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You are the fantasy that fuels my wildest dreams.

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your vibes + signs for you <3 🪷

hiii babies! i'm feeling inspired so here you go 💋💋. this weekend, take time to nurture yourself and relax. drink water, do some yoga, journal, treat yourself. you're all loved and valued.

as always, if none of these pictures speak to you, do not feel pressured to choose one hastily. messages for you lie elsewhere. enjoy, darling ! this'll mostly be blurbs about things that remind me of your vibes, so it's not exactly intricate, but i hope it resonates regardless <3 if they don't resonate, do not force yourself to take the message.

pile 1: aww you're giving the old school kinda love vibes. jazz clubs. birds chirping in the morning. really sensual and down to earth. are you an earth sign? unique nails. dark hair. thrifting god. you probably look really good in teal. your laugh is so beautiful. watercolor drawings from children's rooms. green eyeshadow. having the courage to change. power to the sensitive. unicorns and rainbows. warm food. the smell of the sea. clairo songs.

pile 2: peaceful mornings. whale songs deep beneath the blue of the ocean. farmers markets and sunny sunday mornings. misty shades. gold jewelry. long skirts. granny smith apples. music vibrating from the soul's very core. mazzy star. dark, dark blue. sweaters, no matter the season. glimmering eyes. taylor russell's beauty. intellectual and clever. old lamps. elegance. the sound of seabirds. the calmness after the storm. long highway trips. old internet.

pile 3: outfit of the day videos. angelic voice. third time's the charm. religion + spirituality. deep forests where the sun shines through the branches. mangroves. home-made food. creative hands. determination and power in the physical realm. museums and art galleries. unique features that steal breath away. jhene aiko. blood orange. summer is where i glow. surfboards. all natural. freaking gorgeous. lemonade. warm colors. short hair.

pile 4: dolphins diving through glimmering water. bath and body works mists. pink, all pink! hair care supreme. sweet tooth. littlest pet shop. shopkins. hibiscus flowers. water signs. green/brown eyes. tall divas. golden tongue. as free as a bird. lavender sunsets. others opinions do not define me. winged beings. motherly/fatherly. camisoles. long hair. left brained. bubbly and sweet. strawberry shortcake.

pile 5: bad bitch energy. accessorizing to the sky. heels. demanding authority. black eye makeup. catwoman. your own role model. old tumblr era. talented artistically. darker color scheme. red nails. bonsai trees. airports and travel. luxurious. old doja cat era. evanescent beauty. the desire to be seen. bleeding heart. cassandra complex. poetic in every single action. paris, france. multilingual. the breeze in august.

pile 6: the feeling of home. mountains. a chaste kiss on the cheek. hands folded in prayer. wavy/curly hair. horses running through fields. the warmth of the rising sun. so uniquely you. musky scents. candles lit. planting and weeding out gardens. pure love. a piece of heaven hidden in a person. savior complex. beautiful skin. patterns, stripes and polka dots. deer. there is never a right time to be happy--but there is always time.

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PAC :Where does she find her peace ?

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PILE 1

She finds peace in the soft, unspoken language of love, the kind that doesn’t need validation or proof, just presence. It’s in the warmth of her people, the ones who see her for who she is, not just who she tries to be. Her peace lives in the effortless give-and-take, the quiet loyalty of a soul team that vibes like an unbreakable group chat: always there, always rooting for her.

She doesn’t have to chase it. Peace finds her when she leans into her own magic, when she realizes her love isn’t a task, it’s a legacy. It’s the way she nurtures others and, in turn, is held by the same love she so naturally gives. It’s less about the grand gestures and more about the tiny, everyday moments: a random compliment from a friend, a laugh that lingers, a shared silence that feels like home.

Her peace? It’s in the knowing. Knowing she is enough. Knowing her community is an extension of the love she pours into the world. Knowing she can just exist and that’s more than enough.

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She finds peace in her own light, the one she built from scratch when the world around her was all shadows and shaky ground. It’s in the clarity of knowing she doesn’t need perfect roots to bloom. She’s been through the fire, mourned the versions of herself that had to grow up too fast, but she didn’t just survive, she became the warmth she never had.

Her peace shows up when she laughs without holding back, when she lets herself feel the joy she once thought was reserved for people with softer childhoods. It’s in the way she owns her story, not as a victim but as a warrior who turned chaos into clarity.

The unstable past? Yeah, it happened. But she’s the proof that joy can be chosen. Peace, for her, isn’t in the absence of pain but in the decision to live fully despite it. She finds it when she stands in her truth, eyes forward, heart open, unafraid to shine even when life tries to dim her.

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She finds peace in the mirror she reclaimed. The one that doesn’t just reflect the surface but holds the story of who she became when the world stopped clapping. Beauty used to be applause, a fleeting thing handed out like candy easy to get, easier to lose. But she learned that praise is fickle, and desire is often just noise.

Now, her peace lives in the quiet confidence of knowing she’s more than what people once saw. The curves they lust after? She owns them. The scars, the texture, the hair, they’re not flaws; they’re reminders of the skin she fought to love. She doesn't chase the pretty girl she once was. She sits comfortably in the grown woman she is now: whole, unapologetic, and untouchable by anyone’s standards but her own.

Peace, for her, is in the calm after the war with her reflection. It’s in the understanding that beauty isn’t a performance, it’s presence. And she’s here. Fully, fiercely, and free.

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vampire goth is overrated asf where my siren goths at

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The Chocolate Box Spread 🍫

PAC Reading

This spread uses the idea of picking chocolates from a Valentine’s box, where each “chocolate” reveals a sweet, surprising, or insightful message about your love life.

before clicking on an image, ask the question in mind & take a deep breath before selecting a pile. set your intentions & remember, you are the only one who controls your fate. this is a general read, take what resonates & leave the rest please.

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pile one

right now, you’re standing at a crossroads, imagining what your love life could be and the possibilities that lie ahead. it’s an exciting yet slightly uncertain place, where your dreams and intentions are beginning to take form, but action is still needed to turn those visions into reality. there’s an energy of curiosity and quiet determination here, but also a reminder not to stay too long in the planning phase. taking that first step, even if it feels small or scary, will open doors you can’t yet see.

it might feel like life has thrown a wrench into your plans or like the pace of your love life isn’t matching your desires. delays or challenges may have left you feeling stuck or uncertain, but these moments are part of a bigger picture. this energy is asking you to trust the cycles of your life. sometimes what feels like a setback is actually a redirection, preparing you for something that aligns more deeply with who you’re becoming. patience isn’t just about waiting; it’s about trusting the process and allowing things to unfold as they’re meant to.

there’s also a need to slow down and reflect on how you’re approaching love. rushing forward or acting impulsively might feel tempting, especially if you’re eager to move past this sense of waiting. but this energy asks for thoughtfulness. taking your time doesn’t mean you’re delaying your happiness—it means you’re building a solid foundation for it. sometimes, stepping back gives you the clarity and calm you need to make the right decisions for yourself and your heart.

the good news is, there’s a spark of something new just ahead. this energy feels fresh and full of possibility, like a chance to start over or embrace a completely unexpected opportunity. it’s the kind of shift that asks you to let go of fear and approach love with the same open-hearted wonder you’d have as a child. this new chapter isn’t about carrying the weight of the past but about leaping forward with joy and trust in the unknown.

what ties all of this together is the promise of success and recognition. whether you realize it or not, your journey is leading you toward a moment of triumph. you’re stepping into a space where the love you’ve been cultivating—both for yourself and others—will be acknowledged and celebrated. this energy is about confidence, knowing your worth, and trusting that the effort you’ve put into your growth is going to pay off. the love you deserve is closer than it feels, and when it arrives, it will feel like a victory you’ve worked hard to achieve.

