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blazewatergem · 5 days

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I mean, for real, with the character creator, cool storylines, and the characters in general - both NPCs and Companions?

I’m eating GOOD.

#obligatory note of ‘no I honestly never plan my stories or know if I can finish them in a regular time frame’#but is that not the beauty of fanfic-our stories? that we can start and stop and pause and return to them?#I’m gonna love this game. I’m loving this game and I’ve barely made it past the Grove #anyways have some late night memes #I say this all so confidently despite my brain working like a hamster. no direction and no promises #I also have an exam coming up so lol #these ideas might be stress hiding itself #talking fire

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001139 · 2 months

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a story about a flight instructor who hallucinates his dead student

#guys it’s been so long here’s this sketch that I made instead of studying for a really important exam on aircraft hydraulic systems #that I have in an hour #I really want to draw regularly because I don’t have any other interests or hobbies and I’ve just been straight jorkin it and by jorkin #I mean classes and training year round no break on hard mode #anyway I wanna make tommy and ludo into like short stories regularly ig I don’t know #basically he’s a plain average simple midwestern man who gets paired up with a weird eccentric goth girl but they establish a rapport #but then the Horrors happen and she dies and it’s kinda sorta his fault not really though but I made it so that he feels an immeasurable #crippling guilt that keeps him up at night and at some point he starts hallucinating her idk #as for how she dies exactly I can’t decide yet #sorry guys this isn’t a nice story lol #eff ay ay please don’t come after me for legal reasons none of this reflects or represents anything it’s just a silly little oc story thing #that ALSO teaches a lot of good lessons I prommy #ok bye #art #oc #flight instructor oc #aviation #uhhhhhhhhh

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theflyingfeeling · 4 months

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yes it's just me whining about the same thing for the billionth time, pls just scroll past nothing new to see here 👋

#i just want to enjoy the summer but i feel like i don't deserve to if i'm not constantly trying to become employed again 😭#''apply for jobs then? problem solved'' uh-huh yes but!! i also hate applying for jobs #job seeking can be so incredibly humiliating #first i have to send them a letter BEGGING to be invited to an interview #and then i have to try and convince them that i am actually competent and good at my job even though you have my cv right there #and then afterwards they call me to tell me they found someone who they liked better than me #(or rather someone who was more competent than me judging by their work history etc.)#it's like ''yes we are hiring but not YOU specifically lol''#like. at school if you take a test you get the grade you deserve based on how you did in the exam.#it's something you can actually directly affect yourself #but if someone who's applying for the same job with me has more work experience or whatever they will get hired over me no matter what i do #(at least that's how it usually works on my field)#in which case it doesn't matter if i do well in the interview or nah. bc the other person was always going to be picked for the job anyway #and yes one could say i can then be satisfied if i did my best but it's little consolation when i'm still unemployed!!#and so every time i apply for a job and get rejected it feels like a personal failure #and to avoid that feeling of failure i want to avoid applying for jobs altogether #so yeah. being active in job seeking is more likely to relieve me from this misery but job seeking is ALSO misery. so 🤷‍♀️#that on top of the fact i don't even _want_ to apply for all the open positions on my field #but i feel obliged to because it's what i have a degree on. and when i'm unemployed i don't have the luxury to choose which ones i apply fo #i can't afford to be picky #I DON'T DREAM OF LABOUR I JUST NEED MONEY TO LIVE BUT I ALSO DON'T WANT TO DO JUST ANY JOB! I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH FOR THAT!#i don't want to come home crying from work every day because i hate every single aspect of my life INCLUDING my job 😭#when this semester i actually HAD a job i didn't mind waking up to every morning 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair #to conclude i don't deserve to enjoy myself in the summer because i'm not doing enough to fix my unemployement situation #(just like i don't deserve to feel sad about being lonely because i don't work hard enough to maintain deep friendships #but that's a crisis for another day! stay tuned ✌️)

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clownattack · 3 months

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I aced my thesis defence with merits and I WILL TELL EVERYONE ABOUT IT (once i had my little rest) tm

