#GEN WAS MY FAVORITE WHAT THE FUCK
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#truly maybe i am just a pokémon photographer at this point#taillow#i do think this regional bird is a little weird. a little boring‚ maybe#i know it's very nostalgic for a lot of folks and that includes me‚ but in the grand scheme of regional birds i think it set up#a rather boring trend of normal/flying birds#along with pidgey and spearow before it#think about it. pidgey‚ spearow‚ taillow‚ starly‚ pidove… it took six generations for us to get an interesting early-route bird#fletchling was good. love the fire typing. and then we got pikipek which i believe is also normal/flying into toucannon#yeah it is so we. definitely regressed there. gen 8 gave usssssss fuck what is the galar regional bird#ugh i'll come back to that but wattrel in gen 9‚ although not my favorite design-wise‚ is interesting#because of the electric typing. some Could argue that squawkabilly is actually paldea's regional bird but#i would. disagree#gen 8's bird. i'm not gonna fuckin google this i can get it#i can fuckin remember it#here i'll queue up the next post and let you know if i remember it by then#the difference between these two posts for me is like two seconds but for you it'll be about three hours#so if you tell me the answer on this post. thank you but it will have been two weeks ago that i wrote these tags#some of you forget this. i queue posts up two weeks in advance#so i'm writing these tags on december 18th
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let characters be dedicated to other characters without making it romantic challenge (impossible)
#quick vent post because omg finding gen fics of my favorite characters with the canon dynamic is absolutely impossible#for once this is not about ffvii actually#when a jo speaks#actually you know what? fuck you im adding the#aromantic#aro#tags because theyre very relevant
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if jinx is actually dead like the leaks are saying i’m gonna be pissed because what kind of fucking resolution is that for her character. everyone lives and is happy and caitvi endgame but literally fuck her i guess
#i’m annoyed and i haven’t even watched it . so don’t take my words as the truth but#arcane#arcane spoilers#jinx#caitvi#IT WILL ACTUALLY RUIN THE WHOLE SHOW FOR ME AND TJHATS NOT EVEN CAUSE SHES MY FAVORITE THAT WLD JUST BE GEN STUPID TO DO.#build up all that development for her this season only to kill her like what..#idk when i watch the episodes i’ll see#what would be the point of isha even existing.#like fuck off
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wow I didn’t think reblogging that tea post and then seeing people’s tags would deal me such strong psychic damage. come over I can fix you I can find a tea you will like. “I don’t like tea” how can you say that as a blanket statement when there are so many vastly different kinds of tea. head in hands
#‘it’s like coffee but not good’#while a cup of black tea does have a great deal less caffeine in it than coffee#it also has a stimulant called l-theanine which is NOT found in coffee#and the more complex combination of the two stimulants hit your system much more slowly#which is why tea doesn’t give you jitters like coffee does#anyone who’s like wow I need my coffee to survive but I hate that it makes me nauseous and gives me heart palpitations and bad breath#to you I say. wean yourself off coffee and onto tea!!!!!!!#but WAIT I can keep going. nauseous? ginger tea. sore throat? peppermint contains menthol which works as a numbing agent#green and black teas are both very high in antioxidants#chamomile and lavender do both have a calming affect#BUT WHAT ABOUT THE TASTE I hear you say#IT TASTES LIKE GRASS. try a floral tea or a black tea or chai or Thai tea#ITS SO BITTER you’re either steeping it for too long or the water you’re using is too hot#not to sound like I’m fucking uncle iroh or something I just apparnerlt have strong thoughts and feelings about tea#I can’t handle ppl going ugh I hate tea and it’s like. overbrewed lipton in microwaved tap water.#anyway MY favorites are jasmine and lavender earl grey#and currently I’m really into this corn silk tea my brother bought me at h mart#it’s like gen mai cha but even more#congrats for making it this far into my tea rant tags. if you comment your tastes I can give you a personalized tea recommendation
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next gen (2018) is the best movie ever for a lot of reasons but the biggest, most integral one that i've never seen anybody actually address before, is that it is fundamentally a story about being a very young child who is suffering so much emotional pain and the experience of that pain not being taken seriously by anyone around you. mai's anger issues and crushing loneliness are absolutely integral to any reading of the story's themes, and not only is her pain a driving force, but it is validated by the narrative. the story doesn't mock her for having "daddy issues," she's not just a whiny or dramatic little girl; she is ABSOLUTELY justified in feeling lonely and hopelessly angry, and the movie goes out of its way to show you things from HER perspective. and at the end, the "lesson" she had to learn wasn't that she was WRONG about how she viewed her mother and her situation - in fact, her MOM is the one who has to learn that she was mistreating her daughter and hurting her.
the movie also takes so much care to honestly and realistically show how that loneliness can manifest in the most destructive of ways - mai is ALLOWED to be angry, she is allowed to be rude and abrasive and destructive, and while it is portrayed as a problem and something that needs to be addressed, the narrative never BLAMES her for it - because she is a child reacting in a real, emotional, raw, human way to her trauma and pain.
what i'm trying to say is i have never seen a film before that takes a child's feelings of misery as something so valid. the narrative NEVER condescends to her character, it never comes across as patronizing. and the movie isn't about having to forgive the people who hurt you, but instead it's about the importance of not letting that pain stop you from making NEW memories and better relationships. it's so real and RAW and full of love and ultimately, it is about how even one person looking at you and saying "i see your pain, and i'm not going anywhere" and meaning it can be enough to save you.