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it feels like things in your love life might not be moving in the direction or speed you’d hoped for. there’s a sense of frustration or feeling out of control, as if you’re trying to push forward but the road feels blocked. this energy is asking you to pause and reflect on what’s driving you—are you aligned with what truly serves you, or are you chasing something that’s no longer meant for you? sometimes, the universe slows us down to help us see the bigger picture, even if it feels like resistance in the moment.

there’s also a heaviness around connection. whether it’s a relationship that feels strained or a sense of disconnection from others, this energy suggests that something isn’t flowing smoothly. it might feel like a lack of mutual understanding or emotional reciprocity, leaving you questioning where things stand. the key here is to focus on your relationship with yourself. reconnecting with your own needs and desires will help you approach love with clarity and confidence when the time is right.

at the heart of this reading is the quiet yet powerful energy of intuition and foresight. you already have an inner knowing about where things are headed or what you need to do next, but it requires patience and trust in yourself. there’s a balance between waiting for the right moment and preparing for what’s to come. you’re in a phase where looking ahead and laying a foundation for your future is more important than rushing into action. your intuition is your greatest ally right now—listen to it.

that said, there’s also a spark of excitement and passion coming your way. whether it’s a renewed sense of drive or someone entering your life with bold, adventurous energy, this moment is about stepping back into your power. however, the knight of wands reminds you to temper excitement with intention. moving forward with a plan, rather than recklessness, will lead to more lasting joy.

finally, the underlying energy here is healing. there’s a wound or heartbreak that needs your attention, whether it’s fresh or lingering from the past. it’s okay to acknowledge the pain—it doesn’t make you weak, and it doesn’t mean you’re stuck there. healing isn’t linear, but this energy suggests that facing your emotions honestly will bring the clarity and release you need to move forward. trust that brighter days are ahead, even if the path there feels uncertain right now. your strength lies in your ability to honor your feelings while still looking toward a hopeful future.

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right now, you’re stepping into a chapter of deep transformation in your love life. this is a moment of shedding old layers, releasing past versions of yourself, and making space for something more aligned with who you are becoming. there’s an energy of renewal here—whether it’s the closing of a cycle, the healing of an old wound, or the quiet realization that you’re no longer the same person who once longed for the things you used to. this shift is powerful, and while it may feel bittersweet, it’s also freeing.

there’s a sense that you’ve outgrown certain dynamics, patterns, or even people. what once felt fulfilling might no longer resonate, and that’s okay. this is your sign to honor the changes within you rather than clinging to what’s familiar. the universe is guiding you toward something more expansive, but it requires trust—trust that what’s meant for you will stay and what leaves was never meant to be yours in the long run.

at the heart of this reading is self-discovery. love isn’t just about connection with another person; it’s also about the relationship you cultivate with yourself. this is a time to reconnect with your own desires, dreams, and values. what do you truly want from love? what makes your heart feel alive? the more you align with your truth, the more effortlessly the right connections will find their way to you.

as you navigate this transition, there’s also a reminder to embrace softness. not everything has to be a battle. sometimes, surrendering to the flow of life brings more clarity than forcing answers. allow yourself to be in a space of receptivity—whether it’s to love, joy, or simply a deeper sense of peace within yourself.

the energy ahead feels like a fresh start, one rooted in authenticity and emotional depth. whether this is the arrival of a new connection, a renewal of an existing one, or simply a newfound confidence in your own worth, there’s a sense of stepping into something more aligned, more fulfilling. trust that everything is unfolding exactly as it should. love isn’t passing you by—it’s preparing to meet you at a place where you’re ready to receive it fully.

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PAC: What would your broken heart feel about your nuptial union ? (18+)

If I beat that pussy up is u going to tell on me ?

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PILE 1

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY MAY YOUR LETTER FILL YOUR HEART. 🎀

Yes is free, take it like my gift to you.(❁´◡`❁)

PILE 2

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY MAY YOUR LETTER FILL YOUR HEART. 🎀

Yes is free, take it like my gift to you.(❁´◡`❁)

PILE 3

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY MAY YOUR LETTER FILL YOUR HEART. 🎀

Yes is free, take it like my gift to you.(❁´◡`❁)

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PAC: What would your broken heart feel about your nuptial union ? (18+)

PILE 3 

SONG : Georgia on My mind - Ray Charles

2 wands, World, 3 cups (reverse), Emperor (reverse) 

Y’all ate your 12 red grapes under the table this year. 

The reading is you take down your wedding day hairstyle while your husband is setting up the room (whatever that means …) and you look at the mirror, there's a flash of your older self. 

(You are caressing your wedding ring.) 

I was pissed when they brought him back into my life again. When I ate the 12 red grapes we had just broken up … I know I am the one who decided to end things because I could not handle the purity of his love. Yes I know it was probably a very bitchy move to eat the grape under the table but I thought that maybe with someone else I would be able to open my heart more easily. I was so scared to break him. I’ve been broken so many times before. I did not want to be the reason that turn him into an helpless in love like the loser that I am. Maybe it is the red string theory or maybe it is the karma because I try to play in the Universe face but here I am proudly married to my first and last love. Is all thanks to him. He came back into my life, while I was starting to date around (tears of disappointment are making their way on your cheeks. You are so disappointed that you almost fall into an old cycle because you could not handle the goodness of his love) again. Can’t believe  I told him to wait his turn. Can't believe I told him that he was not  the only one. Can't believe I told him that it will pass. People always love me before I become too much and other times I destroy it  myself before it can destroy me. In all seriousness, I think I first ran away because I was scared of the pain that was going to come when it would all fell apart, like it usually does. How fucked of me to think so lowly of our union at first ? My sweet boy used to text me when drunk just to tell me how much loved me. How much he loved my brown skin, my curly hair and my curves and if he could he would ditch his boys and come hug me or just stare at me but he knows I need space and space is essential in a relationship. My sweet boy would ask anybody walking our way to take a picture of both of us so that if anything happens to him, he will not just remember to love me, but seeing both of us will show us how deeply he cared for me. My sweet boy has a parent with dementia which scar him, so he can't seem to go a day without writing me a letter, taking a picture or telling me ‘’I love u’’ . His words : ‘’ I will never forget to love you. You hear me ( your name), I will  forget how to breathe before I forget you’’. My sensitive baby is always so emotional. Never afraid of letting the tears flow. Always expressing to anyone who wants to hear him how much he loves me even when  the conversation has nothing to do with me ( ME: lol). It was so hard to make my way back into his family and friend group which I understood when I saw him again. He lost weight, he had such huge under eye bags and yet he called my name with much sweetness. I heard from  the grapevine, he drank so much more trying to make it hurt less and his friend would hide his phone because he would try to text me and call me. Which would end up with him sobbing (not u trying to keep it in… Is ok baby …). One day, I allowed him back. He asks for a hug, pleads for it,  promising that after that he would forever leave me alone. If that's what I wanted. I hugged him, cried, he cried, holding on strongly to me while comforting me and I promise myself to never ever let go again. 

