#Finally going to give her a name:
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since you guys liked Kai, I’m posting this
shes delusional as hell when it comes it love
#team footemoji#self insert#animation#Finally going to give her a name:#Kai López#It’s not my real name dw
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One Piece means a lot to me as a disabled person, which I think would be pretty surprising to anyone who only has a surface understanding of it. The supposed central theme of "follow your dreams" would be pretty alienating to someone like me, right? It really, really would be, if that's what it was actually about.
However, that ignores that Luffy's dream is to be the most free person in the world. And to attain that goal, the first thing he does is find friends to live life with. Over and over again, from the very beginning, he takes on their burdens, all in the name of being the most free.
Do you see what that would mean to me, as someone who needs more help to get by than is considered culturally normal, to the point that it puts me in a whole socially manufactured category of "other"? Not to mention, because of the infantilization of me due to that category, because of being forced so squarely into the "cared for" role, taking care of other people is deeply meaningful and empowering for me. However, the myths of independence and universal natural ability often make it emotionally difficult for my loved ones to accept that care.
The fear of asking for help, the guilt of being cared for, the weight of someone you loved who could not be as free as you, the insecurity of not contributing enough, the fear that you were born wrong, the self-hatred that says you are not worth the effort, Nami Sanji Zoro Usopp Robin Chopper Ace they all explore the painful obstacles to free connection. Through deeply impactful stories that weave beautifully into the larger one.
All centered around this one person who views loving them and living with them and carrying them as essential to his freedom. Who cannot, for countless reasons, live a normalized life of Structured Relations. Who views exploring and bickering and suffering and laughing with them as the ideal way to live. Who repeatedly puts his life and limbs on the line to do so.
To me, it is an ultimate privilege and freedom to carry other people's burdens. To care for them and live with them. This is central to my whole perspective, and is completely informed by my life experience as a disabled person. I rarely see it reflected back to me. Let alone as powerfully and beautifully as Luffy does.
Nor the other half of it, of wanting to create this life with people in ways that aren't socially normal or approved. Of creating many varied lifelong intimate relations among equals, rather than conforming to the expectation of choosing One Person to live life with and then Creating More.
The utter lack of roles and norms is just as integral and powerful to the exploration of freedom and connection! It is meaningful to me as a queer person, yes, but even this is deeply influenced by my disability. I could never be that One Person, despite everything I have to offer, there is logistically far too much that I cannot do to be someone's equal partner in this society that demands so much from all of us. However, even if I could, I wouldn't want to! It doesn't make any sense to me to only have two people navigate life together on such intimate terms. Can't the demands of society be more comfortably met in a group? Isn't life more fun that way?
We are taught that we can and must do everything ourselves, I just happen to be one of the people that never had a chance to buy into that lie. To learn very early not just the necessity of interdependence, but the joy in it. To learn that it is most comfortably lived with more people involved. To me, close relationships are, love is, a natural extension of that understanding. One Piece celebrates interdependence constantly from the start, while never pretending that it is always easy.
The obstacles to free connection that I mentioned before, they are interspersed throughout the story, and they are always met with "I do the things you can't do, and you do the things I can't do." With, "Of course I can't use swords you dumbass! And I can't cook either! I don't know a damn thing about navigation! And I can't lie!"
These are intentionally impactful moments, and they define the series. I found it very fitting that the Fan Letter focused on a character who was empowered by Nami to feel free and live adventurously despite not being the most physically capable. The character is able by our definition, but the story is very affirming in a disability way, and it was extremely One Piece. I loved how it acknowledged this deep connection between One Piece and the lived reality of disability and celebrated it as integral as it is.
I also believe that absolutely none of this is intentional. It is simply an earnest exploration of human relationships, emotions, and behavior, and it naturally arrives at a radical and disability-affirming viewpoint. Because we are the monkey wrench in the deeply unhealthy (lol) and dominant line of thinking that independence is all. So naturally anything that also disputes that thinking has a disabled-perspective feel to it. The best part is how much it doesn't give a fuck! One Piece is aggressively against conformity in human relationships, in a way that is hard to find in our new world of self-conscious authors.