#literally this movie is so fucking good. go watch it right now#my favorite film of all time. unbeatable in catharsis in validation in ENTERTAINMENT#and that's not even getting into the animation or soundtrack bc my GOD both of these things are BANGING#and the ANGST. ohhhh my god this movie will rip your fucking heart out#like. how do i actually describe it. this movie is about being a mentally ill child from the child's perspective#any other movie would have had mai need to learn the lesson that her parents were doing what they thought was right or some bullshit#but nope! next gen says your mom IS doing a bad job! and you deserve to be angry about it!! you are right to be angry about your#dad fucking off when you were 4!!! that DOES suck for you and it DOES suck that nobody fucking LISTENS#this is a kid screaming for someone; anyone to listen to her or care about her pain and then she meets 7723 and he DOES#AND ITS A MOVIE ABOUT HOW MENTAL ILLNESS CAN MAKE YOU PUSH PEOPLE AWAY AND SELF SABOTAGE#AND THE IMPORTANCE OF *LETTING* PEOPLE HELP YOU AND TRUSTING THEM TO HOLD YOUR HEART GENTLY.......#i restate. this movie is so fucking good. go watch it if you haven't i am not asking#mine#next gen#next gen netflix#netflix next gen#long post
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posting this year's summary of art a little early because the one i picked for december is fine and all the months i am disappointed by are too old to do anything about. gonna stick my old ones under the cut cuz idk how else to find them on my blog rn
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#originally i was checking my archive cuz its the easiest way to see my art other than digging through my files (which dont she the thumbnail#preiviews anymore for some reason) and i literally didnt have Any fucking posts for september#it wasnt until i was checking file dates that i saw that saoirse's first draft was in september and just want posted until october#that being said thats like. my least favorite drawing of her now but i love her and she deserves recognition#on the other hand everything i had for july sucked balls so i had to use traditional art#yeah i only have 2 fucking files for july and theyre LAME#whats more lame is fucking april. thats my old commission sheet thats so stupid#cuz i didnt draw anything rlly otherwise#i had a more colored thing for febuary but i dont like it..#may was also a rough month#everything else im good with#but it was a legitamatly hard year for me art wise so thank you to pressure and also clan gen for helpin me outta that dry spot#its still pretty iffy but im doing sooo much better and im way happier with my art generally#i have to learn again that its not a chore. which is why my comms are closed hard right now#thanks every1 for stickin around :)#merry chrimas happy holidays happy new year#2024 summary of art#summary of art
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OKAY. to the people observing, hello, i am awake now, good morning. ramble in the tags because honestly i still feel kinda wounded by yesterday but also now im embarrassed by the gravity of my reaction
#im so disgusted by this show what the fuck were they thinking with this. what the fuck. First of all why???? did they give him a love story?#SECOND OF ALL. WHY WAS THE LOVE STORY WITH HIS BROTHERS WIFE. WHO HAS 3 CHILDREN. WITH AFOREMENTIONED BROTHER. LIKE. HUH...#third why did they do this when the actor Literally just turned an adult while the other actor is in her 30s or something 💀 who the fuck#thought that was a good idea. what the fucker. FOURTH why did they kill my husband :( that's so stupid why did he die. why did his entire#family die. that fucking sucked why did they do that#anyway ive decided that rather than get sucked into the black hole im just going to be happy the show is over and i can do what i want#five and i did much talking last night (because he's not dead and he did not cheat on me obviously. and it is neither of our faults if the#writers decided to assassinate his character arc for their stupid romantic subplot) so yeah. um. we are very much alive and well thank you#im not going to let this get me down actually. ive been married to this motherfucker for years#he's still my favorite guy in the whole universe and that will not change because of shitty writing. not rewatching the show anymore though#like ever hgsdgjfsdgjj#tldr me and my real husband mr five hargreeves (who finds it INCREDIBLY offensive that he was given a romantic love interest along with#literally being dead) are totally fine. we are fine /gen but now we are going to have to save the world a little better than the show did#because no way is he allowing his family to die. and no way am i letting him die after everything he's been through. so yeah that's all#five had his work cut out for him last night though i was so mad at him 😭 😭 the equivalent of cheating on me in my dream
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Honestly, I really love the idea that the approach with the next gen tends to be “it takes a village” just bc of how embedded the sisters are in each other’s lives. I’ve mentioned it before in the tags of this post, but the idea that you wouldn’t be able to match parents/child or siblings of each set bc you just can’t really tell. I don’t know, just the idea of Piper making cupcakes for the twins’ class while Phoebe gives Mel advice about a boy while Leo teaches Phoebe’s daughter how to drive while Henry teaches Chris how to throw a punch and so on just hits for me for some reason.
