#I CANT HELP MYSELF OH MY GOD HELP
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EVEN MORE CORPSE PUPPET ART BECAUSE IM HYPERFIXATED ON IT AUAUAUUAA
I swear I am normal
...maybe
Corpse Puppet AU by @sketchquill !! PLEASE I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS AU AND THE ARTIST AAAAAA /geniune /platonic
I KEEP MAKING Y/N'S HAIR SO FLUFFY ACK BUT AAAA HERE YOU GO!!
And I drew another self ship because why the hell not??
I AM SOSOSOS SORRY FOR THE SELF SHIPS AND IM SO SORRY FOR THE SPAM MENTIONS AAAA I'LL TRY TO CALM DOWN BUT ITS SO AHDD TO CONTROL MYSELF WITH THIS MUCH EXCITEMENT EEEK
#welcome home#wally darling#wally welcome home#wally darling x reader#wally darling x y/n#julie joyful#julie welcome home#howdy pilar#howdy welcome home#howdy pillar x reader#corpse puppet au#welcome home au#I CANT HELP MYSELF OH MY GOD HELP
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"who knows if i draw them like this again" - says the person who immediately draws them like this even more (and a godpoke as a treat) . shut upppppp
#ggg spoilers#great god grove#ggg bizzyboys#ggg capochin#ggg hector#ggg godpoke#Crumbs the godpoke :)#the hector and vib doodles r from a line in the credits where vib says they gotta help tailor him new clothes n it makes me a little insane#hector has weird little quirks now as an ex- god. btw. sniles so sneetly#my grujaja favoritism is real.#you give headcanon to a guy and then u go insane about them. da curse..... da curse i swears....#oh to be a background character someone makes hc about and then goes absolutely feral for lol#i mean i already rlly liked gruja but it just got worse lol#also a friend said my bananathaniel art is making him their fave and i felt like i was 'bout to ascend to godhood myself#fun fact!#it took an hour to write these tags cuz the group chat decided to be foul and make the worst ggg oc that sent me into divine rage#“it cant be that bad” it is. it really is.#i love my friends but they LOVE to specifically cause me anguish
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kaleidoscopic crush
#spider man: across the spider verse#pavitr prabhakar#gwen stacy#spider noir#spider punk#hobie brown#noirpunk#so. maybe i went a bit insane#i like poetry a regular amount i promise#this might be one of my favorite things i’ve ever made#first time drawing pav & gwen! they turned out—uh. okay!#the universes & noir himself get brighter as he acclimates :)#treacle (tart) means sweetheart in cockney rhyming slang#bc i cant fucking help myself lol#noir is so in love……….. just like we all are sdfkjhg#mans CANNOT handle how pretty hobie is in his element#to the anon who gave me the idea: thank you so much oh my gods#cw eyestrain#just in case#there is so much going on lol
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Bend under the weight of it all Ain't it fun to hold the world in your hands?
#Lyrics from the feminine urge by the last dinner party.#Some prison pits Charlie for you on this fine day#and its trans charlie bc i cant help myself#this ended up wayyyyy more like the passion of christ than i intended#oh god he even has the wound in his left side#It was not intended#And yes the king in yellow did give charlie top surgery#no he did not want it#eyyy trauma#i will one day make a post about it#until then#noel my beloved <3#Kinda anxious about posting this one#malevolent#malevolent podcast#malevolent fanart#charlie dowd#noel finley#noel malevolent#detective noel#charlie malevolent#Feeling a strange need to apologise#Whatever im fucking posting it#Drew this instead of doing my lab work reports#oh well#its better than drawing graphs#53 rats with a pencil
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arcane season 2 act 2. how are we all doing??
