#I STILL HAVENT PLAYED WITH INFANTS

[bottsbotts]

Vitoria Campos. Likes soccer (futbol), content creation, and her family.

(and that's her future hubs marcelo, theyre on a soccer team together)

[bluupxels]

Hebe is flying through milestones :”)

[angiesimbot]

[fandomnerd9602]

The ball missed the net. The whistle blew.

“Foul” Wanda, dressed in her referee uniform called out, “out of bounds”

Third grader Natalie could only huff. She thought she’d get it a little easier with her mom being the referee. Somehow it just seemed harder.

You were watching the whole game, cradling your infant twins Billy and Tommy.

“Look boys, Mom’s getting another group of parents angry at her again” you pointed over to a group of parents already walking up to Wanda.

You had to admit it, she looked amazing in that outfit. The power had clearly gone to your wife’s head.

You always loved seeing her in that outfit. The fantasies that played out in your mind.

Ten years of marriage and you still act like newlyweds.

“Go easy ref!” You jokingly call out, “this is a third graders’ game”

Wanda blows her whistle on you.

“Fowl” she answers back, “unlawfully fine looking parent. See me after the game.”

Agatha, acting as the Westview School basketball coach, couldn’t help but burst out laughing.

“I shouldve never given her that uniform.” Agatha snickers.

Pietro, ever the jokester, threw some popcorn at his sister. “Boo this ref!”

Wanda walked over and sat down by you. “I’m going to kill him some day”

“You love him too much” you answer back, kissing your wife on the cheek. “And the boys love you out there”

“Are you sure it’s not you?” She winks back. Wanda whispers in your ear, “I got Pietro to watch the kids after the game and Agatha to let us lock the locker rooms up”

“You’ve been reading my referee fantasies again havent you?” You smirk.

Wanda nods “and I’m gonna make every single one of them come true tonight” your wife tops it off with a wink.

And then came another foul, this time from the other team. Wanda was immediately on it.

She blew her whistle, “foul!”

That’s your Wanda.

For @aloneodi and @lifespectator

[neoncityrain]

Could you talk about Prancer. I like their eye theme and I'm curios about them. Thanks ether way!

YESS!!!! i love prancer. though ill have to explain hail at the same time! do keep in mind these characters arrre... eight? years old? so some details could use a bit more refining im sure. BUT HERE WE GO. heres a picture of both in their redesigned art to kick us off:

the basics of how prancer AND hail were made is, a cresselia named da'at (transmasc) fell for a minccino named hanako (cisfem). while they couldnt biologically have children- for more reasons than one- they wanted to raise some kids together! pretty badly! however, hanako is a MINCCINO. no pokemon were really willing to let them adopt a kid- she was considered too small, too weak, too fragile. and da'at is not the type to leverage his power.

so da'at went to arceus and begged for them to be able to have a kid. unfortunately... their arceus is a bit of a prick and demanded something in return. i have since redesigned both hail and prancer, but this was a pretty good image:

arceus gave them a kid, alright- a minccino and darkrai kid, to directly butt heads with da'at. da'at was essentially banished to the dream realm as soon as this kid came into existence, as their very presence messed with the balance of the world... leaving hanako as a single mother.

this kid was named hail, but it was pretty clear pretty fast that there was something wrong.

being a darkrai, hail had nonstop and uncontrollable nightmares. he inflicted them on others, too, yes- but he was an infant with the power of a god and a link to the nightmare realm. so pretty early on, his personality was split into two- the one who handled nightmares and had a strong link to the dream world and weak link to the physical world who adopted the name 'prancer', and the one who handled the physical world and had a weak link to the dream world, who continued holding onto the name 'hail'.

hanako knew this- she was a good mother!- and treated prancer no differently. she simply had two sons now.

in system terms, prancer is the trauma holder while hail is the host!

unfortunately prancer definitely suffers in the position hes in without realizing it. hes playful! hes childish! he has fun in the nightmare realm! forgive the super-old art, but:

he doesnt have complete control. he can mess with things, sure, but no amount of trying will prevent the nightmares. hes spent SO LONG in the dream world, surrounded by only things that hurt, that hes desensitized and entirely forgets nightmares hurt others! in fact, when he inevitably butts heads with his dad--

da'at thinks theyre fighting.

