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Last day of the trans rights readathon and I wanted to share my reads
#trans rights readathon#Trans#Lgbt#Nonbinary#Lgbt books#Traabsgender#book recommendations#book reccs#queer community#Mooncakes#Cemetery boys#This delicious death#Lake lore#Self made boys#Act cool#Godly heathens#Every word you never said#Bookblr#Booktok#Edit
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#young royals#red white and royal blue#heartstopper#the song of achilles#radio silence#strangers#every word you never said#the house in the cerulean sea
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Skylar Gray is adopted, nonverbal, and he feels most comfortable wearing skirts. Life has never been easy, but with a fresh start at a brand-new school, with new parents and in a new state, he just might finally make some friends. Maybe. Honestly itâ˛s hard to focus on anything when gorgeous rocker boy Jacob is around. But itâ˛s hard for Skylar to trust anyone when people have always been quick to ditch him at the first inconvenience; they always seem more than ready to judge him as defective. And the bullies love to confirm it. Skylar has only ever had himself, so why would anything be different this time? Especially for an anxious boy with literally no voice.
Jacob doesnâ˛t give a damn, especially not since he came out over the summer. He expected the hate he got from his father, who mostly acts as if it never happened, but he refuses to let it hold him back. It doesnâ˛t matter, Jacobâ˛s over it. Heâs going to paint his nails, dye his hair, and strike a heavy riff on his guitar if he wants to, even if it means being grounded most of senior year. But when the cute nonverbal transfer student, Skylar, wears a skirt to school, prompting a sexist new dress code proposal, Jacob decides itâ˛s time to take a stand, no matter the risk to himself.
#Every Word You Never Said#Jordon Greene#YA#YA romance#nonverbal rep#gay#gay rep#mlm#mlm rep#daily book#fiction#lgbt fiction#lgbtqia#bookblr
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November reads. đ
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#holly black#dear mister brody#dear mr brody#the stolen heir#the prisoner's throne#cafe con lychee#forever con amor#before we disappear#dirty wicked prince#savage little lies#tiny dark deeds#the backup plan#ewb#iris#openly straight#honestly ben#legends & lattes#bookshops & bonedust#the weight of it all#upside down#red dirt heart#every word you never said#november reads
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[Abandoned by the Lightners, his heart became cracked with hatred.]
Hitting a lil' too close to home?
#junie art post#ink sans#error sans#utmv#errorink#implied. but yea not the focus#this has been turning around in my mind for quite some time. im glad to finish it lmao idk if my ramblings make sense even.#so like listen. do you ever think about how similar the function of the utmv is to the dark worlds in deltarune.#in a meta narrative to fandom sense? idk the word#we are making exaggerated expanded worlds of the ordinary tools and entertainment of the real world and make it into something more#isnt that very very interesting?#and we explore every sort of possibility in that creation. both good and bad#and when all is said and done. every possibility found and the entertainment and secrets has all run out#we put it away. abandon and leave it behind#what is left? what happens to the world and characters we have created? can it sustain without us?#what of the ones left in the dark?#idk if yall saw me a few months ago but i reblogged comyet's old post of ink begging us not to leave him alone and to keep creating#yea that never left me#and seeing exactly THAT SCENARIO in deltarune made my brain iTCH#imagine an ink in King's position.... wait isnt that just underverse#mmmmmmm. darkner ink.....#also error is here too. not just for errorink or that i can't separate these two to save my life#but error is also one of the few people to be able to GET IT?? he can hear the creators too. ink cant#but hes pretty much programmed himself to avoid having a mental break down to this via reboot memory loss.#and ink has his own internal coping mechanism (hooray for short term memory loss)#these two idiots will do anything but confront truths lmfao#ahhh my favorite idiots. never change#mmmmm#deltarune
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JORDON GREENE NOTICED ME!
The author of "Every Word You Never Said" not only liked my Tumblr posts but also posted me on his Instagram!!
That made my entire week thank you so much!
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Some facts about Taash (and also the Lords of Fortune, the Qunari, Dragons and other related things) gathered from the banters
Featuring Shathaan's stories about the Crows!
I went through all companion banters on DanaDuchy's channel after playing the game to write down all facts about companions/the world that I haven't seen brought up anywhere in the game as a writing reference (and for funsies).
Note: This list may not be exhaustive. I might have missed some something or didn't write it down because I considered it common knowledge. If you have anything to add, please DM me or send an ask! (do specify what banter the information is coming from, though)
Note 2: Posts from this series (mostly) don't include information from banters specific to quests or between companions and faction members. I plan to do another playthrough to capture more of those and will add any relevant info to the character posts.
