#Gifset that destroys the mel

[deankarolina]

[sophsun1]

This gifset I made of Joan and Jack Kinney's perception that Brian was a carbon copy of his father a lone wolf and selfish man vs Justin knowing that was the furthest thing from the truth hits even harder when you flashback to 1.02 where Brian has such a visceral reaction to Ted yelling at Michael "Where do people get off thinking I'm not a kind person? I happen to be very kind, very loving/ My only responsibility is to myself I don't owe anybody a goddamn thing."

Selfish is such a prominent word in his life. We hear it from many of his so called friends. He's selfish and can't or won't love anyone or anything. Yet his actions towards them even when they don't deserve it show the complete opposite. You can sort of see why it cuts so deep when he hears these words "selfish and responsibility" in the context of the scenes with his parents.

We have Joan in church telling Brian he reminds her of Jack, he's equally as selfish always letting her down and mocking her love for God. How she took Jack's abuse and beatings to protect him though we the audience know Brian had his own share of abuse from him both physical and emotional along with his mother's neglect and alcoholism. He denies this but she won't hear of it. Adding on to her previously telling him her new priest has been like a son to her and now Brian has the power to destroy her entire world view and he doesn't. There's also a weird sort of parallel where now instead of her biological son being like her husband, her surrogate son is just like the son she rejects and is ashamed of.

Jack proudly announcing he's a chip off the old block not made to be a family man, Brian agreeing. Throw in the bombshell that if it was up to him, Brian wouldn't even exist. This man who shirked all responsibilities as a husband, a father and role model to his children telling his son who he wished was never born that he is just like him. Imagine the mind fuck. His line about not letting the ladies tie him down, Brian knowing he would never be accepted if he ever came out to him. Then buttering him up for cold hard cash, even though Brian had it ready and waiting because he knew that's all he's worth to him. Which leads me to the anger I feel towards Mel and Lindsey who immediately jump on Brian about his financial responsibility to Gus. Wanting him to sign a life insurance policy because his "lifestyle" according to Mel makes him more of a risk factor. They don't want him to be fully physically involved but they'll take his money. Here comes the theme of death once more, his father didn't want him to exist but he'll take his money. Mel and Lindsey, pointing out if he dies it doesn't matter as long as Gus profits. Yet he fought so hard for Lindsey in the custody battle for J.R, funding it all when he never got that same unwavering support when it came to Gus. Wanting so steadfastly to take care of Justin financially when they were together and apart because that's how he has been made to feel with Gus and his father. So many layers. Sonny boy indeed.

Is it any wonder? Brian Kinney never believed in love and thought it only lead to bitterness and resentment, and settling down meant settling into a toxic environment where hatred flourished. Especially as your parents are your first example of love and family. You literally are the product of that union in most cases, it's a fundamental part of your childhood and has a deep effect on you ergo why therapists always lead with "So tell me about your relationship with your mother/father."

WHICH IS WHY WE SHOULD HAVE HAD A SEASON DEDICATED TO THIS ASPECT!

Ultimately people are always wanting a piece of Brian. The raw, unfiltered Brian Kinney that Justin sees and accepts and loves is not good enough for them. Sure they have their moments and he's by no means perfect but Justin doesn't want to intrinsically change him, he encourages him to be better and we see Brian respond to this. They blow hot and cold, his Peter Pan complex is embarrassing it's time to grow up! Brian tries to change, no this isn't the Brian we know and love, we prefer the old version of him come back! With his friends he's made to feel responsible for their mistakes and fuck ups, to be a support to them, to help rescue them even to his own detriment at times. To feel guilt at his existence in their lives and how it affects them, as financial support or simply telling him how to react/feel to really major emotional life events. Debbie insisting he "owed" his father his coming out, telling Joan he had cancer. Michael at his father's death, that regardless of what he did he was still his dad. The amount of pressure that was placed on him was insane the "responsibility" never ends. It goes to the -> I don't owe anybody a goddamn thing! He got himself out of his terrible upbringing, worked hard and got an amazing loft with a job in a career he excels at. No one gave him a hand out. Technically even when they did in the concerned citizens for truth era he paid them back plus extra. He hates feeling indebted to people, or in need, and yes part of that is pride but also because he's the one that is always on standby to be that for others, so where is his room to fail?

[taiey]

A directory of all my interesting things (1/2)

Stretching the concept of “monthly” self-rec to its limit here... Obviously you should go look at all of these, but bold marks the most interesting things. ♥

Amy

“When you’re a kid, they tell you...”