#i have been SOBBING for about 30 minutes straight thanks for asking#before watching the 6th ep i was like 'cant believe how viscerally i react to arcane!' I HAD NO FUCKING IDEA#WHAT KIND OF HORRORS I HAD COMING. I WAS A FOOL#FOR EVER THINKING THAT WAS THE MOST I WOULD FEEL#posting this live btw i cant help myself i need to cope and seethe (except instead of seething im weeping like Big Baby)#back to sporadically queueing everything very soon#almost-spoiler in next 2 tags ->#I NEE DJAYCE TO FUCKING ROT IN HELL IM NOT EVEN KIDDING. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD OHJ MY GOD#HE LITERALLY RUINED EVERYTHING. *EVERYTHING.* IDC WHAT SHIT HE SAW THAT MADE HIM ACT THIS WAY I NEED HIS ASS GONE RIGHT NOW#shut up crisa#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 act 2#arcane 2#arcane league of legends#arcane s2#arcane season two#act 2
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i have got to stop smoking 😭 someone oughta curse my mom for encouraging (down right offering) all her kids to become addicts of various sorts. and out of everything ive stopped doing i still cant stop smoking thats whats pissing me off the most!!! sorry. happy new year. ill figure it out
#ask to tag#mmm im really really like... idek a good word for it im just messed up abt it all. but i really gotta do it and for real this time#im mildly allergic to nicotine patches otherwise that would be great. was the only thing that helped me quit for liiike.. 2 weeks#the only time ive quit in the last 4-5 years were times when i was in the hospital or rehab. and then id leave and there was my mother agai#but since i dont have a lot of those factors in my life that made me smoke before it SHOULD be easier this time. right#i just gotta be the one to do it. im better than this#oh my god does taht mean i cant watch tim roth movies anymore. but that is my little faggot <- walking cigarette. who takes it up the ass#ugh. anyway yeah wish me luck i guess -_- fuuuuck#the big thing that always hinders me is i ask myself what the hell will i be without it#hm. ill just have to find that out!
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did i just book voice lessons with george salazar? yeah i think im gonna shit myself
#i cant even sing in front of my friends#when i sing at karaoke its either just me and my partner or my sibling#was this a mistake????#help#its not happening until after february but my stomach hurts#whyyyyyyyyyyy am i doing this to myself#i feel like crying oh my god#im gonna be so bad and embarrassed#fuck i know george is just a guy snd im usually so good at keeping performers and celebrity at an arms length#but george??? ive been a fan of his since godspell#oh god oh god just me having a meltdown#i dont have any singing training#im literally………..#oh god
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thinking about jake in this interview and this interview only
#he looks so good oh my god#i cant help myself he’s so…#sir please a chance PLEASE#jake kiszka#jake kiszka gvf#jake gvf#greta van fleet#josh kiszka#danny wagner#sam kiszka#sammy kiszka#danny gvf#josh gvf#sam gvf#gvf
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for zero dollars i am going to talk about the boys’ individual singing talents now because im stuck on their performances at prom night ok here we go
to start, let me clarify by saying that i myself am a singer. i come from a family (multiple generations) of singers and musicians. my mom taught voice, violin, piano, and guitar in my home growing up. it’s just ingrained in my dna, ok, but this aint about me. just know that I know what im talking about as i get into this
im really only gonna touch on the four main singers (fourth, gem, ford, and satang) but all of them have their own unique qualities and im super impressed by their live performances. singing live is HARD. singing while dancing??? HARDER. and they held up for four hours, two nights in a row. i don’t. i cant - WOW ok
so of the main four, satang, ford, and fourth lean tenor, and gemini has a bass voice (more later). let me start with satang.
THIS BOY SINGS. RIGHT. IN. HIS CRACKING RANGE. HALF THE TIME. listen, okay, there is a difference between singing in full voice and switching to falsetto sometimes than singing in your cracking range. satang has to switch between full voice and falsetto almost every other note. that is HARD. it takes serious work and practice, and slip-ups are near impossible to avoid. he also has a soft voice, and in his case, when in this cracking range he does his best when he sings low and quiet, and is more likely to crack or slide the louder he gets (fourth is exactly the opposite of this and it makes me nuts in a good way. more later). satang also has very good vibrato, and the way he uses it helps him keep control of his voice and can even disguise the cracks and slides he does have. all this being said, you have to seriously appreciate the work he has done to sing so well at the concert. please watch his part in “healing” and go insane with me. when satang is in his full voice range he does his best singing loud, but this is what i wanted to focus on bc i am so proud of him because of how tough it is.
ford also has a soft voice, but his control comes when he sings loudly. lower pitches are more difficult for him because he has to sing softer in order to hit them, and sometimes, when singing live, that means he can get too quiet to hear. but when he’s in his range and singing full voice? ohhhh my god he kills it. he rarely misses a note. just watch his performance of “come closer”, that’s all you need to know. his vibrato isn’t as good as satang’s but he has a good ear and that makes him so fucking good at harmonizing!! ford also has a very strong and clear tone when singing in falsetto (this line in “stand” showcases it perfectly) - whereas gemini’s falsetto is softer (but just as strong).