#WHAT I WILL SAY NOW IS #i got max score on every single part #so like #written / project / defence itself #and they also decided they are giving me merits YAY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #THIS IS LIKE #KIND OF SPECIAL #bcs i passed my entry exams with merits also and it came with a fun little ceremony in a fancy lecture hall #so im lowkey hoping ill be invited to a fancy ceremony again to close this stage off <3 #im very happy and ngl proud of myself #its a giant bow wrapping up my academic career so far #I WANT MY /I HAVE A PhD/ SHIRT!!!!!!!!!#i was so stressed and it feels so good to have everyone agree that i did REALLY FUCKING GOOD AND DISPEL MY DOUBTS #i was literally told the amount of work i put out is like three thesis' worth and its the best theyve seen in a long while #?????????#fuck my mind demons fr always telling me i dont do enough #that realization only came to me after the fact #also my reviewer absolutely ate my little ass #i dont even think i deserve it LMAO but im glad she liked it and gave me an amazing review!!!!!!#im just!!! SO HAPPY #SORRY IF I COME OFF LIKE IM BRAGGING BUT THIS IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME FR. AND TBH I THINK IF I EVEN HAVE THE REASON TO BRAG IT WOULD BE #ABOUT THIS LIFE EVENT #I want to make a post abt this on my art blog ngl #uni #also gonna tag this as #iykyk #because im petty like that <3 #i wonder what people who called me names excelled at recently lol #i wish myself a lot of thriving while they continue wilting

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astrxealis · 11 months

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hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅#i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh...#so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!)#i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay.#i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular)#my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%...#i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know.#both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there)#feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS.#but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh.#i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun!#the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

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gingerbreadmonsters · 9 months

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sleepy and v fed up w this blasted reading for japanese history class tomorrow. give me 45 minutes to finish this article and i will be back to talk about kissing or something

#for the blissfully uninitiated: hello i am history student #which is a fantastic thing to be but also a significant pain in the [REDACTED] when it wants to be #the professor for this class is almost unbearably terrible which does not exactly make me WANT to do this reading #but the exam is in like 2 weeks lol #so yk. i have the hardest life of anyone on earth etc etc #god forbid i actually do the degree i asked to do lmao #also i up early this morning to drag myself to the immigration bureau for a visa amendment #which meant a decidedly unpleasant hour on the metro during rush hour :(#its bc im applying for this english TA position in spring #its literally only for 5 days and tbh i wouldn't mind doing it for free bc i am sad like that and enjoy teaching for fun #but it IS paid - and paid work is Not Allowed under my student visa #so even though i literally have not even GOT the job (applications close today) i still had to go and apply for permission to work #watch as they dont hire me lol #oh i should mention - for those who may not know i am in tokyo this year #i am british and i usually go to uni in the uk but im on a study abroad year this year #i came to japan in sept of 2023 so ive been here for coming up on 5 months and i will be going back home in august on 2024 #its weird to think that im approaching the halfway point #tbh i should really just make this a separate post but whatever #coming to japan has been very strange but a good thing i think

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bangcakes · 9 months

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#personal #i guess for those following this uh... Situation NDNDNDMMDMX #today was the last day LOL. he was gonna sit beside me during the exam #... but the teacher moved him NDNJDMDMDMDMDMDMDMMD #then.... he finished before me.... i was like oh fuck. but i was like oh what if hes waiting for me....#but i was also like GET IT TOGETHER GURL. UR AT AN EXAM #so i GOT IT TOGETHER (mostly)#and when i finished he was gone 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#HOWEVER.... me n one of my other friends had to work on a group project so we stayed back then went out n ate #she knows i like him. n at some point i was like man... if only he had waited. he could have come with us #n she was like...... !!!!!! he did wait !!!!!!!!!#and i was like WHAAAAAAAAAAAA #so it turns OUT..... that this other guy i was friends with (no longer bc 1. he was using me for my hw and 2. he was mean to the guy i like #DEMANDED to know why the guy i had a crush on didnt answer in the big group chat about dinner n he was like..... uh i have an exam the #day after ??? (and ok insider info here.... he told me he never wanted to see any of them ever again LMAO. so i wasnt surprised at all.#thought it was so fucjin funny bc man he really kept to his word by not answering JDJDJDJJDJDJDl)#but ya he left after that !!!!!!!! so !!!!!! wa !!!!!!!! im just 🥺🥺🥺 !!!!! like he WAS waiting for me but GOD that asshole im just......#>:[[[[[[[[#bc u know !!!! thats not the first time he's (for lack of a better word) cockblocked us !!!!!!!!#but it somewho ends up bringing us closer in a way. idk NDJXJXJJZJZJZJZJZ #im just.... ya i messaged him n we talked for a bit.... he still has an exam left so im gonna leave him alone til hes done #really hope he lets me know how it goes AH #but ya............ idk man idk. im gonna have to grow some huge balls n ask him to meet up. bc if i dont....... lol my only other chance is #graduation in february.............#n e way NDNNDNDNDNDNNDND