Other characters' posts: Bellara, Davrin, Harding, Lucanis, Emmrich, Neve. I'm also planning a post about just the Lighthouse some time later
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About Taash
General:Â
Taash gets grumpy if they stay inside for too long
Taash may polish their treasure hoard or clean the dishes (even somebody else's) to get out of their head
When Taash is feeling sad, they ask somebody else about how they are doing, so they can focus on somebody else instead of themselves
Taash doesnât like talking about their feelings because it makes them sad (Lucanis can relate)
Taash doesn't read books before bed because they have a tendency to stay up past their bedtime to finish the exciting parts
Taash seems to care quite a lot about fibre and digestive health (they are so real for that). For example, they enjoy the smell of coffee but donât drink it because itâs bad for their guts
Taash drinks alcoholÂ
Taash once requested Bellara/Lucanis to cook them a demon (the suggestion was disregarded)Â
Taash liked Lucanisâs deep-fried peppersÂ
Taash liked Bellaraâs stir-fryÂ
(If Rook is in romance with Taash) A spirit of devotion appears next to Taash after they enter a relationship
Taash doesnât want to look for more dragonfire tablets because âthey are just more ordersâ, and they already have enough Â
Taash doesnât kill in cold blood and needs to get angry in order to kill someone
Taash has good taste in gemstones, knowing which colours match which (based on the banters where they recommend gemstones for Emmrichâs lich helmet). They say itâs a Lord of Fortune thing, they have to know how to make gems look goodÂ
Taash isnât afraid of the Fade, because the spirits there mind their own business and donât try to possess anyone (or anything)Â
Taash thinks that even if the Nevarrans almost brought their dragons to extinction, they will still come back eventually
Taash is extremely excited to hear that Morrigan can (potentially) turn into a dragon and wants to ask her about it next time they meetÂ
Taash doesnât mind finding no loot when hunting dragons because as long as you survived an encounter with a dragon, you have a new story to tellÂ
Taash doesn't think of dragons as monsters since they are a natural part of the world and have been around longer than anyone else
On fire-breathing:Â
Taash started breathing fire when they were a toddler
Taash needs to eat greens after breathing fire, or they get headachesÂ
According to healers, fire breathing hurts Taashâs lungs
Taash accidentally set their first female partnerâs hair on fire during their first sex
Taash once tried to cook with their dragon breath and accidentally melted a pot and set the kitchen on fireÂ
On Taashâs sense of smell:Â Â
Taash got their heightened sense of smell after they got sick and couldn't breathe through the nose for a couple of months. After they recovered they could suddenly smell everything
Tassh can smell when someone is ovulating. They can also smell who had been in the room before them, and who is hungoverÂ
Taash could also tell Neve got together with Rook or Lucanis from the smell even before anybody told them
To Taash, Minrathous smells rainy and âlike rich people hurting poor peopleâ
Early life and the relationship with Shathann:Â
Taash learnt to swim before they learnt to walk
Shathann sometimes wouldn't let Taash play/go swimming until they finished their studies (like being able to tell the difference between some pottery shards)
Shathann gifted Taash axes during one of the gift-giving holidays when they were younger. They were simple kindling choppers, but Shathann helped decorate them to make them look like Qunari weapons. During a conversation with Bellara, Taash realises that may be the reason they are still using axes to this day
Axes are also good at lodging between dragon scales and allows them to climb up
Taash grew up poor, though they didnât realise it because Shathann always made sure they had enough food, even at her expense (like pretending she didnât want to eat because âRivaini food is too rich for herâ)
Taash spent the money they made from their first job as Lord of Fortune on buying Shathaan a dress. Shathann didnât appreciate it, instead urging Taash to buy themselves boots or some other useful thingsÂ
Shathann hated apples because their skin would get stuck in her teeth (âEvataash, that fruit is stupid!â)
If Taash chooses to pursue Rivaini culture and wear Shathannâs horn as jewellery, they have a blacksmith do runes in the old Qunari language along the edges and get a Seer to bless it
Shathann stopped telling stories about the Crows after Taash once climbed on the roof to play as a Crow
The things Shathann taught Taash about the Crows:
Antivan Crows make themselves invisible to dragons by imitating the dragon's shadow
Antivan Crows coat the beaks of actual crows with poison so that the crows can kill people by pecking
Antivan Crows can slow down their breathing until they become invisible
Antivan Crows come through houses at night and kill children who arenât in bed
Antivan Crows can do a special move that stops their enemy's heart
Antivan Crows can strangle a Qunari with their own dar-saam (but only if itâs tied incorrectly)
Relationships with companions:Â
Bellara gives Taash advice on cooking dinner for their mother
Davrin teaches Taash to use buckets filled with water and sand for lifting
Taash has never flown a kite before and asks Harding to teach them
Harding's mother sends Taash a letter with homemade candies after Shathannâs death, calling it âa hug from afarâ (Taash appreciated the gesture and liked the candy)Â
(If Rook is in romance with Taash) Taash asks Lucanis about what Rook likes to eat, and Lucanis offers to teach them how to make coffee/tea/chiocolata caldaÂ
Taash isnât scared of Spite, and even convinces (or more like intimidates) him not to talk about how other people smell without their permission
Lucanis agrees to teach Taash how to kill targets with flair (with varying degrees of success when it comes to cool one-liners) and then plans to ask Teia to make a Crow cape just for them (Taash is very excited about it, as they love crow capes)
Taash insists Neve should get some trophy from Aelia (a ring, or an amulet with her name) to show everyone she beat her, and doesnât understand why Neve isnât interested in something like thatÂ
Taash offers their blood to Neve for blood magic purposes (Neve doesnât take up the offer)
Taash thinks Neveâs âdressesâ are pretty
Taash thinks nobody can go toe-to-toe in magic with Neve
Taash offers to hook Neve up with their jeweller to get her a discount (in case she wants a new leg) because âNeve deserves nice thingsâ
Lords of Fortune:
Lords of Fortune have a drunk game where they throw a goblet made from foolâs gold into the water for others to find. Whoever finds it gets free drinks for the rest of the night. The game has only one rule: no punching in the junk
There is also another drunk game where drunk Lords jump off a giant cliff. The only rule is not to hit the water face-first
Even if those are âdrunk gamesâ, you can participate in them sober, as long as you are willing to be as stupid as the drunk people
The Lords of Fortune pick new jobs by Isabela throwing daggers at a map or racing nugs (the winner picks the job - could be its owner, or the nug itself)
The lords used to blindfold Mateo (the faction merchant) and spin him around in circles until he tripped on something like a map. They stopped doing that because a Seer told them to quit (the whole thing gave Mateo headaches)Â
After Shathann is gone, Taash is in charge of appraising Qunari artifacts for the Lords until they find a better expert
The Lords of Fortune work with a Dalish clan keeper Shivanas (Taash calls them âShivâ) who appraises artefacts for them (tells them whatâs okay to sell and not to sell etc.)Â
After losing his hand, a Lord named Bernst got a lock-pick hand prosthetic decorated with gems
About Dragons:
Different breeds of dragons can mate and produce offspring. Thatâs how ice- and lightning-breathing dragons came about
The muscles of dragon wingsâ are vulnerable behind. Another weakness is the underbelly
Fighting Dragons is all about making them come to you, either by having them see you as a threat (so they come down to assert dominance) or prey (so they come down to eat you)Â
There is a dragon called Wildervale Spitter, which can breathe fire or poison gas. The âfire breathâ is actually just poison that burns when the dragon breathes. Most dragons always ignite their breath. The Spitter's special for being able to choose whether to light it up.
