winchester hater, but a secret third thing

[wundrousarts]

I would love to see Lam in your style!!

Ask and ye shall receive 🤝

I like the idea of her having glasses, to fit her Oracle knack, but they’re fake, to fit the idea of her sort of being in disguise/hiding :) Giving Nevermoor characters glasses is a great hobby of mine lol

[funktechnisch]

another (belated) secret santa piece! this time for @secxen of their tav, amara [any pronouns]

[kirnet]

estherrrrr <3 (+amara)

[19catsncounting]

Therapy isn't enough I need the CW to go back and re-film Season 11 to prove that Lucifer could have been saved if Michael didn't abandon him like Dean refused to abandon Sam.

[boxdstars]

I love how so many peoples MC’s are bad or generally dislike divination 😭💀 if anything this would make Amara so incredibly insufferable about it because it’s something that alongside dueling (but the MC is good at that too) she can boast relentlessly to them.

I think it’s a class that is either extremely easy, or impossible depending on intuition and the like. So Amara is just looking at everyone like:

[iamthecomet]

🎧🩵

Finish Them - Cattle Decapitation (my most listened to song on Spotify of ALL TIME btw). I would love to just put all the lyrics here because they're all incredible, but this one stands out:

[winksasleeplesseye]

now that I think about it…leon definitely fell first and amara fell harder and that’s on peeta and katniss level vibes/trope

[ashenberry]

For your blorbos: apollo, TRUCY, jove, big man :3, the snakes from metal gear i cannot tell them apart i am so sorry, your ocs are all so blorbo to you as well but im on 30mg of weed gummy so i dont remember any of their names

God your so correct I do love all these characters an unnormal amount