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[lapsed-lys]

I'm Hubert (he/him), your local Lapsed Catholic

This blog is dedicated to journaling my journey to uncovering my Catholic faith.

As a québécois, my family has suffered for many generations under vile people who named themselves holy people. Our faith in God endured, but the Catholicism of it all... not so much.

But I strive to strengthen my faith.

I'm walking this path by myself, since it is a very taboo subject due to Québec's generational trauma. With this blog, I hope it can reach to fellow Lapsed Catholics, especially Québécois people, and serve as a comfort that we are not alone in our struggle with our Catholic faith and heritage.

Thank you for having me here.

Note: Parlez-moi en français si vous voulez! ᓄᓇᕕᒻᒥᐅᑎᑐᑦ ᐃᓕᓐᓂᐊᑐᖓ.

Edit of the 21st December 2024

#journal du lys

A tag that contains my journal entries, where I journal various aspects of my faith, especially as a Lapsed Catholic. Trigger warnings are at the beginning of each entry.

#réponses du lys

Answers to various asks I've gotten in my inbox.

#reblogs du lys

A tag containing various reblogs, mostly queer-positive.

#dessins du lys

A tag to encompass my drawings, mostly illustrating the dichotomy of my life as a trans Catholic man. #musique du lys A tag to repost the music I publish on Bandlab.

Edit of the 26th May 2024

Join the Discord server dedicated to transgender Catholic people! Anyone who wants to interact is welcome. 🏳️‍⚧️🩵🩷🤍🙏

[boogiehill]

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[bibleboutique]

Simple Modern Gold Religious Christmas Ceramic Ornament

Get It Here!

[freetospeakknowwhatimean]

God changes everything!

God changes everything!

And we MUST allow God to change everything, it is in our circumstances where our faith is tested the most.

As I shared in my post about perseverance James literally says to have JOY in those circumstances that test our faith.

But focusing more on our environment we have to know whats surrounding us. From where we live, who we hang out with, what we consume, what we believe and speak about.

We got to leave situations and places in order to grow.

And in order to grow we must place the one who gives growth first and that is God.

God reveals easily as long as the focus is him and all thanks and glory go to Him.

He will MOVE mountains for us.

God’s faithfulness has never failed a human that put their faith in him wholeheartedly.

As it says in Isaiah 7 ASK GOD !!! Don’t hesitate to do it because he is going to show out every single time ❤️

God is faithful! God is for you!

GOD WANTS YOU TO THRIVE YOU JUST GOT LET HIM MOVE YOU 😩❤️

[heavensmysteries]

Warfare

SONG OF SONGS 3:7-8

King James Version

7 Behold his bed, which is Solomon's; threescore valiant men are about it, of the valiant of Israel.

8 They all hold swords, being expert in war: every man hath his sword upon his thigh because of fear in the night.

The bride and husband rest in the bed together. There is a union of love and peace. The bed is for rest, yet 60 men surround it, dressed in armour and prepared for battle. Jesus tells us that though we may have trouble in this world, we should take heart because we have already overcome it. We should not be ignorant of the spiritual warfare that surrounds us and so fall into a slumber. We can rest, just do not grow weary and tired, and thus let the devil have a foothold in your life.

[chanzene]

Remember Who You Are

Are you concern about these last days?

Do you ever think back to the pure side of you? The side of you that was innocent and gullible.

I always wondered what the childlike version of me would think of the woman I have become.

The enemy gets reign because people believe they have time. The focus on the future and on the world. When you are not seeking the kingdom.

I PRAY WE ALL SURRENDER

When you lose who you are it is due to you not seeking God and being in relationship with Him. Philippians 3: 4, 7-8,9-11

This month God took everything that gave me false security and asked me to truly rely on Him and Him alone. He told me to be isolated from this world and to keep His word to myself. I have not been able to fully keep the secret place a secret but as days go by it gets easier. The Self Revelation and the Word has put me up on so much game.

As an independent woman I am about my ENDS. Enemy knows this so he brought trouble and some friends.

SIN

1 Corinthians 6:18 

My goal is to be found in Him, to know Him, and to recognize myself /wealth.

Through the power of His Resurrection and the fellowship of His Sufferings.

But I was not content with Jesus Christ alone. I was thirsting for a significant other, for a REAL Love = Family, a tribe to call my own. I thought I could assign myself a Kingdom spouse and like magic he will wake up and make me his priority. I was moving in my own will and off my own timing. Believing the things I desire will appear. That is how the enemy found an open door in my life. The fear of rejection and pain from the constant abandonment. Has been a throne in my side since I was young. Not getting my way was a reminder of such past hurts.