Dragons have an extra eyelid that they shut while breathing fire in order to protect their eyes
About Qunari etc.:
Eb-ketarra means something like âgrowing memories.â When you graft someoneâs horn onto yours, you also add their strength to yourself
Qunari food uses a lot of oil for frying
Qunari have a much better sense of smell than humans
Qunari can bury their dead with large jars inlaid with a flame pattern. Itâs called âissalatarâ and is empty inside, representing that the deceasedâs body is also empty now that their spirit is gone
The Rivaini armada can hold its own against the Antaam fleet, but only in good weather. They canât match the Antaam in firepower, but they can outsail them
Isabela is apparently still a captain of the Sirenâs CallÂ
#probably a bit late in saying this but if you are interested in where a specific piece of information is coming from feel free to ask#I more or less remember where all facts in all posts came from#when I started taking these notes I never would have thought Taash's would end up the longest#that's how you know that personal bias wasn't involved because if it was we would have a 3k-word Bellara post on our hands but here we are#well taash is my second favourite. *maybe* the biases were involved#also probably has something to do with the fact I started taking more and more notes as time went on#and I listened to Taash's banters last#well I am planning to make revisions to the posts when I play the game again (very soon TM) so maybe the others will catch up#and thank you so much to everyone who reblogged and said something nice in the tags every single one of them means the world to me <3#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#veilguard spoilers#taash#lace harding#neve gallus#meta#references#flowers.txt#Shathann#lords of fortune#datv banters#flowers blogs
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tommy must live in a perpetual state of confusion over buck
do you think the longer buck allies the more tommy realises that "oh, he really is like this but he's definitely some flavor of queer"? because i see tommy maybe gently testing buck's jealousy to see what it'll take to make him break
oooookay once again this is not a snippet (sorryyyyy) but is more me attempting to understand wtf is going on in tommy's head throughout all this that he keeps "sure, okay"-ing himself into ridiculous situations with buck, so apologies for just unloading the contents of my brain on you
there are a few things i've been chewing on in terms of figuring out how tommy reacts to the buck of it all, which i hope will make it make sense that i actually don't think tommy pushing or testing for jealousy is on the cards in this fic (although i do love the idea!)
so first of all, this is a younger tommy than we've seen interact with buck in canon (of course), so whatever happened to make him Like That in the breakup hasn't happened yet (and won't, because i am a slut for a HEA). he's newly out and in my experience, a lot of newly out people, particularly people who are a bit older have something of a second adolescence. so yeah while this means he's incredibly horny (horny enough to let a self-proclaimed straight guy give him the absolute best sex of his life) it also means he just wants to have fun!! and buck is SO. MUCH. FUN. he's spent so long so tightly controlled that he's trying really hard to just go with the flow.
second, when i say newly out tommy, i mean newly out. like, it's one thing to "stop lying about who i am" - to me, there's a non-zero chance that just means "stop making up girlfriends" rather than "actually grapple with the life-long process of coming out (again and again and again)". so in my head (and it might come up in the fic, idk yet) the scene early on where he tells buck he doesn't want the cute girl's number because he's gay is probably one of the first times he actually said the words out loud. which ties into...
third, we know tommy was work friends with sal (at least and again, don't know that it'll come up in the fic but for the record, he 100% had a monstrous crush on him, like it made him ILL how much he wanted sal, i will hear no arguments), and that he developed good - again, work-based - friendships with hen and chim, but i feel like for a deeply closeted guy under dadt with a shitty childhood buck might be his first actual friend who knows all of him and likes him. spends time with him. doesn't care that he's gay. actively supports his gayness. doesn't recoil and in fact actively encourages tommy to talk about it. so i think tommy is just...deeply, deeply grateful for this confusing train wreck of a man
fourth, while i think there are definitely times that tommy thinks "he...he's flirting with me, right? is something gonna happen here?" this is a guy who has spent his entire adult life not looking at that kinda thing. not letting himself wonder if a guy (particularly a friend) is into him. or really, even if he's into them. he's really, really good at compartmentalising, and buck's pretty insistent that he's straight, so tommy's taking that at face value. hey, buck makes compelling arguments ("tommy, straight men have prostates too!")
aaaaand there we have the contents of my brain as it relates to one tommy kinard. even in my own incredibly stupid AUs, i am frankly obsessed. i want to gnaw on him. i'll settle for having buck do it instead.
