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Me having to cook something before watching Dungeon Meshi: âuggggh this is such a chore ughhhhhhhhhhhâ
Me having to cook something after watching Dungeon Meshi: âI am just like Senshi frâ
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I have this yearning to drag the characters and ships I hate through the dirt on my blog, but I just... I have no energy to waste on drama. And, I know it feels vile, I'm not really on a crusade to hurt others.
#diary pages#fandom#i just... i'd feel so great to say how much i fucking hate them and why#wrath for the win#but i... i don't know like i said i have no energy for drama#and i don't really want to ruin things for others like i don't want to make people feel bad for enjoying christmas music#avatr*ce ineffable morons cl*ace...#when it comes to ships#âblacklistâ you say? everyone tags random pictures in the wn fandom as that ship#tbh i found you'll get literally no recognition in the wn fandom hnless you post that ship#i sound like i want fame (i mean who doesn't) i really just want friends#and fanfiction to read that wouldn't repulse me or be boring#when it comes to ships to be honest i don't like any mm ship ships need at least one woman for me to have appeal at all#it's not just wn fanfiction i can't find I like it's mkst fandoms#either they don't havs the ships i like or it's completely uninteresting concept or a vile prn#no hate do what thou wilt#i'll just... try to write the books i wanna read
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"Alors que j'ĂŠtais assise dans le jardin, j'ai fermĂŠ les yeux et je me suis retrouvĂŠe dans le mĂŞme paysage oĂš j'ĂŠtais il y a quelques semaines... Sauf que cette fois, je portais une robe blanche... Et je n'ĂŠtais pas seule. Je l'ai vu. Le mĂŞme homme mystĂŠrieux que j'avais vu il n'y a pas longtemps. Pourquoi ĂŠtait-il lĂ , parmi tous les gens ? Il ne semblait pas remarquer ma prĂŠsence jusqu'Ă ce qu'il se retourne pour me faire face. Nous nous sommes simplement regardĂŠs pendant ce qui semblait ĂŞtre une ĂŠternitĂŠ. J'ai entendu une voix grave murmurer "rĂŠveille-toi". Quand j'ai clignĂŠ des yeux, je me suis retrouvĂŠe dans ma chambre une fois de plus... Serait-il insensĂŠ de s'ĂŠprendre de quelqu'un que l'on vient Ă peine de rencontrer...? C'est absurde. Je devrais savoir mieux que ça. Je ne peux pas me permettre de me retrouver dans cette situation Ă nouveau ! Je ne veux pas que ma maison soit Ă nouveau rĂŠduite en cendres. Ăa ne vaut pas le risque."
-Raina A.
Translation : As I sat in the garden, I closed my eyes and suddenly found myself in the same scenery I had been in a few weeks earlier... Except this time, I was wearing a white dress... And I wasn't alone. I saw him. The same mysterious man I had seen not long ago. Why was he there, of all people? He didn't seem to notice my presence until he turned around to face me. We just gazed at each other for what felt like an eternity. I heard a deep voice whisper "wake up". When I blinked, I was back in my room once again... Would it be foolish to be infatuated with someone I had only just met...? That's absurd. I should know better. I can't allow myself to be in that situation again! I don't want my home to be destroyed once more. It's not worth the risk.
-Raina A.
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Decided to turn the next chapter of Raina's diaries as my post for speak your language day!!
#sims 4 gameplay#the sims community#ts4 simblr#sims 4 story#sims 4 cc#simblr#the sims 4#ruthplaysthesims#sims4#raina's diaries*#raina almeida*#speak your language day#đ#ALSO THE LAST PIC IS A PROOF THAT WE'LL GET FAIRIES!!! I REALLY WANT TO HOPE THAT'S THE CASE!!!
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Apocryphia Bipedium- Ian Potter
[FIXED THE WONKY MOBILE EDITING. >.< IT LOOKED FINE ON DESKTOP]
[I am obsessed with this short trip so I had to bring it to Tumblr. Yes I did just copy and paste this page by page out of the pdf and formatted it. I think about it all the time. Anyway.
Apocrypha Bipedium takes place in the gap between Time of the Daleks and Neverland. Enjoy]
A Suggestive Correlation of The Cressida Manuscripts with other Anomalous Texts of the Pre-Animarian Era as proposed for Collective Consideration by Historiographic Speculator Anctloddoton.
In my selection and placement of the following extracts from the literature of the extinct worlds, I have attempted to draw suggestive parallels between some of the Problem Texts of the humanoid cultures. Obviously, the records of those times are now so fragmentary that any conclusions we draw from the surviving evidence must remain speculative. We cannot know what evidence we are missing, thus the linking of events posited by the presentation of these documents must remain a tentative hypothesis at best.
HS A From The Primary Cressida Document â Suppressed Texts of the Vatican Library, A Mysteria Press Original, 2973 CE.
The past is another country, the Doctor used to say. By which I suppose he meant itâs a nice place to visit but you wouldnât want to live there, and you can have real problems with customs when you arrive.
I grew up in the future myself, which makes living in the past tricky at times. Liverpool was a great place to grow up if you were into the past though. It was full of it; the Campus Manor theme park, the castle, the Beatles Memorial Theatre, The Saint Francis of Fazakerley Museum, the Carl Jung Dream Tour, Post-Industrial Land and all those cathedrals, you were tripping over history everywhere. Mummyâs parents came from there too, so it was practically like we knew reallife olden days people.
It was much better than Liddell Towers where we lived in New London â most of the history near there seemed to be about some silly girl whoâd let a professor of sums take photos of her and fell down a rabbit hole, or about those awful Daleks wiping out Southern England with mines and things. Much duller and hardly any variety in the rides at all.
Here in the actual olden days thereâs not much past anywhere, just loads of future, and the rides are even less fun, all carts and donkeys and hardly any roads. Weâre moving again, you see, dear diary. Even though the conquering Greeks donât really seem to want to colonise any of Asia Minor themselves they donât seem to want any Trojans settling back down anywhere round here either. Theyâve occupied whatâs left of the city, I suspect mainly so Menelaus can find all the expensive bits of Helenâs jewellery she seems to have mislaid, and seem keen we donât hang about too nearby. Mymiddon Hoplites apologetically move us on now and again, clearly wondering when they can decently be allowed back home to start fighting amongst themselves again, and so we pack up and move. Some of their chaps are still feeling rather tetchy for no good reason apparently. Troilus says thereâs a silly rumour going around that some terrible woman, probably a goddess, went around whipping up aggression amongst the Greeks a few years ago by magic, leaving marks on their necks that mean they canât calm down!
It doesnât make any sense to me. I think I might just be getting the cleaned up version of a soldierâs tale actually. I think that happens with me a lot. People treat me like a silly little girl sometimes, which isnât really fair when I come from the future and know all sorts of things they donât. Iâm an adult now, even if not being born yet does make me about minus four thousand officially.
I donât think Agamemnonâs Greeks really know what to do now to be honest, and after a decadeâs anticipation I donât think the trade routes or the princess they were sacking Troy to get are quite as good as they were hoping. I think theyâre just hanging around stopping us settling down and looking for lost costume jewellery until they can think of something better to do. Some of the Ithacans are moaning itâll be another decade before any of them get home at this rate. Bless them.
Running out of room, dear diary. Will write more when I have some new goatsâ hides.
From Not Necessarily the Way I Do It! The True Confessions of a Ka Faraq Gatri not just written for the money when trapped on a primitive planet and needing cash to buy parts by âSnailâ, Boxwood Books, 300 AGB.
Of course the hairy kangaroo had been at the mind rubbers and didnât even realise the sword was there! How we laughed. Terrible namedropper, Zodin, but worth her weight in soufflĂŠ all the same
Naturally enough, mention of name-dropping reminds me of another anecdote, this one relating to dear old Bill Shakespeare, one of the finest writers and most atrocious spellers of any age. Iâve met him several times now and hope to again if I ever get off this pre-warp- engineering dustball. The last time was during that sticky business with poor Kitty Marlowe and those Psionovores from Neddy Kelleyâs old scrying glass that I related in Chapter 9, but perhaps our most awkward misadventure together was the time I introduced him to some of his own characters, who included, as it happened, a dear, dear friend of mine.
From The Dairy of an Edwardian Adventuress by Charlotte Elspeth Bollard, Library of Kar-Charrat. The work, having suffered some worm damage in the Great 2107 AD Cock Up, is presented here in the Elgin decorruption.
Travelling with Wilf and the Doctor was a curious experienced already felt somewhat out of sorts with time, having discovered my very existence was making history split in two, but sharing a home with a boy from the 16th Century and a man who seemed to come from nowhere so much as his own imagination, merely heightened my feeling that I no longer belonged to any era.
We three fellow time travellers had so very little in common beyond having all read the plays the boy had not yet written that the small talk had been small indeed, and, after a few days of the Doctor failing to get Wilf home, the atmosphere had become a little tense.
