#GENDER IS BULLSHIT IM SO MAD

[greenvillainredemption]

I fucking hate that names are gendered like they’re literally just sounds

[toytulini]

i feel like the makeup standards are not necessarily going to get Worse, just. stay the Same. "raised by sephora and ulta" christ alive yall act like this shit is new. as if this hasnt been the standard to blast young girls with makeup ads and shit via magazine and tv and imposed beauty standards anyway. the only real difference is like, idk, accessibility of tutorials for how to apply it well

[ozymoron]

dude its always "be yourself" till youre trans and now suddenly oh i get to nitpick every little thing about you oh that gesture was very feminine made you look like a girl oh youre wearing a shirt thats cream coloured? seems a little feminine to me oh you paint your nails? so youre a girl after all like ???? youre giving me mixed messages here am i meant to be myself or am i meant to conform to your idea of what a man is in order to be accepted as one by you

[makedamnsvre]

i remember like a while ago i got into an argument with someone on instagram because they made a like post like "debunking mcr myths" or something and it was like things like 'frerard is not real' or whatever but then the last one was like 'gerard way is NOT nonbinary' and i told them basically that they dont have the right to decide what gerard ways gender is or is not and that it really isnt their business and they got mad and blocked me

[lastwave]

me: -and that's why Pentheus isn't being punished for gender experimentation, when Dionysos was the one to give them the idea in the first place. The punishment is still, only, for denying Dionysos's existence and divinity and for denying their mother freedom. Pentheus's punishment also isn't humiliation via gender experimentation, as once Pentheus is in Bacchic dress, they're quite happy with it. They ask if they look like their mother. You could argue this is part of the madness, but Euripides spends half the play establishing Dionysos as a liberator, down to the choice to use the Roman name, Bacchae as the title. Pentheus is established as mad before Dionysos's appearance, proclaimed by Tiresias. Dionysos says he is clearing Pentheus's mind. Pentheus's punishment, and the tragedy, then must lie in the brevity of things. Pentheus is briefly allowed to be free of the constraints of gender- to see themselves as a woman. Neither Dionysos or Pentheus explain why it would make Pentheus happy to see the Maenads. Dionysos knows and Pentheus is ashamed. The sexual element is just an assumption on the audience's part.

my homunculus: but we established Pentheus was so panicked because his mother was involved.

me: right. And Pentheus has a preoccupation with looking like their mother. I don't think there's a sexual element for Pentheus at all. They just want to freely be a woman. The tragedy lies in the almost realization of it. The fact the mother she adores so much is the one to rip her away from realization.

my homunculus: can i go home yet

me: not yet im still on my bullshit

[burnedwriter]

thinking abt alhaitham/kaveh/itto with a s/o who practically acts real bossy with them but becomes absolutely dumb when they get fucked. if its okay w u, could u pls write abt them (or any one of them) railing the brains out of their s/o after a day of bossing them around? no rush, and feel free to write as you please! thank you!

A/n:thank you anon for the req!,i apologise for the wait,i didnt forgot your req,my inbox is in flames right now soooo,i hope you enjoy,i wrote about all 3 of them because i just couldnt choose one

warnings:smut,!gender-neutral language used,doggystyle(itto),against the table(kaveh),degrading(alhaitham),rough sex,teasing,gagging.

🌱al haitham

''are you done bossing me around all day you little slut,dont forget who is the real boss here''al haitham groaned in your ear,his chest pressed against your back as he pounded into you.

''what are you too cock drunk to answer''he teased you seeing no reply from you but only moans,his fingers deep inside your mouth gagging you as you drooled all over them,unable to form a single sentence but only reply with moans.

Al haitham thrusting into you at a fractic pace,his frustration showing with each one of his thrust,one more brutal than the other.He wasnt the hotheaded type nor the type to loose his cool at anything,and now you learned the hard way that you fucked up really bad on why you shouldnt make him mad

His strong thrusts knocking the the air out of your lunges,as you held into the bed sheets for dear life,al haitham was not going to stop anytime soon and its was going to a long night for you.

🏛kaveh

''oh kaveh please~''you cried out,your legs pushed onto either side of your head as kabveh fucked into your hole,he couldnt hold back anymore,he tried to be patient with you but afte today you took it too far with your bullshit,couldnt you wait for one hour until he was done with his assignment or do you wanted him to fail?you were suprised he was so patient for so long.