prancer does not. (iru belongs to the wonderful @ender-wolf-513 )

he uses his power to get someone else to attack him! he thinks theyre playing! he genuinely thinks theyre playing. he wants to play so bad. this is his normal world, there are no consequences. this happens to him all the time, why would this be strange? why would this be violence? thats just silly? theyre playing. it was kind of a pattern, really, even with other characters (and yes the first one is still him, just disguised):

the explanation is since lost to time, but i had a whole thing about how the purpose of nightmares is to keep defenses up while dreams are to provide rest, so both are necessary. by getting only nightmares and very little time in the physical world- with no mentor at that!- prancer lost the entire concept of rest and morality.

hes a fascinating character to explore, especially partnered with his alter, hail- who is calmer in general, but so depressed that he will stop taking care of himself entirely. prancer is so silly i love him

iirc the eyes thing is something prancer started doing to make himself more intimidating and seem cooler, because hes (secretly!!!!!) a huge dork like that.

its a billion years and i havent touched this playlist in foreverrrrrrrrrrrr but if you like music heres his playlist. click bait especially. its the "lol jk! i got you! >w<"

if i made these guys today id prolly give them more alters. im so attached to them though. the two of fools

[c0rpseductor]

how the fuck is this bitch 20 and she doesnt know what a dive bar is? like girl havent you seen one on tv before??? what on EARTH. baffling trait for a character.

i mean literally btw. like not just shes never BEEN to a dive, but like. this chapter opens on kal taking her to one and she says, verbatim, "what IS this place?!" and he has to explain to her.

idk what this author thinks being 20 is actually fucking like bc like. i would certainly have known what a fucking dive bar is at 20 even if i had never been in one personally. and i think by that point i definitely had as a kid to see my dad play music.

just like. maybe someone in real life is out there who IS this sheltered and oblivious at 20 years of age, but it feels unbelievable to me as a reader. also his reaction to her saying this being like, "wow, she really is young....a mere babe from the cradle....." like, bro. she's 20. she should really have some concept of what a bar is unless she was living genuinely under a rock. this isn't a young people thing. also he's 32 so every time he goes on and on about how she's like, an infant, it's extremely funny to me, like bro i know people your age and you are not old cut the act. i get that 20 is still quite young in the grand scheme of things but like thats an entire grown woman please be for real with me right now

[baby-xemnas]

i haven’t watched the episodes in a very long time, but iirc carrot does think chopper is cool and is impressed by his intelligence too. she compliments him for his good ideas when he figures out how to escape the place they are trapped in! she continues to call him “choniki,” which i think to her is same as calling chopper “chopper aniki,” just combining the words into a cute nickname. i think chopper was a little bothered because “choniki” doesn’t sound as cool to him 😂 but iirc he also never corrects carrot or tells her to call him differently the rest of her time with the strawhats, so maybe the nickname grew on him 😂

i do agree tho that chopper’s personality does seem to be just “cute and scared sometimes” post-TS. i like his new design? but i personally prefer his character design pre-TS. it’s strange, it seems like many characters personalities became more one-note post-TS? like robin, nami and zoro, i love them, but in my opinion they are not as vibrant and well-rounded as they were pre-TS. or side characters that we have been with for a long time, like bepo,l and pensha, still don’t get much expansion, esp compared to new side characters :/

thats cute good for them, ill continue feeling sour regarding all things carrot and zou-wano-onigashima arcs out of pure jealousy but im glad chopper had Something nice happen

and everyone is Absolutely one note post TS and choppers pre moefication beam design is way better. introduction chopper being a weird lil guy is so good u can actually but him as 15 while post TS is an infant

agreeing with everything you said thems my main frustrations :'))))) i havent read anything post TS except first half of WCI when it was coming out (in hopes Gin will show up, foolishly - but dropped halfway cuz i was so disappointed in Pudding 180 bullshit and Reiju being the only sibling thats semi okay - only cute enemy girls turning non evil was so lame i hated it. it only got worse after)

everyone is one note, strawhats don't interact between each other in fun ways like they used to before - let alone have strong emotional moments. oda seems bored with them post ts and divides his attention towards new dolls he makes along the way - like how much love he dedicated to wano randos, SHs were pushed to the background only having a few action scenes but mostly playing second fiddle to the new cast hes made. its nuts