Especially when it comes to trouble, like a demon attack during a Warren family dinner night? Paige pulls Wyatt out of the way of a Darklighter attack, and doesn’t even need to look to know that Coop and Piper will do the same thing for her daughters. Whenever trouble pops up, they’d protect any of the kids with their own life, as if they were their own, no matter whose they actually are.
#abi speaks#*pokes post* is this a childhood problem thing? bc idk why it itches my brain in the best way but it does#next gen#i fully expect this to be a just me thing tbh and im okay with that#but yeah thinking thots about how the og gen defaults to protecting the closest kid#just fully trusting that the others will do the same for theirs#also bc of how my next gen is this does in fact include half manticore baby and morris family#a dangerous situation and derek insists on putting himself in front of chris who is just like i move things with my mind!!#so coop just goes so do i :) now stay behind derek (who is the fucking fiercest parent ever pry it out of my dead hands)#meanwhile piper at 5'2 just snarling at someone while pushing the not 5'2 dj morris behind her#idk man just. i really like the idea of it takes a village for the charmed next gen#like is that TECHNCALLY their kid? no but FUCK YOU get away from my kid!#also just the next gen being able to rely on all of their parents to be there for all of them no matter what#idk man its just one of my favorite concepts#this is definitely a childhood problem thing isnt it
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#moogsin'#mitski#lush is my favorite album of all time /gen#like its so indescribably good#knocks the socks off me EVERY fucking TIME#it is absolutely incredible#idk what mitski put into these goddamn songs but she was insane for it
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(Squints) with "i have my methods" you mean "if you cant read it i have funny piracy shit for you" right???
READ WIND BREAKER: I AM NO LONGER ASKING
a powerpoint
#wind breaker#I got into wind breaker without this first-rate PowerPoint but it definitely would’ve sold me on it#everyone read wind breaker please it’s so good#sakura is probably my favorite male protagonist in a new gen manga#and I do not say that lightly#<- ok fine but like#w h a t i f#this post is *LITERALLY* the reason i learnt about wind breaker???#fuck do i do now#its like when i played#roblox peroxide#without knowing shit nor fuck about bleach#(now i do and uh) (holy shit ichigo i get that you should have ego checks but wtf dude the shit in TTYW is uh)#(what the blyat)
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Started replaying sonic frontiers and have been having a blast but also why is the switch version so fucked
#ramblings#the graphics......#i forgot just how bad they were. how did they fuck it up so bad for this version specifically#bc i KNOW the other versions don't look like that#it's baffling#sonic frontiers is my favorite 3ds game#i mean it's not that bad. there's worse looking games on the switch. probably#i am also playing on a switch lite#but still other games still look wonderful on my switch why is frontiers specifically Like That#sonic also feels really finicky to control sometimes but like that's a problem with most sonic games so. whatever#i might need to just adjust my settings or something#still. aside from that. been having fun :]#i needed to see sonic just interacting with his friends again#and running around the islands doing random stuff#it gets me thinking about what future games could be like. bc looking at sonic x shadow gens#it really feels like they're building upon frontiers' foundation. at least with how their making the main hub an open zone#makes me excited for when they make a new standalone game#i hope we get news for something like that soon. not rushing for them to pump out a game right after sonic x shadow gens but y'know#like an announcement that they're working on something. a teaser maybe#i wanna feel the same insanity i felt when frontiers was first teased basically#tho it might still be a bit too soon to ask for that#aghhhh i wanna know what comes next so baddddddd i wish i wasn't so impatient#wow i went completely off topic. anyway
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#type: null#type null#this is one of the only pokémon i'll give TWO tags just in case folks search it with or without the colon#i also fail to understand what the Fuck this thing is#i never really saw it until you get a free one in the battle tower in gen 8. obviously. played gen 8 first y'all know that#and i was just like ?????? what is THAT#bunch of type disks???? ok????? arceus 2?????#that's what was in my head. then i played sumo and it's like Ok the edgy guy really likes this thing I Guess#dunno. guess it's favorite material bc of its story implications
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#comme si elle était pas déjà là mdr ptdr lol#je hais ce pays je hais les gens je hais la vie tout court#HOW DOES ONE GET THE WILL TO LIVE#TELL ME YOUR SECRETS#devastated again and now what if they leave like they want to and leave me here#even if I’ve always wanted to leave and go live Right Where They Plan To#so if they go that’s yet another reason that would make me want to die/get the fuck out#but also I can’t leave my brother alone again I’m basically his mother#even if he thinks I’m annoying most of the time#I’m the one who takes care of him and who’s there for him whenever he needs#many people have told me as well that I was more a mother to him than his actual biological mother#and he’s her favorite so that says a lot#but let’s not talk about that beast it would take days to get even start to unpack
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You have one (1) fucking job Production I.G. ONE.
