#Dude I’m so happy I can draw him. I’M SO PROUD-

[whereismyhat5678]

Guys.

Guys It’s HIM. It’s It’s IT’S HIM‼️‼️‼️

I love him I love him I love him I love him I-💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

OOOOOOOOO ALSO @noodletime get over here!! 👇👇

So. I’ve seen you’ve had a little bit of a liking towards him I see 😏😏😉😉

Weeeeeeell I hope you like this little thing that I made for you 😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏 *aggressively winks in your direction specifically*

[hunterofartemis7]

Adopted by the gods AU pt.9

*in the mortal world*

*Odysseues, Polites and Eurylochus running around the market in Ithaca just being kids*

Odysseus: so what did I miss since I was here last?

Polities: well the king and Queen are apparently going to Olympus for some meeting.

Odysseus: what meeting?

Polities: 🤷🏼

Eurylochus: and a boar has been running around the forest causing problems. The hunters think it’s a challenge from the gods cause no one can kill it.

Odysseus: oh yeah, mama mentioned that. It’s a test of skill

Polities: that tracks for lady Athena.

Odysseus: yep! *stops at one of the stands and buys some loafs of bread*

Eurylochus: why do you but bread everytime we come here?

Odysseus: mama likes bread.

Eurylochus: ofc

Odysseus: *takes them bread from the stand owner* so, y’all ready?

Polities: ready? Ready for what?

Odysseus: we’re gonna go beat mamas challenge

Eurylochus: I’m sorry we’re gonna what?

Odysseus: we’re going after the boar.

Eurylochus: why?

Odysseus: mama made the challenge for only the best of the best. I want to prove that that’s us

Eurylochus: you are nuts!

Odysseus: oh come on what’s the worst that could happen?

Polities: we die!

Odysseus: no we won’t. I got a plan!

Eurylochus: you always have a plan.

Odysseus: yep! Now come on!

*after gathering some ropes and weapons, the boys head out to the forest where the boar was last seen. A couple other hunters from the palace are also looking for it and the glory of the kill, paying no attention to the three boys*

Odysseus: *draws the plan out in the sand* okay, you two will get on either side of it, and throw the ropes around the boar to subdue it. Than I’ll come up and stab it through the heart.

Polities: and what happens if it gets free?

Odysseus: than aim for the kill. You ready?

Polities and Eurylochus: yep!

Odyssey: let’s do this!

*the boys managed to find the boar before any of the other hunters.*

Polities and Eurylochus: *sneak up on either side of the boar, than get close enough to throw the ropes around it and hold it down*

Odysseus: *goes up for the kill*

The boar: *manages to get free from the trap and charges at polities*

Polities: *freezes in fear*

Odysseus: *pushes polities out the way and aims his spear at the boar, piercing its heart*

The boar: ☠️

Odysseus: *gets his leg cut by the boars tusk as it charged and fell* aah!

Eurylochus: Ody!

Polities: Odysseus!

Odysseus: *holding his leg in pain* I’m fine! Just a cut

Eurylochus and polities: *both run up to him panicked*

Polities: Ody your bleeding!

Odysseus: I’m fine! At least we got the boar

Eurylochus: dude you need to get cut fixed up!

Odysseus: I’ll have uncle Apollo fix it when I go home.

One of the hunters: (previously mentioned) what are you three doing out here?! Don’t you know it’s dangerous— *sees the boar and Odysseus bleeding*..do you three kill it?

Odysseus: yep!

Polities: well Odysseus killed it, we just helped.

The hunter: wow. Did not expect a couple of kids to be able to kill this beast; color me impressed.

*the three boys smile proudly*

The hunter: what happened to your leg?

Odysseus: oh, the boars tusk hit me when it fell.

The hunter: come on, you need to get that treated.

Odysseus: I’m fine! My uncle or mom can fix it.

The hunter: well I doubt either will be happy if I just let you go and risk that wound getting infected. *calls the rest of his group over and fills them in.*

*while in disbelief, the hunting group picks the boar up and puts it in their wagon. The nice hunter helps the boys into the wagon and takes them to the place to get cleaned up and wait for their parents*

Polities: what do you think your mom will say when she learns her own son beat her challenge?

Odysseus: hopefully she’ll be proud!

Eurylochus: or she’ll kill you for getting hurt.

Odysseus: or that!

The hunter: *climbs into the wagon* wait, who exactly is your mom kid?

Odysseus: Athena!

The hunter:………………….nope! Not gonna ask! *takes them to the palace*

[lovebvni]

holaaa!! (dr rant + just an appreciation post)

(TW SLIGHT HINT TO GROOMING)

soo i’m shifting soon and i decided that im going to make my first album when i get there (LIKE START JT, DUDE. START IT. IM SO EXCITED) there’s going to b an ep i’m going to finalize when i get there and it will be released on the 26th of the month i get there (as it is kinda a diss on a MAN who was 26 when we dated… i was a minor still.)

i’m also gonna make a family tree because i’m really bored (and i also kinda js wanna see all my siblings yk? im gonna draw them all soon bc like AUGH AJAJDKDJ I MISS THEM!!!)

omgz i’m so excited dude!!

(appreciation below!!)

also i saw billie eilish in my dream last night. one of the funniest and sweetest people i know 😭 SHARK WAS ALSO IN THAT DREAM HES SO SWEET ‼️‼️ god i wish i could hug them today, just right now. yall don’t understand how much billie and finneas have been through together, and im so proud of how far they made it. i love you both, and although you won’t see this post in this reality, i know you will when we r together :DDD u guys make me so happy, so inspired, and just a better person overall. also huge thank you to billie in helping me with directing my music videos and being featured in one of my favorite songs — ripple effect. thank you finneas for just 😭 for keeping her alive, giving her a passion, and being so protective and supportive of her.

i’m so excited to b friends w both of them n js talk to them daily — it’s so fun.

i’m also super duper excited to meet one of my closest friends — nile — in person finally!!!! it’s been like 3 years of shifting together, and i know she’s excited too. i know she’s reading this, btw so i love u sm nile and thank u for being such a great and perfect friend throughout this whole journey. i truly don’t think i would still be kicking without you. i owe you the world, and i know you’re going to be blessed with many MANY things in the coming months, and the years following will be some of your best, but that’s only a taste of what is truly to come.

i’m so proud of you, and i’m also so round of everyone that has been clinging onto shifting even though it hurts. i’m always here for you. i love you all so so much. i want the best for you, and i know you’re going to get it. i’m always here to help in ANY way i can. ask me anything, i promise you i will answer with the wisdom God and the universe has given me!!

i cannot express my gratitude to my father, loki, enough. i don’t know how to even put it into words. he’s been there at my hardest, he’s been there at my best. i don’t think i would actually even be this far without him either. he’s one of the silliest and sweetest people ive ever met. i can’t believe he’s my FATHER you guys!! ITS SO COOL AUGHH

i also have so many people here i need to thank, there’s more that i can think of right now but just know i love and appreciate every one of you guys.

staring with @smellofemale!! you were such a sign when i met you. i don’t think i’ve met a christian shifter — you’re the only one i still talk to if i have! im just so so sooo blessed to have met you. i don’t know what to say, dude! i love you so much. you’re so sweet, so kind, and so inspiring. i love you!

@eneablack although you’re one of my newest friends, you’re another really really inspirational one. you’re so open about your struggles with shifting, even though you’ve had success time and time again. it shows me and many others how shifting sometimes is a hard thing to get used too, even with successes under your belt!

@daisys-reality! if you don’t know them, FOLLOW IMMEDIATELY PLEASE OMGGJAJSN she gives some of the best and most accurate readings i could ever ask for. also her drs (specifically her mermaid one) have inspired me so much!!

@kanachaka UR AO COOL BRO I JS LOVE SEEING UR POSTS AJSJDKDJD

@kazylynn i love u sm!! u rlly show me i can be an inspiration to others, and that’s something i’ve hoped for all my life. i want to be a good, helpful person — and i love you for showing me i can be.

@babybearthepsychic a few months ago you gave me a free reading that was just so accurate and so real. i don’t know if i would still be on this spiritual journey without it, because i was at one of my hardest points then. i cannot believe how just truly accurate and kind you are. i love you so much, you’re doing amazing. i wish i could give you the biggest hug, and i could donate like a million dollars to u rn but i literally don’t have a job 😭

@zipperrants i don’t think i rlly need to explain this… dude i thought u we’re so cool even when u we’re js interacting with @maddies-chronicles and i rlly wanted to interact w u so bad but i was so so scared bro!! and thank u hale for giving me the opportunity to meet them!!

@accidentalshifter YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW MANY PEOPLE U REPRESENT IN THIS RESLITY — YOURE ONE OF THE FIRSR ADULT SHIFTERS I SAW ON HERR AND IM SO SO SO SO SOOO FUCKING HQPPY YOURE SO OPEN ABOUT IT! you’re just so free and it’s beautiful. i love you so much

and there are so many more but i just.. im gonna cry i love you all tooo much.. please know u all mean so much to me and i can’t wait to tell u so many stories when i get back, and help u guys shift. i am working so hard to post more, and i pray this post can help me become more active.

so so so much love, to everyone in this community, you’re so wonderful. may the gods bless you.

so much love, peace and joy

the abyss

[sugarpasteltmnt]

I've been compleatly OBSSESED with neon void so far!!! It's by far my favorite fic of any I've read!! After every chapter I have to take a second to do the happy stimmies because you write all of the scenes so well. Whenever I see a new update I clear the next hour for reading it and the subsequent geek out sesion for how AMAZING it always is. You write extremely well, you convey the characters so acurately, the fight scenes are creative, the way you write Leo's perspective is AMAZING, love the font changes, the angst PALPABLE, and just over all I love everything you're able to do with this concept. The way you can see Leo's mental state deteriorating through out the fic is just *chefs kiss*. There's so much I love about the fic that I can't possibly list everything.

Also the established difference between teleporting and portaling is so great, it adds to the pure panic that void causes for the boys aside from, y'know, crazy dude capable of beating Big Mama within an inch of her life and STRAIGHT UP OFFING a buch of other yokai. It does wonders for establishing him as a threat even though he technically isn't for the turtles. Plus I'm sure that once they find out who Void really is, it will add a bunch of tension since they'll need to stop Leo from literally SCATTERING HIS ATOMS ACROSS SPACE.