[deutoplasmic]

HELP SUSPICIOUS SHOSEI 😭 it’s like hes secretly a tanuki getting into all sorts of trouble

FENGFAN BEST BOY ITS TRUE ITS TRUE

omg same though my chinese isnt good enough to keep up with people especially if theyre from 东北 😭 theyll be saying stuff so fast and im like :D what

i love all kinds of cookies!! as long as they dont have raisins in them,,, i have the taste buds of a toddler

thats okay 😔 if we wanted to stan smart people we would be stanning men 😔 OOOO WHOS YOUR DXTEEN BIAS? i havent gotten around to most of their content yet so i dont know the braincell count ranking

okay so lets just say (jo1’s fandom name)(jo1’s fandom name)subs. has a carrd. 🫡🏴‍☠️ u get me? 🫡🏴‍☠️ have fun 😙

uh. honestly animation just takes a lot of training and patience lmaO you just keep practicing till your brain explodes 😭 and yea knitting and crocheting are so much fun to me!! i feel like a cat playing with yarn lmao

RIGHT YOU GET ME!!! i love a good ruined boy. makes me wanna give rihito head pats

i like. a bunch of artists lmao the songs i sent you are barely the tip of the iceberg 😭

you're not here to ask questions you're here to take his laundry and get paid 🤑🤑🤑 BUT TANUKI SHOSEI IS SO REAL. hes too cute and wholesome he has to be doing smth nefarious

omg i remember poking the ini ao3 tag and there are a bunch of chinese fans who keep writing kimunishi smut LMAO like goddamn nothing about your homeland boy

OK same boat same boat 😔🤝 aforementioned irl's mother is from 东北 and she's honestly pretty easy to understand but. yeah. it's the 儿话 for me bro 😔😔😔 fake it til you make it i suppose

oh my GOD YOURE SO REAL FOR NO SULTANAS cannot stand them they're so bad. sultana bread my beloathed. i can't lie sometimes i buy the custard thingies meant to introduce infants to different foods bc it's cheaper than actually buying a proper custard carton 😰

ofc 😔 all the smart people are off getting office jobs or whatever not becoming idols 😔 omg i like koshin but at like certain angles he looks disturbingly like 周深 it's a bit scary. tbh i only watch the dxteen content with premises that i find interesting...... bc i can't be bothered to watch them all.......... if it helps their academic test had 2 people get under 10/50. koshin highest scorer got 32 (?)/50 and second place nalu (?) got 25/50. so. yknow. but the quiz was a bit silly there was a quote in it which was by from some american guy in the 1800s or smth that was apparently part of like the civil smth subject

i do get you 🙏 thank you very much. i will keep it for reference 🙏

wait that is genuinely so cool. damn it (me when things take effort) ...... but YES omg i made like two beanies in like may to prepare for the winter and . never used them . it's like nearly spring so um. either way what kind of stuff do you make???

YES idk something about a pathetic flop fail boy.... so very tasteful....... rihito trying to practice confessing by pretending his cat is you and not noticing you walking in and witnessing it all.... and when he sees you he's like "UHHHH WELL GOTTA FIND THE CAT LOL" and speeds out the door like it's life or death. and his cat is still sitting there

[parzleys]

the craft family 🏡

[cornflowercanine]

i dont think ppl acknowledge and appreci8 terezi’s midkey 8atshitness and 8eing outright grim at times enough she tried to lead june to her death 8c she thought the kids were 8oring/useless/may8e smth else idr i care a8t myself too much to reread homestuck atm, she was actively uncaring when dave was freaked out over 8ro dying and was amused when he had to kill all his clones, upon tavros’ dead 8ody PLUMMETING 8ehind her she just  did a  fake inspection   with plushies i n33d ppl with the general hc of ‘terezi is hehe gremlin girl 8ut Underneath all that Gross Unlova8le Slo88iness shes ACTUALLY innocent and good’ to understand they could not 8e more wrong terezi pyrope will str8 up sta8 you in the leg and laugh in your face when you trip 8c of it