I keep asking for the desires of my flesh. Genuinely not concerned with the things of the gospel. Even when the spirit whispered to me MINISTRY.

I still press forward on the goals I have for this world. When finally I feel joy, peace , and freedom being in the presence of God. I am now focusing harder on being spiritually mature.

OBEDIENCE

2 Corinthians 5:17 

Galatians 2:20 

Picking up my cross every single day. Dying to my flesh. Removing idolatry from my heart.

Rejection, Pain, and Sufferings came from wanting people of this world to love & cherish me. But I walked around not sure of myself so others never respected me. I looked down on myself and always questioned my own worth. I have these talents and gifts blessed upon me from God and I was squandering them. I refuse to waste my life seek validation from the world.

The weight of worry on my shoulders about my future. Being selfish to my own needs. Not really concerned about the next person.

This world wants you be selfish. When the true King of the World God wants you to be like Christ who is LOVE.

If I have received God's promise as His child to be free from bondage then I am obligated to empower others . I must let them know they are free too in Jesus Christ.

FRONTLINE SOLIDER FOR GOD

1 Peter 5:8 

Where are you going to RUN?

Are you ready if Jesus returns this second, minute, hour or day?

Jesus is calling , what will you say?

I will say:

My life is in you hands Lord. Use me. I let go of all my desires.

I will use my power and authority in your name Jesus Christ to rebuke the Devil who thinks he has a hold on this world. I am preparing a way for you Lord Jesus Christ. Your servant is ready for her marching orders. In you Name Amen.

Hallelujah

The doors are opening the wait was not a punishment but it was preparation.

LION KING | Black Panther

"Remember who you are. "

Simba you have forgotten me. You have forgotten who you are so you have forgotten me. Look inside yourself Simba. You are more than what you have become. You must take your place in the circle of life. Remember who you are. You are my son and the ONE true king. Remember who you are.

"Show them who you are."

I am not ready to be without you. A man who has not prepared his children for his own death. Has failed as a Father. Have I ever failed you? Never.

Going Forward

“Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it.”

-Maya Angelou

 "Remember who you are," was the perfect thing to say on this day of new beginnings, opportunities and choices.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 5784

Thank you God for entrusting me with this path and this calling. I will humbly serve you till my time comes to an end.

9/18/23

[sjmattson]

To be a Christian is to love Jesus and to follow his life and words as our main purpose.

This means to exude love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, and self-control. It requires us to see all humankind as divinely loved by God and made in God's image. To follow Jesus insists that we denounce any partisan agenda or propaganda that oppresses or harms other. Let us pursue love, justice, mercy, grace, and service. We must love our neighbors to the best of our ability.

May we be like Jesus.

[pr4yerwarrior]

[nic0lebcu]

should humans stop procreating?

“Again I looked, and I considered all the oppression taking place under the sun. I saw the tears of the oppressed, and they had no comforter; the power lay in the hands of their oppressors, and there was no comforter. So I admired the dead, who had already died, above the living, who are still alive. But better than both is he who has not yet existed, who has not seen the evil that is done under the sun. - Ecclesiastes 4:1”

Last week I discovered the term “anti-natalism”. As you may have been able to guess, anti-natalists are against natalism - giving birth, procreation, or otherwise the continuation of life on this planet. They believe birthing children into an inherently flawed world is ethically wrong..environmentally irresponsible, even.. and in a way I don’t blame them. The fact that a set of humans can assume the responsibility of creating and then birthing another human into the world without its consent, exposing it to a lifetime of danger and suffering doesn’t exactly seem fair to me. No one ever asks a child whether or not they want to be born. Their souls are brought to earth against their will and are then expected to just deal with the circumstances they’ve been given.

We are all fighting for our lives here, until our inevitable death.

Parents selfishly procreate with regard to only their own self-interest. Because, lets face it, even the most well-intentioned parents may be unknowingly nurturing serial killer, rapist, mass murderer, pedophilic sociopath spawn from within the womb. How a child perceives the world on its own and what it then does with this perception out in the world is always a mystery until AFTER the child is born. So having children is a risk…always a risk. 

