#I ACTUALLY STRUGGLE A BIT
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Spamton/I guess cringetober day 8 lol: Tumblr sexy man
IM ACTUALLY SO HAPPY HOW THIS CAME OUT THO ITS GOOD RIGHT?????
IDK
I HOPE ITS GOOD I HOPE YOU LIKE THE ART FOOD
#screaming and crying tho HOW DO YOU HIGHLIGHT GLASSES OUGH#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#art#skyler's art#spamton deltarune#spamton fanart#deltarune chapter two#deltarune chapter 2#cringetober 2023#cringetober#BUT ITS GOOD OTHERWISE THIS IS LIKE THE RARE CASE I TRY TO SHADOW AND HIGHLIGHT#ANNNND#ITS FUGGIN DIGITAL#THATS ACTUALLY REALLY HARD FOR ME#WITH EVERY DIGITAL GRAWING YOU SEE ME DOING#I ACTUALLY STRUGGLE A BIT#BUT WHEN I FINISH#I BECOME SO FUCKING HAPPY IF IT LOOKS GOOD#also new hairstyle sticked lol#byeee#:D#sky's random rambles
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ctommys
#my art#ctommy#c!tommy#ive been without my actual tablet in almost 2 months im sorry for no art also i suck at drawing now T_T#struggling a bit bear with me
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dad with a dog that he didn't want after a week.
#i tried a new way to draw this time#i actually struggled a bit with nicks face#that one time a year where i can draw folds#please forgive me for dogmeat looks i dont know how to draw animals#art#digital art#illustration#artists on tumblr#fanart#fallout#fallout 4#nick valentine#miki walentyna#fallout companions#fallout fanart#fallout 4 nick valentine#fallout art#fallout 4 companions#dogmeat#fallout dogmeat#fo4 dogmeat#ted art
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Learning to celebrate the little wins!
#fersona#While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day#I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!
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feedist kinktober 23 : bonfire bash
#oooh i can see the finish line !#kinda struggled a bit with this one#but fatguarddog was kind enough to explain this one to me#in the end i wouldn't figure out something with a firework or an actual bonfire bash so...#4k 10h firewood ASMR video it is!#also the fire on a screen was a real romantic move someone pulled on me - and poor thing it made me laugh so hard uvu#sry again lol#heavyheavycream#butter_and_jam#feedist kinktober#feedist kinktober 2024#vanilla comics#comics
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my disabled ass, after (1)good day: "obviously I am cured. in fact it may have all been in my head. who can say? now to rejoin society!"
me, the next day: "it has come to my attention that i may be chronically ill."
#who'd have thunk#we're all shocked i know#i forced myself to go to supermarket and ended up clinging to the shopping cart to stay upright#took two hours to stop shaking from exertion#then immediately corralled the cat to tend to his rash#mfer struggles and protests until he realizes all over again that it feels quite nice actually#and then goes deadweight and purrs *while* warbling mournfully#presumably just on principle#but it's all still more spoons than I can spare#i need to take him to the vet for his follow up in a bit#so fucking drained#send thoughts and prayers#ugh#chronic illness#spoonie#disability#knee of huss
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so ik it’s not cannon accurate but,,,
i need a fic of tim just crashing out.
like he gets so sick of like damian and jason talking about how weak he is and shit like that that he’s like “yall realize lady shiva was my one of my FIRST teachers, and i was the first robin she trained. i had to train under b AFTER he already lost a robin. you DONT think he was 10x harder on me than any of you guys???? there’s a reason my training videos are mainly redacted without bruce’s or my permission. i got ra’s al ghul BEGGING ME to join his league or have my children. i get gifts from him WEEKLY. do you KNOW how many of his little ninja i fight per DAY??? nahh im sick of this shit let’s take it to the mats” and just demolishing both of them at the same time.
