#I accidentally rambled oops

[jmflowers]

I don't want to gush but gahhhhh I love hygge universe so muuuch!!! There's just something about how Maya and Carina interact with each other. They have a bunch of things to work out, Andrea is quirky and Bea is a handful but there's just so much love underneath. Ok just kidding...I'll gush.

I LOVE that you chose to come to my inbox and gush/not gush. Thank you soooooooo much. I actually read this aloud to my mom? (She wasn't as excited as I was, of course.)

Hygge Universe is one of my most prized creations because it's kept me company through like... a year and a half? Two years? Of my life. I always wanted to create a family!fic universe because @a-windsor 's Thing!Verse meant so much to me when I was just a wee little fic reader. I'd never found the right fandom for it, though.

And then I was in college and I was surrounded by men all the time, talking about men who made films and men who acted in films and men who told stories about men who did men things. It was like drowning every day, so I came home and wrote soft, loving stories about women who loved each other and their children and got to have happy endings.

I didn't know it at the time, but I was writing about a little boy whose fictional birth is just a couple months before my real nephew. (And almost exactly a month before my youngest niece, and mere days after my high school best friend's little girl...) I'm waiting to see if the universe pulls a fast one and bestows another child in my life who'd be the same age as Beatrice. We'll see...

But anyways, yeah! I wanted it to be a place where under everything, there was always love. Andrea was a slow-growing conglomerate of ideas shared by friends and pieces of people I love (mostly my brother) and snippets of his moms. I love his trajectory of starting out as this weird, nerdy, intelligent kid and growing into someone capable of putting himself and his own needs first, while still showing up and loving others. That's probably something I wish for my own brother, honestly. Andrea as a teenager and a young adult (I've written a fair bit for him that hasn't yet been shared) is just... cool and kind and adept at reading others. He's got jokes, too.

Bea, though... I think she came out of my head fully formed. There's never been much question for me of where she's going and what she's going to accomplish. I want so badly to have the time and the readership to tell her entire story. (Hopefully that dream comes true.) She's all the spunk of each of the second-borns in my family and a touch of the bravery I see in people I admire and so much of who Carina and Maya were when we first met each of their characters. She's one of those kids who start out sure of themselves and then face a setback and aren't really sure how to recover right away. But she does - I promise. There's a happy ending for both of these children who live in my head.

It means the world to me that anyone cares even a fraction of how much I care about this universe. It's been one of the greatest joys of my life to share it with others. Receiving the love refuels me to keep writing away at it, even though the deadline of the finale is looming. I hope this community that's been built still exists when the show is over. I'm not done telling stories about Station 19 yet.

[captainmalewriter]

I think you're obsessed with pecs.

And you're NOT??? 😟

Pecs have always been my favorite part of the male body. Honestly, I believe it's practically a universal thing to enjoy a nice pair of tits of your preferred gender and anyone that says otherwise is probably lying.

Like, c'mon, if I had a rack of thick, hairy honkers I'd be admiring/manhandling them nonstop. It's literally a stress ball right on the chest!

Even if not my own, I'm always beyond grateful to have an opportunity to caress and worship an awesome pair of pecs!!

And when I say worship, I mean worship like I am a fucking whore for a man's chest, I could literally spend a full 24 hours just doing this:

And one of the best part about pecs is that you don't need to touch to appreciate them. You can see them sweater puppies in action when a man is running, dancing, driving, practically anything!!

Honestly? I love pecs of all kinds of sizes, colors, hairiness, thickness, etc etc etc. If it's a man's chest, I'm already in love. Pecs are pecs in my book!

Although I will admit, there is one particular aspect to pecs that I can simply NEVER get enough of... Can you guess what it is?

P-E-C. B-O-U-N-C-E.

PEC BOUNCE!!

I just can't get enough of it! It's like food for my soul at this point haha.

So anon, have I convinced you? C'mon, come join the dark side, we got nice pecs here. Soon enough, you'll become obsessed too! All you'll think about is pecs! In fact, I bet it's already working.

You need to touch them... you need to grow your own... you need to bounce them... Pecs, pecs, pecs...