I'm sorry for the person I will become when this is animated
#do NOT fuck this up istg#my faith got a little bit shaken after what they did to narumi “Fan Favorite” gen#kn8
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i want you. pt 2, remus lupin
intertwined, sewn together
remus lupin x fem!reader | masterlist, pt 1
summary ༄ remus x best friend!reader -- the aftermath of you accidentally confessing your love for remus and running away, hurt/comfort, fluff
word count ༄ 4.1k
nora’s notes ༄ so sorry for the delay on this, thank you so so so much for all the love on the first part and for 200 followers??? that's gen insane i love all of you 💘 i haven't proofread so pls excuse grammar
you’ve barely gotten a wink of sleep next morning, and it shows. you finally crash in the morning to sleep through breakfast and lunch.
at two, you’re up, but barely. you feel like absolute shit. the feeling only worsens when lily comes in, pity in her face. she knows what happened, and the pity only means one thing–there’s a reason he hasn’t come by, and it’s not because he’s in love with you.
burying your head in your pillow, you let out a loud groan.
“y/n?” she pulls back your covers and offers a plate up to you. “remus brought this for you, cause you weren’t at breakfast or lunch.”
“don’t say his name in my presence,” you beg her, only half-joking. the plate she brought has all your favorite foods from the great hall, and you hate that remus knows you so well, well enough to pick them out.
“he wants to talk to you,” she says once she’s sat on her own bed a few feet from you. “he just didn’t want to cross your boundaries. i’ll tell him off if you’d like, just let me know.”
“i love you, lily, but it’s not necessary. it’s not his fault half of hogwarts loves him and the prettiest girl out there fell to his feet,” you huff, a sadness leaking out of you. you want to blame him. but really, you can’t. “he didn’t do anything wrong. i guess.”
lily’s eyebrow raises as she waits for you to elaborate. “he did make you fall to his feet, didn’t he.”
“you know who i’m talking about.” as if you could compare to celeste… although you’re pleased with the compliment. “and i’m still mad.”
“you have every right to be,” she concedes, mouth open to say something when the door bursts open, carrying in a flustered marlene.
“please, y/n, i’m begging you. do something about him. he’s run off and sirius can’t find him, so he’s bugged james about it who’s bugging me, and i can’t take it anymore.” her cheeks are flushed, begging, but you can’t bring yourself to listen to her. “i’d never do this to you, but i’ll truly rip my ears off for another moment of this.”
“marlene.” lily’s glaring at the blonde, grabbing her by the elbow. “don’t listen to her, y/n. do whatever you want.”
as much as you feel bad, you’re not ready. you don’t want to face him, like, ever.
and that’s what you resolve to do for the whole next week. knowing remus, he would never make you uncomfortable, not on purpose, at least, but he knows you too well to make you uncomfortable by accident. so, three days later, when you stumble into breakfast with approximately thirty minutes of sleep and bags suitcases under your eyes to match it and choose the seat farthest away from him, he doesn’t move closer to you.
still, you feel his eyes on you the whole time, but you just stare down at your plate, making pictures with the eggs and ketchup. while half-listening to marlene’s blabbering, you craft a smiley face, then a frowny face to match your mood, a mickey mouse, and then this girl that you hate for no reason because she’s really not hateable at all you just hate her because she kissed this guy who’s your best friend but technically you’re not even dating you’re just in love with him. fuck. you push away the eggs and glance around the table. the first thing you notice is him noticing you–it’s the first day you’ve not felt too lovesick and heartbroken to ditch class and meals, for risk of seeing him, so your presence speaks for itself. even then, every morning you wake up to an artfully arranged plate outside your door, laden with your favorite foods. the same comes for lunch and dinner, and you’re not stupid. you know he sends them.
but you can’t talk to him. not now that you know he’s not in love with you like you are with him, at least not as much. he might even like celeste by now. not “might,” he probably does. you wouldn’t hold it against him. they would be beautiful together. a fresh round of nausea sloshes into the walls of your gut.
when you deem it socially appropriate to leave, you take the chance, getting up with the masses heading to class, trying to slip through the crowd to avoid him.