AND THE CHAPTER PREVIEW ISTG I've never gotten so much serotonin from being in this much pain ;0; The gif is perfect to set the mood, I can't wait to see what happens. You're ablility to choose just the right thing to stab so many people directly through the heart is nothing short of super-natural. BUT PLEASE give the boi some happiness, if not for his sake, for mine-

ANYWAYS this is all a VERY long way of saying, I absolutely love this and I had to draw the silly boi being the silly boi. I needed to draw him happy for the health of my heart ;-; (don't worry though, I'm working on some tasty angst right now)

Can't wait to see where everything goes, GOOD LUCK TO CASEY but there only six chapters left so we're getting to the end game now >:D

Please have a wonderful rest of your week :D

THANK U SO MUCH ;w; I’m so so happy that my fight scenes are followable/enjoyable, and tho they are a binch to code I’m so happy you enjoy the funky fonts and formatting ;w; i know reading blocks of text can be intimidating/tiring for readers, so i try to break it up to help with the pacing and sprinkle in some fun, spooky fonts as treats 🩵

Something i really, REALLY loved about Rise was the fights. Not only was the animation amazing, but it was always so creative. I try my best to make the fight scenes as silly as the boys can be, while utilizing their adaptive skills to use their surroundings to their advantage.

And bruh trying to balance Leo’s insanity in a believable way has been such a (fun) challenge so it makes me so happy to hear you like it 😭🥺 and I’m so glad people seem to like the ‘teleportation’ gimmick I’ve got going on (and that it hopefully makes sense omg)

(And i will admit I’m a little proud of my chapter previews because they are so fun to write, and i like to reassure readers that 1) i have a plan and 2) I’m keeping myself accountable to finish LOL)

Also aksdlaskdhaksdh thank u for this art this part especially is SENDING ME WHEEZE 🤣🩵❗️

[dreamwatch]

Written for @corrodedcoffinfest

Prompt: Greed | Word Count: 1313 | Rating: M | CW: Suicide, MCD, Mental Illness (referenced) Addiction (referenced) | POV: Eddie | Pairing: Steddie | Tags: Eddie, A Stranger in the woods, Dark themes, how far would you go to get what you want?, and what's the real cost?, spooky

AO3 version if you prefer... 📷

Happy Halloween! 🎃

He counts the gold records lining the wall of his study; eleven of them side by side, one for each of their albums. They’re to be kept together even after he’s gone, his will has strict instructions on who gets them, on who can be trusted with them; Gareth, Wayne, his mother. For now though they stay on the wall, looking down on him. Judging him.

No one comes out to the bench since Chrissy died. Eddie thinks some students are afraid it was him and that they’ll be next, and others are afraid that it wasn’t him and they’ll still be next because if it wasn’t Eddie…

Hawkins is a very strange place, after all.

There’s no drug dealing anymore, he comes here to draw or write during lunch; the cafeteria feels claustrophobic and his friends are well meaning but the constant attention is grating his nerves. He doesn’t need to be protected, and he doesn’t need them carrying his books, he can manage fine on his own.

He sketches a boy in armour swinging a sword, another blood soaked at his feet. He has words for a poem to go with this one, he’ll add them later, maybe.

“You’re very good.”

Eddie spins, flinching at the pull in his side. A man stands behind him, his face shadowed by the trees.

“What the fuck, dude?” he pants. 

“I’m sorry,” the man replies. “I didin’t mean to frighten you.”

Eddie closes his notebook and slides it inside his bag. “I’m allowed to be here, it’s part of the school grounds, and I’m not—”

“Of couse you are. I’m not here to chastise you. I was hoping to talk to you.”

Eddie watches suspiciously as the man approaches the bench. He peers at Eddie over his glasses, but his eyes are dark, hidden by his hat. 

“Look, I’ve kept my nose clean since I’ve been back, man. I’m on time to class, homework completed, tests—”

“Oh, I’m not a teacher,” the man laughs like it’s absurd, and there’s a sharpness to it that leaches under Eddie’s skin. “But it certainly seems that you’ve worked very hard. It must have been a terrible struggle coming back to school, facing all of Chrissy’s friends. Your uncle must be very proud.”

The birds have stopped singing.

Eddie feels the first pinch of anxiety, can feel his heart kick up when he realises he didn’t tell anyone where he was going for lunch. 

“Who are you?”

“Someone who can help you.”

In the aftermath of everything, Eddie has been left with a healthy fear of pretty much everyone outside his immediate circle. People like to leave messages for him on his van and the trailer, and both have never been so clean. What people haven’t done is try to help him. So consider him unconvinced.

He grabs his bag, and his cane, and pushes himself up.

“I’m good, thanks,” he says sarcastically.

“It must be terribly hard,” says the man, motioning to his leg. “To be so young and to be left horribly injured.” He mouth stretches, a horrible attempt at a smile. “You have scars, don’t you?”

“Fuck you,” Eddie spits. 

“Tell me, Edward, do you still play the guitar?”

He stops dead, never takes his eyes off the trees ahead of him.

Why are the birds not singing?

“Who the fuck are you?” 

“I’m someone who can help you. I’m someone who understands how hard it is to be different.”

The world is silent but Eddie hears his heart beat, feels his blood pump, the tippy-tap reminder that this is happening, that this is real. There should be cheerleaders out on the field, but he can’t hear them. Can’t hear the birds, can’t hear the wind, can’t hear the trees. 

“I don’t need any help,” he says, and he’s trying so hard to be brazen, to be the Eddie of before, not the scared boy of after, but it sounds choked even to his own ears.

“But you do,” croons the man as he circles Eddie, so close that he can feel the tweed of the mans suit on the back of his hands.  “I can return the things that were stolen from you. I can give you the things you have always dreamed of.”

Eddie breathes, ragged and harsh, and he knows the man can feel his breath on his skin.

“I don’t—”

“Oh but you do. You want, Edward. You want so deeply, so much has been taken from you, hasn’t it? Since you were a small boy, life has treated you unfairly. You’ve suffered. And your uncle has suffered, think of what you could do for him? Think of what you could give him?”

“No, that’s—”

“You dream of Madison Square Garden, and of fame, and fortune. You dream that your mother is alive and that your father is dead—”

“I don’t!”

“You dream of a boy that you can never have. So brave and so handsome, but you know Steve will never be yours.”

His breath catches. He can’t know these things, he’s never told anyone these things. They’re secrets, they’re his, they’re private things. 

“Who are you?” 

“I have powers you can barely imagine, Edward. I can manipulate time, make what was dead, alive. I can give you what you covet. Your band are talentless shoolboys, but I can make them good. I can fix you, make you play guitar the way you used to, better than you used to. People will worship you, shower you with awards. I can give you Steve. You can have all of these things, Edward.”

This is ridiculous. It’s not real.

Tippy-tap.

He shouldn’t contemplate it because its lunacy. But…

What if it isn’t?

Eddie’s limbs shake and he let’s himself fall backwards to the bench. He swallows the acid in his throat. 

“How?” he asks, a near breathless whisper.

There’s no movement, the world is locked out, just the two of them in the clearing. He feels putrid, damp breath on the back of his neck, icy lips touching the shell of his ear.

“Bring me the girl.”

Eddie shakes his head, confused. 

“The girl?”

The man’s eyes flash and Eddie feels the sting of bites.

Edward Anthony Munson (July 23, 1967 - November 11, 2011) was the lead guitarist, co-founder and principal songwriter for the heavy metal band Corroded Coffin. He was known for his virtuoso playing and intricate guitar solos. Munson co-founded Corroded Coffin in 1982 with school friends Gareth Jones, Jeff Williams and Matt Morris. Corroded Coffin released 11 studio albums, 2 live albums, and 19 singles. Munson is regarded as one of the greatest guitarists of all time.[1] 

Munson struggled publicly with chronic mental health problems and addiciton from the beginning of the band’s success in the early nineties. He faced increasing ridicule in the last decade of his life for his often bizarre behaviour during interviews, most famously on Late Night with David Letterman in November, 2004.[2]  His obsession with the occult was cited as a major contributor to Corroded Coffin’s breakup in 2009, Munson making demands that decisions about the band’s future should be made using numerology. After Munson’s death, Williams was quoted in Metal Hammer magazine: “We thought if we ended the band it would help. But it was too little too late. The number thing was just…he was so far gone.”[3] It was also believed to have been one of the contributing factors in the breakup of his marriage.[4] 

Munson died at his home in New York in November 2011, from a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head.[5] 

Born July 23, 1967, Hawkins, Indiana, US

Died November 11, 2011, (aged 44) New York City, US 

Occupation Musician · Songwriter

Genres Heavy Metal · Thrash Metal

Spouse Steven Harrington (m. 2006; div. 2011)

Instrument Guitar

Years active 1982 - 2009

Formerly of Corroded Coffin

*New York was 11th state to ratify the United States Constitution. Eddie was going to be 45, but 44 is divisible by 11... you get the picture 😆

That's it, seven more fics to add to the stash. Thank you so much to @thisapplepielife for putting this together, it's been a blast!

@the-unforgivenn I'm going to write you something sweet to make up for all the trauma!

[gaycrittercentral]

YESS WE WOULD LOVE TO SEE THE FANKIDS ‼️

Hhhhdhdgshgd I’m very shy abt them but I’m gonna be brave since a couple of y’all were curious!! :’> here they are!!

There’s four of em and their names are Maisie, Lacey (short for Shoelace), Crowbar and Junior. They were born tiny, hairless and wrinkly and developed the ability to zoom around and track smells before they managed to open their eyes so they start terrorizing Jimmy Two Teeth before they can even see him, they’re like a horrible mix of naked mole rats and piranhas lmaoooo

Also here is the first drawing I ever did of them :’)

When I was designing them I felt like there were already so many fankids out there that are a really perfect fusion of both of Sam and Max’s looks, and I wasn’t crazy about trying to do it myself so I just made an army of little maxlets. The Maxlings, if you will! But I did give them longer tails in later drawings and Crowbar has floppy ears like Sam, so they didn’t completely skip his genes jfkhsgs ^^; I have planned out how they came to be but I’ll probably put that in a different post (maybe I’ll even write a little thing for it teehee that might be fun). But I can describe them a little here!!

Maisie is the oldest (as in the first one to be found, they weren’t really born in the traditional sense so \_:p_/) and she just really loves sharp objects lmao. She is mostly non-verbal, but in kind of a Ferb way where she’ll occasionally throw out a cryptic one-liner and mostly remain silent with kind of an ominous stare. Her sisters and brother are completely unfazed by this and have absolutely no fear of her, but she loves being scary to everyone else. She constantly seems like she’s about to commit an act of incredible violence but she doesn’t like to be caught doing it, so it’s all off-screen. She feels like it’s scarier that way. Max is very proud of her.