Anyways, I'll stop rambling now lmfao if you're a man with a chest, give your pecs a good squeeze for me ok? Please? You have a SEXY pair of pecs and they need love too! If you can, give them a little bounce too! It's good for you ;)

[tsams-and-co-memes]

Future villain idea for tsams: V1 Eclipse

V1 was cast out of Sun's head, and Moon said he probably ended up somewhere random

Meaning that his body is still out there somewhere

He was so stubborn that, even in his heavily damaged/injured state, I highly doubt he would've stayed still and let himself rot, wherever he popped up. Knowing him, the guy probably tried to drag himself somewhere and likely would've tried to repair himself out of spite

No one knows where he ended up, no one's found his body (that we know of), no one's been looking for him, given everything else that's been going on, and he just became an afterthought. If he took more than a year to somehow get somewhere and repair himself, and then came back with an absolute vengeance, I wouldn't be surprised. And honestly? It'd be the perfect cover. No one's looking for him, so he can lay low and do whatever he needs to do until he's fully operational again

Plus,, Vegeta went to the afterlife once, because he wanted to meet his grandpa (Monty’s dad). In the process, he found whatever version of Eclipse it was that blew up Lunar there, and Solar Flare was even present. If a previous iteration of Eclipse was there, in the afterlife, while another is still alive, that implies that they're not the same person

One was the original, one was a backup, and two were/are copies

So like. V1 gets cast out and assumed dead, but it's never confirmed. V2 wakes up and has the personality and the memories, and although he's the same guy, he's also not. Then V2 dies, and V3 pops up. V3 is a copy. He's got the memories and personality, but he knows he's not THE Eclipse. V4 is also a copy. The memories are there but his personality has shifted. Yes he's Eclipse, but in a way, he's also not. He's almost kinda doing what Solar did, and going through a similar process. The only thing different about their processes (aside from what they've been through) is the fact that one changed his name and the other didn't

V1 could still be out there somewhere, and we'd never even know until he was already back in working order and Doing Things again

[kagoutiss]

oot zelda doodle i liked :’-)))

[milk-ly]

Kotoko and her connection to Dante’s Inferno’s Satan

Disclaimer: This is just about symbolism and I know how it sounds but I promise I’m not trying to imply anything or demonize her! I love Kotoko! Ive just been repeatedly noticing details about the parallel for several months now and I just really want to bring it up! This is just an analysis of the details MILGRAM has provided for it. I’m incredibly sorry if I make a mistake!

Kotoko has a lot of parallels to Dante’s Inferno Satan, especially in relation to Es.

To make sure we’re all on the same page, Dante’s Inferno is a Christian poem that outlines the 9 circles of hell. MILGRAM directly references Dante’s Inferno by quoting it in all the t2 door arts.

“Abandon all hope, ye who enter.” A quote derived from a sign at the gate of hell in the poem.

Each ring of Hell contains sinners with different levels of sins, and each ring’s sin was meant to be worse the further inside you go. Ive seen a couple theories that each prisoner correlates with a specific ring of hell. (Ex: Haruka is ring 1, Limbo; Yuno is ring 2, lust; etc)

But Dante’s Inferno only outlines 9 rings, what about our 10th prisoner, Kotoko?

While it could be that she’s again the “outsider” to the other prisoners, the last section of the 9th ring of Hell is significant because it is the center of Hell, containing Satan. So it could be reasonably argued that Kotoko correlates with it.

MILGRAM already has a TON of religious references. One that I’ve seen pointed out is how it seems the cover art of each novel is a reference to a famous Christian art piece.

The Es in each novel seems to be where Jesus relatively is. Remember that Jesus is both the son of God AND God. God gives sinners their judgements which sounds very similar to Es and how they're giving the prisoners (the human sinners) their verdicts.

Plus, the quote Milgram quotes is on the doors the prisoners are entering, and in Dante’s inferno, it’s on the gate of hell so you can compare or theorize that MILGRAM is a parallel to (or straight up is) purgatory. And Es, being the one who decides the verdict, parallels God.