“y/n,” sirius croons from your right, so close you can feel his hot breath on your ears, and your heart sinks. where sirius is, the marauders are soon to follow. “oh, how i missed you this past eternity.”
you grimace at him, pushing his cheek away from your face. “hi, padfoot. it’s been three days.”
“and what days they’ve been!” he proclaims dramatically, slinging an arm around your shoulder and pretending to faint.
“siri. i’m not in the mood.” you mutter, slipping out from under his arm, chancing a glance behind you to make sure the blond you would recognize anywhere is not here. you’re in the clear for now, you’ve no clue where he, peter, and james have gone or why they’re so far from sirius.
he senses your mood shift and transforms into serious sirius. “you need to get back with moony.”
when you blow out a heavy breath, your hair flies forwards and hangs limply on your face. “a, as i said, it’s been like three days. b, we were never together so i can’t ‘get back’ with him. c, and listen carefully when i say this, i don’t want to.” he doesn’t want me are the words you leave sour and dormant on your tongue.
“but, y/n,” he pouts. “he really misses you, even if it’s only been a little while. he’s a wreck, knowing he made you cry.”
you’ve heard enough. of course. this is why the marauders aren’t near him. it’s a ploy, an intervention if you may.
“no, don’t even.” you pull away from him and push through the throngs of students to get away from him. you toss out a parting over your shoulder before slipping away, “i’ll see you in class.”
just kidding. you sneak back into your dorm and let the blankets swallow you, watching the ceiling to pass the time. remus is not in love with you. he never will be.
as you count the amount of nicks in the ceiling paint for the forty-hundredth time, you think about him again. as you have for the past eight years.
even if he’s not in love with you–you can’t imagine a life without him. you can’t sacrifice your friendship, all those friendly touches, the feeling of his warm hand splayed against your back, the sight of him curled in his bed with his newest book. how could you never discuss your favorite books with him again? how could you sacrifice that golden look that makes you melt over as you speak? those perfectly brewed cups of tea, vanilla-scented sweaters, knitted thickly with love?
he’s your best friend. the answer is, you could never live without him. even if you’re in love with him and he’s not, in fact, in love with you back. you’ll just have to get over it.
whoever painted this ceiling left fourteen cracks.
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you’re going to get over him, you swear it. this is what you repeat as you walk into the great hall, your eyes trained on the ground, slipping into the seat next to lily. you refuse to look at him or any of his friends. you won’t. you can’t.
it’s the first time you’re here. sure, you came by the table this morning, but drawing pictures with ketchup until the whole plate looks like you murdered the bottle isn’t exactly engaging. now, you and marlene are conversing about stupid things: the shoes you need in your wardrobe, your favorite song to listen to while crying in the shower vs. in your bed. and important questions, like what’s better, milk or dark chocolate (dark chocolate, obviously, and don’t even think about saying white chocolate. that is not real chocolate)?
you can feel his eyes on you, drilling almond brown holes into your skull. the urge to look up chokes you. you want to see the curve of his smile, how lopsided it leans on him, the scars that dance around his lips. but you steel yourself. you can’t. you won’t.
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you’re ignoring him. the problem is, it’s not really working.
no matter where you are, you can feel his eyes on you; even if you’re across the classroom, you swear you can smell the earthiness of his cologne, his sweaters.
fuck.
you are not getting over him anytime soon.
the two of you manage to avoid any contact for what feels like months–days, maybe. in the hallways, you brush past each other, sometimes mumbling an apology or two as you pass. nothing sincere. nothing short of incredibly, incredibly awkward.
you tuck yourself into hidden corners of the library, the astronomy tower, the room of requirement, anywhere where you can get away. from him, from the scary softness of sirius’ eyes when he looks at you, the even more terrifying relative quiet from marlene, who was seemingly instructed to give you space by lily. everything is awkward. and it’s all your fault.
when the glances stares fade, you know why, and you hate yourself for knowing. the full moon’s nearing. remus’ shoulders are sagging, his looks come from lower down. his body is aching more and more, he twists around nearly every class you have together, something you know he’s always done to try and alleviate some pain. his undereyes are bruised and swollen, and you see the brass of his cane around the common room, and you hate that you aren’t there for him. he hates that thing, he always tries to avoid using it.
it must be especially bad this time around.
and when lily comes into your dorm the day before the full moon, skin sunken with exhaustion, you figure something’s up.
“lily?” you ask, jolting up from your book. the mug of tea that he drank the night you stopped talking is still by your bedside. you can’t bring yourself to move it. what if that’s your last memory with him?
“hm?” she murmurs, flopping onto her bed.
“what’s wrong?” you ask as you turn your body towards hers.
she waves her head, face in the pillow.
