#I AM NOT NORMAL AT ALL HOLY SHIT

[bassguitarinablackt-shirt]

im normal i promise

[frobby]

The fact that shiro fucked up so bad at parenting that both rin AND yukio are victims of parentification is so crazy

[amelia-yap]

AUEGH

[tangledinink]

im just saying that some of the people on this godforsaken webbed site would probably not survive watching siblings/young children interact irl

[eddiewithcat]

wow.

so you mean to tell me…

that all throughout s1 we have mobius over here, absolutely batting for loki. defending them whenever he can, trying to convince everyone that he can help them, doing literally everything in his power to have people see the good in loki and how useful she can be.

and.

now.

we have loki doing that exact same thing for mobius? (particularly with sylvie which is even more telling in my opinion)

[blueskittlesart]

If there is a God, what do you think He is like?

i’m agnostic babe i don’t know or care

[hplonesomeart]

Hey. Sorry about the inactivity, but pretty sure no one cared that much anyways lol. Been a looooong time since I kept that distant from Tumblr…at least now I know I’m able to survive without checking posts every day/being chronically online! I’ve got an intense love-hate relationship with this lifestyle I’ve dug myself into. Think I’m getting a little bit better with the balance even if school isn’t really giving me an option. Got a load of work I need to keep catching up on if I don’t want to disappoint my professors. We’ll survive somehow. Here take a quick batch of Puzzle doodles k bye

[shima-draws]

Dunno if you've followed much on latest SAO-game but have like, seen the Yujikiri-food there - it's grown to a freaking wedding feast 😢

YUJIKIRI WEDDING CANON????

THEY’RE FUCKIGNGN MA R RI E D???????

[vegetarianvamp]

thinking about the beauty and tragedy of two women who are destined to be alone (agatha due to her inability to prioritize relationships over her desire for power, rio due to her purpose of bringing death to those around her) finding comfort and community in each other and forming a romantic bond that goes back centuries.

thinking about rio knowing that someday, she will have to reap agatha's own flesh and blood, her son, and rip him away from her.

thinking about agatha hating rio for what she did and casting out the only other person in her life who loves her, only to end up alone once more.

thinking about how fast agatha was to accept rio's comfort, recognize her touch without even having to look at her, embrace her, try to kiss her, to let her back into her life the instant rio showed mercy when she did not have to.

thinking about how rio recognized this need and desire for connection and still turned her away, knowing that she's still destined to reap the souls of the people around her and trying to stop agatha from forming a deeper connection with teen (while still being unable to let him die because she sees how upset agatha is!) because she has seen this cycle before and knows it doesn't end well for her.

thinking about how they are perfect for each other and are also doomed to never be together.

[thegreatyin]

How did you manage to handle not one, but FOUR separate accounts in fl? I recently made the account for my HD little guy but having to do the tutorial again just seems miserable

there's... weirdly several answers to that question, actually??

a HUGE part of it is due to the way FL is structured. the 10-minute action timer is a core part of the game on a fundamental level, and the fact that i can very easily run out of stuff to do on one character and thus have an excuse to quickly and easily swap to another is just... convenient? satisfying? i'm not entirely sure how to explain it. the fact that i can make progress even while i am fundamentally simultaneously Not Making Progress is like pure dopamine for my freak insane awful little brain. there's just something really pleasing about spending all of my actions pursuing The Goal Of The Day™ on one account before casually swapping to another and doing the same without feeling like i'm wasting time or acting to the first account's explicit detriment. the downtime helps! the recharge time helps! the structure really really works!!

i'm technically only actively playing three, maybe two accounts minimum. the only reason the fourth (the one that'll be my future BaL playthrough) currently exists at all is so i can get his earlygame completely out of the way now and not have to waste time running through it all later, when what i actually want to do is play the ambition i've made myself wait a full year to play. and also getting free goodies as seasonal stuff happens,, something something surprise tools to help us later. the only two accounts i'd say i'm really "actively playing" at the moment are caeru and lark- and of the two, lark takes the most priority, since his ambition is the one i'm currently pursuing in earnest. for a couple months now- despite being My Main FL Character- the scoundrel has actually been pretty inactive on a gameplay front outside of the occasional progression in TLC and discordance content. purely by virtue of having Very little left to do outside of Very long-term grinds and vanities. they're in their "now what?" "now you can start playing the game" era. they've graduated to previous protagonist background cameo in a sequel anime series. they're like the yin FLPC equivalent of red at the top of mount silver. they're Literally just vibing rn. i only keep posting about them regardless because i'm insane and i will never ever ever ever ever let that bat go. but yeah, big TLDR, outside of doing the bare minimum to keep making waves/notability up every week, i'm not actually spending that much time on accounts i'm not currently actively interested in playing. and that accounts for way more gaming spoons than you might think.