It's also, you know, the worst part, in terms of all the outrageous bigotry and offensive character design, but god damn it if it doesn't elevate the good parts to unbearable heights. Even the bad character designs can sometimes be more impactful for their intentional "ugliness", when those characters are inevitably taken seriously despite their appearance and the stereotypes they play on, it hits hard every time. I do have a simple hatred for many choices, there is no pay-off for much of the awful problems in numerous character designs and dialogue. But no matter how upset I can be by those things, in the end they can't succeed in pulling me away from One Piece. It's just so crazy and unique and great and terrible and beautiful and I LOVE IT.
#WOOF. FINALLY FINISHED THIS POST.#I am basically always trying to articulate this. I've written so many long posts.#but fan letter got me to give it my best effort once more. ITS SO GOOD!!! YES THAT'S WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT!!!!#i love especially the meaning of it being USOPP who finds mimi (my headcanon name for nami's fangirl) and gives her directions.#he who most recently and directly struggled with his lack of ability. she doesn't even know about that.... ough....#YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE THE MOST CAPABLE TO GO ON ADVENTURES!!!!!!!!!!! GO MIMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my posts#one piece#op fan letter#opfl#one piece meta#op meta#one piece analysis#op analysis#i guess lol i hope this reaches some people despite you know. being. how i am.#(intense and clearly having gotten very deep into my particular perspective after endless verbalizing)
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Sight of a Star - Blue-ish Star Ryōshū and Don Quixote
#HERES HOW BLUE-ISH STAR BELIEVERS CAN STILL WIN I PROMISE#Rendering sucks but I do like how these look very much. I hate drawing armour. big fan of dramatic shadows however.#but! as for justifications:#B-iS is an abno regarding what one so desperately wants but cannot have - possibly connecting to Blue Star and the paradise-like place-#people wish to reach by throwing themselves into it. though what is offered by B-iS is a much less refined yet as tantalising#given the text of 'The irresistible allure is almost tearing you apart' and the less refined bit being implied by both design#[jagged edges of the actual blue shape and legs like dolls - both unlike BS' much rounder and more naturalistic design]#in short it's the manifestation of impossible dreams - for Don this is her quest for a just knighthood in the City of all places#and for Ryōshū [though idk her source] it is her final work of art - the Hell Screen#when approached one's body is 'pushed away' as if a manifestation of how it is unachievable. at least it is for them#'To be truly blue the one with the true blue must be left alone in one’s blueness.'#is what I interpret as: 'to truly dream the dreamer must be left to one's fantasies'#dreams by nature do not intersect well with reality. all their flaws will be shown and they will crack under the pressure of the real world#it is why the dream pushes them away. to preserve itself. also probably has something to do with how DQ also has void dream#and this abno gives pride boosts in its event. and I personally see pride as a sort of 'self assurance' or 'self above others' so to speak#as to chase ones dreams one must think themselves the exception. as the one that can persevere over the City#plus the HP damage and the various juxtapositions in the 'forward' option may be in reference to how dreams and reality don't mix.#harming those who chase them. though all the same the 'backwards' option shows that simply tossing them aside shall hurt in its own way#to think oneself 'impure' enough to give up on chasing it is all the same resignation on your uniqueness#as for the gift: the name is possibly to do with how lower stars seem easier to reach. and the effect of damage at minus SP....#going insane dream chasing?#but to take ones leave allows for it to be left behind without any further effects. you did not look at your dreams. acknowledge them at al#but are you better off like that? not dreaming? forgetting that brilliantly unfinished star?#but anyways I hope you liked my rambles. also this abno and everything related to Blue Star is so tastefully C flavoured that I love them#and fun fact! when I was first generally mapping sinners to unfightable/EGOless abnos I entirely forgot Ryōshū somehow. which led to this.#they don't have weapons they just kick real hard and it works well enough#limbus company#ryōshū lcb#don quixote lcb#🎠🚬
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son boy raccoon trash can man suffering in a dnd au as a cleric bc his warlock will not stop committing murders and he has to keep coming up with reasons murder is valid to convince the gm its fine and under control
