#DO YOU NOT CARE ABOUT ME? MY SANITY?
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Eat You Up | LC (M)
⚫️ Pairing: Lee Chan x Succubus!Afab!Reader ⚫️ Summary: It’s summer break which means more of a crowd and new people flocking to your favorite bar with the most stunning view of the city. But tonight, you’ve found something much more stunning than the skyline. ⚫️ Genres & AUs: Smut, succubus au, supernatural au, pwp ⚫️ Rating: 18+ (MINORS & AGELESS BLOGS DNI. YOU WILL BE BLOCKED) ⚫️ Warnings: Blowjob, unprotected sex, choking, a lil dirty talk, marking, reader has boobs, a vagina, and wears a dress, but no pronouns are used ⚫️ Words: 1.4k ⚫️ Note: FINALLY here’s my fic for Arousal August hosted by @wooyoungmybelovedhusband & @taehyungisminee ! For the kink I chose choking and the genre, incubus/sex god au. Thank you to my favorite last-minute beta @horanghater 💗
This was going to be a different fic for a different member, but then this happened lol. The bones of this fic is an old one I wrote years ago but decided to rewrite because I liked the idea but it needed an overhaul.
The hotel room with just the two of you is so much quieter than the crowded, bustling bar upstairs. The crowd had been hot and humid and the air sticky, having clung onto you like a second skin. It’s summer break which means more of a crowd and new people flocking to your favorite bar with the most stunning view of the city.
But tonight, you’ve found something much more stunning than the skyline.
You see him as soon as he enters the bar and you make sure he sees you too. His eyes find you immediately as if by some invisible force. He keeps his gaze locked on you in your sexy little black dress until he finally musters up the courage to speak to you. Wordlessly, you pull him to the dance floor as soon as he greets you and he makes no move to object.
The two of you sway along to song after song, his hands gripping your hips and his crotch pressed against your lower back. Your bodies are molded together all night, moving as one, making it clear to one another what you want.
When you finally look at him over your shoulder, your eyes, almost glowing, lock onto his brown ones. His gaze darts down to your red-painted lips as you speak, hearing what you want from him over the beat of the music and the voices of everyone around you.
When you propose finding a space for just the two of you, the man you've been dancing and flirting with all night is more than eager to oblige. He happily leads you by the hand, away from the rooftop bar, and to his room in the fancy hotel below. The elevator ride is quick but more than enough time for you to get the gorgeous man worked up. A few sloppy kisses and some “accidental” grazes against his half-hard dick in his pants and he’s putty for you.
When you stumble into his room, you don’t bother with teasing - you both know why you’re here. It’s incredibly easy to get him splayed out on the bed, naked and on his back for you. Men are always the same. Suck their dicks and show them your tits and they can barely contain themselves. Well, that and your special abilities of course.
This man is no different in that regard, panting and whining underneath you as you swallow him down and succeed in ruining your lipstick further. You can’t help but admire his impressive length as he glides against your tongue, hot and aching. The man above you cries out immediately, his head lolling back as you take him down to the base.
Bobbing your head with purpose, you swallow around his cock as it hits the back of your throat, the heady taste of his precum coating your throat with each move. His fingers are in your hair, tugging to try and set the pace himself which you allow, but only for a few more minutes. Thick, muscular thighs flex under your fingers and you can’t help but dig your nails into the firm flesh, just a little, and the throaty moan you get in response makes it worth it.
When his whimpers turn frantic and his breathing gets even more clipped and labored you pull away, a string of spit still connecting his cockhead and your lips.
Wide, brown eyes look up at you, pleading, and the man whispers out a “please.” The urge you have to kiss the pout off of his beautiful lips is strong, but you shrug it off, keeping your eyes on the task at hand.
After pulling your dress and underwear off and tossing the fabric aside, you crawl up the man’s toned body, eyeing every inch of smooth skin. You can so easily see yourself marking him, leaving red lipstick smudges and dark splotches in your wake. Maybe next time - if there is a next time.
Straddling his hips, your manicured fingers wrap around his thick cock holding him still as you sink down onto him, your pussy welcoming him in with ease. Both of you share a groan, the stretch making your toes curl.
