#DONT GET THE WORNG IDEA

[snoozaga]

Seen a guy today in a bober kurva meme shirt with a beaver on it and I really had to hold back a little laugh but I stayed strong bc I refuse to acknowledge internet memes in real life

[ne-umeyu-tancevat]

more think about it more i wanna microdose t

[werewolfsonpage211]

trans and autistic

this is just my personal account of how i feel being autistic has effected my transition. these experiences are in no way exclusive to being autistic and trans. i havent seen a post like this so i thought why not make it. cw gender dysphoria.

change. i dont like change.* unfortunately its kinda what transitioning is all about. when i first realised i was trans i thought i would never tell anyone. when i realised i wanted top surgery i cried. i kept questioning for years if top surgery was right for me because the idea of purposefully changing my body like that was so foreign to me. and yet i wanted it. it felt wrong to want it. it took long to get over my own bias that plastic surgery is unnatural or selfish and to accept why i myself wanted and needed it. after all that soul searching it was comparatively easier to realise i also wanted hrt. hrt means many small changes happening gradually, which made it easier for me to get comfortable with the idea. the fact that you can microdose it and that you can stop the treatment whenever you want to absolutely helped. it also helped to "try out" some of the effects. do i want a lower voice? i could feel it out by lowering my voice and doing voice training exercises (ofc not the same result as hrt but you get it). do i want more body hair? i reflected on how i felt about the sparse but present body hair i already have, and how it felt to find new hairs (euphoria!!) also ngl the tiktok beard filters helped. *thats a simplification, but many forms of change make me feel uncomfortable.

communication. i felt i needed to be absolutely 100% sure about my identity before coming out to Anyone. i struggle with unclear communication/instructions so i tend to assume other people also prefer more details rather than less details + i fear that other people will missunderstand me if im not clear enough. and in order to be clear i felt like i needed to Know beyond a doubt my gender, pronous and name. this lead to me being in the closet longer + seeking care later than i probably would have otherwise.

emotions. i struggle with anticipating other peoples reactions to stuff. i feared how my parents might react - would they cry? would they argue with me? would they think i was weird? and theyve literally been so chill about it. i would say my bar was on the floor but there really was no bar, i had no expectations at all because i couldnt even guess.

change again! asking people to use new pronouns and a new name. i first came out with using all pronouns. i now use he/they. saying i used all pronous felt easier because it meant no correcting people. turns out it wasnt right for me, and i kinda already knew that when i came out. but i felt i had to take it in small steps. i was never the one to cannonball into the water from the diving tower. i walk in slowly, one step at a time, rather putting my body through every small shock of cold against my skin than that one big shift. to some it might seem like self torture but to me it is the more comfortable choice. i wanted to come out but i wasnt ready to ask people to stop using she/her. so "all pronouns" became a stepping stone, one i am very grateful for. some people want nothing to do with their old name. im changing mine to the masculine coded version of my old name. calling it a new name is rich seeing as im just removing a few letters. i want the change to be as undramatic as possible, for both me AND for everyone else. other people being uncomfortable makes me feel Super uncomfortable. with the small change im making its easy to cover up if the worng name slips out. to me, my old and new names dont even have to be regarded as different names, just variations of the same name. yeah, i prefer the masc version, but tbh i will answer to anything that sounds remotely like my name. i just want it to be uncomplicated. in the same vein, my prefered pronouns are he/they, but im not going to correct everyone who calls me she/her. when and on whom i use that energy will be highly circumstantial.

special interests. ive done a lot of research. ive read a lot about gender affirming care, what it can (and cant) do, where and how you can get it, what people who have gotten it have to say. ive watched a lot of trans youtubers video essays and commentary, a lot of top surgery vlogs, and several videos made by medical professionals documenting the surgical procedure of detitification itself. ive joined several internet communities on facebook, discord and reddit to take part in other trans peoples knowledge, experiences and thoughts. ive prepared and held presentations on being trans on tdov. and i tend to forget that not every trans person ...does all that. (which is not a critique, i know its a lot.) (which is not a brag, i know im weird.)