#bucktommy#my writing#sorta#allying too close to the sun#the tommy edition#welcome to my ted talk#obviously this is dialled up to eleven for the benefit of a ridiculous fic but story time:#around ten years ago i had this friend - gorgeous and cool and SO AWESOME - tiny part of me was down bad from the second i laid eyes on her#funny and flirty and interested in my dating life. told me she'd slept with a couple of women. and straight.#that word from her own mouth to my own ears. every now and then i'd think#âhey this seems...kinda charged. i wonder... nah she's straight she said that with her own literal mouthâ#so i was genuinely entirely happy to be her friend#like no qualifiers no âwhat ifsâ just âgod i'm so glad i know youâ#anyway we're married now#c'est la vie say the old folks it goes to show you never can tell
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You are not supposed to be here. You donât belong here. Get out get out get out GET OUT-
fanart for chapter 4 of take little bites by @bigdvmnheroâ
bonus. because i couldnt pick a single scene to draw out LMAO
#my art#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt movie#OKAY SO. I COULDNT JUST REBLOG WITH MY DAMN THOUGHTS#I HAD TO GET THEM OUT ON THE CANVAS BECAUSE HAUAUUHGH#.andy. your work inspires color and emotion and imagery so vividly in my head#ive said it before that every sentence is like a brush stroke#and i mean it#theres so much you pack into every word i RAAAGH (BITES IT)#there are so many of them i could pick out but oh my God the last two lines#the simultaneous protectiveness. comfort. and downright Haunting#ill never leave you.............. andy whyd you do this to me#(also. if nobody can tell that i wrote GET OUT with the bg. i will die violently)
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New Leokumi content in the lords year of 2024?? It's more likely than you think! (x)
#I gotta say its been so so nice to go back to something I was passionate about as a teen#its hard to describe#a sense of coming home almost#'Hey I know you and hey I can see my younger self in the way I react to this and that'#fates? People would stone you if you said you liked that thing ten years back#now im an adult and I write 160k words about leokumi#idk dude#being an adult is difficult but being unapologetic and knowing you have every right to do so is just so cathartic#Hah never thought id go back to fates one day and be nostalgic would you look at that#im glad im alive actually#leokumi#fire emblem#fe#fire emblem takumi#fire emblem leo#fire emblem fates#fire emblem if#fire emblem fanfiction#fire emblem camilla#look she deserves the tag FEH loves her for her#Personality#my art
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let me adore you
#woaaaghh#let me tell you abou this piece ok buckle in#so this isnt a first confession actually#kghn in this are already in an established relationship#kageyama is someone who has trouble verbalizing his feelings. heâs never said the words out loud but heâs always shown hinata that#he loves him through actions#on some days tho kageyama has this intense urge to Say It and this is on one of those days#heâs got so much affection built up in him that every part of his being wants to express it in every single way humanly possible#which leads him to this.#and hinata isnt surprised because he doesnât already know that. he knows it really damn well#its because he recognizes how big of a deal this is to kageyama and he ends up being really amazed by him#do you see it im sick#kagehina#kghn#haikyuu#kageyama tobio#hinata shoyuo#hinakage
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Noodles and Teaâs work inspired me fr
#phineas and ferb#gravity falls#perry the platypus#bill cipher#crossover#heinz doofenshmirtz#major monogram#great googly moogly#And at this one stand there was this forest service guy#and he was selling these really amazing muffins#they had Dunkleberries and EVERYTHING they looked delicious but they had nuts in them so I didnât buy them#(Iâm not allergic or anything I just think that there is a time and a place where you donât put nuts in food#like seriously this thing was STUFFED with pecans and I was like thatâs gonna ruin the flavor! PecanâŚ. thatâs a really weird word you know#like try saying it out loud a couple times. Pecan.. peCHAAANs. Pea-can. hm. hm.#anyway)#but this guy had some other really random junk lying around so I decided to take a look and I actually found something really msyerious!#there was this book with a big â2â on it and I couldnât find the other ones so I was like hey whereâs the rest of these and he was like#we already sold them off and I was like WHAT thatâs so crazy#like if youâre gonna sell a set of books#WHY would you sell each one separately cuz that would really suck to just like#start in the middle of a series or get hooked and never be able to continue it#and I was pretty wary anyways cuz it looked so CRYPTIC and WEIRD#but he said heâd give it to me for 92 cents and baby thatâs a STEAL#couldnât NOT take it#I mean it sat around on my desk for months and I mainly just used it as a paperweight until one night#they stopped broadcasting Americaâs Got Talent on my channel and out of SPITE I decided to find a way to defy American Tradition#and read a book#âŚ.what? ohhhh you though I was gonna build an inator over this#no at the time I was already working on a Tuesday Inator that would force every Calendar in the Tri-State area to always have every day#as Tuesday so I could ALWAYS have a discount on tacos! do you know how OVERPRICED those things are when theyâre not on Tuesday?
