#Fnd stands for

[im-very-sorry]

i go to the doctors and they diagnose me with squirrels in my legs. “Is there a cure, doc” i ask, craving a future of rodent free legs. “Yes,” says doctor doctor “the cure is breathing” I am later arrested for manslaughter after throwing a chair at his head

[futilechildhooddream]

*strangled scream*

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

when people look at some wheelchair user who can move legs / stand / walk / ambulatory / etc, n they respond with “not all wheelchair user paralyzed,” then if do “educational” post, often go on explain how don’t have (traumatic) spinal cord injury / SCI

often with attitude “paralysis / SCI (to them same thing) so well known well understood accommodated accepted visible”

which. in isolation, “not all wheelchair user paralyzed” & “not all wheelchair user have (traumatic) SCI” objectively true.

but it’s like. the utter confidence in their complete ignorance of paralysis and SCI, & ignorance of their ignorance, conflating paralysis always = SCI, & that both always mean cannot move leg at all. all while treating paralysis & SCI as this most understood disability / wheelchair using reason they a victim of.

as in like. if someone give you shit about be in wheelchair but move leg & you want educate. tell them some wheelchair user can move leg. not “not all wheelchair user paralyzed” because some people paralyzed can also move leg. saying latter only show your ignorance about paralysis, while throw ppl w paralysis under bus

don’t have any kind paralysis so maybe worst person make this post but

did you know SCI & paralysis not the same. did you know can have leg paralysis without traumatic SCI through some sort physical injury. multiple sclerosis, ALS, FND, tumor, paraneoplastic syndrome, cerebral palsy etc can all cause paralysis. n many more

did you know paralysis can be monoplegia (one limb), paraplegia (both legs), diplegia (same area both side of body), hemiplegia (one side of body), & quadriplegia (all limbs). as in, yes, some people may have paralysis but still can move legs because at least one leg not affected.

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did you know (depending on how categorize) there two types of spinal cord injury. complete & incomplete. people w incomplete SCI, brain can still send some signals below SCI site & so have some feeling and/or function.

did you know some people w SCI can move legs, including involuntary spasms (tho sometimes can be on purpose triggered by doing certain things if learn trigger).

did you know some w incomplete SCI can voluntarily move legs. can walk with mobility aids. can walk without mobility aids. can be ambulatory wheelchair user. some use their spasm to stand. n they still considered have (incomplete) SCI & paralysis.

if you didn’t know these then maybe SCI & paralysis not as well understood well accepted disorder as you think & treat it as.

(also did you know, can be non ambulatory wheelchair user without have paralysis. suprise)

(tried double triple confirm facts, but, people w paralysis, if say anything wrong please do kindly correct. cognitive + language communication disability often mix up things)

[dystopyx-blog]

Hey I didn't see any requesting rules. I'm sorry if you posted them before but I didn't see them. I completely understand if this is too much. (Ngl I've thought about writing it myself)

I was wondering if you could write about a symptom with a reader who has a form of Conversion disorder/ A form of Fnd?

It's a umbrella term but to put it into words for what it; it is when a person experiences temporary physical symptoms, such as blindness or paralysis, that do not have a physical cause. While the exact cause of conversion disorder is unknown, researchers believe it occurs in response to stressful situations or trauma.

I personally have problems with my legs not moving at all for inconsistent periods of time.(Could be 5 mins or 3 hours) (Dw I'm fine I have a mobility aid)

So my question is which yandere twst boy do you think would take advantage of the whole leg thing most?

Once again I completely understand if this is out of your comfort zone and sorry if I made you uncomfortable. I just really like your work

Y’know what maybe I should make requesting rules aksnsjsjsjsjd but I’m lazy

Speaking of lazy

Leona, no question. I have a very specific situation in mind—where you’re in the botanical gardens, standing over him, probably yapping

and then your legs give out underneath you

and Leona just… yoinks you…

you’re his pillow now.

BUT HE’S SUCH AN ASS ABOUT IT, TOO

If you nag him or just talk ‘too much’ (in his opinion) he’ll say something awful like “why can’t your moth stop working too?” if you’re sensitive like me and then cry about it, he would probably not make that comment.

Floyd is bad about it too…

you’re unable to walk so he just scoops you up and carries you with him. He’ll skip his own classes to get you where you need to go, but he will NOT put you down until your legs are fine again. And if you try to be all “oh Floyd what about your classes? :(“ He’ll just take you with him to his classes, so you miss yours. He is also very condescending about it :( and unlike Leona, he doesn’t really understand when enough is enough. Might have to complain to Jade or Azul if he goes too far with his comments or ‘jokes’.

Now imagine… you get taken to twst, and you still have conversion disorder, but no mobility aid. Crowley ain’t gonna help you. That’s just facts. So you go to Mr tech wiz on campus, Idia Shroud. But but but… he doesn’t really know what he’s supposed to be building for you 🥺 and he wants to get it right…. So you HAVE to stay with him whenever he works on it!! So he can get it right for you!!! Yeah you’re not getting a mobility aid. Man’s won’t even finish a fucking walker or wheelchair or walking stick for you, because it’ll never be “just right” or “perfect” enough for you…

Really this is just his way of ensuring you have to hangout with him. He just likes you so much 🥺👉👈

tbh this has just inspired me to do a getting trapped in twisted wonderland but without you meds and also everyone is yandere thingie

[lieran03]

Universe

Love and Deepspace Fanfic

It doesn't matter how many universe he will go. Xavier will search for her, Xavier would search the whole universe. Just so he could meet her again.

Xavier will fnd her.

Because that's love.

His love.

Song inspiration: Universe - EXO Genre: angst Pairing: Xavier x fem!reader (the character has no name called) Words: 4.2k Warning: I added a scene from Xavier's anecdotes, beware of spoiler! Originally posted on AO3: HERE!

I have a writing commission open, check it out if you're interested! Info is HERE~ [repost are very appreciated]

ENJOY~!

