#Honestly it’s much better than I remember tbh maybe I appreciate it more now

[banpaiiya]

first time rereading KOTLC in years . god help me

[hwashotcheeto]

Have you ever thought of villain Hwa? Maybe he's like also a tiny bit in the Mommy Hwa role but he's super angry at the world for not returning the huge amount of love he has for them and his tiny fists get angry n stuff- and then he decides to have revenge on "selfish" people who aren't really what he thought they would be with the amt of love he gave them... (it's pretty dark and scary) and then and then- someone helps him realize that despite the darkness in the world and how he has a right to feel that way there still is light and they bring his cute heart back to a safe and more secure place- while both y/n or oc or however become justice seekers or some kind of superheroes or smth and Hwa and y/n are satisfied at the end of the day

And when they get home y/n turns around bc she thinks she heard someone crying quietly (it's Hwa) and then he just hugs her and thanks her "for taking care of Mommy bc he really needed it"

I decided to drop this at the front desk of the library bc I love all of ur sweet and beautiful Hwa things...

First off, thank you for sending this in, darling. 💜 Thank you for the sweet words as well.

Secondly, I am a villain Hwa enthusiast (Tbh, I've put this man into so many roles, he could be Barbie). And if anything, I know this feeling all too well, so I'll gladly make something with this.

And just so we're all on the same page, when we say Villain Hwa, this is who I imagine

WC: 2k (wow she's long)

CW: Angst, mostly, but fluffy towards the end, vague descriptions of gore and throwing up, and one "Mommy" at the very end (lmk if I missed anything)

It's no surprise to anyone that the world is cruel and dark. In general, the world isn't a fun place to be. You'll get a very different answer depending on who you ask.

But for as much as people like you and I will argue that the world has some good in it, it's hard for some people to see it.

Seonghwa, unfortunately, had reached a breaking point.

He gave so much love to the world, to everyone in it, and got nothing in return.

The first few hundred times he was brushed off, he didn't let it get to him. Helping people made him feel happy, and giving love to people made him happy.

To see smiles light up people's faces, to see their eyes light up, was the greatest sight he could imagine. His heart felt full.

But even the most selfless person needs a moment to be selfish.

Seonghwa, alone and abandoned by those who he gave love, snapped. The selfless little voice in his head couldn't take it anymore. Didn't want to take it anymore. To be used and thrown aside, and not even recieve a "thank you" for anything he did.

"Just one!" He cried, tears in his eyes, his hands shaking from anger. "Just one person to say thank you, just one!"

But it was more than just "thank you" that he needed.

Seonghwa's skin craved the feeling of someone else's. If he closed his eyes and concentrated hard enough, he could feel it. Fingertips against his cheek, palms against his chest, arms around his waist.

But not just anyone's. Yours.

You and Seonghwa were lovers. For years, you'd been by each other's side, being each others support, your other half, the piece that completed you.

But why is it all in past tense? Why weren't you here right now, holding him in your arms, telling you how much he loved and appreciated you?

Because you'd left. Not because you didn't love Seonghwa, you loved him more than you'd ever loved anything.

You'd left to train, to be better, to protect him. Honestly, he wasn't hardly listening when you'd told him. All he remembered was that you were leaving, and he wouldn't see you for months.

And it had been months. And you weren't here.

With no way to contact you, or hug you, or even see you, Seonghwa had been spiraling. And he found himself on his knees in his home, completely and utterly drained.

And as he did, he had a revelation. An epiphany. An idea that might make himself feel better.

He'd hurt those who'd hurt him.

Revenge is a fruitless, endless road that will bring you nothing but emptiness, he'd heard before. But he just wanted someone to feel what he felt. To feel what it felt like to be weak, drained, used up, spent.

To make everyone who was so selfish to abuse his kindness suffer.

And never hurt anyone ever again.

Was your departure the catalyst for Seonghwa's shift? No. But it definitely didn't help.

You were standing beside your chief as you looked at the mutilated body of a young man. You were silent and pale as you tried to keep your food in your stomach.

But a breeze pushed the smell of rot into your nose, and it all came up before you could stop it.

"Go sit down, rookie," your chief gruffly said to you, to which you agreed with a nod, trying to wipe your mouth and prevent a second wave from rising up.

You stumbled away from the scene and spit up the rest of the disgusting mixture of bile and breakfast. Months of training don't prepare you for how to not lose your stomach at the sight of gore and the smell of decomposition.

"You'll get used to it," one of the detectives said as you spit into the street. The taste made your stomach churn all over again. You looked at him, and he offered a sympathetic half smile. "If it makes you feel any better, I threw up my first time too."

You nodded and leaned against the building, then slid down onto the ground, hugging your legs.

You'd insisted you could handle this, and it turns out, you can't. You'd left your life, your home, your boyfriend, for this. Because you believed you could do this, and wanted to be useful.

You were starting to see it less and less as the days went on, especially with this.

Your chief came over and made you stand back up, despite still feeling sensitive and nauseous. You tried to focus on what he was telling you, and putting the pieces to the scene and making sense of the details, but it was all foggy.

Until he mentioned something that made you perk up.

"A witness said they heard the name 'Seonghwa,' but it's not the victim's name. There's a high possibility that's our suspect."

Seonghwa?!

Your sweet, loving, charitable, selfless, goofy boyfriend? The boyfriend who cleaned so intensely, you could see your reflection in any surface? The boyfriend who'd cuddle you every night and make sure you fell asleep comfortably?

Seonghwa couldn't have been the one to murder and mutilate a man.

Much less someone you thought he considered a friend.

It couldn't be him.

It couldn't be...

Five unsolved murders later, you were losing your mind.

Five, FIVE, in one MONTH. And they were all tied to Seonghwa. They were all killed the same way, torn apart the same way, left in a mess the same way.

How could this be the same man you loved?! How could he have done this?! What had happened, why was he going after all of his friends?!

Your numerous calls to him hadn't worked, your desperate attempts to catch him hadn't worked either.

Honestly, you weren't sure if you wanted to find him in this state. If he was tearing apart his friends, would you be a victim too?

There was no discernable motive anyone could find, so it was a possibility that plagued your mind for the weeks he was out there.

You slept with your gun in your bedside table. It pained you to even think about hurting the man you loved.

But you had to protect yourself. You wouldn't turn into a number. A victim.

It turns out that keeping the gun beside you was a good move. But not because you were the target.

It was raining. No, storming. Thunder claps and lightening had kept you awake, alongside the paranoia and fear.

Amidst all that, you heard screaming outside your bedroom window. Living in the city, it wasn't anything new, but this was different. Running, then footsteps, then more screaming. A sound of someone being tackled. A struggle.

You shot up out of bed and grabbed your gun, hastily pulling on a mismatched outfit of clothes before you threw open your apartment window and looked into the alleyway below.

Just as you'd feared, it was him. Seonghwa, your love, your world, had someone pinned to the ground underneath him. You recognized him, he was another one of Seonghwa's friends. He already had blood on his face from an injury you couldn't see.

Your heart was pounding so hard, it could've exploded. You climbed out of your window and onto the fire escape before you screamed:

"SEONGHWA, STOP!"

To your surprise, he did. He stopped and whipped his head around, looking up at you. And despite the position he was in, he smiled so big when he saw you.

"Love! I mis-"

"PARK SEONGHWA, WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!" You screamed again, starting to run as carefully as you could down the slippery fire escape. His face and heart dropped, but he couldn't be surprised.

As you made your way down to the ground, his would be victim had escaped. And as he ran off, you saw the Seonghwa that had been doing all this.

Dead, dark eyes stared him down as he left. He had a blade in his hand, his shaking hands. His was face twisted into an anger you'd never seen. Not anger, rage. It scared you, it terrified you.

How could this be the man you'd left behind all those months ago?

Seonghwa looked at you, and the monster of rage disappeared. His eyes were bright, his face was soft. He put the blade away as he properly turned to you.