[hotseok]

i love her sm

[dumplingsimz]

infants are sooo adorable and this update was so needed, my infants havent grown up yet and i already love them and cant wait to play with them when theyre older

also bruuuhh theyre so hard to take care of i have twins and 4 adult sims taking care of them and still have no time to do anything lol

[violentviolette]

Can you explain ASPD and NPD from a neurological standpoint? I vaguely know it has to do with an underdeveloped frontal lobe, but other than that, it's a little mysterious.

not really, but thats because thats a really difficult question that there isnt a straightforward answer to what we know about how trauma impacts the brain is both very little and highly variable. we know that it definitly absolutely does, but there just havent been enough large scale studies or meta deta to support a clear cut list of specific areas that are definitly affected. and there might never be, our brains are the most complex and least udnerstood organs in our bodies, so our understanding of them is constantly shifting there are trends tho and things we think are likely based on current info, frontal lobes being underdeveloped or stunted is one thing that we've seen evidence for and that explains lifelong issues, but doesnt mean it's a 1:1 ratio of "if u have aspd then ur frontal lobe is underdeveloped" or even "if ur frontal lobe is underdeveloped u have aspd" like neither of those are statements that can be made as definitives, only likely possibilities

another is chemical imbalance issues, low seratonin receptors, damaged or decreased output of certain chemicals, ect. we've seen lots of evidence that trauma can physically impact and change the way that our brains both produce and recieve chimicals. for example there have been studies that suggest that high levels of stress as an infant can potentially cause the brain to overproduce both stress hormones and their receptors and therefore underproduce receptors for positive chemicals like dopamine and seratonin, so even if ur body later in life begins producing them in healthy amounts, ur brain has no way to absorb enough of them. but this is something that is extreamly variable person to person and requires specialized testing to check there are others but those are the two most common that people talk about, but there's things with reward centers, stuff with ur gut bacteria and seratonin storage, and more nuanced things around chemicals and receptors and what parts of ur brain are being used to process what. but those are all relatively new understandings that are still being researched

but the real thing that i think is important to remember is that the nuerological aspects of cluster b pds specifically (not all mental illnesses) are not the cause of the disorder, they are byproducts of it*** the trauma has to happen first, its what initially causes the brain to malfunction and deviate from normal healthy development. so the specifics of both the trauma and the genetics of the person expeiriencing it are what are going to determine how the brain is physically affected. because of this, it's very common for there to be no lasting neurological differences once someone has processed and healed from that trauma. that doesnt mean they dont or didnt have that disorder. so looking for the nuerological component is the last step of the process as opposed to the first. it's only after someone has healed from their trauma, learned to cope, and is in a healthy environement yet still is not improving depsite treatment, that is when it becomes clear that there is a nuerological component at play for them ***the only exception to this is aspd. which can be caused solely by a physical traumatic brain injury, such as an accident where ur struck in the head so forcefully or ur brain hits the inside of ur skull so forcefully that it essentially smashes ur frontal lobe to pieces. aspd is the only cluster b pd that this can happen with. physical traumatic brain injuries like that cannot (as of our current knowelge) cause npd, bpd, or hpd.

