#Hopefully I remember to post this on my other sites as well

[clinicallyinsanedumpsterrabbit]

Yeah I'm joining the Bill has paws and wears gloves club, along with my own very little silly headcannon

His paws, and a lot of his powers, are blue because he takes after his mom, Scaline. I'm pretty sure the fandom has agreed she was the blue one and the mom, but I am also an idiot.

And that's another reason he wears the gloves! Because his paws kinda look like his dead mom! Yippie!

Also have a bonus silly with spring, I wanted to draw Bill in pain.

Spring doesn't mind carrying him around, but will not be treated like a horse

Happy crinkle, I'm eating all the sweets of everyone who reads this sentence, I cannot be stopped, I am approaching rapidly.

[foone]

Hyena-furry walks up to the podium and addresses the audience. (Not porn but it talks about penises a bunch, so it's readmore+mature time)

"Alright, humans and affiliated: we hyenas have been seeing a lot of y'all misunderstanding and mistagging of our nudes, so buckle up, you're getting a biology lessen!"

A line of hyenas march onto stage, wearing loose fitting robes. A projector screen turns on, showing the view from an unseen close-up camera.

The speaker takes the mic over to them, looking like a gameshow host revealing a prize.

"Starting off, we've got Sally: a cis female hyena. Show the folks if you don't mind, Sally". Sally opens her robe, showing off a respectably sized penis.

"and here's Christy: she's a AMAB trans gal, who hasn't had any bottom surgery, just hormones. Do you mind to show..." and there's a another hyena penis on display.

"next up, we've got Jill! She's the wife of Christy, and a post-op trans woman. Show off your bottom surgery, if you will please." oh look, another penis.

"Enough girls for now, let's talk to the fellas. Tom here is a trans man, and you haven't had any surgery, right? Right. Show off what you've got down there, Tommy my boy..." another penis appears.

"and Anatoly here is another trans man, but he's had bottom surgery, is that right? Lovely. Let's see how it looks, shall we?" yep, another penis is revealed with a whooshing of silk.

"John! Last but not least of the men. You're a cis man, eh? Let's see how that looks, for all the viewers..." he shows off a decently impressive penis, with a smile.

"And we've got a couple who don't fit into the gender binary neatly down here, too! Sorghum here is intersex, with zir gender being..." he makes a show of squinting at the card as if unable to remember "'no'. That's right, zir gender is simply 'no'. Now intersex people have a whole spectrum of different experiences and bodies as I'm sure you all know, but we couldn't leave them out. So, Sorghum, can you show the lovely audience what you happen to be packing?" there's a quick nod and another hyena disrobes and shows off a penis.

"And finally a special once, since we're all fictional here. Jane here is a afab cis girl but she's been cursed by a witch. Yes, I saw you smirk at the word 'cursed', Jane! Why don't you show off that penis you were given by that witch?" Jane says something and points, but it's not picked up by the mic. "what? Christy is the one who cursed you? Huh, small world!" Christy says something inaudible*, and the lineup laughs. "Alright! Well, do you want to show off what the witch gave you?" Jane blushes, the first in the row to be visibly embarrassed by this whole presentation, but opens her robes to show off her penis.

The speaker walks back to the podium as the camera connected to the projector slowly zooms out in that jerky way old VHS camcorders always did, revealing the line of assorted Hyena people all showing off their penises. There's not really any distinction between them other than some minor size variations and one circumcised instance (but I'm not saying who)

"Alright! Hopefully that clears the air and makes it much clearer how to tell apart the different sorts of genitals we furry-hyenas have. And I expect from how on, there won't be any more of that mis-tagging on e621** or Tumblr or Twitter*** when you post/reblog our nudes, alright? Thanks for coming, everyone."

There's a short ovation before the assorted hyenas close up their robes and walk off backstage, many of them chatting with each other as they do.

* "She's my girlfriend! We've been dating for years"

** which in the Furry universe is presumably an onlyfans-style site for posting nudes and sex vids?

*** in this universe, Twitter never got bought by a billionaire, as that fool got himself eaten by an angry hippopotamus back in 1997. He was presumably some sort of anthro animal as well, but I won't speculate on the species out of respect for the furry community

[demetriandelibinaryboyfriends]

Do you have other social medias where you publish Cobra Kai content ?

Hi!!! I do have some other accounts, like my AO3! My two main fanfics I have going right now are Awakening, a werewolf!Demetri AU set in Barcelona during the Sekai Taikai, and You Never Called It What It Was, a YasMoon backstory fic set before and during Season 1. There's also the binary boyfriends gay little road trip to find Miguel after S4 AU series, which I DO have lots more chapters planned for, but it's currently on pause until I finish some of my other fics. Hopefully I'll dive right back into this one after the show ends, since there will no longer be new canon material tO GIVE ME MORE IDEAS THAN I HAVE TIME TO WRITE, GOD DAMN IT >______< (I wanna try writing Samguel too at some point, but I'm worried I'd be bad at it ;_____; And I love them very much, so I want to do them justice!!! Here's to someday, though, lol.)

I also have some playlists on my spotify!!! Right now I've got: Elimetri, Elimetri except it's all TSwift (she fits them exceptionally well, don't judge!), YasMoon, general Yasmine playlist, Samguel, and the homoerotic road trip fic!

As far as other socials go...welp. Funny story: I DID make an instagram to post moodboards a while back, and someone uh. Reported it??? I'm like 95% sure some homophobic assholes took issue with the fact that I ship Elimetri and YasMoon and I do it pretty loudly and unapologetically. I think I commented on some Demetri & Eli and/or Yasmine & Moon posts saying that I loved the ship, and yeah, um...I guess The Straights™️start screeching and clutching their pearls over people ever interpreting same-gender friendships having romantic undertones. Or something. I can't even remember exactly what I said, but it wasn't anything stronger than like "I ship this so much" or what have you. But I guess that alone is an atrocity in some people's ass-backwards brains :/ This day in age, queer hate is making enough of a resurgence that I shouldn't even be surprised it's alive and thriving outside tumblr. Anyways, I ended up just taking the L and letting insta ban my account because I'm ngl, it's pretty rancid there and not worth the trouble. All this to say I would advise staying off the CK instagram fandom if you primarily like queer ships. It's fucking chock full of h*wkm**n and yas/metri shippers, and as a queer and a woman I do not trust or feel safe around that at all :/ (Like yeah, please tell me more about how cool it is when women lose their agency and personality to revolve their life around boyfriends who view them as coolness prizes and don't care about them as people at all??? How does this brand of blatant misogyny still exist in 20fucking25??? Anyways) There's just generally a lot of homophobia and misogyny that I think would make trying to participate in the fandom there really depressing. I've heard TikTok is pretty rampant with homophobes too, tbh, So I'm not planning on getting on there, either. I feel like it's just hard to seek out the people I'd actually vibe with among a sea of toxic waste XD And, y'know. All the content made by people who have no issue with my gender being portrayed as braindead props to make men look better ^^; (If any of my followers are already on CK Instagram/TikTok, don't worry--this does not apply to you!!! If you're reading this, it means you're one of the gay little posse I actually respect and you are some of the few on those sites who DON'T suck XD)