#my characters#oops i fell in love#right is trying his best in the au to think about all the logic behind killing someone despite being a cleric SPECIFICALLY#bc he refuses to hurt anyone irl or in dnd and ok fine their warlock can have a little murder as a treat#and the body count is adding up and hes like ... so tired..... please can you not kill for five minutes im running out of excuses#fwiw he has the weird logic of the group in the base plot and the guy who is the gm here#is v open about ok but if we ask right then hell give an unhinged answer completely thought out and rationalized#and in fact asks him hey i know you refuse to hurt people but im having a debate with these two coworkers#if you had to commit a crime for aaaaaanyone on the planet who would you commit a crime for#and he doesnt even hesitate to say luca obviously to which the asker is like WHAT ABOUT MY DAUGHTER#YOU WANNA MARRY HER AND WONT COMMIT A CRIME FOR HER? but LUCA? of all people???? not even brent?#and right is just so confused because first off brent would probably be the one committing a crime for him without being forced#(brent agrees with this statement with a shrug) and second off luca has really weird coworkers and thought he was getting stalked for a bit#due to a misunderstanding with said one weird coworker so yeah obviously right would threaten the guy with a gun which is illegal and#third and final how could he face his beloved angel (the daughter mentioned above) if he was a criminal#he cant tarnish a sweet little innocent girls opinion by committing a crime IN HER NAME gosh fuck off with that attitude#he has STANDARDS thank you very much#and the three at the table are all like okay yeah that was really thought out on the fly youre right#also brent do not commit any crimes for him please and brent just nods in agreement bc ok he wont commit a crime unprompted#also hi animal crossing emotes are so fun to doodle for bye#once again i am baffled by how different the colors look on my laptop in the art program vs posting to tumblr#im going to go insane at how different they look#IM COLOR PICKING FOR MY OWN OCS AND ITS SO WRONG LOOKING IDK MAN
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something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.
“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”
#makoto naegi#Danganronpa character analysis#Danganronpa#danganronpa thh#danganronpa future arc#I fucking love Makoto Naegi man.#I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known#he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said#he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky#he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did#if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world.#he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done#and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend.#I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though#post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do#it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to#and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc#he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions#I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse#and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate#and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable.#honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually#I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself#that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels#it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it#it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic#anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for#the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!
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Hottest JJBA Outfit Bracket - Round 4 Match 5
#honestly? i didn't think diego would survive melone#i'm glad lisa lisa finally eliminated dr ferdinand though i was mad he got this far afskhsad#anyway. between these two its a hard fight... melone would have kicked lisa lisa's ass imo but here its more of an even match#i like diego's slutty long hair and his need to write his name all over his outfit like he's going to forget who he is without it#and i like lisa lisa's absolutely tiny skirt long gloves tights and the chic vibe the scarf gives her#i think overall lisa lisa's outfit is better coordinated and lets us know ore about her vibe than diego's#i'm going for her#lisa lisa#jjba lisa lisa#jjba elizabeth joestar#diego brando#battle tendency#steel ball run#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#who's hotter jjba#hottest jjba outfit bracket
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hey! shoves various unfinished 3/4° angle curse tf one elita human sketches down your throat
#I will never escape the 3/4 sketch angle I fear#contemplating her being either of Chinese#or Indian ethnicity (she reminds me of that cool desi older sister who's not afraid to beat fucking ass)#not that it matters but I've been waiting to use the name Won (A)Eri since last year for a human her (it fits so perfectly) but also#desi older sister fits her so muchhhnhg like especially tfone idk this is HARD why is decisions ugh desicisions#I think she'd be some flavour of asian tho if not mixed#i might give my earthspqrk the name Won Aeri finally 💯💯 (i kind of already have a deisgn maybe it's old)#if you read my tags yaps I love you#humanformers#transformers#elita one#transformers one#elita 1#tf one#tf one elita#transformers fanart#my art as fuck#I'm go bed now 💯💯💯
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also with all the damage the show did to jon's reputation as a good northern lad and wildling i hope germ comes out with like. yeah he's rhaegar and lyanna's son and the name she gave him while bleeding out on the birthing bed alone but for her big brother holding her hand in a tower with no way to know that baby aegon had been murdered leaving the title of Egg 6 up for grabs was like. howland.