societal norms. gender roles are weird right? and the whole concept of gender? thinking about it can give me a headache. i think autistic people are slightly more likely than allistic people to question the gender binary, simply because were more likely to not conform to social/societal norms. i initially identified only as non-binary. now i identify as a non-binary trans man. i do still wonder why i identify as a man - what makes me a man, what makes anyone a man, what makes me feel like a man. and i hate to say it, but i havent come up with a satisfactory answer. i just do. it doesnt completely make sense to me, but it makes more sense than anything else. at this point ive just accepted that some things give me gender euphoria, some things give me gender dysphoria, and all in all i think "man" describes me fairly well. i also think if id been amab i wouldve still identified as non-binary, just not had as much dysphoria nor required as much gender affirming care. i could go into further detail on my exact gender identity, but i also dont feel the need to be super open about it. not everyone needs to know every part of my identity. most people only need my name and pronouns. and as i said, i like it uncomplicated.

hey share your own experiences of being trans and autistic if you like? in tags/just add on to the post! i probably will if i think of more

[purgatory-cryptid]

I HAVE AN WII DELTED YOU AU DOES ANYONE WANT TO HEAR IT 

[supernaturalgirl31]

Dean tells castiel y/n is Pregnant

Dean was worried about y/n she was hiding from castiel because she was pregnant with his baby and dean decides that castiel needs to know so he went to find him when he saw him in a office .

"So this is where you hide when your not helping us with cases?" Castiel looks up and he sighs "dean not now ok im becuy trying to figure out why y/n wont tell me whats worng with her " dean looks at the books and he sighs . "Ok look y/n told me not to tell you but you need to know because you cant help her in the way you want and what she has not for at lease 9 months " Castiel looks confused. "What do you mean ?"

Dean sighs "y/n is Pregnant with your baby " Castiel looks at the picture dean gave him . "I had no idea " dean nods "i know she was scared to tell you because she didn't want you to get in trouble " he sighs "we cant get in trouble for this olny if i was a archangel i could not . But im a normal angle its fine . "

Later y/n was in her room reading a book when there was a knock on the door . "Come in " Castiel walks in the room. "Y/n is it true?" He looks at her stomach. "I would say it is . "Castiel how did you ?" "Dean told me "

"Of course he did look im sorry ok i dont want you to get in trouble "

Castiel sits down and he sighs . "We wont get in trouble i promise you that we will be safe " he puts his hand on her stomach "we will be a family " he smiled at her . "Let me be a father to are baby " "ok i will "

[keruworld]

The Game Towards Zero ep 19-20: Finally the story is moving because the police finally does the work of a police XD and our fav murderer (it’s weird saying it but let me be, Lim JuHwan is my fav korean actor) is cornered. Feels like we are reaching a climax... but there are still plenty episodes to go, i guess this drama will have 32 eps. From now onwards things will get interesting, so i will keep watching till the end. So for not annoying with a long post...

The ep being with a flashback?! Probably Tae Pyung will change his death?!

Something that could have been nice to happen in ep 3?! or... 5?

Dont tell me Sherlock? Something that should have been done since... the beggining.  XD

After.... what... 18 eps finally they are doing a proper investigation. X,D Finally feels like the story is moving foward.

So this is why he was so... sad while killing her! TTATT

Baby noooooo!!! TTATT This is what happen when the only person to talk to is a murderer. TTATT This man needed good friends for gods sake.

Girl... your boss deserves all that. He did so worng faking evidence.

Yeah, in fact he is guilty of all this!

Goo Do Kyung: I didn't though they have common sense!

Goo Do Kyung thinking: I didn’t thought they could be intelligent.

Why didn't they do this from the beginning?! X,D I mean, it was common sense.

-awkward silence- X,D

Tae Pyung i know you are awfully mad with him with reason... but if you really want to understand him... the correct is question him... if he will live... what for? why to live? why became a criminal?

-traumatic flashbacks-

Yeah... talking about a bad idea!! X,D He definitely is pissed off... more than ever.

Baby... NOOOOOO!!! TTATT

Ohhhh no.....

Nooooooooo...

Nooooooooooooooooooo

You know... this is worst than be the second lead that will always be friendzoned! X,D

Yeah... probably... you keep a bad influence with you sir.

Wait.... WHY?! Why this conclusion Tae Pyung?!

Either way... is not good to kill no matter the reason Tae Pyung!! Because the preview... i think Tae Pyung is talking about killing himself or something like that. Wonder if that’s what he conclued? Feels like we are reaching the climax of the events... but there are still three weeks left... three weeks left... what will they cover in that 12 episodes?!