But neither of you said anything. You had too many words to say to him. He had no way to explain himself.

More than anything, you wanted to hug him. You wanted to tell him you still loved him, you missed him, you wanted to go home with him. But now you knew their was this angry, evil dark side of him.

You didn't know if you felt safe with him.

So you asked the one question that'd been in your mind since this started:

"Why?"

And Seonghwa opened his mouth to answer you, but nothing came out. He started thinking, then closed his mouth.

A few seconds later, he burst into sobs and dropped to his knees, covering his face with his hands.

What had he done? What had he become? He wasn't anything like he wanted to be. A murderer. Vengeful.

Selfish.

His selflessness wasn't appreciated by this world, by the people in it. He'd hated it, hated those who took him and used him, who made the world seem so much darker and crueler than he'd ever seen.

And what did he do? He made it worse. He took lives. Hurt people. Hurt himself.

It was true. Revenge is a fruitless, endless road that will bring you nothing but emptiness.

You knelt in front of him and pulled Seonghwa's hands away from his face. He stared at the ground, still sobbing.

"I was tired," he finally rasped out.

"Tired?" You said, exasperated. You felt anger start to bubble up inside you. "All this because you were tired? All this murder and-"

"I was tired of being used!" Seonghwa sobbed, gripping onto his own jacket.

The rain was coming down harder now. Buckets of water were pouring over the both of you, your clothes completely soaked through.

"I did so much SO MUCH, and I never got anything! No one told me if they appreciated me, if they loved me, if they even liked me!"

Seonghwa was shaking now, his words coming out as broken gasps and sobs.

"I gave so much love! So much love to selfish people who wasted it! Just once, I wanted someone to tell me I was good, that I was okay, to prove the world wasn't such an awful, cruel, disgusting-"

You threw your arms around his neck and hugged him tighter than you'd ever hugged him. Seonghwa didn't skip a beat, he hugged you back and cried into your neck.

The love he'd been begging for was here. The touch he'd been craving. And oh, it felt better than he could've ever imagined.

"You are good, Seonghwa," you whispered. "You are good, you are kind, you are loving." You choked back your own tears as you spoke.

You hated the world for what it had turned your boyfriend into. Your sweet and selfless boyfriend had become a monster.

And it could've all been prevented from a hug. A simple recognition that he was loved. Wanted. Needed.

"I love you, Seonghwa," you whispered.

He hugged you tighter and bawled like a baby.

The world cried with you both. Buckets of rain, drenching you both, thunder shaking the buildings and lightening showing flashes of the sun in the night.

It could've been hours that you were in each other's arms, on the ground in the alley. It could've been days. Time wasn't important.

But you both knew you had to run. You abandoned your training for him. You saw what he'd become without you.

As you stepped back into Seonghwa's house, he hugged you tight again, from the back, nuzzling into your rain soaked skin.

"Thank you," he whimpered. "Thank you...for taking care of me."

You turned around in his arms and held his face with both your hands. Seonghwa's eyes were as you remembered them. Big, round, soft, gentle. They held the moon and stars in them.

You wiped the tears and rain off his cheeks. "Anything for you, Mommy."

Oof, that was a lot. I felt a lot of myself in that, I've been feeling underappreciated lately too.

I hope this wasn't too far off from what you wanted, @peppermintlattelover, I tried to stay in-line with the prompt as best I could. The more I wrote, the more I liked where it was going, but I hope you like it too.

With that being said, thank you for reading! Please reblog if you enjoyed! 💜

This is a work of fiction written by me. This does not represent the idol in any way. Any re-upload is not allowed and will be reported.

[the-cookie-of-doom]

Regarding the split!Kim AU I'm just gonna put my ramble of thoughts out on here.

1. Okay so what events led to Kim wanting to remove his younger self? What inner turmoil, self depreciating nonsense thoughts did he put himself through?

2. Where did Kim find this magic spell and how did he follow through with it without searching for it's consequences/side effects? Did he go down a black hole on the web and found the most reviewed witch/ spell out there to help him? Idk how to words more on this brainrot

3. How long was it till Kim hid what he did and how did young!Kim reach the compound??

4. What all young!Kim must be thinking and what did he do that everyone in the compound realized something was wrong? (Plus I hope Korn is dead in this, he doesn't deserve to be alive)

5. What was Chays reaction to young!Kim and how he takes care of him and spends time with him? (just being the most loving, and Kim feels so touched and full of unknown feelings because Chay?? the love of his life?? accepts and appreciates and treats young!Kim like he's the most precious in this entire world???)

6. Young!Kim's reaction to finding out about Wik? Is he shocked/ surprised/ wonderstruck? In complete awe of himself of the future?

7. How does Kim behave with young!Kim? Is he hesitant at first? But then he sees the way everyone else treats him and has Feelings™ and then thinks (a lot) and maybe something happens like some new stupidass bodyguard shouting at/ hurting young!Kim and Kim just snapping out on him, completely pissed off and in the worst rage he could ever have, completely protecting young!Kim like who tf you think you are?? How dare you??

Okay I think that's all for now, sorry for the spam of Randomness™😅

(yes i typed this up in my notes first so i don't accidentally lose anything.)

Anon darling I'm kissing you on the forehead, you're hitting so many of my story points with these asks! I feel Seen.

I haven't decided what Kim specifically does/feels that makes him want to do this in the first place. Since I started the fic where it's already happened, I just kinda. Handwaved it. But he does comment on the fact that Chay has been pushing him towards therapy, so that's probably part of it. Kim would rather lose all his memories than talk about his feelings. He's also 2 years into dating Chay (which honestly. That's bc I wanted baby Kim to be 13, and aging Kim up to 23 gave me an easy 10 years to work with. Tbh it would work better if Kim were only a few months into dating Chay and he was willing to do anything to Be A Good Person/Boyfriend/makeup for the breakup. BUT I DIGRESS!) Anyway being with Chay makes Kim want to be/feel better, and this is his nuclear solution. It does not work.

I also don't know how he did it! I... hesitate to write white pagan magic in KP fics. Maybe Kim pulled a Porsche and went to a monk for help dealing with his traumas, and ended up with a modified past life ritual that ended up splitting him right down the middle. The most important side effect is the way Kim feels about his brothers now; Tawan trauma happened when Kim was a little older, so the Kinn his child self remembers is still very loving and happy, he hasn't pulled away yet. But for adult Kim, who's memories start when he was a teenager... there was so much distance between him and his brothers, and then he moved out a couple years later, so he feels like they're practically strangers to him. Like really distant family that you only see at weddings and funerals. Meanwhile kid!Kim is a precocious little smol who's cuddling both of them whenever he can. (Khun loves it, Kinn has no idea what to do with it but he loves it too. Adult Kim is jealous but wouldn't know how to accept affection from them.)

It all happens pretty much the next day/couple days later, as of the current time line! Kim goes to the temple and does his thing. Kid!Kim manifests wherever he was when the memory split happens; so he just. Wakes up somewhere in the middle of Bangkok, and has to find his way back to the compound. Meanwhile KimChay are living in his condo, obliviously going about their lives. It takes a while for Kid!Kim to get home, then he's sneaking all around because things are different and he doesn't understand why (and he keeps stabbing people, but like. stabby the Roomba more than murder); Kinn has to find him/calm him down/get Porsche involved and figure out what's going on before anyone thinks to call Chay (who's been busy having sex with adult Kim lol)

Korn is dead! Bc I'm lazy and didn't want to think about all the terrible things he could do to mess with smol Kim! Like I said, Kim is kind of a feral cat just let loose in the compound, surrounded by people he doesn't know and freaking out a lot, until the guards finally get him cornered in his old room and notify Kinn. Then eventually Chay gets a call from Porsche, and he goes to the compound with adult Kim, and it's a whole Thing.