(HIM: BABE … BABE … you can come out … I have a surprise for you. You can't answer because you are still crying and you don't want him to worry. HIM : (he knocks) Babe are u ok ? Can I enter ? Talk to me … baby ..; You open the door mascara running) 

Couple days before you let him see you again, you're going to make out with another boy. Claiming you are ready for something new. When the boy will try to make a move on your inner thigh, you will panic. I even think that you will kiss him, a loud voice in your mind will remind you how wrong it is. Also you are an amazing kisser but babe this is a very poor performance … I feel bad for the dude making out with you. Too much lips (is that even possible) and too much tongue. 

Your future husband loves kissing your whole body as a form of foreplay. Love caressing you, always checking up on you while sharing the intimate moment with you. Even when his inside you and your eyes are close, he makes sure that you feel good. He always checks your mannerism to make sure he isn't hurting you. Y’all dirty talking is more like love making affirmation. Is it not dirty or degrading, still very sexy but is more emotional than vulgar. 

Y’all were raised in different ways. You both have similar financial background but different parenthood. When I channel him, everything around him is orange and yellow. I can clearly see his friend and I can feel the love of his parents. There's a warmth that radiates from him. Also he grew up seeing his parents very much in love. The fact that their love survives the illness of one of them is like an ultimate confirmation that he wants the same for himself. He always wanted marriage, the house, kids and dogs, let's not forget the close group of friends. It will not surprise me if in one of his graduation speeches he commented, only really caring  about finding a wife. On your side is a light cold blue. Maybe your childhood bedroom was painted blue. The house is cold, so you may enjoy staying by yourself. Side note : U is very pretty. I know you may be tired of hearing that but babe your beauty is too strong for me to just move on. Actually for anyone to move on. Anyways back on track, your parents were never home busy with their career. Like you grew up on your own, no noise, lonely silence. Still very financially stable. Is not like they're working to keep a roof over your head. I think they told you multiple times in some way shape or form  that their career is more important than you. 

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PAC: What would your broken heart feel about your nuptial union ? (18+)

PILE 2 

Star (reverse), High priestess (reverse), 2 cups, 2 wands (reverse) 

SONG 1 : A Sunday Kind Of Love - Etta James

You are an over-sharer and u dont care. You often say the most out of pocket things and walk away like the queen you are. Because you may be disrespectful but u aint wrong. You give me the vibe of Luna Lovegood with the mouth of Cookie Lyon or Pat LuPon. You have a sense of humor, sex-appeal and feminine expression similar to Helena Bonham. Ok Pile 2, I am obsessed with you … Plz say u want to be my friend. It said we are friends, yes you have no choice. I swear I am cool too, maybe not as much as you but I am still a STAR (Mia Goth scream way). 

First letter is written by your present self. Y’all may live alone. You may have  black cat or thought of adopting one from the shelter. You are always down for a late night snack. You were raised by a naked mom (twin … told u we have a lot in common) that's why u walk around your house naked. For the one that doesn't apply to their 3D reality, just know that your manifestations are working. You are on the right path to achieve that kind of freedom. 

Second letter is an update from your future self. 

You drop everything. Close your phone or your TV. Give it a big sight and take some paper and a pen. Other of you, is in your journal. Your done being confused or acting confused. Waiting for the right one to appear, you are taking matters on your own and writing about him (without knowing your are manifesting and using a powerful energy : frustration. Also you may do under a powerful moon (ex : full moon) without knowing) 

Ok … So I want him to look so deep in my eyes that it seems like his having a discussion with my soul. I  don't care that I can't handle eye contact (some of y’all wear glasses), I just want a cute moment. Is that too much to ask ? No it is not ! AND I WANT IT. I also want someone that can't keep his hand away from me. I want someone who's going to drag me towards him softly while I speak to my friend just cause he needs to feel me. I want someone that would hug me to sleep while he plays video games with his friend but he would not just stop there. He would not scream and his friend would yell at him in his headphones but he would chuckle that he’s the only one with a gf for a reason. He would never be ashamed of being pussy whipped and a total simp boy for a fucking weird girl like me. He will not fetishize my weirdness or quirks, he would actually embrace it. He will found joy bringing me to the spiritual shop so I can buy all my crystal and herbs, he would love to plan a trip to Salem so we can dive deeper into the witchcraft scene or maybe love to go to New Orleans so I can bask in the magical air and learn the beauty of a closed practice (u will not practice it but u love learning). He would love to see me put cinnamon  a front of all our doors, fuck why not add this since HIS MY PERFECT MEN …he would love to live in an old house with some antique decor. I also need him to be tall , this tall queen needs to feel like a little spoon 2. Back off my man, short princess, mama got this. I WANT HIM CLINGY. I want him to be unable to sleep without me. I want him to be a homebody but like the clean kind, not the incel way ( ME: EXPLOSION OF LAUGHTER. Girl u seem to talk from a specific experience). I want him to love holding on to my purse, tying my shoes and throwing in some kind of braiding hair skills. I want him to enjoy a road trip because if there's one thing my family is going to do, is go on a trip. I want him to love my family and accept the fact that I am a crybaby. Yes… the stereotype is real, I am the last (or only ) daughter of the family so is my way or the highway. I want him to be able to chase after me when the zoomies catch me when  I am drunk. Did I mention that I want him tie to my hip ? I want him to stop his car whenever he sees me in  the neighborhood just so he can get out and hug me. Universe frl don't play with me … he better not be some long distance bullshit. You know I can't handle it ! 

Yes! Angel number : 999 must be meant to be. 

PS: I just want to throw this here … I mean may as well. I want us to have some light hearted  love making. I want to be comfortable being naked under the cover. I want us to build healthy sexual tension. I also want him to seduce me into having sex, no pressure. I want him to touch me like I am a delicate porcelain doll and look at me with so much love and adoration. I want him to see the value in my naked body … I just want to feel like I am worth more than just a sex doll. 

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(Your signature) 

Update (In your manifestation journal. You will have one in the future. Also I am channeling a time where u are more organized in your spirituality and more confident than a baby witch) 

SONG : CRUSH - AJ Tracey ft Jorja Smith 

Before I start, you are coming to a realization. Don't worry, it's not a bad one. You just did something u never thought u would do. Actually when u went to meet up with him u did not even think, y’all would do that. You guys fucked in the forest. Some of y’all have a lake in your neighberhood which is your secret spot and u fucked in parking lot around.  Depending on how u park it can be in front of the forest. You were literally coochie out moaning  with the birds. BYEEE … Chérie D’Amour I did not know y’all were down like that. Some of y’all reading are surprise but intrigue, yeah this person is going to bring out the nasty gyal out of you. 

3 pentacles (reverse), king cups, 6 wands (reverse), magician (reverse) 

Home sweet home… I'm back. 

(You take a deep breath. Nod your head and stand up  and caress your bed (lol) then  decide is best to just take a shower. The flashbacks are attacking you in the shower. You may get horny in the shower to the point of wanting to touch yourself but I heard u speak out loud : (Your name) stop being so perv, ( chuckle ) … fuck I forgot how good and hot he was). Dinner with the fam and watching a movie with your sibling back in your bedroom.) 