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Makima, devils and self-fulfillment
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Dumping some Makima and CSM thoughts after a part 1 binge bc I think about her forever and ever. Iâm sure Iâm forgetting some devil lore, feel free to correct what i get wrong/whatâs been confirmed. On the table of contents thereâs why & how Makima got fixated on Chainsaw, her revealing liking for the country mouse and discussion of her nature & emotions & desires. Was the scorpion doomed to be a scorpion?
The most of this post was thought of during a conversation with @saccharineomens and I donât think it makes sense to jump into the spiral it sent me on without first laying down the interesting groundwork theorizing she did:
"Thinking about how makima herself wants to be deified. I wonder whether she recognizes the difference between Love As Worship and the love that Aki, Power, and Denji had. She says she wants to help humanity by having Chainsawman eat the âbadâ devils, but why does she want to help humans? Because she was ordered to by the Prime Minister? No, her drive seems much more personal than that, it seems like she teamed up with the PM for contractual reasons. (In the most recent chapters we see governmental members wanting certain devils to be eaten, too. What was Makimaâs relationship with them? Sheâs too independent to just follow THEIR orders, sheâs Control.)
So is she wanting to better humanity for the accolades, or out of the goodness of her heart? She sees the big picture. She sees any small sacrifice as worth it for the end result, and sheâs ruthless. Perhaps she thinks that a more sedate human race would be easier to control? But Makima doesnât loathe humanity. She never acts like she sees all humans as lesser. She loves humanityâs creations, like good food and movies. She just wants Good Things all the time
She says she prefers the country mouse BUT adds a story where she helps exterminate country mice like vermin. She likes the simplicity yet rejects the idea of being simple. Makima the complex individual you are"
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The story itself seems to prefr the country mouse. Well- it strikes a balance, shows that a risk to live good & fully can be very worth it, but still that stability over ambition is preferable, proning having a simple happy life over fame, a simple job instead of a dangerous one, etc etc. And I do find Makimaâs answer on this so so interesting, she prefers the country mouse, but this preference isnât out of affection or sympathy but because of how relaxing it feels to exterminate them when they cause problems.
Order satisfies her. Her order satisfies her. She likes the action of rooting out disorder. Maybe this is the devil part, like how Power especially wants blood and drinking it, I feel thereâs an itch to every devil, and for Makima itâs a very rigid world view/morality/standards & making things follow her rules and submit to her order.
And maybe this is why sheâs attached to humans too, why she felt it was worth it to stick with the government- because devils are chaotic by nature (itâs a whole plot point that hell is essentially a free-for-all battleground for example), meanwhile humans are the species that universally rule Earth with systems they invented and instilled. They made then enforced rules, complex and intricate webs of them. She feels alienated amongst devils but she understands the humansâ need for an orderly organised society, and now she wants to be part of it. Control and conquest require social dynamics after all, requires civilizations or groups. War is chaotic while peace is, well, peacefulâ Makima resents her sisters for being death, famine and war, things that throw the world in such chaos. She wants a world of perfect order, no matter how much collateral damage there will be if the end result is control.
This is even more interesting if you consider that yes, Makima is untouchable of her own design, she deifies herself with her omnipresent amount of control and the sway over others that she seeks and encouragesâ There is this urge to dehumanize her for it, that yes, she is the devil of control and that means she was never going to be any different, have any more feeling be any less uncanny. And I love part 2 so much for this, because it shows us the war devil and the famine devil and we see how frankly uncharismatic with poor self-discipline they are, Nayuta too, and it helps us realize just how much Makimaâs success was self-made.
She admires Chainsaw Devil, the Hero of Hell, because he had his own code and his own rules and he made Hell, the chaos pit, submit to them unfailingly. Wherever he goes he decides what he does and what happens to the people he encounters but does so consistently, he has his mechanism and his rules that he always obeys, and he fulfills them every time. Itâs still a mystery the why of Chainsaw Devilâs behavior back then and how it works exactly, maybe Pochita left hell because he was tired of these rules he lived by like chains, but still, he was a servant to his code. Makima would have been glad being killed and eaten by Chainsaw Devil because itâd have been becoming part of his design, his conquest, his domination, sheâd have been part of that âhisâ order. Through her death she would be shaping his world and be part of a conquerorâs making history. Like how she appreciates the country mice that die for the sake of order. Like how sacrifices must be made to herself, like listing the name of every person whose life was lost to the Gun Devilâ All for the ~greater good~, for her vision for the world. Conquest always thinks its reasons are justified.
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And she does mention with the country mice thing that she goes out to a friendâs farm every year! She has a human friend?? That she visits yearly and she genuinely likes it?? Ultimately she lives a busy city life because of her goal and drive and her urge & satisfaction with overseeing shaping the world herself, but part of her, like so many characters including Angel and Aki and Reze, wishes she could live a slow peaceful country life. Moviegoing and dogs and mice in a farm- Wouldnât it be so much simpler if Makima could find fulfillment and happiness in being a farmer, in keeping control of her own farm, getting satisfaction from exterminating vermin and expertly getting everything right, the right crops grown at the right time on the right soil? Here, too, in a way itâs trying to have full control of an ecosystem, but her goals would be easier to achieve and better, without ceaseless sacrifice or much pressure. But Makima wants grandiosity and her goal does matter to her on a fundamental and moral level, she does think she knows whatâs best for the world, and with the power to change it why wouldnât she strive to? Visiting the farm is just a break, just something she does in fall to help out and just in time to see the vermin extermination. It calms her, then itâs back to actual work.