Chay absolutely adores kid!Kim. He's absolutely feral but he's also a cutie pie, and he gets a crush on Chay quick. Chay loves it; he was such a lovestruck kid with Kim, now it's his turn! (And he teases adult Kim soo much about how he like likes him >,<). Adult Kim is weird with his younger self at first, bc as far as he's concerned, this may as well be a random child. So Chay schlorps him up quick bc the poor kid needs love. And Kim does come to appreciate the way Chay takes care of his younger self (he has some very odd memories about it when they're eventually reunited.)

My goodness, young Kim is so excited. At that age, he had all these dreams about the life he wished he could have, but he never thought it would really happen. But he got away from his father, he gets to chase his dreams of making music, he has a (very cute!!) boy that loves him, that he gets to love in return. It's all his dreams come true. Again, Chay thinks this is adorable, that Kim was such a dreamy little kid. (Kim is also so excited when he finds out that!! Chay lets him write songs about him!! that's so cool!!! And Chay writes him songs too!?!?!)

Like I said, at the start kid Kim may as well be some random child, he's vaguely curious about what happened but has no personal investment (kid Kim might be. a little. heartbroken about that. He's very sensitive.) But overtime Kim warms up to him, learns how to love him and take care of him. It's seeing this as someone else, rather than himself, that allows him to "forgive" himself. It's easy to blame himself for all the bad parts of his life when he's not looking that poor kid in the eyes. And bc I think cuddles are important, and Kim definitely wasn't hugged enough as a child, there's many snugs. There are still Mafia Things going on around all this that Kim has to deal with, so kid Kim spends a lot of time with Chay and his brothers, but there are a lot of times where he's asleep between KimChay. He kind of is like their kid in some ways. It's an odd dynamic for Kim, especially when he gets those memories of being cuddled by himself and Chay?? But ultimately it's a good thing for him. (Except the Porsche memories. He doesn't want those 😤)

These were so much fun, thank you for sending them!! I love talking about this AU <3<3<3

[svedupelle]

@srdcovka u didnt ask but here u go

All Twenty One Pilots Albums ranked

so basically i used to be a big big tøp fan and then i completely stopped listening to them. and now over the past week i listened to their entire discography (including albums i hadnt heard before)

and ive been thinking about it and need to talk about it so u will be my victim. pöwase be excited

1. Trench

Trench is by leagues and miles the best of their albums. which isnt to say that the rest are bad, there are bangers in the others, but Trench is just better.

It's more rock-y than the rest, which definitely helps it (imo). the tracks have a heavy sound and i think every single one is a banger in one way or another (except for The Hype. it's fine it's just markedly not as good as the rest. i have beef with this song for NO REASON OKAY its just not as good).

the album itself is a concept-album about some kind of religious dystopian society and our protagonist is trying to leave it yadayadayada.... i never paid any attention to that stuff aside from the most surfacw level facts lol. but thats the neat part, you dont need to know anything really in order to appreciate it, even though some of the songs make references (but Nico and the Niners and Bandito are still rly good. NatN is honestly one of my favorites)

so yea Trench good

2. Vessels/Self-Titled

frankly Trench is much betrer than the rest that i struggled even picking a second place LMAO

Vessel and the self-titled album are their first two albums, and the ones that differ the most in terms of style from the later albums. Self-titled has very... amateurish-sounding instrumentals, kinda garage-bandy, but i dont even think thats a bad thing, cause it pairs well with tyler joseph's singing voice at the time, which is rawer. Vessel is a step up in production but it's got growing pains before they reach their Blurryface pop sound, Vessel is still a bit more... reggae-ish?? idek.

one thing is that both of these albums deal very directly with the bands general subjects (religion, mental health and the like) which, combined with the general sound can make them sound rather dramatic and angsty. its very much peak depressed teenager music. this is where i'd place self-titled over Vessel, not bwcause it has less of this, but because i think i appreciate it more there. the lyrics in self-titled are a lot more allegorical and almost poetic(Implicit Demand for Proof, March to the Sea and Addict with a Pen for example), whereas Vessel takes a more direct approach, which kinda backfires and makes the lyrics sound melodramatic in a way (i cant listen to Migraine tbh).

but this really isnt to say that they dont have bangers. the aforementioned tracks from Self-titled are my favorites there (but u can add Ms Believer to the list as well), and Vessel has Holding On to You and Trees which are really good. Ode To Sleep and Car Radio kinda depend on my mood, but they can be p good as well. all in all if Trench is a 10 then these are like... 7s? yea

3. Blurryface/Clancy

these two are also tied. maybe Clancy's a little lower.

Blurryface is a frustrating album to me. it has two tracks i like a lot (Heavydirtysoul and Lane Boy) while the rest vary from Fine (like the Judge) to oh my god turn off the fucking radio (Doubt is a 0/10 and you would have to torture me to listen to Stressed Out again). the rest of the songs are honestly... not bad. most are very enjoyable but just not songs i'd ever feel like listening to. which is weird bc i think in that sense, blurryface should rank above Vessel/Self-titled, but i just. cant in good conscience. blurryface is fine. its whatever idk

Clancy is worse only because it has the biggest drop off of all the albums. It starts pretty strong with Overcompensate, Next Semester and Backslide (the best on the album) and then it kinda gradually falls off until Lavish makes it plummet to its death. Paladin Strait is whatever. i genuinely cant remember the rest of the tracks.

BF is a 7 and Clancy is a 6 carried by Backslide and Next Semester

4. iced and scaly

its cover is the best part about it.

genuinely the only songs i even remember off this one are Shy Away and Redecorate. Shy Away is enjoyable and poppy and Redecorate has their typical on the nose lyrics which makes it sound mega depressing. but it does sound good

scaled and icy gets a 3

[destinyc1020]

I’m really sorry that Fran is going through this and I hope that they built a safe environment for her to rehearse and feel protected and loved because she should 🤍

What I’m not getting tho is and please correct me if I’m wrong but did any of her cast-mates post anything about this situation on social media ? I genuinely don’t get why only Tom is getting the hate (I know he’s the most famous out of them) but relationship wise they are all her colleagues and they all share a stage together. Heck some of them are black too so I know for a fact they can put themselves in her shoes and most definitely faced the same issue in their life. I’m quite sure they all said something to her privately and are showing her all the love. I think this was agreed upon that only the production company would release a public statement ?

And lastly I do agree that Tom posting anything now will just worsen the situation. Sorry I ranted on you 😭

Thanks Anon for your input and thoughts on this issue. I appreciate your views.

What I’m not getting tho is and please correct me if I’m wrong but did any of her cast-mates post anything about this situation on social media ?

I'm honestly not sure, because I've been away this weekend, and I've been trying to ignore the negativity online for the past couple of weeks since she was cast tbh. 😔

I'm sure the entire cast however is being supportive. I can't imagine that they aren't.

I genuinely don’t get why only Tom is getting the hate (I know he’s the most famous out of them) but relationship wise they are all her colleagues and they all share a stage together.

Do you remember this quote from the OG Spiderman movies lol? 😅

When someone has great "power" (or, in this case, large amounts of fame and/or privilege), most people tend to expect MORE from that individual. Maybe it's not "fair", but that's usually the case.

Tom is in a position of great fame and privilege, so some (the less privileged) might feel like he should have more of an obligation to stand up for his co-star and protect her since she's most likely even receiving this amount of scrutiny and attention because Tom is in the lead role in this play. Tom also has a HUGE social media following, so him saying something would make more traction than just a producer saying something. Just my guess? 🤷🏾‍♀️

And btw.... we as black people constantly stick up for each other all the time! But we're usually the victims of this type of racist hate.

Victims can only do but so much. It's actually better if those in "power" can speak out about this to their own people and shame them by showing them that this isn't right. To me, that would make more of an impact (imo), but again, you can't force people to speak out on things.