Lacey (Shoelace, because she used one as a teething toy as a baby which is baffling because neither of her dads wear shoes where did it come from??) is one of the middle kids. She likes dressing up and bounces around between masc and femme and both and neither. She also likes chatting a mile a minute with Crowbar, and she’s less of a twig than her sisters. Later in life she might try and get a lil buff like Sam. She mostly likes to go along with her sisters’ ideas because her head is pretty empty a lot of the time, and she’s slightly less inclined to jump to violence than they are. But only slightly. She also maybe picks up Sam’s habit of grabbing random items.

Crowbar is the other middle kid and fairly precocious. She’s the first one to unlock language capabilities (I have a comic about that I can post later!), and she loves trying to imitate Sam’s vocabulary. Not that she’s, like, good at it yet, but she’s trying lmao. She’s always very cheerful and bouncy and probably the most likely to cry a little if something goes wrong, but also frequently swings back around to bouncy happy and tends to forget whatever upset her immediately. She swings violently back and forth between having zero thoughts and being head full many thoughts that she has to babble loudly all at once.

And Junior is the youngest, the smallest, the baby of the family. He’s very shy and sensitive, and his sisters are like his own personal bodyguards lmao. He has a lot of sensory issues that his dads make sure to help him with, like getting him soft clothes and a noise cancelling beanie (bc he ears not really suited to headphones) and shooting out overhead lights when they’re too bright for him hdkdhshs. He also likes napping in Sam’s pockets and under his hat and Max loves carrying him around like the baby he is. He’s also a creative little dude and he likes drawing (and also eating the crayons afterward).

All four of them are little goblins who have no concept of morality (like even Junior, he may be skittish but he still condones violence and chaos hdkdhshs) and will eat almost anything. They are truly their fathers’ children shjfjjdgdjshsh, and speaking of which Sam and Max are thrilled to have them around and completely obsessed with them hehe. They pretty much just carry on with their cases like usual except now they have a small pack of land piranhas that they can sic on difficult suspects lmaoooo

And I have some more sketches of them I can post, too!! So I’ll probably bounce back and forth between that and the virtues for a bit hehe :>

[bitchslapblastoids]

Can I ask how much you talk to your partner about Dan and Phil and how do you talk about them? As someone who is not/has not been in a serious relationship, I find it hard to imagine how I would talk to someone about this, given my level of obsession. I don’t even really talk to friends about it. Like, do you talk about fic? Do you show your partner their videos? How did/will you bring up Iceland?

You don’t have to answer this if it’s too personal- totally get it! I’m honestly just so curious when I see phannies talk about their partners who aren’t also phannies.

Hi I actually really love this question bc it’s def something I think about fairly often, bc the tension is real. I am openly thirsting over these men, I have a real life partner, I share a life with him, but I also spend like a third of my life online thinking about the lives of these two dudes….it’s a thing. Just a heads up, my answer got really long.

My partner pretty fundamentally doesn’t get Dan and Phil’s whole thing, so I don’t show him vids or talk much about specific goings-on in the d&p landscape, bc it’s just a bummer to try and articulate or share something knowing it ain’t gonna land, lol. Even trying to explain the tour each time I came home from it all giddy made me feel like language was a hindrance and an impossible barrier to surmount. It’s just so hard to explain d&p’s brilliance when you don’t have some basis of common knowledge to draw on. It’s also hard to make someone else get the inherent appeal of two people’s chemistry and connection if they aren’t inclined to gaf about that kind of thing.

But he does know pretty much the full extent of my whole thing going on here lol. He’s seen my blog, sometimes I show him a post if I’m particularly proud of it/think it’s especially funny, I’ll talk to him about mutuals I’m chatting with sometimes or things happening on here that are specific to and exciting for me…basically I’m deeply uncool about it all. And yeah he knows about my fic (he hasn’t read any and I hope to god he never will, but i talk to him about broad strokes of plot in my longer fics, and he knows i write smut as well). I’m around him all the time when im writing so it’d be a pretty massive thing to hide, plus the process of writing/publishing Bowl of Oranges and its reception was sooooooo meaningful and giddying for me, so it was kind of all I could talk about for a bit there. He was/is wonderfully supportive and is happy that I’m writing and putting stuff out there.

i talked to him about Iceland the other week when i was close to impulse buying a ticket after the tysons shows, and he was down! If i follow through with booking a flight and hotel, he would come (not to TIT just to Iceland) and we’d just make a mini trip out of it. He’s used to me spending dumb amounts on concerts and we’re still fairly independent with our finances, so the money stuff isn’t an issue.

We’ve known each other for so so so long so he really understands my obsessive personality. We’re both quite strange and atypical in our own ways and I think have learned how to grow around eachother’s oddities and be patient and curious with one another rather than judgmental.

There are times I worry about my screen time and that I’m becoming too entrenched in fandom world at the expense of physical world, and i think at times I can neglect nurturing my relationship with him/all kinds of other components of life, bc the dopamine of phannie tumblr is a powerful fucking drug. So i try and be mindful of that. Definitely something im still working on.

To be completely honest about another tricky thing - I have definitely gotten stuck in a comparison trap before, of wishing that my connection and communication with my partner was as inherently easy and joyful and silly and immediate and Dan and Phil’s seems to be. My partner and I have many different interests, so while there are tons of things we connect over, there are also tons of things we can’t really share in the joy of experiencing with one another, and sometimes I’ve held Dan and Phil up as this paragon of love in comparison, feeling salty that I didn’t have what they have. I’ve gotten over that though, bc it’s definitely on the harmful side of parasocial; we only see some of their time and lives and they obviously have differences and disagreements too, and differences are good. And to be frank, will I ever have what they have? Of course not. I do think it’s pretty remarkable and special and I think most people in life won’t. And that’s ok because I also feel deeply fortunate to be with the person I’m with and I choose him year after year.

To touch on an elephant in the room - telling him I write smut fic was the thing I put off the longest bc I was scared/embarassed/felt kind of guilty about it all. And then I did and it was literally so fine. Idk, he’s great and I’m very lucky. I do have to be rly mindful of how the fantasy of it can impact my sexual desire. I spend a fair amount of time thinking about Dan and Phil’s life and relationship and, let’s be honest, sex life, and so shaking myself out of that and remembering to be embodied in myself and my relationship and my sexual partner can be a challenge. This feels weird and pretty vulnerable to talk about on here bc it kind of lays bare how you really can’t just compartmentalize this shit to one tidy section of your time and brain. but I can’t imagine other people don’t also find themselves in a similar position.

In sum, I do have a hard time with balance in life, and this is all something i think I’ll always be working on finding better balance with. But it’s not hurting anyone, it’s not rly hurting me, and it’s brought a lot of joy and creativity and connection to my life, so I try not to be hard on myself about it! I’m also deeply fortunate to have a partner who gets me and accepts me and is wholly nonjudgmental.

I’d rather die than anyone else in my life see this blog though. I have a couple friends who know I write fic and have a tumblr, but only the ones who I know are also into fandoms of their own and therefore get it. I’d reeeeeeally rather die than anyone I know irl see my ao3 that’d truly be the end. 🙃🙃🙃

Ok thank you for the question clearly I have a lot to say!!!!!

[a-hazbin-reader]

Ok ok so- I like to think Al’s babies basically become the classy and 10x better version of the Vees, basically the daughter ends up owning the biggest high-end fashion company in all of hell and it’s so amazing it reaches heaven, the little sister is her top model and occasionally helps her draw designs, she adds a pleasant Dior vibe and a nice touch of softness to her older sister’s chic and bossy “90s Chanel runway” designs

I’m stuck on what the twin boy would do😔 like it’d be cute if he was the one in control of making the designs and making sure the clothes materiel is perfect and that it’s comfortable to wear for the models while the twin sister only cares abt it looking perfect (kinda matches their personality hehe)

But also he could be their law guy??😭 idk the word for it help but basically the lawyer/adviser that destroys anyone who tries to throw a lawsuit their way and makes sure no one finds out abt the shady stuff his twin is doing

Like owning the souls of countless tv hosts and news paper writers so that she can control the media for her company’s advantage

Maybe baby boy can be both😔 or like their law-adviser dude that occasionally likes making the outfits for the runways because he feels way too bad abt his main job sometimes🥲

Anyways Al is so proud because he can rub it in Vox’s face all the time that his kids (who were around 16-18 when they started this shit) are better and more known than him

Also idk if you’ve seen the 2000s Victoria Secrets runways, but eldest daughter knows how to make her runways just as cool as those if not cooler

I'm all for Alastor's kids growing up to be SAFE, SUCCESSFUL AND HAPPY

[obxone]

Marmoris (Chapter Five)

Edited-ish. ~1.8k words.

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It feels good, and freeing after you ride your third wave in. The water feels cold still, but good as you kick to the surface and tug your board back to you. Cheers erupt from the shore pulling your attention, and you see Sarah, Topper, Kelce, and Rafe standing at the shoreline. A few other kooks behind them jump up and down while screaming in excitement.

“Sarah?!”

“That was amazing!” She hops in excitement once you are almost to the shore. Your hands push your dripping hair back over your shoulder while she rushes to you and nearly knocks you down. She squeezes you in a tight hug. “I’m so proud of you!”

“Thanks,” you giggle before turning to your brother and his friends. “This is a secret, understood?”

“Yes, ma’am,” Kelce smirks, dragging his gaze over you, but you ignore him and turn your attention to your bother. 

He is smiling, wider than you have seen in a long time. “Not bad, Little Sister.”

You roll your eyes at him before Topper grabs you in a hug next. “Heck yeah! That was awesome.”

“It’s all Kie’s doing,” you say, gesturing to her. You spy her moving into the shore, an irritated look on her face. A large part of you feels bad knowing how much she is not comfortable with this crowd, but another part of you is determined to sing her praises. The first feeling of freedom vibrates deep in your bones. “She gave me some pointers.”

“Yo, Kie!” Topper grins at her once she is back on shore and comes to a stop next to you. 

“Yo, Top,” she responds, and you can tell she is not happy with their presence. Her tone mocks him, but he does not notice. His smile never slipped despite her mockery.

“Everything okay, Kie?”

All of you turn to see John B, Pope, and JJ move through the small cluster to be beside their best friend. JJ’s gaze drags over you, his eyebrows raising when he sees the familiar board tucked under your arm. 

“Fine, we were surfing, and they showed up.”

Pope smirks at you. “Surfing, huh?”

“Only a little,” you supply. 

“Are you any good?” JJ asks while throwing his arm over Pope’s shoulders. 

