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How⊠how are we halfway through the decade? I remember NYE 2019 and all the people dressing like it was the 1920s in the hopes of bringing back the roaring 20s.
That didnât work.
"it was in 2020" oh so like a year or so ago. a couple years. im sorry 5? did you just say five? five years ago ?

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Grian in 2021: Letâs put my friends in a minecraft server with three lives and see who lasts longest :)
Grian in 2024: There is a snail following you constantly and if it touches you you die. It canât be killed or stopped and it reflects damage and tnt back towards you. If you go too far away it teleports and it can burrow through blocks and fly using a propeller. Good luck.
#life series#life series spoilers#wild life#wild life spoilers#like the escalation here is so funny to me#how did we get here
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Kinda crazy how my first cellphone didn't have a camera or internet and 17 years later this thing knows more about me than I do and gives people brand new mental ilnesses.
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stress relief | ony
15k wrds. strangers to friends? to lovers. slow burn. plot with smut. fem black oc. see the moodboard.
warnings: MNDI! lots of profanity, usage of n word, pet names, mentions of weed; smut: unprotected sex (PLS BE SAFE), edging, a spank or two, naaasty talk, degradation? more like brat-taming, dacryphilia for two seconds, ony rightfully has a bbc, begging, onyâs a talker (duh), choking? really just a hand necklace, pussydrunk ony, lowkey d/s but not explicitly mentioned
additional #: oc needs to get laid fr. kt needs her headphones. becca needs a new job. author doesnât box. shout out mrs. etta. ony is chalanting with a girl for the first time. (and heâs vibing with it.) oc really needs to get laid. oc is a bit bratty⊠sorry. ony needs to get off his ass. oc is actually very bratty, damn. oh hell, oc gets laid!
âgirl, Iâma be real with you⊠you need some dick,â crystalâs best friend tells her through her screen. ktâs giving a look, an interesting mix of pity and annoyance. her knotless braids are framing her face, mocha skin radiant as always but lashes looking quite barren. âyeah, and you need a lash refill, ho,â crystal snorts. since sheâs bringing up needs and shit. itâs unfortunately been a while since theyâve hung out, kt now visiting family in colorado for about a week.
being the type of friends they are, the both of them have no issue communicating through tiktoks and sending pictures of silly things. just yesterday kt sent a picture of herself holding up a peace sign with a joint between her lips. she stood next to a 'no smoking' sign, the ânoâ smudged. she thought she was just so clever. crys in return sent a saved picture of an unimpressed squidward, a typical exchange between the two goofballs.
âyeah, okay, ho. Iâm just saying. maybe youâd be a little nicer to me if you got some,â she rolls her eyes, giving yzma. her rescheduled lash appointment canât come quick enough. âsays the girl getting some every day and still being mean to me,â crys scoffs.
ktâs living with her boyfriend, expecting his title to change to fiance after feeling a certain anticipatory energy from the man. her time consists of working and chatting with friends, and being with and posting videos with her partner. crys, however, explores her free time in many ways. picking up hobbies that have about a 50% chance of sticking, trying different restaurants, teaching her dog funny tricks, and the occasional friend hangout. itâs friday night and sheâs doing her own nails just for the hell of it. although the uninhibited girlâs words trigger an automatic negative response, crys knows why sheâs speaking them. when the phone call ends, kt will turn over and cuddle up to her man, maybe âget her shit rockedâ as she likes to so delicately put it. crys, however, will be left with her dog, her empty home and bed, and whichever toy she vibes with for the night.
she likes being alone, itâs an accomplishment for her to feel confident and comfortable being single after wasting her time with people that donât care, men that donât even actually like her. but when itâs all said and done, people are meant for connection. of course platonic, family, community⊠but that pull? that yearning? it canât be replicated, no matter how many times she rewatches bridgerton or insecure.
itâs been a while since she just let go with anyone other than those already close to her. the last time she let someone new in, he showed her exactly why âniggas ainât shitâ is such a popular phrase. it was a situation that didnât make any sense, and in retrospect, she cringes. the embarrassment, the useless attempts at communication, the settling⊠never again. however, thatâs a part of her life thatâs being fully neglected. no dates, no late night rendezvous, no flirting, no sex.
one word: cobwebs.
âwhy are you more worried about my coochie than I am, anyway?â crys jokes as she fixes her gel polish, deflecting the conversation. itâs not something she wants to discuss or harp on. thatâs just life for her right now. sheâs tired of people wasting her time, so she became unavailable. simple. plus, she knows ktâs nosy ass man is lying next to her and listening because that girl never wears her damn airpods. âyou think thatâs an insult? girl. that only makes you look bad, not me,â she sasses. crys hears a soft snicker in the background. âoh, fuck you,â the girl mumbles in response. âand will you please put headphones on the next time you decide to go talkinâ bout my coochie? cause Iâll happily tell all those stories about yours, pimp.â
âstories?â crys hears in the background of the call. âainât no way she just called you that. what the hell that mean, crystal?â the bestie purses her lips and squints at crys. she watches as the brown skinned girl tilts her head, making her curls flop to the side with a âgotchaâ look. âI know where you live, you know that, foâhead? have a good night with your vibrator, ho,â she speaks lowly. shuffles are heard as she drops the phone onto the duvet next to her. âshe donât mean that, pookie, sheâs just all pent up.â ktâs middle finger is all thatâs visible on the screen before the phone echos a tone a few times, indicating the end of the call. crys snorts in response and sits her phone to the side. she sighs, looking over her nails for any imperfections as her mind echoes her words.
she wouldnât be opposed to a night in the sheets. itâd be nice to dust off the cobwebs. get some head, maybe get her shit rocked like she hasnât had in a while. part of her wants the slow and sensual, romantic sex with someone special. the kind of sex that touches her soul, that you can feel on every level. the other part⊠well. that part stays right in the cage where it belongs. that part likes to drown in frisky pleasure even if the one giving it is a life source draining leech.
itâs normal to want pleasure, itâs human. but the thought of all the bullshit that comes with dealing with another human, let alone a man in this day and age is enough to make her reconsider taking that step. so like usual, she brushes the words off and refocuses on her spa day so that she can be at her best for the work week.
á„«áĄ
despite her best efforts, the next week is particularly irritating. mercury must be doing her shit, maybe all the damn planets, because so many people have had wack ass attitudes and itâs rubbed crys wrong. terrible interactions with customers, coworkers called out and left her in a busy store with little help, and she broke a nail doing something very much so not in her job description. on top of that, the amount of random things outside of her control that have gone haywire is deeply irritating. her tv crapped out and decided to just stop working out of nowhere, her wifi is out for local renovations, and her trash can is missing.
again.
itâs a wonder she hasnât either had some type of crash out or just cashed in her pto for a fucking break. instead, she decides to get dressed for the gym and puts on a purple workout set. if she wants to be cute and sweaty she damn well will be. she grabs her favorite gym shoes and her essentials. she leaves her curls alone for now, but takes a scrunchie to put it up later. when she gets to the gym at a completely different time than sheâs used to, itâs practically empty, save for a young and obviously bored receptionist thatâs glued to her phone and a middle aged woman power walking into her destiny.
seriously, crys will have some of what sheâs having. the woman is on fire.
sighing to herself, the frazzled girl goes to scan her member qr code, only for the damn scanner to decide to stop working. the blonde receptionist behind the desk sighs as if doing her job is the last thing she wants to do. crys usually wouldnât blame her for that, but the way sheâs popping her gum has the curly headed girl imagining a modern re-enactment of that one scene from that madea movie. the receptionist seems to be in absolutely no rush to fix the scanner, completely oblivious to the metaphorical cloud over crysâ head thatâs growing by the minute. she fights the urge to furrow her brows and take a weekâs worth of irritation out on the worker, deciding to take a deep breath instead.
the brief look up that the girl gives in response has her immediately regretting her decision.
before she can even think of something to say, the door opens behind her. sheâs in no mood to look at the person, figuring theyâll both be waiting in line. she doesnât want to seem open to small talk because sheâs just not. however, the receptionistâ becca, her nametag readsâ looks up like the sun just graced the sky for the first time in centuries. she stands up straighter, obviously trying to make herself look like sheâs doing the job that sheâs been failing at, and calls over crysâ shoulder. âhey, ony, technical difficulties. youâre free to go ahead you donât have to wait, I can check you in once this is fixed,â she smiles. that lucky bastard. itâs the first smile on her face in the entire time the bristling girl has been there. crys swears if this was a cartoon scene, the blonde girl would be fluttering her lashes with hearts in her eyes.
thereâs a deep chuckle from behind. âthanks, becca. they should give you a raise,â a low, raspy voice responds. crysâ eye twitches. the hell they should, she thinks. hand me the damn performance review form cause I got shit to say. becca, now looking as if sheâs on cloud nine, waves him off dismissively. âjust doing my job. leg day?â she questions, trying to sound as casual as possible and not like her drool is threatening to ruin the damn scanner beyond repair. âmhm,â the stranger hums. ânice kicks,â he mumbles.
crys is too busy zoning out and imagining herself tap dancing on the broken pieces of the scanner to realize that heâs talking to her. the way beccaâs eyes shift gets her attention. âoh. uh, thanks,â she murmurs, looking up. all she sees is a muscular back walking towards the menâs locker room. she doesnât have time to look him over because ms. becca decides she actually can do her job and calls out to her that the scanner is fixed.
it just needed to be plugged up again.
ainât no fuckinâ way.
becca doesnât even seem embarrassed. sheâs holding the scanner lazily and looking around, probably for that ony guy. the blonde doesnât realize that crys is holding her phone out, and sheâs still popping that damn gum. instead of saying something to the girl like she really wants to, she grabs the scanner from the âworkerâ to check her damn self in and quickly heads to the locker room. the girl doesnât deserve her weekâs worth of anger.