[seedsplease]

Hello! I really loved “the Runaway”! I love the way you write the Seeds dynamic with each other. I think because we never really get all three brothers (much less Faith) interacting with each other together in game that I am always so hungry for writing of them and how they function! Was wondering a few things: 1. Do you plan on making this a series/will we see a continuation of Callie’s story at all? Especially pre-reaping or what happens during the collapse with her? 2. Any more plans to write more of the Seed bros dynamic together? 3. Maybe I missed it (I’ve only read the Runaway once through fully so far) but how old is Callie at the time? I got the vibe she was like 14 but I could be way off! 😆 Anyway your writing is wonderful and have a lovely day! 💖

ahhhhh thank you so much, I'm so happy you enjoyed it! <3 As for your questions:

1) I definitely wanted to leave the door open to write some sort of a continuation. I do have a little bit of a plan to write another fic and yeah one starting just before the game - I have one specific scene in mind just to get the warning bells ringing for Callie - and then afterwards leading into the reaping. I wanted to allude to a few more things that I have in mind for her during the reaping in the runaway but I cut it since I thought it was a bit silly to introduce it when I wasn't entirely certain I was going to write more - I don't like to leave things a bit too unfinished. But I'm definitely encouraged to write more now that I know someone wants to read more <3 <3 Before Rook reunites with her, I intend for Callie to end up in the disturbingly?! competent care of Sharky asdfghj

2) Always! I also really think that it was sad how little we see the brothers and Faith interact during the game, so I like to try and show them interacting when I can. I'd definitely like to write more of their dynamic tbh, but I don't really have any ideas about what to write for a fic that's more Seed bro centric. I think having someone like Callie getting thrown into the mix was fun for me in that sort of regard since it helps me think about how each family member would react to her and that could help frame how I would write them together: Jacob obviously taking his new role seriously etc. Joseph seeing her as a sign from god -and personally I also really liked mentioning that Joseph saw the Jacob he remembers from childhood in Callie. John being eagerly curious about her and honestly I would like to explore his relationship with her a bit more too since I have ideas about how he'd take the uncle role Very Seriously asdfgh. And also alluding to Faith being - understandably I think - quite threatened by a female biological member of the Seeds appearing, since then what if Joseph decides he doesn't need her anymore, since now he has a niece? What if he decides the niece fits the role of Faith better than she does? what then, what does that mean for her? Now realistically, I don't think Joseph would ever entertain the thought of Callie becoming a Faith, nor would Jacob - or even John tbh - allow it even if he did. But Faith is ofc in a very tenuous position and has to be hyper vigilant of any changes and potential threats to her situation. And well, during the Reaping, it would be all too easy for her to ensure an Accident happened if Callie were to wander into her region.

3) My plan for Callie when I first made her back in 2019 was that she'd be about 12 when the Collapse came, but writing the runaway, I definitely was writing her probably a year or two older. I didn't have a specific age in mind, but I was definitely thinking around the 13-15 mark. So I'm glad that was the vibe you picked up on haha!

I've had a rough day so this was so lovely to see, thank you so much for your lovely comments and questions, I really appreciate it and I'm glad you enjoyed my fic!! <3 <3

[purplesurveys]

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1~ What quality do you value most highly in others? Considering the traditional and backwards culture my country is known to live by, I appreciate someone who's open-minded and thinks in a more modern, less discriminating way.

2~ Are you more aggressive or mellow? It depends...this is a very broad question. I can be aggressive when it comes to people or things I deeply care about, and mostly mellow-ly nonchalant towards everything else.

3~ Who has made the biggest sacrifice for you? My parents, easily.

4~ Do you take any vitamins or medication? I don't. Nothing regular.

5~ Do you want to grow old with someone? It would be nice to grow old with my best friend, but I also don't, like, actively pressure her to do so. She has her own future and family to think about, and I don't mind being one of the supporting characters in her arc. It would just be nice to have the rest of our lives together.

6~ Do you treat others better or worse than yourself and why? It used to be 100% better than myself, but I'm slowly starting to prioritize myself now too. That being said, I've started to enforce boundaries and to learn how to say no when I want to.

7~ What sound is annoying you right now? Eh, nothing. It's fairly silent at the moment.

8~ Where was your last vacation to? We had back to back trips to Bulacan, Vietnam, and Tagaytay the last month. My family also booked a last-minute weekend someplace south but I didn't go with as I went to Hans and Angela's engagement party that same time.

9~ Where was your last car ride to? My uncle's new place! He finally moved into the home he's been building and finishing up the last few years and it's beautiful.

10~ Where did you last walk to? Just upstairs, here to my bedroom.

11~ What gives you a peaceful feeling? Rainy weather.

12~ Are you a light sleeper? No, I'm usually nearly impossible to wake up which is why I always need 4-5 consecutive alarms set.

13~ When you sleep next to someone who usually falls asleep first? I get veeeerrryyyy conscious sleeping around other people, so it's usually them.

14~ How many people have a piece of your heart? Like less than 10.

15~ What do your salt and pepper shakers look like? They're not shakers; they're just tupperwares with their own scoops.

16~ When was the last time you hurt yourself? Intentionally? Years ago. Maybe 6 or 7 years ago. Unintentionally – happens a lot, so yesterday would be my best guess.

17~ Would you rather live in the city, suburbs or the country? City. I grew up in the suburbs my entire life and don't know the sound of a bustling city at all. I'd love to be surrounded by it now that I'm at pretty much the peak of my 20s.

18~ Have you ever built something? I'm sure I have.

19~ Are you more of a maker and giver, or a taker and user? Taker and user. I like going by other people's lead.

20~ Do you take naps? Rarely. Only when I'm extremely, extremely beat – like yesterday.

21~ Do you buy holiday gifts early or at the last minute? I always do it last-minute and get stressed every time lol, I never learn.

22~ Do you laugh when there is no joke and dance when there is no music? Dance, yes. But I don't think I've ever laughed out of nowhere. I always at least remember some kind of memory.

23~ If someone else were to describe you what would you hope they would say? That I have been mentally strong. Or thoughtful – that would honestly be nice to hear, too.

24~ What is the dirtiest habit you can think of? Like, of anyone? I saw someone on Reddit say they enjoy cleaning out their shower drain and that the more hair they get out of it, the better. Something I never expected to read that day tbh lol

25~ Do you ever need ‘quiet time’? Absolutely, and I need it more and more these days since there's now so much more demanded of me at my job, with everyone having eyes on my every move. By the end of every fucking week I'm just out and do not want to deal with anything and anyone.

26~ Do you think it is harder for a parent to outlive their child or for the child to outlive their parent? The former definitely, just because that's not usually expected to happen. My aunt had her son (my uncle) pass at 40; there's not a week I don't think of her and how she's doing.

27~ What was your best find from a flea market, garage sale, ebay or thrift? I found a copy of the WWE Encyclopedia in pristine condition at a secondhand book store. Copped that shit i m m e d i a t e l y.

28~ What is one selfish thing you tend to do? Prioritize myself and my feelings.

29~ What kinds of people do you find intimidating? Mostly people who have had more experience than I've had in our industry. It's intimidation coming from a place of respect, though – I try not to be actively scared of them and instead take the opportunity to learn from them no matter what their mentorship style is (unless they are assholes lol, which I won't tolerate. But thankfully I've never had to encounter someone of the sort).

30~ Out of everyone you know who has the most unique personality? Ades probably? He's the kind of smart that almost makes him weird, but I've never found it off-putting. I like hearing his thoughts whenever I can.

31~ When do you do your best thinking? After-work hours, ie anytime after 6 PM; or on the weekends – which is the time I get to think without needing to worry about deadlines.

32~ What was a choice that you didn’t want to make but you had to? Choosing to move on from my ex four years ago; I genuinely thought there was still a chance we could get back together. I was desperate and delusional at the start, trying to still keep up conversations with her whenever I could and thinking that any reply from her was progress in the direction I wanted. Soon enough I realized that she wanted nothing to do with me anymore and seemed perfectly fine and free without me, and that made it much easier to move past.

