Okay but is nobody gonna talk about "my father drank gin" and "put a bullet through my head before i drink gin" like is nobody going absolutely insane over that-
Well i am and im gonna talk about it.
The tragedy of children picking up drinking because they saw it in their parents and so it's much easier to fall into it. And their brain justifying being drunk on something else, as a defence mechanism, against feeling just as bad as their parent. They're drinking something else, so they can't be exactly like them right? But in reality it's often just as bad and sometimes even worse.
This is also genius because all you get is two innocent lines and that's all it takes for you to realise Crozier's past with alcoholism.
"my father drank gin" could just be a thing you say during a toast. "aah, my father loved gin, it's nice remembering things about him" but no. Here it's said so bitterly and hatefully, you know for a fact he drank a lot and Crozier HATED that about him. We can also assume he's dead from something alcohol induced.
And then the other line "put a bullet through my head before i drink gin" - despite what the words actually say - is also something you could say as a joke, when your friend offers you gin, you know. "you want me to drink WHAT??" Sort of thing. But here you kind of feel like... He means it. It's said with so much resentment and stubborness, he might as well mean it literally. "Kill me before i become my father." Because Crozier hated him so much he wants to become nothing like him. Even when it's through impressive mental gymnastics.
I really really do not understand how Jared is a bad actor. I understand these things are not objective. It's just that his range and his ability to display reactions in intense scenarios and consistently display PTSD from that is like. so core to my ability to even enjoy most of latter supernatural. I am not good at judging actors I think Jensen and Misha are so so, and I very rarely pay attention to the skills of acting. But Jared like. specifically stands out to me as an extremely good actor?
Jared really nailed Cordell's anguish at watching Larry spiral and not being able to help. And Coby Bell was equally as impressive in his desperation. I love scenes like this that allow the actors to really dig deep and find the heart of the matter. I hope we get more of them this season!
havent posted in a while uhm. have a jared. yapping under the cut
SO UUHMMM i am a big flower language slash symbolism nerd. there is intent behind all of those flowers and today i am going to nerd out about that intent because YAY!!!!!!! hip hip hooray uhm. idk how to segway into this next paragraph just please bear with me here okay
so uhmmm. the flowers jared's holding in his hand are bird's foot trefoil and theyyyyy symboliiiiiise revenge n shit yeah n you know how jared. jared he uhhh he he killed his verbally abusive mom LMAO womp womp uhhh. yeah
those big poofy pom-pom flowers with the petals that look like pencil parings r carnations and theyre YELLOW so theyre yellow carnations which surprise! greatly changes the meaning of em. usually carnations symbolise love n devotion n all that jazz but YELLOW carnations symbolise rejection. jareds been rejected all his life basically thus explaining why theres a shit ton of carnations surrounding him so like yeah yeah ok
the other flowers are dandelions and rather than them being used in this little doodle i diddled by their literal symbolism i uhm. i put them in there because they are considered weeds!!! we all know what weeds are but ill explain what they are anyways weeds are basically just. unwanted plants. and jared is definitely unwanted methinks. and also jared smokes weed duh
that last part was a joke jared does NOT smoke weed. probably. maybe. unless?
for anyone who has never been to Texas, it’s basically like going to a Texas themed amusement park. there is Texas shaped decor in people’s homes and people always talk about what it’s like being in Texas, and every store has some piece of Texas themed merchandise.
it’s also exactly what you think it would be. there’s country music playing in public places (that’s my favorite part). people unironically say “y’all”. there’s cows. AND I’ve seen people actually wear cowboy hats. like just around town. hanging out with friends. going to the store.