#another big issue of fandom missing the narrative forest for the tinfoil theory trees for me is the duality at the core of jon's story#and centering targ vs stark when he's spent all the books fighting his identity as a stark vs a watchman#and Finally coming to a point where he can deny stannis and say i have a name. being satisfied with being a snow bc it does not matter#at the wall nor beyond it. and his fatal flaws in adwd are 1. he can't lead the way westerosi feudalism demands 2. he loves his family#two things that point very far away from him being a secret targaryen as something actually consequential beyond its role on history#and in places where his parentage matters is about wondering who his mother is. and his mother is lyanna and she loved him.#and ned promised her. who gives a shit abt rhaegar he is literally ned stark's son! and arya and sansa and bran and rickon's big brother!#at this stage what he is to the Greater North (wall & beyond) and the Westerosi North (thru his siblings) is more important than anything#and if he's destined for anything in THAT duality it's king beyond the north though i recognize that that is my tinfoil hill to die on#anyway. if the show confirmed anything abt targ jon as far as i'm concerned its how vital young griff/egg6 is gonna be going forward#mawdop#asoiaf
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So, my family is rewatching Rings of Power, and since I’m the one in the family that read The Silmarillion (like a masochist), I’m the one who keeps getting asked all the questions.
#‘did this happen?’ well broadly speaking yes but Tolkien never fleshed this part of middle-earth’s history out in much detail#but I know exactly where they got the idea for whatever it is most of the time#‘is Galadriel’s husband really dead’ of course not#‘did Sauron ever go by the name Halbrand?’ well not really but also how much time do you have because this is going to take some explaining#‘is that Gandalf?’ almost definitely but they’re doing the blue wizard thing with him by taking him to Rhun#also I think they’re making him the basis for the hobbit’s ’man in the moon’ song so I’m honestly okay with it#‘is the Queen lady’s nightmare significant’ Yes three times over but how am I supposed to say anything about it#without giving away what’s probably a season finale#‘what’s with the mithril?’ Hell if I know I’m as confused as you are about that#actually the Galadriel’s husband one was funny#because of course Celeborn shows up in the movies#but my mom wasn’t sure that was actually her husband#or some random blorbo#or a second husband#which then opened up the whole conversation#to how the elves are painfully monogamous even when their spouse dies#because they way they die is weird and also#they all still have generational and firsthand trauma from the fallout of that one elf guy who did get remarried#rings of power spoilers
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New gith who dis?
Saving her for patch 7 since I'm finally going to run Durge. Haven't settled on a name yet but I'm very into this look.