Wilf, it further transpired, had difficulty reading anything written in more modern Anglish than his own, which meant there had been little of a literary nature to distract him during his sojourn with us once he had read and re-read the Doctorâs picture books about Frinchs, Sneetches, Ooblecks and Cats in Hams.
Thankfully, towards the end of Wilfâs stay with us the Doctor had discovered a futuristic version of Lido called Peter Pan Pop-O-Matic Frustration that we could enjoy playing together and those last long hibiscus-scented afternoons in his music room passed pleasantly enough, without young Wilf having to constantly relate the escapades of besocked foxes to us.
The Doctor always won our games, usually coming from behind implausibly late in the day, and nearly always using some devious subterfuge to gain victory. Indeed, it was observing the childlike joy on the Doctorâs face at his underhand triumphs on the Peter Pan Pop-O-Matic Frustration board that I first realised just how much of Peter there was in his nature. Naturally, we loved him enough to pretend not to notice his cheating (I sometimes think the whole universe did) and at times towards the end we three had so much fun that I almost forgot I was a paradox, unpicking creation like Penelope at her tapestry in the heroic age we had just left.
From The Pseudo-Shackspur â works attributed to William Shakespeare collated by Heinrich Von Berlitz and Leopold Kettlecamp, Ampersand and Ampersand, 85 AH.
This passage from The Noble Troyan Woman of Troy â fragmentary foul papers of a naive work once attributed to the very young Shackspur, is worth quoting in full.
Act 2, Scene 1. A room within the box. Enter Mistress Charley, Doctor Shallow and Young Will.
Doct. Here at last! Our journey finally through. In fifteen hundred and seventy two. Young Will, regard the ceiling viewing dome â Stratford on Avon, the Hathaway home.
Will. But sir, on those bare hills, no swarths do roll. And no houses nestle âtwixt those craggy knolls â The sun burns with a fierce un-English light And that beach there is not a Warwick sight! Thatâs not Stratford displayed above us
Char. â Lest the Avonâs turnâd to sea, âOd love us!
Many scholars have disputed the authenticity of this piece of alleged Shackspurian juvenilia, pointing out, fairly, that it does appear to be the only one of his extant works that the Bard biroed in a twentieth-century school jotter otherwise festooned in swirly ink blots and doodled hexagons. However, if Shackspur did travel in Time, as several scholars suggest, this objection falls away. A more compelling argument for its inauthenticity is the verse style, experimenting uniquely within the Shackspurian canon with strict iambic pentameter composed entirely in rhyming couplets. Whilst dreadful, it is nothing like as appalling as that in Shackspurâs earliest known adult writing
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From Tales from the Matrix â True Stories from TARDIS Logs Retold for Time Tots by Loom Auntie Flavia, Panopticon Press, 6833.8 Rassilon Era. Part of the Wigner Heisenberg Collection, The Mobile Library, Talking Books Section. Location currently uncertain.
The Doctor flicked the temporal stabiliser off and pulled down the transitional element control rod taking him out of the Vortex. Quite the wrong way to actualise and quadro-anchor even a Type 40 Time Capsule, isnât it? Exiting the interstitial continuum at the perihelion of a temporal ellipse can cause serious buffering in your harmonic wave packet transference and sever your main fluid links, canât it?
âHere we are, Stratford on Avon, 1572!â announced the Doctor proudly and wrongly. If heâd ever bothered to use his Absolute Tesseractulator to pinpoint his dimensional locations he wouldnât have made these kind of mistakes, of course, but the Tesseractulator had never come out of its box, had it?
Charlotte Pollard, the Doctorâs friend, came over to him and flicked on the ceiling scanner.
A friendâs an Earth thing. Itâs a bit like having a colleague or fellow student you co-operate with, but without any exams or project targets at the end to make the co-operation meaningful. There was a fashion for having them on Gallifrey at one time, ask some of your older cousins about it, they might remember.
Charlotte squinted at the view outside. It didnât look like the Stratford sheâd visited, with neither alien enslavers nor half timbered tea shops anywhere in sight. âAre you sure?â she asked.
âPositive. Ish,â replied the Doctor. William Shaxsberd, a young man theyâd promised to drop off in 1572, put down his coloured crayons and came to join them.
âIt does not look much as it once did, Doctor,â said William, looking at the ceiling and cricking his neck.
The Doctor followed suit. The dustbowl outside was certainly not Warwickshire in any era heâd visited, âNo. Indeed not,â he admitted. âI think the rift in the Vortex is introducing a random element into my calculations.â
Do you remember the rift in the Vortex, from last time? Thatâs right, the Doctor made that too! It was due to the paradoxical interaction of two paravertical chronostreams further complicated by three retro- temporal augmented causal feedback loops, wasnât it?
âAnother random element?â asked Charlotte, âMore random than the way you play âeeny meeny miney moâ with the buttons?â
âHa, Charley,â said the Doctor. âTres amusent.â
Charlotte turned to William to explain, âThatâs French, Will, for âIâve been banged to rights, Miss Pollardâ,â she said.
âI somehow knew,â William replied.
âReally?â asked Charlotte. âHow?â
âItâs a Time Lord gift, Charley,â said the Doctor, âand yes it would be awfully de trop to ask how it works.â Or at least thatâs whatCharlotte thought he said. William heard something quite different of course.
Well, letâs get out there then,â said the Doctor, opening the doorswithout taking any proper readings.
âEr, why?â asked Charlotte.
âBecause until we know how far out the rift has shunted us in spaceand time we wonât know how to get to Stratford, 15 diddlydiddly...âexplained the Doctor, waving his hand vaguely as he searched hismemory for the end of the four digit number heâd lost interest in.
âSeventy-two,â prompted William.
âThe very same.â The Doctor beamed, ruffling the young manâs hair in a way that, thanks to the TARDIS telepathic circuits alone, seemed endearing rather than insufferable and over familiar.
William and the Doctor headed for the doors. Charlotte was troubled though.
âWonât my temporal instability cause untold problems to wherever we are?â she asked, quite sensibly, all things considered.
âOh, very probably, I expect,â replied the Doctor airily, âbut if you spent your whole life worrying about the consequences of your actions youâd never get anything done and the consequences of that would be unthinkable, wouldnât they? Faint heart never bowled a maiden over,you know.â
Charlotte scowled. âMind,â added the Doctor as he stepped out of the control room, âneither did Katie âthe Beastâ Davies, if I remember my22nd-century Wisden correctly.â
That was an allusion to the Earth game Cricket, wasnât it? It was the Earthâs planetary sport, despite the fact that humans were the worst players of it in the galaxy if you remember.â
Doctor, I find your words confusing,â said William as he followed him out.âItâs a Time Lord gift, Will,â Charlotte whispered. âYouâll get used to it.â
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From The Primary Cressida document
New hides! This keeping a journal business is awfully tricky when youâve no paper around, but before mummy died, she did make me promise Iâd write one when I eventually settled down. Itâs a family tradition thatâs been handed down for generations apparently, not that I ever saw mummyâs.
Anyhow, Troilus is still very eager to settle soon, but where? Iâve ruled out going east to the Holy Land because from what I remember from history and my travels weâll get no peace there and the rest of the Med and Adriatic has already been bagsied. Troilus reckons Aeneas will have already have set up somewhere by now and we should have gone off on his boat when we had the chance. I just nod, and try to explain wave particle duality to the little ones.
I have a vague feeling I learned something about Aeneas from the UK-201âs didactomat box way back in the future. I think he ended up with Dido in Carthage for a bit, which confuses me because I thought Didoâs music was Late Classical, which must be after this period, surely. Iâm sketchy on the details to be honest. I only remember it was Dido and not Sister Bliss because the planet we crashed into on the way to Astra was named after her.
Funny thinking about Dido, that was the place Iâve called home longest in recent years. Iâve been a nomad a while really â split between London and Liverpool as a girl, never knowing whether to talk posh and southern or not, emigrating to off-Earth with daddy, hopping about through Time with the Doctor, and now traipsing around Turkey with Troilus and his mates before its even called that or has any tourist facilities to speak of. I think I must have âspace travel in my bloodâ as one of those Baroque composers put it!
Iâve been wondering when I should discover electricity and plumbing a bit recently, these fleeces donât clean themselves like proper clothes, so the sooner we can invent the twin tub the better. Are we before or after that Monk who invented things too early here, I wonder? I donât want to mess things up like he did, but Iâm shocking on dates. I just paid attention to the stories in the history books really, not the order they happened in. If Iâd known the way round history went was going to be important I would have had the machine teach me it. Of course, as a child you never expect all that history around you is going to run away into the future like it has, do you? Iâve decided Iâll probably start with a steam engine and see if that messes up my memory of the future. The way I see it, itâll be impossible for me to invent anything thatâll stop me being born so I canât do too much harm.
I casually suggested making things out of iron the other day, which I know is a big step forward but everyone just laughed. Too brittle and hard to work compared to bronze or tin, they said. I suppose theyâre right. You have to do something to it to make it strong, I remember that. I just donât remember what that something is. For all I know my quad physics equations and could still compose a cogent analygraphfor the fall of the Mallatratt Protectorate, Iâm a bit rusty on a few of the basics. Going to take us years to get garlic bread and sound radio at this rate.