Also, her t2 VD is named “YONAH,” which is the masculine version of the name Jonah. Not only does this relate to her themes of masculinity again, Jonah is a name that originates from Hebrew origins which means “dove.”

It is also a reference to the book of Jonah. A main theme of this book is “Jonah wants God to operate on his timeline [...] He wanted God to dole out punishment on his clock instead of according to God's plan. Yet God showed Jonah that in his infinite wisdom, he can't and will not be rushed.” Which is pretty much exactly what happens in YONAH, and also once again compares Es to God.

Dante’s Inferno’s Satan was an angel, a splendid being, apparently the most perfect of God's creatures… an “Angel of light.” We/Es deemed Kotoko innocent in t1. She had the highest innocent percentage in t1 too because a lot of people thought her murder was justified. You know, the most perfect of God’s creatures. The most perfect out of the prisoners.

“We really can work together.”

But then Satan tried to usurp God.

“If you don’t have the strength on your own, let me take care of it. Es! I can do it in MILGRAM!”

Kotoko wants to be the prison guard because Es isn’t capable in her eyes.

Satan was ultimately sent to Hell and punished as "the ultimate sinner" for his betrayal of trying to usurp God.

We are now punishing Kotoko for her attempts to judge the prisoners herself and “usurp” Es. It works even better now that she has the highest guilty percentage in all of MILGRAM so far as the “ultimate sinner.”

As a lot know, Fuuta also has tons of religious references too. (Ex. His VD is titled Baptism by Fire) By him also passing judgements onto people, you could say that he was trying to play God.

What is that saying about us, the audience, then? And our parallel/foil to Fuuta/Kotoko?

Dante’s Inferno as a whole is very much based around the idea of “evil will be punished,” which not only encapsulates Kotoko’s ideals but MILGRAM’s as well. It makes sense that MILGRAM says that Kotoko is a perfect parallel to the facility.

(I also wanna mention that there's something that could be said about the holy trinity in relation to Es + the audience + jackalope. For example, how Jesus is God in the flesh and Es is the audience "in the flesh," by acting as a personified version of us to interact with the "human sinnners" but I feel like I might be going into tinfoil hat territory.)

[i-am-a-fan]

when you binge a show because you think it’s going to last you a while and you end up finishing it in a week.

[unma]

My theory is that you've had (or currently have) a big thing for roleplaying, perhaps directly related to your aptitudes as a writer.

I feel like someone just sniped me through a buncha buildings and windows and still hit a head shot. How could you tell? I haven't actively roleplayed in at least a couple of years—not because I don't want to, tbh, I would if I could actually get back into it again—so I'm surprised anyone could tell. I still have a bunch of my proudest rp posts saved (it was mostly crp), and I was into it for at least 3 years or so.

It's definitely related to my aptitude as a writer though. Having to respond so often to some of the most detailed crp posts where you would and often did get technicality'd into oblivion (and would do the same back) definitely made me care a lot about the details, and I'm not gonna lie I do still draw on that still when describing combat sometimes. Getting technicality'd into oblivion doesn't sound too fun, but I assure you it was (once you got used to it anyway), and that community was definitely my closest set of online friends for a good bit.

[gemharvest]

Now that I've like. Processed what I learned yesterday I'm fucking. Generating very meanies ideas. Part of me reeaaallllyy wants to make Beef try (emphasis on try, I wouldn't want him to succeed) and sabotage his relationships with the other BFs.

I will not be doing this, because I do not want to kill YS after he's gotten so far. but like

[lifesshort-imshorter]

My Sunday PSA for ADHD:

I am *constantly* seeing people talk about accidentally doubling up on their meds because they can't remember already taking them - or skipping them altogether just in case they did take them.

Seriously, guys, please think about getting the timer caps for your pill bottles. This has been a lifesaver for me when I grab my bottle to take my meds, remember I need to do something, set it down, and then when I see the pill bottle again I can't remember if I even opened the damn thing. This has happened enough that I can't count the times, and even if I could I wouldn't tell you because really, brain? C'mon.