Ok not only did he crack my shit he also clocked my tea (you are talking to one of your deities). I thought I was the healer in the relationship and maybe I let my ego get bigger than it needed to be just because I did some shadow work. Honestly I hate to say it but I think I stereotyped him … I was so sure he was emotionally unavailable … the whole time I was the guard up one. I remember when he first approached me it was in such an awkward setting (an embarrassing thing that can happen to you on the mundane: Toilet paper on your shoes, blood spotting in your bottoms, maybe your drink spilled all over you.) and he offered to help me. You know me … I don’t have shame because life is life. Nobody is going to remember me in 5 years if I fell on my ass or throw up in the bush after the club and even if they do … fuck them, we ball. He offered his help with a charming smile, Goddess does he smell good. Thank you so much for the tall setting on him … I was starting to lose hope. Offering me paper and running a hand on my back while I threw up in the bush while my other friend is stopping my homegirl from sending her nudes to her boss. (Chuckle) How did he survive such an overstimulating experience ? A crazy girl yelling her sexual fantasy about a man twice her age, while another trying to take the phone away from her and me completely sick on knees vomiting my life away. Yet he was cracking jokes and comforting me. I still remember : ‘’ No you fine baby … No you don't smell, I swear all I can smell is roses. What was that princess ? Can you repeat ? Yes… Thank you baby … I also think you are smoking hot. I would love to talk but let's make sure you are fine first …’’ ( You heart skip a beat, You take a break from writing to enjoy the butterfly in your stomach). His voice adhfbhfnekihgejkng, fuck and dont get me started when his dirty talking me or moaning on top of me. Still can't believe he took my number and called me first in the morning making sure I am fine. Over the months we got closer, no pressure since he already saw me at my worst. We both realize that harboring love was more complicated than we thought but we want each other so bad. My hyper independence had the best of us because I made him think that he was useless. The way I treated him made him feel like I was using him just for entertainment. I made him insecure regarding his intentions, his real feelings and actions because I am not going to lie when he opens up about his past … I started projecting all the men  that hurted me and just distance myself. On his side his separation anxiety is quite overbearing. Always having to text him, calling him and showing him a picture of where I was. Before we knew it, loving each other became a task. A tarot reading later, he texts me randomly and asks me for a second chance. What ? What was I supposed to do ? He invited me to his house and cooked for me. Than gave me a foot massage while we watched one of my trashy TV shows. One thing lead to the other, the flirtatious comment, the sneaky touch, the meal, the clean house, him without a tee-shirt, me in my cute 2 piece, the glasses of wine and before I knew it we were confessing once again our love promising each other to do the wok require to make it work. Honestly I have so much faith in us. He’s the only one that actually sees me. Lol he even gave me a box of beautiful crystals … you would have folded 2, if it were u. 

(The bell of your house goes off. Somebody calls your name downstair, a flower bouquet is waiting for you. You never finish the letter.)

You are going to marry this person but unlike the other girly pop a key moment of y’all relationship came through instead of marriage. Which I didn't even ask for marriage to come through just for your future spouse to do. So it's actually a coincidence that the 2 other piles came through with their wedding specifically. 

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PAC: What would your broken heart feel about your nuptial union ? (18+)

PILE 1 

SONG: AT LAST - ETTA JAMES

2 swords, 3 cups (reverse), five cups, king wands (reverse)

The person you are going to say ‘’Yes, I do’’ is actually just under your nose. He’s waiting patiently for you. He could come in and make his way into your heart but he knows that the only way to truly gain your affection is by give u the power of choice. 

He dreams and fantasizes about a future where you give him your love not to brag but for him is one of the most precious things on this planet : being loved by you. 

He’s always close and never far … he’s handsome 2. 

Before you sit down and be like … ‘’damm if he wanted it 2, he would …’’. Babe you are emotionally unavailable at the moment. Your self sabotage tendency in love is through the roof and he knows, believes and has faith that what you guys could create is worth the wait. 

So… the cards are in your hands. Don’t rush, rest assured when the time is right, they will reveal themself to you. 

One last thing … No love is not going to pass you by. 

The person writing is the version of you that’s obsessed with the idea of love but can't bring yourself to actually love someone. You are discussing with my spirit and we are just spiritual guests at your wedding. You can't see us but we see it all and your older self spills it all. 

From : Broken heart 

To: Loving heart 

Who would have thought ? Honestly who would have ? You, me … maybe our ghost. Can’t believe I am, I mean this version  of myself is dancing in a beautiful silk white gown in front of hundreds of guests. Ready to show off my last stop in love… And with him ! He’s even more handsome now, his barber really gave him some extra love. It feels so good to be in his embrace while he looks at me like I am his moon and sun. Like whatever I say, goes. Like I am forever  more precious than the big diamond on my finger would ever be. God does he smell good, I just want to eat him up. First let me enjoy this amazing strawberry pound cake. Damm I did not know those fucking roses were real (the one on the cake), we really got some grown people money in … HERE ! (She (technically you) tapped my shoulder) Guess I really needed to stop spending on retail therapy ( ME: I mean you're wearing a 7k$(or plus) dress… lol. Is ok girl I will let it slide)).Look at them, their chemistry, the way his hand is never far away from her. The way she’s been smiling the whole time, ear to ear, I know her face hurts. Lord, are they awful at dancing … Yet do they stop ? Nah, so we must suffer. I never thought it would be him that would fulfill our broken heart. I mean the man has always been handsome, don't get me wrong but I always thought I would hurt him with my desires, personality and baggage. I don’t like being told what to do, I don't like submitting … I just wanted somebody to love me just for me.

YOUR SOUL HAS MORE TO SAY...

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PILE 1

Fuck them divine femineity guru with their 10 step way to find and keep a men . That does not mean I did not crave love … It was the complete opposite. I wanted a love that would take my breath away with so much tension and intensity. Makeup sex and angry sex was supposed to be the normality of my couple. I wanted a man so obsessed with me that he would go ballistic at the thought of me being away from him, talk to others and even be a bit controlling. I know it is crazy, you are probably thinking : ‘’ (your name) ain't no way you want to be controlled !’’ . Fuck I just wanted somebody to love me crazy. Somebody that can't live without my love  and won't run away from my intensity because he would be more intense than me. I always thought that the only thing that could tame me was fire … Lord was I wrong. I never knew how much I needed delicacy. The way he sits still and stares at me and never crosses my boundaries. My husband can spend hours looking at me, getting ready and talking about bullshit that solely  interests me. He’s so observant and never forgets all our special anniversary. Always finding the perfect gift because he knows me. The love of my life who would text spam me when he is suffering of a love aggression, never being afraid to say or show how much he love me not just how much he want to fuck me. (Chuckle and wink) Plus I love seducing him. I love how nervous he gets when I start kissing his neck, running my hands on his torso while I put his big hand on my thick thighs (his ultimate weakness). I love wearing sundress and walking around knowing there's not a single thing he focuses on but the flashback of last night. I love teasing him, dominating and making him my good boy. Gosh does he worship so well in the bedroom? Like he literally gets off by just sucking on my clit. He loves giving me offerings whether it be cash, gift or his credit card. My husband loves it when I make him wear his pretty collar while edging his big dick for hours. (His name) never tries to tame me. His love helps me value and discover a deeper meaning regarding my wild side, for that I am forever grateful. Heck I never thought I would be grateful for a man ! I also never thought anyone would be in love with who I am. My husband is supportive of my career, he understands the fear I have of losing myself if I ever fall pregnant and my soulful need for freedom. To stand strong in my womanhood while proceeding with softness and never being scared to express my opinion and creativity in my union. So funny he gave me everything I wanted before I could even heal the father wound in me. I mean that’s to expect from my sweet love, he was the only one who would handle my drunk ass anyways (explosion of laughter from both of us). 