[articstyx]

i still havent played with infants despite being excited for the pack to come out 🤡 im a disgrace

[mixedsnape]

I'm illiterate and just listened to the audio books so i probably missed it but what did dumbledore do please rant to your heart's content

sklfjfdk i accidenyl exited the page so now i gotta rewrite everything, theres probrably more, but its late.

left harry alone on the doorstep of relatives he doesnt fucking know int he muddle of the night, as an infant, without consulting anyone and against the wishes of another proffessor.

i will reiterate, did no legal checks, barely a background check (which he then disregards) and then doesnt fucking check on the kid again for 11 years.

had arabella figg spy on harry meaning either he knew how harry was being treated adn ignored it or arabella was an unreliable spy which he would have known

the special boy can play dlying murder soccer at 11 no problem, but you need parent permission to go tot he little village apparently

would have know sirius was innocent or at leave could have gotten him a fair trial because fukcing everyone got a trial, bellatrix got a trial, wha tt he fuck

keeps information from harry to get him to do what he wants basically, straight up said that eventually he was keeping shit from him because he accidently started caring about him meaning he said Whoops my

everything to do with the philosophers stone, if we ignore the fact that he was basically baiting harry into there, he still placed a dangeorus artefact surounded by dangerous traps to lure a dangerous man into a school full of children who, as we see, could easily get past them (or, yknow, fucking die like the trio almost did)

similarly, set the mirror of erised there, knowing anyone could come across it when its been known to drive people mad

kept the school open with a fucking bassilisk on the loose, what the fuck, he was alive and teaching the last time that happened, he was there for moaning myrtles death

locked sirius, yknow the abuse victim with the 12 years of trauma, in the house he was uuuuuh abuse in? like, there were other places he could have none, literally any black property, out of the country, any other house that could be hidden, literally.

allowed hagrid to teach, like i like hagrid hes cool but he literally can not be trusted to run a classroon, he brought a fuckign illegal dragon into the school

allowed teachers to dole out bullshit punishments includign sending 11 year olds into the forbidden forest at night, locking a 13 year old out of the dorms while a mass murderer is on the loose and doing  nothing (presumably) about a grown man trasnfiguring a child into a ferret

no, seriously, letting 11 year olds wander around the murder forest int he dead of night searching for whatevers MURDERING THE FUKCING UNICORNS

is so clearly biased towards gryfindors, its wild

continued to send abused students back to their homes, no matter how much they begged to stay at hogwarts

treated 11 year old abuse victim grew up in london during ww2 tom riddle like a fucking evil mastermind from the first time they met instead of like, getting the kid therapy.

high key, even if he didn’t trust tom riddle, letting him teach at hogwarts would have given him a way to directly supervise him at all times!

*gestures towards lockhart*

*gestures towards grindlewald*

*gestures towards the dementors*

shld have snapped the elder wand in half, but thats just a pet peeve

allowed remus to teach without insuring he would be taking his wolfsbane and having no safely measures in place for when he didnt, putting the whole school in danger

in my opinion, his ignoring and avoiding harry during 5th year and not fucking helping him or telling him shit directly led to harry and co storming the ministry, going right into a trap and sirius fucking dying.

did jack shit about hte marauders almost bullying, sexually assulting adn almost killing severus, and who knows who else they treated like that, and continued to downplay their abuse until he fuckign died.

prepared no one for his fuckign deaht, wow

groomed harry, a child, to die, as a child, with no knowledge as to why he had to sacrafice his life until the very last moment. lets be honest, the final battle could have happpened at any age for harry and dumbledore would have let him fucking die.

had the same general low regard fro muggles as teh rest of the wizarding world

employed filch, the functionally disabled squib, to be the glorified janitor of a magic school.

did nothing to help harry during the triwizard tournament thing which is pretty fucking wack considering he was 14 and completely unprepared.

doesnt tell harry jack shit. doesnt tell anyone ajck shit.

in general acts like an abusive father figure who does whatever the fuck he wants no matter how much it hirts others because its For The Greater Good. no im not projecting, shut up.

also heres a long as reddit thing about why dumbledore sucks that i have been recomended but havent read through

[tommyquackson]

Not Working | p. parker | part 4

Not My Gif

summary: you and peter are together but maybe it’s just not working anymore

warnings: angst, depression, fluff cussing i think?

note: this was the final chapter and i loved this series. thank you guys for supporting it and showing it love. Make sure you request and read my other fics. ok love y’all enjoy!!!

this is Midway School of Science and Technology calling to inform you, you’ve missed 13 consecutive school days and if you miss 2 more you’ll be at risk of failing your courses and we will have to send police over to do a wellness check. We hope to see you in school tomorrow. Have a great day

So it’s been 13 days. You haven’t left your house in 13 fucking days. You’re beginning to smell yourself, you haven’t bathed or showered since the night everything went down. You just lay in bed, watching whatever black and white shows playing on MeTV at the time. You only eat about once a day, when reciting old life insurance commercials begins to hurt your brain. Your phone died a long time ago and you’re just now listening to the messages in your home phone.