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noones-untruly · 2 months

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Oof, it’s been a long time since I’ve last picked up a pencil to draw smth semi properly and not just to scribble.

#there’s so much I can say about this thing but I’m too fucking lazy to go into the depth of my mind #for some context: I’m dealing with some issues (lol when I’m not?)#but this times it’s deeply rooted self hatred issues so like #slay ig?#also don’t mind the background if I had been just a tidbit more educated in classical literature i would’ve come up with smth meaningful #but oh well #I am not the person to read and think of existential dread universal morales an co #and also I have a software development exam tomorrow #wish me luck #personal ramblings #art? idk

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tkbrokkoli · 8 months

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just had the worst hair cut experience :(

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caorl · 8 months

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posting in ehre bc my friends are prob tired of me yapping about this on tt but i cant wait to get a neurologist appointment and got exams done bc im sure i have narcolepsy and have been for a couple years now yet im so so afraid of going bc what if i do have it. and worse. what if i dont have it and all my struggles actually have no explanation other than me being lazy and weak lmao i cant stop thinking about it im so anxious over this

#this is the year we get diagnosis DONE #but fr im so much more interedted in getting this sleep shit checked out #than i am on confirmingg my autism #bc at this point like. theres no way im not on thr spectrum lmao #like if my autism avaliation comes out negative it will be shocking to me #but i'll live ive spent 20 years thinking im just a freaky creature before i found out it could be autism so it eont weight as much ig #but the narcolepsy slash hypersomnia shit..that fucking bothers me.sm #it explains everything ive been having since i was about 13 lmao the peak was the last years of high school #and then living alone in college and getting sleep apralysis every day i got to the point i wouldnt even br frightned anymore #i still have it about like ojce every two weeks now but nowadays what bothers me most #is feeling my muscles go numb when im walking home from college bc i want to sleep #and having hallucinations when im waking up or falling asleep although im also used to these so they dont scare me bc i know im hallucinatin #yk..#but yea the sleeping all day everyday fucking sucks #even when im having fun lol there are couple of videos of me playing the guitar for fun and just sleeping in the kiddle of it #also . when i got put on wellbutrin i had multippe convulsions #that tookme to the er and i dont remember a thing from that week so idk if it made some damage #bc they didnt make any exams at the hospital #they literally said i had overdose although i took the right dose #then injected some muscle relaxant w me #that made me convulse and go unconscious again #and then got me stable and sent me home like Yeah that happened idk just sleep it off #and i have migraines since i was 12 so liek #i hope the neurologist i get sent to takes me.serious #i feel like there is something going on yk #anywayssss #personal #narcolepsy #idk if theres a commujity here on the tags but lmk i feel all alone on this

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rox-of-iu · 1 year

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how is a man supposed to odmaturovat when my head is soooo empty but also soso so so full o(-(