i just think it’d be very funny. i just like fics of people who pretend to be weaker than they are(or they just never really have a reason to go full tilt so they just don’t) get sick of holding back and just losing it :D
#batfam#tim drake#red robin#jason todd#red hood#damian wayne#robin#unhinged tim drake#batfamily shitposts#i just need fics of tim losing his shit and crashing out#just because they are funny#and i sometimes feel like people would forget that just because he’s smart does not mean he doesn’t have hands#like bro all robins are certified villains only being held back by b’s rules#they all have insane hands and are all very smart#don’t get distracted by whichever one they choose to put at the forefront of their personality so you forget about the other#but basically yeah i just want it bc it’d make me giggle#also yes ik bruce never physically abused tim during training but i love the angst fics that use that so i added it anyways#i. don’t think it was like intentional on bryce’s part tho just that he was struggling so hard with his grief#he just never noticed how hard he was pushing tim until he pushed wayyyy too far#and yeah he and tim eventually resolved their issues and had a BIG talk about training boundaries#but only after he started getting a bit better and got it through his head that tim was just a kid and not a moving punching bag#i like to think it was only after like titans tower or some other time where he was very close to losing tim tho#bc as much as i want bruce to just be a good dad all the time he had struggles actually verbalizing his feelings#and apologizing for his mistakes
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“You came back wrong.”
Maybe I didn’t want to come back. Maybe you dragged me, kicking and screaming, from a death that while cold and final, was at least my own. When you placed my body on the dissection table, understand that I could not welcome your touch. When you stole back my life for me, understand that you stole it from me as well, because I was not able to choose this.
You chose it for me.
“You came back wrong.”
Maybe I did. Maybe you were desperate to hold on to me and I was desperate to hold on to myself, to keep believing I had any control over my own body, my own soul. Maybe in that moment of struggle between your fear and my will, you pulled too hard and left a part of me behind.
Maybe that was the part of me that you loved.
Maybe that was the part of me that loved you.
“You came back wrong.”
Oh, my love. What makes you think I came back?
#so uh… this was supposed to be about Arcane#I got a bit carried away#viktor arcane#jayce talis#arcane#arcane season 2#jayvik#implied anyway#I don’t know I don’t think he’s actually say this#I was just having thoughts about agency within arcane#and how much Viktor’s character circled around his own struggles with agency and control over his body and his life#and this season he just#had that brutally ripped away#and now he’s Jesús!#hahahaha this is fine everything’s fine I’m so normal about this character#madbard rambles#madbard writes
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AU where Belos DOES manage to successfully possess one of the unfinished grimwalkers and poor Hunter has to confront yet another thing wearing his face
#toh#the owl house#for the future#toh hunter#philip wittebane#hunter noceda#haven't stopped thinking about this concept since the episode aired like a year ago.#and i mean. tis the season! i thought i'd draw something kinda spooky or whatever#the rotting grimwalker was actually unexpectedly very fun to draw#i would have made it more gory but i don't think i could have really pulled it off.#art#my art#weaverofink#i tried to replicate the background style of the show but man those things are detailed!!!!#even with a reference i was struggling to make it look even a little bit good#its a little simplified in mine which i think strikes an ok balance
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doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what
#dimension 20#fantasy high#riz gukgak#very specifically class swap bard!riz#fh class quangle#mm. I may need tags for all the asides Ive been doing lmao#riz's canon design is so coherent and thematically clean that I genuinely struggle to keep up...#bard!riz's whole thing is working out his identity through abject fear so it kiiiinda makes sense that hes got a different thing going#on every year I guess? like lmao the directive I go into each of these designs with changes vastly#freshman bard!riz has to look extremely nonthreatening. and also make you wanna pick him up and chuck him at a wall#annoyingly inoffensive. slides off your memory pretty much immediately. a void of an experience#crucially Does Not Show Teeth While Smiling#sophomore year bard!riz I have been keeping the like. cameraman direction for#I want him to be swimming in clothes a little bit... he kinda lands at like. 80s/90s shlocky horror protag too which I do like#bc what is season 2 to riz if not a horror story lmao#junior year bard!riz I want to be somewhere between clark kent and tintin#the journalist aesthetics is not so clear and easy to build as the detective or spy aesthetics...#but also I just. really like boy journalist lmao this is the BD blood speaking again#and! I actually do draw his hair differently than in my canon junior year riz stuff. its a bit shorter here so it doesn't#obscure as much of his face#its so funny actually going from drawing canon stuff to class swap esp. with riz bc he's smiling SO much here#and it's 100% trained like its crucial for u guys to know he is equally if not more fucked up as a bard#barely anybody can wrangle him in canon it's already been mostly him keeping himself on track. imagine if he actually learned how to act#mmm. I think these designs are still gonna soft change as I draw them. thats fine we have fun#drawing sophomore year bard!riz for those comiclets was fun as hell. I think on this factor alone I call it a success lol
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how the gang sleeps headcannons let’s go!