Bracing your hands on the man’s chest, you begin bouncing on him, swiveling your hips each time gravity brings you back down. His hands go to your hips, fingers pressing into your skin as he tries to set the pace, but this time you don’t let him.
The bed creaks underneath you as you ride him, sweat beading at his hairline as he gazes up at you, eyes darting between your face and your tits as they bounce so close to his face.
“I'm Chan by the way,” he manages to say as he watches you, gritting his teeth when you purposely squeeze your gummy walls around him.
“Y/n.” He repeats it, as if trying it out in his mouth, then smiles at you. The smile quickly drops and his mouth hangs open when you grab one of his hands and place it on one of your breasts. He immediately squeezes the supple flesh and pinches your nipple between his fingers.
“You’re fucking incredible,” Chan breathes out, eyes flickering down to try and catch a glimpse between your legs. “Your pussy is so fucking tight and so wet.” He punctuates his last word with a snap of his hips, doing his best to fuck up into you.
“Yeah? You like fucking me?”
“Yes, yes, yes…you’re squeezing me so good. Shit!” He lets out a hiss through his teeth when you clench again and your nails dig into his pecs. Lifting your hips up, you let his clock slide almost all the way out before you plop down, taking him all the way in one go.
Chan doesn’t try to bite back his moans as you ride him. The room is filled with his needy noises and the sounds of your sopping cunt sucking him in with each rise and fall of your hips.
“Gonna cum for me, Chan? Gonna fill me up?” You coo, as his thighs flex underneath you.
“Yeah, fuck, yeah I’m so close…”
His eyes are closed, head thrown back against the pillow, so he doesn’t see your canines sharpening or your eyes shifting to a deep shade of onyx.
“Come on, cum for me, Chan. Wanna be dripping with your seed, baby.” Heat erupts in the pit of your stomach, so close to your own end.
Your words seem to do it for him as he reaches his peak, hips pressing almost painfully into yours as he paints your walls with your name on his tongue.
Grabbing one of Chan’s hands you trail it up your chest, placing his hand around the column of your throat. He doesn’t hesitate to tighten his grip, your air supply restricting as you cum. The force of your orgasm sends chills through your body, your eyes rolling back as Chan keeps his hold on your neck.
As you milk Chan for everything he’s worth and ride out your orgasm, your body ignites with a different feeling, heat overtaking you as you feel the energy in Chan’s body depleting. He grows weaker and his skin fades to a pale, pasty color before your eyes, a smile creeping on your lips.
Leaning down, you place a few messy kisses on Chan’s neck, biting and sucking on the salty skin as he babbles incoherently beneath you. Once you’ve drank up all he has to offer and you’re satisfied with the deep red marks you’ve left, you lift your hips, his soft cock falling out of you along with a trail of cum that trickles out painstakingly slow.
“Mmm, I wish you could see this,” you sigh, your neck craning to watch the sticky white mess drip onto the bed.
With a glance up at your partner, he’s still out of it. Brown eyes once fixated on you and only you are now far away, his mind elsewhere. You watch his eyelids flutter closed as he finally dozes off, drifting into sleep. He’ll be fine in a few hours - you like him far too much to take everything out of him. Besides, it’s not like your partners died after you fed from them.
At least not all of the time.
Humming, you get cleaned up, taking your time getting back into your underwear and dress. You fix your appearance in the bathroom mirror, cleaning up your smudged lipstick and applying a fresh coat of crimson.
Before you leave, something in you nags at you to at least pull the covers over Chan’s beyond-exhausted body which you do. He grumbles something unintelligible but doesn’t stir otherwise.
“I had a great time, Chan. Maybe I’ll see you again.” He doesn’t respond of course, but you hadn’t expected him to. With a smile, you turn on your heels, leaving the room and your first quarry of the night behind.