You click delete on the message and let the next one play.

hey y/n, uh it’s Brad. Look i know you hate me but you haven’t been at school and nobodies heard from you so I just wanna make sure you’re okay. I do care about you and i wanted to say-

you roll your eyes and click delete again.

hey honey! Aunt May here, just wanted to let you know me and peter are safe and back home. I’d love for you to come over and have dinner on thursday, and don’t worry Peters visiting Tony so he won’t be here. Call me back or just show up okay hon. Love you bye.

Your hand dangled over the delete button before you sighed deeply. May never did anything to you, but how were you gonna pull it together enough to get to her. You were exhausted all the time, even if you never do anything. You looked at the time and date on your home phone and realized it’s Wednesday. You sigh deeply and pick up your home phone to call May. 

ring ring ring

“Y/n! Hey honey, how are you?” Mays voice sings through the phone and for a moment the world seems a little brighter. 

“Hey May,” You croak out, you havent spoken in almost 2 weeks and your throat hurts. “I’m not doing well May, everything hurts and I cant even get out of bed. I cant go to school, or eat or sleep or shower May I hate this. I hate it.” Your already raspy voice breaks into sobs and you wonder if she can even understand what youre saying. 

“I’m on my way y/n, its gonna be okay. I love you and I’ll see you in 10 minutes.” May speaks strongly before hanging up the phone. You do nothing but change pajamas and grab a bag of chips before moving back into your bed and wait for May. 

It’s not long before May is knocking and slowly opening your front door. 

She looks at you with tears in her eyes before walking over and oulling you into a hug. It feels weird to have human contact but you dont pull away, just allow her to cuddle you. 

“Lets get you a bath, I’ll help you wash your hair.” She smiles lightly before pulling you up and towards the bathroom.

 You sit on the toilet while she gets the water and bubbles ready. Once its ready she turns away while you strip down and step in, letting your body sink into the hot water and lavendar bubbles. She immediately picks up water in a cup and pours it over your head, careful to not let it spill in your eyes, shes treating you like a mother treats an infant but you dont have the capacity to stop her. You sit in silence for a while as she brushes through the mats in your hair until you decide to speak up. 

“May? Does he love me?” You croak out

She chuckles lightly before answering. 

“When I first met Ben, I knew right away I loved him. He swept me away without knowing it. It was instant love, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. The way he looked at me made the world disappear and I knew it was the kind of love they write books about. The kind of love that turns rainy days from gloomy to comfy, turns blistering heat into warmth and fun, Ben turned everything into a fairytale effortlessly. 

When you and Peter were in the 7th grade, and we threw him the birthday party, that youd planned most of, I remember looking at Ben and he was looking at me with the fairytale look. Ya know the one all the hot actors do in movies. Anyway, he was giving me that look and when I turned my head and watched you give Peter his present, I saw him give you the look, and you gave it right back it was precious. After that, everyday I saw you standing with Peter, he looked at you with the fairytale look, When he talks about you its with the same adoration he talks about Ben. 

There is no doubt in my mind Peter loves you with every bone in his super body, y/n. You’re young and he can be a bit niave sometimes but he loves you unconditionally honey. You love him more than he loves you and he loves you more than you love him.” She stops brushing my hair and without a word begins washing my body with bodywash. I didnt even realize I had started crying until I saw a tear fall into the tub.

“I love him May. I feel like I need him to breathe, to live. I just dont understand how he could choose her over me.” 

“Because hes a teenage boy and sometimes he doesnt think about what hw has, hes just like his uncle ben i’ll tell you that. You need to talk to him, maybe not now but soon, you need to tell him everything in your brain until its empty and your throat hurts from talking, and he will listen until his ears are sore from listening and his head hurts from understanding. Now, come get dressed and I’ll order us some pizza” May shakes her hands and drys them while handing you a fluffy towel. 