after some time, sheâs finally out on the floor to stretch out. soon after the warm up, sheâs at the punching bag. itâs not her usual choice of workout, but she took classes when she was younger and knows itâs a great way to release all that irritation from the week in a more physical outlet.
crys quickly wraps her hands and soon sheâs throwing punches and listening to rico nasty, an artist who has several tracks on her âtemper tantrumâ playlist. she gets into her groove, trying to remember the important tips from the classes she attended years ago. itâs hard to recall all the basics, but she gives it her best shot. not too long after, she notices a shadow of someoneâs frame behind her. it must be that lucky asshole from earlier, probably here to be a bother. or maybe becca decided to do her job and came to tell her to move her bag off the floor. she sighs, taking out her headphones and turning to look. itâs the stranger. the manâs arms are crossed as he watches, showing his sleeves of tattoos.
crys wishes she could say he was ugly, but heâs definitely not. heâs fine as fuck, actually. his skin is dark and healthy, making him look like he actually has a skincare routine and not just 100-in-one soap. he has an athletic build visible even through his clothes that makes her want to drool like dear old becca. heâs tall, maybe 6â4 or 6â5, so she has to look up at him, even being on the taller side herself. his black durag matches his all black workout fit and she wonders what exactly lies underneath considering the size of his arms.
his demeanor is calm and steady, confident in a way thatâs quiet, as opposed to many other gym brosâą. his face is calm and thereâs barely any tension in his body. crys thinks sheâd like to make him bothered, just to get a rise. see if heâll hold ip or bite back. but no, thatâs rude, and she doesnât know this man at all. his eyes are looking at her intently, and she despises how beautiful they are. why do men get to have natural lashes that look like that? itâs not fair she has to get extensions when his are so long with an almost perfect curl. and the color of his eyes make it worse, the light brown contrasting his dark skin so prettily. and his lips? full, perfect for kissing, among other things.
lucky bastard.
âyou gone bite my head off if I suggest how to fix your form?â he asks with a simple raise of his brow.
á„«áĄ
onyâs a hardworking man. he likes to handle business but have some fun on the side too. heâs chill. everyone would describe him as that. heâs the levelheaded friend, usually the calm in a storm, and not one to be all over the place physically, mentally, or emotionally. heâs a steady beat and he likes it that way. life is peaceful and secure, challenging in certain ways, but calm in others. he has a good paying job as a personal trainer, proper work life balance, and a good head on his shoulders. he doesnât do too much, honestly, but that doesnât mean that his life doesnât have some interesting twists and turns. his boys always seem to need rescuing in some form, sisters all a whirlwind of their own. his mom is always a source of entertainment, although his dad is much like himself. he likes his life, simple as that.
but things have been becoming monotonous lately. his clients arenât having any interesting developments and his social life is steady but uninteresting overall. his family group chat is going through a quiet spell and his boys are actually not up to anything stupid like they somehow always are. heâs been particularly unfulfilled by the game and thereâs no sport he wants to keep up with as of late. itâs all kind of⊠blah. heâs grateful that nothingâs going wrong. he could be having a bad week as opposed to a boring one, but he aches for a spark, something different to bring a bit more color to his life. maybe he should get a pet? maybe some little fish couldnât hurt. he thinks over the new idea while he follows his usual routine to pack up and leave for the gym.
and then he sees crys.
he notices her form as she stands at the check in desk, interest piqued. heâs never seen her before, and he comes to this gym at least five nights a week. he knows names and faces, especially since thereâs usually no more than five people when he comes. her figure catches and keeps his eye, his gaze taking in the womanâs long legs, thick thighs, and plump ass, seeing how her afro falls around her shoulders. his excuse for where his gaze is centered is that itâs all he can see from where heâs standing, but itâs not much of an excuse. sheâs just fine as hell. her workout fit is cute and colorful, contrasting his dark and bland one. her hand is in on her hip thatâs popped out, accentuating her form.
his interest is definitely piqued.
he gets to see more of her when he comes around to speak to becca. pretty almond eyes, soft looking lips, the bottom currently being chewed with vigor. sheâs beautiful⊠but one look at her profile and the flames in her eyes tell him all he needs to know: look the other way. ony grew up surrounded by strong black women in his life, his mom, sisters, aunts, cousins⊠learning to read body language andâ well, the room, was something he learned quickly and heâs applied that lesson everywhere in life. everything about her body language and that cute, barely contained frown screams bad day. so he greets beccaâ whoâs really a sweet girl, just unbotheredâ compliments her shoes, and moves on about his routine.
itâs like clockwork. he puts his stuff away, makes sure his chain is safe and secure, fills his water bottle, waves at mrs. etta on the treadmill, stretches, locks in, and gets the workout started.
heâs getting into his mode and enveloping himself in the feel of the workout, but he canât help the way his eyes are pulled back to crys. the way she stretches, the way she adorably bobs her head to the seemingly⊠aggressive? music. sheâs gorgeous and new, which has him feeling like every routine move he makes is just a little different. her and her angry pout and her curves and her curlsâŠ
she approachs a punching bag, which ony can admit he didnât expect. the outfit convinced him sheâd be power walking with mrs. etta, or doing pilates in the corner. his mom always told him what assuming does to someone, though. he looks away as he tries to focus on anything other than her. he counts his reps like usual, trying to submerge himself in his music. it doesnât work. as soon as she takes her first swing, his eyes are back on her, taking notice of how she punches.
hm.
he can see she knows a bit more than someone just randomly choosing to throw a few hits, but he isnât fond of some of the habits she has that could actually hurt in the long run. he debates approaching, but heâs always been one to help others in the gym. attitude be damned, heâs a personal trainer. he knows the importance of doing things correctly. after watching for a while, he decides to walk over. he knows that if she doesnât fix her punch, sheâll be angry all over again tomorrow because of sore wrists. she turns, obviously annoyed, but heâs not scared. she looks him up and down, her facial expression barely shifting. he wonders what sheâs thinking, wants to hear her voice. when she finally looks up at him with those eyes, he almost tilts his head.
how can someone be so fuckinâ pretty?
sheâs a vision with her bare face. eyes he could get lost in, features he wants to admire for moments on end. he would actually guess that sheâs quite sweet behind the haze of her frustration. obviously a multifaceted person, and heâs interested in the idea of learning all those facets. who she is, maybe what she likes, what she doesnât like. maybe even what makes her happy, what would put a smile on the adorably scrunched up face. for some reason, he wants to see that happy expression. actually, as a matter of fact, he wants to see all her expressions. smiling, confused, relaxed, aroused. sheâs caught him with a simple gaze and heâs confused about it.
âyou actually know what youâre doing?â she asks. itâs not meant to be a jab, truthfully. sheâs been hit on by guys that try to âhelpâ just to flirt, but ultimately make a fool of themselvesâ and her for giving them the opportunity. she doesnât have the patience for it today, it in fact might be the straw that breaks her back. she can see amusement tickle at his expression, but no signs of him being offended.
because heâs not. he can tell she isnât asking in a facetious way, she just seems⊠tired. like she doesnât want her time wasted. he can respect that. âI promise you, I do,â he says with a slight smile. just a little one, unable to contain his utter enjoyment in her sass, and still having that almost sickening feeling of attraction.
crys hums, her gaze sweeping over him again briefly, taking in his calm but confident demeanor. the little smile on his face is lowkey pissing her off, but she has enough sense to know itâs because she has a lot of stress to work out. heâs fine as hell and nowâs really not the time for all that. even still, heâs bold to come over with the metaphorical storm still rolling above her head. bold⊠or stupid. who walks towards a burning house? but she knows if he could tell her form was off from so far, she could really be messing herself up with how sheâs going at the punching bag. she wants to just kick and punch it randomly, similar to what her âtemper tantrumâ playlist suggests, but she knows thatâs no good. and again, heâs fine as hell.
all the same, sheâs still irritated and frustration-filled. âsure, yeah,â she mumbles as she turns back to the bag.
onyâs quite intrigued, interestingly enough. he knows a person close to the brink when he sees one. he can see the irritation in her eyes and in the way her shoulders are set. her movements are stiff and her brows are still pinched, gorgeous even with the possibly dangerous amount of upset toiling in her. despite her tense demeanor, he can tell sheâs still at least trying to be respectful. and he appreciates it.
âwhatâs your name?â he asks, shifting to stand next to her. sheâs staring at the bag, itching to just punch. âcrys,â she answers, sparing him a glance as she fixes the wrapping on her hands. sheâs pulling it tight, her movements swift. she can feel him watching her intently and she doesnât know how she feels about it.
he nods. âony. Iâm no expert but I can share a few tips to keep you from gettinâ hurt. mind if I touch you?â he asks, the question second nature from dealing with his clients. he knows better than to start without given permission, and he definitely knows he doesnât want to be on the receiving end of her irritation. âsâfine,â she answers, ignoring the very inappropriate response that her brain comes up with. not now, brain. nasty ass. she really just wants him to hurry up so she can go back to punching, but she supposes she can hold back for a few more minutes if itâs him thatâs going to touch her. plus itâs important to do it right, and even through her upset she knows that and is grateful for his help. if he could just be a little faster, though, thatâd be wonderful.
he approaches, gently taking her hand in his as he unwraps her binding. âitâs a good wrap, but they shouldnât be too tight. you gone hurt yourself that way,â he mumbles. his hands move slowly, demonstrating to her as he explains. itâs not in the show off-y way she expected, but direct and intentional instead. sheâs glad heâs helping but a part of her is focused a bit too much on how his hands feel, how calming his voice is. âyou should be able to spread your fingers. thisâll save your wrists and then some, yeah?â he murmurs, gently tapping her hand. still upset, she hates how soothing the contact is. she doesnât need soothing, she needs violence.