''where is your bossy attitude now hmm''kaveh said with a mocking tone,seeing how your eyes rolled at the back of your head everytime he trusted into you,your mind felt hazy.

''i-im sorry kaveh''you tried to beg for forgiveness from him but you were too fucked out of your mind to form a sentence,your mouth gapping open the only thing coming out being your moans.

''by the time im done with you the only thing you will be screaming is my name''he huffed still frustratedas his pace never slowed down and became more brutal.

👹itto

itto is not the type to loose his but....he was so done with you,he already had kuki to boss him around all the time but you...you were a different type of bossy,you wouldnt stop talking until what you wanted got done.

''fuck itto slow down~''you whine,itto showing no mercy as he pounded deep into you at a brutal pace,while he pulled your hair as he fucked you from behind.

''You think you can boss me around''he growled his merciless pace never stopping one bit,you mind felt blank unable to think a smart comeback anymore you were basicly moaning mess at this point.You have never seen the oni be so frustrated with your attitude before which was really out of character for him to do so.

itto hit your sweet spot over and over again with his cock earning more moans from you in the process,brace yourself because it was going to be a long night for you as the oni wasnt going to stop anytime soon until he gets his messages across.

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

i need angst!!

skellies have a trans S/O / crush thats trans, and was currently aguring with someone. when the fight ends, the other person mumbles 'at least im a reaal boy/girl'

skellies reaction?

Undertale Sans - He gives the person a dark stare before dragging S/O out of there. That's enough for today. He then gently sits S/O's on a bench and assures them everything they said is bullshit and that he loves you.

Undertale Papyrus - He clenches his fists so hard the other person actually takes a step back. Just because the guy is angry doesn't mean they have to be insulting. Papyrus calls them out and asks them to apologize this instant.

Underswap Sans - Welp. You give him no choice. The guy is under arrest. Transphobia is not an opinion, it's a crime. Blue doesn't give a hell about them screaming he's abusing his role. You're not insulting his S/O in front of him.

Underswap Papyrus - He gasps, then simply takes his S/O's hand and walks away. They don't need to have more attention. This is bullshit, and he doesn't want to hear anything coming from their mouth again.

Underfell Sans - Oops. He acted instinctively and headbutted the guy at full force. He has no regret. Don't talk shit about his S/O or cry.

Underfell Papyrus - He growls as a warning. Keep going that way and you will really not like what he will do to you. He also puts a protective hand on his S/O's shoulder. Go on, try to be mean to them again, just to see what will happen.

Horrortale Sans - He lunges at the guy and stops at one inch from their head. They decide to back off, and, uncomfortable, leave. Oak growls at them until they are out of sight. He's mad.

Horrortale Papyrus - "WELL AT LEAST I'M A DECENT PERSON." He takes his S/O's arm and leaves, huffing at them. If you're not able to not be insulting, he's just going to ignore you. You don't worth his time.

Swapfell Sans - He knocks your aggressor in the crotch. See? It doesn't matter what is your gender, everyone is hurting there when you kick hard enough. Nox is very proud of himself.

Swapfell Papyrus - Rus shrugs and takes S/O away. A few minutes later, your aggressor will realize he teleported 2 pounds of dog poop into their bag and maybe you should be both gone when it happens. Rus regrets nothing. Fellswap Gold Sans - The hell you just said, bitch? Go on, say to his face he's not real because he changes his gender when he wants to? No? Why? Because he has his bone right under your carotid? Nah, it's because you're just a coward. Just because you're not feeling happy doesn't mean you have to take revenge on other people. Now leave or pay the price. He won't hesitate.

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - Coffee gasps, offended and upset. As the guy starts to mock you again, you start to cry. And Coffee is distressed and starts to cry as well. A lot of people in the parc turn towards you, and suddenly your aggressor is getting harrassed by twenty people all screaming at them for being transphobic. Coffee immediately stops crying. Yeah, he did that on purpose. Now good luck with that.