“What’s it to you, Maybank?” Rafe snaps, glaring at the blond, aware of how his blue eyes keep running the length of you and you are completely oblivious to it. 

JJ smirks, rolling his tongue across his bottom lip. “Rafe…”

“Don’t,” Kiara warns, taking a step forward. 

“Freaking pogues, man,” Kelce mutters with a shake of his head.

“What was that?” JJ asks. 

You tense, aware of how quickly this can turn into something more than huffing and puffing from them. 

“I thought you guys were at a party?” You ask, redirecting the conversation. 

“We are, down the beach,” Kelce points, stepping too close. You step back, angling it so Kiara is between you. She notices and shifts the board to block him further. And she is not the only one that notices. JJ’s arm falls from Pope’s shoulder as Pope steps closer to Kiara. His dark eyes focused on you, but you ignore him, not wanting to draw attention to it. “Thought you were coming?”

“Never said I was going.”

He frowns. “You could come now.”

“No, thank you.”

“Why not?” He asks, his jaw ticking. “Too busy with these pogues?”

“Dude,” John B sighs.

“What?” Kelce snaps, but Rafe stops him. His hand presses to Kelce’s chest as he glares at the pogues. “Do you really think a kook wants to slum it with you losers?”

“Kelce!” You glare at him. 

“What, Princess?” JJ starts then. His cold blue eyes are on you. “What would the kook princess be doing with dirty pogues like us?”

Kiara warns. “JJ.”

“No, Kie,” JJ snaps. “She needs to realize; they don’t want her with us, and we don’t either.”

“Asshole,” you snap back at him. The feelings from your argument a few days ago flare back to life. He rolls his eyes. “And for the record, I was hanging out with Kiara, not you. No one special enough wants to hang out with you, Maybank.”

Kelce and Topper bump fists and laugh at your response.

“Okay, that’s enough,” Kiara says, her gaze on you. “Ready to go? Or do you want to surf some more?” She glances at her friends. “Isn’t that why you are here?”

“Yeah,” John B and Pope agree. 

“I’m not surfing with her,” JJ responds, his jaw clenched as he continues to glare at you. 

Rafe takes a step towards JJ. “Maybe she doesn’t want to surf with you, Pogue.”

“Rafe!” You and Sarah, both warn him. 

“No, Princess, let him talk,” JJ says, stepping closer to Rafe. You groan, aware that Rafe will take the bait and lash out if JJ keeps pushing. “This is our side of the island after all.”

“Barely.”

JJ chuckles. “Go back to your side then, Kook. We all know you only come to this side of the island for co-.”

JJ does not get to finish his sentence as Rafe lands a right hook against his jaw. 

“Rafe!” You yell again, but he lands another punch against JJ’s face when he shoves Rafe with a maniacal laugh. “Stop!” 

JJ hits the sand, and you wince, seeing a busted lip and bruising jaw. Rafe reaches for him, his long fingers fist the front of JJ’s shirt. He lifts him up before swinging again, another hit against the left side of his face. Sarah yells at him to stop and begs Topper to intervene, but Topper is busy staring at Pope and John B, daring them to jump in. 

You exhale and push past Kiara and Kelce after discarding your board in the sand.

“Stop it!” You glare at your brother. “He is baiting you.”

“Get out of the way.”

“No! Go back to your party. I’m sure your date is looking for you.”

Rafe glares at you before shoving JJ back down into the sand so hard you hear the air expel from his lungs. 

“Rafe,” you warn again, your hardened gaze directed at your older brother. He glares back at you, his hand reaching for you, but you step back already knowing what he is going to attempt. “No. You go.”

“You are coming with us. I’m not leaving you here.”

Kiara is behind you, helping JJ to his feet and asking if he is okay. You hear his clipped assurance. 

“The only way I’m going with you is if you drag me kicking and screaming.” You spit out. “And we both know if you even lay a hand on me that Dad would send you to The Cut for it.”

Rafe glares, his eyes darkening with rage as his jaw sets. But you know that is his only response. Ward’s overprotectiveness of you coming as your saving grace for once. Topper and Kelce, both turn and leave with him after Sarah tells Topper she wants to stay with you. 

You turn to JJ and reach to check his injuries, but he brushes your hand to the side. Annoyance is clear on his face that you had to be the one to stop him from getting his ass handed to him. 

“I have a first aid kit in the car,” you offer. He rolls his eyes. “JJ, don’t be a stubborn asshole.”

He smirks, glancing at Pope as he tries to check out JJ’s injuries after seeing JJ would not let you near him. 

“Jay, let her patch you up,” Kie says, encouraging him. Her gaze is on the still bleeding cut on his swelling bottom lip. 

“I’m fine.”

“You’re not,” John B argues. But you notice he is not looking at JJ. Instead, he is looking at your sister and she is staring back at him. An unspoken communication between the two.

“Come on, I promise not to bite too hard,” you joke, and he rolls his eyes, but caves. You lead the way to the parking lot. JJ follows with Sarah and John B close behind. Pope and Kiara stay on the beach, collecting the surfboards and your stuff. You pop the trunk and grab the first aid kit that Ward made sure you all carried in your vehicles. “Sit,” you direct him to the lip of the trunk space. He sighs and drops onto it. 

“I’m fine.”

“Don’t say you’re fine. You are bleeding.” You point to his lip, and his tongue flicks out to drag the tip over his busted lip. “You know the best way to keep this from happening again?”

“What’s that?”

“Don’t provoke my brother and his friends.”

JJ scoffs, running a hand through his hair as you tear open an alcohol wipe. 

“This will sting.” You warn him before gently dabbing at the cut on his lip. He hisses but stays still as you lean into him. “Look at you, tough guy.”

He chuckles, his gaze sliding past you to the pair in the background. “What do you think they are talking about?”

You glance to see Sarah and John B lingering by Kiara’s truck. 

“Probably about you getting put on your ass,” you joke. JJ scoffs, rolling his eyes. “You know, I never understood this whole kook against pogue bullshit.” 

He shrugs. “It’s the way of life.”

“It’s dumb,” you mutter, pressing the emergency icepack to his jaw. He winces but replaces your hand with yours. You shiver and he notices even as you try to play it off. 

“Cold?”

“Yes, still kind of wet from surfing,” you whisper, ignoring the other reason.

“Where is your coverup?”

“Beach. Kie should bring it soon.”

“Probably not,” he mutters. “Pope is flirting with her, and she is probably watching to make sure your brother does not come back to finish the job.”

“You just broke the bro code,” you gasp. 

JJ laughs, and you smile at him. “Here,” he says after putting the ice pack down and reaching to pull his sleeveless shirt off. “Keep it on until they get back. Can’t have you getting sick and Rafe trying to punch me for it.”

“Such a gentleman,” you tease, but take it and pull it on. The smell of the ocean and his cologne clinging to it. “Thanks, Jay.”

“Anytime.”

You sit beside him, legs curled under you while you wait for the others. “Keep the ice pack on your jaw.” You instruct him while handing it back to him. “Hopefully the bruise will not be as bad.”

He mutters something about Rafe under his breath, but you ignore it. Instead, your attention fixates on Sarah and John B. 

(Chapter Six)

[darushi-chan]

Im alive, lol. Inuyasha AU for Lucemond just because. Ok, I’m in way to many fandoms for my own sake, but meh. For the ones who don’t know, Inuyasha its a japanese anime, the simple plot, they are in feudal japan, and the’re are demons or youkai, in the original anime the male lead (Inuyasha) its a half dog demon or hanyo, his mother its a human and his dad its a famous demon (Or Inuyokai/Dog demon), in this case Lucerys its Inuyasha, Rhaenyra its his youkai mom and Ser Harwin its his human dad. Inuyasha also has a half brother how’s a youkai, a very proud and asshole dude, but also super handsome, lol, at some point in the story Inuyasha cuts his arm with his sword, and it doesnt grow back (for the ones who know lets leave it at that) so if Luke takes Aemond eye here of course its not coming back, canon you’all.  Inuyasha its like a very nostalgic anime from my childhood, I love it. I dont really ship Inuyasha with his brother, but Sesshomaru its to much like Aemond some times for me to ignore it, obssesed with his pure blood, his lineage and with power, also with pantene long white hair, do I need more? He also hates hanyo to the bone, specially his half brother, how can I not put my fated feud here? Lol. I like to think that the Targs are this very powerful and old Dragon Youkai family, Rhaenyra being well, Rhaenyra, doesn’t give a shit and goes and falls in love with Human Harwin and has all of her 3 hanyo children and has the time of her live with them until Harwin dies, because well, he’s a human and humans die, specially in feudal japan times lol. You can’t really hide being a hanyo because other youkais and hanyos can smell it, so no Laenor papa sadly, but hey, they are happy, the Targs, specially Aemond, can bitch about their pure blood all they want. Because anime magic and so on, Youkai and Hanyo don’t age like humans and they also have a bunch of other cool things, like weird magical swords and powers. Luke its not that good with swords so he uses a bow and arrows (Inspiration from Ñuhon its that you?), Aemond of course has a sword. Luke should have something more dragon like to show he’s a half dragon hanyo, but I really wanted to give him Inuyasha cute little dog ears for this drawing, we can also think they’re doing cosplay hahahahahhaa.  Fated feud forevah, Aemond its a snobby Oh no my pure youkai blood you damn hanyo ruin everything bla bla bla, and Lucerys always end’s up figthing with him for it, thats how you end up lossing eyes you’all. That’s also a very good way of ending obssesed with your hanyo nephew, hehe.

[bronx-bomber87]

Happy Tuesday :) Ep been wanting to get to. Anytime we get little more depth to them and Tim as a character I’m a happy girl. I forgot s2 only has 20 not 22 eps HA We’re almost done which is insane to me. Feel like we just started s2. So after this one we have 3 left in this season. What a trip. Let’s delve in shall we?

2x17 Control

Thanks to Nolan our couple starts their day off with some foot patrol. Grey wants them more engaged with the community. Tim lets her know that while he finds foot patrol annoying he agrees this is important to do. That it creates trust and likability therefore they get more help. Lucy seems real impressed with his answer. I always love when Tim impresses Lucy with his insight. Also when she makes sure he knows how enlightened she finds him. She's hot for Tim in these moments haha

Lucy loves when he shows her his moral compass about this stuff. I said it last review Tim as a person is very attractive. It's definitely huge part of her draw to him. A random guy comes up to them asking for legal advice. They stop and address him. Lucy fully expects Tim to answer this man’s question. I’m rolling when he tells this guy they’re movie extras’. Lucy’s double take is too damn funny. How she kept a straight face idk. He’s such a grumpy old man sometimesI love it. Or as Aaron says in s5 he’s like the old dude from 'UP' LMFAO I love you Timothy Bradford haha

Lucy's smile when he tells her they’re not google is too cute. We all know she loves her grump of a man. She’s enjoying him cracking a joke with a side of heart eyes to go with that smile. Look at him cracking jokes. So proud. Their comfortability level at this point is off the charts. His sense of humor is so fun to see. (He cracked me up too. I laugh every time.)This came out all on its own. I love him so easily making one around her. Lucy is quite amused and enjoying it herself.