Xavier was a possessive man.

He didn’t care if others called him sweet, or if someone said he was so dreamy, even Xavier himself wanted to prove that he was possessive. He is possessive towards the person he really loves, which is only one. There was only one person he would always act possessive with. Yet, whenever he was with that person, all acts suddenly became sweet. For her, all he did was take care of her within his mysteries.

Is possessing over someone always called love? Or when loving someone makes it right to be possessive towards them? Xavier could never find the answer. He gives up to find the answer to those questions he never really knows why pops out. When he saw that little girl, hugging the stuffed bunny toy in her little arms, does it even matter? Or is it even right to be greedy over a person who would never remember him at all?

“You’re an amazing Hunter! I wish one day I could be your partner and defeat the Wanderer together! We will be the best partner out there!”

“No one is fit to be my partner,” Xavier would say, his tone was aggressive, while his stare from the back of his mask resembled a deep glare.

The little girl couldn’t help but feel scared of him. Was it wrong to dream about being a Hunter? Was it wrong for her to wish to have a partner as amazing as Xavier? Like Lumiere. As Xavier watches the girl’s expression change, his heart becomes heavy. He shouldn’t have become too rough, he shouldn’t have said things like that. After all, in another universe ….

“I don’t even think someone like you will able to be a Hunter. You’re too fragile and you wouldn’t be able to hold a gun. Besides that ….” Xavier stares longer at the girl, looking at how she wanted to cry already. “You have a weak heart.”

Opposed to what Xavier felt, to what his heart told him to do—saying encouraging words—Xavier could only let out hurtful words, he could only wound the girl’s heart. But what if, she never becomes a Hunter? Then, she probably would be safe from anything, she wouldn’t be in danger all the time. Xavier thought, maybe his hurtful words would able to make her back down, to let her live longer.

“I always need to search for you, Xavier! How many times do I have to say? Please pick up your phone! I thought you were dead, you know?”

“I was asleep,” Xavier answered lazily. Though the woman who walked closer to him was fuming, he only rubbed his eyes, trying to chase away the sleep from his mind.

“I know!” Once the woman was right in front of him, she was grumbling to herself before continue her words. “What was I expecting? Of course, you were asleep, and for the first time I thought you would remember our promise.”

It wasn’t his.

Or was that really him? His mind felt foggy, but it wasn’t from the drowsiness inside of him. He no longer have the ability to differentiate a lot of things. he no longer remembers what timeline he was in. All Xavier could remember was the girl, the woman he loved, the person who had opened his heart. The one who knocked on the door and never give up until it opened. Where was she now? Is she really the one standing in front of him?

Still couldn’t catch what was really happening, it felt like he was floating—he was in his dream to live a lovely life with the person he cherished the most—he listened to the woman’s words. She was emphasizing how Xavier should have accompanied her to the hospital for the regular check-up of her heart, she reminded how he had already promised to be there when she got her shot, holding her hand when she was scurrying away from the needle.

The words thrown at him left him thinking a lot. He has done a lot of things that aren’t respectable, something that he couldn’t say he was proud of. At this point, does he even deserve the love he was chasing? Does he even deserve to be partnered with the person he loves so much? From place to place, from one to another, he only did the wrong things, he always took the thorny road.

Though he wanted to cherish the girl he loved, he could only spit the hurtful and painful words toward her. Though he already had her now, he only troubled her, he only created more problems for her and made her struggle in this timeline too. Xavier stares at the girl’s face, reading her expression. She looks cute with her cheeks puffed, but he can’t deny the fact he was the reason she was feeling this way. It wasn’t something cute, not from her perspective.

“Don’t think about it. Let’s get ready now, we will be late for the appointment. I already told my doctor that I was on my way.”

“You still wanted to go with me?” It might be a dumb question, but at least Xavier did think like that. “Even when I made you struggle like this?”

A confused look can be seen on the woman’s face, yet she still answers, “Well, yeah. It was a burden to always wake you up. You’re like an old man who needs your sleep, by the way. But, regardless of anything, I still love you and choose you, right? That’s what matters to me. So, now get up and accompany me to the hospital. Pretty please?” At the end of her words, she was looking at Xavier with a puppy look, hoping it would made him say an okay.

Even without her doing it, he already knows the answer.

Xavier will always be by her side no matter what.

It’s not the look she gave him, neither the words chosen by her to explain their situation and relationship. It was the fact that she didn’t shy away or hesitate to say the words love and choose. He always chose her, no matter where or when, he always chose her and only her, he always loved her, and the only person he could put his love into. He even didn’t wish to be loved back. But how nice it could be to get the love back?

How nice it is for Xavier to finally have the person he was longing for?

Nonetheless, he still didn’t do enough. He put in a lot of determination, he put a lot of thought and effort into the things he has done all this time. But, unlike the determination inside of him, despite the things he has done so everything would be perfect just the way he wanted, nothing’s getting better. Not his life, not his relationship, not his future with the person he wanted to be for the rest of his life.

“Am I the only girl you ever talk to?” You are, even in another universe, even in another place. “Sometimes it creeps me up how well you know me. It’s okay for me to feel this way, right?”

“I’m just good at reading people,” Xavier answered, trying to act nonchalant. She didn’t remember, she couldn’t.

“Even if you could read people well, sometimes you couldn’t understand their feelings. Reading people based off their face and action are different from knowing them deeply inside, right? I think you need to polish that too. Sometimes, a person can be bothered with what you do.”

Xavier didn’t give an answer to the girl’s words, he didn’t know the way to make it like he was trying to process everything. He knows everything already. Once again, he disappoints her.

“You’re not giving me any news about yourself, you keep everything to yourself, and you didn’t trust me enough. Are we even friends? I wonder a lot of times too, Xavier. Is it that you didn’t trust me, or is it just me not competent enough in your eyes? Have I always disappointed you all this time?”

She’s not.

He is.