GEMINI. first of all, this guy has so much control over his voice it actually pisses me off. i hate him (i LOVE him and im DELIGHTED by the way this live show was able to give his voice the spotlight it deserves). okay so earlier i said gemini has a bass voice, and that’s true - while talking. he has a stellar tenor singing voice, and his voice is very soft, but very clear and strong on those lower notes (thank you “you’re blushing”). and because he has that low range, his falsetto actually becomes better, bc it means when he sings high notes, he is far far away from his cracking range. it's barely noticeable when he switches between full voice and falsetto. his vibrato aint the best live when it’s unpracticed, but he rarely slides (unless it’s on purpose). he can blend with anyone, he’s very good at harmonizing, and damn he just has a sweet sweet falsetto (featured here and in. basically every song he sings. note that gem sings "hook" mostly in falsetto and fourth does it in his full voice, alongside each other; linked below)
FOURTH. let me start by saying i am the most impressed by his live performance. i am now obsessed with his voice in a lot more ways than i was before. so i mentioned earlier that he’s the opposite of satang, in the sense that he is more likely to crack, slide, or miss hitting a pitch when he’s singing quietly. but he’s also the opposite to all three of them, because where satang, ford, and gemini all have soft voices, fourth’s voice has a very clear tone right off the bat. this makes his approach to singing vastly different from the others. his falsetto is good, but when fourth sings loud? HE DOES NOT MISS A SINGLE NOTE. this boy can BELT it out in his full voice, and that includes both high and low notes. oh my god it is insane. LISTEN. TO. THESE. RIGHT. NOW. OK? please drink some water boy ilysm.
the fact that fourth spent those four hours, two nights in a row, singing in mainly his full voice, and absolutely kill. ing. it. the whole time is THE most impressive thing to me. do you know how much energy it takes to sing in your full voice for a long time? can you imagine how much MORE energy it must take to do that WHILE DANCING? do you know how much control over his breaths he has to have for that??!?!?! AND TO STILL SOUND THAT STRONG AT THE END OF THE SECOND NIGHT. i dont care. he’s everything to me.
honestly they all are. this is getting long so im gonna wrap it up but i have never enjoyed a live performance more in my life. these boys are so talented it's insane and gmmtv is lucky to have them.
#my school president#msp prom night#my school president prom night live on stage#satang kittiphop#ford arun#gemini norawit#fourth nattawat#julian watches msp#long post#I COULDNT HELP MYSELF IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THEM NONSTOP.#OOH OOH shortpplfedup's tags about fourth EXACTLY#mid-range baritone IS the best way to describe it you are so right#listen tinn was right to make gun go jogging to work on his singing ITS THE CARDIO.#THE ENDURANCE IT TAKES FOR THE KIND OF SINGING FOURTH DOES.#*adds another link to fourth's list bc i cant be stopped*#OH MY GOD LISTEN TO THAT LAST ONE IT CHANGES KEYS MULTIPLE TIMES AND HE NEVER FUCKS UP#msp bts#me in the corner holding a camera up to the msp cast: youre doing amazing sweetie#another song that really suits fords falsetto is healing#and in that last link of gem's he actually sings both the high note harmonies and the low note harmonies#depending on what part of the song you're at
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"my education is my highest priority" everything returns to vocaloid
#delete later#shitpost#vocaloid#?? idk i might keep it up. yes ik turning off rbs is a thing now technically but i always keep forgetting and also naaaah.#i might go edit proper tags in later just bc i dont this to show up in main pages but i needdddddd the organization on here#i made this a while back procrastinating on a linguistics reading and then never posted it#AND THE CIRCLE IS COMPLETE BC IM POSTING IT NOW WHILE PROCRASTINATING ON ANOTHER LINGUISTICS READING LMAOO#dudeee i gotta lock in. oh my god. its so bad up in here triple assault. i cant focus on SHIT. WHY DO I ALWAYS GET IDEAS WHEN IM BUSY AHGHH#this might be revealing a bit too much info but pls this is legit what happened LMAOO 😭🥴#we're starting ipa alphabet stuff now and im like 'hey i already know you...' from phoneme fuckery ive had to do for voca shitposts#knowing linguistics is cool cause u get to dissect what makes languages work and i thought that'd be genuinely helpful for things#like i plan to do more english/spanish translation work specifically so yuh. but also I KNOW internally in my heart...#despite trying to give the professional justifications I KNOW my stupid ass is secretly just absorbing all this knowledge for voca purposes#my brand of shitposting goes against the very origin of the word since 'shitposting' originally refers to very low effort low quality memes#so there's been a semantic shift in definition even outside of mine but i still think its really funny. i put a lot of genuine hard work#into making stupid little jokes to amuse primarily myself and maybe anyone else who finds it on the internet. so yea#no but genuinely though its unironically incredible how much shit i've learned direct or indirectly for vocaloid shitposting purposes
