#I agree with everything you said here

[gottaread2]

It means so much to me that Ed Nygma once described himself like a butterfly and later on Oswald saw a butterfly encased in ice and decided that was how he was going to deal with Ed.

[dazais-guardian-angel]

Well, at least Fukuzawa got his wish granted, I guess.... he's finally inside Fukuchi <3

[romionarry]

the rituals are intricate and very comical

[sifloopboning]

ok anon again because I've ended up with brain worms to an insane degree about the concepts we've been discussing but im also shy and don't wanna create a hornyposting acct to cope with it so you get to be the recipient of my gorgeously unhinged rambles now. enjoy

so you talked abt king potentially getting sif to the point where he could hurt them and have them thank them for it. & ive been thinking kinda about how that might happen in particular rather than just "okay king puts sif through the psychological torment nexus slowly and carefully until he's 100% dependent." that's cool and all but we need specifics. we need freakmatchinggggg

and like. okay. sit down w me and hold my hand. i talked before about how getting siffrin into this dependent mindset is easymode because about 90% of the work has already been done due to siffrin psychological issues. i think the same goes for this actually.

bc regardless of how much siffrin has to work to reshape his entire personality around this dude (and he does and will work for it!) the concept of having king want him on this somewhat unconditional level despite all of siffrins perceived flaws... he'd have trouble with that. it would cause cognitive dissonance. it would make him feel secure in some ways, too, but he's already got so many issues even dealing with the concept of "earned" love that having this bottomless pit of absolute wanting just suddenly thrust upon him without warning would fuck with his head. even all the work he does to be exactly what the king wants would not ever make him feel like he's done enough to earn that kind of desire.

and they're already prone to self punishing behaviors even before all That Timeloop Shit happens (i think a Lot abt how in act 2?!!! siffrin fucks up a lil in front of their friends and goes "i gotta loop back" AKA KILL THEMELF????? fella you're not even IN the torture cube yet how are you already like this) and just general feeling like they've gotta Earn It if ppl like them

so even barring my take that sif has a bighugemassive masochist streak for sex stuff it might come as an incredible relief to him if king started hurting him in response to his perceived fuckups. in his mind he's finally getting what he deserves. there's someone who cares enough to notice those flaws and deliver him the pain he deserves. and for a while afterwards, he can deal with being treated affectionately with zero cognitive dissonance, because he feels like he's earned it. he'll start spiraling again fast if he continues to be treated niceys without any intermittent cruelty but as long as there's consistent rules to follow - a consistent script he's been given, lol - he'll be able to cope with the scary scary scary concept that someone has this unconditional possessive attachment for him.

typing this all out... I've already said multiple times that this is so easymode for king but it just IS!!! ITS CRAZY!! HE WOULDN'T HAVE TO EVEN LIFT A FINGER! JUST CONTINUAL APPLICATION OF BARE MINIMUM ASS ATTENTION AND AFFECTION WHILE OCCASIONALLY IMPLYING THAT HE WANTS SIFFRIN TO DO CERTAIN THINGS WOULD BE ENOUGH!!! SIFFRIN WILL DO LITERALLY ALL THE LEGWORK HERE! HE CAN JUST SIT BACK ON HIS LITTLE SADIST THRONE AND WATCH THEM PSYCHOLOGICALLY TORTURE THEMSELF! ANYTHING ELSE HE DID WOULD JUST BE A BONUS! they're such a fucking nightmare of a pairing I'm truly obsessed. lets fuck up this rogue in ways never invented before on this earth

can we get married platonically

fr tho this is perfect no notes. i agree 100% with everything u said this is very much a match made in the depths of hell. its like combining ammonia and bleach in a poorly ventilated basement room and brother? im huffing those fumes out of a paper bag. the only thing that would improve this kingedfrin imo would be to find a way for sif to make king even worse. most likely not on purpose but itd be interesting and just as importantly funny if it was.

i want them to evolve from weird codependent couple in their honeymoon phase to the most toxic couple on earth to the physical manifestation of the mountain goats no children song. the party arrives to defeat the king but they witness him and siffrin interacting for less than 3 minutes and they're like. hey besties um can we interest you in a divorce. please. we can fight to the death after. its just that we as a party really feel like a divorce would be beneficial to all parties here. the PRETEEN can tell you guys need a divorce and they still think actors in plays have paper between them when they kiss. please

[snekdood]

anon... find someone else to harass lmao

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

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[literarywhoard]

to elaborate why i like atsushi and ryuunosuke better as friends (mentioned previously), i just don't think ryuu can get over the dazai situation right away like that.

ryuu is an abuse survivor. he went through hell and dazai is the devil. yet dazai turns around, dotes on atsushi and gives him the world, all while ryuu watches. so, ryuu in canon being a little bitter to atsushi, even after working together a few times, makes perfect sense from a psychological standpoint.

do you know what does not, in my opinion, make sense from a psychological standpoint? them dating.

don't get me wrong! i still think that, after a long talk, they probably would be good friends. ryuu would have to recount to atsushi exactly what dazai did (clearly, in season 5, atsushi is at least curious and interested in listening.) atsushi would then have to come to terms with, maybe dazai isn't all that great. he's not. i think, only after something like this, could i see them being chill together outside of work. dating, though??? i'm sorry, guys, it's a pass from me. i am all here for /p (platonic) atsuaku.