It seems like his effort didn’t work, it seems like he didn’t try hard enough. Looking at it, now he regrets everything. it’s not a matter of determination or how serious he is with everything. Xavier should have put his soul and his earnestness in it. Xavier should have not taken everything for granted upon knowing what was in another universe. The moment he realized everything, it was too late for him, leaving him with regret.

“I regret everything too,” Xavier said while watching as the girl walked away from him.

Maybe it was the time for Xavier to forget about her, maybe it was time for him to stop everything that he did all this time. He should stop traveling from one universe to another just to find her. He should start to learn about forgetting the person he loves so much. Besides that, Xavier knew that time wouldn’t be enough anymore. The time that keeps on ticking reminds him about when he should stop.

Xavier might remind himself again and again, about what he needs to do and what he should not do. However, his whole body just refuses to listen to himself. He didn’t think that he could forget the person he had cherished all this time, the one that he put his resolve to. She was the one and only one in his whole life. There’s no other else than her that would take the place in his heart.

Without a doubt, the seasons started to change slowly, and the loneliness inside of him grew once again. The wind started to get cold, and all Xavier could think of was the girl he longing for. How long has it been for him to meet her? How long has it been for him to distance himself so he wouldn’t be greedy and possessive over her? Within the cold breeze, Xavier thinks back to one moment. He wanted to go back to that time even though it killed him inside.

There she was, watching the sky alone with thin clothing. Though the wind was biting to her bone, she still sat there alone and didn’t think much. Slowly but surely, her head turn towards him, looking straight at him. There was a hint of loneliness, there was also a look of desperation, there was also a look of crying for help, but one that was prominent was the look of hope once she met eyes with Xavier. Slowly but surely, the smile on her lips started to grow.

How much Xavier loves that smile so that he wants to protect it in every universe.

His feet moved by themselves, getting closer and closer to the girl that also ran for him. They were meant to be, they were fated to be together, but why the longer he ran, the farther she felt? Even though she was now right in front of him, she still felt so far away from him. When both of her weak hands wrapped around his shoulder, it felt like she was no longer in his arms. Why does she feel so far away from him?

“You’re finally here,” she said, letting out a fog from her chapped lips. She looked pale, she was sick, and he couldn’t even save her from the pain she was in. The cold body that wrapped around him can be affected by two things, either the changing season and the fact it was night, or because her soul slowly ripped from her body.

“I’m here for you.”

Xavier thought at least the words he wanted to say were declared clearly, he wanted the girl to listen to what his heart was speaking. His arms were full, filled with the weak girl in his embrace. Though she looks hazarded, she still looks up and smiles at Xavier, wanting to comfort him, telling him that everything is all right. She was okay.

On that cold night, when they try to share their remaining warmth, in the night where their breaths touch, and smoke starts to come out from their mouth because of the biting air, they were trying to keep each other warm, they were holding each other close so they won’t have to be separated. They know the universe will try its best to break them, but they wish for their bond to keep overlapping each other.

For them to be in every universe the other was.

“You promised we would watch the meteor shower again.”

“We have our own destinies …. Some things can’t be forced ….” Xavier felt the girl he loves reach out and poke the corner of his mouth. “Don’t be sad. I’ve been very happy this past month.”

It should be him, it should have been Xavier who cried. Instead of him, the dying girl in front of him started to cry, the tears began to fall as she finished speaking. Xavier wipes them away, trying to chase away the sadness in her heart. They were at the most breathtaking place, a mirror-like salt flat that connects heaven and earth, making the sky seem so boundless.

“No matter what happens, I’ll be by your side. And no matter how long you rest, I’ll wait for you.” The girl finally leaned on Xavier’s shoulder, dreaming about her future, about what if she didn’t have the disease.

“It’s a shame … there are no stars tonight.”

“There is one.” Xavier's answer was absolute before he opened his glowing palm. The light suddenly becomes brighter that night.

“I wish to meet you in my next life …. I wonder if that will come true …,” the girl mumbled, head starting to slip from Xavier’s shoulder.

This time, Xavier didn’t give an immediate answer. After a few moments, he finally says, “It will.” Xavier held the cold hand, trying his very hardest to give his warm to her, the soul that was slowly gone. “No matter how many times it takes, no matter where you are … I will find you.”

Xavier dreamed of tomorrow, he wished for the day when he could spend it with her, and he daydreamed with her about what would happen the next day. He was so sure, she was so sure, the two of them were so sure, that their tomorrow, that their next step would shine just like the stars. Their day would be filled with wonder, just like how they watch the meteor show, just like how they put their wish onto the thousand falling stars like a little kid.

He kept his promise. Xavier searches the whole universe until he can find the girl again. He searches from one universe to another, just to find her again, just to be with her like he promised to her. He won’t stop until he can find her again, he doesn’t want to give up before he can fulfill his promise. Others might say he was annoying or dumbstruck with love, but the girl was his only one, his reason for staying alive until now.

From one universe, where he need to watch her with another man, and from another one, where she didn’t even exist. The only thing that kept him sane was the memories of them together, the warmth of her hand the last time he held it. Xavier won’t ever let go, he will keep even the smallest memories he shares with her. Every little interaction they had, every meeting though they didn’t know each other, and every time their eyes met.

Just like the petals that fall on both of their hair, where her gentle hand collected the petals from his hair. Just like how they go to camping in a summer night with the other Hunters and decided to isolated themselves. Just like how they watch a sunset from a train in the fall, where the moment doesn’t last long since the night starts to grow colder. Every moment and every season, the memories was engraved deeply in the seasons they share even though they were in a different universe.

“What are you looking at, Xavier? Is there something on my face?” Her voice sounded so gentle that Xavier couldn’t help but smile. His hand moves to brush the ice cream on the corner of her lips. It did remind him of something. It’s not the past, nor it was a mere memory.

“You eat like a four-year-old.”

“Hey! That’s not true!” The girl’s grumbles left Xavier chuckling. It was the same grumbling as the other her.

