#Heart problems

[3m0-b1tchhh]

[kenshin94]

Look at her visible heartbeat, she has heart problem..

[phantomhivestims]

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Standing up too quickly and almost falling over stimboard

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Note ; I think somethinys wrongs with me chat

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[flawedfables]

Felt bad that there weren't many custom designs on the portal in Animal Crossing for spoonies and disabled pride. So I made some myself! 🥹

[thechthonicherbalist]

Some medical rant ahead

I'm so sick of things rn. I always had heart issues, since I was a kid, due to a small anomaly (*and then later due to years of untreated autoimmune disease, paired with some infections let the chronic inflammation weaken my heart muscles through myocarditis which ultimately develops into cardiac insufficiency/chronic heart failure). But while they were well medicated and regulated for the past 8 years, I've been struggling increasingly with them again since last September and had arrhythmias on a daily basis since December last year again. There were a bunch of occasions this year where I got hospitalized bc they got so out of hand due to stress escalations, or I struggled with severe syncopes and respiratory paralysis again. Since about half a year I'm stuck with daily chest tightness that ebbs and flows into pain and shortness of breath, when I am stressed or physically unwell. The cancer treatment rn is hard on the body as well. More troubles with my heart rate. I experience the full program of arrhythmias, syncopes and respiratory paralysis quite frequently after the treatments and require lots of rest. Gosh I am tired of all this. It's so exhausting. Mentally and physically.

And tbh, it could be a lot better. So much of this was preventable. Tonight the pain and infrequencies were particularly bad again, but I'm incredibly grateful in such moments that at least there's no more constant exposure to these situations now. Tbh I'm just flipping glad I made it alive past so many points this year. But anyways. Happy holidays! Tonight is the first night between the years, where the Underworld unites with the World of the Living in my culture's folklore. A time for healing, letting go all that died this year, rebirth and to work with the most powerful energies known to my people. I'm very excited to participate in our ancestral rites this year. 🥰 I wanted to make a post on that, but was too tired and decided to take my time and not stress about that and instead prepare for calm and cozy holidays this year. Next year is bound to be better. And who knows: Maybe there is a chance for recovery, not just relief. <3 ~ Drud

[moomoocowmaid]

I’m going to give myself a chronic heart disease—I see four people left in a Battle Royale, and my heart starts beating like I’m an F1 race car

[ghosty-dsmp]

So uhmm vent

So uhm how do i say this? Mmm well today fir most of the day i was at the super market (we finally had money for none moldy food cause my mom finally started working and my dad too), but im chronically ill so like i had my symptoms like usually and almost passed out since my mother didn't want to take a break from walking.... i almost passed out i front of the whole store but of course, my mom had to put the act bla bla bla lol and uhm so when i arrived to the car cause she couldn't beat me cause we were in public, so she yelled at me and drove to the middle of nowhere and kicked me out of her car and told me to walk home as punishment, im so honna be honest I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I FINDED MY WAY TO MY HOME, but i somehow did and she was furious that i did, and beated the shit out of me and by how badly she beated me up i was on the floor unconscious FOR A FULL HOUR, and niw im in my room trying so hard to not let my hallucinations to win about kms, yea, i hate my mom lmao

[kittzuxp]

My heart has been beating more loudly lately is that bad..

Like, i was trying to take my daily summer nap and my heart kept beating so loud that i could not sleep is that normal

[autumnarcanavo]

I hate my brain sometimes cause every time I think I’m comfortable with a masc leaning or masc identity like being Genderfluid my brain screams at me to shave my whole body and get hrt but I just don’t know if I can do it I’m terrified of needles and I have heart problems so pills aren’t exactly an option blugh and then I can’t think of a name I like and I hate it

[the-genius-az]

Since I know how much you love Azula having serious medical problems (jk), would you read a fic I've been thinking abt writting with Azula having serious heart problems that is absolutely not because of my own struggles

-Squid

SQUID ARE YOU OKAY? HOW DO YOU HAVE HEART PROBLEMS?? AT LEAST TELL ME YOU'RE OKAY! 😭😭

I've calmed down. 👍

ABSOLUTELY, I would read any Azula fic they send me, especially if she has medical problems. :)

Sick Azula reminds me a lot of Leper King or Kagaya Ubuyashiki.

All three of them are geniuses and their people love them! I love the comparison. :)

[ladysadie6969]

Went to the ER yesterday cause it felt like I was having a heart attack for 4 hours and the tests came back...get this...✨mostly normal✨ (no immediate life threatening stuff which is nice )

But my EKG was quite abnormal so I'm being sent to a cardiologist about my heart rhythm 😃

✨Progress ✨

[flawedfables]

Sitting in the hospital at 1 am from having heart surgery today and my chronic pain and that surgery pain is at an 8. So let's try to distract ourselves from it. (I just got my pain med so hopefully I'll feel better soon)

So you know how in Arcane when Viktor tells Singed (Silco's Dr and probably a gay lover) that he understands why he did everything to save Rio, and it's because he is dying and wants to live. When he just says, "I understand now" .... That fucking hit me. Because I live in a state of fight or flight bc of my chronic nerve pain and other things. I'm disabled and chronically ill. I'm not in Viktors place but I understand him. Bc when you lay there, with doctors leering over you as you go under for a painful heart surgery, you know you've got months of pain ahead. It sucks 😞 I don't think anyone who isn't a spoonie can truly understand it.

I am sitting up in bed with the lights off, my IV is dripping antibiotics in my veins. My left arm, bandaged from above my shoulder over my heart down to my hand. Covered in stickers for leads. And I know that I would definitely do a lot to try and make myself feel better. Get sleep.

I just know that Viktor is a great portrayal of sickness and pain and fear of death. I know that I'm not gonna have some miracle that heals me instantly. I fucking wish I could. But yeah just here to kinda say that, as I write this on my phone with one hand ... Chronic illnesses and pain suck.

Also fuck Jayce for not really understanding Viktor when he returns from the Undercity.

[something-existing-somewhere]

Idk if I'm gonna be alive to see next year since my health issues are rapidly getting worse. I feel at peace with dying though. I've been trying to mentally get better but now that I'm mentally better my body is dying. I knew I'd die early some way or another. It's funny that I used to wish I was dead all the time but now that I actually want to live, I'm gonna die.

[moonkissedmel]

january 21 2025

i'm grateful for:

free healthcare

having a doctor who listens to me

diet dr. pepper

warm blankets

having a brother i'm close with

Went to the doctors today - found out my diastolic blood pressure number is too high so I have a bunch of tests I will be getting done on Friday. If these tests come back clear I will need a heart echo. Got a prescription for Zoloft which I will pick up tomorrow. Haven't gained any weight. Slow, but sure progress.

[i-call-me-clarence]

So I went to the emergency room for an extreme cough that was productive (coughing shit up) but some times I’d choke on it and pass out. ER couldn’t figure out what was wrong but while I was there they noticed my heartbeat would spike to 140 when falling asleep and spike to 180 at random.

They decided it was a virus affecting my heart.

They couldn’t determine the virus.

After a day in the cardiology unit they sent me home saying hopefully I’ll be ok 👌

Also apparently I’m going through menopause at 30. Which my mother was shocked at because “Women in our family typically go through it at 24…” like fuck you im not a woman but also like HOW DID YOU FORGET TO TELL ME I WANTED KIDS YOU BITCH I THOUGHT I HAD TIME!!!!

Anyways, how’s everyone else’s Inauguration Day going?