33~ Have you ever written a letter to a soldier? No.

34~ What does your favorite coffee mug look like? It's just a plain black glass mug.

35~ What age do you think it is most difficult to be? From my own observation of others around me, 25 seems to be quite the hurdle. Everyone seems to be so pressured and is doing a bunch of stuff to overcome the quarter-life crisis...but personally I think I've handled it quite well and am proud of that.

36~ Do you think you could handle a day in jail? I think my anxiety would eat me alive for the better part of it, but it's a day. I think I'd be able to manage, even if barely.

37~ Who is the most overbearing person you know? L.

38~ Have you ever been on a trampoline? Sure.

39~ What do you use batteries for the most often? My Army lightstick, hah.

40~ Would you prefer to wrap your own presents or have them all gift wrapped? I'm terrible at wrapping presents so I either have my sister do it (if we still have time, because I do my gift shopping last minute like I said) or I just buy a bunch of paper bags to put my gifts in.

[from-izzy]

https://www.tumblr.com/from-izzy/741244952356519936/0321-tbz-kim-sunwoo?source=share

you wrote here how hard work didnt betry you. Do you mind telling me your side of the story. i love your stories btw! life has been pretty hard and not a lot of writers write smth thats reltable like yours!

hello hello!! thank you for telling me your thoughts about my stories, i appreciate this so much 🥰 ahhhh...i hope things will get better for you soon 🫂 keep pushing on!!

warnings: mentions of academic struggles, anxiety, panic (sorry this became a rant (and a self-reflection) more than anything tbh...)

so for my uni degree, the first three years is guaranteed in a way that there is no competition. anyone can do the first three years. however, fourth year is the hardest part. a lot of people say to get into fourth year, you basically need to score about 80% to even be considered for fourth year and even then, there's no guarantee. so, this bummed me out so bad. i remember going to uni thinking if this is right for me because if it isn't, then wouldn't i have just spent my first three years for nothing? i just didn't know how i would feel like if i reached the end of third year and then realised that i didn't get into fourth year. i also remember looking for other postgraduate courses i could apply to because my confidence was so low and in my head, i just had to prepare for everything.

i had a backup plan for my backup plan that was a backup plan for my first backup plan.

but the thing that changed me were: am i giving up when nothing has started? even when this has been my dream job for the past four years (at the time)? i even moved high schools so that my chances to get into university was higher, and now that i'm here, i'm going to give up now? after all the things i've been through, am i going to stop just because i'm scared of something that i can somewhat control?

i kept going then. then i heard about this degree that guarantees students to get into fourth year as long as i reach their minimum mark. i only knew about this degree mid year and i asked how i could move and they said i have to be invited 😭 the requirements was high. the lecturer said to aim for a 90-95% average in all my units. now, i want to dream big but at the time, i was sitting on an 86% and i knew i wouldn't get 90% (or at least not easily and i was not prepared to sacrifice my mental health for this) 😭 i remember accepting that i was just meant to compete for fourth year and i just kept going. kept studying as i did before.

and then at the end of first year, i got an offer to move. and i thought "...oh." AND I REMEMBER I WAS ABOUT TO REJECT IT 😭 BECAUSE THE 'TRADEOFF' WAS BIG (ie. compulsory units, study abroad (as mentioned in the fic!!) etc.) and like i mentioned before, i had backup plans and i think admist my panicking and anxiety, i fell in love with the jobs that the backup plans could offer me. but then my friends and family reminded the past me that would love this more than anything and with their support, even if maybe i don't want to go to this specific fourth year in this major, the title of my new bachelor degree is really good as it mixes theory, research and job experiences in the real world in an undergraduate degree.

so, i ended up accepting it and...i don't want this to seem like "yay! my life is great now! woohoo!!" because these compulsory units are hard 😭 and i honestly have moments when i just want to contact the office and be like "hey! respectfully and kindly, transfer me back please!!"

another thing about this is that, now that i'm accepted in this, i'm scared of failing even more now. i think it'll hurt me a lot and it'll take a big hit on me if i do considering that i feel like i sacrificed a lot.

but hey...if i do my best, what else can i do at that point? what regrets will i have if i tried my very hardest? i don't know what the future holds for me. i could fail. i could pass. but what i DO know is that i don't know. and because of that, i'll keep doing my best.

but this is my story 🫂 it seems kind of made up now that i read it and people can believe that if they want to 😅 but this is me and my story!! i hope you're doing well anon! you can do this!! 🥹

[fonulyn]

I don't know if this'll make things feel better or worse but the whole remake hype train was what got me into the resi series, my new fav ship and introduced me to the original. Honestly, i've come to appreciate the original a lot more and i honestly like some parts better than the remake. (you're right hand comes off? - absolutely iconic)

I do understand how it feel when something your into for so long gets a new installment or addition that drastically changes things up in fandom. I think i'd feel exactly the same way as you if I was introduced to re4 earlier. You're feelings are perfectly valid and i'm sorry that your enjoyment of things in fandom has not quite been the same.

I am planning on using more of the og canon and stuff in some of my upcoming fanworks. I love how in fan fiction you can pick and chose the pieces you like best and create something new and exciting:) Also, although the new game is what got me into resi, seeing that original knife fight scene on yt is what got me into metaltango! Some of my favorite metaltango works i've read were either based on the og canon or came out long before the remake. So I just wanted to say that love and appreciation for the original is not completely dead, although it seems like the newer installment has taken over things a bit.

I hope you feel better soon, I know how taxing it feels to have creative or motivational slumps in life. I don't really know if there's anything to be said to make things feel better in the moment, but I've found that trying out something new or taking a break can help a bit. ♥️ (i'm not intending to give unsolicited advice or anything, these are just some or my experiences)

first off, the most important thing: "your right hand comes off?" is 100% brilliant and one of the best lines in video games ever :'D

it's absolutely awesome that the remake has gotten new people into the fandom and like i said, it's probably a really nice game with really nice characters! it's just so... everywhere right now 😅 i've been trying to blacklist it so i won't at least need to see it so much but people aren't really tagging so most of the time 90% of my dash is the remake. i think if it wasn't so in-my-face all the time i wouldn't feel so bothered by it tbh. (and i don't even remember when i last read metaltango bc it's so remake focused now, and that makes me sad)

and you're 100% right, appreciation for the original is not completely dead! which is of course very lovely. and maybe in time, things'll even out a bit, and the original will start appearing more in fandom spaces too. let's see if i manage to hang on that long :')

and thank you 💖 (don't worry, much appreciated!) you're objectively completely right that taking a break or finding new things would probably be good for me. i'm just kinda scared because the last time i "took a small fandom break" i ended up not writing a single word for over three years and i'm legit afraid it'll happen again. it'd be miserable. even moreso than i am right now anyway.

[veggiecorner]

Honestly, I think that guy is just really autistic... and I say this as an autistic person. He obviously has no filter at all. I wish he would stop tagging people all the time and starting things constantly under every single post. There will never be the hard confirmation he wants, like you say totk and ss is as far as it will probably ever go.

Like, I really can't see them *ever* doing more than the strong subtext they put in totk. I'd be surprised if they even get *close* to doing something similar again. Having the princess move into his house and having Link bridal carry her shirtless, etc, was already honestly kind of explicit by E for Everyone Nintendo standards lol. I never even expected them to go so far with it. I expected them to have destroyed the hateno house with sky island debris, or had her live with Impa, or something like that. I wasn't expecting straight up fanservice for all the post-botw fanfiction and fanart made over the years. Someone on the development team was clearly browsing zelink on pixiv (well, some old totk interview even said that the team loved all the botw fanart and it kept them going through totk's development, so I'm like 99% sure that's actually true even lol). But they'll never just come out and say "this is canon" straight up into the camera and we need to accept that.