Net tag: @kflixnet
#lee chan smut#seventeen smut#cherry <3#see i knew this would end me and i was correct#Succubus and incubus fics really are near and dear to my heart kissing your forehead for this cherry#this also came up at the perfect time because the dino brainrot has been astronomical#oh to suck lee chan dry (both figuratively and literally in this case lmao)#BIG DICK DINO HOW DARE YOU#DO YOU NOT CARE ABOUT ME? MY SANITY?#the choking 🫠😵💫 i feel insane hahahahaha#whatever it's dino i am so chill and fine#yo i thought he died 😭💀 so I'm very glad he didn't lol#q: painting with hyunjin
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no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the pool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick throbbing, fist clenching, ear ringing, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling, teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy,moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious,gushy, creamy, beastly, lip biting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, can't walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail scratching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tango ever bro could cause a nuclear bomb inside me and I'd still ride.
#◢ 𝐊𝐀𝐘'𝐒 𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐒 ◣#i am on my last ounce of sanity#and im completely losing it#gonna go haywire in about 0.2 seconds#😀😀😀#but ive said it before#and ill say it again#THIS MAN CAN HAVE ANYTHING HE WANTS#HE CAN JUST ASK#AND ID DO IT IN A HEARTBEAT#NO QUESTIONS ASKED#YOU WANT THE HOUSE CLEWN?#ILL BE IN A MAID IUTFIT SCRUBBING THE FLOOR CLEAN#YOU WANT DINNER COOKED WHEN YOU GET HOM#DONE#ILL MAKE THE BEST PASTA YOUVE EVER HAD#YOU WANT TEN KIDS???#BABY JUST BEND ANF BREAKF ME HOWEVER YOU SEE FIT#I DO NOT CARE#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#✧༺𝓶𝔂 𝓫𝓸𝔂𝓼༻✧#'*•.¸♡ 𝓳𝓪𝓴𝓮𝔂 ♡¸.•*'
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Grojband, but as a band from an early 2000s shoujo manga
#I was literally just going about my day and then this idea hit me like a truck and I couldn't do anything else until I drew this#I'm apparently still on the nostalgia train and have no real intention of getting off anytime soon lol#next stop?#Who knows!#I pulled up so many reference images for this only to use like three of them T-T#you bet i made a bunch of sketches of them to make up for it!#you can probably tell which two mangas I referenced for this this#also this style is so hard???#artists just draw like this all the time???#just drawing laney nearly drained away all my sanity#also yes they are aged up because there is no way that they could look this dramatic and angsty at their actual ages XD#have i mentioned how much i love tumblr#I get to rant as much as i want down here and no one cares lol#grojband#corey riffin#laney penn#kin kujira#kon kujira#anime and manga#artists on tumblr#digital art#fanart#grojband fanart#shoujo manga#artist on tumblr#my art
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they're so GROSSSSSS (<- desperately wants what they have)
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#martzipan#komahina#hajime hinata#nagito komaeda#2 final colors bc my brain is allergic to desaturation. i needed to have One Bright One for my sanity#anyways i think they have this thing when they finally get together#where komaeda will just say. Anything basically. in an attempt to fluster hinata#and it does fluster him! but also sometimes he decides to do something about it#which flusters KOMAEDA even harder bc the dumbass forgets that like. affection can happen to him#which makes HINATA flustered again because 'you can say all that but one kiss is overwhelming?!?'#and they do this. all the time. especially early on before they're really used to each other#and they're gross about it. they do this in public. everyone else has to watch them do this like. thrice daily#they're awful. and also i envy them#tried some new things this time. more character interaction practice which is fun#i think this is likee... the third???? kiss i've ever drawn??? good for them#but i care more about the lineart. i tried to think about line weight at least a little bit :] it is Difficult lmao#this one made me realize i need to do a hips study lmao. also a neck study#in other words a girl needs to practice her joints more#there's still smth bugging me abt hinata's face in the 3rd one. but. i don't care it's done i'm not touching it
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it’s funny how things have gone full circle with malenia. she was so hated when the game first came out, but then people grew to like her. then the dlc came out and now people hate her again lmao