that⊠might be dramatic. she knows it. but the weekâs frustrations have all built to this moment and she plans to take full advantage of the punching bag in front of her. if he doesnât pick up the pace, he might just take its place, handsome or not. âgotcha,â she mutters. âcan I hit the bag now?â ony chuckles, and sheâs mad that she really likes the sound. âsure. do a couple jabs.â
she takes a deep breath, her focus zoning on the bag. his presence fades slightly as she begins going at it, a bit overzealous. he lets her take a few punches, seeing how she obviously needs it. his gaze sweeps her form, watching her hips swivel slightly as she swings. her hits start with a decently healthy form, but the more she gets into it, ony can tell her focus is slipping. âokay, hold,â he murmurs. she doesnât hear him and continues punching. her breathing is picking up and the cute scrunch between her brows is deepening. âhold,â he says louder, getting her attention. she huffs and raises out of her stance, blowing a stray out of her face. she steps forward and holds the bag to stop its movements, looking over at him.
ony could almost laugh at the way the curl flops right back into place. swears he could almost see her eyebrow twitch. damn, who pissed her off? âyou got some good habits and some bad habits,â he mumbles, standing parallel to her now. âneed to swing your hips more, not push through your arm. pop the bag, donât push your punch.â he moves slowly as he speaks, demonstrating his words with his movements. itâs easy to follow, but his muscles are stealing the show, to crysâ dismay. âI was doing that,â she mumbles in response because she indeed was. âmhm, at the beginning. the more you put in, the less you focus on your form,â he says as he returns to his earlier position, arms crossed. âgo again,â he nods. âbossy,â she mumbles. she likes it. heâs giving proper tips and doesnât really care about her attitude, seeming unaffected.
ony chuckles, seemingly knowing thereâs no actual anger in her tone, at least not completely directed at him. crys supposes heâs right. when she gets in the flow, her mind focuses less on her form and more on the happenings of the week. she definitely couldâve weakened her stance, and his words bring memories of her previous instructor. he might not be an expert, but he knows what heâs saying for sure. she gets back into her stance and takes a few more hits, more focused on her form this time around. she canât quite lose herself to the exercise with the newfound focus, and she doesnât like it. âbetter,â ony calls out. âkeep goinâ.â so she does. she follows his instructions to a t, feeling a bit more comfortable with the continued form as she practices.
ânice, real nice,â he murmurs, shifting to hold the bag from behind. he notices the hesitation in her movements as she focuses on her form. âcome on,â his deep voice encourages. âwhere that fire go, huh? tellinâ me you canât fight and focus?â crys, probably feeling goaded, looks up to him for a moment. ony could laugh again at the look in her eyes, but he doesnât. âdonât look at me, look at the bag. you mad, I know it. let it out,â he nods his head to the bag in his hands. he doesnât have to tell her twice. she starts to hit with more vigor, putting more into her punches. âmhm, yeah. control that shit, stay tight. swivel yourâ there you go, exactly,â he encourages. sheâs picking it up, movements smoother and becoming more confident by the minute.
shitâs sexy as fuck.
crys is actually starting to fuck with him more, feeling herself in the workout. the way heâs talking is having an affect on her, and she knows sheâll be thinking back on this very moment tonight. his voice is deep, and slightly raspy as she keeps at it, and the encouraging makes her wonder if heâs like that in⊠different circumstances. she can feel her breath picking up for several reasons. âhad you mad as fuck, huh? had you fucked up?â ony questions, pushing her a bit more. âlet that shit out, ma. ainât doinâ you no good to hold it in.â they both know that heâs telling the truth. she was just about bursting at the seams and his encouragement is helping her tap back into that. she punches harder, small grunts falling from her lips. the weekâs frustrations are pouring out of her now and sheâs pushing herself so that she can get him out of her head.
the way heâs talking to her in her amped up state just shouldnât be legal. sheâs pretty sure heâs the type to talk his girl through it, probably tease and taunt to get a reaction. damn, she needs to get laid. âform,â he reminds as her focus slips. she gives a quick nod, readjusting herself quickly before taking another shot. ony likes how quickly she responds to his guidance. âhell yeah, you got that shit. keep goinâ, mama. ainât nobody fuckinâ with you, thatâs for damn sure.â
damn his fine ass with his deep voice and his face and his pet name.
she keeps going until every ounce of upset is drained, listening to his encouragement and occasional shit talking at a particularly weak punch or slip of focus. sheâll be honest, she feels good. great, actually. she feels as if she actually knows what sheâs doing, confident in her moves. the upset has trickled away, but its absence is leaving too much space to think about the man in front of her. his fine ass is pushing her in the way she likes and needs, encouraging but taunting just the way she likes it.
after several more minutes, she steps back, panting. âkilled that shit,â ony mumbles, double tapping the bag. she really did, the difference between her earlier attempts and now is stark. and all because of just a few pointers. he watches as she catches her breath and unwraps her hands. âyou done?â he questions. he wasnât expecting her to finish so soon, she was just getting in her groove. he was honestly expecting a few more rounds.
âyeah,â crys answers as she nods. âthanks for your help, really. just needed to blow off some steam.â feeling better now, she decides that she should finish out with her regular workout. the less angry she is, the more she focuses on that damn smirk on his face, the way his muscles move with each shift of his body, the birthmark sheâs spotted on his jaw. sheâs trying hard to resist the pull she feels as she catches her breath. she gets another chuckle from ony. âcould tell. I almost didnât even come over. bad day?â
crys gives a sheepish smile, sliding her wrap in her bag. ony likes the smile a lot, but he wants more. âmy bad. bad week, actually,â the woman responds. ony shakes his head, uncrossing his arms. âno harm, I get it,â he responds. and he really does, most of the time peopleâs attitudes really have nothing to do with you. âyou should keep at it though, you got good form. at least when youâre focused. with some more practice, you could easily make it muscle memory.â and Iâd like to see you more, he thinks. crys smiles and nods. âthink I will. thanks again for your help, woulda been pissed if I hurt myself.â
onyâs eyes trail over her features. with the metaphorical cloud gone, sheâs shining brighter. her smile is gorgeous, revealing a small gap in her teeth and a crinkle by her eyes. yeah. fuckinâ beautiful. âcourse. canât have you gettinâ mad again, yeah?â he laughs, the sound deep as it rumbles from his chest. crys playfully rolls her eyes. âwhatever, ony. actinâ like Iâm godzilla or something. you can gone back to your workout.â
the two separate, continuing their sessions. but their eyes continuously meet as they sneak glances at each other and they exchange flirty quips. crys questions the amount of weight ony chooses for his sets, teasing that sheâd thought heâd lift more. ony calls her out for a weak rep, telling her she should start over for half-assing. they just canât seem to get enough of each other, teasing and poking at one another like crushing kids in school.
crys is definitely eating their interactions up. heâs fun in a way that isnât childish, regardless of how he makes her almost giddy like a teenage girl. heâs not afraid to go along with a joke, but itâs obvious heâs not one to be messed with. no matter how many shots she takes, no matter how much she teases, he never breaks a sweat. itâs almost as if heâs welcoming the challenge and crys is more than willing to indulge.
ony likes her fire. itâs invigorating and it keeps him on his toes. heâs used to women being like beccaâ fawning, overly sweet, and obviously interested. the push and tug he gets from crys is different, and heâs enjoying every interaction, every tease, every glance at that ass. she just draws him in and he canât get enough. where the hell has she been and why are they just now meeting? he couldâve shown her a lot more than boxing tips by now.
for her cool down, crys decides that since the gym is pretty much empty, she can take some extra time to do some yoga and meditation. she zones in and takes a plethora of deep breaths, regulating her nervous system and releasing tension. grounding herself in the present moment and releasing stress, anxiety, and frustration. it definitely helps as a follow up to the punching bag. sheâs always appreciated how centered she feels after even just a few minutes of reconnecting with herself, tending to her mind, heart, and soul and not just her body. she should definitely do yoga often to stay balanced, but shoulda woulda coulda.
the second she starts to stretch, onyâs eyes are stuck on her like glue. she stretches for a long time, he notices. it seems like some type of meditation, the way she holds her hands together and closes her eyes, highly focused as she takes deep breaths almost audible where he stands. itâs interesting how he can notice the shift she makes from her earlier demeanor. sheâs much calmer, locked in in a way unexpected to him. of course he knows how to calm himself, how to regulate. but those stretches⊠not only is he sure he could never replicate them due to lack of flexibility, but he can see the intention in each move, seemingly in each muscle and breath.
itâs weird to him how pulled he feels in her direction. he just wants to know her and is curious if sheâd give him the chance. and of course he wants to know her body too⊠he could definitely help her relieve a lot of that stress. over and over again. probably until she couldnât take anymore. something about her just keeps pulling him back in. maybe heâs just interested in her newness with his life currently feeling a bit more dull, but he knows heâd be just as interested if it wasnât. she has spice, a good sense of humor, sweetness, sheâs undoubtedly beautiful with all her little quirks, and that ass is the kind that a man would go to war for.
seriously.
especially with the way sheâs sitting and stretching with her legs wide, chest flush against the floor. itâs making ony have thoughts, and a lot of them. after a while of being unable to stop looking, he decides to walk over. he stands above her with his arms crossed, head tilting as he looks down at her. âhow the hell you even doinâ allat?â he murmurs quietly, almost to himself. and what else can she do? he wonders.
crys laughs in response, still enjoying the feel of the stretch. âI do it often. years of youtube videos, I guess,â she responds. she raises, intentionally moving slow for the practice. itâs just a bonus that she can feel his eyes on her ass. âsit down,â she grins, looking up at him with mischief in her eyes. he had his turn helping her, and now sheâs going to do the same. whether he likes it or not. plus, itâd be real nice to spend some more time with him. she likes his presence and his laugh and his little jokes. his looks, his demeanor, the way heâs not scared when she nips at him instead either remains unaffected or nips right back⊠kind of everything about him, so far at least. âhuh?â he asks, eyebrows raising. ânigga, if you can âhuhâ you can hear. sit down and stretch with me,â she laughs.
ony likes the sound. a lot, he realizes. and her sass really tickles him. so why not? he shrugs, plopping down on the floor next to her.