Honestly, I'm guessing they will probably make the next zelink more platonic if anything after how much they pushed them with ss and botw/totk. I'm a huge romantic zelink lover, botw/totk zelink is my favorite, but I honestly *want* the next versions to be platonic so that there is an actual contrast between versions of them between games (and ok, maybe part of me selfishly doesn't want my beloved enemies-ish-to-lovers tragic royalty x servant to domestic fluff zelink to be upstaged by a zelink that acts obnoxiously less subtle with their feelings and therefore have people call them "better" but that's irrelevant)

I haven't honestly looked into his account - but tbh he's not the only one? I just notice it with him a lot and i'm like "please please separate Zelda from shipping. u can appreciate Princess Zelda outside of her theorized relationship with Link" (this is more of like...a dig at people in general who make shipping be everything when it comes to a character..especially female characters because now I'm struggling to still do a deep dive into Mipha's character without people immediately screaming about how her relationship with link is canon)

anyways fandom behavior aside lowkey i agree? The thing is that even if developers came out and was like "We intended zelink to be canon" people are still gonna argue about it (like "wELL THEY DIDN'T HUG OR KISS ON SCREEN") so tbh its not even worth fighting about it - coming from a fire emblem fan lmao yes I still remember the sumia incident

I lowkey want the next "zelink" to be platonic because...idk the same reason as you. Changing it up. I miss WW zelda and Link's dynamic because to me they're besties and are goofy. if the next one is romantic then they better get a hell of a good story because they already covered the childhood romance and the dramatic slowburn with skyward sword and botw/totk (and tragic "what ifs" from OoT but you didn't hear it from me!!!!!). That being said I would be disappointed if it was on the level of Twilight Princess so idk some sort of connection between them would be nice

[hollysoda]

On a bit of a tier list kick and realised “goddamn I’ve played a lot of different Mario Kart games recently” so decided to rank them :D

Notes below:

Idc what anyone says Mario Kart 8 Deluxe is the most fun I’ve had playing any of these. “But it’s so much easier” “but the booster course is just a cash grab” I don’t care!! I enjoy it!! There so many tracks to choose from and all of their soundtracks are so goddamn good!! Plus the booster course is slowly improving the character roster which is amazing!! I know it’s the old “new=good” thing but this time it’s true I’m sorry

On the other hand, Mario Kart Wii. I’m nostalgic I’m sorry but can you really blame me when this game literally ruled my childhood from ages 5-10? So many cool and iconic nitro tracks and the best character roster in the whole series. I’d love to play it again if my wii remotes weren’t broken

Okay so I didn’t remember all that much about Mario Kart DS. I knew I had it when I was a kid but other than a few courses I had mostly forgotten about the game, but I bought it second hand the other day and omg. This game slaps. It’s so fucking fun and I can’t believe I forgot about it. Straight to top A tier

Mario Kart 7 is also probably a nostalgia based pick tbh but it was the game that actually made me play Mario Kart properly. I learned to drift in MK7 and overall appreciated the competitive side of the series a lot more. Also it has my all time favourite track, Melody Motorway :) (or Music Park for Americans)

Honestly the only reason I enjoyed Mario Kart 64 as much as I did was because it’s so fucking chaotic and brutal to the point where it’s funny. Drifted too far? Approached the jump awkwardly? Oops you’re now facing backwards and in last place! Some of the courses are ridiculously long *cough* Rainbow Road which lowers it

Probably a bit controversial but I do enjoy Tour. I haven’t played in over a year but late 2021 - mid 2022 I played it to DEATH because one of my irls got me back into it and coincidentally this was a pretty rough period in my life, so I do owe it one for keeping me stable. Kinda sucked that they got rid of the gatcha feature though :(

Mario Kart Super Circuit is really tricky for me but I really like the graphics. That’s probably it’s only saving grace lmao. Maybe I just find the GBA era of pixel graphics to be endearing idk. It has the same level of brutality as N64 but nowhere near as fun

I have played the arcade game a few times in amusements and it is fun :) that’s it. I don’t play it enough to actually have a proper opinion.

Og Mario Kart is very annoying and the tracks and boring. If I see their asses as a retro track I am not happy >:(

Never owned a Wii U so I never played the og Mario Kart 8 but all I know is that MK8D vastly improved on a lot of its flaws over the years so ultimately it is just better. Also I desperately want to play Double Dash (please add GameCube games to the switch Nintendo holy shit) and I would rank it high because all the tracks that have been turned into retro tracks are so so fun.

[welcometogrouchland]

Amphibia and The Owl House for the ask! also hope your stomach gets better :(

Yippee my shows!! Also yeah I feel better now I just had to lie down for a while and drink a lot of water 👍

For TOH:

The first character I first fell in love with: ooh that's a toughie! I binged the first season right before s2 started airing so my memories are fuzzy. Maybe...Lilith or Willow? Luz hadn't quite cemented herself as my fav until season 2 and subsequent rewatches

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: probably Amity? I went into season 1 knowing she had a redemption but when I saw her in her first appearance it was on SIGHT. I really warmed up to her though over the course of the show, and now I enjoy her a lot! I'm proud of how far she's come. Also probably Caleb bc we knew so little about him at first that I didn't see how he could become a fan favorite for anyone. Then Hollow Mind happened and. You get it. OH WAIT LAST ANSWER FOR THIS- Camila! Not because I ever thought she was a bad mom but because I didn't think they'd give a parent character so much depth. I love what they did with her in seasons 2 and 3 so much

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: uhh maybe Belos?? In certain circles at least. Interesting guy but I don't have much fondness/affection for him, y'know? Or Alador. He's aight but clouds on the horizon made him a bit...flat, for me. Also this is less of a thing now but not too long ago BOSCHA oh my god. Ppl acting like the show not spending time on her was a failure like. Okay! Sure! Let's just say things now, ig! I much prefer what they did with her in ftf. It's not redemption exactly but it's acknowledgment that she's just a kid. A shitty kid but still

The character I love that everyone else hates: KIKIMORA MAN. I know I know I'm also mad they spent all of follies at the coven day parade building her up as potentially sympathetic only to steer away from that route again and again as if they changed their mind BUT. I fucking love this horrible fail creature. No backbone, no morals, no prospects, no bitches. Beefing with teenagers and exiled from her family home and place of business. Pathetic. Get her ass!!!

The character I used to love but don’t any longer: oh that's a complicated one. I know I also said she grew on me unexpectedly but the answer to this one might also be Amity. Not in the sense that I stopped liking her, but in the sense that other characters caught my attention more as time went on. Rip to Amity, still love u. I am just a Willow and Luz girlie

The character I would totally smooch: most of the women I am being real with you this show is overflowing with cute character designs

The character I’d want to be like: honestly? Eda. Yeah she's got problems and she's not the ideal mentor you'd expect but she's just such a cool confident older woman who doesn't let ppl control her life

The character I’d slap: I'd say Belos but that'd be too obvious (and rewarding). Instead imma say Boscha. This is not the right way to deal with highschool bullies but I do not care. This isn't about her. This is about me. And I wanna slap her just a wee bit. It's fine I'm not that much older than her I'm allowed to

A pairing that I love: sigh. Hubtlow

A pairing that I despise: b*schlow. Bully/victim ships I hate thee. Loathe thee, even. Also I definitely don't despise it but can I please stop getting l*nter jump scared. I don't go there let me out. Stop putting it on my feed

NOW FOR THE FROG SHOW AHAHA!!!

The first character I first fell in love with: unsure tbh! Maybe Polly but I know she definitely wasn't as violent/funny at the beginning of the series. Probably Anne or (depending on how fast I binged, I cannot remember) maybe Sasha

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Anne or Sasha I think! Both start off as like. Semi-unlikeable characters (Sasha more so than Anne), which I appreciate now in retrospect, but at the time I couldn't picture myself getting as invested in them as I got. Also. How would you guys feel if I said andrias (I DIDN'T WANNA LIKE HIM. EVEN WHEN HE WAS BEING A JOLLY GOOFBALL I KNEW THE OTHER SHOE HAD TO DROP AND I WAS PREPARED TO HATE HIM. AND THEN THEY INTRODUCED DARCY AND GAVE US THIS NEW DYNAMIC AND CONTEXT AND JUST. MAN!!!)