#not art #crys #přituhuje přituhuje #anyway předmaturitní období is going completely /fine/ for anyone asking #pap has been sending me bronze age memes ive been scrolling through pictures of birds for two hours and who knows what aras be doing #cryptid at this point #dsjhc but anyway history+art 🤝bio+chem🤝math+phys - not having a single clue what we doing hsjkdhsa #solidarity #also i managed to last minute hyperfixate on a most beloved book series from my childhood hdkashdahkj #which i have been doodling amongst my equations lmao so once im done with all this ill be posting some things for that #since AF be holding my hand throughout these tough times ✊but like on one hand #emotional support beloved book...on the other hand gET OUT OF MY HEAD WHAT A BAD TIMING-#hahjahjkhs not to worry i will also come back to what i usually post once all this is done #only -checks watch- 7days UH OG HAHA ANYWAY and uhhhh then a month to speedrun studies for UNI entrance exams #but after that!!!!! ART TIMEE YIPEEE finally ill work on my liu//shen and N/HS animatic that ive been looking forward to for like a year no #lol #also speaking of liu'd shens #im that meme of squidward next to his window and spongebob and patrick is everyone talking about new cultivate chapters jhdkshdks #soon.....i will be able to catch up soon.......HAJHKS #anyway thats about it #im soooooooooooo tired my bones feel like theyll fall off and my brain is meltingg o(TヘTo)#but eh- gtg back to organic chemistry now bye byee everyone have a good day kissb xD

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padfootastic · 2 years

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Hey there ! I missed seeing your posts so I am glad you’re back : ) so last week I reread where you go, i'm going (because there's no me without you) and like I just love it so so much because the main character energy they exude is truly awesome, I mean it’s just so perfect. Also when Sirius took his shirt off so the attention was shifted from James 🥹 was adorable because they’re just always there for each other. I love this fic so much that I reread it so frequently (not just this one tbh I love all your other works too so thank you so much for writing them ) I just wanted to ask you do you have anymore tattoo related head canons ? Also sorry it turned so long

omg hi anon 🥺🥺 thank u so, so much!!! that fic is so dear to me bc i wrote it in one stretch in the notes app of my phone and just. it’s everything i love about j & s and fanfiction, i think. and dude, main character energy is so right??? like just casually reforming extremely advanced magic for no reason other than to fuck around???

(also please never apologise for the length of anything, i am the queen of rambling for no reason here so if anything, it should be saying sorry for making y’all go thru all mt word vomit lol)

as for tattoo related headcanons, hmmm, so. there’s this fic about harry & sirius & tattoos postwar, where each chapter just has more tattoo content lol it has pretty much most of my hcs in some form or the other. what else, hm.

- james’ first tattoo is for sirius, always. he wasn’t really interested in it but he wanted it to get thru sirius’ thick skull that he’s family, always will be, and if he had to mutilate his own skin to prove it, so he will. of course, after that he realised he actually quite liked it so he just. never stopped.

- i mention this in the fic but james is very proper, buttoned up, perfect pureblood heir types & doesn’t have any visible tattoos. (have u seen that ig trend where these super ripped, tattooed dudes do that thing where they’re all well dressed in the beginning and when the beat drops, they’re set against a light backdrop, shirtless, showing off an impressive collection of badass tattoos? that is james potter coded)

- sirius is def the kind of person who’s get inked without a second thought. he loves the pain, the little rush of adrenaline, the feeling of being alive that comes with it. he also gets a tattoo from every single country he travels to, without fail, as a way to preserve memories.

- these dorks def have a marauder tattoo that they get inked on a dare or sumn. surprisingly (or not), remus was the one most hesitant and who had to be pushed into it. peter, of course, was the most eager

- magical tattoos!!! just. so many of them. that’s the tweet. (again, this is in the other fic, but i’m kinda obsessed with runic tattoos that can double as conduits for magic? and j & s doing it on each other, at risk of actual, literal combustion and not caring about it bc they have the invincibility of teenage boyhood)

#james potter #sirius black #prongsfoot #the fact that u REREAD IT CONSTANTLY #anon u have my entire heart rn #jdbfjsdbfkjbjfds #also if i can find those videos of the ig trend i was talking about i’ll link it #bc it really gives me hardcore james vibes #also yes i miss being on here 😭😭#but gosh things r hectic rn lol #i have two imp exams coming up this weekend #that i’ve been preparing for #and there’s some extra stuff i’ve to do in the next couple months #but i miss fics!!! i wanna write!!! i have so many ideas and FoD and the arranged marriage fic and just ughhhh #need more time in the day i swear #but anon just—thank u so much. ur incredibly kind.#ppb #pen’s asks