Side notes I love about this scene. The ever wonderful height difference I legit can’t get enough. How damn in-sync they are as they’re walking together. Honestly the entire scene. Look at them. Lastly a fan favorite the the lack of personal space. Within inches of each other at all times. Like moths drawn to a flame. Always gravitating back to one another. Their physical chemistry without touching always floors me.

We rejoin them still on foot patrol. Lucy asking Tim if Rachel was disappointed she canceled on her last night? Trying to justify to Tim why she ended up bailing on their bar plans. Clearly residual PTSD from Caleb manifesting into her doing this. She’s clearly wanting to be relieved of the guilt she feels for canceling on her.

Tim is usually that person for her with his insight and telling her like it is. Not this time...She doesn’t get the reply she wants unfortunately. Just Tim being a lying liar who lies, when he says they don’t ever talk about her. Ok honey we believe you…I’m sure he actually talks about her more than Rachel would like. Lucy is offended with his cavalier answer LOL

Their convo gets interrupted by a dope stealing Girl Scout cookies. He runs and ends up in someone’s windshield. One of the little girls shows up from the troop to help them. Tells them they can use her scarf and pen as a tourniquet. Even tells Lucy where to apply it. Pretty impressive composure for a kid haha

Tim’s face is my favorite part when she asks if she can get a badge for this? He’s not sure what shocks him more. Her knowing how to do this or asking for a badge for it haha Lucy’s smile back at Tim is pretty cute. I feel like this will be them as parents when their kid does something that shocks them haha

The fire dept. arrives and so does Emmett Lang. Not gonna lie everyone he is smokin. I remember first time I watched this episode, I was thinking holy hell this man is attractive. Lucy deserved someone on this level of hotness to re-enter the dating world with. He is instantly flirty with Lucy. Telling her his condolences for Tim being her T.O. (good thing Tim misses this part ha) Lucy has zero problems flirting right back with him.

Honestly good for her. This is so needed post-Caleb. She’s crashing Jackson’s date plans and canceling on Rachel. She needed something to get her back on her feet. Just like Rachel was the perfect person for Tim post-Isabel. Emmett was for Lucy in the aftermath of 2x11. Girl needed a win and to feel it was ok to re-integrate back into the world of dating. Quite the score to start back up with if I do say so myself ha

They flirt some more at the hospital. Emmett basically asks her out and Lucy panics. Lies says she has something going on. Oh my girl. That PTSD is showing and I can’t blame her. Just hate seeing it affect her. Tim comes up and says it’s time to go. He says bye to Emmett and Lucy makes the connection they know each other. So she leans on her lifeline since she’s having doubts.

Tries to ask Tim about Emmett. Says he seems nice. Trying to get a beat on him through Tim’s eyes. Tim doesn't understand her line of questioning at first. Just giving short answers that give her no depth. He's thinking nothing of it until she gives him that look above. Then he quickly pieces together what this is.

He instantly disengages about it. Telling her 'No.' Not S1 Tim 'I could care less about your life.' disengaged. More 'I don’t trust myself to give you the right advice.' kind of distance. He wants no part of this. Lucy seems so upset he won’t talk to her about this. This scene is funny in how he cuts it off. How upset she seems. The pointing of his finger. Sadly we know the deep kernel of truth he feels to that final line of the scene.

The weight he’s still carrying around about her abduction. He doesn’t trust himself to vet Emmett for her. Since in his mind he failed so spectacularly with Caleb. He’d rather pass that emotional responsibility off to someone else. The weight that’s already on his soul is crushing...he can’t add to the load. Oh my broken boy. I wanna give you the biggest hug.

Lucy breaks my heart when Jackson tells her he needs alone time with Sterling. Lucy realizes she’s a third wheel. Has been for awhile now. She is horrified by this. Luckily Tim saves her with an OT opportunity. Joining the DEA operation Nolan and Harper are running. Lucy instantly jumps on it. She looks so upset walking away from Jackson. My poor girl. I want to give her a hug. I wanna hug them both in this one. This OP was blessing in disguise for her to do though. We get the best part of the episode during the stakeout.

Lucy is "on the phone" with Rachel saying all the things she wishes Tim would engage her on. He’s shaking his head as she rambles on. It’s so funny. Telling “Rachel” she’s been using Jackson and Sterling as a crutch. That together they make the perfect BF. Saying how they’re safe and that's why she keeps choosing them. My heart. Tim interjects 'Who are you talking to? 'Cause he knows it’s not Rachel.

John interrupts asking if they want coffee? He is going on a run. Lucy is her adorable self and asks for a chai tea latte all excited. Tim cuts her off saying this is a stakeout he's not going to Starbucks LOL Lucy rolls her eyes at him. He’s such an ass sometimes but I love him dearly rough edges and all. John is so sweet tells her he’ll see if he can find her some vanilla creamer LMAO

Lucy returns instantly to her fake convo and Tim can’t take it any longer. Has to call her out in the most Tim Bradford way he can. By calling her and proving she isn’t on the phone…Lucy is mortified but answers LOL Poor girl she just wants to talk it out with her person. I’m a lot like Lucy in the way that I need to talk things out. If I don’t they’ll eat me alive. I have a compulsive need to confront things and not let them fester.

It’s good to have that person you can talk it out with. If you don’t you start to self advise and that’s never good. Tim is that for her. Her sounding board. To her she has a problem she reaches for the lifeline that is Tim to sort it out. So him denying her that catharsis is messing with her. Why she created this fake convo. It got his attention so in the end it worked.

What kills me the most with this scene is both their reactions honestly. Lucy for being utterly shocked Tim would think his opinion had lost any value post-Caleb. To her it never ever occurred to place any blame on him. To trust his gut or opinion any less because of her DOD trauma. Breaks my heart Tim doesn’t see this before they have this conversation. That he truly believes his opinion has lost its value in her eyes after Caleb.

Lucy is astonished he would think she doesn't want his POV. She lives for it. Its the most important one in her life. Tim is so very vulnerable with her with his follow up answer. So proud of him for this vulnerability BTW. Nothing scarier than being emotionally exposed with another person. You can see it written all his face. That guard is down. We see the toll this guilt has taken on him. He unburdens his soul to her. Tells what has been eating at him for months.

That his advice pushed her towards something that could’ve ended her life. Since then he has devalued his place in her life. Doesn’t find himself worthy to advise her in personal matters. He fought against it for so long. Then he gave in and Caleb happened. In his mind proving why he never should’ve gotten involved in the first place. Chiding himself for getting close to her and having that closeness which put her in danger.

Lucy truly had no idea the guilt he'd been carrying since 2x11. It’s six episodes later. At the earliest that's 6 weeks at the most its a little over 2 months if we include her recovery time. The latter is the more likely timeline. That’s a long time to be carrying a burden she never placed on him. She can't stand that he's done this to himself. Lucy immediately wants to put him at ease. Trying to offload that burden and chuck it far away. It never once crossed her mind he would take the sole responsibility. Because not for one second did she ever blame him for it.

She vehemently reassures him it wasn’t his fault. He could be told by everyone under the sun it wasn’t his fault. He wasn’t going to stop mentally flogging himself till Lucy forgave him. She is all the things he needs in this moment. Letting him know she thinks it’s ridiculous he would blame himself, that no one had any reason to suspect Caleb for what he was, and overall what happened wasn’t on him. Lucy is taking that weight off his shoulders and throwing it away. Never allowing him to pick it back up again.

He looks so damn relieved and honestly very vulnerable after she absolves him. It helps him start to close a self inflicted wound. Eric the king of facial expressions killing me softly in this scene. His eyes and the way he looks at her when she said wasn’t his fault. *heart clutch* He couldn’t even look at her till she said that. Then when he does he's in awe of her. Like he can't believe she doesn't blame him but is so grateful for her saying as such.

I love her also sharing it wasn’t hers either. It was not at all. (Growth for her too.) Looks like he's biting back his emotions when she lets Tim know how valued his opinion is. It's so sweet. He needed his sunshine human to apply some balm to his wounds. No one does it better than Lucy. She’s complimenting him while also reliving him of the guilt he’s been harboring for much longer than she would’ve liked.

Had she known this she would’ve absolved him the day after honestly. No way she would've wanted him carrying this guilt day in and day out. Her opinion matters so much to him. He NEEDED to hear her say these words. It had to come straight from Lucy or he’d never let it go. She reassured him that not only did she not blame him but his opinion was one that matters most to her. Two things that were in question for him. Quelled the storm in his soul.

It’s scenes like this that are the true building blocks to their foundation. Why they end up working so well in s5. I will die on this hill of loving every single moment of this slow burn. I’m so glad we had 4 seasons to truly make them rock solid. It was so necessary for them as a couple. I don’t regret the wait at all. Because piece by piece they were building toward ‘The Really Beautiful Place’ Lucy calls their relationship in 5x18. Everything happens for a reason for them before we get there. This is just another wonderful facet of it.

The minute he’s granted access and allowance to give her advice he doesn’t hold back. His way of showing he cares too. I love them so much for their ability to just bounce back like they do. After a deeply emotional and vulnerable chat they're right back to the banter. Easily fall back into teasing one another. Tim basically says in not so many words Emmett isn’t good enough for her.(I mean no one is but Tim lets be honest.)

Lucy probes and asks why he thinks that? Tim doesn't hesitate in the slightest. Saying he’s a firefighter for god sakes LMFAO. Clearly has a prejudice against them. For whatever Tim reason that may be. Lucy being all cute saying 'Yeah that’s what makes him so hot.' ha She’s not wrong the man is fine af.

Tim gets defensive and says he doesn’t want to talk about this if she gonna be contrarian about it. Which is Tim speak for being jealous let’s be real honest. Lucy doesn’t hesitate to call him out on it. God I love her. Jokes he’s just threatened by his ‘hunkiness’ I mean he is….his reaction alone proves that he is. It’s ok Tim she still thinks you’re smokin too. She just can’t have you just yet haha

I love them ending this scene on a funny bantery note. Shows how much Tim cares about her. The fact that he is allowing this conversation to even take place proves that. Indulging her in this. They’re so married with their banter. I Iove them sfm. Soulmate behavior the way she teases him about everything and he allows (and loves) it. We leave the scene smiling and laughing at these blissfully unaware idiots in love.