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: okay, it's not that I don't love her, but Marcy is definitely my least fav in the calamity trio. Again, not because I dislike her, I just like Anne and Sasha a lot more, y'know?

The character I love that everyone else hates: tbh I'm not in the fandom enough to know who is and isn't hated. Was Sasha ever hated? Maybe by some but idk

The character I used to love but don’t any longer: don't think this one really applies to anyone in amphibia? A weird one that kinda matches is I used to think valeriana was like. Mysterious and cool and then they didn't do much with her after the second temple and I was like. She's just kinda there now, huh?

The character I would totally smooch: IDK MAN THE SHOW IS 90% FROGS AND PRETEENS!!!! I AM NOT KISSING THEIR ASSES THEY ARE SLIMY (THE PRETEENS INCLUDED!)

The character I’d want to be like: again, 90% of them are frogs or preteens. Maybe Anne? I like how far she's come and how far she's still willing to go at the end, turning down ultimate power in the name of keeping the world safe and staying with the people she loves. Also I want cool anime powers /j

The character I’d slap: Sasha but only if it was s1-s2 Sasha bc I love her and I feel like she needs it. Girl. Get a grip

A pairing that I love: hehehe sashanne <3

A pairing that I despise: DON'T SHIP THE HUMAN GIRLS WITH FROGS. THAT FEELS LIKE THE EASIEST THING MAN!!!

[fearevillikefire]

Tbh i dont even like not like us... i mean for one thing euphoria was a much much better song. Like much better. I understand not like us is more memorable but what does that matter. i feel like people prefer not like us because it has more of diss energy but then compared to like the greatest diss songs of all time its just not all that good... like i just come back to hit em up. because the thing with not like us is it has these jarring and weird moments that take you out of it so much.. especially that part like 'hey drake they're not slow' it's just like man it's not a bad song but you can tell it was rushed which is fine but it isn't most grammies of all time worthy imo. I mean im not any sort of expert on production but you can just tell the production was rushed too, it's nowhere near the kinda quality you expect from kendrick's music and it suffers bad in comparison to euphoria. also since im talking about him GNX is a good album but it's so not for me right now lol.. if this had come out when i was in middle or high school i would've been real happy but ehhh. anyways i think I'll always prefer good kid mad city over anything else he releases but maybe i just need to sit with the newer stuff longer.. i respected mr morale but never got into it, conceptually i like it but ehh. it's weird cause good kid and damn and to pimp a butterfly are some of my top albums of all time since i was a middle schooler lol but at the same time i listened to logic a lot.. back then i really liked music about struggling cause i was struggling, i was also obsessed with rap, so that's kinda what i naturally gravitated towards.. i know it's stereotypical and shallow when white people say shit like i learned to understand the black experience because of kendrick lamar😫 but it is true i learned to give a fuck from listening to his music all the time from like 12 years old on.. like there's not a chance i would've known anything about antiblack racism or black culture at that age in my majority white/latino community.. so i always appreciate that... hell i probably wouldn't have understood anything about all kinds of themes in his music, poverty, abuse, sex work, drugs, gangs... now i did only get the perspective shared in that music and the shows i watched and shit but it's better than nothing. i have no explanation for why i loved rap so much, but im glad cause i think im a much smarter and more empathetic person thanks to that as an adult. But i gotta say im glad i never took the christian messages or stupid black israelite crap to heart cause.. that's dumb lol. Lol even 12 year old me knew that was crap. I really was a good kid idk why.. i was definitely real politically correct all my life and i have no explanation why i was never racist or homophobic or anything like that.. shit i was always pretty right on the government and shit too, i learned the fbi was against the black panthers when i was like 13 and ran with it for life i guess.. i wonder if being transgender contributed to this shit but honestly idk. It was hard in middle school cause i was always the 1 lone kid who would call out the racist kids saying racist shit to be 'funny' and back then i didn't understand maturity or anything. I was really hostile to those kids because of that and honestly looking back i probably scared the shit out of them. I wasn't a nice kid at all back then.. being politically correct or whatever didn't make me a good person lol. I was really pretty terrible, mean, angry, avoidant. And i wasn't a good friend to my few friends.. they were just weird unpopular girls basically. And i was pretty wrong for this, but on our last day of middle school i was like im deleting everyone's numbers and we're not going to talk again goodbye forever.. and one of my friends even cried 😕 i don't remember what i even said after that... my reasoning was that i'd come out and transition before high school and i wouldn't be connected to anyone from my past since nobody was going to the same school as me. Pretty dumb idea because idk why i thought i could be stealth

[kisshuhua]

BABYMONSTER - DRIP (Album Review)

Reviewed on November 11th, 2024

I promised and now I’m delivering it. The full review for this confusing clusterfuck of an album is finally here. I’ve always only been halfway enjoying this groups music because being frankly honest most of their songs are half actual music and half shouting random onomatopoeia trying to disguise itself as “rapping”.I’ve been putting off these review for a while due to a multitude of factors but given the group is finally performing on music shows now this would be a semi-good time. So without further ado, let’s get on to the first track.

DISCLAIMER: These songs are organized on the list in the order they come in the official digital album release, not in any other particular order.

1. CLICK CLACK

Remember that part at the beginning of the thread where I said Baby Monster’s songs are half just shouting random onomatopoeia and passing it off as rap? This is like that but on medical marijuana. It feels so fucking slow it’s irritating but the song is short so it feels like they’re singing super fast over a beat moving at a snail’a pace. I don’t know if the PR team at YG noticed yet but putting a vignette filter over your music video, wearing chains, and singing about how much money you have will not earn you brownie points from the black community, especially not me. And hey I’m not opposed to the existence of khh, k-rap, or krnb it’s just that this stuff is probably better done by Yoon Mirae or BIBI.

Overall: 5/10

2. DRIP

It’s honestly pretty okay and better than I expected (though that’s attributed to the fact my expectations weren’t that high). I must point out first before anything that one move in the choreo that makes them look like slugs trying to escape a salt pit is out of place and really not needed for a song of this kind though I enjoyed everything else. I actually really liked Ahyeon’s high note a lot here despite a lot of people not liking it. While we’re on the topic of her anyways I just wanna say her dancing isn’t as bad as before but it could just be better. Is this my favorite title track from the girls? Fuck no, and if I ever say it is just know that’s my evil clone created by the government. But I could definitely see this being on my playlist and I think Baby Monster’s music is actually getting way better than it was before.

Overall: 6.8/10 + 250 Royale High diamonds cuz I’m nice I guess

3. Love, Maybe

This song is pretty good and probably one of my favorites from the album. I don’t really like Ahyeon’s voice here bc she doesn’t really suit these slower BM songs but it’s minor enough to not hinder my enjoyment of it generally. This song is very Charlie Puth-y tbh and I wouldn’t be surprised if he sold his version to YG because he also had a demo version of Like That he ended up giving to YG. I’ve always been a fan of kpop ballads and even if they aren’t stellar I’d definitely still listen to them bc that’s just my type of music. I think it could’ve been developed more but it’s not bad in the slightest. Overall: 8/10

4. Really Like You

It’s the fourth song on the album and while the number 4 being bad luck doesn’t have much to do with this song being mediocre, it only strengthens my superstition. It sounds like Netflix theme song music which is something I thought I would never say about a song at all in my entire existence but alas. It’s just so ehh. I swear this sounded better when I was playing it in the shower. I tried to give it a few listens but I kinda got tired of it halfway into the second. Maybe the prepubescent girl audience of Baby Monster would appreciate this more than me and honestly more power to them because this song simply isn’t for me and I’ll leave it at that.