âyogaâs more than stretchinâ,â she begins. âyeah, it feels good for the body, but itâs good for the mind too. itâs a lot deeper than I can explain. itâs one of those things thatâs been taken from another culture and kinda wiped of its authenticity.â he watches her as she talks with her hands, her caring a lot more about it than he expected. but heâs interested and following along with her words. âI try to respect it, yâknow? it has a lot of benefits. can I touch?â she asks with a tilt of her head. he appreciates how her curls bounce with the movement and gives a simple nod of his head. âsit up straight,â she adjusts his back. âand keep your focus on your breath, keeping an awareness of your body as well. stay mindful of the present moment.â
the moment her hand touches him, he sits up. not because of her words but because of the feel of her hands on him. sheâs gentle with her guidance, her touch almost hesitant and her voice has softened in a way that sends a slight chill down his spine. âsorry, are my hands cold?â she asks apologetically. âas fuck,â he answers with a laugh. âkeep goinâ though.â crys laughs and pinches him softly. âaht, aht, Iâm the teacher now, I give the directions. straighten out your legs.â ony rolls his eyes in response but follows her instruction. he mumbles a soft âyeah, aight.â
she gently bumps her shoulder against his at his sass. âlean forward and reach for your feet, curving your back. take a moment to center yourself, focusing on your breath and how your body feels. donât think about anything, not even me,â she teases slightly. ony canât help but smile at that. âyou make it difficult, sweetheart,â he mumbles. her stomach flutters in response. he takes a deep breath before closing his eyes, reaching for his feet. âdonât forget to breath, nice and deep. relax your mind and let your thoughts fade away,â she mutters softly. ârelax. really feel the peace and the stretch.â
oh, ony feels something, alright. but he focuses his mind on the way his muscles feel. heâs used to stretching, but the mental part has never been the most important aspect. he likes how quiet his mind is, how the peace envelopes him like a warm hug.
she guides him through several more positions, helping him to stay centered mentally. her voice is so soothing, her touch as she adjusts him doing things to him. he feels good. really good. the combination of the practice with her presence is something he intends to make sure he gets more of. sheâs so cute with her little chides. a âstretch deeper, onyâ here, a âyouâre not even tryingâ there. and her obvious favorite, âyou know you can do better than thatâ. actually, no, her favorite thing to say in reprimand is his name. itâs a pleasant hint of flirting and teasing mixed with gentle guidance and words of calm.
by the end of the night, onyâs hooked. before she can walk to the locker room, he gently grabs her wrist to get her attention. âhey, wait, ma,â he murmurs softly. she looks up at him with those eyes again and heâs suddenly parched. âcan I get your number? you know, I can send you some boxing tips.â crys tries to fight a smile but fails. âoh, really? boxing tips? sure, long as I can send some yoga tips.â he laughs a bit, smiling at her tone. âyeah, send âem. gotta be on my namaste more, shit was nice.â crys tilts her head back slightly as she laughs. âboy, whatever. here.â
á„«áĄ
crys is folding. real bad.
at first, she thought sheâd just do some light flirting, maybe just tease and taunt and go on about her merry way. she didnât have any intentions on really following through with the man because he just seems like a threat to her safe, protected little bubble of diy nails and chilling alone at home. but as time goes on, she realizes that sheâs in a quicksand situation. swapped informational videos of boxing and yoga are just the beginning. soon, theyâre texting back and forth. funny videos sent at way too late at night, a range of questions exchanged as they get to know each other, random voice messages that make her stomach tingle⊠she looks forward to speaking with him, even changes his text tone so she knows when itâs him.
heâs just so funny in such a simple, straightforward way. sometimes she bites at him and he doesnât budge a bit, not giving her the satisfaction of a reaction. sometimes they go back and forth like a tennis match. heâs not afraid of her sass and she loves when he actually bites back. heâs just⊠attractive. in a lot of ways, on so many different levels. she ends up going to the gym late more often because heâll be there, spotting her while she lifts and helping her with her boxing. ms. becca at the front desk seems to really not like it, but her non-working ass can move on somewhere. crys and ony start a routine that whenever she comes to work out with him, they grab food and sit in one of their cars to goof around. they even decide to power walk with mrs. etta every now and then.
itâs insanity to kt, though. she doesnât understand why they havenât âfucked each other like bunniesâ already and she reminds crys every time they talk. theyâd scrolled his instagram together several times and heâs a popular topic between the two of them, three including ktâs boyfriend. he, of course, has a front row seat to these conversations since ms. kt never wants to use her damn headphones.
one particular night, crys is just really not feeling the workout. sheâs more tired than usual and ony can tell. sheâs not her usual, witty self. not a single jab has any bite to it, and itâs the same with her words. he doesnât like it. sheâs not supposed to be quiet or sad. he doesnât like the distant look in her eyes and how she gives a weak smile at his teasing. âhey,â he murmurs. âgo get changed and get your stuff.â he watches as she looks up at him with a furrowed brow. âyouâre obviously not feelinâ up to it. weâve done enough, letâs grab sum to eat.â
crys was going to push through, get her workout regardless. ânah, Iâm good,â she shrugs him off. âno, you ainât. quit playinâ, itâs not a suggestion,â he grumbles back. that surprises her, but she guesses it shouldnât really. one thing that sheâs noticed is how good he is at reading people, and heâs really good at reading her now. he knows when to push, and has learned how to in several different circumstances. she guesses this is one of them. his tone is different than usual though. itâs set, no room for negotiations, no joking around. his eyes are focused and sharp in a way that almost even she doesnât want to argue with. ââŠright. yeah, okay. I can go by myself though, you can finish your workout,â she mutters softly.
âwhat I say?â
crys didnât need to be told again. his whole demeanor is looking more immovable than ever, eyes and tone telling her to get her ass to the locker room, basically. if it were anyone else, she wouldâve fired back and asked who the hell he thought he was. but at this point, sheâs too tired and she really doesnât want to poke the bear. so she sighs and nods, grabbing her bag as she shuffles back to the locker room to get her stuff. sheâs grateful, honestly, because as soon as she sits in the passenger seat of his car, she feels like sheâs been hit by a bus but itâs really just a wave of exhaustion.
âyou pushinâ too hard, ma,â he murmurs, his eyes on the road as he drives. heâs seen her energy decreasing over time, the spark in her eyes dimming. heâd slide a comment in or two about taking a break only for her to brush it off like it was no problem. sheâs stubborn and he knows that, but fully capable of taking care of herself, which is why he wasnât expecting it to get this far. sheâs drained and heâll be damned if he just stands by and watches her continue down this path. especially with the way her head is leaning against his window. usually heâd say something about her hair products getting on it, but he couldnât give a damn about that.
âyou been slackinâ and you know it. wassup?â he questions as he spares her a glance. she sighs, her eyes closing as he makes the familiar trip to their usual spot. âstress. Iâve just been stressed,â she answers. that much he could tell. itâs not really the information heâs looking for though. âmhm. why?â he presses. his voice is a mix of tenderness and concern but also firmness. heâs not going to let her brush this under the rug. âjust a lot of shit goinâ on, ony. workâs a mess, they can barely do anything without me there theyâre always arguing and never getting anything done. Iâve been looking for another job for months with no luck and itâs really starting to become a problem because I want to leave soon. and I donât know, I just want to be in a different situation than I am right now.â
ony hums, rolling her words over in his head. he knows sheâs been trying to leave her job, even sent her resume out to a few people he knows just to help out. he can understand her frustration, he was in a similar boat before he started his own thing and became a personal trainer. he gets it, the stress from working in a place that drains you and how so many job rejections can affect a person. âitâs alright, ma. I know that donât mean much to you right now, but itâs gone work out, aight? Iâll put some pressure on my folks, help see whatâs out there. you still got some pto right?â he asks. she sighs, rubbing her forehead. âyeah, but Iâve been saving it for a rainy day.â he could almost chuckle.
âit donât seem like itâs raininâ to you?â he pushes slightly. âtake some time off. rest and relax so you can come back better. do yo yoga and shit, smoke some, whatever. you need a break, babygirl. no positive change is gonna come from you stressinâ and burninâ out. itâs a three day weekend coming up, take the couple days before that off too.â she looks out the window as they pull into the drive thru. heâs right and she knows it. itâs just so easy for her to get swept up into the stress and lose herself a little bit more and more until she realizes just how close she is to burning out. she can feel tears gathering in her eyes from the stress.
âoh, pretty girl,â he mumbles, seeing the emotion in her eyes. he pulls off to the side and parks in the back of the lot instead of getting in line. âcâmere, crystal,â he croons, reaching an arm around her to pull her close. she sniffles and her shoulders shake as she cries into his shoulder, letting out what sheâs let build up for so long. âsâokay, ma. you really doinâ good shit, providinâ for yourself and workinâ hard. itâs gonna work out, you gotta believe that,â he presses, squeezing her tighter. âbut you canât do this, okay? you canât wither away like this. your health is important and if you neglect it, itâll affect everything. I donât like seeinâ you upset and tired and drained. wanna see that pretty smile, get a taste of that sass that irks me so much.â she laughs slightly in his arms, her own wrapping around him as he gives her the most comforting hug sheâs had in a while. âyouâre right or whatever. big headed ass,â she mumbles.