The memories of their date, their interaction, in each season come and go several times and Xavier started to lose his mind. He no longer what timeline he was in, he was no longer aware of the universe he was in. Everything started to get into a blur, the memories, their interaction, the names, and yet, he would still call out to her. His heart, his mind, his lips, all about him was always about her. Only her, his universe.

“You always act dumb to my tricks, you play along with every one of them. Why are you doing that? Are you trying to mock me?”

“It was fun to see you smile.” Not in every universe Xavier could see her smile, not in every connection they had, they had a smooth relationship.

“Then, you have to smile too!” This time too, Xavier could see the smile of the girl he loves very much. There’s no way for him to not be happy if he could be with the person he loves, he enjoys every little of it.

There was laughter in their relationship. Not counting the universe, Xavier succeeded to found the one where the two of them would be happy. But would that be enough? Is this the one that search for? Is this the ending he wanted? Xavier no longer knew what would be his goal, his dream, he just wanted to be with her a little bit longer. Once he knew his time wasn’t long anymore, anyone would notice how he wouldn’t age, he decided to leave.

“Are you … bored of me?” In just a few months of their relationship, Xavier wanted to run away, he couldn’t stay longer in this universe or he would make everything a mess. “You’re trying to leave me, right?”

“That’s not what I want … not what I felt.”

“Then why do you never answer my call? Why do you never open your door when I knock on it? It feels like you’ve just disappeared, it feels like you’ve abandoned me! Do you even see me as important, Xavier? Am I important to you?”

Very.

She was a very important person for Xavier.

Although, the words never come out from his lips. What’s the best way for him to explain that he was traveling around the universe? How does he even explain he wasn’t from that universe? It was a secret, it was something he need to keep to himself. It was the weight he needed to bear for trying to find and keep her safe even in another universe. What kind of lie does he need to say to her? What kind of lie he can say without hurting her feelings?

“We will meet again.”

“When?” In another life, in another universe. “When will we meet again?”

“I’m just not the right person for you.”

“After all those memories? And all that happiness we share together? Tell me what’s wrong with our relationship! Or at least, tell me what’s wrong with me so I can know, so I can understand you better.”

But she could never.

Instead of laughter, or happiness, this time all Xavier brought was tears to her. He hurt her, he shattered her heart, he ruined her. He keeps making scars in his and her heart, and he keep healing it each time he meets with her. He keep throwing question, she gives question, and all the answer will always be the same. The simple answer was that there was only one in his heart. No matter what was the question, Xavier could always answer, they’re all within the girl.

“Do you love me?”

“No one else.”

“What did you like?”

“You.”

“Have you ever been in a relationship before?”

“No. Only you.”

Xavier’s world was within the girl, she had his world. In the bigger universe, he was traveling around, in the universe he was lost in, jumping from one to another, she was the small universe he kept chasing. Even if it was just a small universe, it keeps on changing, rotating, and moving. The lights keep chasing the small universe wherever they go, not wanting to let go, not wanting to forget the small universe for the bigger one.

Just like a little kid playing tag, they keep chasing each other without any stop. Xavier knows the moment the smaller universe vanishes, he will also disappear too. Once the small universe explodes, even the light will be killed, it will be exchanged with a deep darkness. Without any light, even the bigger universe would also explode, showing how there was no hope anymore. That was the only reason for Xavier to keep on chasing the person he loves. Maybe.

No matter how much he traveled, how many versions of her he met, or how many memories he made with her, his mind would always bring back the one that he wanted to tear the most, yet he always keep it close to him. Memories that always bring tears to him repeating inside of his head, memories of the days he wanted to recreate replaying inside his mind, making the tears fall when he was alone on his bed.

It was cold.

The air, the season, the place, even her hand that Xavier was holding tightly. Everything around him was cold, and he was left alone to be the person with warmth. Everything has vanished, everything has been restarted. Everything was washed away. Her memories, her moments with him, her voice, her expression whenever she saw him, everything was now long gone. Xavier remained with the body of her, the shell of the person he loved so dearly.

“Xavier, please meet me even in another life, okay?”

“Xav, can we be lovers too in another universe?”

“Xavie, I love you so much that I can’t be separated from you even in another place! We are inseparable!”

“Can we … stop here, Xavier? I don’t wish for us to meet in another life. I don’t wish for us to meet even in another universe.”

These aren’t feelings that Xavier can end. It’s not a feeling that Xavier can wash away so easily. Though he might try, he could never succeed. In just one day, the day he decided to not travel to another universe, where he lives in the universe where she was dead, within just one try, the loneliness started to creep inside of his heart. There were screams inside of his head. He felt it in every inch of his body that it started to hurt.

“I don’t care,” Xavier said to himself, hands on his door knob. “Wherever you are, I’ll go to you. Wherever you are, I will always find you.”

Xavier didn’t think much, he didn’t put any thoughts about what he was doing. Even if it was hurting him, ruining him, and even killing him, he would still search the whole universe. Until Xavier could find her again. He won’t ever let go, even the smallest memories he had with her, from the past, from the future, from her. The memories that were engraved in the seasons he shared with her, once again come back to him.

With the growing tulips to show the start of spring, with the maple leaf that changing color to show the fall has come, with the chilling air to show winter was coming, and with the blazing sun that scream summer was here. Xavier would find her, again and again, he would find her. Wherever she was, Xavier would meet with her again. It doesn’t matter what seasons they met for the first time, it doesn’t matter where they met. As long as Xavier could meet with her again.

“Hey, are you a new Hunter? Nice to meet you! Let’s work hard as a partner, okay?” Xavier, entering the room, found that there was only her inside. The smile she gave him was warming, there was still life in it. “Why are you so silent? What’s your name?”

Xavier was silent for a few seconds before he decided to answer her with a firm tone. “Xavier. My name is Xavier, nice to meet you.”