#sorry body type 1 gith one day I will play you#my issue with the body type 1 heads is every single one including the meager few modded ones that don't alter the noses#have the same pointy chin round face. I'm very faceblind as a person and for the most part I cannot tell them apart#please give me some variety#let my girls have strong jaws and blocky faces#anyway. she/they body type 2 ranger who hails from xa'rok's creche in the tundra#I'll figure out the timeline later but I like my cool tones and if I'm also making her a ranger well. common thread#it would be funny if they were hatch mates just because Xa'rok was a durge once (originally)#bhaal said no wait wrong egg. not THAT one#I think her name is going to be An'zzuk or An's'zuk or something with that letter combination#she feels like a Az/Anz#she was going to be bald but then I discovered the joy of the tail of that braid curling around her shoulder when she spun really fast#RIP the w'war'gaz looking fella I tabled for her#you'll get your time eventually#this gith is definitely bloodthirsty though#also probably going to be ranger/rogue. not me learning how to finally play rogue. UGH#my tavs#technically durge but for consistency#githyanki#also might mess around with the spot patterns but I'm not sure if modded heads support that or if that's a separate thing
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Holy fuck I thought Jo was in a speedo for a second 🥵🥵🥵
crying at the thought of jo in a speedo cause i know he's miserable 24/7 and speedos are for people who love life. like adachi.
#snap chats#like do we see the mental image. grandpa you cant be sad and slouched over and have your buns out thats not right#also i believe sawashiro should never have more than maybe 10% of his skin showing. this includes his face#so really like the rest goes to his hands and chest and thats it we have to stop there. anything else feels too much#adachi speedo was the realest thing rgg ever did but they immediately nullified it by making him shredded#they are only marginally forgiven for giving him body hair. like there's a vicious game of tug o war going on over there#a lots going on here and its because youtube wont play my music. it buffers like hell and i think its cause they know i use ad block#jokes on them i can accidentally sit in silence for an hour without realizing it this is nothing to me#anyway im listening to sisters of mercy and im reminded of lucretia and now im thinking of final fantasy dirge of cerberus#her names lucrecia with a c but it pronounced the same now innit ...#cannot wait to hang with my best friend and finish that game some day .... almost called her my sister... lol ...#she may as well be a sister to me what am i on. all my friends are family to me#NO TIME TO DAWDLE ON THAT. This Corrosion time .....
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I love that all the seasons are on YouTube. Anyway.
1) this episode actually makes me ship Leelee and Vida, with a hilarious extra layer for Necrolai and Vida. It very much felt like Necrolai went “honey pick whichever ranger you want and we’ll turn them into a vampire so you can date them forever” so she tries to pick Nick, then Xander then Vida comes with because it’s a dj. And then Necrolai decides to steal her daughter’s new girlfriend for herself. Reverse Stacy’s mom situation. The mental image I keep getting makes me bust out laughing every time. No wonder LeeLee’s Like That. Her mom keeps stealing her partners! Pft. Anyway
2. Given it’s hinted DJ Fly is a vampire himself, it does maybe hint what i noticed with the vampires of power rangers was at least a little on purpose. Males when monster form have insect and bat motifs, with fly, moth, butterfly and mosquito motifs in their designs mixed with the bat shaped wings somewhere on their bodies. And the female vampires are very elegant vampires with some small nods to moths, speficially usually hawk moths.
3. It leads to the very good question who bit/put a spell on Vida initially. Necrolai or DJ Fly. Even if Fly did, it was probably under orders of Necrolai and doesn’t really matter in grand scheme of plot but it does make me wonder.
#it also makes me very tempted for my vampire Iva Song#to be DJ Fly’s son#unused vampire character who’s literally just a plot device and set up#and as far as names go it’s not like it’s any less subtle than any power ranger villain names#I just also deeply get the sense Vida is being actively fought over by a mother and daughter and that’s so funny to me#dark but funny#honestly you gotta give LeeLee credit#when she finally stands up to her mama Necrolai is forced to see sense#she was a shit parent who went way out of bounds on many many fronts#and then managed to make it up to her daughter in a big way
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I think a lot about how badly the "I lied on my CV" scene would go with Archivist Sasha. A LOT. Now this is based on some things:
a) The paranoia
• A lot of Archivist Sasha AUs act as if she would be imune to the paranoia arc and here is why I disagree:
1. By being the Archivist and feeding the eye you are automatically dealing with an extended feeling of being watched all the time. Not to mention the Eye is literally a paranoia entity (between it's other areas).