[smilepilled]

if you don't have a diagnosis of DSD you are not intersex, you are a privileged little karen appropriating labels meant for groups you don't belong to. a biological female with cysts on her ovaries is not intersex, she's just ill and a victim of medical misogyny. you sound like an anti-vaxxer and flat earther when you ignore science and insist your feelings matter more. i get that you're rightwing so you have little time or patience for science (belief in gender in absolutely any form is inherently rightwing as gender is an oppressive social construct invented by the male sex and has zero basis in scientific fact - there are literally zero genders) but can you at least pretend in 2025 to try to pay attention to facts rather than waste yet another year with your souls and gods and feelings nonsense?

blah blah blah youre mad because im intersex and hot and youre sad and conservative about this topic. pcos is intersex and your opinion based on intersexist scientific views + biased sentiments isnt gonna do shit to change it wether you enjoy it or not. try again next week with your intersexist bullshit!

btw you cant just explode gender from existence! its engrained in society and the only way to loosen it up is by not conforming to the basics. youd know this if you had some backbone to understand things with experience. when i say things about gender i am coming from a background of extensive history with gender based oppression (as well as intersexism). you do not get a say in this for you clearly dont have the understanding of it beyond "theory".

[say-hi-intrepid-heroes]

okay big personal lore drop time, i usually don't get this detailed into my personal life but i'm fuckin mad and also tired rn

so i recently started college/university (higher education where i've moved away to be truly independent for the first time) and there's lots of great stuff like gender presentation, getting to be openly queer, having a good dnd group, etc

but i'm so fucking done with everyone else's romance. it's so fucking lonely.

i've made lots of new friends!! but all of them have/want partners, so they keep spending all their time chasing after people and im just left here doing nothing:

- watching Good Omens for the sixth time because i have nothing to do on a Friday night.

- getting a library card because my Saturday plans got cancelled because my friend is trying to hang out with their romantic interest so all i can do is read books alone on saturday.

- sitting alone at the end of the table because i'm the only one without a partner and they're all sitting across from one another and ive got no one

- listening to every goddamn conversation about "oh he said this and it was so romantic!" or "she wants to hang out soon!" and not being able to participate

listen, i don't want to date. i don't like being in romantic relationships. but god fucking damn it i wish i did so that i wouldn't feel so alone when this is supposed to be the least lonely time of my fucking life. i've finally gotten away from the toxic bullshit of high school but now everyone is pairing off. i'm so sick of this.

i know being aroace doesn't make me broken. i know that. but fuck, it sure feels like i am right now.

[feminismisstillahatemovement]

isn't it crazy how feminism was basically the open door for gender ideologies and now women are waking up for the bullshit, and going rad fem, without realizing the core issues all over again? i mean i follow some rad fems just to see what they are up to, and also because they are speaking violently against this madness, but its just so sad that we keep missing the point people

idk sorry for venting but i would love to read your thoughts on it because usually im just trying to be "sober" against all this, but sometimes its like the whole world went nuts and it feels awful

The weirdest thing, and the biggest issue, is that pretty much everyone you know is 'waking up' to some aspect of the madness of our present age, whether it's because of the transgender insanity, or the targeted hatred of white people, the demonization of men, or being afraid of speaking out against the spread of Islamism, or the overt one-sided political bias of the corporate media, education system and entertainment world.

The big issue is that most people pick just one of these to fixate and obsess upon, while they still carry on supporting and defending all the others, and attacking anyone who tries to stand up against them. It's only when you acknowledge that the same far-left agenda that supports and aggressively promotes one of them also aggressively supports and promotes all the others that you can start to make any sense as to why any of it is happening.

There are two particular groups of feminist friends I used to hang out with: one of them would rage against Islamism, and the treatment of women in Islamic countries, and were furious that speaking out on behalf of those women would get them silenced or even arrested. The other group is furious against the biological males taking over women's spaces, and the state violence greeting any women speaking out against it.

But both groups will still loudly vote Labour, still read the Guardian, and still believe everything else they hear coming out of the BBC or CNN or Disney or Facebook or fill in the blank. And of course they'll still call themselves feminists. It's just that one little thing they have a problem with, that they view as an entirely separate and disconnected issue from all the other madness, and so are completely at a loss when it comes to trying to explain why the world is seemingly making no sense anymore.