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its wild just realizing how much people have done and experienced and how prepared they are for what's to come when i am . very much not . lmao
#having my daily ''oh my god i need to change my program'' crisis#its just idk . i feel like im woefully underprepared for doing any of this kinda stuff when everyone around me already knows#what theyre doing and what they wanna get out of it. idk.#and i have a slightly better idea of what i want to do but i havent figured out how im gonna get there.#and idk.#we were talking about what we want to do with this line of study after graduating and the only thing i could think of#was that i didnt choose this specific field because of what it had to offer#i chose it because it was the easiest way to get out of the situation i was in for a LOT of fucking reasons#and now that im out i guess i can start thinking abt what i really wanna get out of all this. idk.#probably gonna need to wait till next semester anyway but thats fine. ive been waiting for this for 20 years i can wait a little longer#but idk i guess its just a little frustrating feeling so Behind everyone else.#but i guess this is what happens when u pack ur whole life into 2 suitcases to escape a high control cult. who knew!!!#its time for dinner and i crave my daily portion of chow mien. and then i will watch show 3 inches from my computer screen so i can see.#winter speaks#overall i am vibing. a little frustrated with myself but it cant be helped. i am vibing :]#personal
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One thing that my bestie pointed out to me tonight that disgusted me and made me immediately recoil- my behavior has been changing because of the Boy and whether or not he engages with me, and my mood is hinged on whether or not he gives me attention. 🤮 ewwwww!!! Cut that out right now!! Of course it's normal and fine but I don't need that! Especially right now, post breakup, my life is a mess. The sex was amazing but I need to start detaching myself from him because he changed SO MUCH in the past 4 weeks. He played a looooong game to get to me. Bought pastries from me twice in the past year, sent me messages every day, got his tattoos at a shop in my neighborhood, asked me out, and now he barely talks to me. Which is so bizarre. But maybe he believes he can kick back and stop trying because he thinks I've fallen to my knees for him? I really can't try to decipher his behavior nor do I want to. He is pretty immature (hence "the Boy") and if he wasn't so talented in bed I would've stopped engaging with him from the first time we hung out.
Due to my apartment ceiling caving in, I'm couch surfing. He knows this and offered to get us a hotel room this weekend. This is a final chance to see if he can do something an adult man would do, and follow through with a plan. If he doesn't, I'm going to tell him he disappointed me and I don't have space for that right now in my very busy, very stressful life. So he won't be coming back to my apartment after the ceiling is fixed.... and I guess I'll never be invited over to his place because he lives with his parents! Oops 😬 🤭
#god the head he gave was amazing. please let another person that good wander into my life#but this time can that person be a normal adult? lol#i've thought about keeping him around just as a fuckboy and letting him come over whenever he decides to#but the issue with that is i'm discovering that i dont separate emotions from sex like some other people can.#i need to date the people i sleep with. i enjoy feeling the full range of emotions i get#and the idea of trying to compartmentalize them for the sake of casual sex isn't as easy ir fun as i thought it would be 4 weeks ago#i've been learning a LOT from the interactions i'm having with him#he is also younger than me and super insecure#and he has low self esteem :( i wish i could help him but i can barely take care of myself rn#and he cant communicate to save his life. oh well. he would be sooooo sexy if he owned up to how he felt and showed any vulnerability!