Random aside, but I've been lowkey craving to make some video edits/music videos of my ships, so I might get back on youtube one of these days. Unfortunately, I don't have the means right now D: I used to have Sony Vegas, but then my computer broke it when I was forced to upgrade to windows 10 ;_____; I think there's a way to fix it somehow, but it's...super complicated??? Eventually I'll crack down and do it, probably, when the yen is eating me from the inside out. But for now, I'm too lazy XD

[wwdits-kink-meme]

WWDITS KINK MEME

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[wildemaven]

fall apart, again : interlude - a letter to joel | joel miller

-> pairing: joel miller x ofc!genevieve

-> wc: 1001

-> content warning: 18+ blog; angst, alluding to loss, post outbreak, reader is Joel’s wife, reader has a name but has zero descriptive features,

-> a/n: I kind of abandoned this series and didn’t really have any plans to finish it. It felt good where they ended in chapter 3 so I was just going to call it good. But then I was reading through the chapters and kind of found some inspiration to write something for them again. Big thank you to @gnpwdrnwhiskey for always listening and encouraging and fixing my writing!!

series masterlist / playlist

previous / next

Joel,

Feels weird to be sitting here, on our bed, in our home. I guess I should mention we made it back to Austin— Steve and I. 

I met Steve in the ER in Laredo on the evening of the outbreak— he lost his wife. We managed to make it out of there together and promised to keep each other safe. He heard there’s a QZ in Denver, so we’re making our way north. 

I made him promise to stop in Austin. I just had to see for myself, see if there was a chance you and Sarah might still be here— alive. 

Like I said, it feels weird to be here. Seeing our house in this state. Disheveled and abandoned, but still feeling very much like the place we thought we’d live forever. It’s like a personal landmark now, for what once was such a beautiful home filled with so many beautiful memories. Maybe it’s more of a mausoleum of sorts. Kind of morbid, but also very true. ‘Here lies the Millers, before the world went to shit.’

Except, I’m here and you’re not. 

I think the worst part of all of this is not knowing if you’re okay. Steve says I have to accept that there’s a chance that you’re not, that any worst case scenario that I have lost sleep over, might be my reality. But I refuse to accept that. So, I silently pretend that you are okay. That you have managed to get Sarah and yourself, and hopefully Tommy, to safety. You’re somewhere out there protecting our baby girl and staying strong for her like you’ve always done. 

I feel like I’m rambling. My thoughts are just all over the place being here and thinking of you. Or maybe I’m just dragging out my time here because the minute I leave, it will be like a final goodbye to this place— and I don’t think I’m ready for it just yet. 

It’s like I can still smell the faint musk of your cologne in the air. Like you’ll walk through our bedroom door, pulling your keys and wallet from your jeans and tossing them on the dresser, all while telling me about some mishap on a job site that set you back a few days. I can just see that grumpy look you wear so well. Then, when you’ve let it all out, you instantly soften when you finally look at me sitting on our bed and then you’re apologizing for boring me with your work bullshit. I would listen to your work bullshit every single day if it meant we could be together again. 

When I got here, it was like I was being pulled into Sarah’s room. I sat there for a while, remembering all the times we had laid there with her reading her bedtime stories until she would fall asleep. I miss our dance parties while we would wait for you to come home, her insisting I had zero rhythm anytime one of her little boy band hits came on and I attempted to keep up with her choreographed routine she had memorized. I’m taking a few things of hers, I hope that’s okay. I don’t think I can come back here and I want to have something of hers. 

I found your ring on our dresser. Don’t worry I’m not mad you aren’t wearing it. Gosh, I can’t believe I would get so worked up over seeing it laying there instead of on your finger. I know how much it bothered you wearing it to work and worrying about losing it or getting it caught on something, and yet I would still get annoyed over it. But, maybe you weren’t meant to wear it so I could find it today, so I could have a piece of you with me always. 

I guess I should wrap this up. I know how much you love when I can go on and on about anything. 

I will write to you. Whenever I get the chance. To Sarah, too. I’ll keep writing to you both for as long as I can. 

I love you Joel. I always have. And I always will. Wherever you are, I just hope you know that. 

Forever and always,

Eve 

*

“Hey, Genevieve— ya doin’ okay up there?” Steve calls up from downstairs. 

“Yeah! Just give me a sec! I’ll be right down.” You try to hide your pain as you respond, wiping the few tears sprinkled across your cheeks. 

You fold your letter to Joel, placing it securely in an envelope you had found next to the pile of printer paper you tucked away with the items of Sarah’s in your pack. You push yourself off the bed, walking around to the side where Joel slept since the day you moved in. You run your handover the indentation in his pillow, remembering how much you loved to wake up before him just so you could watch him sleep. 

Lifting the corner of his pillow, you gently place the letter underneath it. The last place you talked to him, is the first place you’ll write to him. You imagine he’s laying there, sleeping peacefully when you kiss the top of his pillow. 

Grabbing your pack off the bed, you take one last look at the space, your heart clenching at the finality of this visit. You force your legs to move towards the direction of the door, stopping briefly at the dresser to grab Joel’s ring, tucking it into one of your packs inner pockets safely. 

Steve is sitting on the couch when you finally make it downstairs. His patience is something you’ve appreciated since the day you met. He knew how much stopping here meant to you, and he told you to take as much time as you needed. 

“All good?” He asks once you’ve stepped off the last step. 

“No, but it will be, I think.” You tell him as you make your way out the front door. 