#i mean it’s hardly surprising given what we now know#she did all that awful shit and wasn’t even charmed#like i see people talk about how stupid miquella is because of this plan to essentially trap radahn#but that also makes malenia look stupid af too#‘go to caelid and kill radahn so i can marry him’ ans she was like sure#miquella wanted the one guy in the lands between who loves war and fighting to be his consort for his age of peace and compassion…#what a genius he is.#makes me wonder why he even needs some heavy weight to keep order for him when he can just charm people into submission#was radahn just there as a ceremonial position?#oh wait i forgot miquella thinks he’s super kind so that’s why he wants him#miq learnt about the gravity magic horse thing and swooned#honestly still can’t get over how incredibly stupid the twins look after the dlc#i think people like to imagine malenia was charmed just because it makes it all look slightly better on her part#like they are just making excuses for her#but holy shit the fact she was all but willing to fucking die so miquella could bag radahn..#what a thing to die for lmao#and he was apparently present after the battle? but didn’t do anything to help either radahn nor malenia?#instead he was helping a random redmane?#he obviously knew malenia had bloomed but ultimately didn’t care i guess#kind of like ‘oh well if she’s still alive when I get back i’ll deal with it then’#honestly wish miquella had just died in that cocoon at this point#tbh he doesn’t really do much in the dlc anyway they could have made it more about messmer and marika#hell bring melina into it please that would have been more interesting at this point#we didn’t need the dubcon incest plot micheal you could have left that one in the drafts#i gotta get this out of my head it’s driving me nuts#seriously need to move on from this game for my own sanity
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im punching and punching and punching my anxiety today
#[static]#man i need a new job but im gonna try my best to stick it out for the next year and a half so that im 'vested' -#- or whatever its called for my little tiny 401k money lmao#im starting to get anxiety about work on my days off more than usual#they just changed it from 5 years to 6 years fjgkdlghd#and im nearly at 5 years#also i think im gonna try and stick it out with the full time up until October and i'm going back to 4 days a week for my sanity#and also theyve been cracking down on ppl missing work and the winter time i have to call out a couple times a month for snow#they used to be understanding about it but it sounds like they arent anymore :)#in one breath they'll be like 'yeah it's no worries we work at a grocery store who cares! we're stacking cans this isn't life or death'#but the moment you gotta leave early due to snow so you can actually make it home in one piece they get butthurt lmao#mind you I have put my car in a ditch BECAUSE of work doing this to me and i ended up missing a week + covering repairs because of it#like ... would you rather i go home 2 hours early or miss 4-6 days of work and be in debt :)#and the answer is the 2nd one for them lmao i fucking hate them
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#it's 1am and i'm depressed and don't want to go to bed#there's such an unbelievable amount of century-defining tragedy and horror in the world rn#and i know that’s always true but jfc we know about so much more of it simultaneously now#like i'm supposed to be chill and functional in the face of war pandemic climate change forever chemicals micro plastics and fascism?#and and and?#i'm supposed to smile and ask follow-up questions when people tell me about vacations to Hawaii#rather than shaking them and saying holy fuck stop doing that please learn about the ramifications and historical context of your actions#i'm supposed to smile and give a measured response when a new coworker asks my other coworker and me#when they can/SHOULD use generative AI *for work purposes*#rather than screaming and throwing articles at them about the environmental impact of LLM bullshit#and that's all large scale#that's not getting into the fact that there's a growing family chilliness over refusal to communicate about I/P shit#or the fact that my mom is dying slowly and hates it and is worsening her relationship with my siblings little by little#or the fact that I'm peeling away at my sanity trying to process a divorce and get healthcare for my cat and dental care for myself#or the fact that it takes hours of research to find DISH SOAP THAT DOESN’T KILL THE MICROBIOMES OF THE LOCAL WATER SUPPLY#(10/10 recommend 'blueland' for that if you're reading btw)#like i'm painfully aware of the back-patting level of efficacy that i have for buying different soap and going to the farmer's market#but there's only so much i can do so i have to try to do what i can right? but it's so little and everything is so much#and my mental health is a mess; the fact that my particular neurotype is known to get more volatile with age scares the shit oit of me#like it's this bad at 33 and it gets WORSE?#my job is great for personal privilege but so *so* meaningless and redundant#and how tf do i look at all of this and not feel fucking hopeless?#i can distract myself with my garden but the candide approach was myopic even in the 17th century so it's hard to justify now#I'm so tired#just... fuck man#tag rant#i should delete this but I'll forget if you read this far i hope it wasnt damaging to your mental health#i just had to let off the brain scream pressure somewhere
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In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!