Harper has Lucy and Tim chase what they think is the decoy vehicle once their stakeout is made. They soon realize the decoy vehicle has their target and Nolan’s CI. They end up getting T-Boned in the pursuit of it. Hurts to watch. They're both knocked out cold. I adore how the first thing Tim asks when he comes to is if she’s alright. Always puts her first. The soft way he says ‘Chen’ then asks if she’s ok. It’s the little things I love so very much. ❤️

Emmett arrives on scene flirty as ever with Lucy. She decides to be honest with him. Tells him why she declined his date offer. That her social life is complicated right now. He is smooth af with his reply. Tells her once it’s not he’ll still be interested. Their scene ends pretty cute. This is so good for her. I’m really happy to see her get back out there. She really needed him to help her get over her DOD hump. Just like it’s nice to see Tim happy the same goes for Lucy. I love them both individually as as much as I do together. This cute flirt session is well deserved after all the trauma she’s been through.

Thus ends our episode for them. Such a damn good one for them. I love their building block episodes. They do depth and growth like no other. How I love them so.

Side Notes-Non Chenford

Nice to see Angela get her foot back in the door for Detective. Well earned after her fallout in S1.

Harper SL's and her backstory. Getting to watch her in UC action always fun to watch.

Thank you to those who take the time to like/comment and reblog. Means the world to me. Fuels me to do each review.

See you all in 2x18 :)

[smilesrobotlover]

I forgot to say this when I reblogged your writing today but your art of Leon is FANTASTIC. Dude looks completely, unabashedly, deranged and PISSED and given everything he’s been dealing with, I love that for him ❤️

I really like how the Puppeteer is like… a competent villain but still can get his butt completely handed to him. Chef’s kiss, girl

Aaah thank you so much! I’m super proud of how it turned out! I really wanted to draw art for the last few days cuz the ideas I had were so clear in mind, and I’m happy today’s art looks good! I’m very proud! Love drawing him absolutely murderous. It’s what he deserves <3

And thank youuuu it’s hard to write the puppeteer no doubt; I don’t want him overpowered cuz he’s just some Sheikah, he shouldn’t be. But I don’t want him as a wimp either. He fights in different ways that’s not actual combat and it’s fun to play with ways that he inconveniences everyone that doesn’t actually involve him fighting you know? But I appreciate it 🥹 he underestimated Leon severely

[wonusite]

hi guess who it's me again 🐯

so i'm in my soonwoo brainrot AGAIN cuz apperently i can't live my life without craving them at least 23 hours of the day.

i've been thinking about shy couple you x soonyoung whose sex life is kinda... boring. nothing new, no toys, no fantasies, just the common type of sex. soonyoung then sugests to call a friend of his to help heat the things up and you don't think this is a great idea at first but he asks you to think about it and even let you choose which one of his friends you want to invite.

you always have been close to wonwoo while hanging out with his friends and he's the chosen one when you finally accept cuz you trust him and their bond is amazing.

when the day finally comes you find out a completely different side of wonwoo, the dom one, the mean one, the one that loves to corrupt people until their minds are just filled with him, his words, his touches, wanting more of him.

the first night he just instructs soonyoung on how to edge you, to make you beg for your release and to get fucked while he watches everything carefully with a smile. the second night he instructs you on how to touch your boyfriend, how to blow him off or ride him, his fingers buried into your waist, kissing your neck and praising you while soonyoung draw slow circles on your clit and watches everything from below. the third night wonwoo is the one who fucks you, awakening a new kink of you and your boyfriend. he's mocking soonyoung while slamming his hips against your ass, buring your face into the pillow. "wish this was you, huh? i guess she likes my cock more than yours dude" he says, making soonyoung groan and laugh while touching himself, watching you getting fucked dumb by his friends.

it didn't stop there tho, there are more nights, your sex life has never been better than now but sometimes when soonyoung wants to be humiliated or when you wants to be manhandled like a doll and fucked by them at the same time you hit wonwoo with a text and he's more than happy to please his (not so) innocent babies. <33

I’M SO DHEJIWKWLENBS

bc just imagine the power dynamics. wonu would relinquish control often but when he does he becomes the prettiest little mess. and he can’t help but be proud at how well he’s taught soonyoung to be mean. also feel like there would be times where you and your bf purposely send him videos of all the new stuff you’re doing just to entice him and tease him so he can come join in on the fun 🥴

[dammitadolfnomorecake]

Rage Fire Institution

Accelerating. 30.

“Look at him, walking back in as if he didn’t abandon us all yesterday. And where do you think you were?”

Placing down his lunch tray, Maki smiled at his friends. Fleur, Li, and Silva, all sitting together waiting for him. The feeling was warm

“Hey, guys. I promise I had a good reason”

Grabbing Silva by the shoulder, Li shook him

“Silva, he’s smiling. Maki’s smiling. I’m not imagining this right?”

Silva pretended to put a stern face on, voice betraying nothing

“I do believe you are correct. Our scowling friend does appear to be wearing a smile”

“Do we think he got laid? Is that what we think happened?”

Silva stroked his imaginary beard

“There may be a chance. He does seem in a particularly good mood for a man who skipped a day of classes”

Rolling his eyes, Maki sat. His friend’s were idiots and wildly off the mark. But they were his friends. He’d held back telling Li because he wanted to tell his best friend face to face, yet thanks to their teasing, he wanted to draw it out now

“You’re wrong. I can smile, you know”

Li hummed

“Okay, not sexy times. Oh! Did you get asked out?! Dude! Who is she? Do I know her?”

Maki gave a shrug

“Who says it’s a girl?”

Li shot up, slamming him hands down on the table. He would have yelled something silly if Fleur hadn’t pulled him back down

“Stop that. People are staring”

Li cast a look around, changing tactic as he reached out and took Maki’s hands in his

“His name? Tell me his name!?”

Maki couldn’t help but chuckle. Li was so excited for him that he nearly felt bad

“I admit I did spend a day with someone. And something did happen… I mean, it was going to happen, it was the next logical step… I was exhausted by the end of it, but it was amazing…”

Li’s eyes couldn’t go wider

“OhMyGosh! You have to tell me everything! Look at you go, you alpha stud! That’s my best friend! Who is… OhMyGod, did you hook up with the Professor?!”

Maki choked on air. Him and the Professor? He’d pay to see how Li’s mind had come to that conclusion. Li slumping back in his chair with wide eyes and shock on his face. Fleur, on the other hand, frowned heavily

“Really? You and him? I mean, he was babysitter… I didn’t think you were that kinky”

Silva didn’t help

“They have been spending most of their time together. He’s always talking about him”

Fleur nodded

“If I’m honest, I got a little horny when the babysitter was talking about that mech”

This was too much. Maki blinking. Fleur being horny was none of their business and he didn’t need to think about it, plus Tatsumi would be sad that his lecture had only been received by a class of horny pilots

“Okay. Don’t talk about him that way, he’s my friend. And secondly, I did spend the day with him. With Tatsumi. I finally got to pilot my Erebus for the first time”

Maki felt so damn proud of himself all over again. When Li didn’t say anything, Silva waved his hand in front of their friend’s face

“I think you broke him”

Maki’s happiness was fading. He expected Li to be yelling over it

“Li?”

Li blinked half a dozen times, pulling himself together, his words slow

“You piloted your Erebus?”

“Yes”

Li repeated his words just as slowly

“You piloted your Erebus?”

“Yes”

Maki’s happiness came surging back, Li finally yelling

“You piloted your Erebus and you’re only telling us now?! Maki!”

Laughing at his friend, Li’s happiness was everything Maki had hoped. He wanted to gush about it, but he didn’t want to completely break his best friend

“Yes. It was so hard. I felt like I’d run the track all day by the end of it, but it was a successful boot”

“We have to celebrate, right guys”

Li looked to Silva and Fleur, both nodding quickly, Silva agreeing

“This is definitely cause for celebration. Why didn’t you call us last night? We would have had a party”

“Because Tatsumi took me back to his and made dinner. We didn’t get back until late”

When all three of his friends stared hard at him, he realised what he’d said. Maki nervously bringing his hand up to scratch the back of his head

“Not like that. It was a congratulatory dinner with his mother. He sprung it on me”

Li crossed his arms and slouched back, gesturing with his hand

“Look at him, he pilots an Erebus and suddenly he gets a home cooked meal. He’s too good for us now”

Maki took it the wrong way. He felt guilty about not having Li there last night as it was

“Wait…”

“Why would we wait? You’re leaving us behind. You and Tatsumi don’t need us holding you back”

This… this wasn’t how it was meant to go

“No. You’ve got the wrong idea…”

Li cut him off

“Did you see his bedroom? How big was his bed? What did he cook you for dinner?”

“C-cola chicken… and so what? I didn’t know he’d make me dinner, he said he had someone he wanted me to meet with”

“He’s bringing you home to meet his mother. Must be serious”

“He’s a friend. You know he’s helping me out. Why are you being like this? I didn’t do anything wrong!”

Li’s expression changed. Maki was furious. He didn’t get why he was being attacked over spending time with Tatsumi. He was Li’s friend too. Tatsumi wasn’t there to defend himself either. They’d done nothing and even if they had, that was between them

“Man, chill. I’m messing with you for not telling us right away. And for having a celebration party without us”

So it was all a big joke to Li? The young alpha felt wounded. Li normally wasn’t the type to bring someone down, nor did he get why the idea of him and Tatsumi hanging out together was a joke. Tatsumi was flawed as anyone else, and he didn’t deserve to be turned into a joke for the amusement of their friends

“That’s because it was Tatsumi’s idea. At least he didn’t make jokes about it. I was so excited to tell you in person I made myself wait until I could tell you what it was like in person. Forget it, I’m heading to my next class”

Grabbing his bag, Maki strode off. Li tried calling out after him, but Maki ignored him. He wasn’t trying to leave his best friend behind. It wasn’t his fault Tatsumi chose him. It felt like the universe was laughing at him for being so proud of himself and wanting to boast about it.

***

Having stormed off to wait for his next class, Li found him standing in front to bio-engineering classroom. Maki turning his back as his friend approached. He didn’t want to fight with Li.

