#EVERYTHING HURTS AND I AM NOT OK

[eirenical]

#god GOD. the shift in expression and posture within the first two gifs#the first moment is li lianhua walking forth tired and resigned#the second is li xiangyi's ghost returned. for just as long as he needs to face down the one person li lianhua can't#cheng yi real acting moment head in hands (via @difeisheng)

“Shixiong. Long time no see.”

Mysterious Lotus Casebook 莲花楼 | Episode 33

[yukipri]

feelin kinda sad so eating an obscene amount of pasta

[triglycercule]

can the mtt commit more crimes that just murder please i know theyre the MURDER time trio but ppppleasse,,,, please,,,,,,

they'd be terrible to be next to on the highway. horror's going 160 mph amd has long past gone over the speed limit. dust's out for BLOOD and by blood i mean your tires. he's somehow sniping those round rubber wheels from the high moving vehicle with the precision of a master fruit ninja player. if your car explodes or flips over in the process that's not his fault. and then to make matters worse for everyone on the highway killer's in the backseat scratching up the doors and windows of your car with a knife everytime horror gets close to another car and oops he accidentally just disfigured your face also did i mention theyre all drunk during this

ok so theyve all got the classic face WHY DONT THEY ABUSE IT!!!! horror gets to do a little paper mache to cover up his head hole and then wearing glasses. killer i dont know what the FUCK he can do to get rid of his perpetual tears but let's just pretend that theyre conveniently gone for now. and then all dust has to do is put down his hood! anyways identity theft is cool. imagine how much they could totally fuck up classic's reputation with this. set up fake tinder profiles and then scam people for their credit card info/free dates (while ordering every expensive thing) and stealing wallets. walking into various grillby's's around the multiverse and telling terrible jokes. like ACTUALLY bad jokes. and then of course just being a huge piece of shit at the bar. god theres so many things they could do pretending to be classic. which one of us is hikaru looking ahh except the only difference between the three is the color of the stains on their clothes (either gray (dust) black (killer) or red. well faded red (horror))

ROBBERY!!!! ROBBERIES PLURAL!!!??? train robbery gas station robbery bank robbery GOVERNMENT robbery (what would you rob the government for?? documents??? idk) anyways. mtt robbing a train except its just a really shitty plan and they dont know jackshit about what theyre doing. killer's taken over the conductor's cabin and now he is booking it. how fast are trains allowed to go idk but the maximum. anyways meanwhile horror's on the tracks fucking up the rails with his strength or whatever (listen i know he's weak but picking and choosing what hcs i believe in is my art) and dust is there to teleport him away before the train crashes into him and turns him into a trolley problem victim. and then of course that shit doesnt fucking work and the train just ends up flipping over and catching on fire or something (killer survives because of course he does he's killer). and then in the end dust just has to flip the entire train over and they just stroll into the part that actually HAS the money

and then they go out and get ice cream. sometimes the murderers need to take a break from murdering and just do NORMAL crime yk???

[eirenical]

#GOD.#the way di feisheng could anchor li lianhua to the past and fang duobing could tether him to the future#but li lianhua was supposed to exist for nothing other than the present moment and then disappear like smoke#ghosts are left frozen as they were at their point of death and are unable to change beyond it.#mysterious lotus casebook#li xiangyi#di feisheng#fang duobing#li lianhua (via @difeisheng)

no but the THING IS!! Li Lianhua thought he knew the past. He thought he understood where he'd gone wrong, why everything had fallen apart. He'd made his own morbid peace with it by deciding that finding and putting Shan Gudao to rest would be the end to their sorry tale, and then he would die. He'd made his peace with never showing kindness to his past self. He'd made his peace with being a lonely ghost.

And then Fang Duobing and Di Feisheng elbow their way into his life, more stubbornly than he can resist. Their very existence is a threat to Li Lianhua's entire person. Di Feisheng is living proof that what happened 10 years ago was so much more complicated, and ending it is going to take much more than finding and burying his shixiong. Fang Duobing is there, his love for Li Lianhua a stubborn reminder that he is a whole person with a possible future that need not be a ticking clock. No wonder Li Lianhua was lost by the end. No wonder he felt adrift and stuck between life and death and a future and a past. No wonder he was too tired to keep trying, especially after the only cure had to be given away to ensure Fang Duobing's safety. No wonder he fell back on the pattern of making himself alone with the belief that he was letting others move on, when what he was really doing was running from the terrifying realisation that maybe he did deserve a future

[hellinhawkins]

hey! sometimes it’s not necessary to share your opinion <3

[hel7l7]

I’m in that weird stage of healing from smt where things are new and good. But the fact that it feels new and different terrifies me and makes me spiral into some sort of crazy panic mode because I just want control….

What I had in the past was not better than what is now. Repeat. I am only comfortable in chaos because it is what I know best. Repeat. I can learn to get used to a new version of me and it won’t always feel scary and uncomfortable. Repeat.

[mushed-kid]

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[eirenical]

Just @bbcphile and @difeisheng BRUTALLY MURDERING ME with their insights into Di Feisheng. Nothing to see here. Move along. 😭

i know we laugh about how di feisheng starts and ends the show mourning li xiangyiand so it seems on the surface that he didn't get a huge arcbut he did and it's in the moments like thishe's learning from other people's behaviourafter a fucked up childhood by anyone's measure and spending the last ten years shut away from the worldoh also re: di feisheng insisting on being there for people in times of paindo you think he's also remembering fang duobing only just starting to warm up to him in shishou villagebut still running to catch him without hesitationand so liking and disliking someone can fluctuate but care can be unconditional and that's something he's slowly figuring out tooahem anyways. good blorbo morning (via @difeisheng)

Mysterious Lotus Casebook | give him some space

[tamagotchikgs]

nauseous

[faaun]

this is the hardest assignment i have ever ever done i just took my 3rd ritalin my eyes r still tearing up from the exhaustion..it's 9:31 AM it's due at 12:00 PM aaaa

[xxplastic-cubexx]

this is from a Brazilian girl who recorded it on tiktok, you don't have to understand what he says actually, just listen to the voice

https://www.tiktok.com/@vdevanisse/video/7413050914723974405

tiktok

PORTUGESE DUB LETS GOOO

[a-story-teller]

I was in a major car accident yesterday (got t-boned) and was very luckily a) alone in the car, as the passenger side got walloped and b) not injured. However I took care of everything and then went home and proceeded to sleep for 19 out of the following 24 hours.

[simcardiac-arrested]

can we talk about no way back. hi . Hello ! i want to talk about this (-1 HP) drawing (-1 HP) that you've made (-1 HP)(-1 HP)(-1 HP)

Hi. um. what if the cracks started showing

[james-spooky]

this is a test

[takeyourdailydoseofcyanide]

asking for help always makes things worse

[orcelito]

Shino raising his dead friends and friend's dog from the dead with the power of bugs as one friend's cousin watches [not clickbait]