Of course, I had a bit of training for life without the mod cons on Dido, so I can cope, but what makes things really fiddly at the moment is that my futureâs past is catching up with my present, which is complicated enough to write down, let alone experience.
Weâve just bumped into the Doctor as a young man, and Iâm sure itâs really bad form for me to let on I recognise him when as far as heâs concerned heâs not met me yet.
From Not Necessarily the Way I Do It!
My plan was pretty much the usual one, to go out and see if we could find out the year and our whereabouts in a way that wouldnât arouse any suspicions, and then hang around until nightfall to get a better fix from the position of the stars. It may sound dull but Iâve found if I do that I usually find something or other to get embroiled in before sunset.
We stepped circumspectly out of the Ship and set off in search of the nearest habitation, ready as ever to improvise any number of cover stories to explain our presence and strange garb. As luck would have it we soon ran into one of the locals, and were able to subtly winkle out the info we needed on route to his encampment.
From The Dairy of an Edwardian Adventuress
People say you should never look back of course, advice weâve been ignoring since Orpheus and EuroDisney, but I canât help thinking that if the Doctor hadnât landed us in the aftermath of the Trajan War a lot of that beastly business with the Time Lords might have been avoided later.
As usual the Doctor rejoiced in dropping straight into the middle of things without a momentâs forethought. Impossible, exasperating man,I tried to protest but somehow he just brushed my complaints away with a smiled shouldnât have let him, but he did have such a lovely smile.
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From The Pseudo-Shackspur
The Noble Troyan Woman of Troy
Act 3, Scene 2. Another part of the hillside. Enter Mistress Charley, Doctor Shallow and Young Will.
Doct. Yoohoo! Mister Goatboy, excuse me please, Could you tell me what time and place is this? Char. Discreet as ever.
Enter a Goatherd.
Doct. Yes, but awfully brave. Young man, there is information we crave. What land is this and what year are we in? Weâve lost track of both in our travelling.
Char. Oh I give up, youâre so inconsistent.
Doct. Just smile prettily, act like an assistant.
Char. But I never know what trick youâll pull next!
Doct. Just grit your teeth, smile and stick out your chest; Magicâs best tricks work by misdirection.
Char. So Iâm just here to stir his â
Will. Affection?
Doct. Quite so Will, a pretty face inspires trust. True, Iâm afraid, if not awfully just. This chap will tell us the time and the place And Presto well head straight back into Space!
Goat. Eleven eight three BC is the year This is Hisarlik in Anatolia. I expect youâre traders from Phoenicia To be garbed and garbling here so queer. Youâve been ship wreckâd and concussâd Iâll be bound. Whichâll be why you have no goods around. We must offer you shelter at the least Pop back home with me and well have a feast.
Char. How can he know he lives before Our Lord?
Doct. Itâs just a translation device thatâs flawâd. Itâs an awfully clever mechanism But it causes the odd anachronism. Kind goatherd, we would love to share a meal And watch the evening stars above us wheel. For by such means we will precisely know Our station now and where we next must go. Exeunt Omnes.
From Tales from the Matrix
âDo we really need to do this?â asked Charlotte as the band trudged wearily after the herdsman in their impractical shoes, âSurely the date and location heâs given you is enough?â
âPerhaps,â the Doctor replied, âbut studying the stars will allow me to be more accurate. Besides, Iâm famished. We havenât eaten for minus three thousand years, bear in mind.â
So the Doctor and his companions blithely headed off into further temporal confusion, unaware that the goatherd had seen the TARDIS arrive and knew full well who the Doctor was already.
Thereâs a lesson there for anyone who thinks itâs clever to keep their TARDIS in one form, donât you think? The Ionic Column factory preset might look nice, for example, but when using it means every Grun, Za and Caius in the Cosmos knows who you are immediately, it rather defeats the point of a chameleon circuit.
From The Primary Cressida document
One of our herdsmen saw the TARDIS arrive in the next valley this afternoon and instantly recognised it as the mobile temple that had prefigured the cityâs fall, and the Doctor as a younger version of the old man from my tales.
He sent his mate back to tell us so we all had time to prepare ourselves and could all pretend we believed the Doctorâs implausible story about being a trader from Phoenicia when he turned up an hour or so later.
Itâs definitely him, probably about 40 years before we met. He dresses similarly, his hair is curlier and darker and his face looks a bit different, but the years are never kind, are they? Amazingly, heâs almost as vague as a young man as he was when old, if not quite so ummy and erry. Iâd always assumed that was because he was getting on a bit.
Thankfully, no one hereâs too thrown by the idea of time travellers after me relating all my adventures to them, though one of the boys did ask me why the Doctor didnât walk and talk backwards when his past was in the future. I was very clear why not when I started explaining it, but I must admit I got a bit confused as I went along. He hasnât recognised me of course, dear diary, and weâve invited him and his friends to have tea tonight.
From Not Necessarily the Way I Do It!
Well, imagine my embarrassment when we arrived at the fellowâs encampment and who was in charge but my old friend Vicki (now calling herself Cressida of course) and her new husband Troilus, who Iâd never actually met, due to quite heavy escaping commitments around the time they got together.
I realised with a start that young Bill Shakespeare was due to write a play about this couple in a few years, and that unless I was careful thismeeting would almost certainly be what inspired it, thus complicating Billâs already tortuous history further and bringing yet another new paradox to mine. Iâd only let Vicki go away with Troilus at Troyâs fall because once I heard she was calling herself Cressida Iâd assumed it was predestined (well, I was young, I believed in that kind of thing), I knew there was a play about the couple by Shakespeare and thought I was helping history take its course by hitching them up. Now, if Iâd only done that because my future actions would one day bring that play about, Iâd accidentally made a big chunk of my past dependent on my future, which, as you know, isnât really the accepted way of going about things.
I reasoned it was vital for the tidiness of the time line that I kept Bill from learning the background of Troilus and Cressida in any detail, ideally forgetting as much of their present as he could too.
To complicate matters further, Vicki had actually seen Bill as an adult on my time telly, the Time Space Visualiser. She was never the most historically careful of girls, and I feared that if she found out who he was, sheâd probably tell him all about his future at the court of Elizabeth and getting the commission to write The Merry Wives of Windsor and the inspiration for Hamlet on the same day and how heâd sprained his wrist in his rush to write both.
All it might take, I thought, would be one slip from any one of us, accidentally mentioning the words TARDIS or Zeus Plug over dessert, say, and causality would be tangled up like President Pandakâs kittens in twine, quicker than you could explain what you pop in a Ganymede socket.
Luckily, it seemed Vicki hadnât spotted how anachronistic our garb was and hadnât realised I was her old friend, seeming to completely swallow my inventive tales of sea faring, despite Charleyâs rather fanciful insertions about hook-handed pirates.
I had, of course, underestimated her, as a quick and entirely accidental glance at her diary before dinner proved. Not knowing I could regenerate, she had taken me for my young self in my first form and thought she was protecting me from foreknowledge!
This, of course, suited my purpose. All I reckoned I had to do now to save Time from chewing itself to bits was keep Will busy and make sure Vicki didnât relate her history to any of us over dinner.
Oh what tangled webs we weave, when tidy temporal strands we try to leave.
From The Dairy of an Edwardian Adventuress
Mr and Mrs Troilus seemed a sweet couple, he a lanky chap with a curly beard and a well-meaning expression and she a rather enthusiastic young thing with big eyes, yet the Doctor had become rather shifty from the moment we met them. I knew he was preoccupied by something, but I had, at that time, no idea what. After some fun, improvising tales of derring-do on the high seas to prove our credentials as traders, he took me to one side and explained that I had to get Wilf as squiffy as possible at the feast that night for reasons it was simpler at that moment not to explain. He said history depended on me getting the boy so drunk he could neither speak nor remember his behaviour the next morning. Iâm normally quite good at that kind of thing, it was hardly my fault the Bawd was a functioning alcoholic at the age of eight.
From The Pseudo-Shackspur
The Noble Troyan Woman of Troy
Act 4, Scene 1. An encampment in the mountains. Enter Mistress Charley, Doctor Shallow, Young Will, a goatherd, Troilus, Cressida, divers villagers and guards severally.
Doct. Hello. (Aside) Her! âTis Vicki, I should have guessâd. I never with good geography was blessâd Hisarlik is the modern name for Troy. Quite a temporal tangle, boy oh boy! (To Cress.) Ha ha, my hearties! We here are sailors three. (Aside) I can but hope she does not see âtis me.
Cress. (Aside) Deceit upon deception! Can this be The Doctor who I first took it to be? Is this him when young as I assumed? Or must deeper deceit be presumed? Iâll play along until the truth I know. (To Doct.) Good mariners, welcome and hello.
Will. (To Char.) Whatâs this strange accented charade about?
Char. (To Will) Who knows, weâll be, I bet, last to find out.