Take Ted Bundy, for instance, who had a relatively normal childhood and even claimed to be treated very well by his parents. He would later grow up to be truly horrendous - kidnapping, raping, and murdering at least 30 women all before the age of 43. There are many others out there, just like Ted Bundy; and many more waiting to be born...

Every year, thousands of kids end up in foster care because their parents can’t take care of them. Thousands more go hungry and get sick. The fact that a child will be bullied and experience emotional abuse at some point is inevitable. And it’s all their parent’s fault. There are dangers in this world that no amount of sheltering will protect their children from; suffering is just a consequence of a child being born. What if we could spare any more lives from experiencing that same fate by just not having children?

We’ve been warned for years that the world is becoming overpopulated. Whether that’s true or not is consistently up for debate; but there’s no denying the human race’s impact on the earth has not always been a fruitful one. In fact, we are the ones destroying the world and each other while we’re at it. We are the very monsters that we assume only exist in works of fiction and fantasy. Yes, there is plenty of good we have done since being given the responsibility of populating the earth. But what if populating the earth is the very thing that is destroying us? This is the question that anti-natalism postulates and concludes that life is pointless and there’s no real reason to procreate. That life should end with us and it shouldn’t be an aspiration while living to continue it. The only real way to achieve world peace is to ultimately stop creating human beings. And it is when, and only when, humans cease to exist that world peace will truly be achieved. 

How’s that as food for thought?

Throughout my life this notion of anti-natalism and wishing I’d never been born has been a recurring theme. Unhealed trauma will do that to a person. I’ve had moments where I thought the wounds being inflicted upon me were intentional by some unseen force and that all of life was just a sick game where I was at the mercy of a sadistic god that hates me. 

Viewing the world through that type of lens, why would I want to bring more children here? What the earth really needs is to be destroyed, so pressing that red button right now would be doing all of us a favor. I would be lying if I said I didn’t have fantasies of being the one to smash it. I’m human; and at the core of every human is a shadow side with which we coexist.

So, why are people still having children? Are the ones having them oblivious to the fact that they’re contributing to world suffering? Or have they realized something anti-natalists haven’t?

As much as we’d like to, we can’t remove suffering from the world ourselves. Though we may try, it’s impossible. As much as we hate to accept it.. life is suffering, and perhaps people having babies have learned to accept something Buddha discovered along time ago.

“Life is suffering.”

There’s no escaping it.

But there are ways to cope.

For some, having children brings them the hope that they may be able to find a little joy in living…because life is short, and is suffering, but joy can be found in things as typical as having a child. For some, having children takes the focus off themselves and their own suffering and inspires them try and make life better for someone else. While still arguably a selfish act, it’s a good deed nonetheless. What can we do? We were given these bodies…are we not supposed to use them? We’ll never be able to control all the unpleasant experiences waiting to happen to our kids, but we can at least TRY to give them a good life and help guide them along with what we know. As with most things in life, we can only do our best… and isn’t that all God should be expecting of us anyway? We’re only human.

One of the core and founding components of the bible was that Jesus was born and gave hope to all humanity. Born of another human into a flesh and blood body made him a mortal being, susceptible to all the things we’re susceptible to. But yet, it was His destiny to become Jesus. And has since been the light and life-giving figure we know today. What if Jesus had never been born?

He was born, however, to save humans…aaand if there were no humans we wouldn’t need saving now would we?

But the fact of the matter is that there ARE humans. And there are some humans who are born to leave a legacy behind. 

There are two types of people: those that save and those that need saving…. maybe you’re one of them? And maybe, just maybe, that’s the purpose of being given life.

[gods-creation-through-a-lens]

Disclaimer: I do not own this photo

[he-knowsmyname]

I haven’t posted in a while. But I have a lot on my mind tonight. If you end up reading all of this, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

For about five years, I was in a relationship with this man. Him and I were madly in love. Or so I thought. We got gotten engaged and had spent two years as fiancés. It wasn’t until 5 weeks before our wedding on a Sunday night, he broke things off.

I was hurt. I was heartbroken. I was about to start forever with this man, and he threw it away five weeks before hand. I was angry. I spent the first days crying so much that my eyes had started to swell shut. I didn’t understand why something like this had to happen to me.