[rwbyfans]

  remind so peopl dont get worng idea iam genderduild  i am not trans iam for lbgt comnity ijust like idea trans grl penny that why iused this pic 

[karmagrind]

sorry，worng number. maybe 25 to 30 if you dont mind

Oooh, thank you for a challenge…!!

27. How do they change throughout their school years?

Sylvain participates is forced into an exchange program at Ilvermorny for the second half of his fifth year. Afterwards, he spends the summer in the States traveling with Jacob or staying with his new American friends. So when he returns to Hogwarts in September… he got glowed up and it’s pretty shocking to the other students who have not seen him since December.

I’m talking growth spurt, body build, stronger posture, and eyes that can now maintain contact for more than 0.5 seconds. He’s still quiet but at least he’s hopefully easier to talk to?

29. Are they the “bully”, the “victim” or the “hero” of the situation?

[Tumblr app keeps eating up the rest of the answers from here but they’re all accessible on the desktop or mobile site!]

25. What’s their greatest weakness? How do they deal with it?

Being compared to his parents who are both pretty famous in the wizarding community. People think of Sylvain to be some kind of prodigy because of his background but he’s a normal teenager trying to get by.

It can be demoralizing when people make comments like “Just as expected of Diego Caplan’s kid!” or “You’re the son of a former cursebreaker after all!” and don’t give him enough credit for his personal efforts. In the end, Sylvain acknowledges that these titles will forever be a part of who he is. Give him time and he’ll gradually be recognized for his own accomplishments and be proud to contribute to the family name.

26. Is there an objective they’re trying to accomplish?

Get through school, don’t make a scene, survive, and graduate. Like, you know how some of us probably have that one phase where you dunno what you wanna do with your future… that’s what he’s going through.

28. Talk about their relationship with the other Fankids.

[idk which fankid I can use for this so my inbox is down for a couple of fankid ideas and I’ll scribble whatever catches my interest!]

30. Use a meme to describe them.

[kenazraventooth]

Oops... guess who has played n loved smile for me...? Yuup!

So i put my sona as flower kid! But I do have an idea for the being a habitician.. and ill be posting the as being at the habitat

Warning spoilers ahead! Im on mobil so the whole "keep reading" doesnt show up on the app. Which is dumb.

Kenaz (yay blatant self insert) 1st shows up after Trencil's 1st quest after the flowers are but in and can be seen sitting by him just a bit beyond the dusk flower. Kenaz just like the silent compainionship and flowers.

When talked to they are happy that flower kid has put the flowers in the courtyard, it makes it look nicer. Then asks if you can keep an eye out for something.

If no: "O-oh ok... I didn't mean to be a burden."

If yes: The player would be asked if they find an inhaler that it is theirs. They have looked everywhere for it and are getting nervous about not being able to breath if the PSA's get any spookier.

Player will then get asked "Youre probably woundering why I dont get a spare huh?"

If no: "Oh cool! It's a bit embrassing to explain anyhow."

If yes: "I only need it if I have to do a lot of running or if I get very scared... Luckly I dont have to run form much in here.. haha." Suggesting that they are running more form emtional issues rather then actual threats in the outside world

Fun fact about me: I thought the asthma kid having an attack when being very scared was just a joke rather then an actual thing until I meet my coworker who semi accidently scared me into an attack one day! (He ment to scare the hell out of me yes. He did not mean to give me an asthma attack tho.)

The inhaler is found between the two carla's stands in Ronbo's carnival. Its easy to find and pick up.

Kenaz is over joyed when you give back their inhaler, but when asked where you found it and motioning to the carnival Kenaz gets a bit sheepish and mentions that they must of dropped it when they got spooked by the game attendent carla while checking out the foritune teller stand. (And yes that carla always spooks me because I will forget they are there. Be looking for something only to be scared when they flail their arms >((( )

After giving back the inhaler Kenaz will give you a sunflower seed that has a blushing smile on it as a thank you. [Note this will not bring Kenaz to full joy]

Planting the sunflower seed will show a cute happy sunflower.

Bringing back the Sunflower will bring them to full joy as you actually took the time to grow it and give it to them... they will give you another seed incase you find joy in seeing the flower when you go to bed and wake up... just dont tell Dr. Habit that they are doing something to help cheer fokes up aswell. This is to suggest that, like flower kid, Kenaz likes to bring joy to the people around them but after Dr. Habit's passive agressive to out right mean comments they are to scared to do so.