She spends the rest of the night, telling you about this season of the Bachelorette while she helps you clean and do laundry. 

“Thank you May.” You hug her as she grabs her purse to leave. 

“Anything for you baby,” She kisses your head and wavees goodbye. You take a deep breathe and walkback to your room, plugging in your phone to charge. 

After a few minutes it turns back on and slowly notifications start coming in, texts and calls and emails and dms from people and your old friends. You clear them all and head for you contacts, you find Peters name and decide to text instead of call. 

                                         peter

                                                                                                                    Hey

                                                                                                Can you come over?

hey, is everything okay? 

                                                           I need to talk to you

Of course, I’m on my way.

You sigh and begin writing down everything you need to talk about, until you hear a knock on your window. You shakily stand up move towards your window, opening it and taking a step back.

“Hi” Peter whispers with his hands in his pockets.

“Hi” You whisper back.

“What’d you uh wanna talk about” Peter asks, slowly bouncing on the ball of his feet.

“Uh okay, um please sit. So um, as you probably know i haven’t been to school in a minute and uh that’s because ive been laying in my bed depressed and confused. May come over today and she helped a lot and she convinced me to talk to you about everything and that’s what i’m doing so I just need you to listen to everything in gonna spill out and i’m gonna do my best to make everything make as much sense as possible.” You look to Peter for confirmation and continue when he nods quickly.

“Okay uh first, I wanna say I’m sorry, for everything. For Brad, for ignoring you and yelling at you and for being a shitty friend. You were right about Brad and i’m sorry I didn’t listen to you, I just wanted so bad to be wanted ya know? I was feeling so insecure about you loving me that I ran to the first person that showed interest in me. I’m also sorry i basically ditched you guys for him, i just couldn’t look at any of you without feeling nearly sick. But i miss my best friends and I miss you Peter.

I’ve known since we were children that you were special to me. I always assumed it was one sided because I’d seen you go after other girls so i felt like there was no way you could ever love me as much as i love you, but I know now that you do, or did or do i don’t know but I do know that for me, you’re everything I need. We’re soulmates Pete, I can feel it. I feel deep in my heart that the universe made us just to be together and being without you would be to deny the universe herself and who am i? I need you so much when you aren’t around me i can barely breathe and a part of me is missing. I love you unconditionally and I always have.

What you did with Mj killed me, shattered my heart because I felt like once again, you chose her over me, your bestfriend and girlfriend and I hated that feeling each time I got it. The night i broke up with you I cried until my head hurt to much to stay awake, i felt stupid for thinking you wanted me more than her and I understood it. I looked at Mj and it felt like a no brained to pick her but it still never felt right. I know you didn’t mean it and we’re still so young peter. We’re basically kids trying to form a life long relationship and we don’t know what we’re doing. I don’t know how or what i’m going to do but I wanna be with you peter. I would have to take it slow of course but that’s where i’m at with us. So um yea.” You let out a sigh of relief of getting everything off your chest. You look away from Peter and wipe the tears that had fallen during your mini speech.

“I love you. I do. So much. Ever since our breakup i’ve been planning and wondering how to get you back. I felt lost without you and I never wanted you to feel less than. You’re perfect in every way y/n. You’re my oxygen and MJ is honestly just a friend. She could never make me feel the way you make me feel. We’ve got May and Ben type of love babe I swear we do. It was a stupid mistake but of you give me another chance I promise I will spend the rest of my life proving to you you mean the world to me and i will choose you again and again. I love you y/n and i want you to always know that.” Peter speaks through tears as he pulls your body close to his. He whispers how much he loves you against your temple as you break down and sob into his chest.

“Can you stay the night?” You whisper up at him.

“Will you let me take you out? Friday?” He looks hopefully at you. You smile lightly and bite your lip.

“Yes.”

“Then yes. I’ll stay with you” He kisses your forehead once more, before pulling you both under the covers to cuddle into you fall asleep to the beat of peters heart.

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