Overall: 4.5/10

5. BILLIONARE

Essentially Like That part two but without everything that made it likable. Jokes aside it’s just very nothing. I really expected this section to be longer but this is genuinely all I can say.

Overall 4/10

6. Love In My Heart

I remember when Forever came out and everyone talked about how much it sounded like a song from 2014 but I think that crown clearly belongs to this. The verse with Asa and Ruka would 100% be Pitbull’s. I think they really suit songs like this and should do more of them. Out of everything on the album I remembered this the most aside from CLICK CLACK. My only complaint is that like all the song sim this album it’s quite short. 3 minutes and about 13 seconds might not seem short to other people but even 25-30 more seconds for a proper outro would’ve been appreciated.

Overall: 8.5/10

7. Woke Up In Tokyo (Asa & Ruka)

I technically already did two reviews of this god awful song and this will make three.

First review I made after hearing the snippet https://www.tumblr.com/kisshuhua/764688388588765184/asa-ruka-of-bm-woke-up-in-tokyo-review?source=share Second review after hearing the full song https://www.tumblr.com/kisshuhua/766498492698050560/this-just-in-woke-up-in-tokyo-is-still-ass?source=share

But TL;WR, the song is awful because it sampled a children’s nursery rhyme of all things which if not anything this ruined it entirely and o won’t ever think otherwise.

Overall: 3/10

8. FOREVER

I would’ve reviewed this song when it was still popular but I had left that up to a poll competing with three other girl group songs at the time and Klaxon had won the poll instead . But really I think Forever is a pretty good song for BABYMONSTER standards. I liked it a lot when it was released this June and I still do now. I just wish it had a better outro because it was missing something in my eyes. But a lot of BM songs have these qualities so it’s not surprising

Overall: 8/10

9. BATTER UP (Remix)

I didn’t fucking like Batter Up when it came out last November what makes you think I’ll give this somehow worse rendition of the same song preferential treatment

Overall: LoveIslandUK/10

That’s all shuhoos. Thank you for reading and have a great rest of your day or night!

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Hal, I have to know. What did you think of the remake of Until Dawn in comparison to the original game? Do you think one is better than the other or do you like them the same?

then i have to answer, don't i? :'))

both the same. here's why: i think they contextually need each other. where one is weak, the other picks it up. what i mean by this, just for like two examples (but not going into every detail) is like: where the original has much smoother animation, the new one has much better models primarily. this is also forgivable because of how the game was remade versus what engine and programs it was originally made in blah blah it's all technical and forgivable if we want to retain the actors we know and love basically via their mo-cap. the other example is like where the original doesn't really clarify if hannah's journal was hers or written by josh, the remake does confirm this by showing hannah writing in her diary the last entry, even adding a new entry.

i think there was probably a bit of .... how do i say ... miscommunication in what this was going to be as a remake. i was thinking they might have used footage and captures they didn't get to use in the first run, maybe rely on some of chris or mike's voice banks from the 2013 prototype (same actors), and yes ... we did get a "new ending" so to speak (for josh and sam both). yes, there's a lot of additional content in a way that gives context and kind of "fixes a few things" heavily in the beginning for sure. i think they did honestly rely on the fact that, if i'm remembering this right, the dlc that was for matt and emily was very weird to get based on when you bought the original game. it was kind of just shoehorned as a dlc but really was just necessary content tbh, which the fandom had agreed on at the time (in the rpc sense). i think that because a lot of people didn't see that content originally (the average consumer likely played UD, then set it down and never came back to it again until now), that "feels like brand new content made just for the remake". but it's not. it was always there.

i think that the original made the prank more what it was. i appreciate that they did physically switch matt and ashley?? why was he filming in the closet?? which also makes it funny because like ashley's view is kind of just matt? so what was she even seeing? so silly. and silliness aside, which is again forgivable, i think it just sort of helps me stand by that i like them both and can allow grace to both for what they are, thus what they make together, which is ultimately an attempt at a more complete story with a more well-received cast.

i love the new models of the remake, i think the only thing very jarring for me is that ... and i do not recall this in the first release ... but they do this like ... open mouth thing? it's very distracting sometimes, but i think it's silly so i laugh and move on. (josh and matt are the hardest offenders of this ironically lmao, if you want an immediate example just look at josh's party photos)

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Loved reading how much your thoughts on the albums have changed. I'm glad you're enjoying golden more now (:

My top 3 albums and songs

1. Golden - Somebody, yes or no, and Seven

2. Indigo- Still life, Lonley, and Closer

3. Layover- Love me again

On my initial listen, I liked Golden, but I was unsure if I truly loved the album or if I was being slightly biased. Flash forward to the TSX stage, and I realized I absolutely love every golden song. I just can't explain how much excitement I felt and i wasn't even there lol 😆 Although I do agree with people who critique it because it lacks cohesion and story, all the songs are a vibe and are def meant to be performed live. I officially became JK biased this year so I'm hoping he finds time in between group work to release another album and possibly tour later on. Ugh I'm just not ready to move on from Golden lol

You mentioned that no album was a masterpiece, but I honestly believe Indigo is. I just found this album to be perfect in every possible way. I have not heard such a cohesive album in a long time.

Layover was a pleasant surprise for me. It's just the perfect chill album. The only con for me is that it's too short lol it left me wanting more.

D-day- I really like SDL, people pt 2, and snooze. I don't really play the album that often, but the songs I listed make it in my playlist rotation often.

Face- I hate saying this but I didn't really enjoy Face... I know this is such a Fandom favorite but I just couldn't connect to it 😔 I'm hoping he goes in a different direction for pjm2

JITB- I'm not really a rap person but there's something about hobi's flow that's so addictive. That being said I did enjoy his previous album more than this one.

What do you want to see the members do next year in terms of albums and singles?

Rumored albums- rm, jimin, jin jhope

Rumored singles- JK, V, Suga

Hi! Thanks for sharing your thoughts! The thing with Golden is that I'm JK biased so of course I would grow to love an album my baby loves. But besides that, Jungkook's voice is my favorite in the whole world. It's so addictive, and all the Golden live performances made me love the songs pmore. Yes or No, for example, sounded better live.

Golden doesn't have a story, true, and I wouldn't call it vibey like Layover, but Golden is also the kind of album you just know not to expect much of in terms of artistry tbh. Pop albums can be cohesive, but Golden is just not that kind of album. If you like pop and listen to Golden without expecting more just because it's BTS, I doubt you're even disappointed in the lyrics and lack of flow. But Jungkook is more than capable of releasing a fun album with good lyrics.

My favorite songs are SNTY, Somebody and 3D (Alternate Ver).

Indigo is cohesive, and I guess when it comes to Face and Indigo, maybe I can't appreciate them properly because I didn't dive very deep into the lyrics. I don't mind thinking about lyrics, but I don't like it when lyrics seem vague and too poetic. I know how that sounds, but I like Suga's lyrics because they're so straight to the point, and I like relating the lyrics across his work. No one else makes me want to do that.

JITB seems to be a fan favorite along with Face. But I guess I'm not a big rap enjoyer. And Hobi's tone can be too much for me.

I've no idea what the members will do. At this point we can assume every rumor is true because they nearly always are, even when they're off a bit. We know V has a song with IU next, and I wouldn't be surprised if he has more collabs or solos lined up. Jimin has that song with Ryan Tedder and maybe an album? RM has his project, and probably tons of collabs knowing him. I remember an anon telling me Jungkook would release a collab with Katy Perry? And I'm pretty sure there is a Latto collab too? I didn't hear anything about Suga. But he might have done a few collabs and produced a couple of songs? I guess Jin and Hobi are a given. They'll definitely release something when they come back, and Hobi has an OST album coming up?

Thanks for the ask! I loved reading your thoughts! Thanks for reading mine ☺️