âthere she is.â
á„«áĄ
after that night, she did exactly what he suggested. she took those extra days off and just recovered. smoked, slept a whole bunch, had a self-care day, and even booked a massage just for an extra treat. of course she talked onyâs ear off, and texted him and her best friend a bunch too, but it was necessary in her eyes. she knows they love her presence, even if they call her annoying. by her last day off, she feels rejuvenated.
she feels less stressed. she has a revamped resume, a mini twist out thatâs cute and lets her leave her hair alone, new nails, and a new attitude. but⊠crys is running out of excuses to give as far as her and ony. his support that night meant more to her than he probably even knew. the way he held her, calmed her down, and comforted her⊠itâs something thatâs been plaguing dancing in her mind. heâs shown that he can handle her full range of emotions no problem and can support her regardless of how strongly she feels. at this point, even sheâs started to wonder why they havenât done anything. she hasnât made a move, no, but neither has he. he seems perfectly content with the way things are and is starting to become bothersome.
she canât get him out of her head. his voice, his laugh, his features. every time he encourages her while sheâs going at the punching bag, she wants to push the damn thing out of the way and just tackle him. when she can feel his eyes on her while they stretch, she wants to show him exactly what she can do and how her flexibility can blow his fucking mind. she wants to kiss him, touch him, hear those encouraging words that he gives her in an entirely different setting.
but his lack of action is causing her to overthink. is he not as affected as she is? does his heart not pound in her presence like hers does in his? how the hell is she the only one gnawing her lip at the thought of more? maybe itâs because she hasnât had sex in so long. maybe thatâs it. sheâs just like this because of her wack ass sex life.
contrary to crysâ perspective, though, ony is losing his shit.
he definitely wouldâve made a move by now if these were usual circumstances. heâs just so thrown off by how much he likes her, how much she makes him feel. sheâs so much more than that pretty face and that mouth watering body. sheâs funny, witty, and she packs a nasty ass punch both with her words and her hands. he likes the full range of crys. mouthy and annoying, intentionally trying to get a raise out of him. flirty and teasing, sensual in the way she draws him in. sweet and serene, almost like an oasis of calm and tranquility. oh, and he canât forget how expressive she is with every emotion. her anger when her orderâs wrong at the late night burger place they frequent, her excitement and joy when mrs. etta tells her about another good scan at the doctor, her sadness when she sees a sad tiktok during rest periods.
he just doesnât get it. how can one person be so damn enthralling? how can someoneâs quirks and flaws be so beautiful? heâs never felt pulled like this, but you know what? heâs fucking with it. sheâs done nothing but add color to his life, a great addition that he felt like he was waiting for without even knowing. he loves her presence. she makes him smile and belly laugh, she pisses him off, she lights him up. he can be goofy with her, serious, sensitive even. he just wants more and more of crys, and even when he thinks maybe thereâs nothing left to surprise him about her, she whips something new out of her arsenal. itâs just crazy how she has him by the throat but heâs happy to be along for the ride.
but heâs really wanting that ride to go somewhere. heâs always thought that it was crazy that crys is single, he just doesnât understand it. in his eyes, sheâs everything great in a woman. confident, sensitive, hardworking, sweet⊠annoying but in the best ways, enthralling, sexy as all hell.
when heâs ranting to eren about her for the nth time, the brunette raises an eyebrow at him and asks whatâs taking him so long to ask her out. ony blinks. he thought they were⊠well, something already. but the sense thatâs been chasing him for quite a while now finally catches up to him and hits him like a truck. he has to say something. do something. the unspoken thing doesnât work for adults, and definitely not if he actually wants to keep her. is he an idiot? he wants to say no to his own question so badly, but he knows he would be delusional if he did.
so he quickly decides to get his shit together. the next time he sees crys, heâs asking her on an actual date, and thatâs it. this whole thing couldâve been at a different point if heâd taken his head out of his ass and asked her out that first night he saw her in the gym. but itâs too late to try to change the past, and he can fix his mistakes in the present.
á„«áĄ
unfortunately for ony, crys has a nasty attitude the next time they meet. her answers are short and snippy, and not in the usual, fun way. they had plans to go shopping together to buy mrs. etta a congratulatory something for completing her treatment, both having become extremely fond of the lady and being supportive of her on her journey. ony picks her up, being the gentleman he is (he hates her driving) and it takes no time at all to notice the bitter air around her. he actually realizes it the second she closes the door to her townhouse too damn hard. she huffs and puffs as she gets settled in the passenger seat.
crys doesnât really know exactly why sheâs so mad. itâs another one of those days where the stress has built up so quickly without her noticing, something that happens when her head isnât fully in the game. she doesnât want to take it out on ony, never means to, but something about knowing that he can handle that shit keeps her from being as mindful as she should be. âhey,â he speaks, his eyebrow raising at her lack of greeting. âhey,â she greets blandly. âwhatâs wrong, ma?â he asks, looking from her to the road as he pulls off. she just shakes her head. âthanks for picking me up,â she murmurs. âof course,â he responds.
heâs eyeing her every once in a while, trying to pick up on whatever he can. sheâs fiddling a lot, tapping her fingers as she looks out the window. antsy? irritated? what is it, he wonders. but heâs not super fond of playing the guessing game, by now she should know that she can talk to him about any and everything on her mind and in her heart. heâll listen, heâll care, and heâll support. hasnât he shown that? âyou lyinâ to me, ma. donât like it,â he mumbles. she doesnât answer and he really doesnât like that. âwhatâs the issue, crys? talk,â he presses, his eyebrows furrowing slightly. this isnât anything heâs used to from her. mouthy sometimes? sure. thatâs nothing he canât handle. but the silent treatment mixed with the tense attitude is not how he was planning to spend this time with her.
ânothinâ, just tired.â she murmurs. his eyebrows furrow. âwe can reschedule if you want,â he responds, understanding. ânah,â she says simply. she canât explain it, she doesnât really want to act like this. sheâs just not exactly happy at the moment and the two seem to have very different vibes. guess thatâs the theme, huh? she thinks. âmama, you not beinâ fair. tryna talk to you,â he mumbles. she rolls her eyes, looking out the window. âyeah, talk. your favorite thing to do,â she mumbles.
ony pauses, but only for a moment. âand thatâs supposed to mean?â crys sighs, as if sheâs really just over him. ânothing, ony, mâsorry. are we goinâ to macyâs or ross first?â sheâs trying to deflect, and although onyâs not stupid, he lets her. maybe she just needs time, she can be like that every now and then. carrying around irritation from an earlier incident until it eventually fades and sheâs good to go. sometimes she just needs to process her emotions, and onyâs cool with that. heâs cool with anything with her, it seems.
they end up at ross first, mrs. ettaâs favorite store that she talks about when they power walk with her. they get her random things, little trinkets that remind them of her, lotions and candles, and a few decorative pieces for her house. they move to macyâs to get her a perfume she likes, and a few other random things that draw their attention. last is dollar.25 tree and a couple other craft stores, the mission being to grab a big basket and additional stuffing to make her a custom gift basket with a congratulatory card from both of them. crys is quieter than usual the entire time, but not necessarily agitated. it seems like shopping for mrs. etta is cheering her up.
seems.
once they get to her house, ony can tell by the way she groans as she flops onto her couch that sheâs not a hundred percent. at this point, heâs confused and maybe a bit worried. what is it that has her so upset? he doesnât like when sheâs quiet, much rather her be loud and expressive with whatever emotion sheâs feeling. itâs eerie when sheâs quiet and ony canât tell what sheâs thinking or feeling. he doesnât like to be in the dark.
âcâmon, ma, letâs go ahead and get this assembled. we can talk and smoke after,â he mumbles, moving to set the stuff down on her dining room table. he wants to sit and smoke, get her to shake herself out of whatever fucking funk sheâs in, but he figures itâs a good idea to finish up mrs. ettaâs gift. he really wants it to be perfect. heâs known mrs. etta for a while, she was even one of the people that encouraged him the most when he first started training, and heâs extremely happy that her treatment is done. a bratty sigh is heard from the girl on the couch and ony has to close his eyes to center himself. âwe canât take a break? all that shopping. mâtired.â
ony licks his lips and lets out a breath. âsure, ma, take a break. imma get started on this, Iâll chill after,â he responds. crys doesnât like the little breath he takes, his tone coming across patronizing to her. âyou tired of me? cause I can really do that shit by myself,â she responds lowly. she swears she can see a vein appear on onyâs forehead, but only momentarily. ânah. just want this gift to be good,â he mumbles. crys sits up to look at him. âitâs good already, we put a lot of thought into everything. what, you think I canât assemble it myself?â her head tilts. because she could make the prettiest damn basket all on her own, really. sheâll prove it if she has to.
onyâs on the brink. heâs been patient all dayâ heâs always patient with her. itâs usually no issue, but today sheâs really pushing it. mrs. etta should be the focus right now. âyou donât hear me talkinâ to you?â she asks, her eyebrows beginning to furrow. âyes, love, I hear you,â he murmurs. âjust focused.â heâs really trying to keep it together.
crys scoffs, âyeah, well, you can focus and talk. you wouldnât have to focus as much if you waited on me.â ony wonders what he did to be in this position. he hasnât done shit to her, hasnât said anything disrespectful, and he knows that she isnât usually one to take her shit out on him, so heâs just thinking. wondering what has her so mad. âthere you go again, not fuckinâ responding,â she huffs, standing up and crossing her arms. âyou can just get the hell out forreal, I can finish this myselââ
âsit the fuck down.â
crys blinks. and then blinks again. âexcuse me?â she asks. she couldnât have heard that right. he wouldnât talk to her like that, heâs not insane. but the look he gives when he turns to her gives her second thoughts on that theory. âyou heard me. sit the fuck down. Iâm not leavinâ and youâre about to act like you have some fucking respect instead of poppinâ off at the mouth. Iâve dealt with your shit ask damn day, trying to be patient and understandingâ like I always am with yo lil ass. Iâm not playinâ crys. sit down,â he demands. and he really means that shit too, she can tell.
