#GUESS WHO GRADUATED

[91divoc]

what do?

[endlessapis]

share in the act of creation

don't tag as kin/me/id/muse/etc. please ♡

[why-the-heck-not]

me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))

[rotationalsymmetry]

Imagine being Orion in A Deadly Education.

People are mostly not that interesting to you. They don't like you so much as they like what you can do. Maybe at some point you tried to really connect with someone, and it didn't go that well, so you didn't keep trying. Fighting mals though? You're good at that. It makes sense to you, unlike most of the things people do. It's rewarding -- intrinsically rewarding -- and people seem to be happy that you're doing it? Because they don't like doing it but it benefits them. So, basically no downside.

And you go off to school and it's full of mals, and people think you're great because you fight the mals, and you ignore them as best you can when you're not fighting mals for them. (You're polite, your mother always wanted you to be polite and you don't want people to be mad at you. But you don't do anything beyond being polite.) And people seem to think you're doing a good thing. So. It's ok. It's good enough. The world makes sense, more or less. This is what you're for.

And one day you see a soul eater go under another student's door, and you destroy it like you always do. Except this person is mad at you. Which makes no sense. No one's ever been mad at you before, not for fighting mals. So apparently you did something wrong even though you only did what you always do which has always been right before. But you guess you should probably make it up to her? So when she says she needs to go to the shop at dinner you offer to go with her, why not?

Except somehow she's mad at you again. So you have to make it up to her even more now, you guess?

(You don't like it when people are mad at you, but you know what to do when people are mad at you. You Make It Up To Them, usually by doing whatever they tell you to or fighting a mal or both, and then they stop being mad at you. You prefer to understand why they are mad at you, but most of the time it makes no sense, and you know what to do when it makes no sense to you why someone is mad at you.)

So you guard her door while she fixes it. Which takes her a weirdly long time. You've just taken down several mimics, you're bursting with mana, you'd give her some if she asked. Mana has never been a scarce resource for you; on some level it hasn't really occurred to you that it could be a scarce resource for anyone else. People aren't that interesting to you, you don't think about them much, except when someone tells you to, like your mother making you do flash cards of other kids' names. But she doesn't ask, and she doesn't cheat either, she does things the long and hard way, which makes a third thing all coming from the same person that doesn't mesh with your pre-existing worldview. She's fascinating.

And then she pulls on your mana like it's nothing and she's even more fascinating. How did she do that? Is she a malificer? (Is that why she keeps being so mean to you, when nobody is ever mean to you?) What's going on?

And you've never voluntarily fought alongside anyone else before, but she's good to fight with. She's annoying, but she does also point out things you missed or didn't know.

And she stands up for you, in a way that nobody has ever stood up for you before. She's not nice. She's the opposite of nice. But it's starting to dawn on you that being nice is not the same as something else that seems like it should go with being nice. And if El is not nice to you but is that other thing, maybe some other people who are nice to you are...not that other thing to you?

It's a lot to think about.

Anyways. You like her. You're not very interested in people. But you are interested in El.

And then you have the best day of your life, when you've gotten to take on more mals and scarier mals than you've ever taken on before, and you did it and you were good at it, and you kind of didn't want to leave but you were supposed to leave because that was how the Mission worked, and then you were about to die because you missed the bell and the cleansing fires had started and there was nowhere to go, but at least you were going to die next to El.

But she didn't think she was going to die, and she cast a wall of mortal flame (who does that?) and it worked as a firebreak and you didn't die and no one had ever saved you before. That wasn't how the world worked. Who was this person who kept breaking the rules of how the world worked like they didn't even apply to her?

(And then you look around and she isn't there and you kissed her earlier when you thought you were both going to die, and she, uh, didn't react well and oh no, what if you've ruined everything what if you like her but she doesn't like you like that what if she won't want to be around you any more? What if the one interesting person in the entire world doesn't think you are interesting?) (it'd be ok, right? It was ok before.) (it wouldn't be ok. So maybe it wasn't ok before either.)

[anonymousbathtub]

Dragon colour thumbnails? Dragon colour thumbnails 💖🐉

[sailormoonsub]

Do you think rei would still feel like she doesn’t need to be romantically involved if she wasn’t a senshi?

Rei's "I don't have time for romance because I am dedicated to my work" strikes me along similar lines as Ami's "I'm not interested in dating because no one can live up to my crush Albert Einstein," i.e., a teenage girl's excuse for not being interested in boys

I think Rei's loyalty to Princess Serenity is very real, but also conveniently allows her to rock that ace lesbian lifestyle with minimal judgment

[taruruchi]

Idol!Azul except I just redraw different pictures of Stray Kids because I remembered I had the ability to draw whatever I want (Part 1 bc Hyunjin, Seungmin, and I.N couldn't fit here)

Also ngl this is just a product of my two obsessions

close-ups utc!

this is in the order of which i drew first

tbh this was lowkey therapeutic for me so i'll probably do more in the future dslkjflksd

[showstopper35]

every screenshot I’ve taken from reading the idw 2005 transformers comics (so far) (I’m currently on mtmte #22)

[blippin]

[offdensen]

spoovy nation rise up

4k versions here ♡

[blanketforcas]

it's a strange but nice realization that suddenly you do find yourself in a place where you feel secure in your friendships and valued by the people who matter to you. even when i still find myself in a situation with new people and i feel like the odd one out, i don't care as much as i used to and i find it easier to still make a connection with a few people (most people are friendly!!). if you're a teen or in your early twenties and you feel like you'll always be on your own or not have any lasting friendships that feel completely safe, you're wrong cause that's gonna change. you'll know more about yourself, as will your friends, and these things do get easier. and if this happens "later" in life for you by whatever standard you measure that, it's never too late but you gotta seek out the help you need to make sure you find yourself worthy of all of that (spoiler alert it came free with being born)

[theprinceandthewitch]

Tbh... I don't think TOH should get a pass for it's shoddy plot just because some of the stuff that happens within the plot invokes an emotional response in people.

First of all, people react to concepts with varying degrees of emotional intensity based on what they like and/or their life experiences. Secondly, you can still create resonate moments with a good plot lmao.

There is no reason TOH should get a pass for making Belos a non threat for most of Season 1 just because people think x, y, z moment is wholesome or whatever.

[shizunn]

(,,>﹏<,,)

[balletcoppelia]

It’s time to let go. // I don’t know how.

[loomy-bunny]

do you think god stays in heaven, because he too hates the bnha manga's ending?

[thecheshirerat]

If I had a nickel for every time I became obsessed with a queer ship that was strongly implied and intended by the creators, only for the majority of the world to treat it as an entirely cishet relationship despite the fact that their feelings for each other were CLEARLY spelled out by their respective credits songs, I would have two nickels, which isn’t a lot of nickels, but. Odd don’t you think