i have a virtually lifelong history of playing MMOs, especially and specifically world of warcraft. i was born in the endless grind for useless video game pixel vanities and/or bragging rights. molded by it. you all have merely adapted to doing the same piece of content a pointlessly excessive amount of times for literally no reason besides whimsy and folly. me? i've done my time. i've served my sentence. i've spent weeks doing the original burning crusade netherwing dailies. i've devoted days to running praetorium over and over and over again, back-to-back, nonstop, long before square enix cut it in half and made it NOT take at minimum an hour and a half per run. i've perfected my silverwastes + auric basin goldfarming strategies. i've (almost) crafted dragonwrath tarecgosa's rest. i've killed the sha of anger so many times its dying scream of agony is embedded into the very fabric of my being. ""only"" doing making your name content four times over? that is nothing to me. it means nothing to me. it is so infinitesimal i can do the persuasive seduction quests in my sleep. it's not a matter of handling misery, or having the capacity, or even sighing as i remember the brass embassy raid segment of the watchful questline seriously i don't know why i keep forgetting that exists or what even is my problem with it i just am so consistently mildly inconvenienced by it and its highly specific resource requirements and it is the worst thing ever. maybe i'm just so used to the scoundrel's near-infinite money and troves of disposable items that i've completely forgotten what being poor is like. despite having done that step 3 fucking times now. ahem. anyway. i have transcended the feeble mortal bindings of my resistant-to-grinding flesh and ascended to a higher plane of enlightenment, they may call me insane but they will be the ones left laughing when they see what that "insanity" has wrought, i've usurped them, i've usurped them all-

hacks and coughs and awkwardly clears my throat. i mean. uh. um. Ahem.

the empress' court artistry + tales of the university nerfs helped too.

[sinfulsunni]

anyyywayyysss. totally unrelated to any previous posts or potential current WIPs (lie) I have a headcanon that izzy is like. ridiculously loud during sex. and I don’t just mean like, moaning and whimpering (which he does do) but like,,, have you heard how much that man swears? and how LOUD he can swear?? his unchallenged yelling prowess? you can NOT tell me that my man wouldn’t be the most noisy ass bottom alive in bed but in like the most aggressive way possible. if it almost sounds like he’s angry with you then you’re doing it right. just raging lustful screaming echoing for ten miles in every direction like “FUUUCKKKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK OH FUCKING SHIT - NGH - FUCK - DADDY - FUCK - JESUS FUCKING BALLS FUCKING HELL ED. 💖EDDIE ED EDEDEDDIEOHEDFUCK - NGHHH SHIT - AH-” etc etc you get the picture. the crew of the queen anne have never known a full nights sleep in their entire lives.

[selfspinninglies]

So I read Don't Let the Forest In by CG Drews and it fucked me up a little [in a good way]. I heard this book had body horror [<- my favorite thing ever], fucked up gay people, monsters etc which made me think this would be my cup of tea and it definitely is that it feels like this book was made for me. I will not be able to stop thinking about it for a while. God I am so normal

[sneezegoblin]

I saw Justice LIVE and got my CD signed!!!

Normally I wouldn’t share this with the internet but I don’t want to annoy my friends too much with my Justice insanity so Tumblr has to come forth. And personally, I love reading fan encounters so this is for my fellow enjoyers :)

Summary: Fan (me) starts shaking so bad she almost glitches through the barricade. Xavier, is a sweetheart and still signs her CD!

THIS GOT SO LONG WTF (like really long)

So, Justice in Berlin: This totally epic, wow, amazing concert sadly concludes but Gaspard and Xavier procede, as usual to climb down from the stage and interact with the crowd while „The End“ blasts from the speakers.

My friend, which I befriended in line, and I are standing front row. Exactly in the middle where the stairs are at. (THE MOST PERFECT SPOT fr)

She pulls out her flexidisc (the one you got limited to the Tsugi Justice mag) and a marker. Xavier immediately spots it on his desent from the stage and makes a “:0!” face and “oohhhh🇫🇷” noise and signs it instantly. He really seemed impressed to see the flexidisc out in the wild lol. So cool! We both stood there grinning like maniacs! I was so happy for her! (Still am!! His reaction was so cool omg)

I also try do get him to sign my WWW CD but he turns and goes the other way.

Shortly after that I concluded that I might not be able to get that autograph bc after a few rounds of handshaking they went up stage again. Sad but eh, whatever. I am still blown away by the show and so HAPPY for her getting a signature. It was like I got one for myself lol.

My friend INSISTED that we will somehow get my CD signed (😭🙏🏻) but I accepted my fate at this point.