“A new house? That’s funny, but I like it! You can be my new house. Nice to meet you, Xavier! Let’s show that we’re the best partner!” With that, Xavier knows that another love will bloom. Like the flower petal that flew with the wind in spring.

Xavier knew, that this was his mission from the start.

He will find her again.

He will search for her again.

Because what was inside of him was love.

Because it was love.

[angelcatsiel]

FND stands for Fucking Nonsense Disorder

[mask131]

So you want to know about Oz! (6)

The "Oz" world is definitively one of the big slices of American culture, and yet it has managed to reach many countries outside of the USA!

For example, Japan. The Wizard of Oz is one of the several American works of fiction that were brought over to the Nippon world and that Japanese folks took quite a liking to! As a result it regularly pops up there alongside more European "foreign classics" like Alice in Wonderland or the Grimm fairytales.

The first Japanese Oz adaptation I know of was an animated movie created in 1982 by Toho, adapting The Wonderful Wizard of Oz.

It was one of the two most famous anime adaptations of the Oz books. The other I talked about before: 1986's The Wonderful Wizard of Oz series, which is to this day one of the most complete Oz adaptations ever made for screen. Indeed, this anime doesn't just cover "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz", but also "The Marvelous Land of Oz", "Ozma of Oz" and "The Emerald City of Oz". In fact, when I first got a DVD of the series as a kid I was VERY confused as to why suddenly there were all these weird events and characters comng out of nowhere, since I was only aware of the very first book.

[Looking at these animes allows one to notice several big cultural changes from American to Japan. For example, these adaptations have a tendency to give a purplish-skin to the Wicked Witch of the West, as opposed to the greenish skin of the Witch in American media... And it reflects how in Japanese visuals purple is the color most associated with toxic products, radioactivity and poison, whereas it is "green" the venomous and radioactive color in American media]

There is a second series that is more... unique to say the least. 1991's The Wonderful Galaxy of Oz (Space Oz no Bouken), which is a retelling of The Wonderful Wizard of Oz... but in space! We are not in the early 1900s but in 2060, "New Kansas" is actually a planet, Oz an ENTIRE NEW GALAXY, and the quest for the "Brain, Heart, Courage" becomes a quest for magical crystals of "Love, Wisdom and Courage" to fend off an intergalatic invasion... Yeah that's very Japanese for you.

Adaptations of "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz" also appeared from time to time as individual episodes in fairytale anthologies series - from 1976's Manga sekai mukashi Banashi, to 1993's World Fairy Tale Series, passing by a stand-alone OVA from (1983 I believe?).

Outside of animes, the world of Oz notably had great success in the domain of Japanese video games.

Most people today are familiar with the game "The Wizard of Oz: Beyond the Yellow Brick Road", which was originally released in 2008 under the strange name... "Riz-Zoawd?". And which is ... quite loosely adapted from The Wonderful Wizard of Oz. (You don't have one wicked witch to defeat but four seasonal witches to fight ; the magical shoes are given to Dorothy by the Wizard of Oz who summoned her to the land, etc...)

And while it is not available anymore, there was this app game that was quite talked about and documented online. It was a dating sim part of the "Shall we date?" line: Oz+ Shall we date?

A dating simulation taking place after the events of the novel, but in a world where Dorothy's companions became pretty young human men, and the Land of Oz doesn't have four Witches but four Warlocks... And this game actually had, surprisingly, quite a lot of Oz lore to it! I will definitively say that it was a precursor of future games like "Twisted Wonderland", in the idea of an "actually serious at worldbuilding genderbent game".

There are a few others but I unfortunately cannot fnd them back for now... Oh well!

And while I am at it, this is NOT a Japanese work, this is a Korean manhwa, but I think it still deserves a mention: "Dorosi" (published in English as "Dorothy of Oz") which is a very interesting reinterpretation of The Wizard of Oz as a sci-fi/science-fantasy series (the Witches are not witches, but hyper-advanced scientists delving into robotics, genetics and other sci-fi technology; a lot of the characters are just mutants or equiped with android-prosthetics, etc, etc...)

[seasickzig]

Have FND on the mind so I’m gonna info dump and then share my experience.

FND stands for Functional Neurological Disorder. Neurology is the study of the nervous system, how the brain and body communicate. In FND, the functioning of the nervous system is bad, causing miscommunication between the brain and body. FND frequently develops from C-PTSD or PTSD, but can develop for other reasons. Anything that could “fry” your nervous system really. Because FND causes a miscommunication between the brain and body, a vast array of neurological symptoms can present, including seizures, tremors, tics, paralysis, pain, speech impediments, brain fog, dystonia, and more. Some people experience many neurological symptoms, and some people only experience a few symptoms. Sometimes the symptoms people face can change throughout the years! Therapy is commonly used to help treat the underlying condition causing the overworked nervous system, but some medications can help reduce symptoms as well.

Now for my experience with FND! So my main symptom of FND is seizures, I have a sub-diagnosis of PNES (haha) or Psychogenic Non-Epileptic Seizures. I get seizures anytime my mind or body get stressed out, so if my heart rate gets too high, i seize. my heart rate can spike from being too hot, standing for too long, being dehydrated, working out, or being stressed out. I also get seizures at night and in the mornings, because theyre non epileptic I wake up to seize and then fall back asleep usually. Before I went through trauma therapy I had a tremor in my right hand that developed at the same time as my PTSD, but its gone now!

I’m also diagnosed with tourette syndrome but im not sure if my tics are from tourettes or FND or both! Scientifically there isnt a lot of difference between the two to my knowledge.

[thefundisorderdiary]

Guys, I need to rave about this chair. It’s not meant for disabled folks, it’s not even made for indoors, but it is so so helpful to my and my FND.

I am fully aware that size and price will make this not an option for many, but if you can I highly recommend it or something similar!

(I didn’t even get this as a medical chair, I just wanted the aesthetic ✨)

Let me introduce you to:

The Snugglepod

B&Q Goodhome Apolina black rattan Egg Chair

(I typed that from memory because of reasons mentioned at the end! 🙃)

£350

It’s in B&Q’s outdoor seating section because it is garden chair.

