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caorl · 9 months

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posting in ehre bc my friends are prob tired of me yapping about this on tt but i cant wait to get a neurologist appointment and got exams done bc im sure i have narcolepsy and have been for a couple years now yet im so so afraid of going bc what if i do have it. and worse. what if i dont have it and all my struggles actually have no explanation other than me being lazy and weak lmao i cant stop thinking about it im so anxious over this

#this is the year we get diagnosis DONE #but fr im so much more interedted in getting this sleep shit checked out #than i am on confirmingg my autism #bc at this point like. theres no way im not on thr spectrum lmao #like if my autism avaliation comes out negative it will be shocking to me #but i'll live ive spent 20 years thinking im just a freaky creature before i found out it could be autism so it eont weight as much ig #but the narcolepsy slash hypersomnia shit..that fucking bothers me.sm #it explains everything ive been having since i was about 13 lmao the peak was the last years of high school #and then living alone in college and getting sleep apralysis every day i got to the point i wouldnt even br frightned anymore #i still have it about like ojce every two weeks now but nowadays what bothers me most #is feeling my muscles go numb when im walking home from college bc i want to sleep #and having hallucinations when im waking up or falling asleep although im also used to these so they dont scare me bc i know im hallucinatin #yk..#but yea the sleeping all day everyday fucking sucks #even when im having fun lol there are couple of videos of me playing the guitar for fun and just sleeping in the kiddle of it #also . when i got put on wellbutrin i had multippe convulsions #that tookme to the er and i dont remember a thing from that week so idk if it made some damage #bc they didnt make any exams at the hospital #they literally said i had overdose although i took the right dose #then injected some muscle relaxant w me #that made me convulse and go unconscious again #and then got me stable and sent me home like Yeah that happened idk just sleep it off #and i have migraines since i was 12 so liek #i hope the neurologist i get sent to takes me.serious #i feel like there is something going on yk #anywayssss #personal #narcolepsy #idk if theres a commujity here on the tags but lmk i feel all alone on this

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