“you can talk to me about him,” you frown. “it’s related to him, isn’t it? the full moon?”
the redhead sits up, looks at you. she’s not one to lie, never has been. “...yeah. james is just stressed, because he thinks this transformation has already been really painful for him, and it’s only going to get worse tomorrow.”
your head is bobbing. you swallow your feelings–what is that, guilt? shame? you don’t know what. maybe celeste broke up with him. not everything is related to you.
“mhm,” you say in response. absorbing.
she hesitates, mouth opening, before shutting it again. “it’s–well, i don’t…”
you shrug. “you don’t have to say anything, lily.”
so she doesn’t.
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lily’s right. in the eight years you’ve known him, he has never looked so rough pre-transition. you steal peeks at him all day, like he’s a tv show you weren’t supposed to watch as a kid. it looks like the life is steaming out of him. his hair–artfully messy, as always—is mussed and unwashed. when he walks out of the classroom, it’s a limp, with a slow clunk to it that makes your chest hurt. you want nothing more than to rush over and help him, but no. if he wanted you, well, if he didn’t want celeste, he would have come after you.
he doesn’t want you. you repeat that to yourself when you see him almost pass out onto his plate during lunch, making a worried sirius (yes, sirius of all people, who usually tries to stay calm in situations like these) rush him to his dorm.
but he reappears only an hour later for potions, when his back is tensed, tight, and his shoulders are hunched over. slughorn tries to call on him twice, but he pretends he isn’t there.
your chest aches when he doesn’t show up to dinner, and halfway through, the rest of the marauders disappear, muttering to themselves as they go. you rub your collarbone and watch, your anxiety heightened.
once the great halls door slam, the first place your eyes dart to is the hufflepuff table. you don’t even need to look around to see her. everyone within a ten-person vicinity is ever so slightly turned towards her, like her charisma is impossible to ignore. they want to be her, be with her, know her.
she’s speaking animatedly, tossing out an airy laugh now and then. maybe remus hasn’t told her yet.
some evil, petty part of you relishes in that fact.
the girls are watching you, eyes wide and lips pursed. they’re trying to read you, determine how you’re feeling. dorcas, of all people, has been checking in on you everyday since you and remus fell out, and marlene too, in her own sarcastic way. but seeing them together made you ache for a cavity that could never be filled. a gryffindor love, a spectacular love. one that existed in your if onlys.
you head straight to your room after dinner to try and throw yourself into your homework, but the distraction doesn’t work. you can’t stop thinking about remus. is he okay? you wish you could be with him. why did you start ignoring him in the first place?
as the stars fade into the sky, lily bursts through the door, mary an hour later. marlene sneaks in, then out, then in again, with dorcas by her hand. but as time ticks, ticks, ticks, you can’t stop from looking at it. you’re the only one awake now, but the marauders probably aren’t back yet.
you try your hardest to battle the reluctance that accompanies you to your bed, but you can’t. you just lie there, body tensed as images of remus run through your mind. the two of you visiting his hometown, or him on your lap, your favorite place for him to be. you’ll never forget the feeling of his coarse hair against the lilting touch of your fingers, or how he would turn onto his side, nose bumping against your stomach as he nuzzled into you.
after waiting what feels like hours, you check the clock. yes. he’s back now. you rise as quietly as you can, slipping out of the dorms and darting towards the hospital room. is he okay?
madam pomfrey is nowhere to be seen, and as you pass blue curtain to blue curtain, all you can hear is your shuffling. no one’s here–save for one figure on the end, flat on their back, moonlight filtering through the window above them.
it hugs him in a most flattering light, his eyes closed and relaxed. fuck, he’s already sleeping. you don’t know if you should be happy he won’t see you or not. on your tiptoes, you creep towards his bed, where there’s a chair on his right. when you touch it, it’s still warm. the marauders must have just left.
here he is. remus lupin.
your eyes scan his face and arms, any body part that’s left out from the blankets. he has a fresh cut running from his elbow upwards, through where his t-shirt curls around his bicep. for someone with such fresh scars, he looks so, so beautiful.
the second you sit down on the chair, his eyes fly open.
oh.
he wasn’t sleeping after all.
perhaps the most awkward minute of your life passes, the two of you just staring at each other. your lips are parted, limbs frozen, anticipating.
“rem?” you squeak out, reaching out to touch him as you usually would. you want to trace the scar that runs down his cheek, but he pulls away, muttering.
without even acknowledging you, he turns on his side, burying his head into the pillow.
“oh,” you breathe. he doesn’t want you there. you’re so stupid. why the hell would you come here? you know he likes celeste. you saw them kissing for merlin’s sake.
you’re trying your best to stifle a gasp as your eyes become sticky with tears. what the fuck were you thinking?
“stop it. just stop it,” he groans. “why are you bothering me again?”
your limbs are stuck in place. for some reason, you can’t think, move. your thoughts are spinning in circles, racing around your mind. nothing’s coherent right now.
you look at him again, his muscles shifting against the cotton of his t-shirt, and swallow. this is goodbye, isn’t it? your lips twist.