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#ah yes. my old friend: getting nothing done all day bc im too paralyzed to attempt to read anything#thanks. i hate it here#today felt like i was trapped in october of last year. which was disorienting#bc it was cold ang gloomy out and i just kept listening to doomsday by lizzy mcalpine#itll get better once im back in the habit of things. at least that's what im telling myself. just expect me#to complain a lot bc im back in the torture machine. by which i mean life as a grad student#evolution prof: u should be reading at least 20 papers per week. and shes right but also what if i just lay on the floor and expire#what then? oh hey u use text to speech on papers? that must b super helpful! yeah sure it takes 2 broken things:#my ability to not process audio and not understand text in order to try to put me on a normal reading level.#except that it still fucking sucks and i hate everything.#and it doesnt even fuckibg matter for this class bc shes giving us pdf scans that are image based not text based#so i cant even use text to speech. which is ya kno. real fucking cool. welp. its been real#goodbye to any sort of notion that i appear to kno what im doing. or that i can read anything#oh god. why tf did i decide it was a good idea to come back?#dread! paralyzing dread! oh how ive missed u#unrelated
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Genuinely, I wonder if my fear of being seen as annoying by commissioning oc x canon is silly or not.
I always get so actually worried that the person I'm commissioning will think I'm weird or if it's an artist who's in the fandom with me I get all worried they probably already draw a lot of oc x canon of the character i like and maybe they're tired of it
How many times can one artist draw Wally Darling kissing a bunch of different ocs before they hate it? Dksjfjkskdjd
#text post#just rambling#IM JUST SCREAMING INTO THE VOID DONT MIND ME!!!!!#like please please i kno im cringe but i just want more art of them...holding hands#aaughfjfjsodidkbfkek#shaking myself for being a lil baby even though im always saying “Be cringe be free!!!!!” but i cant help it#like I already try and only comm people who are familiar with or in the fandom#but then i get all sorts of like “OH GOD THEY PROBABLY HATE DRAWING THIS”about it#im sure if they didnt wanna theyd just...tell me? i do ask. ya kno when i do try and buck up the courage.#“Hi sorry would you be alright with drawing my oc with this guy please its okay if not haha jk unless.” type shit gjdjfjkekdjfjeke#god im embaressing
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"surely this will remedy itself on its own," i say, ignoring a problem of my own doing
#🥞posting.txt#neonwaste-vent#im gonna be honest guys. i fucked up and im too scared to face it like a proper person#i feel awful about it but every time i think about it i feel my heart drop and an impending sense of doom#its like. “oh god i fucked up BAD” and it makes me wanna run#and i'm absolutely trying to avoid coming back to here and the headmate i mentioned previously is sort of helping me avoid it#actually it's more like she's desperately trying to find ways to cheer me up (and il her for that)#but in doing so she's keeping [our] focus on things like anime and magical girls and stuff#+ she has a separate blog so that.... also helps me avoid it#anyways! hi my name is jude and i handle my problems by running away from them#instead of tackling them in private like i SHOULD :(#i wanna try and slip away by acting normal but i literally cannot because this is eating away at me so bad i cant even pretend-#-that everythings okey dokey flowers in the fields#if i tried to act like nothing ever happened not only would it be insulting as fuck it would just feel stiff and awkward and lifeless#like going “hows the weather today” while the house burns down#....holy shit i rambled. um fuck.#i KNOW i need to deal with this.. i just. CANT.#but i should do it regardless even if i have to force myself because unlike my other problems this is something i canNOT let fester#especially considering that helloooo this is another human being this is about#fuck. im gonna force myself to do this.
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oooh blast from the past, i drew this of omalia and torelai in 2019... its wild how much my art has changed...
#old art#yew art#fantasy ocs#omalia#torelai#also sorry for no new drawings. i fainted and fell and broke my spine. so i have been laying around recovering#i cant really do Anything rn... and even if i was physically capable it turns out when you break your spine#you get prescribed very strong pain medication#so on top of physical inability to do anything. im also very Brain Weird and cant do anything haha#but god i hope i can draw again soon i have IDEAS#i want to draw my ocs SO BAD#especially omalia and torelai... i want to draw them being sweet and snuggly...#and i also have an art trade i arranged shortly before my spine decided on violence#which i want to finish SO BADDDD their ocs are so damn cool#theyre extremely patient about everything health wise tho which i appreciate so much...#theyre an amazing artist who i look up to in art style a lot so im super flattered that they like my art enough to do a trade :'}#but yeah im like completely physically incapable of doing Anything rn :( my health is in shambles#in fact right now im about to call my brother and wake him up because... my glasses and charger are on the floor#and i can not reach them.#feeling a little silly that thats a problem in my life and i cant even get my glasses by myself... but oh well#health issues will do that sort of thing. best to just try not to feel ashamed of needing help#LMAO THOUGH this is SUCH a ramble. if you read this far thank you i appreciate you#and there will be new art... Eventually... i wanna draw so damn bad...
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