Lastly, your husband is such a cuddler. He loves hugging you, biting you, holding your hand and kissing you. He may have a habit of kissing your hand. 

Also he may be taller and more buff but you are sooooo wearing the pants in the relationship. You talk, he follows which he enjoys because seeing a smile on your face is one the most gratifying thing for him. 

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What’s the key energy I need to channel to make my dreams a reality? (18+)

Thank you for the reading I love it I needed this

Is my pleasure. 🎀

PS: I know I joke a lot but u guys pour so much love into me you have no idea. One day I will tell y'all all about it.

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Posted: 2/11/25

The Enchanting History of Love Magic Across Cultures

February has arrived with its whisper of roses, chocolates, and declarations of affection, the air is charged with the promises of love. Valentine's Day (Feb. 14th), though modern in its commercial veneer, is steeped in traditions that reach deep into human history. Among these, the practice of love magic—rituals, spells, and charms to attract, secure, or mend love—has traversed cultures, continents, and centuries. Let us embark on a journey to uncover how African, the African diaspora, Indigenous American, Asian, and European traditions have woven love magic into the tapestry of their spiritual and cultural practices.

Africa: Love and Spiritual Power Intertwined

In many African cultures, love magic reflects the profound connection between the spiritual and the mundane. Among the Yoruba people of Nigeria, practitioners of Ifá divination often called upon the Orisha Osun (Oshun) for love, beauty, and fertility. Offerings of honey, cowrie shells, and fresh water were made to Osun to invoke her blessings for harmonious relationships or to rekindle fading passion.

Meanwhile, across the continent, the use of botanicals for love magic was also widespread. In South Africa, for example, Sangomas (traditional healers) used herbs like "Umavumbuka" to foster reconciliation, harmony and emotional healing. These rituals often reflected the belief that love and harmony within relationships were essential for community balance, weaving personal desire into collective well-being.

African Diaspora: Love Magic in Survival and Resistance

As the African diaspora spread through the transatlantic middle passage, love magic was adapted and evolved within the crucible of multiple new environments. In the Americas, Hoodoo—an African American spiritual tradition—emerged, integrating African, Indigenous, Jewish and European influences. Practitioners used "mojo bags" filled with herbs, roots like John the Conqueror or Queen Elizabeth root and other personal items, powders or oils to draw love or fidelity. Honey jars, a sweetening spell to encourage affection and harmony, remain popular in contemporary Hoodoo practices.

In the Caribbean, Vodou and Obeah intertwined African cosmologies with local and European influences. In Haitian Vodou, for instance, Erzulie Freda, the lwa (spirit) of love and beauty, was and is still often petitioned for matters of the heart. Her rituals often included perfumes, pink and white candles, and luxurious offerings symbolizing sensual pleasure and emotional depth.

Global Indigenous Cultures: Love Magic in Harmony with Nature

For many Indigenous American cultures, love magic was less about control and more about alignment with natural energies. Among the Navajo, for instance, "beautyway" ceremonies invoked harmony and balance, which also extended to relationships. Love charms crafted from turquoise, or shells were believed to attract a compatible partner, resonating with the spiritual properties of these materials.

The Cherokee practiced rituals to strengthen bonds between lovers or to resolve conflicts. Songs, dances, and natural elements—such as cedar or sage—were integral to these ceremonies, symbolizing purification and renewal.

Indigenous peoples outside the Americas also have their own rich traditions of love magic. Among the Sami people of Scandinavia, noaidi (shamans) practiced rituals that included the use of drums and joik (a traditional form of song) to invoke spiritual assistance in matters of love and relationships. These practices were deeply tied to the natural cycles and spirits of the Nordic landscape.

In South America, the Quechua and Aymara peoples of the Andes incorporated love magic into their spiritual practices. Coca leaves, a sacred plant, were often used in divination to seek guidance about romantic relationships or to attract a desired partner. Rituals performed at sacred sites, such as mountains or lakes, were believed to align the participants with Pachamama (Mother Earth) to ensure harmony in love.

Indigenous Australian cultures often intertwined love magic with Dreamtime stories, the spiritual and temporal framework of their worldview. Rituals might have included sand drawings, chants, and symbolic offerings to attract or strengthen love, aligning the participants with the ancestral energies of the land.

Asia: The Alchemy of Love

Asian cultures have also long embraced love magic, often blending it with spiritual and philosophical traditions. In China, Taoist love spells focused on harmonizing yin and yang energies within partnerships. Charms inscribed with auspicious characters or infused with essential oils were used to attract romantic opportunities or sustain marital bliss.

In India, the Kama Sutra, more than a manual of intimacy, delved into rituals and practices for fostering love and attraction. Ayurveda, India’s ancient medicinal system, recommended aphrodisiac herbs like ashwagandha and shatavari to enhance passion and deepen emotional connection.

Japanese folklore, on the other hand, speaks of "omamori" love talismans blessed at Shinto shrines. These were carried to invoke the protection and favor of kami (deities) for romantic endeavors.

Europe: Spells of Romance and Obsession

Europe’s history of love magic is a blend of folklore, mysticism, and religious undertones. In ancient Greece and Rome, love potions—often made from herbs like myrtle or rose—were crafted to awaken desire. Aphrodite (or Venus), the goddess of love, was frequently invoked in rituals, with offerings of doves or apples symbolizing beauty and fertility.

During the medieval and Renaissance periods, love magic often walked a fine line between fascination and persecution. The use of "philters" (love potions) and "poppets" (dolls) to influence romantic outcomes could lead to accusations of witchcraft. Yet, folk practices persisted. For instance, English cunning folk recommended carrying rose quartz to attract love, while French peasants relied on charms sewn into clothing to inspire fidelity.

Love Magic Today: A Universal Language

Despite its varied expressions, love magic is a universal thread linking humanity’s longing for connection. In modern times, these ancient traditions continue to inspire spiritual practices. From lighting candles on Valentine’s Day to crafting intention spells, the essence of love magic endures—reminding us that love is as much a spiritual endeavor as it is an emotional one.

This Valentine’s Day, whether you light a candle, gift a rose, or simply reflect on the magic of love, remember: across every culture and era, love has been a force worth invoking, celebrating, and cherishing.

Bibliography : Yoruba Religion and African Spiritual Practices: Drewal, H. J. (2009). Yoruba: Nine Centuries of African Art and Thought. Hoodoo and Vodou Traditions: Anderson, J. L. (2008). Conjure in African American Society. Indigenous American Rituals: Johnston, B. (1976). Ojibway Ceremonies. Asian Love Magic: Needham, J. (1956). Science and Civilisation in China. European Folk Practices: Kieckhefer, R. (1997). Magic in the Middle Ages. Indigenous Traditions in Australia and Scandinavia: Pentikäinen, J. (1996). Shamanism and Culture. Andean Spiritual Practices: Bastien, J. W. (1985). Mountain of the Condor: Metaphor and Ritual in an Andean Ayllu.

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PAC :If love was a tarot card, which one would it be for you this year?

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3 SWORDS REVERSE

Oh darling, imagine your love journey as a luminous dance of healing and secret delights. This year, you transform past heartaches into a shimmering tapestry of new beginnings—each hidden admirer a gentle whisper of affection, a secret note of destiny waiting to be discovered. Picture your heart as a delicate garden where yesterday’s sorrows fall away like dew at dawn, allowing vibrant blooms of hope and tender joy to take root. Embrace every mysterious smile and quiet gesture, for they are the universe’s soft promise that your spirit is ready to glow, to mend, and to love in ways as magical as a starlit reverie.