[frostyclove]

Starting a 13th Doc rewatch in honor of sunclair so i can write it accurately since ive only ever seen it all once. i will be obnoxiously high (because why not) one post per episode i think?? sorted by reblogs? that seems like a plan. hopefully 3 a day. as a prerequisite ; my opinion of the 13th doctor is essentially '10th doctor but more color' and i do generally think i like her more than 10. dan > ryan > graham > yaz - its nothing against yaz its entirely chibnall just being really solid at writing endearing old men; its his biggest writing strength. we shall see if any of this changes with the rewatch :) I write a lot. sorry in advance on the length

With that, onto The Woman Who Fell To Earth !

yall can never make me hate ryan the intro is actually so good

i, personally, do not think doctor who should look that pretty. the sky should not be that crisp i feel like i am looking at a microsoft computer picture thing. too pristine. but objectively absolutely stunning absolutely gorgeous. between the framing and the lighting and the color grade and how it looks on the costumes - the show looks very nice.

dynamics!! character building is already off to a great start and it was unpaused for like 3 seconds. also the way it cuts to the other shots - that was very pretty. again very film. but objectively very pretty.

i should note here that i should have done some homework and watched the 5th doctor era before this - for some reason i have an idea that it must be chibnalls biggest classic inspiration but ive never seen it so i cant provide citations for that. but its likely a thing i'll say as it goes on

lol just tosses the bike now okay - very nice characterization. but i myself am stuck worried thats gonna whack somebody on the way down

also like techincally is them siting on the rocks not considered character building like theyre all fucking crazy adventurous people. like adore them but omg thats scary as hell and theyre just chillin - perfect for the doctor !

well thats a completely different forest.

that is such a torchwood style moment and honestly there is a bit of a torchwood feel to all of 13s era and i do really enjoy that.

now i am american so i must say yaz's uniform looks utterly fake because in my mind the real one is the welsh one from torchwood. i know its a country or more specific of a difference. but the welsh one is the real one to me.

i know theres dicourse about the yaz of it all here. i dont remember what it is though. so ill say - im reading this as yaz first handling the thing, while also like very much having to fake the confidence in order to do it. like shes not comfy in it yet, but she can and she will. and then secondly her boss being a bit of prick. but like hes a cop why would i be mad about them having a cop act like a cop (a prick). idk.

ryan is incredibly funny and charismatic in this scene, yaz is less so but thats also a character point again its giving awkward and im enjoying that from her. also they both kinda go flat when they realize they know each other - so im fairly certain that was an intentional character choice as well. theyre like, acting like its a reunion. very natural to reality.

oh i strongly disliked the camera placement on that scene though

train! okay now the perfection of the shot looks better now because there enough shadow to make up for the lack of pixel lines. contrast is apparently a skill not being taught

disappointed in graham but we certainly are learning about the two of them and their personalities. in action no less!

lol not graham being immediately then whacked by the most possibly violent crash in the circumstances

well that just got absolutely horrifying maybe they are teaching contrast i see the plan now

alright - the music is very different. its not bad. its actually really good. its just really different. i feel as though im watching a 2015 creepypasta video. like i associate it with the deepest parts of fictional fear, but its also like, doctor who and the start of the episode so its almost out of place. although it is very torchwood!

lightning worms? i dont remember the villain being lightning worms

omg jodi looks so good wtf i forgot how good she looked in this ep why didnt we keep this wig

i cannot see. what is going on with this section

i love her "stay put" girlie you just showed up why would they do that also i think she just fully assumed they were already her companions there - 12 regenerated to clara and strax after all.

very monologue but practical and i think it works and ads that always begged for by fandom aspect of 'domesticness' assuming i even understand it (not sure i do i just see people complaining about its lack all the time idk what theyre on about tbh)

i love how like almost planned the doctor is. its like beat by beat performative its perfect. just the right amount of dramatic flair

if this is the only episode her bottom lashes have mascara then a fashion crime has been committed

chat im trying to be casual here but im actually in love with jodi whittaker wtf i forgot how much i did just love her embodying the character. like this outfit why couldnt we keep the coattttt

lolll they think shes absolutely bonkers i love it shes adorable

shes such a goof 'can we have the lights and sirens' babes what do you think ?

not doctor brain then translating for everyone else frankly thats improvement !! we love to see little growth moments between doctors. internalize those clara cards!

not the lesson on the importance of community hes trying to do the thing hes trying

shes literally glowing <3

'yeah i guess so' how can you NOT like ryan oh wait his poor phone

YOURE ALL MEAN TO THE GOOFBALL FOR WHY. BE NICE TO THE GOOFBALL. omg ryan get behind me ur getting the wally treatment welcome to the team

graham what the fuck not you too

TINKER FAIRY DOCTOR TINKER FAIRY DOCTOR

i love the doctor speech paired up with set dressings fitting for a serial killer lair. thats a beautiful touch

lol its actually so funny to think about earth being a proxy war location given how many proxy wars we have like honestly yeah uk or the us should kinda bear the brunt of those (obvs none actually should but its fiction guys its called ~dramatic irony~)

so sincerely what foundation is jodi wearing in this its amazing

the drunk guy was so unnecessary and yet also so funny

like the camera shouldnt be sooo good that i can clearly tell styrofoam when i see it. poor costume departments everywhere yall deserve better conditions (joking guys it just makes it annoying and difficult its not like a full on work hazard i know)

im gonna need some good fic recommendations i think. i kinda forgot how susceptible i am to big eyes as if thats not like the defining characteristic of my type omg the doctor absorbed clara's tricks

ooooh its a game i wonder if itll tie into any of the stuff from this season somehow/eventually idk just seeing the double game of it all

im so so sorry guys she just looks so much like kate beckett and i just realized this and now i also am thinking about her and now im just very distracted im certain the plot is plotting along but outside of the tim ice blue guy being a cheating loser theres not much plot going on for me to miss

talks a big game but then just lets them have it doctor why are you like this

this is why you be careful. because he is special. he is valued. because he is the trophy. for an alien species. be careful out there/j

every character death will be humanized. im noticing that is a recurring thing

i do think they were going for leaving the options open for a ryan yaz something and omg am i glad they did not but this part does feel like it was specifically for the just in case they did

ngl i hate the crane of it all. interesting for like a writing prompt but i do not enjoy it i dont think

you know i have some thoughts on graham right now and they arent good one

youtubing how to crane omg ryan the icon

okay i take it back jodi looks hot as hell on the crane its all worth it for that shot wow

this guy is honestly quite adorable ; reminds me of whittaker from the pitt funnily enough. sad hes probs gonna die

fucking ridiculous the doctor is what the fuck why are we doing crane parkour

yeah now you know how some of the companions felt doctor you do a lot of running and youre usually very tall

im not gonna talk about the one thing. im just not. i dont know. i just sad.

'sorting out fair play in the universe' awwww and then the giggle thats kinda cute actually a nice little thru line

so im not gonna talk about that either i have no postable thoughts about that its certainly organic looking

oh the sad is now well thats rude the music is very good that was icky i am tearing up

can someone please give ryan a hug omg

still wanna have a really long chat with the costume dept . why did we land on that , exactly?

also the best part of that is the earrings and i dont even think they kept those

not kicking them out to space omg silly ass cliffhanger

okay that took me three hours and i really enjoyed it and i held back on commentary omg that was kinda a mess on my end but on the whole 8.5 i think, really solid episode. i'll do more tomorrow :)

[walkawaytall]

AO3 is possibly doing away with "All Media Types" tags and that could be bad for Star Wars material (among many others)

Links to Reddit and Tumblr posts detailing the issue:

Reddit:

AO3 has started removing All Media Types tags.