2. While Sasha doesn't appear to have Jon's trust issues she has a need to know at least equal to him and a tendency of theorizing. She was of course right when assuming Gertrude kept the archieves messy on purpose but that also shows that between being very smart she is very doubtifull of any behavior outside the person's normal.
3. In that same conversation ahe mentions how everyone has a mask and says to Tim, likely her best friend, that he is as honest to her as he is to Jon it is just different masks. She is fine with this. She is okay with the masks. But that is before things go wrong.
4. She KNEW Gertrude. That means solving her murder is more personal.
b) Sasha knows her shit way to well
• This one is the real fascinsting thing: Sasha is a master in figuring out people's secrets and keeping them for herself. She knew from the start Jon lied about his age and that Martin lied on his CV. To the point that for her this knowledge about Martin is a fun fact and irrelevant, a thing she keeps from because she knows he would be anxious if he knew she knows. The thing is that translating to the "I lied in my CV confession" we have:
• Paranoid Sasha found Martin's letter to his mother (likely writen as a diary with no intencion to actually send it) and thinks that Martin lied about Trevor being dead.
• She knows Martin lied on his CV and it's meaningless to her to the point she might suspect he knows she knows.
• She knows Martin has a complicated relationship with his mother and that means she would assume it to be very unlikely he would ever write this personal of a letter to her.
Conclusion:
Sasha would probably think Martin is using the fsct he lied on his CV as a diversion and truly has an awfull secret. She would also likely tell to his face she knows it isn't it because Martin's mum would never read or care about his feelings or letters and Martin should know this enough to not even bother to write "so this is likely a codename".
#i do have some ideas for sasha paraboid arc for my own archivist Sasha au#not sure if I'll ever write it#i do have some scenes written#namely sasha gouge our eyes with me scene with tim#jon's first statement#sasha confronting martin#jon sasha a traveling lighter and the web#and s1 sasha gathering everyone to talk about her gertrude made the mess on purpose theory#eh wathever#tma#the magnus archieves#archivist sasha#tma paranoia arc#funniest arc ngl#sasha james#martin blackwood#also in my au her cathartic lie convo would be with jon as he confesses he only refused the promotion because gertrude took his statement#and the nightmares and how they finally stopped and he was afraid being the Archivist would make Gertrude go back go tormenting him#he is wrong but like fair assumption#the fact he gives her a motive to killing gertrude also cleans him for her because he says as a statement#and also jon is afraid of her after she was dead he is not brave enough to have killed her nor appears to have considered it would've worked
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had the craziest nightmare today. hit every nightmare genre and added a new one just for me
#timothy's txts.#late getting off my break at work for my worst manager BUT at the worst place i worked#walked into my manager in a meeting with EVERY head person in our district and they all chided me for being late and told me to hurry and#then i couldn’t find my apron#and then the street turned into a riot with cars being targeted by rockets and pedestrians being. also hit by rockets ?#this lady and i were by each other and we were like well normally we wouldn’t steal these motorbikes (they were hot pink though and swag as#hell) and then we started trying to escape but my seat was too high so i couldn’t drive safely#eventually we made it to her house with a small group of my coworkers / friends#and then a coworker i really liked got targeted and killed bc of me and the killers were shouting my name and hunting me down#so i go inside this lady’s house and it’s huge and honestly really nice#and i’m like hey do you have a toolbox PLEASE i need an alan wrench to lower the seat so i can drive safely and get away#and she was like yeah second floor#i asked which room? give me a landmark of the room so i don’t search every one#and she said it’s directly on the landing you can’t miss it#i go upstairs (the people hunting me in a red minivan have pulled up to her house and are suspiciously pulling all around it and backing up#and looking in the windows and i don’t know if this lady would sell me out) and ITS A TOY HOUSE. ???!??? not a toolbox…#so i’m searching but the people come in so i’m running through rooms and being quiet and make my way down to the basement that connects to#the garage and look desperately for a fucking alan wrench and they’re getting closer and i go through a small closet and there’s a trap door#and i go in there where there’s another hidden door and i finally get to the garage#and i find a tool box and decide to write the lady a note thanking her and telling her why i left so quickly#but all the papers i find are filled with scary notes and i’m wondering why they make me so uneasy#until i realize they’re notes that were written to Me from. a guy who really fucked me up#and one of them says ‘trans hot’ and i literally go :( i don’t want to be trans hot…#<- specifically from him because of the issues.#and then i realize that he’s the one hunting me down to Get me (the red van was irl his family’s car lmao)#and i’m panicking in an increasing amount and i won’t be able to get to the motorbike and escape with my coworkers and friends#and then my sibling woke me up asking if i wanted a breakfast sandwich or pancakes. so. crazy dream to have at nine in the morning#ask to tag
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Her name is Julia Thorne, merely an alias. She goes by another name, a name you're quite familiar with.