If you thought it was the end... hehe your worng ;)

If (or should I say when) you punch Kenaz for Tim tams quest they will give you a stunded look and if they were full joy before the blue sparks will vanish. They will give "...." as the dailogue for the rest of that day. They next they will vanish.

Kenaz will appere in the lougue the next table over form tiff back in the simlar position when 1st meet and with a drink. Talking to them "Wh..what do you want?! Havnt you hurt me enough?! I thought you were my friend!"

If no: Kenaz's unicorn horn will light up with magic while Kenaz looks hateful "Magic can do a lot of things... but I dont think you want to find out what it will do to you." If you talk to them again you will be teleported in the acid pool in the boiler room. If you go back to try to talk to them again you will get "No! I dont want to talk to you again!" And you will be sent to the boiler room again. You wont beable to talk to kenaz again til the next day.

If yes: Kenaz will go silent for a moment and ask if your here to apologize.

If no: Kenaz will simply ask you to leave then.

If yes: Kenaz will ask why you punched them. When showed Tim Tam's photo Kenaz will say "Oh. I see. You really out to cheer everyone up huh... I never did understand why hurting others in any way makes people happy." There will be a silence and the blue sparks will come back "Thank you... I'll be down here for a bit, but I promise it wont be for to long.... I rather not be like the ["two" if Parsley is down there. "Her" if its just jerafina]

Kenaz will be back in the loungue again the next day. Happy as before.

Kenaz will actually appere after your conforntation with Dr. Habit.

Bad ending: Kenaz will be by the gates looking towards martha. They stop you for a moment giving you that sollum face just like Dr Habit had "He didnt deserve that." Its all that kenaz will say.

Good ending: Kenaz will be with Kamal. "He cant be to far gone! I cant... I wont believe it! Please... help me just make one more creature happy..." this is clearly driected at kamal. (I just thought it would of been nice for him to be hesitating weather or not he could... try again with dr. habit. Leaving it vague for a friendship or a relationship and having flower kid giving that things can be worked out and bounds can be mended but you wont know unless you tried)

Fun facts!

When using the microphone on Trencil so Trevor can hear the vampire admission Kenaz's sprite will switch to a silent laughing pose for a bit. If spoken to "Poor Trencil... Dont worry ill make sure he wont get swamped by tge soon adoring fans."

Kenaz's sprite will switch to a spook pose when ever Marv apperes form his pond... keep making Marv appere will make Kenaz move over by Dallas for a day. When spoken to kenaz mentions they cant take being spooked for a bit and thought they dont care for the "photo girl"s babbling they dont mind painting stuff with dallas for the day.

Kenaz's collage image is a bush (and yes i mean bush) of static with sunflowers on it.

Photos!

Dallas: "Nice guy! He's fun to doodle with form time to time"

Jerafina: "I would like her more if she drank less."

Kamal: "I think hes as sweet ask his cramal teeth!<3"

Lulia: "I cant stand her. So self centered."

Millie, Tim Tam, Putunia: "Brat *hiss*"

????????: "I.... Uh... I....oh! You shouldnt just uh... going around showing people this... the photo girl wouldnt like it.."

Nat: "I wish she would come down and hang out with her father and I more... She seems nice"

Randy: "I hope he was able to get a new jar of pickles. I beat his last one open on him but Dr.Habit made him shower and change cloths.... What? I wasnt sure how else to open it and cover him with pickle juice!" (And yes I didn't know there was another way while playing the game until I looked on the wiki... sorry Randy :( )

Tiff: "...................I miss her lovly voice and she has such a lovly face... I could... I... Wh-Wha-What?! St-Stop loo-looking at me li-lik-like that!"

Trencil: "The most chill floating cape you will ever see :)"

Trevor: "For a kid that says hes a werewolf he doesnt smell much of a dog *chuckles*"

Paintings:

Super hero: "Hm... I always wounder if they are really the good guys..."

Werewolf: HISSSSSSSS

Floral: "Thats lovly... but not my kind of flowers. Fits you wounderfully tho!"