AO3's policy on All Media Types tags is a disaster for anime fandom

Tumblr:

New AO3 Tag Wrangling Policy and the Transformers Fandom

recoiling in horror bc the "sherlock holmes and related fandoms" tag is gone

My understanding is that "All Media Types" tags are starting to disappear from certain fandoms on AO3, and if this is indeed the direction the site is headed in, the Star Wars tags are going to be a hot mess. As the post New AO3 Tag Wrangling Policy and the Transformers Fandom explains, the All Media Types tags help keep works from different parts of the same media types from being classified as Crossovers, which is...kind of important when talking about Star Wars as well.

Like, ignoring the fact that the majority of Star Wars movies, TV shows, books, and video games have characters and timelines that overlap one another, we also had an an EU reset a decade ago, which resulted in a split between Legends and Canon. And, I can't speak for the entire fandom, but I know plenty of writers who like to pick aspects they like from each and stick them in the same story.

Consider: Would a story involving sequel-trilogy Leia remembering an event that occurred during the original trilogy suddenly be considered a Crossover (which would exclude it from the search results of a ton of people who avoid Crossovers that mix franchises, but who would actually be interested in the story since it's the same dang franchise)? Would a story detailing the entirety of Obi-Wan's life be considered a Crossover? The implications of such a decision are not great.

It is being suggested that we voice our opinions (politely) using AO3's Support and Feedback form. I'm going to do so, and if this is something that concerns you, you might speak up as well. Hopefully if enough people say something, they'll either stop retiring the tags or will come up with another solution, because this is madness for so many fandoms.

[henshin-reborn]

Sooo I'm back... hi :)

I recently deleted my old account, henshin-4. Why? Yeah... lets just keep it to I kinda wanted to disappear. Depression episodes apparently hit harder when you've been feeling fine for a while, especially if it gets triggered by the one asshole who has been ruining your life for over 20 years and who you sadly have to share a house with in combination with, somehow, everything going wrong at the moment. I really thought my depression was gone, but Idk anymore. Maybe it is, maybe these last few weeks have just been extremely bad and unlucky but... it's been hard. I also left home which brings a little peace but where I am now isn't great either.

But anyway... you know, it didn't take long before I started to miss Tumblr so here I am again. A new account will have pros and cons. A pro would be that I am now hopefully rid of all those spam accounts that bothered me daily that I kept having to block, but a con would be that I will definitely miss my boop war badges, plus I lost all my mutuals, and my posts... I do hope to find you all again but I will be combing through the BUCK-TICK tag. I do hope you'll all recognize me (and that no one's mad at me 💀) as I had to find a new username, but at least it is similar to my old one (not using the same pics tho).

I may also be known for having a certain hatred for the BT fandom, but 95% of the BUCK-TICK fans I have found here on Tumblr in the recent past have been great. Of course, every fandom has it's trash, but on this site you'll also find treasure, and you all are that treasure.

Anyway, for those who don't know me, which will surely be the vast majority, let me re-introduce myself.

My name, well feel free to call me Rae.

I am 27 years old.

My favorite band is BUCK-TICK and once I will be posting and reblogging regularly again, you WILL be able to tell ;) I might even repost some of my old account's posts cause why not, they are my posts after all :P

I also love other bands, such as Der Zibet, Dead End, Creature Creature and Vaniru.

I also really really REALLY enjoy side and solo works of my favorites, such as Sakurai Atsushi's solo album, The Mortal, Schwein, ISSAY's solo album, PhI, Hamlet Machine, ISSAY meets DOLLY, even KA.F.KA's few songs, MORRIE's solo work and his recently started new band with 2 songs, Godland, and I also really love Masami Tsuchiya's solo work. I still have to properly check out his old band, Ippu-Do. Other than them I also occasionally listen to Soft Ballet, who I really have to get into again.

My top 3 favorite vocalists, which you may also recognize me by, is:

1. Sakurai Atsushi.

2. Hoshino Hidehiko.

3. ISSAY.

I am also a gamer, some of my fave game (series) are: Saints Row, Payday, Phasmophobia, Ghost Exile, This Is A Ghost, Demonologist, GTA 4, Stardew Valley, Animal Crossing, Baldur's Gate 3, and a lot more games of similar genres. I can't even remember them all as I barely play anything lately (no PC since a while)

Anyway, let me also do some self advertisement cause no one else will do it hehe. So I am also a fanfic author, I mainly write BUCK-TICK/Der Zibet fics but may eventually expand to more fandoms.

For now, you can find my BT+ fics here:

https://archiveofourown.org/users/Nameless_Me/works

I mainly write Atsushi x Issay but have also done Atsushi x Imai, Atsushi x reader and Atsushi x Toshiya (on request) and for the future I also plan to write Atsushi x Hide(hiko), Issay x reader, maybe a threesome somewhere, and all BT members (separately) x reader (since I'm also working on a BT dating simulator, but I will also need a PC to finish that)

I also run a Discord server for all J-Rock related things which also functions as an archive for many bands which you can add to if you want to (just gotta ask for access first so I can give you a channel to work in). The archive so far is mostly links for quick access.

Activity is not required, but it is appreciated. We can also host events here where we can watch tours together. The server isn't very active, but maybe you'll find something here anyway.

It also contains my music drive folder which has edited music files of many artists to keep consistency so all songs are the same volume and quality. I work with 128 kbps (small files, won't take much space), 44100 hz (high quality), and 91.5 db (overall more quiet than newly ripped files BUT this matches Spotify's normal volume so they match well as local Spotify files.)

Of course, you can also join to just talk about music and meet people. Racism, sexism, homo/transphobia, ableism etc NOT allowed, but that should be the norm anyway.

Anyway, glad to be back and I will try to stay positive. As long as I have BT, there is something to be happy about. I almost gave up on them too, but that's not their fault, everything was just going to shit for me and still is tbh but I'll do anything for BT.

Also I've been clearing out my gallery since it was a mess so I barely have any BT pics anymore, but I'll just use the pics I used to decorate my new account to decorate this post a bit as well :)

Well, as I said, I hope to find all my old mutuals again and that you all recognize me. Sorry for the sudden deactivation :(... and that I said BT wouldn't give a shit about me, cause they would, they care about all their fans, and that's why I care about them. They are such great people :)

[diristine]

Some childhood Glass headcanons to end my day before I sleep! Yknow, one last little gift and hopefully I can post the silly comic tomorrow and then draw more of our beloved psychologist.

WARNING FOR 4231 INSINUATIONS, MENTIONS, AND REFERENCES (none of the s/a mentioned but be aware)

Simon grew up in Massachusetts, his immediate family all have severe Boston accents that he has learned to hide. Except when he’s really pissed then you’ll be able to hear that accent shine through.

His family was pretty anomalous, between Francis having a third pupil in his eye to Simon’s twin having been a medium. All small and easily concealable anomalies, but they were careful to not let too much of it show.