[heirtotheempire]

The Bad Batch season 3 has been interesting thus far. I really liked episodes 1-7 and I've nothing particularly bad to say about any of those episodes. But honestly episode 8, and after today, episode 9, it's once again gotten to be a bit of a pain to get through. Maybe I'm just too much of a Crosshair guy, idk. Today's episode especially irked me but last time I discussed the topics it delves into I got some pissy people in my notes and I'd rather avoid that this time around.

[lewyn-martell]

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[lunafeather]

Y'all crazy for preferring blighted!Neve when romancing her, you don't even get the whole love confession scene?? Yeah yeah they fuck, we knew that all along

Anyway finished my Neve Romance angst!run (Shadow Dragon Rook who saves Treviso and then assigns Neve to the wards) and can confidently say NO THANK YOU

I vastly prefer saving Minrathous just in general but ESPECIALLY if you're romancing Neve and I ALMOST would have decided to make blighted!Neve my canon if you got the entire final romance scene (the ILY is important character development!!) but you don't so my original choices still stand as my canon

[lovepotionnumber5]

had myself an ugly time rereading some good ol' 80s comics, which feature imho some of the most devastating pages in dc comics history. tl;dr, its after '85 crisis, meaning kara has died (dick giorlando you live up to your name) and has also been pretty much wiped from existence in very comics fashion. she doesn't appear in continuity from '85 crisis until 2001, i dont think--with one exception. christmas with the super-heros #2 (1989). my babygirl.

its not super complicated--each hero gets their own little story on how they spend their holiday, helping others (superman), feeling sad about robin (batman), let some rich guy pretend to be santa (hal and barry), and deadman possess a repo man to make him give money to the people he's hurt. he also sends some wine and presents to his old friends.

and he's lonely. no one can see him. what's the point? is misery the reward for his acts of good?

and if they were going to do crisis.......

why the FUCK didnt they at least give us something like this.

[medicinemane]

Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy

You have... very very very very very very very very smart people you know, and they're say something that not only isn't true, but literally is as opposite of the truth as it's possible to be... and you'll... gently inform them "hey, it's actually a bit more like this" and then they just kinda... go on saying literally the exact same thing

I'm not sure if it's just that... I often feel like I must be very bad at communicating, or people must just not notice/ignore a lot of what I say, but... I don't know

Like dearest friend, you've said something as absurd as... I don't know, it's hard to say without saying it, but honest to god about as absurd as saying the United States was a part of the USSR, that level of completely getting it backwards

...and it just doesn't seem to matter when I try to explain it... I legit don't even know if you read what I said

Really end up feeling like I'm going nuts sometimes

[thetangibleghost]

"you understand there are people better than Friday right? Like you understand that Friday isn't even within the top 60% of people. You have to understand this. You could walk out onto the street and pick three people and statistically two of them are gonna be better than Friday. There are countless people who are hotter, easier to talk too, sexier, smarter, and more spiritually in touch than Friday. Do You Understand This. Please sign here if you do."

[sams-venting]

this fandom fucking hurts

mentally, emotionally, physically. It hurts so much

I had my very first panic attack because of the false allegations placed onto me a year ago is cropping back up, only this time worse. The fucking thumbnail artist reblogged it for gods sake! Everyone now sees my mistake and my year of trying to become a better person is worthless. I want to relapse so badly. I want to grab that same fucking knife and make another attempt because then I know for sure it can’t continue to haunt me. because people don’t care that I still to this day feel guilty for everything that I did. I was pushed so far by them that I thought I had to self harm in order to make up for it, I almost actually did but I was forcibly switched out by one of our gate keepers. People don’t care if I tried to get better. They only care to condemn me because the doc left out so many important details such as I was the one to inform them it was grooming. I was the person who told them what they went through shouldn’t have happened. I was more than willing to do anything that I could to make it up to them and I did. They just couldn’t stop being mad at me. It’s understandable given I am not owed acceptance or forgiveness for what I did. But people won’t ever know that because I try to keep personal details in private. It’s even worse now that the doc doesn’t bother to censor anything, even the porn that I drew of myself! Big blogs like the thumbnail artist willing rebloged a doc knowing their audience is minors! My sexual preferences are personal ! I feel violated! I feel exposed and scared!

No one that would have the reach would be willing to give me the benefit of the doubt because The thumbnail artist already reblogged it with tags that pointed to it being only a year ago as early. This could’ve happened 2 or 3 years ago and it still would count as early

why am I constantly villainized by everyone?! I try and try and try and try!!! But it’s still not enough!! Nothing I do ever is enough for people!!

I had to delete this app and my bookmarks of it because of how badly this all was affecting me. I was getting physically ill. I had a migraine so bad the pain was white. Fuck!!

I’m a physically and mentally disabled adult who has to juggle some sort of stress 24/7. I can’t get a break! What more do people want from me?!

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[singsweetmelodies]

alright anons