[hecksupremechips]

I’m not deep enough in the yttd fandom to really know if this is a controversial take to have but. I think soushin is interesting. I don’t think this in a “omg wow they’re soooo in love and I want them to be together” way, not at all lol. But I think to act like it’s impossible to see a romantic/sexual aspect of their relationship is really fucking stupid. I try to refrain from acting like there’s a solid truth to their relationship cuz the game isn’t finished yet so there’s always the likelihood that we’ll get more information later, but the thing that always gets me is when ai shin mentions that hiyori claimed to be an older student at his school but he later learned that wasn’t true. It sounds so eerily like a grooming story and the way we see human shin retreating into himself In reaction to that hits really hard, like he’s embarrassed it ever happened

Then there’s stuff like the detail that hiyori would always take pictures of shin without consent and would hang them up, or the fact that hiyori kept a personal shin ai for himself that he had control over, or the way that maple is supposed to parallel shin. It all just sounds like they had a relationship that blurred the lines a lot in a way that was very uncomfortable for shin. Moments like the shin ai sobbing and Hiyori saying “no don’t be like that show me your cool side shin!” and shin reacting to that, it’s like hiyori is trying to praise shin while hurting him. Seems way too much like a common occurrence

I think also (but maybe im just projecting) that shin is pretty queer coded in a lot of ways (hot springs scene, soft-natured personality that he tries to smother, his relationship with hiyori paralleling a romantic one, etc) and I think this plays into his relationship with hiyori a lot. Because of gender roles and toxic masculinity bullshit, i really doubt shins soft personality was allowed to fly under the radar for most people, so he was isolated a lot. Hiyori probably made him feel special at first with the way he seemed to like this about shin, but it becomes pretty clear that hiyori loves to fawn over shin and treat him like a cute baby and really only loves shins personality cuz he sees it as easy to take advantage of. I think it’s really easy to imagine a scenario where shin is a closeted teenager who finally has someone he feels he can confide in and hiyori blurs the lines between romantic and platonic a lot and shin latches onto this because he wants to feel like he can be loved by another boy and thinks this is his only shot. It’s way too common and all the pieces just fit right into place, you know? And I’m aware of the line where shin says hiyori is like an older brother to him but imo I think these two things can actually perfectly coexist cuz again, theres blurring of lines going on cuz this is an abusive relationship and feelings are being toyed with constantly

Basically all this to say, I very much think it’s likely that there was a romantic and sexual aspect to this relationship going on. I wouldn’t say they were labeling themselves as boyfriends or anything, more like it was a vague mess that hiyori refused to elaborate on. I don’t ship these two cuz I think it’s pretty clear shin wants out of this relationship, but I think inherently being mad someone wants to explore the idea of them having this kinda relationship is really ignorant and is only gonna result in only shallow ass takes about abusive relationships being allowed

[yanderu-deredere]

hey so weird question: how would your ocs react to a darling that's inexperienced or clumsy when it comes to sex? are there any of them that would prefer it that way?

a/n: thank you so much for the request! i put it under a read more cus it's explicit but i hope you enjoy! i did the top three of my ocs that would enjoy an inexperienced/clumsy darling most

warning: there's no mention of reader having a penis but there's several mentions of reader having an 'entrance' (could be an asshole?), gender neutral pronouns for reader

liam anthony arieh ★ profile

fattest corruption kink in the world

absolutely prefers a darling who doesn't know what the fuck they're doing; the more innocent and clueless, the better

he's never really put stock in the human made concept of virginity. he thinks its a bunch of crock bullshit and he's had partners before that had a body count a mile long

but goddamn theres just something about you

the way you fumble around, looking at him for guidance, for instruction? he's got him chubbing up forreal

"L-Liam."

Instead of looking up, he only chuckles, large calloused palms forcing your legs further apart. In front of him, your entrance drooled, making his mouth water and his dick hard.

"You said you wanted to be good for me, right?" He muttered, pressing his cheek against your soft thigh while one of his hands moved forward.

Gently, his middle finger teased your entrance, trying to sink into it. As an automatic response, your knee jumped in surprise. Of course, since his head was right there, your leg made contact with his glasses, almost pushing them out of place.

The way you were so nervous and panicked made him laugh. You reminded him of a jittery little doe.

Liam pressed a kiss against your thigh. Though, as his lips lingered, the kiss slowly turned into a little bite that left a noticeable hickey.

"Calm down, angel, don't worry." He tried to soothe you, his finger sinking deeper and deeper into you, the pad of it pressing against something inside of you that made you writhe.

"I'll take good good care of you."

fujio watanabe ★ profile

defo prefers an inexperienced darling but not for any other reason than he's a possessive bastard lol

basically, he wants to teach you how to make him feel good from the ground up

the thought of his darling not knowing how to fuck anyone else but him? the thought of his darling, completely at his beck and call, following his orders and only his orders?

makes im mad hard for sure

also it makes you easier to manipulate in a way? he wants to teach you thinks most people find kinky and have you believe that it's normal basically

"Oh, that's it, baby." Fujio threw his head back, his hand twitching at the nape of your neck.