Let’s discuss; look at all that snuggle space! It’s got a really wide, mostly-circular seat. That black cushion it comes with is well padded, but it can be a bit protruding and takes up a lot of space, though if you do lie back it becomes a lovely back and neck support! I’m a curl-up-like-a-cat person though so it often falls on me and I have to push it back up.

You can fit lots of other cushions in there! That orange that’s poking up; this are my sleeping pillows from my bed, you definitely want two on top of one another because the slope of the sides leave a gap where the seat cushion ends. I’m thinking of getting some door draught excluders because I think they’ll be the right shape to fill the gap.

I will absolutely be getting a bunch of fairy lights to string up and around it! Try and stop me.

The really wide seat also means you’ve got plenty of space to get in and out; you can see how much space my little table is taking up in front of it, but I can still get in and out easily. Lots of space to get help from a carer!

So. Much. Grab space! This thing is sturdy. It’s got a few thick metal bars and in between is a mix of plastic fake wicker and some thinner metal bars. These thick metal ones are in a position you can grab and lift yourself, they’re excellent for when you need to pull yourself out of a curl-up.

That empty semi-circle bar is a little bit high, so you gotta do a bit of a push up before you can grab it, but then it’ll happily take your weight as you sit properly upright and I usually continue holding it while I stand up. You definitely need some arm flexibility if you use it to stand up though because it will end up behind you a bit.

Also discussing the wicker; you can squeeze a blanket between the bars and make a little den!

The side bars are also perfect for leaning up forearm crutches pretty securely so you don’t have to worry about struggling to get to your aids.

The seat cushion is T H I C K and pretty durable (again; it’s an outdoor chair). This means it’s so comfy on your bum, hips, shoulders, knees, and toes, whatever you want to put on it.

It’s the perfect height for my legs to reach the floor and I’m 5’5”. Meaning it’s nice and low enough for even small doggy companions to jump up next to you for extra snuggly snugglepod snuggles!

Feat. Rupert (below).

Finally; I do want to mention that while I absolutely recommend this chair I do not recommend B&Q.

They sent me a faulty chair in the first place that couldn’t be assembled and it took them 2 whole months and numerous phone calls/online chats (and I told them I was disabled and struggling to get around it since it was in pieces on my floor each time) to sort it out and even then the only reason they finally did something about it was because I had to get a letter about my rights from Citizens Advice and that’s when they actually got my new chair sorted!

I have cried so much to get this chair, but it’s one of my favourite things in my home and soothes me a lot when I’m struggling.

[brucethegirl]

Fave season of ouat. And y. Go. (Mine is 3 bc that’s when you see hooks softer/ but still flirtier side and the relationship growing). Although 5-6 come very close bc they are stronger and the proposal and wedding. Ahhhh. But omg when he asked for David’s blessing. That ep had me. But all the kissing in season 3. Oh wait, there’s other people other than hook and Emma in ouat? Nah.

Oh gosh.... (edit: i wrote like two paragraphs of this before realizing you just asked general favorite season, not favorite CS season, but I still turned this into a CS post.)

Season 2 is not bad. There's so much there for background to understand where emma was coming from, versus season 1 which was mostly us as viewers learning who everyone was in the enchanted forest and how the story we know was being reinterpreted. Now it was learning where Emma was coming from, where Killian comes into the picture and some of his background, where Cora comes from which lays the groundwork for how she raised Regina and where she is coming from. How they became the people they became today, the steps of their recent history. The continuous choices and situations that led them to where they were when they all came together. I love straight up evil Killian. It's fun. Him trusting her immediately, him being sassy flirty, him saying "just a I'm done with you" (pssh, okay my guy). but at the end, despite it being good writing, I'm just okay about it. I mean yea its got Tallahassee.... but I also am not a fan of how they handled the neal/emma relationship when they were young. Michael Raymond-James is NOTICEABLY an older man well into his 30s, and I could buy him being a rough 20 something, but Emma is VERY MUCH meant to be late teens and that entire casting situation and its implications followed by the pushing in later seasons for her to be with Neal by her family just makes me so very uncomfortable.

Three is honestly such a fair choice. I love season 3 with Hook starting to realize he needs to change and wants to change. But also still actively having to purge his villain tendencies. Rolling his eyes while volunteering to help Belle research. His snarky comments constantly that no one laughs at cause they're a little on the meaner side. But also the way he and Emma so automatically can read each other. She just has to tilt her head or nod and he knows what she wants him to do. The longing looks, the declarations. Nothing beats "when I win your heart, and I will win it. It will be because you want me" NOTHING. "I'm in this for the long haul" after saying he'll back off to give Henry the chance at a family, and won't inject himself into that. But also knows Neal will mess it up, knows he'll be on the sidelines for the second of an oppertunity. Knows that he DOES stand a valid chance if he wanted to fight. Like, just fuck me up. The shift in Regina's character and how she learns to become good, how that is different from Hook's journey but they both recognize it being the same journey. Her teaming up with Rumple to fnd Henry and it markedly NOT being villains teaming up, but her willing to do anything to save her son and the second she realizes its no good, she's gone. Learning more about the emotional backstory and early character moments in their lives, Hook, Emma, and Regina especially. Learning the complicate pasts, and seeing the steps they took to get here. I feel like actual writing wise- its the strongest season for them. Its also go the best lines. Like Regina and Robin also is SO GOOD in the flashbacks and I forever regret not getting more of them in that weird flirty hate each other stage but what we did get was SO GOOD. "Where you come from, they bath in the river and use pine cones for money" Lana... ma'am.... that is THE BEST LINE in the entire show for me. This season had all the potential, and for that it gets a lot of points. A lot of what was built didn't get delivered on as well as it should have, but that's not the foundations fault. And this season was the foundation.