This thing tells you exactly how long it's been since you opened the bottle and helps to keep you on track. These come in multiple sizes to fit virtually any pill bottle you already have, but they also come with their own bottles (and labels!) on the off chance they don't - and you can find them online easy enough.

Best part is these things can work for multiple people for different reasons. Got a forgetful parent or grandparent and want to make sure they're safe with their meds? Great gift. Have a teen in the home but you smoke weed and want to keep an eye on it? Perfect nug jar. Just curious about how long your adhd meds last before productivity goes down? Perfect timer.

Have teen children and worried they're going to access your Vicodin from that dentist appointment? Have a high fever and can't remember how long it's been since you took your last Tylenol? On day three of a depression streak and can't remember doing anything but staring at the wall? Can't remember how long it's been since your last birth control pill? Great purchase.

Just keep them in an area you are frequently and stop worrying (I keep my adhd meds right next to my computer, and my morning meds next to the sink in the bathroom). Get rid of the am/pm pill containers that no one remembers to fill anyways. Trust me, it is worth it.

In case I've inspired anyone, these are the ones I have, but there are other brands and styles out there from different sites if you don't support Amazon.

Even if it's not for you, please share so that other people see.

[constellation-of-disasters]

October, 7 PM

The water,

Gods, the water,

There’s something about it 

It pulls and moves and drowns and lifts

A cacophony of noise and the press of silence on covered ears

Muffling the world above

An infinity 

Poised between, a balance of air and light and breath and

Nothing

Silence

The struggle beneath, gasping and clawing and fighting 

Breaking the surface is an act of penitence

An acknowledgement of subservience 

A prayer

And so prayers litter the surface, 

Foam the remnants of a battleground,

Nets strewn and the bright buzzing of red, counting down down down until 

It

All

Stops

.

.

.

It’s quiet, and so, so loud now

The screams of jubilance and pain

Family is something made in blood, here

Not the blood which runs through veins but the kind that drips, drips, drips

Tipping off of noses and coloring the surface maroon

Sliding off of nails, painting hands red with the violence and the love and the pain 

Pouring into a battleground, a declaration of strength

Into the screams of victory, hands held high, 

The warmth of seven souls pressed together as one

Unified in a stubborn promise

The clasp of hands whispers of war

Home is found here.

In the blood and cold and breath.

In the silence.

In the water 

[foreststarflaime]

Genesis and Sephiroth have never really liked touch, each for their own reasons. Still, they desperately want it, and are inevitably drawn into each other’s arms by the strings of fate (the author’s whims) and learn to enjoy it.

He was too sensual a child—he liked to experience everything with all of himself, all the attention and meaning he could wring out of any moment—for anything even slightly resembling intimacy of any kind to be taken lightly, touch not least of all, so the fact that he felt trapped into it bothered him more than he knew how to express.

The mood has possessed me to write Genesis pov again (though this is a twoshot and the next chap will be seph pov) so have this nice touch-starved fic that randomly flowed out of my mind yippee

It was originally going to be just sephgen, but then I blinked and ended up in gengeal land again. Why this keep happening to me I do not know but I’m not complaining, sephgen next chapter

[albino-parakeet]

I got to the part when Henry Wu is giving everyone the tour of the lab last week (I'm only reading during my lunch breaks at work)

I forgot how cute the scene is with Tim and the Baby Raptor 🥺

And now I can't stop thinking about the raptors acting like kittens trying to climb their caregiver(s).

Ohhhh they're such babies. I would NOT SURVIVE Jurassic Park.

[the-one-who-lambs]

I keep forgetting I shuffle my queue regularly and it has 960 posts ish in there so every once in a while it spits out something from like. may

[worldsbiggestnerd101]

i want my gf so bad rn

i need her here with me or at the very least i need to text her but she’s not gonna see it til god knows when

i’d feel bad for telling her all this anyway, i don’t want her to worry

[theradicalace]

B 1 dplendid?

shhh he's watching a sad movie

[vulpixelates]

the monday blues are getting me especially hard after a four day weekend of being curled up in bed and playing pretend with my wife 😔😔

daydreaming about the lesbians in our heads SAVE ME