Johnny: can literally fall asleep anywhere. Light sleeper, but falls asleep really fast most of the time
Dallas: sleeps fully clothed outta laziness half the time- i mean in the scene at Buck’s he was literally wearing jeans for some fucking reason. Often has his head under a pillow ‘cuz there’s always loud music playing. He also probably doesn’t know that you’re supposed to change your sheets.
Two-Bit: Does know you’re supposed to change sheets, but still doesn’t change them. Moves a lot and sometimes wakes up upside down in the morning.
Steve: hugs a pillow cuz he’s touch starved asf. Runs warm and hates using a blanket because it’s sweaty, but also hates not using a blanket because it’s cold, so he’s gotta do that “one leg under one leg over” thing
Darry: takes forever to fall asleep, but once he’s asleep, he’s practically knocked out. often has to sleep through the gang’s chaos, so this is pretty useful
Sodapop: either hates sleeping or loves it with no in between, like a kid who whines about bed time but then sleeps in till noon. walks around wrapped up in a blanket on winter mornings while procrastinating on getting dressed (ADHD’ll do that). Sometimes hauls himself outta bed only to fall asleep again curled up on the floor on the way to his closet.
Ponyboy: Sometimes wakes up with Soda’s limbs pinning him down which is annoying. Probably has a bit of insomnia, and obviously struggles with nightmares. Has sleep-talked before and it always jumpscares Soda
#the outsiders#rambling#steve randle#sodapop curtis#ponyboy curtis#ponyboy#the outsiders ponyboy#the outsiders johnny#the outsiders two bit#darry the outsiders#the outsiders dally#the outsiders sodapop#the outsiders steve#outsiders headcanons#headcanon#the outsiders headcanons#my art#i actually wrote/drew this in…august I think? and forgot abt it in drafts lol#Dally’s music thing is from experience I remember that now#I typed his section up while trying and failing to fall asleep over all the loud music in my house 😭#my old man’s a musician and my ma loves karaoke parties and they’ll invite over everyone they’ve ever met and sing loud till dawn#it’s very charming but very hard to live with sometimes#point is Dally probably struggles to sleep at Buck’s lol
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everything is the same except Odile is the one looping
oh. heheheheh. muahahahaha. hold on *digs through my pile of disorganized sketches*
Odile loops au; a sketch compilation!!
Some old fic drabbles + associated sketches under cut (a6 secret spoilers):
hc: Since equipment carries over, as long as Odile uses her book in a fight, she can write down notes and have it carry over loops
toxic doomed yuri (for a more fleshed out fic I highly recommend The Sweetest Thing by soreimoon, it's amazing)
#isat#odile loops au#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat odile#odile timeloop au#congrats on unleashing the hell gates of odile looping au!!! I've thought about it a bunch!!!!!#contexts:#candy is a reference to sasasap i think. not sure if odile likes candy though#i think it'd be funny if odile struggled with understanding how shields work for a bit. she spends several loops asking mirabelle for help#I think odile would actually spend more time in the loops once she's sure she can just loop again. They're not actually in a rush after all#and she might as well maximize her loops#under cut:#she leaves all of her excess books with loop. Loop has another thing to do while waiting#yes loop is still you know who in this one#toxic doomed yuri is just very self indulgent teehee thanks discord folks#not depicted: I also think that the more loops she does the more she views them as experiments#with variables to control and test#that's where she starts falling off the deep end and start testing stuff like. not warning siffrin about the rock#(instantly regrets it though. loops back the first time she tries)#day 26 today?#A big one! Have funnn#you can tell some of these are really old by the different colored background lmfao#isat au
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dont know enough about chess to give a clever caption, but use that last piece carefully spekta!!!!