Season 4 is prime them in love. I love the relationship part of most shows when they handle it well, and I think THAT aspect was handled well. Him obviously in love, her coming to terms with what that means. So much angst in a good way of him being the reason for some of the problems she has. Of him not having his heart. Of him realizing he can't keep making the same villain mistakes if he's going to be with her, if he's going to change. If he's going to be a better man. This is a great season just like... FOR him. You see the realizations that he's made these mistakes and he can't even blame his past self. His current self did this to himself. You see the beginnings of his self-loathing and how that builds the reasoning for the choices he makes. He's had his hook for centuries, he's learned how to work with it and around it. But for the date, the internalized ableism got the better of him, and he thought in order to be a better man, and the man she deserved, he needed to be 'whole.' Which is IMMeDIATELY disproved when she doesn't even realize he had his hand until its pointed out, and also doesn't notice its a hook again later because she loves HIM she sees HIM. Those outward shifts and changes are not important. She notices his clothing change because it represents so much more about him embracing this weird strange land and showing he's sticking around. But his hook? Well thats just part of him that she accepts because its part of him so when he changes it its not something she notices. (sorry, i have a LOT of feelings about this episode) And then the whole darkness inside him and the hand and him being a villain and being afraid of losing his happy ending. 4b is weak we all know that, but the emotions of it are so strong. "Don't you know Emma? It's you." MY GUYYYYYY. The kisses we got this season, the emotional leaps and bounds. Him admitting having her in his life is what keeps him on the side of the heroes. Him saying he hopes its his job to protect her heart even when no one is actively trying to steal it. Her discovering more about her past and really starting to share her history with someone, showing her past and being vulnerable with someone and allowing them to scale the fortress she's put up to protect herself. Learning that someone is there begging to be let in, and isn't going away, and even when she ignores him he says basically that he's not deterred so easily, she's worth it, he recognizes that, and he'll just wait patiently for her to be ready. He will always put her first. Will put her family first. Often at the expense of himself.

Now season 5. Look. Do I think its strong? No. It's some of the saddest writing (season 6 is the worst in my opinion) in that it had SO MUCH POTENTIAL. But it Never delivers it. Season 4 was their love story, so there's no need to focus so heavily on them in season 5, sometimes having them not even interact in scenes that make NO SENSE for them to not interact. Despite the fact that she's just told him she loved him before being taken over by the darkness and saying she trusts him to be able to reach her and save her. Despite the entire ARC being ABOUT THEM for BOTH HALVES, the actual day to day episode to episode is not about them at all. So little focused on them, on them interacting, on their story. It was such a mess. So much promise with so little delivery. Nothing was allowed to breath, nothing was allowed to sit, no one was allowed to have a single thought to work through what they were going through. He's evil for what? a single episode? and in the middle of it there's this entire hour about a character we don't know, with no one we care about, about something never mentioned again that holds zero bering on ANYTHING that happens or has happened. So much wasted time. I LOVE what 5 could have been. I LOVE the implications, and the shifts in narrative and expectation. I LOVE the discovery and acceptance of their relationship and the confirmations we get. I HATE nothing is ever discussed on screen. Everything is implied to happen off screen "like I told you" Did you tell her when the cameras were off? We're given nothing we should have. Everyone else is just set dressing, and yet have all the focus. Its disjointed and just lazy, and its only saving grace is whoever had the initial idea on the brain storm board and then the acting itself. But damn if this season doesn't give me inspiration.

Finally, season 6.... I'll leave at saying when its good, its great. All three singular scenes that are good. There's no follow through from whats already happened to these characters. There's no acknowledgment of their past selves, their past experiences. Hook is GENUINELY shocked that Emma understands why he didn't toss the shears knowing she'd hate him for doing 'the one thing that could save her' WHEN THAT WAS THE ENTIRE CLIMAX OF 5A!

All of this to say, I guess 3?

[moonyspadfoot793]

Give me physically disabled Sirius Black. Sirius Black with EDS, who uses joint supports and her rings are ring splints and they sometimes can't sleep at night because of pain and they wake up with dislocated joints and have to stop playing quidditch at 15 because his joints are just too bad by that point. Sirius Black with POTS who gets really scared when they have heart palpitations and never showers with the door locked and only ever when Remus is in the dorm just in case and they get dizzy when they stand up and sometimes she has to rely on her friends to catch him when they nearly fall. Sirius Black whose leg is paralysed after one of their mother's punishments in 5th year and they run away to James' and have to quit quidditch after that and use a walking stick. Sirius Black with gastroparesis who can only eat a minimal amount of food and is predominantly fed via feeding tube. Sirius Black with FND who has tics and seizures and occasional temporary paralysis and who teaches their friends how to care for her when he has a seizure or a tic attack. Sirius Black whose disability (s) make them feel closer to Remus, whose disability (s) help him to understand Remus better and vice versa, who make her a better boyfriend to Remus and vice versa. Sirius Black who, along with James Potter, hexes anyone who dares say anything ableist to or about them or their boyfriend. Sirius Black and Remus Lupin being Hogwarts' resident disabled power couple. Disabled Sirius Black.

[this-smile-is-real]

When the chronic health conditions flare up they don’t do it lightly… all whilst recovering from eye surgery 6 days ago.

I’ve been noticing both FND and Fibromyalgia getting worse over the last couple of weeks with the weather change, but I didn’t expect today to hold 3 seizures, being unable to move my left leg as a result (it’s always been the right leg affected), an ambulance and being unable to hold my own weight standing due to how shaky my legs were and how dizzy my head was.

Grateful that it’s not an eating disorder admission but surprised that I have been admitted medically.

Current status: completely exhausted, legs burning with pain but grateful to finally have a bed to lie down in 🙏🏻

[finnslay]

"FND" is the old good hystery.

You're hysterical

FND stands for Functional Neurological Disorder? It's a disability. How is it hysterical?