From Tales from the Matrix
Yes Time Tots, exactly! The first thing any of us would have done would have been to get out of there quickly before we compromised the causal nexus. Staying for tea and imbibing too much ethanol, which youâll recall the Doctor had a particular weakness for on his motherâs side, doesnât strike any of us as sensible!
From The Secondary Cressida document (a transcribed fragment allegedly found at a Church of Rome jumble sale) â Even More Suppressed Texts of the Vatican Library, A Hatper-Mysteria- Ellerycorp Press Original, 2977 CE
My ruse worked, the robotâs read my carefully exposed diary and thinks I suspect nothing! Heâs so obviously not really the Doctor itâs not true, but he doesnât know I know that yet, so we have the advantage. Heâs definitely a Dalek robot double like that other one they sent after us.
Theyâve probably made him the young Doctor this time to make it less obvious. He does look a bit like he could be him sometimes if youâre not paying attention, but if you look closely his face is all wrong and his voice goes a bit funny sometimes like that other robotâs did, almost doing my accent at times! I think heâs probably feeding on my jumbled memories or something.
Weâll overpower him and his companions at dinner tonight and destroy them, they wonât expect me to know how to deactivate them.
From Not Necessarily the Way I Do It!
Iâve always been keen on wine, particularly the heavier oaky reds, though I find there is a rather tiresome tendency for them to be drugged by villainous blackguards sometimes, rather impairing the subtleties of the flavour, but wine in the Homeric era was quite a different proposition. What can I tell you about it except that it tasted awful but did the job?
It wasnât the heavily resinated stuff the Greeks later went in for, thankfully, nor indeed that watered-down muck the ancient Romans used to dish out at parties, but I think itâs telling that the most flattering thing Homer had to say about it in the whole of The Iliad was how like the sea it was in hue. When you bear in mind he was blind, you can tell heâd had to ask around a bit to find anyone with something positive to say about it.
The food wasnât much better either. It can be terribly hard eating out when you travel like I do. These days at home, I generally try to eat only things that donât have a central nervous system, or that Iâve knocked up in the food machine, but sometimes, when youâre a guest, qualms like that have to go out of the window, particularly on worlds ruled by intelligent plants, where youâre best advised not to ask for a celery stick and to just stick your toes in damp soil like everyone else at the table.
Even then I try to stick to my principles and not eat anything with a sense of self, parliamentary democracy or sultanas in it.
This dinner was a particularly awkward affair; Charley acting like a slightly sloshed pirate queen, Vicki acting like she didnât know me, Bill acting up, singing lewd madrigals that officially werenât due for invention yet in his rather reedy girlish voice, and all the while me worrying about causality falling apart around me rather too much to fully enjoy the dolmades.
Suddenly, half way through the proceedings, the impossible happened: it took a turn for the worse. Vicki shouted out âNow!â, and lunged at my chest and started tearing at my waistcoat.
From The Dairy of an Edwardian Adventuress
My recollections of the ensuing events are somewhat hazy; I had been struggling to match young Wilt measure for measure, you might say, when I saw the Doctor being attacked. I launched myself at his assailant and missed, Iâm told, briefly losing my dignity and consciousness in the process.
A shocking melee ensued by all accounts, with Trajans tearing at our clothes with cutlery and all the usual business with tables being turned and the like breaking out; Iâm only glad I canât remember the full details, because what little I do makes me blush quite enough.
Itâs quite possible I told someone I loved them, and was sick later too. Iâve never been brave enough to ask. The next thing I remember clearly was being in the main tent with the Doctor explaining a lot and me apologising a bit, just in case.
From The Pseudo-Shackspur
The Noble Troyan Woman of Troy
Act 5, Scene 2. At dinner beneath the stars.
Cress. Take that, false Doctor! But where are your wires? In sparks and puffs of smoke you should expire. Could it be that you are the Doctor true?
Char. Get your claws off him, heâs mine, you wild shrew!
Will. Oh, Pillicock sat on pillicock
Char. Will you stop that terrible singing, Will? The Doctor and I are under attack From this Troyan host, while youâre supping sack. Join in the scrap and cease your carousel Lewd songs, anyhow, douse all arousal.
Doct. Vicki, Will, Charley, all, put down those knives! Youâre all making the mistakes of your lives.
Cress. Vicki, you say? You should not know that yet. If youâre the young Doctor, weâve not yet met.
Doct. Vicki, the reason that I know your name Is that inwardly I am still the same Man who left you at Troy some years ago, I can change my looks, if you didnât know. Char. Doctor, do you mean that you know this wench?
Doct. We travelled together many years hence. I think itâs time I explainâd the full truth Of why Iâve deceived you all, forsooth.
Will. If sheâs an old friend then tell me why You did keep that fact from Charley and I?
Doct. This is an old friend, Will, but, what is worse, She features, in decasyllabic verse, In a drama that you shall one day pen That means I shall leave her with this Troyan, If you only write it because youâre here Chronological conundra appear. Effects and causes whirl and spin about, Go through the wringer and turn inside out. The egg that hatches out your chicken Does in that self same chicken thicken.
From Tales from the Matrix
Then in direct contravention of fifteen universal laws of Time and two local statutes, the Doctor sat down and explained everything that had happened, and, in explaining it, he brought all the things he was worried about happening that hadnât into the open, didnât he?
Of course, it turned out that some of the things he was worried about were of no concern at all, but as a result of relating them he brought worse problems about.
I expect most of you have read stories about the Doctor in other books, and I expect some of you think heâs quite clever, even though he breaks a lot of rules, donât you? Well, youâre right! In a crisis, heâs just the kind of person you need around, he can come up with ideas almost no one else could. The only problem is, when youâre not having a crisis, heâs just the kind of person to cause one.
From The Primary Cressida document
How embarrassing. It turns out the Doctor was the Doctor after all, only older and with a new face for some strange reason. The girl who drinks too much is his latest companion and the little boy with the dirty songs and the voice like a girl is William Shakespeare! Nice enough lad, no wonder he ends up in the theatre with that voice though, perfect for all those drag roles they gave boys. We had a lovely chat about Dido and Aeneas and told each other about our scrapes with the Daleks, and I let slip the odd thing I knew about his future.
Heâs told me we should go and settle in England. Apparently thereâs an old book heâs read by a chap called Geoffrey that says relatives of Aeneas were the first Britons I think itâs a super idea, â I know Troilus will like it in England, and I think weâve persuaded the Doctor too! Just think! could be one of my own ancestors passing on my secret diaries for years and years, a bit like mummyâs family did! How smashing would that be?
From Not Necessarily the Way I Do It!
Of course I decided in the end that honesty would be the best policy and that as long as everyone knew the full facts, and swore not to be influenced by them, we could probably darn the hole in causality in such a way that it wouldnât show. I sat everyone down in the central tent and explained. Well, what a Charlie I looked!
*** From The Dairy of an Edwardian Adventuress
Ridiculously, the Doctor had been worried about Wilf getting inspiration for the play Troilus and Cressida from meeting the real Troilus and Cressida! I protested that Wilf had already read his own plays in the future anyhow, but the Doctor countered that theyâd have been corrupted playing texts and in a court of law it would be hard to prove that was down to him, whereas if Will had got any of the plot or characterisation directly through his adventures with us that was a bit more serious.
That was when Will started laughing.
From The Pseudo-Shackspur
The Noble Troyan Woman of Tray Act 5, Scene 4. A tent in the camp.
Will. But Doctor, I did not invent the tale Of Troilus and Cressidaâs love that failâd. Why, Geoffrey Chaucer told it years ago! I cannot believe that you did not know. Have you read even half of what you claim Or do you just like dropping well-known names? Cressidaâs tale is part of tradition Not the result of my precognition Of future perfect past present events, If you will forgive me my mangled tense, And my quondumque futures version Should have put you off this girlâs desertion.
Char. You should have read your Brodieâs Notes on Will. The phantom threat you feared from his quill Was nothing but an insubstantial shade, And thereâs a real spectre here Iâm afraid. Iâm half a ghost of Christmas yet to come, Remember, Iâve made history come undone. Youâve got paradoxes enough to be Getting on with, as far as I can see, So why do you search for new ones instead That only exist inside of your head?
Doct. If I had known the work of me laddo Would I have found menace in my shadow? I here resolve to watch much less TV And be the reader I do claim to be. For half my erudite orations Come straight from books of quotations.
From Tales from the Matrix
âWhat was Helen of Troy actually like then?â asked William Shaxberd as he helped himself to more wine.
âIs,â corrected the Doctor, prissily.
âSheâs a good egg by all accounts,â said Vicki, politely not mentioning the fact she thought her looks had gone, âand Menelaus was happy enough to have her back, even after all the bother, so she must be quite nice when you get to know her, I suppose.â
âWell, she would have to be a good egg really,â said William, âHer father was a swan supposedly.â Like most young human men of his generation, he knew the salacious bits of Greek Mythology surprisingly well.
âHalf human on his motherâs side?â smiled the Doctor, thinking himself clever. âArenât we all?â
âNo, just men,â said Charlotte through a falafel.