Habits 1st dairy page: Kenaz will look stunned and then sad (wont loose blue sparks) "I thought I had gotten rid of this... I wasnt sure if Dr. Habit would really want people to know this when I found it. Listen flower kid. I dont think hes as scary when hes in his right mind... But its clear that hes not there right now. If you have to fight him... please only use as much as nessary. Kindness goes far more then violence ever will... by the way... have you seen the art gallery? Makes you wounder why some people are ever allowed to have parents huh." Kenaz will continue to look sad if you talk to them again they will go on "Nothing messes with kids more then psyical or metal abuse... huh flower kid?" This isnt a nood or shake question just something to ponder on.

Ah... I didnt mean for this to be so long but i simply love this game and love dr. habit. I wasnt sure what to make of him until i actually meet him in game. I think him with a little smile and his hair tied up is just so adorable and my heart goes out to him, and any other adult thats had neglectful and abusive parents. Making friends is hard espically when no one ever shows you how to make ones who are truly... dear true friends.

[amberfurj]

Me - trans - trying so hard not to appear like a butch lesbian

[justscreamingnothing]

i’m extremely normal

I’m normal, and I’ve lived my whole life wanting to, aspiring to, learning that I should be, extraordinary. But i’m not extraodinary at all, being funny and being silly is just common, I’m just some common girl from Miami. I think (and i might be worng here, might be just in a bad bout of depression or something) that i may not have a strong sense of self. I was thinking today about how much anxiety I have when people challenge my views, which ties into my fear of appearing dumb or uneducated, something that’s given me anxiety all my life. And I thought about just how much reassurance I need from those around me, one of the reasons I’m such a people pleaser. And about how I just feel like i’m not “getting something” other people are, theres some sort of secret people have figured out and I’m just not in on it. Anyway I was thinking all these things and I was like damn, do i have a bad sense of self? One thing thats always eluded me is the girl i want to be, this extraordinary person I’ve been wanting to be ever since I was little, and no matter how hard I try, I’m not her. So work to be a good person you’re proud of right? But somehow thats not enough either, I’m just not happy, there just seems to be something missing. Sometimes I really love myself and the person I am, but I don’t know, other times I feel like I’m not even me, like the person I am has been slowly fabricated by me to appeal to the people I want to impress, and it’s still not enough.

I’m also lonely, and that has a lot to do with it, because I dont have anyone by my side to grab my hand when I’m slowly marching myself off a cliff and bring me back to solid ground. It’s an old song you know too well, but i can’t help but feel like if I at least had someone around who i knew liked me, I wouldnt spiral so often. But thats the thing too huh, I can only ever speculate, I have no idea what it’d be like to have someone at my side, what if I still feel like this? what if I feel worse? And anyway, even if it did help, that takes a lot of time right? Having someone love you and reassure you in the way you need?

I feel the most directionless I think I’ve ever felt in my life. I’ve been working professionally for 6 years and still my “dream career” is still like some far off fantasy to me. I don’t make anything and I don’t even have the enthusiasm to make anything. Las ganas. I get terribly anxious whenever someone critiques even something I like, what’ll I do when they critique something I made? How can I make something and put it out into the world for other people to judge? It’s so hypocritical because i love doing that myself, picking things apart and critiquing them, guess I can’t take my own heat. It makes me want to stay dormant. Because I can avoid the anxiety if I just stay in my lane and don’t make anything. And since my career life is also not going anywhere, i just feel like im floating around waiting for something to happen. And nothings going to happen, because why would it? what would change? I’m not putting anything in motion and miracles are hard to come by (what are the odds someone will say “hey i read some of the stuff you had saved deep in your google drive, would you like to come write for us?”) I’m applying to new jobs and no one wants to hire me, maybe the sense my flop through the screen. None of the jobs I’ve applied to recently are even things I’d want to do, just things that line up with what my sorry ass excuse for a career path have led me to. (maybe thats what theyre sensing through the screen.) 

So who knows, maybe I’m not the girl I’ve always wanted to be but rather the girl i feared becoming, the one who didnt go for it and didnt make anything and lived a little life and was happy but never achieved anything she wanted to. Maybe i’ll be a monster mom who puts all her dreams on her kids. Or the creepy old lady on the block no one talks to because she’s mean and bitter and drove herself mad all alone in her house. Maybe i’m already inching toward that.

[rwbyfans]

 iam cisgender female her she   i am jsut hugh  fan of val/tina i dont peopel get worng idea and htink i am some thing i am not   . i am pansexul        so appcte all gender and     sexuitly idenfty