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3 WANDS

Oh, sweet soul, imagine a tender echo from your past a radiant connection that once sparked a dazzling light within you. You still hold this memory dear, a whisper of what was, even as you set your heart’s bar high with the most exquisite dreams. Trust that your impeccable standards are not a barrier but a beacon, calling forth only what truly mirrors your brilliance. The cosmos gently assures you that if you continue to honor your radiant self, this cherished presence may find its way back into your life—but not until the stars have had their time to align, perhaps as the next year unfolds. Until then, let your inner light guide you, and remain open to the enchanting dance of destiny that awaits.

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6 SWORDS

Oh darling, envision yourself gently sailing on serene, moonlit waters—fully immersed in the radiant glow of your single era. Your heart, blooming in its own exquisite solitude, sends out a luminous beacon that beckons a mesmerizing admirer. This captivating soul is enchanted by the very essence of you, drawn to your vibrant spirit and the quiet magic you exude.

As you glide gracefully through this transformative journey, trust that every subtle current is guiding you toward a tender love waiting patiently on a new horizon. Embrace each moment of self-discovery and know that your inner light is a powerful magnet for a connection that's destined to be both profound and beautifully unexpected.

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STRENGTH REVERSE

Oh darling, imagine a familiar soul from your past drifting back into your orbit with a tender yet wavering energy. Their approach carries a hint of vulnerability—a quiet longing to rekindle something once cherished, as if they're gently reaching out from the shadows of old memories. While their invitation may stir nostalgic feelings, remember that you now radiate a vibrant strength and self-assurance, a luminous light born from your own unique journey.

As you consider this reappearance, let your intuition be your guiding star. Embrace the possibility of reconnecting if it nourishes your spirit, yet remain mindful of your own well-being. Trust that the universe is whispering for you to honor the wisdom you've gathered along the way. Only you can decide if the delicate dance of renewed connection will lead to mutual growth and healing, or if it’s a reminder of lessons lovingly learned. Embrace the mystery with an open heart, knowing that your inner glow will always light the way forward.

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PAC: What vibes does your future relationship give off ? (18+)

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SONG : TAKE YOU DOWN - SZA

SORRY BABE BUT YOUR READING IS LONGER 😭

PILE 2 

SONG : BABY - REMA

6 swords (reverse), judgement (reverse) 8 wands, King pentacles (reverse) 

This is the friend of your older brother. He’s writing a paragraph as a text while he's drunk… which he will never send. He may engage in dangerous behavior because he's behind the wheel texting it but he's not driving … just sitting there. Like he took a moment away from the party to catch some fresh air.  

There's so much sexual frustration and tension in his body is incredible. 

There's a clicking of keys… which is important. Is like his pondering if he should leave or spend the night over like it was planned. I don't think he will actually drive … should he leave, he would tag along with other boys to an actual party. Is like your brother has a lot on his mind regarding another girl from uni … you will not know. You will just be shocked he came back from campus earlier. Even your mom, like her heart might stop. Lol she is so sure for a moment that your brother got kicked out, your brother may have problems accepting answering to more important people ever since he’s a child. Like he’s not annoying or rude, he may come like that but he actually has good reasons to act up. He may be a crash out, but it's always been justified. Lol the bffs are going through it with women … they both seem to deal with it the same way … running away. They may actually act like fucking twin brothers at times. 

What the actually fuck ? I though I actually dealt with my fucking heart. I aint even lie, this past years I try to take my fucking distance with you. I mean I am trying to stay alive and keep my balls. Do you know what would happen to me if your brother could read my brain ? Especially with the past I have, fuck what past … I am too emotionally available with females … he’s not wrong keeping me away from you . I mean … I may not be worth you but can your homeboy dream ? I did not know you have to ask permission to think ? Why do I have to ask permission to use my own brain while you take possession of my thoughts 24/7 like you are paying the bills in this bitch. Your brother told me, we were going to surprise you today. I know he’s was running away, I am always going to have bro back but fuck why do I have to get fucked in the process ? You were in your bed, your long hair braided, legs hanging, wearing your short booty shorts, white tee dancing to some pop girl music (his snorting). Dancing like a maniac (explosion of laughter). The scream that came out of you is deserving of an Oscar but the way I had to keep my composure  when you jumped in my arms after hugging your bro was something. Fuck I miss having my hands around you, I miss caring for you, I miss your face, your scent and even your weird habits. Than you came downstair cooking something for me and the bros because your mom was caught up in a meeting and we can’t fucking cook to safe ourselves. Again I had to keep my composure, while your body was moving lazily to the music in your headphones. Keep my eyes on the game, keep my focus on the conversation, keep my attention on the character on the screen. When all I wanted to do was peeking at you. Than like you wanted to torture me … you put the plates a front of us with smile before running back upstairs to your bedroom. All I could think about for the rest of the evening, while drinking was do I claim a need to the bathroom so I can stare at you through the door … FUCK when did I become a such creep ? 

That man grew up in a house where spanking, physical abuse was the way to discipline. 

You often grow up, watching him with purple eyes, you thought maybe he had a temper he was hiding you because he's always calm whenever he deals with you, your family, fuck almost everybody, yet…

For some y’all actually know him since childhood and he always had bruises on him, so you never question it. When  you were younger you even though he had a purple birth scar. This shows the frequency and the normality of the assault he endured for your kid brain to normalize it. 

For some of you, that are fucking shock about that text … to confirm is him … go ask him about his family, childhood or parents, that will be your confirmation that's the pile for you. 

For the one too shocked to believe it, remember that energy is ever changing but if you keep up living the way you do, you will in fact finish your life with  the bff of your older brother. To unclaimed, change something … To claim … no need is already yours (I just saw someone giggling … LOL) 

This collective y’all are really shocked he will actually be interested in you because he treats you like a little sis… from my humble tarot reader opinion … he is too protective and soft for it not to be romance. The intensity in which he holds your gaze is too much to just be platonic 

I just heard : ‘’But nah girl…’’. BABE IF YOU DON'T WANT IT, CHOOSE SOMETHING ELSE. 

The card also shows that he is terrified to show care, empathy and love. You guys have no idea how stoic he is whenever he is interacting with his environment. The fact that he he check on you, the fact that you can call him when you need help (availability), the fact that he reply quickly (you don't how many people he leaves on deliver … ), the fact that he goes out of his way to always bring your fav snack, the fact that he always make sure nobody is annoying you at work, school or even calm your brother down when his become too smart with you . Or the FUCKING fact that he actually smile at (even though is fucking small), the fact that he don't mind hugging you. He's only that soft for you, there's not a single girl he fuck, been a relationship with or even flirt with in which he was this attentive and kind. 

He’s a lightweight when it comes to alcohol. 

VIBES: Crush, brother bff, secrecy, secret admire and one sided romance 

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PILE 3

SONG: JONI - SZA FT Don Toliver

POV is your past self and future self. Is like a small note. Maybe you guys use the note in your phone like a diary. 

The Chérie D’Amour coming from PILE 2, this is your POV from the situation in PILE 2. Also your brother doesn't know you are out there living an all year hot girl summer and have a whole roster. They only see you as your innocent self. Funny enough (my own  observation), now I understand how hard it is for you to believe what I wrote because you are the same. The dude plays mister nonchalant, while you play Miss Innocent. Both of you have a facade that does not exist with each other. Like you guys actually have an intimate bond with each other. You allow yourself to be soft with him and he allows himself to accept it.