#i am losing my sanity day by day#drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day#why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about#don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha#ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't#fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess#am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story!#i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow#vent ig#my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol#nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays#at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig#anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs#when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop#anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go#please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you#i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just.#all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this#for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect#and care made me expect it more? fuck#i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person.#everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things#long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider#my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at#at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person.#my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got#to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me.#this is showing so many issues.#so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12#i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering
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Also I want to point out that there ARE some horrible women in fiction that I genuinely don't like. Like the girl from fucking Oreshura.
#GENUINELY insufferable. I will put up with a LOT but she crosses the goddamn line lmao#(granted. the show in question is just. not a good show. so that's probably a big part of it)#or perfect insider lady. (though that one is more related to her being like. SUPER 'fake deep'. they really thought they were doing#something with that one)#I also. because I hate myself. watched citrus one time. and mei (is that her name? I don't remember) is just the fucking worst. oh and the#other girl in the love triangle whose name I don't remember because I blocked most of that show out of my brain for the sake of my sanity#'mel why tf did you watch citrus' because I have this horrible trait where if people tell me something is bad. I go 'ooh but HOW bad'#and decide I have to see for myself. I regret it EVERY time I don't know why I keep doing this#am also not really a fan of lysa but I think that might be more related to the fact that I'm legally obligated to defend sansa with my life#(also. citrus is not bad because of the subject matter. it's bad because it's bad. just to make that clear. I don't care if people write#about uncomfortable subjects. /I/ write about uncomfortable subjects. also j/c is like The™ otp I'd have no 'moral high ground' here lmao)#oh and the scientist lady from bio.hackers.#but I don't really think they knew what they were trying to do when writing her
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“would you recommend this thing to others” my mode of enjoying things is that I enjoy things for what they are for me myself. who cares what other people think about what I like, we’re all different anyway that’s just a fact.
#some people act like it's a blight to them that i like something objectively so '''''bad'''''#like. i'm just enjoying myself here. why do you care that much#the more i look at others the more i see i just don't share the same opinions as a lot of people and that's fine#and i'm not even saying this to be a contrarian i genuinely just accept that we disagree and sometimes. just sometimes. i happen to be in#the minority and again that's /fine/#when things like this happen we just have to agree to disagree and just for the sake of the sanity of us both#i will try to distance myself from others. in this case the larger fandom#and is that not what all we want anyway#people care too much about cultivating a community when there's none and trying so hard to be welcoming to everyone when#that's almost impossible imo#again why do a lot of people just assume that when i yell about things into the void it means i try to be '''objective'''#and Convince others#when that's not at all my aim#if you agree with what i'm saying that's fine. good for me even i guess.#but i don't care if you think what i'm saying is bs either lol#just let me yell in peace#whether there are people out there willing to listen or not is secondary#mino rants
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*beats whatever part of my body that is releasing an abundance of stress chemicals every time I see something that’s a .07 / 100 on the stress scale*
#vent#*n o*#*talking to brain* listen here motherfucker. I’ve decided that I’m going to make steps to improve my quality of life. and to make better#choices to improve how I go about school and self care and other responsibilities#I will NOT let *you* (brain) ruin this for me after I JUST came out of a funk and felt better with going about my days!!#fucker!! I could *literally* feel my hair falling out with the stress I’ve been dealing with. and for what?? so I can make myself feel WORSE#no :) kindly! no. I won’t let you (brain) I’ll bet you with a stick (but it won’t feel it as the brain has no pain receptors)#ha! goo. fuck yourself you fucking. stress. bastards. I’ll burn down all that wrongs me#before I lose any more sanity (and hair)#I can’t be bothered to acknowledge or deal with stress like what am I gaining?? from it?? ugh. pissing me off <_<#hmgmhmp why do I care so much about people. all it does is like. make me feel insignificant. hmm#I can’t be bothered with shit. anymore. it’s not worth it
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I'm just so fucking drained...
I don't think you need to know the reason why, do you?