“Maki? Come on, man. I’m sorry. I went too far”

Frosting out his best friend, Maki opened his comms. Li trying again

“Come on, you know I was joking. I didn’t mean any of it. Tell me what it was like to pilot an Erebus, please? I was only kidding about you and Tatsumi…”

Tatsumi would be in their class and he’d know straight away that the pair of them had fought. For Tatsumi’s sake, Maki supposed he had to make up with Li. Turning to face his friend, Li kind of looked genuinely sorry

“Maki? Why won’t you say something?”

“Because I’m thinking of how to say it. I was so excited to tell you”

Li sighed

“And I ruined it”

“Yeah… Tatsumi’s not even here to defend himself. I know you’re mad at me, but that doesn’t give you the right to go after him too. He’s got a lot going on”

Li hung his head

“It’s just… I wanted to tease you because you’re spending so much time with him. It kind of hurt you didn’t tell me straight away”

“I told you I wanted to do it in person”

“You could have found me before school”

The alpha sighed at his best friend. Before school wouldn’t have been any good. Li always took his time to look his best, and Maki liked to leave for class at the last possible moment to avoid everyone else

“I wanted time to answer all your questions without worrying about the bell”

“You could have messaged me”

“I could have, but I wanted to tell my best friend in person. I was really excited about it. I felt bad you weren’t there last night… you’re my best friend. I know I’m busier but I still want you to know when something good happens”

Li combed his hair back with his fingers, before raising his head and giving Maki a thumbs up

“You recognised how lonely you are without Li here. I will give you a pass”

“Thank you. Still, no more about Tatsumi. Like seriously, I don’t know how you got to thinking we’d be like that. He’s only training me”

“It’s not my fault. Everyone’s talking about him and you, and you two are so tight that it’d make sense”

“I’m not seeing it”

“He took you to his home. He showed you his bedroom… you were all smiles”

Li’s logic was deeply flawed, Maki correcting him

“Idiot, I was smiling because I knew you’d be excited. I thought you’d get all excited and demand to know everything. That’s why I was smiling like that”

Li came at him, Maki unable to escape before being hugged

“Aw, bring it in, big guy. I’m sorry I went too far. It’s boring without you”

Awkwardly hugging Li back, Maki patted his back

“There, there. You still have Yon”

His best friend went rigid in his arms. Maki confused

“Li, you still have Yon, don’t you?”

Releasing him, Li looked down to the floor, Maki releasing his friend so it didn’t look weird if they were caught

“She dumped me. She wanted me to come to this party at some club but I said I can’t sneak out. It’s not like I didn’t want to, but I didn’t want to sneak out on my own”

“You could have asked me”

“I thought about it, then I thought to myself if she is going to dump me over it then maybe Kang Li is too good for her. I’m not going to start skipping school and that to make her happy… and if I gave in once then she’d think that I will all the time. I’m so hot that I won’t be single for long”

Li gave Maki a wobbly smile. Maki seriously impressed his friend stood up for himself and put himself first

“You did the right thing. You’re already a good person and if she can’t see that then that’s her loss”

“I know… but it still sucks”

Li fell in love too easy. Maki had never been in love and didn’t recognise the signs or symptoms when people weren’t as obvious about it as Li was

“I think I know how to help. What do you say we change this green hair of yours? Any colour you want, we’ll do it”

“Aren’t you busy?”

“I’m going to be even busier soon, but I’m never too busy for my best friend. This is a limited time offer…”

“No! No, I’m in! I’m so in! What colour should I go? I don’t think I’m a green person”

“You’re not, but it could be worse. I’ll buy the dye after class”

“It’s my hair, I’ll pay”

“It was my idea, I’m paying. Besides, it’s faster if I go”

“But won’t you get in trouble?”

“Who’s getting in trouble?”

Both Maki and Li jumped as Tatsumi’s voice came from behind them. Tatsumi standing there with a frown on his face. Li jumping to his defence

“Me, I want to change my hair colour and I don’t want Maki getting in trouble if he helps”

“Ah, do you guys want to use a lab room? As long as you don’t make a mess it’s not a big deal”

After how Li acted, Maki decided not to join in the conversation. He didn’t like being mad at Li, but Tatsumi was so clueless over it all. Li nodding

“That’d be great. Hey, Professor, is it true Maki piloted an Erebus?”

“He sure did. He was excited as anything over it too. I’m glad he told you, I think he wanted to straight away”

It was painful watching the way Li’s shoulders slumped. Maki wavering slightly before scolding himself. Li’s joke had been wrong and should have been left unsaid, but he had come to apologise straight away and he had broken up with Yon

“Tatsumi’s right, I did. I wish you’d been at dinner”

Tatsumi smiled, Maki not expecting to be teased

“There’s always next time. Did he tell you how good he was in my bed? And he totally charmed my mother”

Li’s eyes widened, Maki elbowing Tatsumi, hissing

“You don’t have to say it that way”

“I know, but it’s true. I left him for a moment and he totally passed out”

Li sidestepped Maki, latching onto Tatsumi’s arm. His friend fluttering his eyelashes as he looked up to Tatsumi

“You have to tell me everything. I was joking about it before and made him mad, but now I neeeeeed to know”

“There’s not a lot to tell… You know what Maki’s like, oblivious”

“He is, isn’t he! You like him, don’t you, Professor?”

Tatsumi pretended to think as he hummed then clicked his fingers. Gracefully he reach up, cupping Li’s cheek before smiling as he slid his hand up to tuck hair behind Li’s right ear

“I do. A whole lot. And I like you a whole lot too. You’re really quite handsome, Mister Kang. Your eyes sparkle under this light”

Li seemed taken back, elated, then clicked, all in a single moment. Maki covering his smile with his hand

“You’re messing with me, aren’t you?”

“Yep, it’s no fun is it? Let’s leave rumours to those less educated. We’re all friends here”

Li slumped as Tatsumi removed his hand

“I understand, Professor. I won’t get caught up in daydreams again”

“Good. It’s a little early but I’ve got the key, let’s head in”

***

Tatsumi uninvited himself to the dying of Li’s hair. Li inviting him during their class together, and Tatsumi uninviting himself once class was over and he’d cleared use of a room with Poaw. He didn’t know what happened, yet Maki and Li needed to work it out together.

Working on his own homework, Tatsumi was half keep an eye on his classmates. He could have used the research wing in privacy, but the library was nicer. Sure, it made it harder to stay focused as he wondered what was going through the minds of so many educated people around him, yet he also didn’t want to be alone. He’d hid it well from Maki, but their foot race had worn him out. He’d woken feeling drained and with a heaviness in his body that wouldn’t leave. Piloting may be not come as easy as it had before, though that didn’t mean he was ready to give up, and it frustrated him that he’d be so weakened after one damn race.

“Hikaru?”

Jolting slightly at his name, Tatsumi looked up and then looked down, he’d spilled his coffee without realising it. His left arm had felt especially weak, and he couldn’t remember reaching for his drink

“Ah, shit”

His classmate snorted. An older beta who was doing her thesis in pilot fatigue within the education system. Tatsumi remembered being interviewed by at some point yet her name escaped him. Reaching into her back, she fished out a handful of napkins. Tatsumi took them gratefully

“Here, they always give me too many”

“Thank you. I normally grab some but today would be the day I seem to have forgotten”

“You have seemed off with your focus”

As the omega wiped up his coffee, he realised a couple more of his classmates were paying attention. Releasing a returned pilot with no public history didn’t always go well, yet he’d always been friendly towards his classmates. He had to choose his words or risk being further gossip. Most already knew in someway he was sickly from his tinted glasses

“There simply aren’t as many hours in a day as there needs to be, and these student projects are more than enough to keep a man’s mind preoccupied”

The beta gave a strained smile, it wasn’t the answer she seemed to hope to illicit from him

“I’m sure this comes as no surprise, but we are told to rest for a reason”

Ah. She was prying for another angle from him for her research. He should have known from the start that her prying into his coffee came from her analysis of his study method

“I’ll rest once my work is done for the day. A few hours missed sleep affects everyone differently”

“So you’d say you feel the rest time provided would be seen as an inadequate rest time?”

“The rest time provided would be adequate provided there weren’t external factors affecting it. In this case, it’s the completion of work load versus the preparation of a whole school team. Individual pride would dictate self priorities come first, yet with age comes the knowledge of placing a groups need over one’s self. In this case it is better to focus on improvements one may offer to the group as the school reputation triumphs one man’s need for sleep”

The beta looked annoyed. Tatsumi didn’t see why when she’d started it. He’d merely offered his opinion. He wouldn’t decrease his work load simply due to his health when he had promises to keep to himself and to his team. Gathering the mess he’d made, he piled it together for easy disposal then turned his attention back to his data pad to signal that the show was over. His workload varied, as did everyone else’s, a few months of hard work would all be worth it to see Maki on the competition field in a mech made by their group.

Tatsumi knew where his priorities lay, which couldn’t be said for those with enough time on their hands to waste it watching him. In just a few more days their mods would ready for fitting and testing. If he could get all his word done before then, then he’d have the time he wanted to take for Maki’s training… and he really needed to make more time for Stella and Anthony. Exiting his work, Tatsumi opened up his calendar, all thoughts of work and promises driven from his mind as he noticed the approaching date.

[spottyissleepwalking]

Mr. Ultimate Anime Antagonist

Design notes:

I tried to make his markings as tiger-y as possible, especially around his face, and I’m actually pretty proud of how they turned out!! They’re a little complex, but I’m happy with them!!

Ear spots from Leopardfoot, sharp v-shaped markings from Pinestar.

Slight mullet + mustache markings for Supreme Villain Vibes!

Dude is massive, and I tried to incorporate those vibes into the way his stance comes off. Even then, I like to imagine that due to his stature, he slouches a lot; I think the Erins said he’s one of the biggest cats in the series? So him holding himself to his full height really is impressive and intimidating.

Less of a design note and more headcanon, but I like to think that the scar on his muzzle was from Redtail rather than some warrior in the immediate fray over Sunningrocks. I remember the Into The Wild prologue like the back of my hand, so while I know he got it from some RiverClan cat, it just feels more right that he gets it from Redtail… one of his most prominent scars, from his first victim.

LGBT+ headcanon: I don’t really think much of Tigerclawstar in terms of him as a person, admittedly, moreso as a villain. But after sitting down for a while, I can definitely see him as demisexual, demiromantic, and cis (he/him, or perhaps he/it)!