All he wanted to do was fuck into your mouth; he wanted to grab you, push you into his groin, bury your face into his pelvis, have his cock hit the back of your throat.

He stopped himself, of course. It's the first blow job you've ever given and he wasn't going to throw you into the deep end.

It was so obvious it was your first time too. He could feel your teeth brushing against the skin of his dick and the way you kept gagging and desperately swallowing was obviously amateur.

He wasn't complaining though. The way you looked up at him, lips stretched around his thick girth, tears clinging to your eyelashes, your hair pulled back by his fist.

It was enough to seriously make him bust. You were going to be the literaly death of him.

eun-jeong yoo ★ profile

definitely the caregiver type; he likes taking care of and guiding people

he doesn't prefer an inexperienced darling but he definitely would be one of the people that would enjoy it the most

he's very switchy in that like he can be a dom or a sub but when paired with a darling that doesn't really know what they're doing, he's full dom all the time

he's not at all a hard dom either

literally super soft and gentle, moving your hands where they need to go, showing you exactly how to make both you and him feel good, etc

usually, he's not really a very straight forward person but with a darling like this, he doesn't want to beat around the bush so he's very frank

Eun-jeong felt your fingers slowly, hesitantly, close around his cock, your big curious eyes peering up at him through your eyelashes.

He wanted to throw his head back, wanted to buck his hips up, wanted to groan and cum right then and there; he couldn't find it in himself to, though.

You mesmerised him and he couldn't look away. You looked so soft, so innocent, waiting for his words, hanging on to his every instruction.

"Just grip it a bit tighter, puppy." His gloved hand brushes against your wrist, not really holding it but definitely pushing it closer.

When your fist did tense up a bit, a low groan left Eun-jeong's lips. He couldn't stop himself from lifting up a bit, cock thrusting up and down before stopping completely.

You were holding him a bit too tightly but, for some reason (maybe it was how you looked or the fact that it was you), it made him want to shoot his load.

"That's it, puppy." He slurred out when he decided against telling you to lighten up "Just like that, move it up and down like that."

You nod, your big pretty eyes flickering from his cock to his face, back and forth. You seemed just as enraptured by him as he was by you which, honestly, had his heart fluttering.

"Just a little bit more and th-then I'll-- I'll let you cum, okay? I'll show you how to make yourself feel good, I promise..."

[ilexdiapason]

i need to hear more about transed gender randy

ok how does this episode actually go. i know it opens on some bullshit; maybe morgan beats randy and howards ddr scores and randys mad because shes getting recognition and preventing them from having the high score on every machine in the game hole. they complain, maybe accuse her that she only won because shes hot, and shes like idk man get good? randy goes to the ninjanomicon for advice and the nomicon says something along the lines of yeah, get good, you cant be the best at everything "wearing too many gold medals will weigh down your neck". randy is like ummm what im HEARING is that the NINJA needs to get that high score so that RANDY isnt the best at everything but *I* still get the praise? and the nomicon does its traditional facepalm of you literally couldnt understand any less. and so he finds some ancient ninja technique of grace that's called like. art of the crane or some shit. and he suits up and maxes out the score on the machine and beats morgan and everyone cheers and hes like haha see this was worth it and will have no long term consequences! and then detransforms and hes a girl. paragraph break here

howard has some kind of unintelligent DUDE YOURE A CHICK response, they both freak out, howard appraises her looks and shes like nothing changed why are you judging my appearance now??? howards like idk i guess it just occured to me. and then some dance themed mcfist robot gets involved and people appraise the entire fight by commenting on the ninjas figure, how she must be inspired by the guy ninja, she doesnt seem as competent, general sexism you see in the average youtube comments section. randys like wtj guys. and eventually she goes to morgan to ask her how to kill this thing and morgan is like absolutely, girls support girls, and they do it together and randy finally learns his lesson that having EVERY gold medal around your neck weighs you down because you just expect to win and cant handle the loss. and then goes back to the nomicon like ok i learned my lesson can i be a dude again now i hate people commenting on my body while im trying to do my job. but same as the art of disguise and the ninja supersenses it's one of those things where you need to master it or it masters you so its like nah you gotta do this one yourself chief. and so the final segment is him watching morgan win her high score back on the ddr machine and genuinely appraising her dance talent without bringing her gender or her looks into it and he pops back to normal and howard is eating nachos like oh thank god i thought you were gonna be a chick forever and we weren't gonna be able to play video games any more and randy is like howard did you learn ANYTHING from this and howards like idk girl ninja would be hot??? and thats the end of the episode