#i'm not going to out any names but i have online friends on both ends of this debate#and i'm torn but not for the reason you think#i definitely know my stance on the situation#but it's everyone else i'm worried about#do they not know? do they not see? or do they not care?#or is this supposed to be “seperate the character portrayed from the actor” thing when it's actually really hard to do so in this case?#like istg i'm at my wits end from both sides. the situation is just terrible all around and I think its affecting my sanity#i'm going to need to do some heavy self indulgence fandom shit to get rid of the nauseating feeling i have inside#i've already had enough for one night#i'm not really in a good headspace right now and idk who to turn to cause everyone's up in arms (rightfully so)#i think my mental health is screwing up again. help me#lefty's rants and rambles#lefty talks about wrassling
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Getting white girl wasted and passionately lip synching every song on this fucking character playlist as god intended
#you will never guess who this playlist is dedicated to lol#best part about roadtrips is that I can ✨maladaptively daydream✨ in the car#I need this or I will start picking fights with everyone I don’t care#this is day 3 of a 10 day trip and I’m fucking cramped in the car and rooming with my brother every night like girl I NEED me time rn#also messy makeup lightly tipsy me is so hot like damn#I owe my sanity to character playlists on spotify y’all are doing the lords work#a movie from 2011 can be so special
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I had many things that I had considered doing today, most of it just being some chill video gaming, if I'm really honest. And I did get to do some. Then I started feeling sick.
I thought to myself, oh well, that silly motion sickness again, guess I'mma take a break 🙃
Turns out, wasn't just the motion sickness, though.
Spent the next hour and a half using my toilet as an echo chamber for creative voice lessons. Switched it up every now and again, just to keep things interesting, but the sound was just too good, so I kept coming back for encores. Realised the toilet might be cursed because I could not move away from it for more than a few meters or a few minutes before having to return.
Messaged my mom, who kindly brought me something to help break the curse.
Then spent the next three hours in a curled up position on my bedroom floor, on the carpet right next to my bed (bed would have been to soft), head on my fluffiest pillow, and underneath a warm, cuddly blanket, finally getting some rest and sleeping off the exhaustion.
When it all started it was early afternoon. The sun has now set. I am finally sitting back on the couch, munching on some insanely good pretzel sticks and drinking tea. Feel utterly serene. Could murder someone for a good, cheesy pizza right now, but that might be the devil talking.
#just me rambling#guessing that something didn't agree with my stomach but it's not quite clear what it was#it's been like 7 years since I last got sick enough to throw up and I can't say that I missed it much or cared much for it#my throat actually feels sore from all the dry-heaving#I've also been wondering#because I know that it's been debunked that coca cola is any good for you on an upset stomach#but coke + pretzel sticks has been the go-to household remedy ever since I was a child and it has always helped#this time as well#the coke was the first thing I was actually able to retain today#even water came right back out#and the pretzel sticks are perfect now#had some electrolytes too for obvious reasons#kinda want to continue playing my game but I don't dare do it anymore today#not when I know it could potentially trigger motion sickness-related issues on top of an already sensitive stomach#I've had quite enough of being sick today thank you very much#some movie maybe?#some visual novel?#not sure how well reading on my tv screen for an extended period of time is gonna sit with my head (and by extension my stomach) though#continue reading the book I'm in the middle of? maybe#really glad my nose is back to normal#it's fascinating the smells you pick up on that completely churn your stomach when you're sick#half of that shit I can't even smell properly now anymore#god some french fries would be great now too#way back in my teens when I got sick after not eating anything for too long (and then couldn't eat because I was sick - brilliant. 😑)#the thing that got me back to feeling normal ended up being french fries#the electrolytes concoction had a good amount of salt in it but I feel like my body is still demanding more#I don't trust myself with anything but pretzel sticks right now though#on any other day I might have caved and ordered that pizza#I need to stop talking about pizza for my own sanity xD#on another note: there is still a mosquito in here with me 🧐
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Is this my best comic ever?? Nope. Do I think I characterized either of these two particularly well in this comic?? Not really. Did I spend an unreasonable amount of time on it to the point that it would be a waste to not post it?? Yes, yes I did.
I really committed to this one, spent a lot of time on those backgrounds and treated myself to ample suffering with the perspective, which is not my strong suit but I am happy with how it ultimately looks. Yay perspective and background practice!!