In capitalism, even the one at the very top of the ladder is ultimately alienated from others and often unsatisfied by their lifestyle, always wanting more and more power because surely thatâs the extra edge they must be missing to be contentâ like how Makima thinks she wants to dominate Chainsaw Devil instead of being his equal. And she says it herself too, she likes humans the way humans like dogsâŚâŚ.. And she keeps so many dogs :( Makima prefers the country mice because theyâre calming to root out, maybe because she usually mainly deals with city mice. Itâs very easy to equate humans to the mice in this allegory because itâs pretty direct and sheâs already likened humans to lesser animals compared to her. Sheâs self-isolating by design for her design but she still craves relationships and contentment, and the dogs are the embodiment or her want for bonds and occasional simplicity because there is no possible ulterior motive, no way they tie back into her wider plan. Theyâre her personal lifeâ something that feels so alien when speaking about Makima. Personality and individuality and likes and preferences and friends they visit every year. She likes how easily she can train a dog and how they become putty in her hands, at her beck and call, how much they love her and how much she enjoys their love. How simple and straightforward and easy it is. She keeps them because she likes being loved by them and loving them, and sheâs gotten and raised so many. A conqueror always wants more and more and more, is never satisfied.
Devils and agency
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Like Power the blood devil wanting blood and having a fixation on drinking it like with Denjiâs, or how it was shocking that the violence devil was pretty tame and nice and how he himself theorized it was because he was a fiend and possessing a human body⌠Thereâs something to be said about nature vs nurture with the devils. The way they reincarnate and always embody their fear makes it seem categorically like nature, that they always always end up fulfilling the role they were named after and born to fill⌠Outside influence theyâre helpless but to conform with. Like the humans accepting their spot in the social ladder and the shittiness of their living conditions and job under capitalism. Makima craved being equals with someone despite being the control/conquest devil, Angel Devil despite claiming to be a devil who likes to see humans dying was haunted by their deaths and wanted to avoid ones like Akiâs. The Ghost Devil being ironically haunted by Himeno, seemingly helping Aki in her memory out of⌠Lasting affection? Or maybe it was less about being haunted itself and more about it recognizing how Himeno haunted Aki, and acknowledging that, with the memento, paying her respect to the ghost of her. Itâs Angel Devilâs devil nature that makes him like human suffering, so then is it his angel nature too to still care about their deaths? Is there truth to this or is that just personality, just our confirmation bias haunting every part of their identity like it might in their own view of themselves too? We do know different reincarnations of devils do have different personalities after all.
Yoru, war devil, is the most interesting one when talking about the nature vs nurture debate with devils. There is how through her we see the perhaps the most the consequences of a devil stopping being fearedâ we see a horseman for a concept as universal and horrifying as war be reduced to some bird who needs a contract with a human to have any power even just on the situation when meeting Asa. And through the story we get to know her better, and it becomes clear that her goal is fueled in good part by simply wanting to be remembered and respected through fear. Liked, validated, seen a powerful. But what is more isolating than war? Or control? We also see Nayuta accepting othersâ house rules. If part 1 shows perhaps the futility of running away from the truth, with Denjiâs memory, with escapist coping mechanisms, with passivity and denial under a corrupt system and with abusive relationships- running away from your own feelings and from the reality of things and from all that you are, more complex than simply human or devil or both or neitherâ part 2 builds upon the theme of cult of personalities, the chainsaw church, etc. The apocalypse is coming, but this celebrity superhero might save us all, or doom us all uh, dunno. The hero of hell reliving the cycle of pressure from responsibilities and expectations, maybe the part will end with Denji running away like Pochita did~
But yes, on the reverse, I think Famine is a very interesting example of how a devilâs namesake may be more innate than coerced by circumstances. One would think that a famine devil would only like inflicting famine upon others, not being famished itself, but Famine has a bottomless stomach that can never, ever be satisfied, sated. I struggle to find a psychological explanation for this, except that maybe instead of her being hungry itâs her feeling empty when sheâs not eating, tasting and having that high sensory experience that releases serotonin in humans, sort of like drugs? But I do take this as a step towards the compulsion theory overall, feels like a reach in the consistency otherwise. And compulsion does not mean itâs something that they like nor that itâs something that they fight against, pretty neutral, just a nature that nudges you towards one path. Maybe itâs even just their go-to for entertainment. Maybe itâs the only thing that makes them feel right and whole. But still the debate remains, what is it, a compulsion or an urge or an itch or an active desire or a conscious chosen want? Does it change anything in practice?
And because of all of this earlier, devils being self-fulfilling prophecies with their role is not in unsignificant part nurture, because doing their atrocities is how they stay rememberedâ feared, powerful, knownâ hell and devils are a very isolating place and breed after all, and we do see devils can want companionship. Existentially, itâs their purpose and how they justify their place in the world, in the terrifyingly vast and unknowable cosmos.