âShe has two birthdays they say, one when the egg came out of her mother and another when it hatched,â Troilus revealed, leaning forward over the table and whispering in that conspiratorial manner people sometimes do when divulging well known but dubious trivia.
âIt would have been an easy birth if she was born an egg,â said Vicki ruefully, one hand on her stomach.
âAn easy lay, you mean,â William corrected.
âSo Paris said ââTroilus began, his eyes a twinkle.
He was shouted down by his wife seconds later, barrack room tale untold, and one of those awkward silences ensued that dinner party guests in all cultures and times know only too well.
âHave you actually read Troilus and Cressida, Doctor?â asked Charlotte a little later.
âYou ask me, who had a hand in some of Shakespeareâs finest work â who put the mixed metaphor in the âTo be or not to beâ soliloquy, who hired the bear for The Winterâs Tale, and who really shouldnât have passed on the story of A Midsummerâs Night Dream, if Iâve read Troilus and Cressida?â replied the Doctor, rather over-egging it in that way he usually did when he was on the defensive.
âYes!â they cried as one.
âWell, no,â admitted the Doctor. âItâs supposed to be one of the better ones, and well, you know, Iâve been busy. Iâve still not managed to tune the Time Space Visualiser in to catch all of The Golden Girls and Iâve been trying for decades.â
âShe doesnât end up with Troilus in it, she ends up with Diomede, anditâs set during the war not after it!â said Charlotte patiently.
âDiomede! That was Steven!â Vicki laughed.The Doctor looked confused. âVicki and Steven were just friends,werenât you? Just the odd haircut and getting locked up together, Ithought.â
âYes, thatâs right, how many times do we have to go through that?âVicki explained, giving a petulant Troilus a peck on the cheek.
âWell the legend must have got a bit confused by the time it gotwritten down I think Chaucer got it from a foreign book,â said William,draining his goblet.
The Doctor beamed, thinking heâd got away with his tinkering again.âSo Troilus and Cressida werenât predestined after all!â he said
âWell, only because of your lack of reading,â snorted Charlotte.
âOh that is a relief,â said the Doctor taking the wine jug from William and helping himself without asking.
âNow what about this business of giving us charts to help us reach this Britain young Will spoke of?â asked Troilus, passing the Doctor a goatâs cheese nibble.
âI really shouldnât,â explained the Doctor. âIf you go there, on the basis of the frankly dubious history of Geoffrey of Monmouth then Vicki is in danger of becoming one of her own descendants, which is at least as badas the things Iâve been trying to prevent all day.â
âOh go on Doctor, please!â begged Vicki. âWe could mine tin in Cornwall and Iâd promise not to invent anything I shouldnât as long as I lived, not even roller skates!â
âI donât think I should. Iâve made enough of a mess looking after young Charley here, the repercussions of me sending you to Britain because the unborn Shakespeare suggested it could be horrendous,â said the Doctor, finally being responsible for once in his lives.
âOh go on Doctor, Iâm unborn too, remember, so that shouldnât matte rmuch,â said Vicki.
âAnd Iâm only half here,â said Charlotte grimly âWhy stop messing about now? You should have stayed at home watching these Golden Girls of yours if you werenât prepared to get involved in real peopleâs lives. Theyâre messy and not always in the order youâd like and sometimes too short, and theyâre not always better for having you in them, but you either face that or hide away somewhere, donât you?
âThe Doctor kissed her.
âWhat was that for?â asked Charlotte.
âTo shut you up,â he said. He tapped Vicki on the nose and smiled,âCome on, letâs carry on the party, and in the morning, when rosy-fingered Dawn has done her bit, weâll sort out a good map of Europe for the Trojans and get them started on their boats. Any consequences which havenât happened yet we can worry about later!â
Some of you will be shocked at just how naughty the Doctor was in this story: jeopardising the stability of all those will-have-might-have-been futures out there depending on him by interweaving all those strands of destiny connected to the Dalek race and all on the basis of a whim.
The Doctor already knew Dalek causality was partially snagged in a loop in Time and his friend was the focus of a temporal anomaly, but of course he had spent a jolly long time in the Vortex, hadnât he? That meant his causal connections to events future, past and maybe- somehow were a great deal more jumbled up than most peopleâs and he was quite good at judging just how likely to snaggle the Web of Time his whims might be.
Or so he thought.
The Doctor believed in two very wrong things you see; firstly, in something he called personal morality that he thought was more important than doing the things simply everyone knows are right, and secondly, that he was cleverer than everyone else and could always sort things out.
He deserved what happened to him next, didnât he?
Document from the Braxiatel Collection Shakespearean Ephemera wing, a note found in the effects of William Shakespeare by literary assessor Porlock. It is not believed to be in Shakespeareâs hand though it bears some graphological similarities to the disputed Scarlioni Hamlet manuscript.
List of things not to mention
The Daleks,
That youâve met me before when we meet next (because you didnât mention it last time, you know),
That youâve read half your plays already
That I wrote all the good bits in Hamlet, [âgood bitsâ later amended to ârubbish bitsâ in a different hand]
The idea of cigars (until Raleigh gets back from abroad),
That cigars will end up named after some of your characters,
That someone called Raleigh will go abroad,
That Troilus and Cressida had a lovely marriage and lived happily ever after in Mousehole, no matter how the story goes in Chaucer,
Oh, the places youâve gone and the things that youâve seen
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Hi EvansBlues, Red Flower here,
I was wondering if you were planning to do a post for the collective on the energy for the lunar eclipse on October 28 ? October has been a powerful month in terms of energy, and the end of the month may have some messages for us ?
I'd also like to give a message to the collective about healing, because there's a huge healing going on right now for humanity. Once again, I'm going to use CE's prism, since this page is dedicated to him and without realizing it, he has already embraced his role as leader of the collective.
Do you think sometime after Chrisâ FS comes into the picture, heâll quit some of all his vices ie smoking, alcohol, etc?? Not because she asked him to, but he wonât see the need to be use them at all or a lot.//
Chris will quit his bad habit before FS will come to the picture, cause when you're on the move to achieve reunion with your soulmate, it means your vibration is responding to the energy of the other. As long as his energy is low, he has no right to approach her. Someone who has a healthy lifestyle and has managed to understand who she is cannot be attracted by chaos. Right now, CE is chaos.
People who get out of addiction do so not because they've been asked to, but because they're fed up ! They're fed up with not feeling good. It's the only way to never fall back into addictions. Before FS, he'll want to focus on his health. Both mentally and physically, and this will enable him to establish a kind of routine that will bring him stability. He's also going to write, because as he won't be able to talk to the people around him about what's really going on in his head, he'll want an escape route to get out what's inside him. I don't know if it's a diary or just words on scraps of paper; but it'll help him get his emotions out. For alcohol and drugs, he'll need someone. But it won't last long, because he already knows deep down that it's a bad thing; in reality he just needs to talk without being judged. To get what's inside him out and free himself. And a little before the meeting with FS, when he'll have understood that he's the answer to all his questions, a profound spiritual awakening will take place. The people around him won't recognize him, because he'll be reborn : the famous Phoenix !
This is how the balance of light and shadow works. You have to illuminate the shadows to be able to see them, so that it no longer haunts you.
Namaste. Infinite Gratitude :)
Iâll do another eclipse reading and possibly one for Samhain. I wait for the energies.
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Hellow !
Un petit extrait dâAyakashi 03 (partie 1, la seconde moitiĂŠ est dans le post qui suit) pour la route !^^ (une des parties sympas du tome, le âHiro Gaidenâ).
[A little snippet of Ayakashi 03 (part 1, second half is in the next post) for the road!^^]
[(one of the cool parts of the tome, the âHiro Gaidenâ)]
Beaucoup le savaient, Hiro, comme Haitani font partie de mon petit package de persos pour qui jâai beaucoup dâaffection (mon âtop 10â , qui est plus en fait un âtop 15â^^).
[Many knew that, Hiro, as Haitani are part of my small package of people for whom I have a lot of affection (my âtop 10â , which is more actually a âtop 15â^^)]
Et jâavoue que pouvoir montrer pas mal de choses Ă leur sujet me fait super plaisir.