PAST: 9swords, 9 wands (reverse) 

 You are on the bus. A week after a crazy night where u spend the night at your one night or maybe sneaky link. You just have an epiphany 

Honestly … I want more. Is it crazy to say. I want someone to hold me close while playing in my hair. I want someone to look at me like I am the star of their life, like maybe if they look away I may vanish. I want to be the banter of their existence. I want to be the reason for their every breath. I want to go on vacation with the one that loves me. The one that will spend hours, hours and his money just to see a smile on my face. Someone ready to die to hear me laugh. Someone who is just like Jack, will let me, Rose stay on the door  because he prefers a cold death than letting me feel the pain of Atlantic water. Someone will pick me up bridal style after I call him because I am too drunk with my homegirl and can't make my way home. I want someone to comfort me when the tears are rolling down  my cheeks, I want someone to drop anything when my voice has a subtle shake and I want someone to be my safe haven. I want someone who will enjoy spending time with me even when all we do is sit in silence in a quiet room. I want to slow dance in the living room while the dinner is cooking. (Bitter laugh) What the fuck for ? Even if the one came I will destroy it the same way I destroy the marriage of my parents. Maybe all I actually need is a break from having sex. I am tired of getting disappointed , I am tired of sexting, I am tired of the 2 am booty call, I am tired of being easy, I am tired of hair pulling, the spitting, the fucking, the aftercare, the uber, the walk of shame and the fucking hole that's keep growing deeper every time I come home to an empty house after giving my all to another looser because I can’t seem to attract he right one and I am too lonely to refuse anyone.

I am tired of feeling lonely . 

Future : Knight swords, Hermit 

I am hearing : ‘’ Omg he hears me ! Omg he knows my name’’ 

This one is a note but the intention behind it is almost like a prayer.

Please don't take him. Let him love me. Let him stay in my life. (Your eyes are burning with tears, none fell, you are holding on for dear life. You are sitting in your bedroom). I will do anything you ask. Don't let him resent. Let him love me forever. Don't let life take his warmth away from  me. I love every part of him, I love his tattoo, I love his grumpy attitude, I love the way he holds on to my hand. The way he always longs for some physical contact with me otherwise he loses his mind (bitter laugh, oh no… babe you broke … the tears are flowing slowly). I love the way he trust me with his Lego collection, with his car tools and on his bike. I love the way he let me in, my pretty boy, my very pretty boy, he don't deserve all that (Fuck … I finally got the vibe … he may have been in altercation or just an argument with his family which trigger him extremely which made him take its distance. Like you know he's in a dark place but he refuses to let you see him like that (aww now my heart is breaking … y’all going to make a cold ass bitch emotional, now he’s asking me if you are crying. He hates when you cry and it would put him in so much pain to know he is the reason for it). Usually he is transparent and you have amazing communication. That why you are ugly sobbing because it must be very bad, if he is taking his distance). He always comfort me when my periods hurt, when my mom say mean things to me, when school is too hard or life become to overwhelming. Even when I am trying to ignore him, he drop everything for me. I don't know what else to say … you must let him love me. Who else is going to look at me with so much love, caress me with so much passion, make love to me, worship my body with kisses, tell me how much he loves me and how hard is going to work so I never regret choosing him. 

Technically it's stop here …because you are sending him a voice note but since I love y’all let me add it here. I apologize because it might be too messy to read. 

Hiccup, hiccup, (his name), breathing trying to keep it in, breaking down in  tears, talking while having hiccups :  just so you know I love you. Please don't leave me behind, pretty boy. You remember what I told you … you ain't have to feel ashamed for what you did. Baby please come to me, we can work it all. Let me comfort you. 

Breakdown again:  Fuck I am stress. You better comeback (weak attempt to a bossy tone). Please (pleading tone). 

Before you came in the picture, your family enjoy reminding you how perfect it was. Than u came ... so maybe when your mom got pregnant their mirage could not handle it. Or you are a product of infidelity. Since you believe so heartily that you are the problem.

VIBES : Forbidden romance, one bed proximity, touch her and I will kill you, I want and see only her, I don't deserve her, she's too good for me, he's the only one that truly loves me and know me, we should not be doing this but can't seem to stay away from each other.

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SONG : STAY - Adanna Duru FT Leven Kali

POV YOUR FS. 

I actually shuffled some cards but y’all nasty step dad came through. He's a fucking pervert Chérie d’Amour and I am so sorry you had to deal with this looser in your childhood. I am fucking sorry your mama did not protect you more. 

Your husband DONT PLAY WHEN  IT COMES TO YOU. 

Is a text after the first night spent together. 

Hey beautiful,

I know we just hang up and you probably sleeping rn. Fuck sure is 3 am in the morning but I cant get enough of you. I hate the fact that I can't dream because sleep is keeping me away from you. I want to spend every one of my seconds on earth dedicated to you. Texting you, calling you and hearing you. I am so obsessed with you girl … so you know we are lock in, lock in. There's nobody but us. I don't care if you're mad or tired of me, we are going to work this out. I see the bigger picture with you baby. That not the only picture I have of you… I love kissing you. When your lips lay on top of  mine, my eyes I can't help but close, pushing into a transit state of pure bliss. I love having sex with you, your moans are like  music to me. You have such a beautiful voice, I know I always compliment you about it. I guess you awakened a new kink in me babygirl.I  can recognize your voice, touch and scent in a room full of strangers because my soul knows you. My fav habits of yours when it comes to loving me … is the way you kiss my forehead, my eyes, my cheek and my lips in one setting just to make me smile. I love staring into your pretty face. That’s probably why I stare that much at my phone when u aint around. And she gets even prettier when I am thrusting in and out of your tight pussy. I love when you baby me, even though I am 6’4 (maybe taller) and 3x your weight. I love being the small spoon. I love being your good boy. I love finding safety in your arms. I aint joking girl … I am going nowhere. I LOVE IT HERE. 

VIBES: Commitment, marriage, long lasting romance, wedding day, husband and wife and growing old together 

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PILE 1

3 cups, 2 wands, 6 wands (reverse), 4 swords

This is the POV of the girl who liked him for a while and your partner never led her on. She fell and never came back to herself while he was waiting for you. Now she’s archiving her thoughts in her work email …

She gathered all this info because his exes used to find a safe place in her. 