crysâ jaw is damn near on the floor by the time he finishes talking. âwho you talkinâ tââ she starts, only to be interrupted by a slow approaching ony, having put the materials he was working with down. âcrys, I swear, if you donât get some act rightââ he starts, trying to keep his breath even and his body calm. tired of being interrupted, crys decides to give him a taste of his own medicine. âwhat? what you gone do? talk my ear off? stand there and look at me with your arms crossed? I ainât scared of you, ony. you donât do shit and wonât do shit to me.â
ânah. Iâma fuck you,â he answers as he steps into her personal space. if crysâ jaw was on the floor before, itâs in hell now. thereâs no way he just said that. âfuck that nasty ass attitude right outta you. you playinâ in my face, ma. you know I donât like that shit. Iâve been so fuckinâ understanding with yo ass, somethinâ not every nigga is willinâ to do, by the way. you push and you push and I let yo ass. is that the problem?â he tilts his head, chest almost touching hers as he looks down. his eyes are dark, his jaw tense. the vein she thought she saw earlier is bulging now, almost angrier than ony himself. âis the problem that I let yo lil ass keep pushinâ me? cause I swear it donât mean that Iâll just let the shit slide. and Iâll prove that shit too.â
á„«áĄ
âfuck,â crys pants, tugging on the sheets in front of her. âplease,â her voice breaks. âjustâ just lemme come. Iâm so close, ony, please!â
sheâs been on all fours for a while now, face buried in the bed as ony works her with his tongue and fingers. sheâs in a pool of her own arousal, thighs wet and pussy drenched from the several times sheâs been close to the edge, only to be disappointed each time as sheâs denied her orgasm. her bottom lip is bitten raw, toes almost permanently curled and eyes finding a home in the back of her head as she pushes her hips back again and again to coax ony to at least let her have one. if she knew this was going to be the result of her attitude today, she wouldâve just asked him to fuck her before they even left to go shopping. sheâs waited enough for this, and even now when sheâs so close, sheâs getting denied.
thereâs a harsh but absolutely welcome smack to her ass and she whines so damn pathetically that ony almost laughs. pulls his full lips from her clit with a pop and massages the cheek. âyou want me to stop?â he asks, his voice low and raspy in a way unfamiliar to crys. she quickly shakes her head and grips the sheets tighter. âno, please! keep going, wanna come on your face,â she begs, pushing her hips to meet his lips again. the sound and sight of her is addicting, ony thinks. he likes the way she seems so desperate for his touch and tongue, craving that release that heâs been building up for so long. âyou wanna come?â he asks, his fingers sliding back into her soaked pussy. he can feel her clench around him almost instantly. fuck heâs going to enjoy tonight. âyes! yes, wanna come!â she pants, rocking her hips to meet the thrust of his long fingers.
âthen shut the fuck up and let me have my fun,â he murmurs, diving his face back in as his tongue meets her clit once again. âah, shit,â she whimpers, her eyes rolling back again at the pleasure that washes over her. âyes, yes, just like that. fuck, you eatinâ my pussy up,â she moans. sheâs never been so mad but so pleased at the same time. heâs torturing her and she doesnât know how much longer she can last before she releases all over him without his say so. sheâs already been through so much, she doesnât want to find out what else heâll do , even if itâs his fault. âmy fuckinâ pussy,â he pulls back to murmur, flicking his tongue quickly over her pearl as his fingers continue to pump. sheâs so wet, his fingers move with ease, and the sound thatâs made is delicious. âsay that shit.â
âfuck, Iâll say whatever you want,â she whines, back arching and toes throwing up gang signs. âsâyour pussy, baby! take it take it take it,â she moans, throwing her ass back over and over. sheâs so damn close, so damn close. she can almost taste it. her tummy feels like itâs about to burst and her poor pussy is sobbing. he pulls back once again to her dismay, reading her body like a book. âyou betta not fuckinâ come,â he murmurs, fingers moving faster as they stretch her. how the hell is she not supposed to come? is he insane? âyou fuckinâ kidding meee?â she whines, her head falling down onto the sheets. ony likes how spent she looks already, and he hasnât even fucked her yet. âyou know damn well I ainât,â he grumbles, smacking her ass again. âarch that shit. itâs gone be a long night if you donât listen to me, baby.â
in a turn of events, onyâs pussy drunk. heâs enjoying himself way too much, taking in her moans and slurping up whatâs now his to pleasure. heâs just drowning in her, hands exploring everywhere he can touch. caressing, appreciating, adoring this beautiful woman falling apart on his tongue. he could do this all day and be grateful every second of it. heâs absolutely aching in his shorts, but something about bringing such a normally mouthy girl to babbles is too hard to turn away from. he didnât even mean to take it this far, he just doesnât want to stop. he wants her to keep feeling good, and the way she begs and reaches back for him to bring him closer lets him know that heâs doing his job
âplease, I canât,â she begs, back arching but breath deepening. âony, I caanâtt, mâgonna come,â she whines. sheâs trying, really she promises she is, but itâs just become too hard to hold out. itâs too good, she wants it and needs it. if he doesnât stop or give her the green light, sheâs gonna make a mess of both of them, and sheâs not going to regret it. ony groans at her whines, basking in the sound of her begging and pleading. he can feel how sheâs clenching, hears the desperation in her voice. sheâs gone, melting into a pile of goo at his touch, and heâs never felt more satisfied. not only are they both having the times of their lives, but that attitude is just about gone and sheâs actually acting like she has some fucking manners.
he reluctantly pulls back and removes his hand from her, licking at his fingers like a man starved. âflip over,â he huffs, standing and palming his aching dick. she seems to be too out of it, raising her head full of messy curls to look up in his general direction. âw-what?â she questions. ony doesnât have time for her shit, so he grabs her hips and flips her over his damn self. the way he looks down at her is downright sinful and crys flutters simply at the sight. âfuckinâ bratty ass. you did this to yourself, crys. was gonna take you on a nice ass date, make love with your pretty ass, do shit the right way. but that fuckinâ mouth of yours,â he grumbles as he grabs her by her ankles, pulling her to the end of the bed. âis too damn bold with me. gotta fix that, sweetheart. you gone be my good girl after tonight, I can promise you that.â
she whines and grinds against his hand as his thumb traces circles on her puffy clit. looking down at her, he realizes that this is one of his favorite sights now. her eyes are blurry with tears from the constant denial, her face scrunched in a cute and sexy pout of pleasure, her tits shifting with each movement. ony could watch her like this all day, bringing her to the edge over and over just to see those pretty tears fall and hear that voice of hers crack. thatâd only be torture for himself as well because he feels like heâs about to burst. âyou so damn beautiful. you want this dick, sweetheart? tell me, Iâll give it to you,â he murmurs, licking his lips as he lets his shorts fall. crys whines and nods, unruly curls all over the place. so damn breathtaking.
âgimme it, please. wanna come all over it, baby. paint it for you,â she begs. her arms reach to hook around the back of her knees, pulling her thighs back slightly to open up for him. her words only serve to rile him up more. âyou a lil freak, huh? mmm, you can do better than that, baby. stretch them legs like I know yo lil freaky ass can,â he grumbles, pulling his underwear down and off, his cock hanging low between his legs. crys knew itâ she just knew it was big, and she was right. itâs long and thick with a minimal curve, and if she wasnât so deprived sheâd get on her knees and pay him back for the teasing. she whimpers and bites her lip, sliding her hands to hook behind her knees instead. she pulls her thighs flush to her chest and keeps going, extending her legs.
âfuck, yeah, baby, show me that pretty pussy. fat pussy all mine,â he grumbles. he lessens their distance, letting himself rest on her as he takes her in. what a fucking vision of a woman. he takes his dick in his hand and lightly taps it against her before her rubs himself all in her wetness. âlook at âchu, baby. so fuckinâ sloppy. this all for me?â he asks, tilting his head as he looks back to her face. she goes to speak, but ony considers her next words unimportant in the grand scheme of things. before she can speak, she feels him start to press into her. she lets out a breathy moan, her grip tightening on her legs. âf-fuck,â she moans at the same time ony lets a groaning âshiiit,â pass his lips.
the two pant, looking each other in the eyes as he continues to press forward. crys is seeing stars, feeling the stretch of him. her face scrunches and her eyes begin to close. âmm-mm, keep them pretty eyes on me,â onyâs breathing heavy , his hand coming to lightly wrap around her throat. âsexy ass. you bet not deny me that shit.â crys can only lick her lips, forcing her eyes open to meet his, clenching at the way he speaks. his words add to the growing fire within her. âthere you go, baby. love that shit,â he murmurs, leaning forward to press his lips against hers in a nasty, sloppy kiss. crys is upset at the fact that this man is really bringing her to her knees. âso damn fine. donât know why I waited so long to be in yo shit. too fucking good,â he groans, pulling out just slightly before pushing back in. crys gasps, pulling her legs closer just to have something to grab, but it just makes him go deeper.
âfeels so good, onyyy,â she moans, keeping the eye contact as much as she can. onyâs hovering over her now, watching her with his bottom lip between his teeth and his eyebrows together in concentration. heâs moving slowly, letting her adjust to him and just taking in the view in front of him. âonyyy,â she moans, clenching around him as her pussy flutters. heâs so damn fine and itâs been so long since sheâs been touched. heâs deep in her shit and sheâs on cloud nine. she wants more, so much more, and she wants it all from him. she hates it took so long to get to this point and hates that she the fact that she stopped herslef from persuing him. she wants this, needs all of him. âfuck me,â she chokes out. âcâmon, please.â
ârelax,â he mutters, his free hand rubbing up her thigh. âjust keep that pretty pussy open for me. Iâma always give you what you need, sweetheart. always.â and he means it. heâs never going to play with her, not her heart or her mind. but heâll play with her pretty pussy until the sun comes up, until the cows come home. heâs never felt anything so good, seen someone so beautiful while they take his dick. sheâs everything to him in this moment, her curls sprawled around her like the sunâs halo, face showing all the pleasure sheâs feeling. her breathing is deep, her eyes staying on his just like he said.
heâs fucked. shit, he might just be in love.