We still know so little of what makes Chainsaw Devil so special, why his carnage is so self-controlled. Despite a chainsaw maybe being possibly one of the most "nature" thing you can beâ a tool to cut things, a human tool that can be helpful for many things, something to be wielding by another at their judgement on what they decide, but mainly something to cut, a tool suited for carnage, to hurt and to destroy. A blade with a toothed chain, spinning around and around and around endlessly on the same road at the same pace. Such aâŚ. Innately circular concept. And yet the Chainsaw Devil is his own, not driven by an urge or by chaos but his very own brand of order, his own unique assigned purpose, a "if you call iâll come running to help" policy equalizing everyone. He chooses to withhold his destruction and interference otherwise, and then he chooses to be used. If itâs a choice, of course.
Maybe this is what inspired Makima so much, that Chainsaw Devil could decide what to make of himself despite expectations or innate role. Because even Hell he decided & managed to subjugate under his will and whim, with a precise vision and process. When Chainsaw Devil acts like Denji or is defeated, Makima clicks her tongue and loses her admiration and respect. Makima admired and liked Chainsaw Devil, but only as long as he matched her great image of him in her mind, as long as he followed he rules for what she thinks he should be like. She admired him for his unrivaled self-made success, but once he stepped out of that to truly embody self-fulfillment and agency, disappearing from hell to live on his own road at the beat of his own drum⌠Well. Surely that was a mistake she has to correct. However their second battle ends, the better conqueror will have prevailed and sheâs happy about that, all in the spirit of domination and subjugation.
Imo Makimaâs biggest tool, similarly capitalismâs most helpful effect for its own purposes, is complacency. Resignation and passivity helps uphold the system and go along the flow of the will of the people in power. Aki and Reze go along with orders even when knowing their job is trash, etc. In Angel Devil especially we see him go along with the flow uncaring about anyhing, and we discover it was in part due to Makima taking away memories that motivated him. If every devil decides this is just how things are and how things should be thatâs what theyâll continue to be and do mindlessly, not pursuing a better life like Chainsaw Devil and Denj and not seeking to change the world like Makima. I think even Makima veils herself to a lot of things, she doesnât like to think deeply about some things, like her desire for connection, or how making bad movies disappear is strenuous and unsustainable and requiring sacrifices at bestâ how her judgement is as subjective as anyone else. How liking the country mouse and her friend back at the farm and her dogs could be not devoid of sentimality. Wanting bad movies erased is her one biggest show of selfishness, of pettiness and individuality, itâs about her tastes, simple as. About how she can have tastes, and cry seeing a scene of people hug, and want things that arenât logical, her ideology and mind twisted into a pretzel to avoid acknowledging that she doesnât live and breathe purely for the mission sheâs made a single-minded robot out of herself to accomplish. Nayuta is assertive and selfish and loud, Makima is manipulative and strategically both for her goals and for coping hollow.
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Everything in her plans and goals she says is for the greater good, necessary evil, manufactured happiness the way sheâll have decided for peopleâ and thatâs the thing isnât it, like with War, itâs the crack that shows it was all truly about herself after all. Her self-made deification still had the flaw that a self made it. Makima is not omniscient, and itâs not Chainsaw Devil the not-so-fellow-kindred-soul conqueror who gets the best of her, but a city mouse, a dog, someone she would have never thought to respect, Denji.
#Fumi rambles#Chainsaw man#makima#analysis#meta#The goal is moreso me dropping thoughts than being flawless on every aspect of the lore so if and when i get things wrong b mercifulâŚ.#Maybe her liking of control is why she remembers the ww2 authoritarian fascists. I donât want to say the word jic for tumblr search#Pity is never a factor When mercy is a sign of a talentless actor#And as you grow its hold on your throat starts to falter And once you go beyond pure humanity's border#You will come back like a dooooog đ#Thisâd be a different topic but. I donât think makima likes denji as much as one of her dogs. If so iâd say it was in the moments where#she brought him to movies but even thenâŚ.. i think she has more fondness for her dogs bc w denji it was indifference and derision#I love you please humiliate me / strip my dignity and laugh my honey#God. God iâm fine. Iâm so okay about csm#Makima has a cryptic but strong sense of morals?? That doesnât align with ours obvi but#âSomeone like you has no right to wish for a normal life do they?â What do you meannn what do you meannnnn#What is this contempt for denji. Does she see herself as moral or part of those that are city mice bc theyâre undeserving of a calm life???#Maybe famine only feels fed on humans and their blood đ¤ or their fear. man idk idk idk idk but i wanna see more of her quirks#And before someone says âbut every demon likes to drink bloodâ power is especially fixated on it tho cmannnn#Did Angel lie when he said he liked seeing humans die?? Did his haunting thing become worse after meeting Aki?? Did he suppress it#because he feels like he doesnât belong as a devil??? bc heâs suppressing his memories of the villagers he cared about??#Has he just been trying so hard not to care for so long. Passive bc he thought thatâs all he could or should be#AGHHHHH#Spoilers#Thereâs a lot more iâd have liked to touch on like the popular theory that Makima was *raised* by the government#and iâve seen a take that the âmy friend at a farmâ thing is all euphemism from makima about her troublesome human killing job ykyk#but i think the phrasing is too literal and natural for that. The snow and soil talk everything. Itâs a perfect allegory but it can be both
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anyways i genuinely and deeply believe that seb is one of the best, well-rounded, most talented racing drivers currently active and i think no matter where he was racing, he'd adapt within less than one season. he's incredibly versatile, everyone who has worked with him praises his quick understanding, intelligence and detailed feedback. he's a genius on track and seizes every opportunity he can and any team across all of motorsport recognizes his talent. so many other drivers know him to be courteous and friendly and so many racing series want to win him (and the fanbase and recognition that comes with him) to drive for them. It's clear that once a team is genuinely happy to have him and listens to him, he's a major force that very few other drivers could come up against.