[And I admit that being able to show quite a few things about them makes me really happy]
Jâespère que ce tome vous permettra de les redĂŠcouvrir et de les apprĂŠcier autant que moi !^^
[I hope this tome will allow you to rediscover and enjoy them as much as I do!^^]
Hâte de vous montrer biiiien plus via ce prochain tome qui sortira dĂŠbut Octobre 2024 ! (le tome avait ĂŠtĂŠ initialement prĂŠvu de mon cĂ´tĂŠ pour Japan Expo, mais ⌠voilĂ , petite incomprĂŠhension avec mon ĂŠditeur qui ne lâavait pas prĂŠvu aussi tĂ´t; quâĂ cela ne tienne, jâai⌠rajoutĂŠ des pages en bonus, pour le coup. UuU=)
[Looking forward to showing you soooo much more through this next volume coming out early October 2024! (the tome was originally planned on my part for Japan Expo, but⌠there you go, a little misunderstanding with my publisher who didnât plan it so early; thatâs not what itâs like, Iâve⌠added bonus pages, just in case. UuU=)]
Bref, Ă vos agendas pour les fans de la sĂŠrie, le tome est pour bientĂ´t, et vous verrez, il sera mis bien en preview quand mĂŞme Ă la JE.^^ Plus dâinfos Ă suivre ! ^^= ********
[Anyway, on your diaries for fans of the series, the tome is coming soon, and youâll see, it will be previewed well anyway at the European Championship.^^ More info to follow! ^^=]******** @poizongirl
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Iâm so annoyed by this J-vorce and Jared and Jensen are avoiding each other crap. Even if they were purposely not doing the same European cons as each other by choice (besides JIB), and not because they cost too much to book together, it still wouldnât point to them not being friends or disliking each other. They are still actors and wanting to be the main focus of a con (without sharing the spotlight) isnât exactly a crime or indication of a falling out. Itâs business, especially when they havenât actually started in anything together in three years now. Also, as youâve pointed out in your posts, they are still doing plenty of cons together, as in almost all North American ones and JIB. And they still do both gold and the main panel together with CE. They donât have to do that if they donât want to. The Vampire Diaries bros only do a shared Gold Panel from what Iâve seen. J2 could demand that if they really wanted to.
You also pointed out that we canât actually tell the state of their relationship based off of just public appearances or cherry-picking things theyâve said. I totally agree with this. But, if how they appear in public counts for anything, I can say they still get along really well in person based on how they acted while doing photo ops together (in between pics, not counting poses that have been requested) as they were in super good moods in Charlotte last weekend when together. I also had their joint Meet & Greet, and while I canât talk about what they said, I can confirm that they appeared very comfortable with each other and got carried away with reminiscing about joint experiences. I know they are actors, but even in the more "private" setting there was no stilted interaction or awkwardness, and itâs not like weâve never seen either guy come across slightly awkward with another actor during a panel.
Honestly, even if their friendship has changed, I still enjoy seeing J2 together and I really donât get a vibe of dislike between them at all, so unless one of them says otherwise, Iâm just going to assume they are still friends while also being grown-ups who have busy separate lives. I barely see my own friends because of work any family commitments and we arenât even actors.
You're absolutely right and clearly too sensible to be in this fandom. Quite honestly, my expectation (well before prequelgate) was that they'd probably make more of a point of promoting themselves and their new projects separately than they actually have done. Because while it looks good to still have friendly relationships with former coworkers, being seen as one half of J2 isn't exactly the most sensible way to promote themselves anymore.
The people who are so obsessed with the idea of them doing literally ANYTHING separately being A Very Important Clue about the state of their relationship that should get super extra special weight because because?
They KNOW their fave!J must hate the other guy now, because they really really desperately want it to be so. They just have to find the right proof, and everyone will have to admit how superior they are for seeing The Truth before everybody else!
Which should sound very familiar, because it's just
They KNOW their ship is real, because they really really desperately want it to be so. They just have to find the right proof, and everyone will have to admit how superior they are for seeing The Truth before everybody else!
wearing a new hat. New day, same old secret decoder rings and fandom is a competition bullshit.
I agree with you, I haven't seen any kind of increased awkwardness in their interactions. Is that because their relationship hasn't significantly changed or because they're just that professional? I have my opinion, but I'm not sitting around breathlessly waiting for the next time they do/don't do a con together thinking surely this time will prove they really can/can't stand each other. Because ... FFS.
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By: Christopher F. Rufo
Published: Apr 17, 2024
Katherine Maher has a golden rĂŠsumĂŠ, with stints and affiliations at UNICEF, the Atlantic Council, the World Economic Forum, the State Department, Stanford University, and the Council on Foreign Relations. She was chief executive officer and executive director of the Wikimedia Foundation. And, as of last month, she is CEO of National Public Radio.
Mere weeks into this new role, Maher has stepped into controversy. Long-time NPR senior editor Uri Berliner published a scathing indictment of the self-professed âpublicâ media serviceâs ideological capture. Rather than address the substance of these criticismsâwhich will ring true to anyone who has listened to NPR over the past decadeâMaher punished Berliner with a five-day unpaid suspension. (Berliner announced his resignation from NPR earlier today.)
But Maher has another problem: her archive of 29,400 tweets.
I have spent the past few days exploring Maherâs prolific history on social media, which she seems to have used as a private diary, narrating her every thought, emotion, meeting, and political opinion in real-time. This archive is a collection of her statements, but at a deeper level, it provides a window into the soul of a uniquely American archetype: the affluent, white, female liberalâmany of whom now sit atop our elite institutions.
What you notice first about Maherâs public speech are the buzzwords and phrases: âstructural privilege,â âepistemic emergency,â âtransit justice,â ânon-binary people,â âlate-stage capitalism,â âcis white mobility privilege,â âthe politics of representation,â âfolx.â She supported Black Lives Matter from its earliest days. She compares driving cars with smoking cigarettes. She is very concerned about âtoxic masculinity.â
On every topic, Maher adopts the fashionable language of left-wing academic theory and uses it as social currency, even when her efforts veer into self-parody. She never explains, never provides new interpretationâshe just repeats the phrases, in search of affirmation and, when the time is right, a promotion.
Maher understands the game: Americaâs elite institutions reward loyalty to the narrative. Those who repeat the words move up; those who donât move out.
Next, you notice the partisanship. Maher was âexcitedâ about Elizabeth Warren in 2012. She âjust [couldnât] wait to voteâ for Hillary in 2016. She once had a dream about âsampling and comparing nuts and baklava on roadside standsâ with Kamala Harris. She worked to âget out the voteâ in Arizona for Joe Biden but slightly resented being called a âBiden supporterâ; for her, it was simply a matter of being a âsupporter of human rights, dignity, and justice.â
Donald Trump, on the other hand, is a âderanged racist sociopath.â
If you read Maherâs tweets closely, you also get glimpses of the human being. She spent much of her time in airports, taxis, meetings, and conferences. She expressed anger over the fact that most first-class flyers were white men, then noted that she went straight âto the back of the bus.â In her thirties, unmarried and without children, she felt the need to explain that âthe planet is literally burningâ and that she could not, in good conscience, âbring a child into a warming world.â
Behind the frenetic activity and the moral posturing, you wonder. Maher once posted her daily routine, which involved yoga, iced coffee, back-to-back meetings, and Zoom-based psychotherapy. She resented being served maternity advertisements on Instagram, she said. She was not âcurrently in the market for a babyâ and would not be âtending her ovariesâ according to the dictates of American capitalism.Â
Americans, even CEOs, are entitled to their opinions and to their own life decisions, of course. But the personal and psychological elements that suffuse Maherâs public persona seem to lead to political conclusions that are, certainly, worthy of public criticism.
The most troubling of these conclusions is her support for radically narrowing the range of acceptable opinions. In 2020, she argued that the New York Times should not have published Senator Tom Cottonâs op-ed, âSend in the Troops,â during the George Floyd riots. In 2021, she celebrated the banishment of then-president Donald Trump from social media, writing: âMust be satisfying to deplatform fascists. Even more satisfying? Not platforming them in the first place.â
As CEO of the Wikimedia Foundation, Maher made censorship a critical part of her policy, under the guise of fighting âdisinformation.â In a speech to the Atlantic Council, an organization with extensive ties to U.S. intelligence services, she explained that she âtook a very active approach to disinformation,â coordinated censorship âthrough conversations with government,â and suppressed dissenting opinions related to the pandemic and the 2020 election.
In that same speech, Maher said that, in relation to the fight against disinformation, the âthe number one challenge here that we see is, of course, the First Amendment in the United States.â These speech protections, Maher continued, make it âa little bit trickyâ to suppress âbad informationâ and âthe influence peddlers who have made a real market economy around it.â
Maherâs general policy at Wikipedia, she tweeted, was to support efforts to âeliminate racist, misogynist, transphobic, and other forms of discriminatory contentââwhich, under current left-wing definitions, could include almost anything to the right of Joe Biden.
The new CEO of NPR, then, is a left-wing ideologue who supports wide-scale censorship and considers the First Amendment an impediment to her campaign to sanitize the world of wrong opinions.
Maher is no aberration. She is part of a rising cohort of affluent, left-wing, female managers who dominate the departments of university administration, human resources, and DEI. They are the matriarchs of the American Longhouse: they value safety over liberty, censorship over debate, and relativism over truth.
Each social gambit is designed for smothering the institution in ideology. Maher says that she knows âthat hysteric white woman voice.â She has âdone it.â And while she might not be proud of itâshe is aware that she has âa big fat privilege passââshe is willing to do what it takes to move the dictates of conventional left-wing opinion into a position of domination.
It didnât begin at NPR, and it wonât end there.
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The First Amendment being viewed as an impediment to what she wants to do, is not a good look for the CEO of a publicly (i.e. government, i.e. taxpayer) funded broadcaster.