It’s been about a month since this happened, and I’ve had a lot of time to reflect. I’ve come to realize this was a blessing in disguise. Here’s why:

In the last two years, he had started to change. He had always done some things I didn’t agree with, but I tolerated them because I loved him. However, he just started to do more and more things. He first started with weed. Then weed turned into acid and mucinex. Then that turned into cigarettes and dab pens and vapes. Then that turned into drinking heavily. The love of my life was no longer mine and mine alone. For in addition to me, he was also in love with drugs. For those who have never seen drugs change someone you love, you are blessed beyond words. It broke my heart, it still breaks my heart. He became more irritable when he didn’t get his fix. He wasn’t as patient and kind-hearted as the man I once knew. I still loved him immensely. But it hurt me to do so. The crowd he had immersed himself into started to take more and more of his time, they took him farther and farther away from me. For the last two years I felt as if I was in a battle. It was either his friends and his lifestyle, or me. In the end, I lost. Now here’s the kicker. I had actually met him at a VBS at our home church. At the time, I wasn’t a Christian. I started going regularly to see him. Through this, I eventually came to Christ. I thought he was a Christian, until I found out he wasn’t, or at least wasn’t the Christian everyone thought he was. We would go to church events, where sometimes the topic would be making sure you’re in a godly relationship. I knew I wasn’t. I would feel God’s thumb on my back to do something about it, but I always ignored it. I loved my man. I couldn’t leave him. Throughout our relationship I felt like I was constantly sacrifcing. My happiness, my faith, my time, etc etc. I had come to Christ, but I couldn’t bring him with me. I sacrificed so much of my devotion to Christ for him. Going farther than I ever wanted. I never drank or did any drugs, but I still did things I know I shouldnt. I drifted so far from God to stay so close to him. As I sit here reflecting, I realized I was never asking too much. I was asking the wrong person. A person addicted to drugs. Who was running with the wrong crowd. Who had strayed from God and was taking me with him. I realize now that because I would’ve never taken the steps I needed to save myself, God took them for me. I wouldn’t leave him, so God took him away to protect me. This is a time to come back to my faith, to rebuild my relationship and trust with Jesus, and to grow as a Christian and as a person. There’s no telling how things would’ve ended up had God not intervened. I’m so thankful for his faithfulness tonight and his protection of his children. 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋Advice to anyone in a similar situation: if this post speaks to you in anyway, please do what you need to protect yourself and your faith. Never compromise yourself and your relationship with Jesus for a guy. You will find the right one who loves Jesus and loves you. You will find the one whom your soul loves. 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋

[foreverheloves-blog]

“The difference between mercy and grace? Mercy gave the prodigal son a second chance. Grace gave him a feast.” #Grace #Mercy #SoliDeoGloria #SovereignGod #ReformedTheology #RedeemedReformed #RedeemedandReformed #ChristianLiving #ChristianTumblr #Christianinstagram #InstaBible #gospel #GodisLove #Foreverheloves #jesusislord #dailyquotes #Dailyverse #Bibleverse #ChristianSayings #InstagramScripture #InstagramGospel #DailyBibleVerse #dailychristianquotes #Iamachristian #EverlastingLove #EverlastingGod https://www.instagram.com/p/BmLfmm5h1Tg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1l21ikehgrily

[boogiehill]

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[bibleboutique]

St. Nicholas Illustration T-Shirt

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[heavensmysteries]

GENESIS 3

Adam and Eve were naked and unashamed before God. In verse 24, we see just how much God gave to Adam and Eve in abundance. 

Genesis 3:24                                                                                                           After He drove the man out, He placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way of the tree of life.

They were positioned next to 'the tree of life', therefore they needed no knowledge of evil. God should have been enough for them. We can even infer how close their relationship with God was because In verse 8 we see that '...they heard the sound of Jehovah God walking about in the garden of Eden.' This shows that Adam and Eve were even familiar with God's footsteps!

  The day that man and woman ate the apple, their eyes were opened, they essentially became like God. The irony was that they were already like God in the first place (Genesis 1:26). He gave them DOMINION, He said rule over everything and look after His creation! God gave us power and authority, but man tried to become like God. That is why today, we still have the inherent nature of sin living within us. Satan offers us counterfeits and perverted desires fulfilled, even though completion, wholeness and glory is already found in the Lord 

  Sometimes without even realising, we try to be like God and tell Him how He is meant to shape our lives! We want things from God, but are never content in His presence. We do not know how to rest in God.  We do not want to be familiar with Him and in close proximity to Him, like Adam and Eve were in Eden.

PRAYER- “Lord God fill me with your Holy Spirit and strengthen me to overcome the temptations of the evil one.”

[rareanomys]

Wtf is happening

Why is everything darker