Simon’s twin’s name was Skylar Glass! The two of them used to be identical twins, both blue eyed, blonde hair, freckles all over!

The Glass family was fairly large, though they continued to live in one home all together until the kiddos moved out.

He grew up sharing a room with all of the girls until he came out and was allowed to stay with the boys eventually. He took Francis’ old bed as his own.

Simon grew up homeschooled until they figured out he was somehow non-anomalous. Then the kid was sent to public school by his own request, where he joined Theater and found his love for acting and music!

His family cared for chickens, bees, goats, and had a large garden. They lived in a fairly secluded area so all the animals and messes, granted it was a smaller rural area anyways. So nobody minded the eggs the Glass family passed out when their hens laid too many.

He was bullied at school a lot, between being trans and from the “weird family” but he never told anyone. Simon was so desperate for human connection and theater he kept his abuse to himself.

Simon did in fact call the cops on a few parties out of pure spite, and sat on the curb across the road eating popcorn and watching the show. He made sure to stay out of site from the other students so nobody knew it was him who did so. Either way, he only really called the cops on the parties his bullies hosted, it was more fun that way.

His sister died when they were both 9, and Francis ran off with his girlfriend when he was 8. He lost his two closest family members close to the same year. It was the sadness he gained from that which caused him to want to help sad lonely people.

Skylar died of acute Leukemia. Doctors tried to save her, but the cancer progressed too fast. Simon promised to her on her death bed he’d stay alive and do cool stuff so she cant haunt him and see all the cool stuff. Like skydiving.

He was a picky eater as a kid, he’s gotten better as he’s grown but Simon refused to eat his greens.

Simon has always asked a lot of questions as a kiddo!! He was so curious about anything and everything, to where whenever Francis babysat him, he would bother Francis about it. If Francis didn’t answer he’d simply go to Lilly! She was always super nice, with her flowers and hooves and that smile!

He wishes he killed Lilly when he had the chance. So that his cousin didn’t have to become what he is today.

He sometimes got scared at night and crawled into Skylar’s bed to cuddle her or ran to Francis. Simon could always rely on his cousin, who would hold him and tell him stories of stars and magic. He remembers how Francis would make the milky way appear on the ceiling and made the shadows move like puppets across the walls. Simon always felt safe with Francis.

When Francis left, Simon was devastated. He went to the woods, to the park, everywhere. Calling Francis’ name. He kept putting up missing posters well into his teenage years, when he finally stopped. If only he paid closer attention to the occasional passerby, he may have spotted familiar eyes.

Wow. That got depressing. Im not sorry. Not in the slightest.

[calamitys-child]

Hi, are you comfortable saying who your top surgeon was? You look great! Totally understand if not. Either way thanks for sharing, love seeing guys that look similar to me, and congrats and hope you recover well!

Hi! Thank you sm!

So I'm on the NHS for my surgery and I personally had a fucking Saga of admin issues on my way which I don't yet have it all behind me enough to speak on at length, but what's most relevant here is that on the NHS you can't pick your surgeon, just your location/team. I ended up with Chelsea and Westminster, who are a pretty new pathway for gender affirmation surgery, even if some of the surgeons have been in the field for a While now.

The team is led by Victoria Rose, who I also had for my consultation - she also worked previously and I believe still does work with the NHS Manchester pathway. Her results, as I've seen from other people, are really good; I personally had a really difficult time with her at my consultation, but ymmv, I know other folk have got on great with her so maybe it was just me or she was just having an off day. Either way, I know she's a great surgeon, makes sense for her to be the team lead.

When I got my admission paperwork for surgery, it said I'd be with Giuseppe di Taranto. I hadn't seen much of his work online before the surgery - looking him up I found he works partly in the NHS and partly in the private sphere, the latter of which he has an instagram for showing some of his work.

On the actual day of my surgery, what happened was a sort of boy band in scrubs arrived in my room??? Honestly idk, I got 3 hot men who all said they'd be my surgery team and I genuinely couldn't tell you whether he was any of them I have handsome guy faceblindness (and also regular faceblindness). I'd been fasting for 14hrs, had 3hrs sleep, and was the most anxious I've ever been, not my greatest state for remembering details.

Pics under the cut for a healing update, if anyone is curious: contains scarring and medical equipment but no blood, which should give at least a sense of how it's going 2.5 weeks on!

At discharge, ~5hrs post surgery: I had to wear that post op binder 24/7 for the first week, no drains even though di Taranto apparently usually uses them? Unsure why but grateful not to have needed them

There was padding over the surgery site which we assumed was gauze but my partner discovered upon helping me wash with baby wipes was essentially just a huge strip of kitchen sponge which, hilarious

1 week post op, first dressings change: elated. Incisions almost completely closed, minimal bleeding or oozing, zero sign of infection. Right nipple graft doing perfectly, left nipple graft looking mostly okay but a little more fluid and scabbing. Redressed whole site and kept compression vest on, can now take it off for half an hour daily to wash, avoiding getting dressings wet - this will be the case til 4-6 weeks post op

2 weeks post op: incisions pretty much completely shut and frankly astonishingly neat so far, no signs of infection, just still fragile. Some swelling, particularly on left side, but not enough to cause concern - it's very very common after a mastectomy and usually mild swelling resolves on its own after a couple months, especially with the compression top and with gentle heat applied like a hot water bottle or something for 20 minutes a day. We're keeping an eye on it. Grafts still looking both good, right slightly neater than left. Discolouration near grafts in these pics is because the dressings we're using are soaked in iodine which disinfects but can stain the skin, it'll come off eventually in the shower.

Current plan is the grafts should be kept completely dressed for 6 weeks, redressed weekly, and I'll still wear the compression top for 6 weeks. Incisions are now down to just steri strip dressings until 4 weeks, at which point we can hopefully move to scar care - I have a 4wk follow up remote appointment with the Chelsea Westminster team to discuss then

[re-bee-key]

Just watched the Tumblr Live QnA Panel, and here's some of my thoughts:

* Had to toggle on Tumblr Live to watch and agree to the terms.

The stream itself was a little low quality visually, not terrible, but either they used a low quality camera or streaming isn't up to the same quality as other sites like Tiktok

* the gifting feature that mimics Tiktok was obnoxious. Users that seem to use Tumblr Live a lot where using gifts very often. The gift icons would take up most of the screen covering chat.

Some people in chat suggested that the gifters were Staff plants to make the site seem more popular than it is. There is no way to verify if they are or are not. But these individuals talked in the chat about how they use Tumblr Live all the time, and some dont even have blogs they only use Live. Which is????