[majokkid]

My partner has been doing a daily card pull as homework for a tarot class he’s sitting in on so I decided this would be a good opportunity to start doing that as well! While my personal deck isn’t mapped to a traditional tarot system, the cards can easily be read in a similar way.

Today I drew Shadow upright. Shadow is a trump and stands in the position of ‘Death’ in my deck. While it can warn of a coming change, Shadow often represents the unknown, the reason and solution for a problem. Shadow’s general teaching is that the problem that haunts you is trying to send you a message; while it may seem impossible to fnd your way, the path to a solution will eventually come into view when seen in the right light.

My intuitive reading is that Shadow is tuning into my worries and insecurities. My cards are often quite upfront and sensitive to what is influencing me the most at any given time, and this reading is no different. I’ve admittedly been a little obsessed with keeping up with the news and I’ve been listening to a lot of political commentary to the point where it might be a little detrimental to my productivity and mental health. While these things are important and I do not want to fall into the trap of ignorance, I think Shadow is hinting that I need to turn inwards and reflect for a beat.

[conradscrime]

The Murder of Peter Fabiano

October 30, 2023

On October 31, 1957, Halloween night, in Sun Valley, California, a 35 year old hairdresser named Peter Fabiano answered his door shortly after 11 pm. Peter, being a little annoyed due to the late trick or treaters, said, "It's a little late for this, isn't it?"

The person standing on the other side of the door was not a child -- the person was taller, with a "grotesque" painted face, domino mask and wearing men's clothing including blue jeans, a khaki jacket and red gloves.

The trick or treater replied in a deep voice, "No" and held up a paper bag with a gun inside it. Then a gunshot was heard, and Peter's wife, Betty, and her teenaged daughter, Judy ran to the door to discover the shooter had already ran off and Peter was lying on his back.

Judy ran to the neighbours house, Bud Alper, who worked for the Los Angeles Police. In no time, officers were at the Fabiano's.

Peter was transferred to the Sun Valley Receiving Hospital where he later died from massive bleeding.

Peter was born in 1923, and after serving in World War II, was an extremely successful hairdresser in the area, and him and his wife Betty appeared to be a perfect couple, owning two beauty salons in LA. Betty claimed she was 36 years old and had two teenagers from a previous marriage. She had married Peter in 1955.

Betty had said that she, Peter and Judy had just went to bed shortly before the doorbell rang that night after 11pm. When Peter went to the door, Betty heard two adult voices, one that sounded masculine and the other sounded like a man impersonating a woman.

The murder of Peter Fabiano was known as the "Trick or Treat Murder" in the media, but who would commit this heinous crime?

A 43 year old woman named Goldyne Pizer was a medical secretary and described as "matronly." She graduated from Los Angeles High School in 1934 and had gotten married in the 1940's, but was either widowed or divorced it's unclear. In 1957, Goldyne met a 40 year old woman, Joan Rabel, who lived only 1 mile from Goldyne's house near the Sunset Strip in Hollywood.

Joan is more of a mystery. Some sources claim she was born in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania and came to the US from Lithuania. Joan was a photographer and writer, often travelling to Hawaii for inspiration it's claimed. In 1957, Joan was also divorced and working for Peter Fabiano in his salon.

It was working for Peter that Joan met Betty, and the two hit it off. Joan considered herself a good friend to both Fabiano's. Eventually, Joan claimed that Betty told her Peter was abusive and controlling, and Joan began to obsess about the idea of getting Betty out of this life with Peter. Betty had even left Peter for a short period of time and stayed with Joan.

Joan would often discuss the Fabiano's to Goldyne, calling Peter "pure evil." The two would talk about Peter and Betty over coffee, and over a 3 month period, somehow, Joan had convinced Goldyne to become a hitwoman for her. She did not pay Goldyne for the actual hit, however she provided her money for a gun and borrowed a getaway car from another friend.

After the murder on Halloween, Goldyne was driven home by Joan who told her, "Forget you ever knew me."

On November 1, 1957, the next morning, Goldyne discovered she had not disposed of the gun, Joan had left those instructions out. Goldyne took the gun to Bullock's flagship store and put it in a storage locker.

It only took 2 weeks for the police to fnd this gun and question Goldyne, who confessed immediately. Both women were arrested for the murder.

In court, Goldyne was crying and showing obvious remorse, but Joan was stone cold, showing no emotion except for sometimes smiling. Goldyne plead not guilty by reason of insanity, claiming that Joan had cast some sort of spell on her that was impossible to resist.

On March 11, 1958, Goldyne and Joan pleaded guilty to second degree murder to avoid trial. Both women were sentenced to 5 years to life in prison, however no one knows how much time each of them served.

There are many rumours over this case and whether or not there was any lesbian relationships involved. Some believe that Joan and Betty's dynamic was strange, and the two were lovers. Others believe that Joan was in love with Betty, and needed to get rid of Peter as he was in the way. There has never been any definitive proof of this, and there's never been any proof that Peter was abusive to Betty.

It was claimed that Peter had asked Betty to end her friendship with Joan, which she did.

Goldyne died in 1998 in Los Angeles. Betty sold the beauty salon after Peter died and remarried in 1966. Betty died in 1999, at the age of 81 in Palm Desert, California. However, this age means that at the time of Peter's death Betty had been 39, not 36 like she claimed or those believed.

The real mystery is that no one knows what happened to Joan. She disappeared and no one was ever able to say where she went or who she became.

[autisticethanmorgan]

(^in reference to me saying Ethan has FND) @bettyweir

WHY THANK YOU FOR ASKING

FND stands for function neurological disorder which is basically a problem where your brain sometimes sends and receives signals wrong (freestyles as I like to say) which can cause things like twitches, seizures, lapse of attention and chronic headaches

It’s thought to be potentially caused by significant early childhood stress, and stress causes symptoms to worsen

The way Ethan blanks out during visions reminded me of absense seizures and lapse of attention and also he’s just like me fr so he can have my disorder too