Amy vs Rose: summative monologues

The Hero Within

violence

‘long term’

write interesting women

the Doctor keeps his promise to her in a timely fashion

suicidal ideation

“A friend of mine once asked me if I could tell her anything about Amy’s life which doesn’t include the Doctor, Rory or the fact that she’s a kissogram."

A Town Called Mercy quote

Amy&River

The power and terror of memory.

I think there’s sexism involved in people being so sure Amy should want her baby back at the cost of River and Mels

“Characters are often in distress, or there would be no plots.“

It’s a deliberate, designed arc

Amy’s flaws

the ABCs of Amy Pond being an emotionless robot   

“I do not feel ashamed.”

art, history, faith, memory, building an everyday life.

drawings, TEH

Amy’s magic memory.

objects

Observing the universe

we’ve built a life.

Amy Pond defines her reality as what she remembers.

weeAmelia: We just haven’t found you yet.

“their face just sort becomes them, like their personality’s written all over it”

A female character doesn’t have to be easy to love to be worthy of respect.

Amy/Rory:

You’re Amy. He’s Rory. And oh yes I am.

every me loves every you

Clara

Clara’s motivations:

To see the universe

Helping people

Wannabe tragic heroine

A colder kind of hero

Nobody’s ever safe

Clara&12: the best and the worst of you

Strong parent/child undertones

Clara:  let’s see how far we’ve come

Thank you Santa Moff.

lost

why i wanted Clara

easy-to-gif development

Is it an evil spirit?

I am human.

“Clara has no personality outside of her mystery”

pre s8 meta

CLARA ‘OSWIN’ OSWALD VIEWS HER LIFE AS A STORY.

Clara Oswald’s normal, everyday life

philosophical 

The Girl Who Can

Because I love him! 

+ another 

You are enjoying this just a little bit too much. 

 In another life…

in which i woz rite about Clara’s arc

'Perfect in every way’

Two times Ellie inspired Clara to save the world.

tsaiophilia

It’s your fault if you think Clara’s character-less in s7

origin story

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Cinnamon roll, could kill you

hamilton edits:

you have no control: who lives / who dies who tells your story

we’ll teach them how to say goodbye

the fact that you’re alive is a miracle

i’m erasing myself from your narrative

i’ll see you on the other side

uh... do whatever you want, i’m super dead

the two gifsets I made when

1) I thought she just died in Face the Raven

2) I knew she lived

“hubris isn’t something that destroys you”

…striding round the console, slamming controls, like she was born to it.

Friendship is very important to me.

“Don’t call me pretty. I know I’m pretty.”

You’re putting up your armour when leave

“Now the dream outlives the dreamer”

Jackie’s fears about Rose from Army of Ghost, but with Clara.

I’m the hero of this story

Small things:

Two straws

mindblanks when asked personal questions. 

sometimes narrates her thoughts aloud when she’s alone.

How did her story get built?

Linda

Sorry but she’s not actually a Slytherin

River

Melody Pond was born on an asteroid named for a poem. 

River Song does not accompany the Doctor.

Defying Gravity

backstory contrast

“he’d just swagger off back to his TARDIS”

Time can be rewritten

She gains strength from her unconditional love and trust.

Her AGMGTW speech

River & Vastra

“CANONICALLY, RIVER SONG DOES NOT HAVE A LIFE OUTSIDE THE DOCTOR.”

ARCHAEOLOGICALLY, TECHNOLOGICALLY AND TEMPORALLY BRILLIANT.                 

Professor River Song. Archaeologist.

she needed a hero / so that’s what she became

River’s development

“Melody Pond is a superhero’

Understanding for her enemies

“Do not stand at my grave and weep”

objects.

It’s an act of revenge, it’s an act of defiance 

WHEN I STOPPED BURNING I LEARNED HOW TO GLOW

a way of moving and talking 

actor vs actress over 40

Traits

The two meanings of “agent”

“look at the skill and spirit with which I rise from that which resembles the grave but is not!”

Oceans rise / Empires fall (hamilton)

power (in many kinds)

Constance Markievicz quote

Screw you, Mitch McConnell. 

Doctor/River

#WithLustfulIntent

an 11/River 

we shone like a star & blinded who stared 

favourite romantic moments

raw competence equality

This is what love is. 

“If you lie, I’ll know what you mean.”

i tried / to love you less

or actually canon

love is a strong word