âooo, fuck, ony,â she keens, her nails slightly digging into the skin of her thigh. âso big. oh my God, baby.â sheâs having the time of her life. heâs stretching her so well, and he feels so damn good digging into her like that. âyeah, yeah. been waiting for thisss,â she pants, unable to keep her mouth shut. itâs just so good and itâs hitting that spot. would could blame her? âgive it to me,â she moans. ony groans above her, his hips starting to meet hers sharper and sharper. sheâs still so vocal, and heâs eating it the fuck up. âmhm,â he breathes, his hands moving to rest on hers, helping to hold her legs as she falters. âtake that dick, babygirl. sâall for you. swear it is,â he groans. she doesnât know it, but she could ask for just about anything right now and heâd give it to her.
her eyes scan over him, her hand reaching out to lightly scratch down his abdomen. âfuckinâ me so good, ony.âony groans at the touch of her nails, his gut tightening at the way sheâs looking up at him. he pulls out, reaching down to tap himself against her again. sheâs too much, her voice, her eyes, her touch⊠the way she keeps clenching around him. âyou fuckinâ dangerous, mama,â he pants. âcan I beat this pussy up, baby? lemme take it.â crys bites her lip and nods, looking up at him in a way that makes him grip her thighs a little tighter. fucking minx. heâs beating himself up for not doing this sooner. he adjusts himself on the bed, leaning down to press his lips to hers as he slides back in, the two of them moaning into each other's mouths. he immediately picks up the pace as he sucks her bottom lip into his mouth, nibbling slightly as he presses more of his weight onto her.
crys starts to gasp with each thrust, toes curling and a squeak escaping her when she feels his hands on her clit. âw-waitâ fuck, wait, mâgonna come quick,â she moans, fingers gripping onyâs shoulders as he pins one of her thighs to her chest. she wants to come with him, but her earlier pleasure is coming back with a fucking vengeance. ony chucklesâ actually chuckles, and rasps down to her, âthatâs the point, sweetheart. give it to me.â if she wasnât on the brink of a mind blowing orgasm, sheâd be pissed and annoyed at that fucking smirk. but instead she pants and pants until her breath stops. her orgasm washes over her in delicious waves, and sheâs just frozen in pleasure, unable to do anything but come and come, pulsing around ony.
âbreathe, mama. come on, breath through that shit,â ony guides, pressing kisses up and down her neck. right, breathing. she forgot about that. crys lets out a long moan, her eyes rolling back as she tastes her sweet release. sweet isnât even the word, though. the denial and delay just makes things ten times stronger, her orgasm wracking her in a way she wasnât prepared for. sheâs holding onto ony tightly as he talks her through it, breathing heavy as she just takes it. âyeaah, there you go. breathe, baby, I got you. gonna take real good care of you just like I said,â ony grumbles, nipping at her skin here and there and slowing his thrusts and his assault on her clit. he has to pant at the way sheâs so tight around him, and heâs just so strained holding back good open release. âyou deserve that shit, baby.â more kisses and nips than either of them can count are placed on crysâ neck as crys comes down and tries to calm down as well.
his hand reaches to gently caress her cheek as he presses soft, sweet kisses to the other. âyouâre so beautiful, babygirl. you feel okay?â he asks softly. okay? sheâs riding down a fucking rainbow of happiness and bliss. okay is an understatement. crys figures that would boost his who a bit too much, so she just tilts her head to rest on the side of his. âmhm,â she hums breathlessly. âso good,â she murmurs. onyâs glad, pressing more kisses to her sweet face. heâs happy he can make her feel good, especially considering how she was sarlier in the day. âgood enough to gimme another one?â he asks. he just canât get enough, so he has to ask. he wants this night to last as long as it can.
crys lets out a breath, wondering just what the hell is wrong with the man. sheâs been through the wringer for a good while now. but itâs felt amazing every step of the way, so the answer is yes. of course itâs yes. she nods. âjust one more, sweetheart,â he croons, looking down at her dazed face. he pulls out, turning her over onto her stomach, much gentler this time. he guides her on all fours and reaches to rest his hand on the headboard, his other hand positioning himself once again. once he begins to push inside, his arm wraps around her torso to hold her tight as they both moan. his hips start to move again, this time with a slower pace as he braces himself on the headboard.
ony canât help but feel the shift on the room. itâs much more intimate than before, crys sensitive from one release already. he wants to be so many things for her. he can be a little aggressive, knowing she likes when he bites back. he can be goofy and unserious. and he can be soft. he can be serious with her and about her. thatâs what he wants. âwanted this for so long, baby. wanted you,â he murmurs into her ear. the sound makes her pussy flutter, causing him to chuckle again. âsh-shut up,â she mumbles, her hands slowly tightening around the sheets below them. the combination of his intimate confession and his thrusting into her is a double whammy that she didnât see coming.
âmmm, Iâm serious babygirl. want you, been wantinâ you,â he presses, eyes falling shut as his hips continue to move. she feels so good, itâs ridiculous. heâs going to be in it every day if she lets him. âgotta make you mine, ma. Iâm forreal.â and he is, because what kind of idiot would he be to let her slip through his fingers? crys letâs her head fall back in a moan as he starts to gently work her clit. everything about this is just insane. who knew what today was going to bring? ây-you never⊠ah,â she cuts herself off with a moan as he curves his hips, fucking her in just the right way in such an intimate moment. fuck, what was she saying? âI never said anything, I know. sâmy fault, no excuse. I was just too busy enjoyinâ beinâ around you,â he murmurs, moaning as he holds her tighter. his hips are starting to move a bit faster and crys is starting to meet his every thrust.
âbut you mine now, right? Iâma doâ fuuuck, Iâma do right by you, mama. always,â he groans. he means every word. itâs like she has a spell on him and he doesnât care. if she wants his heart, she can take it. he leans back from the headboard, sitting up on his knees as he keeps her back against his chest. gosh, crysâ heart just flutters. âyeah,â she moans. âyeah, ony, mâyours. f-finally.â that puts a tired smile on onyâs face, his already racing heart squeezing. with one hand massaging her clit and the other now on her hip, ony begins fucking into her faster. âthatâs right, baby. and Iâm yours. canât get rid of me, canât push me away, sure as fuck not scarinâ me away,â he groans. iâd important to him that she knows that, with her lil stubborn ass.
crys reaches back behind her, grabbing onto him. âyeah, j-just like that, ony. me and youuu,â she moans, feeling that familiar sensation again. her bodyâs almost tired of it after so much teasing and edging and repeating. âgonna come for you, baby,â she groans. she has no fight left, itâs going to rock her and she knows it. âyou gonna come for me?â he asks, his voice coming out breathy as he continues to thrust into her. he doesnât remember the last time he felt as good as he does in this moment. he doesnât want it to end, but he canât hold anymore. sheâs tight around him, pulsing as her release approaches once again. âpaint my dick, baby, just like you said. then Iâma give you this nut,â he huffs, working his hips more and more. crys is a moaning mess, her head dipping as she feels another strong orgasm approaching. âkeep breathinâ,â ony croons. âwant you to feel all that shit, mama.â
she breathes as even as she can, breaths deepening as she quickly approaches that line. âohhh, ony!â she cries out, her eyes squeezing shut. â let it out, baby, give it to me. give me that shit,â he groans to her, working her clout faster and faster as he keeps pumping into her. itâs all too much and it brings her over the edge, her toes almost cramping and hips moving without her knowledge. âthere it goes, keep breathing. fuck yeah, mama, take that shit.â itâs an intense feeling and sheâs chasing it, breathing like ony directs and it makes the difference. she feels the shit down to her toes. her eyes are crossed and she canât even fucking speak, just taking whatever comes as her eyes shut tight. âthatâs it, baby, feel that shit. know you feel good, I know,â he pants.
onyâs fucking into her faster, the way sheâs clenching around him making his head spin. his grip tightens on her hip as he chases his own high, watching her fucked out face. she looks so good like that, spent and satisfied and his. âfuuuck, you so gorgeous, crystal. gahdamn you feel good as fuck,â he rambles, praising her over and over just because he can and she deserves it. soon, heâs pulling out and pumping himself all over her ass, groaning as his body jerks. âyeah, ony,â crys coos with a raspy voice. sheâs giving a tired wiggle of her hips, encouraging him to spill all over her. âfuckinâ perfect.â
the two pant, spent from such a lovely day together. itâs silent as they just back in the afterglow of their impromptu endeavors. eventually, ony starts to press sweet, calming kisses to her shoulder and back. he appreciates the small marks on her skin, random beauty marks and freckles. âperfect, mama. you were perfect,â he rasps. as far as heâs concerned, today couldnât have been more successful. crys is⊠well, crys is out of commission at the moment. her mind is fuzzy in her post orgasm bliss, and sheâs catching her breath as she basks in his kisses. âfuckâŠâ she mumbles. that was very unexpected but completely welcome. the wait was more than worth it, and now she can have that again and again and again. âyeah,â ony chuckles tiredly. âyeah, that was crazy. damn.â
the two laugh together, gross and sticky, but so happy with the situation. that line was finally crossed, and thereâs no going back. not that either of them would want to, anyway. ony glances down at crys as she rests for a moment, eyes closed and lashes tickling her skin. the earlier tensions are gone, nothing but fondness and connection in itâs wake. he reaches to caress her cheekbone, tucking a curl behind her ear and out of her face. âsorry for earlier,â crys mumbles into the quiet. she really is, she doesnât like when she projects her upset like that. she nevers wants that for anyone sheâs connecting with, especially not ony. heâs been understanding with her in a way that sheâs learned to deeply appreciate. âbut Iâm glad we did this.â
ony hums, pressing another kiss to her shoulder. he can deal with a little push from her, especially since he gets to keep her. sheâs a sweet girl, and she invigorates him. he appreciates her expressiveness and range of emotions, and understands that sometimes sheâs just human. heâs okay with that. but now that theyâre together, he has the ability to take a different approach. sometimes she needs him to snap back at her, and thatâs what heâll do with absolutely no hesitation from now on. thereâs a mutual respect and understanding, and ony really fucks with that shit. âjust needed some attention⊠and dick,â he murmurs. and heâll give it to her whenever, wherever.