#he's so completely charming#he's always kind to his fans. every time ive met him he's spent all the time he could and then some with fans and never seemed annoyed#he's so smart. on track like that pitlane overtake. off track on bbc question time#his racecraft is amazing remember when some car was crashed in/near monaco pit entry and he just whipped the car round into the pits?#or monaco 2021#he cares so much and wants to know so much and just in general is so curious and interested..#and another thing is how he grows from his mistakes and how he keeps learning#and he has his faults! hes a little bitch sometimes. he used to be super annoying towards female interviewers!#but he did grow from that and hes a much better much more conscious person now#and even in 2021/22 some stuff he said was badly worded and embarrassing to hear but he also learned from that and said it differently after#i jsut love seb so so much#embarrassing that hes been my beloved since 2010. or well if you only count the current hyperfixation flareup when i got properly back into#f1; then since 2019#like i swearrr i have not hyperfixated on anyone/anything as hard as this man
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I can't remember if you've done any drawings for this before, sorry, but I have a requestober prompt! Vargas ladyverse snake charmer au? Or ladyverse dryder au Scri, I feel like the potential for pretty spiderweb clothes is high there. I would request both, but I want to respect the rules ^^ Thank you!!
Day 27 - Skillfully spun sheer shawl
#My art#Requestober#Vargas#Scriabin#Spider#So fun fact: I did do a couple Ladyverse!Snake Charmer!Scriabin doodles but they were just concept sketches so I never posted them#I still have at least one Ladyverse!SC idea written down but I haven't done anything with it lol#I never made it as far as Ladyverse!SC as a drider but then you said ''fashion'' and that's one of my sleeper words I Can't Not lol#I may have gone a little extra on this one but I was excited! I got sidetracked with those stones in the BG lol#Rock textures are still very fun ahh I can't help myself#The whole thing is extra! The web-cloth needed to contrast against her skin so I needed the directional lighting so I needed the background#Every step needed the next! It was decently fun tho#Not in small part of getting to look at some Acanthoscurria Geniculata <3#Funny actually haha; my step-sister went to the zoo recently and there was That Specific Species of tarantula there!#She took a picture for me :) Cute#Pretty spider <3 And pretty drider!#I'm still very normal about Lady!Scriabin >.> And backs lol they're fun to draw!#You'll notice under the webbing she's wearing a similar top to what I drew Classic!Drider Scriabin in that one time#This one's a halter-top tho :) Leather halter top haha#I think it breaks up the shapes nicely :D#And her little urticating hairs poking through the webbing hehe ⪠She's very cute! Very pretty :)
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adding onto my last rant from a while ago a little bit, it is fascinating how many people in this fandom completely miss the point of tsumugis character and misconstrue what hes actually about which, ironically, is just what eichi did. and its done in such a similar fashion too, such as making assumptions about his motives, his family relationship, and missing the point in why he chooses to look the way he does. and, time and time again, eichi has been proven to be WRONG about tsumugi. he misunderstood him deeply, and now its eichi whos stuck mourning the past while tsumugi has long since moved on, not the other way around, as tsumugi is on the path of getting his happy ending. and i dont get why people keep trying to take this positivity from him
(s. element epilogue 2)
#sorry for harping on this stuff alot it just genuinely sucks seeing a character you love be so widely misunderstood#especially when if you really think about it#tsumugi is about as blunt and honest as they come#you dont always need to read deeper into a character. you dont always need to psychoanalyze every part of them#you dont need to reason everything#sometimes people just Are Some Kind Of Way#and eichi failed to understand that and made the wrong assumption about tsumugi#and i feel like this fandom keeps doing the same thing#because he can do and say unconventional things#and when he makes jokes he sounds super alarming or like an utter freak#its frustrating when people continuously doubt tsumugis words when he speaks so earnestly about his life#hes honest to a fault. he has no reason to lie#you can argue that âohhh tsumugi just doesnt realize how fucked up he is!â and like Yea sure theres an element of that#but ive always read the point of his character to be him overcoming these hardships#because he cares so fucking deeply about every single person around him#and he never assumes malice. because he is such a genuinely kind hearted guy#and what makes tsumugi so interesting is that he can kind of SUCK at getting that across#because no matter what people never understand his actions or intents because of how weirdly he acts#and neither does this fandom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#natsume and tsumugi are built on being opposites. if natsume is a known liar surely we can put two and two together?#theres alot more that can be said on this topic and ive been meaning to for a while but honestly i just dont have the energy or brainpower#also i dont want this to read like im yucking anyones yum. its just frustrating as someone who is very mentally ill about these characters#he has clearly endured traumas too like im not ignoring that. its super obvious. but his character is about love and growth#you can go through literal HELL and be on the brink of SUICIDE and still end up a happy loving and forgiving person#and i think thats what his character is about#nat rambles#nats enst posting
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