alt blur and an extra thing. thank you oomf on twt for asking if hes eating the pieces answer is yes
#great god grove spoilers#great god grove#ggg fanart#ggg spoilers#ggg inspekta#ggg capochin#? kindaa yeah#i actually struggled so bad w this piece i kept asking my friend for suggestions HAHA#anyway time 2 hibernate for a bit again snzzzz
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When I saw you making For the Spirits art I was so excited, wow, one of my favourite artists is reading this too, how nice!! Then I realised you’re actually the author and I just want to ask, how?? Are you so talented???? I love this fic and I love your art so so much, thank you for sharing it all with us. Can’t wait for the next update!!
Ah, thank you! This is literally so sweet! For the Spirits (adding a link for the curious folks out there!) is my love child. This project owns my heart and soul, and it's truly so rewarding that you like it! I want to sketch so many different scenes, really, but I'm doing my best to give you some quality artwork of my favorite moments in the story. It's a slow process.
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As for next chapter—soon! I'm working on some sketches for this particular scene, and I am so excited to share it with everyone! Things start to pick up from here... But, for now, have a (very little) sneak peek ❤️
Zuko stood at the end of the world, surrounded by miles of snow and the resounding echo of his own shallow breaths. He took everything in, closed his eyes to receive Agni’s light, and howled.
Something howled back, and he smiled.
#dema answers#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#atla fanart#prince zuko#atla art#atla fic#atla fanfic#new gods au#for the spirits#spirit touched zuko#atla zuko#the painted lady#Izumi of Jang Hui#lu ten atla#lu ten#Royal Guard Ming#atla ming#Ghost Lu Ten#*insert creepy noises*#Isn't it fun how Lu Ten doesn't really look like a ghost at all?#In ATLA spirits (in terms of soul projection or whatever that's called) are these shiny blue semi-transparent souls...#But that's not really how they work in FTS. A HUGE part of Zuko's struggle with his “gift” comes from his inability to...#...distinguish spirits and ghosts from living humans. At least at first. He's much better at it now.#But I digress#He's experiencing The Terrors and I love him for it#Putting this story together and bringing to life is so important to me! I always wonder how you guys will receive FTS.#Thank you so much for all the love#As for the story itself... Keep an eye out for next chapter. That little bit I shared is actually quite important 👀
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Cite your sources.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangshan#jiang cheng#lan wangji#mianmian#Jiang Cheng stays quiet after JGS says his foul little lie about WWX not respecting or liking him.#And because it's an audio format there isn't any other information we get on what he does.#Probably sit there in silence. Fermenting on his festering abandonment issues.#I think JC has a bit of a delicate heart when it comes to the last few things he has to hold on to.#And damn if JGS can see right into that weakness. He's got a mercury tongue. Silvery and poisonous.#I know LWJ makes his rebuttal more for preserving WWX's face than reassuring JC.#But I also know they *did* team up in the past and they do have a lot in common. And canonically can't stand each other.#They are my funny little duo and I'm the one drawing the comic. I can bake my own crumbs.#Would LWJ actually comfort JC? I don't think he knows how to comfort anyone actually. Not even himself.#JC is struggling so badly in this meeting. I'm glad there are other people in this awful meeting to tag in while he has a quiet cry.#Who's ready for Mianmian to go off next comic? Let's give a 'GET HIS ASS GIRL' to our queen!
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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