crys groans and starts to fuss, turning to weakly slap at his chest. âoh, shut up! go get me a damn towel!â here he goes saying some slick shit, right when the moment is good. heâs such an idiot sometimes, but it never fails to put a smile on her face. ony lets out a bellowing laugh, backing off of her and standing on his only slightly wobbling legs. he hopes she didnât see that, but sheâs already talking shit again. âyeah, pussy got you walkinâ crazy,â she sasses as he starts his trek to the bathroom, watching his sweaty but oh so fine figure walk away. âbetter act right or youâll never get it again,â she huffs. ony laughs again, shaking his head. âdonât make me start this shit all over, crystal,â he calls over his shoulder. she rolls her eyes but nuzzles her face into a pillow as she grumbles under her breath. sheâs not scared, sheâs just still recovering, is all. âyeah, thatâs what I thought,â he laughs.
soon, theyâre all cleaned up and on fresh sheets, crys refusing to sleep in the crusty bedspread after everything was said and done. they get into a spat about who gets to sleep on which side of the bed, and then over whether they should sleep with some time of light on. ony also demands to cuddle, but crystal fusses that sheâll get too hot and wonât be able to sleep. for that brief period, itâs war.
eventually, though, after bargains and begrudging compromises, crys is on her back on her usual side of the bed and ony is half-sprawled on top of her, head buried in her neck and hand softly rubbing her outer thigh. a random sitcom plays with no sound and the room is a nice, cool temperature with the fan blowing on the both of them. crys caresses onyâs back gently with her nails, eyes closed as she enjoys the weight of him on top of her. the pleasant feeling is like a weighted blanket, lulling her to sleep. ony is holding crys close, enjoying her warmth and presence. heâs taking full advantage of being able to cuddle with her. they fall asleep like this, wrapped up in each other, and wondering what the next day will bring.
hoooooly moooooly. this was not supposed to be this long. was hoping to post this sooner, but the words just kept coming omg. pls excuse any mistakes lmao. hope you like it! feedback welcome and wanted đ«¶đœ
#this was supposed to be 5k words#how did we get here#aot onyankopon#attack on titan#onyankapon#onyankopon smut#black oc#aot x black reader#aot x reader#ony x black reader#onyankopon x black y/n#onyankopon x reader#onyankopon x you#writings â fic
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the way posts like this from the official socials of good omens aren't even baiting us anymore they're literally just marketing the real and canon love story that is textual in the show itself is something my brain simply cannot come to terms with I was just about to get angry at this and then I remembered oh yea that's actually canon they can say shit like that now with no ulterior motive. I keep asking this but legitimately how the fuck did we get here how the hell did we survive long enough to live in a world where this is the norm. I don't think I'm ever gonna get used to it
#WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEYRE NOT FUCKING WITH US#HOW DID WE GET HERE#good omens#good omens spoilers#ineffable husbands
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One of these men. shot the other. with the weapon in frame. I...
#how did we get here#my brain is like unable to comprehend that#jayvik#viktor arcane#jayce talis#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers
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otter comic. itâs about drarry being otters

#how did we get here#where even am i in my life#someone hold my paw please#harry potter#hp fanart#drarry#draco malfoy#draco x harry#shitty little comic#my art
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when the fic outline is 3.5k

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It feels like I just got hit in the head with a steel chair. Repeatedly.
#Epic the musical#Wisdom saga#Epic wisdom saga#Epic the musical spoilers#Wisdom saga spoilers#Epic wisdom saga spoilers#How is Suffering one of our most cheerful songs but Love In Paradise shatters our souls#How did we get here
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the funniest thing about the Heterosexual Eddie thing is that even if you put everything else aside. like, you know. the fact that buck was technically by their logic "canonically" heterosexual for six seasons, the fact that queer-coding is a very real thing that has existed in media for approximately a fucking century (not even hyperbole. like, actually approximately a fucking century) and that eddie is, well. extremely queer-coded, and the fact that many of the people now bizarrely deciding that canon queer is the only accepted and correct type of queer are people who originally headcanoned him as queer. like, even if you put all of that aside, the best they could do to prove that heterosexual is how eddie should and is intended to be read (to queer people no less) is *check notes* a twenty second video edit. OUT OF SEVEN SEASONS. google how to become a parody of yourself and they will be the first result i think.
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I donât like getting political on this blog but how the fuck did we end up in this timeline?? Both parties are nominating their absolute WORST candidates. Literally any other Republican could beat Biden and any other Democrat could beat Trump and yet here we are watching two geriatric patients battle it out
#how did we get here#what happened#Im just full of rage#and Iâm tired#politics#us politics#presidential debate#trump#Biden
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maybe iâm a bad person but this makes me laugh every time i see it

#like#how did we get here#how did we get here guys#op is a proshipper#proshippers please interact#proshipper#proship#profiction#profic
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Just discovered that someone ships Azriel with Clotho.
That man can't interact with any woman atp đ
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#azriel#clotho#how did we get here#elriel#pro elriel#elain archeron#acotar#azriel shadowsinger#pro elain#elain x azriel#elriel supremacy#a court of thorns and roses#Sarah this is your fault#things are getting out of your hands
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my messed up infected au ĂŠugh
so uhhh the point is that i thought what if the virus caused kasper to mutate over time. some thoughts below
- kasper might be a little stupid but he knew this weird thing is destructive and should not be let out in the wild. he somehow locked it inside himself and his mind. it could leak a bit to the outside but not much, only affecting closest objects for a short period. the "cage" beign kasper's body started to distort overtime due to virus' inability to spread
- lampert thinks that atp kasper is a bioweapon. a nuclear warhead if you please. if he gives up the virus would probably detonate infecting everything in god knows how many studs radius
- at firts kasper's speech was normal or in the way we see in game. the further the less his words are recognizible until kasper starts spitting pure binary code or something. yeah
- to be continued hehe
#regretevator#regretevator infected#regretevator kasper#ruth's art#fett a bit too silly#at firt is was something completely different i swear#how did we get here
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Can't get away from these guys đ so made a quick sketch
#maxley#an extremely goofy movie#max goof#bradley uppercrust iii#will very likely draw more of them lol#this ship got me#how did we get here#love it though lol
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I like the different interpretations of Tallulahâs hair color people have been sending me.
Her hair didnât turn black JUST bc of q!Missa. It turned black because itâs the color of the wither roses her papa likes, it turned black because it matches the feathers on the back of q!Philâs wings, her hair turned black because itâs the same shade as the crows that flock their home. Tallulahâs hair turned black because death is very much a part of her every day life. It turned black because she *likes* it. Tallulahâs hair is black because it resembles her whole life and the people she loves.
I like to refrain from attributing certain things about Tallulah solely to one person because people just end up turning her into an extension of others. Especially when people attribute certain features of hers to someone she hasnât talked to in months and she has never seen as a father.
They already did it to her once before, and Iâd hate to see it be done to her again. Sheâs more than that. She always has been.
Tallulahâs journey with self discovery and finding her place in the world has been a rollercoaster to watch unfold. Sheâs gone through so much to prove herself, sheâs fought hard to show the world who she is and who she isnât. Sheâs gotten lost in promises and old memories. Tallulah has struggled with her identity as it has always been heavily tied to family, and family on the island is important and complicated.
Sheâs come to a place where she finally feels comfortable. She finally feels like she belongs in this family and now she can continue that path of self discovery. Because thereâs no greater feeling than that freedom of being able to decide who you are. Of being in such a comfortable spot in which she can explore different ways to express herself.
I donât think this necessarily has been a HUGE issue, but itâs definitely one that has been in the foreground for a while and an added effect of her struggles in finding a place on the island. Because finding that place is also a part of WHO she is, itâs part of her identity.
I remember her getting upset that she was seen as an extension of him for months. It was all anybody would ever bring up around her. She was the egg that was left behind, she was the egg that didnât have a father. She was the egg that was abandoned again and again. And it was hard trying to combat that, bc how do you work around something that is genuinely affecting you to your core? Something that felt so defining in your life?
Well I think sheâs come far in showing that sheâs more than that. That sheâs not just the sad traumatized egg that was abandoned. Sheâs grown a lot, sheâs found a new place. Thereâs still sore spots sure. She didnât like being called the âtrauma eggâ because again, itâs something sheâs been trying to move past from. Sheâs more than just her trauma, sheâs more than the people and the things that have hurt her.
I think that yes her past is important, everything sheâs gone through has molded her into the egg that she is. But sheâs not just her past. Her past doesnât control her, not like it used to at least. Itâs important that sheâs reinventing herself in a way. Because sheâs changed a lot, but sheâs still Tallulah. Not the same one we saw at the start, but itâs still her. And at this point in time sheâs more herself than she ever has been.
#I love this egg to bits#Iâll never shut up about her#qsmp tallulah#tallulah#marv rants#QSMP#how did we get here#from black hair#anyways I miss her :(
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