Gaspard despawned BUT! Xavier suprisingly went down again! As he was descending the stairs I reached out trying to get a last decent handshake from him haha.

My friend suddenly GRABS my arm and pulles it towards Xavier, yelling “She deserves it!!!” Mortified I watch, as my arm gets shoved into his eyesight.

Then the evening gets crazy.

He immediately looks me in the eyes though his glasses, smiles and gives me a cheerful handshake, while saying something??? (I don’t remember and the cheering is too loud in the video that captured this Insanity.)

I totally didn’t expected this blatant attention seeking to work so, like the starstruck idiot that I was yelled something like, „THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU!!“ over the music. (I meant to say „I LOVE YOUR MUSIC“ but my brain shortened it to THAT. Embarrassing :,))

He then again started signing stuff (At this night he signed so much stuff it was really sweet!)

My friend proceeds to shout at me to get my CD out again (I’ve put it away at some point).

I fumbled for my CD, while he was distracted by another lucky fan getting their Hyperdrama Vinyl signed. Patiently I try holding out my WWW CD and marker, while also trying to be cool about it.

Emphasis on “trying”, bc at this point I began shaking BADLY. Aghast I looked at my trembling hands and hoped for divine intervention or SOMETHING for it to stop before he notices.

My prayers weren’t heard bc at this point my friend next to me notices my chihuahua shaking and exclaims surprised and LOUD “Oh! She’s shaking!” She’s so nervous!” (the callout 😔 she apologized for that outburst later haha) and grabs my CD holding arm to steady it.

OF COURSE, of all things this catches his attention again

Xavier was now looking at me again in all his golden shiny glory, telling me again smiling “it’s okay 😁🇫🇷”

My answer was a laughed “I know! 😭” and to apologize (💀).

He grins, then looks at me through his shades, leans in and points with his right hand at my left ear and asked with a smirk „Where You listening to music while our show? 🇫🇷“ (context: I lost one of my plugs before the Encore and only had AirPods at hand. Not ideal! But better than nothing. The music was LOUD!)

Half of my brain was short-circuiting and caught off-guard by him directly addressing me and of his hand movement so close to my face I almost didn’t catch the question. He clarifies (bc I prob looked like a deer in headlights) and points at his own ears (still holding the aforementioned Hyperdrama vinyl) still smiling.

I managed to answer franticly with „HAHFAKDhaHa no no no Im not listening to music! I wore them for the music- the show! It was just so loud! hAhaHA” (imagine that sentence with the most juicy german accent you can imagine. Bye, bye C1 Level English skills.)

He nodded and made an acknowledging noise and shortly got distracted by the vinyl he was still holding that he quickly signed and gave back.

Meanwhile I was mortified at my own rambling and wishing for somebody to RELEASE ME from my embarrassment.

I was somehow still shakily holding my WWW CD and marker and REALLY embarrassed at my own reaction. But it was hopeless trying to stop the shaking. My friend was just patting my back and grinning and trying to soothe me (“it’s okay!”) but I was prisoner to my shaking form. I just repeated laughing shakily, “I know! Just ignore it! I’m sorry! :,,))”

He turns his attention back to me again after he returns the vinyl and sees me, probably looking absolutely mortified at my trembling CD-holding hand and apologizing profusely.

YOU KNOW WHAT HE DID NEXT?? I was still looking at my hand at this point trying telekinesis to WILL IT to STOP SHAKING. Suddenly two hands lightly took hold of my trembling CD-holding hand. I looked up and there was Xavier, in his shiny custom Celine jacket wearing glory HOLDING MY HAND??? What the fuck.

I REALLY want to know what typ of face I’ve must’ve pulled because he just started grinning at me as I looked up at him and again repeated, “it’s okay! 😁🇫🇷” and smoothly took the CD with both of his hands and then marker from my other hand and started signing the CD.

Guys, I died on the spot.

I just put my head into my shaking hands and laughed a frazzled “oh my god” and thanked him.

My friend (happy her determination paid off) smiled and pats my shoulder (she’s the real mvp here fr).

Meanwhile Xavier all smiley signed my CD and after briefly pausing adds a heart next to his name and gives it back to me.

I thank him and he answers with “…so good (…)”???? (can’t remember what he said and the video again didn’t catch it.)

Yeah, it was crazy.

I don’t know whether I should be happy or die of cringe. Either way, Xavier is a certified sweetheart hahaha

(real footage of my hands. JUST LOOK AT THEM! TRAITORS!!)

The signature :DD

[hoboblaidd]

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[what-a-fella]

you know what daniel cain? if i was you i would have loved the bride.

[cyberpunkboytoy]

My DID-having ass is experiencing so much world-envy for the fictional country of Vaugarde I'm going to throw up