[angelic-transsexual]

its always "gender doesnt matter and gender is fake !" until a trans man is feminine or when a trans women is masculine. dont even get me started on these same people who also get upset when nonbinary people are not "genderless" or are not androgynous. stop creating more stereotypes and boxes to place people in. you want to be palatable for cisgender-heterosexual society. cissexism and cis-heteronormativity is not cool. if cisgender men can be feminine so can trans men. if cis women can be masculine so can trans women. stop acting like the gender police. im not a "faker" because im a feminine transgender man. being transgender is not about gender stereotypes. trans meds are stupid too. you know how many trans meds bullied me to the point of going back into the closet FOR A YEAR because i was told i was faking being trans because i was not masculine ? a lot. so many of you are not accepting. i used to be a trans med, trust me i know what its like to try and be the gender police. just stop it guys. its not going to change anything. you are just sitting here and getting mad at people for being themselves. its getting weird. i thought we were over the stupid transphobic, trans medicalist bullshit that people like kalvin garrah and blaire white has filled into the heads of trans people. stop trying to get picked by the cishets, its not going to happen.

[ouidamforeman]

Ppl r inevitably gonna get mad at me for this and im sorry but the reason I largely dislike fictional character genderbends especially male into female ones is that it really just shows you what people think “woman” means in context as opposite to “man” and it’s nearly always super weird binary gender presentation bullshit where the “female” version of the character is now Traditionally Feminine and So Pretty And Hot even if the original male or masc character was gnc or not traditionally attractive in some way in the first place lol. And like ok it’s fine let people do what they want but the amount of stuff I see like this that makes my head hurt and how hard it is to find depictions that Aren’t like this just got to me and im tired. The 13th Dr Who regenerated into being with mascara on you guys. that was crazy right haha

This kind of thing is always going to have different nuances for trans ppl making stuff like this and actually putting awareness and projection into it lol and it’s not about that nor is it about individual people making designs they just personally like it’s about How Much in fandoms a character being made a Woman just means “oh she has flawless makeup and a Lady Magazine Cover outfit and perfect boobs now :)))” so please don’t yell at me on my personal post lol

[razz-is-queer]

long poem about face ID and being trans:

my phone doesn’t recognize my face anymore

i mean, i set up the face id a year ago but it has worked fine until yesterday

i don’t look significantly different

my hair’s barely changed

neither has my face

but my phone didn’t recognize me

glasses on or off, hair in different places, different angles

nothing worked

my phone doesn’t see me anymore

i don’t know if i see me anymore

a husk of a being

an empty house looking for a resident

ancient, rotting, covered in mold

a face unfamiliar to me

empty eyes, dark spots, hair, nothing seems right

but this is me

i am me

i will always be me

even when i don’t think im me, i am

even when i wish i was someone different, i am and will still always be me

this is how being trans affects me

i barely recognize myself anymore

i see warped features, a different person

is it selfish that i am happier this way?

that i’m “letting down” my parents?

that i am making the decisions that are worsening my mental health because i think ill feel better as this gender than i do as that gender?

is it selfish that i think i look better in clothes made for someone without a penis?

do i find joy in fighting with my parents over hormones or “god”?

did i really just write a whole poem about my fucking phone showing me how different i am now than i was a year ago?

yes

yes i did

sometimes i need to sit and write to deal with my emotions

and sometimes what i write comes out in strange metaphors

sometimes when i feel like everything’s crashing down around me i just need to write

writing lets me express myself in ways i couldn’t otherwise

without writing, who would i be?

a husk?

an empty house?

no

i’d just be me

i’d be the me that my phone does actually recognize

i’d be the me that was still a boy

i’d be the me that never had to go through any of this bullshit

i’d be the me that was really happy

but i’m not that

i’m the me that has mental issues and is trans and is fighting with her parents and is inadequate and unfit for college or life

i’m the me that can’t even write a fucking college essay out of fear of rejection

i’m the me that doesn’t explicitly want to die, but wouldn’t be opposed or mad if it happened

i’m me

flaws an all

and that’s how i have to live

that’s how i need to learn how to live

so i’ll update my phone’s face id

because i am me