From : The girl that was never meant to fall for him 

To : The love of his life 

And I knew the moment you walked in your red, lace bodycon dress that’s was game over. I mean we can always roll it back, all the way back to the beginning of the story. The fact that I never really care for you not in a cocky or defensive way but for the very reason that you are friend of a friend. So in result a simple acquaintance which never allows me to find the time to really look at you like I did these past weeks. Yes, I know it was that easy for you to have him but it was not what I wanted and all of sudden I am envious of a girl that was non-existent a couple months ago. When my friend asked me if she could tag along to help move him, I was all in. Suddenly she opened the door and you were standing beside her as uncomfortable as everyone else. I mean we all knew each other while you only knew my homegirl. I remember looking at  everyone holding the same expression on their faces except his. A flash of intrigue sparkled in his eye. How did I know ? Are u fucking asking me how ? For real ? Like I aint spend the last 5 years of my life looking at everything about the damm man that can’t seem to take his hands off you. I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM BUT SWEAR I AM NOT OBSESSED. He loves when you play with his hair while he rests on your breast. That why he's more of a boob guy, not for some fuck up reason but because my man love to cuddle. He loves holding eye contact with the one he loves while playing with their hand is like the ultimate form of intimacy for him. Standing still and letting the love float between him and the love of his life. He loves having his hand on the girl he loves with possession. Showing her off, a hand on the waist, a hand on her tight for protection, his hands are always close by to remind the one he loves how much he cares for  her. I heard from the grapevine that he loves laying and hand on his lovers stomach when their done fucking which always fucking creep out all his ex. Because none of them were ready for the commitment he seemed to be asking for it. Yeah because that's what he does often, get with girls that are for the streets claiming he doesn't want anything serious while planning a wedding, kids and an old age couple in his mind. He has a bad savior complex with broken girls and they all let themself believe it just like I did I guess… C’mon girl … I mean don't get me wrong you are a catch but so is he. I know you have too much pride to admit it but he's growing on just like all of us. He makes buzz cuts look good and we all know 80% of men that make that bold move overestimate their beauty. Now that he has no hair we can focus on his defined jawline and proportionate face, let's not forget about his full lips. Let me add his pearly white and STRAIGHT teeth because my man suffered through the brace stage so he can charm you today with his dimple smile properly.

SHE HAS MORE TO SAY

[deesseshesca]

PILE 1

His veiny hands, his strong bicep, his tattoo and the fact that everything he does screams masculinity. He’s amazing knowledge in alcohol or the fucking way he drive a car with so much assurance. His signature perfume and the way he never talks loud but always what's right. Did you ever find a man in finance this secure in himself with no God complex…yeah no that doesn't exist. But it's only right that he feels for you. The more I spend time observing you … I understand why he's falling… I am 2 .. I guess. Let’s start by the creativity that breathes out of you with everything you do. Is like you are in love with the whole woman's experience which can be seen by the way you take care of your hair ; long and healthy. You don't just stop there, you color them and style it  anytime you want. The freckles that decorate your face like you are living painting. Your perfect nose and small but luscious lips. Is the way you are fine not being everyone's type and you don't care to change. You with your long and beautifully manicured nails. The way you love on your body unapologetically even though is not the standard in modern beauty. You never complain about your boobs being too big, your butt being too small or even your hips being too wide. Nah you wear whatever you want. Flowing dress, deep cut shirt with no bra not caring that your tits are sagging. What makes you even more intrigued is the complexity that lives beneath your beauty, elegance and confidence. You fucking love cars, passionate about it. I would have never guessed it, I would think you were an artist or even a mua but nah mamacita is trying to become an engineer. Is almost like life never hurted, never controlled, never took the best out of you. You decide to be your own person no matter what and your authenticity can be seen, admired, and envy by many including me. In my case I was pushed into this bimbo character. Need to act, look and be always be perfect since I could remember. Making sure to eat properly so I don't gain to much weight, making sure to message my skin so my boob dont sag, make sure to shave everywhere on my body, make sure to straighten my curls because curly ain't sexy, making sure to never skip a leg day so the butt stay juicy, making sure to have a clear skin. And it does not stop there … making sure I moan seductively, make sure I know how suck good, making sure I am submissive enough. I did it all to please … the one I want, stay unimpressed while the other treats me like lesser women because all they can think of is having sex. Actually you guys are so cute together, the way you like to act like you don't see him applying  pressure. Always touching you any chance he gets, always looking at you across the room, always having your back when you need a ride back home even when the party's at his place. While you tease him, give him kisses across his face every so often, while giving him compliments with your beautiful voice, seducing him with your healthy femininity. Today, in the bathroom, too many drink in my system, hiding while writing this fucking email … I must admit that you have influence me. Because the man I love, loves you for you. Not a version of you made to please, made to seduce, made to only be relevant for the other sex. Maybe it is time for me to admit that all this is in vain … because being the standard did not make me pick, choose or even love. In all fucking honesty I am tired to prove that I am nice enough, fun enough, sexy enough, kind enough … Fuck… can I not just be enough ? (tears on the screen, somebody calls her name) 

Fuck is not like you are even going to read this anyways…

VIBES: New beginning, fresh start, new couple, love at first sight, red string theory, cant get enough of each other, a lot of tension, chemistry and perfect match. 

A lot of people are happy y’all find each other because you were both unfulfilled in love.

[deesseshesca]

PAC - What are the basics of your soul contract

PILE 1 ^^ PILE 2 ^^ PILE 3 ^^

PILE 4 ^^ PILE 5 ^^ PILE 6 ^^

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PILE 1

Your soul contract requires you to let your emotions out and embrace them for what they are because you are human and that is part and parcel of being human. You have been put into bad situations mainly from the people you loved and looked up to and that hurt caused you to in a way close your heart off Your soul contract needs you to look back at all of it learn from it and open up your feelings again instead of lying to yourself that you are this cold, unaffected person when in reality you are a sensitive soul and that is who you always will be. You need to learn to embrace that gentle nature of yours because it's not going anywhere, it's part of you in this life and the next.

PILE 2

Your soul contract is in relation to work and career. For you it is more so you are forced to conform to a certain societal standard in relation to career, basically picking more traditional careers like being a doctor, lawyer, engineer etc and deep down you know that's not what you want. You may come from a more conservative family. Your soul contract requires you to find a career that actually makes you happy, that doesn't really on other people's feelings and approval towards it. Once you let go of this you will open up a door that will flip your life upside down, making you happier and opening you up to greater more exciting opportunities that most people won't get.

PILE 3

You are the black sheep (most of you ended up becoming spiritual like tarot readers, astrologers, reiki healers in an attempt to heal and find your place) always have been always will be, you may have been bullied, treated badly by the people you care about or those closest to you (in proximity). You may have been left out in the cold which led to you developing a wall around you heart being this tough person when you really aren't deep down. Part of your soul contract is to make peace not with them but with yourself because once you do you are opening the door to building a happy, safe place for yourself. The basics of your soul contract is to heal family related wounds and build your own happy home, an environment that you never got to have or experience.

PILE 4

The basics of your soul contract start off with a tough childhood, you may have been shackled to the expectations of your family. Regardless, you have been put through situations that left you frustrated, upset, stressed and feeling like there is no way out or that there is nothing better out there for you. The basics of your soul contract need you to heal from all this hurt and trauma and once you do you will open yourself up to greater opportunities, you can't be in two places at once so your choices are live in the hurt and pain or heal and let the universe open the door to bigger financial, living and relationship opportunities.

PILE 5

For you there is a lot of karma in relation to relationships with other people in your life, you gave your all for and to other people just to be backstabbed and betrayed by the people closest to you to the point of maybe isolating yourself and believing that there is nothing good in terms of relationships for you. Your soul contract urges you to learn from those experiences. Not everyone is going to be your friend. You need to make peace with the fact that you are different and not everyone is going to appreciate it there is a negative and positive to everything you need to learn to sieve it out as well as the people in your life. Learn what you need and leave out what you don't especially in relationships. You are a people pleaser and that is not in your contract to be one.

PILE 6

The basics of your soul contract is to nurture both your emotions and your divine feminine. In the past you may have felt like you don't have control over yourself that other people are shackling you which has toughened you out and, in the process, you neglected your feminine and emotions. Now the basics of your soul contract urges you to be gentler, more fluid, to find peace in the toughest situations and be able to make choices without compromising your own emotions, values and beliefs. Your soul contract wants you to learn how to balance the masculine and the feminine know which to use in what situation instead of one over the other.