#aliasedit#alias#sydney bristow#julian sark#lauren reed#polyamships#polyamoryinfandoms#userthing#multiamorymarch#multiamory march#lauren x sark x sydney#lauren x sark#lauren x sydney#sark x sydney#sstrio#myedit#sark; lauren and the mystery of julia. sark and lauren united by the mystery of julia. that's it that's the gifset.#and maybe they can't solve it because they're both julia but julia isn't all that sydney is.#it's like looking in the mirror and not seeing a reflection.#with lauren the parallels are obvious. the hair. both covenant agents. assignment to kill lazarey. simon and sark as partners.#even the end of full disclosure feels like the death of one julia and the birth of another.#but sark is in part julia too. julia is an illusion and sark is too. there's nothing concrete; nothing solid; nothing real about him.#and there was no need to name him julian. not when his father is russian. why not give him a russian name? a common russian name.#but they said no. he's going to be sydney's namesake. sydney's dark alter ego's namesake.#it's also interesting to think about allison in relation to all this. because unlike lauren or sark she had all the chances to meet julia.#it could have been the final covenant's test. to see if the brainwashing really took.#how would julia react to the news that allison is still alive. would she flinch upon seeing her. would she be able to work with her.#what would allison report to the covenant after. what would sydney do to convince allison that she doesn't remember her.#doesn't see francie looking back at her. that julia is who she is now. and could allison be the one to solve the mystery of julia?
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doin' a fuckshite again ✌, i'll see y'all artistically in five to seven business days this fucking script is so bitchily long. i swear to fuck if its gon be over 8 pages.
anyway Fish is gon be in it <3 fucking Finally he shows off properly
anyway,
#wips#rw#im Pissed this is for an AU this isnt even for the CANON SHIT i have SO MANY COMIC PROMPTS IN MY INBOX AURHGHGHRHG n i wanna do ALL OF EM#cmon pinky we can do this. we gon be careful this time around -gives it a lil smooch-#i think ill have to design more of the filler iterators for this one... aiya shit... back to the map i go#'oh i am so worried i wont be able to fit that many itties into the aeolus signal range with the rules i set 😥' -does the math n the-#-actual positioning planning Finally n gets 144 spaces in total- MAMBA MIIIIIIIIIA nevermind im good i aint makin That many shitlets#i Think. at least not designin em all </3 MAYBE namin more for the sake of navigation n smooth in-world talking#ill have to set up a timeline of who was constructed first... That is important to the itties fuck#actually i might peep up in here while workin on the already named iterators designs like i did with orion now that i think about it 🤔#anyway orion n sporadic r casual friends in canon n VERY close in off string au ive decided. he saves her from her can#i still wanna continue the Euros' 1st rot thing too hmmm...... ill try to thumbnail that n see how long Thats gon be
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