“i-i’m sorry. i know you probably want to get your rest, i’ll just–” you have to force yourself to stand up, but when you do, your hand accidentally brushes his back on the small bed, and he jerks back, electrocuted. “oh, i–sorry.”
he jolts upright, hands on the bed to support him. “dove?”
you pause your movements, unsure what to do. he knew who you were before, didn’t he? what happened?
maybe he’s just delirious from lack of sleep. you begin to walk away when a warm hand wraps around your wrist, drawing you backwards.
“y/n. i–” he stops when you face him, and you can see the exact moment he sees the tears in your eyes, as he pulls you onto the bed, thumb sweeping the wetness under your eye like it’s second nature. his palm, rough with calluses and scars, supports the softness of your cheek, and you melt. “you’re here. you’re really here?”
his eyes, that soft amber, spilling over with uncertainty and… regret? the same way he would look after one of the marauders’ particularly nasty pranks, or snapping at one of his friends close to the full moon.
you nod, shoulders tense. “i just wanted to come stop by. i didn’t mean to–”
“no, no,” he interrupts, his other hand coming up to rub your arm. “i’m sorry. i didn’t… i’ve just been having, er, i’ve been having dreams of you all week. i thought you weren’t real.”
his face is sparkling with earnestness, a kind of hope you hadn’t seen on him in a while. when you don’t say anything, he takes it as a cue to continue. “i’m also sorry for everything. i thought you wouldn’t want to see me anymore. or… i don’t know.”
“it’s okay, rem,” you promise, trying to build up the cracks threatening to crumble your voice and your resolve. you try to pull away from his touch, but his fingers just find your knee instead, massaging the flesh there. “i didn’t want to get between you and celeste or anything. it seemed like the right thing to do.” the last part of your voice comes out in a throaty whisper.
“no.” he says firmly.
“no?” you ask, shoulders crawling towards your shoulders.
“no. i want you in my life, dove, always. i–celeste and i aren’t anything. i don’t like her. i never did.” his voice peters out, but his gaze on you stays strong. “there’s another girl.”
does he hate you? want to kill you? because that’s sure what he’s doing right now, and he knows you too well to not know the effect he’s having on you. like he took the sword of gryffindor and peeked it into your chest–not enough to kill you by brunt force, but enough to maim, to let you bleed out onto the bed as you stare at him, betrayal tearing open your veins.
“that’s nice, remus.” you don’t even know how words are coming out of your mouth at this point. maybe someone’s taken over your body?
“i’m sorry for not coming up to you, too. i thought it was the right thing to do,” he says quietly, one of his hands dropping from your face. goosebumps follow where his skin met yours. you think the next sound you hear is the crack crack cracking of your heart. “i thought you wanted space from me. and you deserve that. i only let her kiss me cause… well, cause i thought i had to get over you.”
what?
he’s gauging your expression, you can feel it, but again, everything’s spinning. you might pass out. what’s happening? who is this other girl he loves?
“i’ve loved you for so long, but i thought there was never a chance that you could love me back. and then, there was that day. but, you’re you, the most gorgeous girl in all of gryffindor, and then there was me. you deserve so much better than me and how fucked up i am. so i left you alone. i thought it was right.” he glances to the side, bringing his hands to his lap. this is not real. you’re not real. he was right. this was a dream, and any minute this floaty feeling will stop and you won’t feel like you can’t feel your body and you’ll wake up hear your alarm and class will start it’s not real it’s not real it’s not real.
but your hand reaches out to his, shaking. and the next words that tumble out of your lips are: “y-you love me?”
“how could i not?” a laugh slips from his mouth and those eyes–those beautiful, beautiful eyes–are back on you and you can’t swallow breathe think nothing but those eyes, those sweet eyes.
your mouth hangs open. “but…”
“i’m sorry, y/n. and i don’t know if it’s too late, if you’ve found someone better, but i couldn’t ever leave you thinking that i don’t love you back. anyone who didn’t is a fool. an utter fool.” remus scratches at his jaw, lips pursed. “sorry. i just had to say it.”
“you love me,” you repeat, looking at him. “you love me?”
“i always have and i always will. loving you is a part of me, dove, the best part of me there’s ever been.” he sucks in a breath, brings your hand to his lips. when he speaks, you can feel the vibrations of his voice on your skin. “i love you so much.”
you don’t even realize you’re crying until a tear splashes onto his cheek. you move to touch it, leaning closer to his face as your finger smooths the tear out onto his pretty skin. and then–then, oh, god, you’re so close to him. his breath is so warm. he smells so, so good.