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faaun · 1 year

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my mental health has tanked so insanely idk what 2 do lol

#bc of my grades last yr and also on the assignments ive submitted this yr my uni has faith in me #to somehow catch up on 1.5 terms of content (lectures and everything) including those of modules i took that were clearly #above my paygrade (AKA took 3rd yr modules as a 2nd yr bc i thought im built different. heart emoji ♡)#however my mental health is still so bad that i dont think its possible #so i spoke to smn abt it and they were like u can take some time off to recorver n then come bavk #and its like #ok 👍 but that would require spending several months at home. w my parents #so im worried i wont get better when im around them yk #anyway my mental health has nosedived a few times over the last 2yrs but never for this long #and there was always a reason but this time its so out of nowhere ?? like why have i been like this for several months lol #the thing is if i don't take a break rn and try to power thru i don't think im build SO different to be able to make up on like #4 missed exams and assignment and also do all the other exams in exam season and get a 1st #and i rly need to get a 1:1 idk #built**

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cavaleriesix · 1 year

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I have been drawing my ocs a ton. Nothing but doodles I'm afraid and I haven't had the chance to take any photos (which is why they aren't posted) but eventually I should get around to it 🥲

#hold me to it lol #ive really been wanting to write lately but i just dont have the time 😞#im so tired of having no time #im so burnt out #but i have to keep pressing on etc etc.#i have a bunch of papers and exams coming up (it is the end of the semester afterall)#so i suppose ill pop in now and again to kind of keep myself organised about it #i have.. 4 papers? and 3 exams?#might be 4 exams also idk yet #one paper is due next week and the other 3 are due finals week #one exam is the week after next and the other two are finals week #i also have a homework assignment due tonight that i have not started ;p #im stretched so so thin #i keep saying that and then adding more to my plate #as though im not sabotaging myself #sigh!!!#james.txt

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drysauce · 2 years

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i fucked up 😌

#what makes me feel better that mr perfect at everything™️ from my group also didn't manage to solve it so i feel less stupid #he fell for the beginner trap which was rewriting what the math program solved and it was almost endless page of various calculations #and he didn't manage to rewrite it in time #meanwhile i used my head for once and half did something myself half used the program for some parts of the equation #was it correct? i doubt it but i still feel that what i did had more sense because at least i understood what i was doing #instead of blindly rewriting quadruple fractions #and i hope i'll get at least idk 0.2 points #but in all honestly i think i already accepted that those exams go not as good as i'd want them to #so i guess it's fine #on the contrary to that one guy form my group because he's FURIOUS right now lol #but tbh we have online tests without cameras so what did he expect. easy equations? oh come on #don't blame it on the fact that the test is hard if the test conditions are perfect for people to cheat and people WILL cheat #and the professor knows it hence messed up tests

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valkyrietookmoved · 2 years

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My day to take a break and I... Don't feel good... Neat....

#utter complaining #lately it feels like something has to happen during the weekend to just make me feel...#absolutely terrible???#literally nothing happened #i was fine yesterday.... not counting the afternoon thirsday was good #but now it's saturday and I just feel /bad/#like I have for the past like 4 weekends or so #the week is not bad saturday comes and BOOM I feel like I want crawl into a hole on the ground and never see the light of day #maybe I need a shower maybe I should just cry maybe both....#also I do not want the food I'm supposed to eat today lol #just not in the mood but then again I don't feel like eating anything at all....#i will though just something else that doesn't make feel like vomiting just thinking about it #sigh..... every weekend.... why.... I'm supposed to have a day to relax and Sunday to be productive #I'm so behind....#in literally every single subject....#and I have two exams close....#can I just stop time for like a week I need some time to get the sad out and then some more to catch up thanks #I FORGOT TO RETURN MY BOOK TO THE LIBRARY GOD FUCKIN #I'll do it on monday.... it's going to be 5 days late but it's not open saturday and sunday so...

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