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We as a society need to start building lighthouses, castles, and remote stone cottages again
#we lost the vision#HOW am I supposed to be haunted#if I’m stuck in a modernist hellscape??????#where can a girl ramble around in isolation these days?????#where can I become a myth?????#smh#lighthouses#lighthouse#castle#cottagecore#seacore#aesthetic#my post
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cr. LISIANTHUS_914
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So I finally had time to sit down and play through 2.3 this week and man I have a lot of Feelings about all of it, but today it's about Gallagher and Mikhail because!
The devotion of a dog! Gallagher's dedication lasting beyond Mikhail's death and then some! The way he let himself be seen through knowing it would mean his own death because it would help to accomplish his and Mikhail's dream! The immense regret and long lasting guilt of not helping Mikhail when he needed him! THE WAY MISHA CALLS GALLAGHER "MY HOUND-"
Ahem. I'm normal I swear. Anyway.
And one of my favorite displays of this undying loyalty? This.
This is the record you unlock in 2.3 after Siobahn brings up Gallagher's death in the Dreamjolt Hostelry. Right after "to the Nameless resting in peace... and to Gallagher."
La Messe de l'athée translates to The Mass of the Atheist. It was a short story about a man who goes to church, and is surprised to see another man whom he knows is an atheist attending mass, all alone. When questioned, the atheist says that he attends for a friend. This friend had banded with him when they were both poor, and acted as a father figure to him. The atheist managed to pull himself from poverty with his help, and did everything he could to repay and take care of his friend thereafter.
The friend died of illness some years later.
The atheist is still an atheist. But he attends mass on the behalf of the religious friend that saved him, and recites the prayers he heard whispered on his deathbed. These borrowed prayers are the closest a man like him could get to being a true believer, but he always holds out hope that those beliefs might enter his head.
There is so much in there, in the story they decided on as our final memento of Gallagher, that this is what was chosen to immortalize him, and ARGH OTL
#honkai star rail#hsr#gallagher#hsr gallagher#honkai star rail gallagher#honkai star rail spoilers#hsr spoilers#hsr 2.3#hsr 2.3 spoilers#interestingly la messe de l'athee was part of a series called... le comedie humaine. the human comedy. the same as the diverted universe.#anyway I am a huge sucker for the loyalty of a hound AUGH#what do you mean Gallagher lived his life dedicated to Mikhail and his cause#what do you mean the regrets that haunt him are that he didn't do enough when Mikhail needed him#what am I supposed to do with this information Hoyo how dare you#it's probably a mercy that we don't see a whole lot of Gallagher and Misha together#otherwise dear god I would not shut up ever#Gallagher says that Misha spent his entire life with him and he's grateful for that#did anyone else know like Micah? who Misha came from or who he used to be? or did Gallagher want to give him a chance at a normal life?#how long were they together? how much time did they spend in each other's company?#were they close? did Gallagher look after him? after this reincarnation of the man he devoted his life too that doesn't even know who he is#orz orz orz#hsr mikhail#mikhail char legwork
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OH MY GAWD AO3 IS DOWN IM KRILLING MYSELF
#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET ALL COZY FOR BED WHEN I CANT REREAD MY COMFORT FIC FOR THE 5 MILLIONTH TIME#error 503 i will haunt your fucking nightmares#ao3#ramblings
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on the topic of Amy and religious coding:
Victoria’s costume showed off her figure, with a white one-piece dress that came to mid-thigh (with shorts underneath) an over-the shoulder cape, high boots and a golden tiara with spikes radiating from it, vaguely reminiscent of the sun’s rays or the statue of liberty. Amy’s costume, by contrast, was only a shade away from being a burka.
What the FUCK did wildbow mean by this.
#wormblogging#I didn’t liveblog it because I think I went ‘???!’ and promptly repressed it but then i Remembered and it has haunted me ever since.#but how am I supposed to take this as anything other than some really impressively islamophobic muslim coding. girl help
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the thing is, I can never be thinking about something 24/7 because I have a minimum of 1 hour per day set aside for thinking exclusively about Obi-Wan and Anakin and that's non-negotiable
#star wars#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker#Everything about them haunts me#The tragedy. The brotherhood. Obi-Wan spending his life on Tatooine watching over Anakin's son. Obi-Wan helping Anakin become a force ghos#How am I supposed to be Normal about them#this post brought to you by those pictures of Hayden and Ewan
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if you or a loved one has been diagnosed with post-good omens s2 emotional damage you may be entitled to financial compensation
#good omens#good omens 2#good omens 2 spoilers#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO COPE WITH THIS#neilman i will haunt your ass
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do you think wolfwood heard him say this
#I HOPE AND PRAY HE DID#trimaxposting#genuinely how am i supposed to go to bed after reading this. i am haunted by the images#what kind of insane person would write something like this#he is reason enough for me to fight…………………………………………………….#trigun
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Really feeling that post abt how yearning and loneliness is great until you're curled up on your bed whimpering at the ache in your chest like a wounded dog. are we cooked chat.