Plus bonus alts, for white tiger Tiger and regular tiger Tiger! :D

[Image ID: Three digital drawings of Tigerclaw in the same standing, left-facing pose with his head angled right, against translucent backgrounds; each image is outlined in white. His expression is somewhat annoyed, with his muzzle curled back to expose one long tooth, his left forepaw is slightly raised with claws extended, and his tail is curled high over his back. He is a massive, somewhat sleek-bodied, muscular, thick-furred dark brown marbled tabby cat with sharp, pointed, darker markings; he has paler chest fur and at the hind portion of his legs, with even paler markings at his paws, belly, tail-tip, face, and at his throat in a distinctive diamond shape; his right ear is ripped, and his left is full and tufted; his face is marked in a way similar to a tiger, with lots of small, delicate, sharp markings. There are scars at his muzzle, right shoulder, and across his lower back. In the first, topmost image, he is colored in various tones of dark brown with darker and black markings, and narrow, bright amber-orange eyes; along the line of his back is his color palette. Across his side is the stylized artist signature of “spottyissleepwalking” written in faded lavender. The two images below are of Tigerclaw in the same position, outlines, and artist signature of the first. The second image is of Tigerclaw with a different color palette: his body is very pale blue-white, with his markings being very dark, dark blue-black; his eyes are the same amber color. The third image is of Tigerclaw with another different color palette: his body is bright, striking orange, with his markings being black and black-brown; his eyes are the same amber color. Above his head are the words “TIGERCLAW/TIGERSTAR” written in white, all-caps. /. End ID.]

[alreadyblondenow]

Hold it all together

“Hey uhm what do you think about me being your sister’s boyfriend?”

Pairing: Johnny x female!reader, childhood best friends to lovers

Genre: SMUT, FLUFF

WC: 1,970k

Warnings: mentions of exchanging nudes, a lot kissing, unorotected sex, mentions of condoms, its just soft sex guys hahha mentiins of dreamies being the reader’s brothers.

A/N: NOT PROOFREAD. I’ll fix it once I have time. To the

Happy, excited, and sleepless. Today is the first day of Johnny’s spring break and he has been waiting for this day, the moment freshman year started... because this is the only time he can go home and finally see you again.

Johnny has been your childhood best friend and you two are basically inseparable. Well, except when he needed to leave for college. Of course you’re devastated the whole summer just before Johnny leaves. And it was that season, you both admitted your feelings for each other. Feelings that has been bottled up for too long finally and suddenly bursted out during a friendly kiss that turned into a passionate one which led to a slow and intimate sex the night before he left.

It has been almost half a year when that fateful night happened, but everything feels so fresh for him still. After what happened between you and Johnny, your relationship with each other did not progressed to something even more serious. Although you exchange nudes from time to time, FaceTime until the morning and say ‘i miss you’ to each other together with other sweet words.

And that is why Johnny is driving his way home to you with a bouquet of flowers on the front seat of his car, fighting through his sleepiness and keeping himself awake until he reaches your house to surprise you.

When he finally arrived first thing in the morning, he met your mom first and told you that he’s here to surprise you. “She’s still sleeping, but you can wake her up if you want to. She misses you so bad,” your mom said to Johnny. He then made this way to your room with the flowers in his hand and entered quietly, careful not to disturb your sleep. He placed the flowers on your bedside table near a photo he took for you and smiled in awe because you always cherish everything he gave you.

Feeling so sleepy and tired from the long drive, he removed his shoes and joined you under the covers. Slinging his arm around your waist and finally waking you up with soft kiss on your cheek. “I’m home,” he whispered softly. You rolled to face him, surprised but you’re both so sleepy to show it so you returned his hug and hugged him tightly. The moment you laid eyes on him, his eyes were already closed, comfortable and more than happy that he can feel your presence.

And as you both sleep together in your small bed, well, small because Johnny is a big person, you bask in his warmth and meet him in your dreams. Not wasting any second without each other.

“You must be really tired” you said when he finally woke up, raking his soft hair away from his face.

He nodded and smiled at you. Finally. He thought. “What time is it?”

“Almost afternoon. But no one cares,” you said and came closer to him, finally kissing those lips you missed so much. He rolled on top of you, putting his whole weight on you while kissing you breathlessly on the lips, neck and chest. His hands were perfectly placed on your waist, his thumb is drawing small circles on your skin and as if he’s asking permission to lift your shirt and see you without your clothes on.

He pulled away to remove his thick hoodie and plain white shirt, leaving him only with his denim pants. You noticed his body changed a lot, sure the nude photos he sends were great and it makes you miss him more, but seeing Johnny again in between your legs without a shirt on and looking hot as fuck just makes you crave for him. “This is so much better than the photos you send me,”

He let out a satisfied smile and started to unbutton his denim pants and remove it in front of you. You on the other hand, removed your pajama and welcomed him in your arms again. Kissing him deeper than ever and making him touch your boobs and squeeze them, which makes you automatically part your lips and want for more.

“Have you been fucking different girls from different sororities?” You joked in between kissing him and palming his clothed cock.

“Wouldn’t even dare. How can I even think of fucking other girls, knowing that this pussy is waiting for me?” he knew you were only joking and put his thumb on your clothed pussy. Teasing you with the right amount of pressure, careful not to make you cum so early.

“How about you? Have you been seeing other guys?” you smiled and removed your shirt, throwing it somewhere and finally exposing yourself to him. He then kissed every inch of you, hands freely roam around your body, and even tickling you from time to time.

“How can I even try seeing other guys, when I already have who I want?”

You didn’t see but Johnny smiled because of your answer while he’s placing butterfly kisses all the way down your body. Kissing you lovingly and showing you how much he misses you.

After the innocent kisses, you feel him reach for your panties and hook his fingers on the garter, slowly pulling it down while he kisses your inner thighs. Preparing you to what comes next and spreading your legs a little too harsh than expected that you yelped and your body was dragged on the mattress.

“Oops. Sorry, got carried away,” he sweetly apologized to you, kissing you on the cheek before he proceeds again.

That sudden harsh movement was the real Johnny in bed. You’ve only had sex with him once, now is only the second time. But word is, Johnny fucks hard in bed. Everyone knows that because he slept with a handful of girls during high school and you’re just this supportive friend that listens to him talk about a great night or a great fuck the other night.

“Hey,” Johnny snapped his fingers and went on top of you again, intertwining his fingers with yours and kissing your knuckles before he makes you embrace him. “What’s the matter?”

“N-nothing. I’m just swimming in my thoughts. Uhm, what did you said again?”

“I asked if you want to use a condom”

“Uh. I don’t have one... do you-“

“Nope,” he said with a smirk. You suddenly remember that he loves fucking raw but what you don’t know is, you’re the first person he ever fucked raw. “Just tell me if it hurts. Again. Okay?”

He said, and you nod. Lining his cock on your entrance while he kisses your neck and kissing your boobs as he pushes in slowly. Tighter and tighter, your grip on his shoulders becomes. The familiar stretch of Johnny’s cock just makes your eyes shut and take him whole. Savouring every thrust he gives you, feeling every inch of cock inside you. It’s so big, you tell to yourself.

“Sorry, it’s bigger now because I’m so horny and I haven’t had sex since our last” he explained with ragged breaths near your ear.

“It’s okay,” is all you can manage to say.

He fucked you slow and deep or fast and sloppy. Either way it felt good and it surprised you how long you lasted this time.

Then suddenly he pulled away, spreading your legs wider as he changes his position. Having a better view of your bouncing boobs and fucked expression that never fails to turn him on. “Fuck Y/n,” he whined and reached for your boobs as he moves slower. Matching your moans and groans because he’s so close too. He then closes the space between you two and kissed you on the lips again like you’re about to disappear any second. Holding on to your body so tight that you’re sure it’s going to leave marks. Then suddenly your eyes rolled back and you’re breathing heavily and moaning a little too loud but no one will hear. Your orgasm completely washed you away and its all thanks to Johnny.

You smiled at him and reached for kisses to calm both of you down. “Was it a good one?” He was talking about the orgasm.

“The. Best.” You said in between kissing. “Did you come inside me?” He shook his head no. “Good. I’m not on the pill,”

“Kind of made a mess tho,” he looked to the direction of where he shoot his cum and it was on your lower abdomen and bed sheets. It was thick. His cum was so thick and many, that he was already embarrassed.

“Is it obvious that i missed you?” He asked. Kissing you on your forehead sincerely before he proceeds to clean his mess up.

“I think I need to shower,” you said.

“Okay, I’ll cover for you,”

While you were busy cleaning yourself, Johnny made himself decent again and decided to go downstairs to greet Mark and Jeno, your brothers. And eventually have breakfast with them.

“Hey uhm what do you think about me being your sister’s boyfriend?” He casually asked them and stuffed sausage in his mouth.

“Heck yeah that’s what I’m talking about man! Yo, just dont hurt her” Mark exclaimed in excitement thens suddenly turned serious.

“I won’t,” Johnny answered.

“And don’t make her miss you too much because you know we cant trust long distance relationship these days,” Jeno added.

Johnny agrees and said, “I will visit her every month”

“Don’t get her pregnant. I mean yet- get her pregnant when it’s the righ time- you get what i mean” Mark awkwardly added.

“O...kay. I’ll use condoms from now on. Anything else?”

“Dude just make her happy like you always do,”

“I will” Johnny said with a proud smile.

“Aren’t you boys should be cleaning the pool?” And the two boys immediately scrammed and quickly did their chores. Leaving you and Johnny in the kitchen with the food. Pinching Johnny’s cheek because now that you can see him clearly, you see a lot of changes.

“Only you can do that to me” he said then caught your hand and intertwined it with yours, he has become bold you notice. He pulled you closer to him while he finishes his juice, but the atmosphere is hetting a little stuffy and awkward so you tried having a conversation.

“Do you want to shower? I still have some of your clothes” you offered.

“Mhmm. Keep those, I have stuff in my car”

You nod and suddenly it was silent.

“Hey y/n, I was thinking of making it official between us. I mean if you want to. I just think that we’ve been flirting with each other for some time now and wed make a pretty good team,”

“ I thought you’d never ask. Took you longer than expected tho,” you put another sausage in his mouth ”The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is to love, and be loved in return.”

“Im just scared to fuck it up,” he sighed in relief “thank you for loving me back. I promise to take care of you 5000 more times than before”

“I’ll do the same... and wow you just asked me to be your girlfriend in the middle of our kitchen. How romantic.” He smiled handsomely then suddenly remembered one last thing.

“Oh by the way we uhm we need to start using condoms. I promised mark,”

“What-“

“I know right. Fucking you raw is good but your brother said to not get you pregnant”

“Ugh mark...” you moved your chair and hugged him tightly feeling him kiss the top of your head and cheek nonstop while you continue to eat.

The day may have started filthily, but it ended with a decently soft kiss on your temple from your best friend now boyfriend.