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it's funny seeing people who've followed me on here for years (probably since i was "michael konietzko") who never interact with my posts ever but are still active because it's like... i hope you're enjoying scrolling past my diary every day. we don't know each other and i don't think i post specifically enough on here about things that happen in my life that you would really know what my posts mean alors il faut deviner ce qui se passe dans ma vie et c'est vraiment magnifique
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"CTE isn't real" - man who is probably suffering from it.
Just saw a post on Reddit sharing this article:
And wanted to write about it. The Reddit post itself was eight hours old, anything I posted would be washed away like a sand castle, so I wasn't going to. Then I remembered I made a Tumblr blog for what I hope will someday become my writing handle, figured I could just dump my thoughts on the matter here just to get it out of my system. Treat this like a diary.
Anyways, here we go.
Steve Austin isn't a scientist. I think if you gave him an IQ test today, he'd probably score above average, but not to a degree that makes you do a whistle. He's quick witted, got a good head on his shoulders, learned from past mistakes, and a whole load of other colloquialisms towards 'He ain't math smart, but he knows his ass from a hole in the ground.' Whether he believes in it or not though, CTE is real, but for once and on an individual level I don't condemn him like I usually do science deniers. I won't apologize on his behalf or try and excuse it, but I do understand where he's coming from.
If you compare Austin to his most generalised peers, other retired professional wrestlers, the most obvious difference would be in his legend. Although Austin didn't climb up the totem pole of the world like the Rock did, Dwayne Johnson is the only one who could compare to him in terms of fame, fortune, and legacy. They were the pinnacle of the pinnacle in terms of wrestling stardom. And looking at them now? They're both... Fine. Neither one of them seems to be suffering truly horrendous side effects from a career fraught with brain injury.
Steve WAS seriously injured though. His neck was broken at one point during a match thanks to his opponent's mistake, and it completely changed his entire methodology towards how he performed his job. He went from being, to use a metaphor, a seamster who made complex and intricate doilies to spinning silk. His wrestling style was forced to change from chain-wrestling into big, flashy moves that weren't hard to pull off outside of the fact that fuck they hurt. So he does comprehend that life-changing things can occur in the ring, it's just that CTE wasn't one that hampered him.
Don't let the change in his work fool you, though, he was still fantastic at what he did. He wasn't just handed his spot on the top of the bill on a silver platter, he fought tooth and nail to get it, and it was inarguable that he deserved it. Despite what my own borderline-communist views might tell me to say, affluenza is a real thing. Neither he nor his only true equal in the industry suffered from debilitating mental issues after their careers were over, the only ones who did were those beneath them. It's not hard to imagine how that could lead to him having a (less than altruistic and externally mindful) point of view that says CTE isn't real, 'the consequences of sucking at your job do though'.
As I said, this isn't me making excuses for him, it's just me putting into words why I'm able to understand it well enough that I don't think way less of him for it.
It's such a dissonance to know that you've gotten hit in the head with chairs, been dropped on your skull by uncareful amateurs, been punched square in the jaw more times than you can count, and been in countless other CTE-causing situations and NOT suffering from it. Not noticeably, anyways. Although no one but whoever does a potential autopsy on the man can say for certain, it wouldn't surprise me at all if Austin was a great deal less intelligent than he could've been. That he does suffer from it, but that it's dropped him to a level that falls within the bell curve of normality and thus leads to him seeming unaffected.
Plus, the disease only gets worse. I'm sure there's some treatment that will come out tomorrow or next year or next century or in Futurama that will cure it, but for now, as far as I know, it's a degenerative issue that only has the one trajectory. And that's a terrifying thought if you've still got enough of your brain to recognise the reaper might come to collect his due. Can you imagine that paranoia hanging over your head like a guillotine, that someday everything will have changed without you noticing, and suddenly you have some orderly napkinning your lips between bites of oatmeal or apple sauce? Trying to live with the notion you've sacrificed your cognitive well being for all that fortune, fame, and legend; but the tab hasn't been paid yet?
I'd probably deny that such a thing is possible too.
Ignorance is bliss.
I can't write off or ignore Steve Austin denying CTE is a real thing. I can't pretend like I don't think less of him, because that man is a hero to countless kids and young adults who dream of being the king of wrestling, just like he was. Charles Barkley once infamously said in a commercial that 'I am not a role model', but that doesn't mean that when you've taken all that your industry has to give anyone, people aren't going to model themselves after you. It's a dangerous thing to tell impressionable and reckless dreamers that there's no consequences to putting your brain at risk.
I can't write it off, but I do understand where he's coming from.
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YOU and Robyn Wals and John MacDonald are so close to the same epiphany as Molly Worthens but you are blinded by the ideological blinkers of the criticql historical method of the Post Modern Historic Deconstruction, History is a zero-sum subset of literature. A minor genre, thoughmetaphycially necessary for a healthy society. Forensics occurs in the here/now of the mythos and , like F. Scott, carried backwars against the current. As you read this, your eyes are moving along with the wave of the futue that William F. Bukcley proposed to accomplish with Project 2025. Project 2025 started out as the Young Americans for Freedom, the leading  edge of the Conservative insrugency committed to dismantling the administrative state of the neo=liberalism of Eisenhower's 1956 Presidetnil Platform and replacing it with a rip-off of the harmonization of Mars's Das Kapital and Hitler's Meim Kampf with a dab of Atlas Shrugged and a midgen of the Turner Diaries thrown in for the white supremacist thugs How project 2025 got started is pretty much the same way the Jesus Conspiracy got started as a consequence of the Talking Cross and the public slaughter of Sejanus a year and a half before. By the astronomy, Good Friday occurred in 33 CE.  A collegue of Peter J. Williams tacked it down using the astronomy charts of the Magi. That's the point:. The Palestine Bible, as a proxy for the genre, is a literary project of the Magi, beginning with the Book of Job. In terms of Christian literatue, the primacy rests on Cornelius. He is the common denominator in the Gospels and Acts. He is the linke between Luke and Theophilus. HE was in the room with Pilate during the interrogation of Jesus of Nazareth, He probably prepared the paper work for the transmittal of Pilate's euangelion to Tibeius and arranged for the pony express to expedite the delivery. Pilate's lost euangelion is the first written record of JEsus. It was composed of the harminizaton of Mark 15:1 - 16:8 and the Gospel of Peter. I don't know if the Magi had the Talking Cross in mind when they launched the Book of Job literary project, but the object of the exercise was to create the metaphysics necessary to produce Apollo 11.  I think they expected to put man on the moon by 3240 CE, but the Talking Cross accelerated that process by 1200 years. And that convenant between the Jewish god and the centurions of the Italian Regiment represented by Cornelius was the tidings of Joy Pilate reported to Tiberius and all the rest that was reported in Book V of Tertullian's Apology, Cornelius had Pilate's euangelion when the Holy Spirit arranged for Peter to come in out of the cold and provide testimony from inside the Jeesus Insurgency, summurized in Acts 10,:34 - 43, This becomes the narrative arc of the Gospel of Marrk that connects a series of dots from the intelligence archives of the 10th Legion generally understood to be Quelle. And Peter's Confession in harminization with the contents of Pilate's euangelion become the euangelion of Mark 1.!, Acts 15:7 and the 19 citations in Paul's Epistles. I don't hold a bried for the "lost Gospel of Mark" and all the controversy, but the nature of the literature around it suggests to be the working of an editorial board which includes Cornelius and St/Mark in Alexandria and Theophilus as to the composition of the Gospel of John, which is the memoirs of St Makr from when he was a 12 year old John Mark who encounters Jesus during the Passover of his Bar Mitzvah year and gloms unto Him as his rebbe, until he is 15 at the foot of the cross and is totally grossed out when the sokdier splits Jesus wide open to make sure He is dead. The Gospel of Mark is a psychological flat line, bu the Gospel fo John comes straight from the Shadow of John Mark/St. Mark like hearing a favortie song from your childhood if you are into Jungian Psychology. Hegel's Post Modern Litary Deconstrucion reveals all this without all the drama over what Jesus said to whom, or didn't say, accroding to the Jesus Seminar v Pr0-Life solo scriptura. N.t. Wright believes he rejects Hegel, but he's the essence of the harmonization of Paulice Theology with the Cruid Christiology of the Chruch of England,     You all have wonderful scholarship and if you re-organize it around Richard Bauckham's eye witness thesis but with Cornelius as the source of the midn map and not Peter  you will be delighted with the New Insights to the Gospels yuo can bring to Bart "GIggles" Ehrman's seminar.  Â
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Bring Me the Horizon - Post Human: Survival Horror, traduzione testi
Mettete fine alle mie sofferenze
La mia mente sembra la mia nemica numero uno
(da: 1x1)
1. Bring Me the Horizon â Dear Diary, traduzione
Caro diario,
   Caro diario,
Non so cosa sta succedendo ma câè qualcosa che non va
Il cane non la smette di abbaiare e mi sa che ho la TV rotta
Câè la stessa cosa su tutti i canali, câè da impazzire
E prima qualcuno mi ha morso
Che cazzo di giornata
   Sta finendo il mondo
Cazzo, che noia
Mi si spegne il cervello, isolato
Dio è uno stronzo, e noi siamo i suoi scarti
Traumatizzati per colazione
Io altri survival horror non li digerisco
   Caro diario,
Mi prude dappertutto, come se avessi degli insetti nella pelle
Il cane è diventato rabbioso (Basta, cazzo!), mi spacca la testa
Continuo a svegliarmi e riaddormentarmi
Non so dove sono stato
Che fame che ho
Che diavolo succede?