#in the words of dad rock icons shinedown: ITS 4AM AND I CANT SLEEP#why am i haunted by things. things of the past and of the present#is it missing people who stopped thinking about me long before i stopped thinking about them?#who in the daylight hours i can disdain and scoff at but at night i can admit i miss the ease with which we once existed?#i wonder how they're doing now. i see their updates from a distance things i would have once celebrated alongside them#im happy for them. it shadows me. im happy i know theyre well. i wish i never heard of it#or is it the overthinking of the now? is it because of the past?#is everyone doomed to be ghosts. is there beauty in that#is it anxiety to feel so out of place in places and people that felt. feel. like home#do i know what home is meant to feel like? to miss? i suppose ill find out soon.#is it just because of the fact its 4am? is this just the fact i havent eaten much recently. am i not exercising enough or drinking enough.#how can i stop the loneliness that never seems to go away before i become a ghost haunting my own life#OR is it all just bc i read a really bittersweet and haunting fanfic that ruined me#haha gotcha im actually big chillin and sad abt fictional lil guys (said very unconvincingly)
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“wondering if i dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life” ???? DIVORCED ZUKKA ???
what the fuck is wrong with you
#xoxox <3#this has been haunting me for four hours like. how am i supposed to deal with this#spoiler alert: he lost the love of his life#anyway uhhh divorced zukka is an incurable disease#grossgirl#ask me stuff#divorced zukka
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Screaming into the abyss
I just finished reading the Lord of the Rings and my god
The ending.
The build up.
The catharsis.
Like I am genuinely crying but they aren't tears of sadness yk. I'm sad I've finished the story but these tears are not necessarily sad. Just god. It's one am and I think that ending might sit with me for awhile now.
I lowkey already want to reread the series. Thank God there's the movies to watch so I can get the reward of a visualization of the world. I fully know that the movie will most likely make me cry again but God it's just such a beautiful ending what the hellll. I also have the appendices that I know I will love.
Just god. What are words anymore? How could I possibly explain how this story ending has made me feel?
#lord of the rings#i am not one to cry at the end of books and really never had so it is saying a lot that this made me cry#its honestly a series that you want to cry at the end of because its just beautiful and came full circle#fuck man im#im#how am i supposed to sleep now#this series will haunt me forever in a way few others have and im okay with that#return of the king#lotr#my rambles#lotr rambling
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SCREW IT I'M CALLING IT HIS EYES ARE RED
THEY ARE SO DAMN RED IN THE STUPID BLURAY CUTSCENES! WHY ARE THEY SO RED?!?!
#fire emblem#fe14#fe fates#leo#the color of this loser's eyes has been haunting me for years#they still look pretty brown in some cutscenes but like that could also just be the lighting#his portrait looks more brown#but then his cipher cards and CGs are like half and half between brown and red#IS can't even figure out what color they're supposed to be how am I supposed to
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I literally cannot get over the implications of bi-generarion like...so what happens when 14 inevitably kicks the bucket?? will he also become ncuti gatwa? with there be another face? will that face also split off and just be kicking around?? And RTD said that all the other doctors also bi-generated so are they also just??? out there??? in the universe?? Including all the faces we have yet meet because of the Timeless Child??? What the fuck was RTD thinking??? David Tennant literally isn't worth all this im not sorry
#doctor who#the giggle#fourteenth doctor#14th doctor#15th doctor#fifteenth doctor#the doctor#dw meta#char.txt#i fear I am haunted how tf am I supposed to live
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"I was using all my arms to hold back the monsters, that I had no arms left to hold them. "
This line spoken by Hugh Crain in The Haunting of Hill House haunts me. It gives me a new perspective of my own father.
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Some attempts at a design for Selena :3. The second image is inspired by the wedding in Haunted Castle, but I changed Simon’s outfit cause idk I just can’t picture him being comfortable in a suit.
The last two of these are way more headcanon-y lol. They’re under a cut mostly in case my headcanons and story ideas change d(^^ ). One of them was inspired by a Kikuo song I was listening to while drawing lol, the song “Let’s Go to Heaven”.
#castlevania#castlevania games#selena belmont#castlevania selena#castlevania ii#castlevania 2#castlevania simon’s quest#simon’s quest#castlevania ii: simon's quest#haunted castle#simon belmont#akumajou dracula#akumajo dracula#art post#my art#I remember seeing someone make a post somewhere about how it was weird that#a lot of the cut items from the first Castlevania were things like high heels and a love letter and stuff#I wonder if Simon’s wife/girlfriend was supposed to be a character at one point in it and she got cut for some reason#idk it’s interesting to me that she’s only ever appeared in like deliberately noncanon content ya know?#like Haunted Castle was even called not a Castlevania game by its own lead director#the two novels with Simon girlfriends in them were never intended to be canon just fun side stuff#especially the ones that were choose your own adventure books lol I love the art style in one of those#anyway I’ve been trying to think of ways to write her lately but its so easy to end up accidentally falling into annoying tropes alas 💀💀💀#especially ones the series has already used before oof#currently my idea so far is since Simon himself is kinda the chosen one hero guy trope in CV1#and ends up subverting that trope by genuinely failing a ton getting hated by the public and possibly dying at the end#maybe Selena might work as initially the damsel in distress and call to action trope and subverts that later????#I also have always thought she ends up the Mysterious Woman somehow hmmmm#it’s a hard headcanon to incorporate without just pulling a Dracula X chronicles and oh no she’s a vampire aaaaa but that’s been done 💀#I am also aware that not everything you write has to be 100% completely new and original and perfect but aaaaaaa
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anyone else like this guy ??
#this was kinda just supposed to let off steam cuz im soooo messed up rn but. i got rlly into it#i finished the game today btw. can you tell who my fave is?? haha...#IM SO NORMAL ABOUT HIM I PROMISE#everytime he extended his arm out like that i just couldnt stop thinking about ibuprofen. it haunted me#also btw. im really actually super normal about using a wide range of colours to represent a character btw. you can trust me with art#you can trust me with drawing applications and fictional men (lying)#i plan on drawing more at some point when im not busy with irl stuff and comm stuff. cuz i am rlly crazy abt this game actually.#anyways. how to tag this...#togainu no chi#nitro+chiral#tnc#togainu no chi fanart#idk what else man .#sheetzking#unculturedswine69#also i know it doesnt rlly look like him. im working on it. shut up . give me atleast 5 notes on this or ill be mean
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