I don't like the gifting emojis. But i dont like them on Twitch or tiktok either, so shrug emoji, i guess

Questions Answered (that i remember)

* The Chronological Dashboard will stay. They mentioned this several times that tumblr, while they are going to improve the For You algorithm, the main Chronological Dashboard will not change.

* Tumblr Live apparently isn't blocked in Europe and is just waiting for approval, which is soon. They said it being blocked was misinformation. (Which i have no way to verify.)

* LGBTQA+ and specifically Trans content getting flagged or censored is a bug, apparently. They said it happens from time to time, but reporting should fix it. Users in the chat were unhappy with this answer since the issue has lasted for such a long time and doesn't seem or feel random. But they did not comment further.

* Tumblr posts being collapsable was not super addressed. They sort of skimmed over this question and just said that they try lots of new features to see what works and what doesn't. Apparently, there will be a toggle to turn this feature on or off.

* Tumblr Groups was addressed. It was shut down because not enough users used the feature.

Apparently, not many users use Tumblr Live either, but they want to keep working on it to make it appealing.

* Another bit about Tumblr Live. CEO essentially said they will not give the option to permanently toggle off the feature.

One user had asked if Tumblr had investors. CEO said, "Of course."

CEO did mention they "might" add a way to permanently turn off tumblr live. But it if they did, it would be a paid option over $20.

* One user commented that they are epileptic and that certain ads trigger their seizures because of the flashing colors and wanted to know what they would do for this issue. Tumblr CEO said "Well you could pay for No Ads."

CEO talked about paying to go ad free a lot. Saying only 25 thousand users pay for it at the moment.

Personally, it seems really irresponsible to suggest that the only way to fix an accessibility issue is for a user to pay money. As if disabled people dont have to pay enough as it is.

* I had asked if they were willing to work with more artists for Merch and Badges. They said they are working on it and there is a feature called Creatr that is set up to uplift creators and work with them on merch ideas.

I've never heard of Creatr. He seemed like we should have known what it was? Maybe they should promote that more. I know we all want more ways to support artists.

* More Badges and Achievements are coming. Apparently, a Legacy Badge that shows how long you've been on tumblr is in the works. (Im personally very excited about Badges.)

* Tumblr is thinking bout doing more QnA and even meet ups at different conventions and some even at the headquarters themselves. (They did not acknowledge questions that asked for a Headquarters video tour.)

Anyways, that was about all I can remember. Staff didn't record the panel, so hopefully, one of the other users did.

They talked about other random stuff. Calling out gifters specifically and rambling about donuts and books.

Oh, also, they brought a ball pit. Which is, yeah. Lol

[asksoldieron]

SO-36: GET DOWN, MR. PRESIDENT!

If there's a lot of engagement on this, this post is liable to get real long, beware before you expand.

There's the map, but I am working on illustrations and I will add them retroactively. I hope.

Welcome to the Engagement Lounge, for Hujambo! (265|36) an instalment! Short comments can go in the replies, but there's a 475 character limit. Longer ones will need a reblog. Remember to @asksoldieron if you're reblogging someone else's reblog, so I can see it too!

You know, I'm not trying to end each six-pack on a cliffhanger, but it keeps working out like that. I've got half the next one done, I could probably get it posted after a two week break, but I wouldn't have time to do anything else. I gotta see about art, and whatever else I can do for readers. So, probably, I'll post the next six in draft form at Ko-Fi for you, my few supporters, and leave the site on hiatus while I work on the other stuff. I will try like hell to do something for our birthday in April, but I can never be sure what'll happen between now and then.

So we're in Zanzamin now! Yay! An island nation/terrorist enclave that's out to free the world! It's not going very well by the numbers, but they're trying, and stealing things off bloated empires while they're at it. I shouldn't take sides, but I like them. They're a lot of fun. We're gonna have fun.

Erik isn't having any fun, but he'll be okay. I filkified one of my "mood" songs for the end, so you'd be sure there's no evil intent. I'll leave the music here:

The other song I've been listening to a lot is Turn the World Around

but I don't think I can rewrite the lyrics. They're too on-the-nose! Zanzamin has a lot of cultures crashing into each other and so many new arrivals with trauma to be triaged. They're inclined to help each other, but they have some Spirit to keep them honest, lest they forget. It barely had time to say "hujambo!" before Erik passed out, but it means well!

Erik doesn't know anyone with a brain octopus who's good at using it (well, he doesn't know he knows anyone). The only people who can help him are teaching him things Diane taught them, and Seth and Mordecai didn't want to/couldn't learn much. The end result is that Erik is driving a forklift around and he is NOT CERTIFIED! If and when he picks something up, he has no idea how to put it back down - save distraction, which is not the easiest or safest thing. And, in all the confusion, nobody realized he might have trouble during a huge, emotional gathering while he's operating in overdrive.

Well, it's always the problem you don't see that's going to bite you in the ass! So they're not going to quite have the Zanzamin visit they wanted...

But it's gonna be better. You saw how Maggie gets along with her current "family," the alternative is better.

Yes, I have changed the Setting page again, to reflect the new circumstances. I unpacked the kanga styles a little more there, among other things, but that's really the sort of thing I ought to draw at some point.

See you when I see you, hopefully with art in hand!

[everlarkficquestions]

Hi there! I've sent you an ask earlier this year but I never saw it posted, I assume it got lost somehow... So here I am trying again, hopefully this one gets through:

So one of my readers from russian part of the fandom asked me to help her find two fic she read a few years ago on some eng site (AO3, fanfiction or something else, she didn't specify).

First one is a no games AU. Katniss struggles to survive in 12 and Peeta sees her by a dumpster where she's trying to find some food. He helps her but she cannot accept it as a favour so she has sex with him to make them even. After that she gets pregnant and Peeta immediately supports her, they move to some house together, get married and have the baby, HEA.

The second one is set in our world in 50-ies USA. Peeta and Katniss are dating and she also gets pregnant. Peeta is ready to marry her, but his mother isn't happy with it so she's trying to intervene by somehow blocking the money he was trying to use to rent a house for them. Eventually Haymitch helps them out by allowing them to occupy a house that he owns. Gale and Johanna are in this story as a couple, Annie and Finnick are also there, all of them are friends with each other. The story follows Katniss and Peeta as they have their first child, a girl, and a few years later they have a boy as well. Their friends also have kids.

Those are the details that she could remember. She also mentioned that she read the fics 3-4 years ago and both of them were finished at the time.

Thanks for any hint! And thank you for all the work that you do for the fandom, your masterlist is very helpful, I found so many great stories through it!

Hi, @whosnows

Unfortunately we are unsure what the first story you're looking for is, but we'll publish the ask, and maybe our followers will be able to identify it for you.

The second story sounds a lot like "Always a Blessing" by IzzySamson.

Enjoy!

