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“You are my daughter. You can name yourself traumatized, you can try to run away, you can live and breathe at the beck and call of that man if you refuse to bear any shame, but the last thing you will ever be, as long as I walk this Earth, is fucking mediocre.”
eli 'rowan' pope does get too much in scandal but i laughed my head off when he started monologing to the toy dinosaur like a crazy person only for it to be revealed that jake put a camera in it and was watching the whole time.
I agree girl. I let Olivia get away with ANYTHING. Even the whole Jake and Fitz - I can't be mad because I probably would too 😭
i’m on s4 and i’m so annoyed that she keeps folding for fitz and then he shows up and i’m nodding like … yeah i’d fold too girl. i don’t blame u 😭 but i want olake to be the endgame even though i know it’s not gonna be.
mellie is my baby. idc. i ride for her too. fitz is an awful husband and she’s been through so much. at least at times olivia is a girl’s girl because if not, i definitely couldn’t defend her.
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readers john b’s sister maybe like a year younger, and likes jj. but always see him and kie flirting and gets really hurt everytime, and then she started distancing herself and then rafe came up to her while she was at the beach or soemthing alone, and then they become really close as friends and just really angsty?
pairing. rafe cameron x fem!routledge!reader x jj maybank
requested? yes no
warnings. feelings of abandonment, being the second choice, angst to fluff.
summary. you've always had a crush on your brother's best friend. what happens when your best friend, kie, decides to join your friendgroup and jj begins liking her?
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part 2!
You'd always been the second choice your entire life. Second to John B, second to your friends and most importantly, second to now, Kiara. You and JJ have always been close because of his relationship with your older brother and even when you were young, you'd always looked up to JJ.
You admired his ability to be strong and to be able to protect the ones he loved. When you were young you always found JJ to be a source of comfort and he always had that calming aspect to him. He is the most chaotic person you've ever known but he could calm you better than anyone else in the world.
Soon that admiration had turned into a slight crush. Lingering stares felt like the new norm for you, admiring JJ from afar. You knew he only saw you as a little sister so you had no chance.
And John B has made it clear that you were off limits so even if he did, it wouldn't have worked out because JJ was nothing if not loyal.
You've had to watch him fall in love with girls and give him the best girl advice you could, hurting yourself deeply in the process. You've had other crushes but JJ's presence lingered, and the feeling of no one measuring up to him hit you.
You were not a very social kid, not having many friends. You were sent to the Kook Academy because of your intellience but you were still bullied ruthlessly for years, until you eventually started to defend yourself. You were the smart one and John B was the socialite, as your father always put it.
Because you were so anti-social, you stuck to John B and his friends. You consider yourself a Pogue, like Pope and JJ. You and John B shared friends so you couldn't just exactly distance yourself and find new ones because you didn't want to step out of your comfort zone.
John B was your father's favorite. You were angry at first because it just wasn't fair, but you realized it was because you looked so much like your mother. It hurt your father and even though it wasn't your fault, you felt guilty.
Your crush on JJ remained for the entirety of your life and it always hurt you.
It didn't begin to show until Kiara showed up. You were excited because she was your first official girl-friend. She wasn't mean like all the others at the Kook academy, so you were her first friend. That's also how you had begun hanging out with Sarah which got you into the Kooks.
You essentially had ditched the Pogues for the Kooks. You didn't feel like you had a place with them so you slowly vanished and no one had really noticed.
When Sarah and Kiara had gotten into that big fight, you didn't want to choose sides but it was obvious Sarah didn't want you around. So you had no choice but to hang out with the Pogues and JJ again, now with a new member, Kiara.
That was when it started. JJ showed interest in her and she with him. You didn't know why it still hurt so much to see your first love flirt with your best friend right in front of you so much, but it did. Your feelings for JJ had hung on and you didn't know how to get over him.
You were at the beach at the country club, breathing in the salty air and feeling the cool wind run through your hair. You always liked the beach but you realized the Pogues were always at the beach, so you chose this side of island because no Pogues were over here.
You heard footsteps behind you and looked back to see Rafe Cameron. You weren't surprised; he always seemed to be where you were. It wasn't intentional, of course. But he just seemed to always surround you.
"You took my spot."
"What?"
Rafe then took a seat next to you, as you looked at him with a confused expression. "You took my spot, you usually go sit over there but you switched it up."
You laughed at the comment. "You watching me?"
He shrugged, "nope just observant. Why aren't you with Kiara and your brother." He choked out the word brother, he didn't know how you could be even slightly related to that hollagin.
"Just needed time alone." You were thinking of JJ, of course. You didn't want to see him ever again because it hurt seeing him treat Kie the way you wanted to.
Rafe sensed your stress. "What's on your mind?"
You looked at Rafe, "Nothing, it's stupid-"
"No, it's fine. I don't care if it's stupid, I wanna know."
You and Rafe weren't exactly friends but he still enjoyed your company. Sure, you were a Pogue but you weren't dirty and weird like the others, you were just you. He'd even liked you at some point, but it slowly faded.
"Well, JJ and Kie, they've been getting closer..." You pause to look at Rafe's reaction. "I love Kie but I feel like I'm getting replaced."
"That's valid." He said quietly as he looked away from your gaze. He empathizes with you because he felt that way when Top and Sarah had gotten together, he felt like he was getting replaced, too. "I, uh, understand. That happened to me with Top and Sarah."
You were glad he understood. "Oh, yeah. They're together now?"
"You didn't know?"
"Sarah has been dodging me lately. I think she thinks I chose Kie over her." You explain as he nods.
"Sarah doesn't know what's she on about half of the time, I'm sure she'll come to her senses and you guys can hang out again so you don't have to be all alone since those Pogues ditched you."
You laughed at Rafe's bluntness. A smile took over his face once he heard your laugh, familiar butterflies invading his stomach.
"They didn't ditch me, per say... It's just awkward because of Kie now. They've found a new me, I guess. Even John B." You mumbled the last part, getting irritated. It wasn't even the fact that Kie was hanging out with Pogues that bothered you, it was just because they were replacing you.
You haven't hung out with the Pogues in two days and none of them have even bothered to text you. Even when you come home, you and John B barely exchange greetings.
Rafe felt for you. He and Sarah were never close but sometimes he wished they were. "Kie's not you, Y/N."
It was refreshing to actually hear that come out of someone's mouth. "Thanks, Rafe. I just wished they cared about me."
Rafe knew exactly how he felt. He looked at you and you reminded him of his younger self, asking himself why Ward liked Sarah more than him. He was suddenly angry; you shouldn't be feeling that way, you weren't him, you were sweet you.
"Oh, fuck them. Other people care about you, Y/N. As soon as Kie finds some other people to slum with they'll beg for you to come back."
You again let out a laugh but Rafe was serious.
"Who cares? Sarah misses you so just text her, or call her. For now you can hang out with Top and me."
You were taken aback at Rafe's sudden kindness. He wanted you to hang out with him? Maybe this was a good thing, you could make some new friends while getting over JJ.
"You sure?-"
"Yes, Y/N. I'm sure, come on." He got up and then helped you up from the sand. "I can help you with golf, cus uh... you kinda suck."
You playfully shoved him as you both walked to the golf course away from the beach. You smiled at Rafe as he explained the basic rules of golf and a warm feeling invaded your stomach. Rafe Cameron was making you smile? That was something new.