“can i kiss you, dove?” he asks so softly that you almost don’t hear him–you’re not even sure you do, it might just be instinct that pushes your lips together. something written into your body from birth. you were meant to be his, he yours.
and merlin, he tastes better than you ever could have imagined.
remus. your remus.
a smile spreads across your lips after your next kiss, slow and so, overwhelmingly perfect. he pecks your teeth, your nose.
“remus,” you say, but a small giggle escapes you before you can finish your sentence. this is surreal. what’s happening right now? are we sure this isn’t a dream? “what are we doing?”
“kissing, dovey,” he answers with another kiss. “and, maybe, if you wanted, i could be yours?”
“you’ve always been mine, rem,” you respond solemnly, and he tugs you down next to him, pulling your body under the covers so you’re flush next to him. “only now i can kiss you.”
his palms come up to your cheeks, one to your hair, and again, the two of you connect–by your lips, sure, but also by you. you’ve connected, there’s no breaking it now.
“and all of that you were saying?” you pull back every so slightly to look at him, to know him. “you are the most perfect soul i could ever ask for. i want you to tell me every time you feel like you don’t deserve me, because that’s just untrue. you deserve everything and more, and you are so perfect for me, i can’t even fathom how you exist.”
at that, he pulls you back into him, plants and plants and plants his lips on your face. “there’s no part of me that doesn’t love you, dove. my heart, my mouth, my soul. all of me.”
and when you’re too tired to kiss any longer, if that concept even exists, you fall asleep leg between his, nose pressed into crease between his neck and jaw, arms around each other, intertwined with him for the night–though, in a way, you always have been. and you always will be.
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juno | quinn hughes social media au (pt.11)
pt. 10
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_quinnhughes little piece of heaven
trevorzegras oh my god stop rubbing it in my face
colecaufield that's what she said
trevorzegras get out
_quinnhughes he can stay
trevorzegras okay so i'll leave
_quinnhughes fine by me
trevorzegras why do you hate me
yournamehughes quinn trevor won't stop texting me about you hating him please tell him you don't hate him
_quinnhughes no can do babydoll
yournamehughes jack give him back his phone
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yournamehughes bubba's first time at rogers! and how stunning is daddy??? 😍
jackhughes Y/N for the love of god don't make me read shit like this, idc how stunning you think quinn is
yournamehughes quinn? i was talking about arty!
arturssilovs1 🫶🏻
_quinnhughes watch it
yournamehughes or what
_quinnhughes you know what
jackhughes i'm gonna k*** myself
trevorzegras nooo don't kill yourself ur so hot aha
eliaspettersson in uncle petey's jersey!
yournamehughes you're his favorite
bboeser it's because of that big round shiny head of his
yournamehughes no fights in my comments he loves both of his blonde princesses
elblue6 third gen hockey family!!
colecaufield habs draft pick in a few years!
_quinnhughes over my dead body
colecaufield noted 🔪📝
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jackhughes giving my boy all my wisdom
l_hughes06 so... you're giving him...nothing?
jackhughes and this, theodore, is why uncle lukey has no girlfriend and no friends
l_hughes06 he's 2 years old jack he isn't reading shit
yournamehughes are you the one teaching him all these colorful swear words he's loving at the moment
jackhughes no i am not the reason your child curses like a sailor ask luke
l_hughes06 not me. ask cole
colecaufield i didn't think they were going to curse on drag race!
yournamehughes you didn't think they were going to curse on DRAG RACE
_quinnhughes don't forget to mention his godfather is a massive nerd
jackhughes shut up, 7th overall draft pick, the 1rsts are brainstorming
l_hughes the storm? a bit of drizzle
subbanator oh he's getting those 10 jizzy commandments 🫡
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l_hughes06 fuck around and find out #theo
_quinnhughes luke what the fuck is this
jackhughes he left theo alone for 10 minutes in the kitchen while mom was picking up flowers
l_hughes06 i needed to go to the bathroom
_quinnhughes AND YOU COULDN'T TAKE HIM WITH YOU
l_hughes06 bro i draw the line at forcing the kid to stare at the wall while i'm in the toilet
yournamehughes luke why is my child vacuuming
l_hughes06 the caption is self explanatory
yournamehughes did you at least give him a shower before putting him in the onesie?
l_hughes06 ofc do you think i'm a brute
_quinnhughes yes
colecaufield yes
jackhughes yes
elblue6 Luke Warren Hughes is that ALL the flour i had in the house for your father's birthday cake
l_hughes06 ask your grandson
pt. 12
#nhl#nhl fic#nhl x reader#hughes brothers#quinn hughes#quinn hughes fic#quinn hughes x reader#quinn hughes x y/n#quinn hughes x you#l. hughes#j. hughes#q. hughes#l hughes#j hughes#q hughes#jack hughes#luke hughes#quinn hughes social media#quinn hughes imagine#quinn hughes x oc#quinn hughes fanfiction#inktopuck#inktopuck juno
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