:)

[ivesambrose]

NOTE

Hey everyone, firstly I would like to thank everyone for the years of support that you have given me and continue to give me. I started proffesionally reading about a decade back, I started at $3 I still remember. It's been a long journey. Tarot has not only helped support me and my family but also led me to making so many new friends and interacting with incredible people some of whom are family to me now. So I'll always be beyond grateful.

I will be making some necessary changes to my services here on Tumblr since I understand my audience here is different as well.

I will also be opening an Etsy store and perhaps even a site. The quantity of readings might go down from here but the quality will always remain, that I can promise.

I will still keep posting pick a cards here, chatting with y'all here as well as taking orders here too. I'm learning about astrology as well so hopefully I'll be able to offer chart readings in the future too. I will be posting new reading offers exclusive to Tumblr from time to time but you'll mostly find me on other platforms in the future. Namely Instagram and X/Twitter.

I will miss this place indeed but it's time to start the fool's journey once again for me. There is so much I wanna do in life and a lot that I wanna achieve in 2024. There might come a time I only take 3 readings in a month. Whenever that happens, we'll see about it, okay?

For now, thank you once again and I hope to see you in my upcoming journey 🧡

[nny11writes]

Saren is a bad stepdad

So I was reminded of a ME fic I'd been heavily researching right as that hyperfixation wore out (where the SA followed US military protocol so there are civilian contractors and Liara is initially a CI) and while re-reading the plot outline I had I suddenly remembered my half finished fic, Saren is a bad stepdad, which I wrote back in 2015.

Me: Ha ha, I remember being proud of that, just never knew where to go, wonder if I still like it

(Hint: I'm technically posting it right now sooooo)

Conversation had died down and prayer had been said; thanks given to both the Goddess and the Spirits as food arrived. And with food came talk. Conversation seemed to flow easily further down the table from where she sat. Liara noted with some jealousy that Miala and Ylane were chatting animatedly. Liara loved to sit and listen to those two talk circles and spirals, laughing and debating the whole night away. Liara would swear she’d just taken a first bite of food and after meal drinks were suddenly served. Not so at her current spot at the far end of the table. While the acolytes, guards, servants, and everyone else seemed to exist in normal time Liara watched the clock almost go backwards in this corner.

To her direct left sat Saren, he seemed to be concentrating on his meal and ignoring Liara to the best of his abilities. One seat further down sat her mother, looking at the two of them with a deep seated exhaustion and mild disappointment.

“Saren, thank you for joining us tonight. How have you been?” Liara at least made an attempt.

“Thank you. I’ve been,” Saren paused for a half second, “well. And yourself?”

Liara nodded awkwardly, wishing that she could feign sickness and leave. “Well, thank you.”

Silence again.

Liara looked hopefully to her mother to join in their “conversation” and move them from this painful farce, and instead found her frown. Benezia purposefully made eye contact and then turned to speak with Shiala instead. In the corner of her eye she saw Saren twitch slightly.

Goddess help us both.

It wasn’t that Saren wasn’t a decent person, at least when he was with Liara or Benezia, but there had always been a…disconnect between him and Liara. She had always found him a little intimidating, even when he tried to appear jovial or harmless. He had always found her both too quiet and too conniving, even though Liara tried to not scheme when it came to a Spectre and tried to be more vocal. Overall the two had agreed that they just simply didn’t like one another, but would tolerate each other for Benezia.

Benezia did not want toleration amongst those she loved, she wanted unity.

A year back Liara and Saren had found themselves the first two guests to a party, and were quickly shuffled off to a room together to “enjoy themselves until the other guests arrive”. If “enjoy themselves” had been code for awkwardly avoiding the only other person in the room and then getting into a sniping contest, they had enjoyed themselves thoroughly. Liara was rather convinced that she had a more cordial relations with the Hanar who constantly petitioned against her Prothean digs. 

To put that again: Liara was rather sure she had a better relation with Who Will Protect and Serve, the Hanar that had chained itself across the entrance to one of her dig sites in protest than she did with Saren.

How do you do? Oh Really? Having fun doing things? Well I disapprove of your things. My things are better. I find you to be just barely within toleration. Perhaps we should talk with Benezia; she loves you for some reason.

That was the conversation between Liara and Saren. Every. Single. Time. And Benezia was finding it childish, drawn out, and exhausting. So here they were again, trying to connect on a level other than “Benezia loves you, so you must be ok somehow”.

Of course, part of the issue was that Saren couldn’t talk about his work as it was classified. He preferred to discuss turian culture and cared very little for other species. Liara was basically the same way but preferring to discuss asari life and protheans. They had once managed to discuss Citadel policy and the politics of space, which had gone well for maybe twenty minutes before they started to step on each other’s toes. Benezia had left the room in disgust as the two of them basically hissed back and forth “I can see what you are saying, and appreciate that it’s your opinion, but I think that…”

They had, once, been able to discuss art until Liara revealed her dislike of a certain statue and the haughtiness of its creator. One carved by Saren’s aunt apparently. Saren had tried to bring Liara in on his dislike of a certain servant at the T’Soni estate, who was in fact Liara’s favorite cousin. That had efficiently forced them to stop talking art and family.

Liara had got him talking about sky ball once until he insulted Marcella, and they quickly learned that they cheered for rival teams during the finals. Liara had sat in her jersey on one of the couch while Saren sat in his vest at the other in stony silence. Benezia sat between them asking questions about the game as she didn’t follow the sport at all.

Saren had taken them to the theatre once, a new play that was supposed to be popular with maidens. He surprised them with tickets at dinner beforehand and made the most earnest eye contact with Liara to date. The play was basically pornographic and Liara found it insulting instead of liberating or “putting a spotlight on life as a modern maiden”. Benezia had, luckily, been sitting between them shallowly melding with Liara to calm her down and let her vent while Saren laughed on cue.

Liara had read his biography and tried to show that she was interested in him as more than a spectre. Saren despised the writer and hated the book, and had tried to prevent its publication before work got in the way. He was highly perturbed that Liara had actually liked it. Benezia had quietly soothed him and let him vent afterwards from a room that Liara may have eavesdropped into.

Saren went with her to a tea house, failed to remember most of the steps, broke the tea set and ripped the cushions with his spurs. He then admitted that Benezia had tried to teach him to prevent all of this but that he had been distracted at the time. Liara managed to not cry by a slim margin as she begged forgiveness from the matron running the house.

On and on and on the attempts had gone, their best intentions failing miserably for the last seven years now and Benezia was struggling to find her asari patience when it came to peace and happiness in her own home. Of course, Saren’s admission that he hoped to father a child with Benezia had basically put his relationship with Liara onto very thin ice, which Liara only threw salt on when she admitted that she saw him as a passing comfort to her mother and that he would never be her father. She may have also thrown the last straw onto Benezia’s overburdened back with a cruel and snide comment about if that child would know Saren at all. 

