#Dan Howell is an inspiration

[bish-plz-haha]

I need to vent; another tangent

I'm watching a video that is making me cry.

So there's a video I just found that was made after Dan Howell came out - back in 2019 or whenever it was - and there's a lot of videos online of Dan answering fan questions on live videos between 2013 and 2017 or whatever where people were constantly like "are you gay?". He used to get those a lot. There's also one video from a live where he is talking about how much he didn't like himself - if you know you know. His story when he came out really hit home for me - still does - but my mind completely forgot about the "I hate everything about myself, ask anyone who knows me" thing until I watched this video. Just, thinking back on a lot of that stuff, a lot of shit Dan has said has really hit home for me.

And I would like to say that Dan is a very aesthetically pleasing person to look at. Like he is a very gorgeous human being. And I'm not sure why but it's just really hitting home and just full on punching me in the face that Dan hated himself so much for so long and a lot of it was because of this thing that he had no control over. And through his childhood, he was told that this thing is a bad thing. As a person who has gone through the fear of questioning one's self, I'm thankful that I never dealt with that. I had people who supported me for who I was and never told me that I couldn't be this thing because it was bad. And to see this guy come out of nowhere - just sort of rise out of the ashes - and be like, "I'm here." But still hate himself so much and try to supress a part of himself and yet have all these people just hounding him and pointing out this thing he hates about himself.

As a part of the phandom, I was never one of those people. I will say that with confidence. I just kind of kept to the shadows, as I do today. I didn't care if he was gay, straight, an alien, a worm - my point is it never mattered to me. And it still doesn't matter to me someone's sexuality. But it just hit me tonight, hard, that the incredible Daniel Howell hated himself for so long over something he couldn't control. And people were constantly hounding him about this thing he was trying to hide about himself... and now he's happy. I mean, happy enough to be who he really is. He's been dealing with depression for a long time, I know, but he's able to be here and be queer.

The recent gaming channel videos have been getting me. Dan has been laughing - genuinely laughing. And just being himself. And it brings me a lot of joy. I just really fucking love Dan.

If I ever get a chance to meet @danielhowell I just wanna tell him how proud of him I am. I've been watching Dan and Phil for, god, 10 years now and I remember a lot of these moments that Dan has had on his livestreams. I was there. And it's only now just hitting me. It's been 4, almost 5, years since Dan came out. And as a fan of his: I'm proud.

I'm so very proud of him and his journey to self acceptance. I love Dan so much, and maybe it's because I've related to him a lot in my life, but I absolutely love Dan - and I will say this as many times as I need to. He's an inspiration. And I wish I could tell him.

[caratbow]

under the missile toad 🐸♥️🎄

x

[reunitedinterlude]

phil: whenever i see an ambulance, i like to think there is a baby being born, rather than a death (1, 2, 3)

[seriouslyimagine]

female rage

[embrace-the-vo1d]

Been thinking about /her/

[silliestgirlintheworld]

My @phandomgiftexchange piece for @matutito ! I had so much fun drawing this, I love Dan and Phil crafts so much it makes me insane. I hope you like it!

Thanks to everyone who organized the gift exchange, it’s so nice having community events to look forward to :)

[serenityskyy]

What’s up y’all? I’m Dan and I just committed to Alabama. I’ll be majoring in Business Administration. I’m planning on rushing in the fall so hmu if you’re also joining a frat. My hobbies are watching football, listening to Morgan Wallen, and working on my truck. Add me on snap.

[snailsandstrawberries]

[zharizard666]

the tackle glomp of '09

[ghoulish-art-tendencies]

@danielhowell and @amazingphil as Jesse and James from Pokémon

[an-internet-introvert]

Countdown to October 19th (11/19)

Interactive Introverts

[schrodingers-fool]

F1 is a hugely popular sport and yet every time I hear someone knows it I’m like omg you know my niche little interest wow

[amid-fandoms]

i'm sorry but if i went on a getaway holiday with only my bro dude bestie friend and came back with a brand new album with hits like 'phantasy island, 'shove an ice cube all the way', 'danaconda', 'philacolada', 'SPF 69', 'do not disturb' and 'blondes have more fun' i would literally have to dig a hole in the ground to hide in from shame after sharing too fucking much

[quotelr]

My only regrets are the moments when i doubted myself and took the safe route. Life is too short to waste time being unhappy.

Dan Howell

[manchesterau]

(´♡‿♡`)

[dumbasch]

“dnfasmevatuvoomnomn” 💔💔🥺🥹