(Tbh I shouldn't talk like I think this one sucks, I think I've just been staring at it for so long that my brain has decided it's not good and it's actually way better than I think it is, and honestly I am quite happy with it. The artistic process really is something, isn't it?)
The inspiration was basically me reminding... myself... to take breaks sometimes... by drawing for several hour stints during my only little bits of free time. Which totally tracks. Probably. But I've been rolling around in my brain this idea that Lambert is a very uptight people pleaser and anxious workaholic, but Narinder, at least since adjusting himself to the circumstances (which probably took at least a century, maybe two) has discovered the joys of self care, and has made an active effort to chill tf out. This has not made him any less terrifying to the cultists (save for Lambert's closest disciples), nor has it made him friendlier to really anyone but Lambert (and maybe his siblings), but he sure has found some serious peace of mind. That said, I can't place what his motivations are here. Perhaps he is secretly concerned about Lambert's sanity, because he doesn't want them to turn into what he was, or maybe he's just trying to steal away some quality time with his one and only friend, but regardless of the reason, I spent too much time on this for nobody to see it, dang it.
That said. Enjoy this silly little comic that I spent way too much time on, and I hope this silly comic brings you some joy today.
#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb fanart#cotl#cotl fanart#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#cotl narilamb#narilamb#(like honestly narilamb is a qpr to me specifically and i intend this as such but this can easily be read as romantic as well tbh)#also we get some bonus jalala and rinor in this one!! and some bonus... implied leshycat. technically#not gonna tag those individually cuz there's just like. not enough of it for me to feel like those tags have any meaning#but they're here as a bonus. also jalala and rinor are fun to draw maybe i should make a mini comic just about them sometime#rambles aside pls enjoy this ridiculous comic that i spent an unreasonable amount of time on it was a joy to work on#and even tho its not my best comic ever i do love how it turned out it was such a good time
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ALYSSA WHAT THE FUCK
Okay but Hwa with breeding kink...
hwa …. with a …. breeding … kink …. *brain explodes* i apologize in advance for what happens below this:
Seonghwa would have you beg for his cum each time before he chose to give it to you. “Pretty girl wants more of Daddy’s cum, right? So she can be nice and full for him? Full of his love?” he’d ask, while he was pumping himself inside you, barely able to keep from slipping out with how wet and messy it already was, his previous loads coating your inner thighs and the mattress below.
“Please, Daddy! Please, I need more!” you’d whine, barely able to look up at him through your tears. You couldn’t help but to cry. It just felt that good knowing there was a chance you could be bred by him. “Please, give me your cum. Make me yours.”
At this point, he’ll be fucking into you so hard and fast, the bed will be slamming forward into the wall, making the neighbors make another noise complaint. “Mine? You want to be mine, yeah? My pretty princess wants to be owned and bred? Pumped full of my seed so you’ll get knocked up for me?”
“Yes, please!” you’d cry, delirious with pleasure, holding onto Seonghwa like he could disappear at any second. “Make me a mommy, Daddy…”
“I’ll make you a mommy, babygirl,” Seonghwa would coo into your ear, his breathing ragged and sparse, beads of sweat dripping along his temple. He was so close, so, so close. “You’ll be so full just for me, so pretty and glowing…” He’d grab onto your tits and squeeze them tight, his hips starting to stutter at this point, his moans becoming more airy and desperate. “Can’t wait till you have milk, baby…your tits will be so full and swollen…”
At this point, you’re cumming and writhing around, babbling incessantly for your Daddy’s load. Just wanting to be filled again and again.
“God…Fuck, take my milk, kitten…” Seonghwa would groan loudly, his eyes rolling back into his head, pumping you full of his cum for the nth time, but knowing he wouldn’t stop until your cunt milked him completely dry. “Take it all for me…”
#im seeing stars rn#ALYSSA#HNNNGHHHHH EHDKWBFOWIFKEBF#DO YOU WANT ME DEAD#CRYING SCREAMING MOANING#im gonna yell at you tomorrow just you wait#how dare you whip this up and call it a day DO YOU NOT CARE ABOUT MY SANITY#my eye is twitching and i can hear the wires in my brain going bzz bzz#i... need to sleep this off#alyssa for president
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