Benezia was well and truly done with them. But Benezia had also been truly done with babying her child.

Liara had not fled her home, but the ice between them was thick and crushing. When Liara suggested she should move out and truly begin to live her maiden years out, Benezia had agreed. It turned out that where Benezia had been all shades of an independent and heady maiden, Liara was something of a shut-in and lonely to boot. Liara had chosen to attend Serrice University instead of interning at the local republica office, her decision to then pursue an M.S.Arch. and then a PhD, followed up by her gallivanting about at dig sites instead of assisting her mother, taking to politics, or taking to the temple. Nothing quite like the feeling of disappointing one’s own mother to get the guilt going, which of course made Liara feel somehow more responsible for her current predicament. So Liara had made the attempt to reconnect with both her mother and Saren. She wanted to make Benezia proud.

Pushing halfheartedly at a few pieces of lettuce around her plate, Liara tried not to stare as Saren pushed a drinking tube deep into his mouth. She had begun to regret trying to make amends both with Saren and her mother; this was becoming more painful and awkward the longer it was forced. Apologies were now the times they spent the longest speaking to one another, and even if heartfelt, the words were starting to lose their meaning through repetition alone. 

A hopeful glance at the clock showed it had been five minutes since the dinner started. Piares, if we were ever friends, guide me now.

Liara cleared her throat. “So, I was recently honored with a trip into turian space for my research. Oma Ker was a beautiful planet, and its inhabitants were dedicated. Have you ever travelled there?”

I am passing you the drinking dish, please, please take it.

Saren seemed thoughtful for a moment before responding. “No, I…I can’t say I’ve been there before. Did you make any important findings?”

Liara, mouth full with vegetables, nodded vigorously and tried to swallow it down to respond. “We found ancient artifacts, but not of prothean make. It seems that a species from perhaps before the prothean cycle had colonized the world. Absolutely fascinating!”

Saren’s whole body tensed up. “Ah yes, the ‘Prothean Cycle’.”

Ah, yes, one minute into a hopeful conversation already dashed by poor word choice.

“Simply the terminology I find fits, belief in the Cycle Theory is not required to see that what we found was not prothean and appeared to be much older in make.” Liara tried to hedge it. She did not need to lie to anyone about her theory and likewise others were free to believe in another one until she found solid evidence.

Saren looked ready to jump into this particularly old argument when he glanced in Benezia’s direction, clenched his jaw, and ground out in monotone, “As you say.”

Goddess take him and his superiority! Not even a prothean expert, not even a prothean hobbyist! Yet somehow, somehow he managed to sound twice as smug as her jeering peers and senior researchers. The nerve he had—and he asked about it! Liara looked right at her mother, who was still speaking with Shiala, pleading with her eyes. See that I have tried and he has thrown detritus at my feet! 

As you say. Ha!

Liara, instead of voicing any thoughts on the matter, returned to her meal and tried not to glare a hole through it. Saren used his physiology as an excuse, taking a few extra seconds to perfectly place the drinking tube so nothing would spill outside his teeth and mandibles. There was apparently a spot on the ceiling that he particularly disliked as he glared and drank. 

One course finished, the next was brought out; a variety of smoked and pickled meats with broth to dip in. Skewers were provided to Asari and a finger bowl for Saren. Liara noted with suspicion that the clearly marked dextro meats were placed so that Saren would turn to face her as he chose meat, and her levo meats were placed so Liara would turn to face him. It wasn’t even clever, but Liara again made an effort.

Turning in her seat so that she faced Saren at least part way she began again, “It’s been awhile since we actually got to sit down and talk. Has anything of note happened recently, that you can share of course.”

Saren’s smile could have lit a forest on fire, Liara tried to not shrink back at it. “Yes, although it is not polite dinner conversation. What I can say is that I travelled into Batarian space as part of the assignment. I was able to spend some time on Aratoht, a nice planet for all intents and purposes. The food was wonderful and they had one of their throat singers perform for us. Have you heard Batarian throat singers before Liara?”

She, in fact, had. Liara had been an unfortunate target of her roommate’s psychological conditioning experiment. Every morning at exactly 4:22 she would play the Htkix, an ancient Batarian throat chant. Liara would wake in panic. Liara had figured it was hazing and didn’t want to look like a spoiled child so she put up with it. Soon enough Liara found herself naturally waking at around 4:15 in the morning with her pillow already protectively wrapped around her head. Her roommate had quietly recorded her findings to present to her class. Liara still associated that style of singing with pain, and the pure embarrassment of being used to make a humorous experiment.

“No, although I have heard that they are…unique. Similar to the Asari Scream Songs in the way they can make you feel. What did you think?” Liara tried to casually lie even as she tried to not clench her jaw or rub at her head.

“Unique is a good word, they were perfect for the distraction I needed and added a little something to that mission.” He seemed almost lost in happy thoughts. “Anyways, it was an interesting diversion to a new world for me.”

The third course was served while Saren smiled both viciously and dreamily at the opposite wall, and Liara tried to not think about what Saren had done. Decorative flaky rolls defied gravity in a mountain while baked fish and rhikksha arrived on a bed of greens. Saren was served bugat, which Liara found distasteful considering their slogan. Then again she supposed it fit the man who ate it rather well.

As if she could sense her thoughts, Benezia glared briefly in Liara’s direction.

This was going to be a very, very long night.

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How did FNAF and the surrounding community impact you when you were young? Were you with it from the very beginning?

Would you guys be surprised if I said it was FNaF and Minecraft that first got me into writing?

The year was 2015. FNaF 3 was still on its way, and I was a 11-12 year-old gremlin who loved reading. I remember searching for sites to post books and coming across a little place called Nyah! Fanfiction, a brazilian portuguese space for... Well. Fanfic. And I made my little account in there and started reading TONS of fanfiction, including, of course, FNaF.

That's when I came across a little story where we could send in our own OCs to be characters in there. It was being updated every day and I think it was sitting at chapter 3 when I first read it. Me, being super excited, immediately commented and told the author how much I LOVED that thing, and submitted my OCs. It wasnt long until me, the author and other readers formed an actual and genuine friend group! We were all tweens who loved writing, and I believe I would have never got too far into writing if it wasnt for our friendship!

We are still friends to this day, despite falling out with some of the og group members, and these beautiful weirdos I call friends all know about the things I have been doing in this Tumblr! FNaF made me meet some of my best friends for life, and hopefully one day we'll all be able to meet IRL and be silly together.

The fan theories, fanart and the community present during the FNaF 1-6 era forever shaped me, and I cannot thank the existence of this weird game with an infuriatingly confusing story enough. I may not be as close with the community as I once was but I'll forever cherish it.

Also for the love of God why the fuck did they bring William back after UCN. Why. It was the PERFECT ending and they BROUGHT HIM BACK–