   Sta finendo il mondo
Cazzo, che noia
Mi si spegne il cervello, isolato
Dio è uno stronzo, e noi siamo i suoi scarti
Traumatizzati per colazione
Io altri survival horror non li digerisco
   Caro diario,
Il cane ha smesso di abbaiare, probabilmente perchĂŠ gli ho mangiato la faccia
âBuono. Prurito.â
La TV dice che non câè piĂš la razza umana
Un poâ triste che la mia intera esistenza sia stata uno spreco
Vabbè, fa niente, non è mica la fine del mondo⌠aspetta
       2. Bring Me the Horizon â Parasite Eve, traduzione
Parasite Eve
   ĐĐ°ĐşŃивиН Đľ каНпаŃĐľŃĐž оК Ńака, па Ńака
ĐанагОŃĐľ-нанадОНо, оК Ńака, па Ńака
ĐĐ°ĐşŃивиН Đľ каНпаŃĐľŃĐž оК Ńака, па Ńака
ĐанагОŃĐľ-нанадОНо, оК Ńака, па Ńака **
   Ho la febbre, non respirarmi addosso
Sono uno che non crede in nessuno
Non mi fanno andare via perchĂŠ ho visto qualcosa
Spero di non starnutire, di non⌠ecciÚ!
Davvero, abbiamo solo bisogno di aver paura di qualcosa
Facendo solo finta di provare qualcosa
Lo so che non vedi lâora di scappare
Voglio farti girare
   Per favore, restate calmi
Ă arrivata la fine
Non possiamo salvarvi, buon viaggio
Ă il momento che stavate aspettando
Non prendetelo come un avvertimento: questa è una guerra
   à la Parasite Eve
Te lo senti nella pancia, sai che sta venendo a cercarti
Lascia i fiori come segno di lutto
Non ti dimenticare cosa ti hanno detto
Quando ci dimenticheremo lâinfezione, ce la ricorderemo la lezione?
Se non ti uccide lâattesa, lo farĂ qualcosâaltro
   Scatenatevi
   Ho sentito che hanno bisogno di avere piÚ segnale
Inseriscono chip e codici pin negli aghi
Metti in quarantena tutti quei segreti in quel buco nero che chiami cervello prima che sia troppo tardi
Davvero, vogliamo solo urlare qualcosa
Fare solo finta di credere in qualcosa
So che vuoi il sangue
Voglio farti girare
   Per favore, restate calmi
Ă arrivata la fine
Non possiamo salvarvi, buon viaggio
Ă il momento che stavate aspettando
Non prendetelo come un avvertimento: questa è una guerra
   à la Parasite Eve
Te lo senti nella pancia, sai che sta venendo a cercarti
Lascia i fiori come segno di lutto
Non ti dimenticare cosa ti hanno detto
Quando ci dimenticheremo lâinfezione, ce la ricorderemo la lezione?
Se non ti uccide lâattesa, lo farĂ qualcosâaltro
Ă la Parasite Eve
Te lo senti nella pancia, sai che sta venendo a cercarti
Lascia i fiori come segno di lutto
Non ti dimenticare cosa ti hanno detto
Quando ci dimenticheremo lâinfezione, ce la ricorderemo la lezione?
Se non ti uccide lâattesa, lo farĂ qualcosâaltro
   Puoi sprangare le finestre
Puoi inchiavare le porte
Ma non puoi piĂš continuare a lavartene le mani di âsta roba
Se tutte le fonti del re e tutti gli amici del re non riescono a trovarsi il culo coi patogeni
Se la vita è una prigione e la morte una porta
Questo non è un avvertimento: questa è una guerra, guerra, questa è una guerra
   à la Parasite Eve
Te lo senti nella pancia, sai che sta venendo a cercarti
Lascia i fiori come segno di lutto
Non ti dimenticare cosa ti hanno detto
Quando ci dimenticheremo lâinfezione, ce la ricorderemo la lezione?
Se non ti uccide lâattesa, lo farĂ qualcosâaltro
Ă la Parasite Eve
Ă la Parasite Eve
Ă la Parasite Eve
   Non possiamo salvarvi
Non possiamo salvarvi
Non possiamo salvarvi
Non possiamo salvarvi
Non possiamo salvarvi
    ** Questo in bulgaro dovrebbe significare âSi è messo il cappello storto / Proprio cosĂŹ, proprio cosĂ / Da questo lato, dallâaltro lato / Proprio cosĂŹ, proprio cosĂ â. Viene dalla versione del brano popolare Ergen Deda eseguita dal gruppo Le Mystère des Voix Bulgares.
       3. Bring Me the Horizon â Teardrops, traduzione
Lacrime
   Lacrime
   Ci facciamo del male per divertimento
Alimentiamo a forza la nostra paura e alla fine il cuore non sente piĂš niente
Dipendenti da un amore di natura solitaria
   Quello che vorrei sapere è come abbiamo fatto a diventare cosÏ stressati, paranoici
Diventa tutto tetro
Niente mi fa diventare triste quanto la mia testa
   Ho quasi finito le lacrime
Mi tengo il dolore, tanto poi passa
Non riesco a mantenere la presa
Scivolo via da me stesso
Dio mio, è tutto un gran puttanaio
Ma io non riesco a provare niente
Il vuoto è piÚ pesante di quello che credi
   Inciampo sul bordo
Fuori come un cancello, non mi scende piĂš
E se mi senti, mi sa che sai cosa si prova a essere soli
   Ma quindi come abbiamo fatto a diventare cosÏ stressati, paranoici?
Diventa tutto tetro
Niente mi fa diventare triste quanto la mia testa
   Ho quasi finito le lacrime
Mi tengo il dolore, tanto poi passa
Non riesco a mantenere la presa
Scivolo via da me stesso
Dio mio, è tutto un gran puttanaio
Ma io non riesco a provare niente
Il vuoto è piÚ pesante di quello che credi
   Di umore suicida, violento, tragico
Ho perso lâaureola, adesso sono il mio stesso anticristo
Di umore suicida, violento, tragico
Ho perso lâaureola, adesso sono il mio stesso anticristo
   Ho quasi finito le lacrime
Mi tengo il dolore, tanto poi passa
Non riesco a mantenere la presa
Scivolo via da me stesso
Dio mio, è tutto un gran puttanaio
Ma io non riesco a provare niente
Il vuoto è piÚ pesante di quello che credi
   Ho quasi finito le lacrime
Mi tengo il dolore, tanto poi passa
Non riesco a mantenere la presa
Scivolo via da me stesso
Dio mio, è tutto un gran puttanaio
Ma io non riesco a provare niente
Il vuoto è piÚ pesante di quello che credi
   Lacrime, lacrime
Ho quasi finito le lacrime
Il vuoto è piÚ pesante di quello che credi
       4. Bring Me the Horizon â Obey, traduzione
Obbedisci
   Nuovo giorno, nuovo ordine post-traumatico
Lobotomizzato e mi sento benone
Ho fatto il passo piĂš lungo della gamba quando sono andato a vedere piĂš da vicino
Per cui mi sono piantato una forchetta nellâocchio
Mi sa che sto impazzendo, cazzo
Non so da che parte girarmi, adesso sono cieco
Distruggiti, si sta di un bene a eclissarsi
PerchĂŠ vorresti farti del male?, morire per qualcosâaltro?
Vedi che la tua coscienza non si metta di traverso
   Obbedisci, ci auguriamo che passerai una bellissima giornata
Obbedisci, non volete che usciamo a giocare
Via, sĂš, sĂš, non câè niente da vedere qua
Ă tutto sotto controllo, stiamo solo giocando dâazzardo con la tua anima
Obbedisci, qualunque cosa tu faccia, evita di svegliarti e sentire odore di corruzione
   Nuovo giorno, nuovo incubo sistematico
Commemoriamo una vita fantastica
Mordimi per primo, poi ti mordo io
Risata melodrammatica
Mi sono piantato un coltello nellâocchio
Mi sa che sono impazzito, cazzo
Lobotomizzato e mi sento benone
Distruggiti, si sta troppo bene a eclissarsi
PerchĂŠ vorrei farmi del male?
Dovrei morire per qualcosâaltro?
Ho lasciato che la mia coscienza si mettesse di traverso
   Obbedisci, ci auguriamo che passerai una bellissima giornata
Obbedisci, non volete che usciamo a giocare
Via, sĂš, sĂš, non câè niente da vedere qua
Ă tutto sotto controllo, stiamo solo giocando dâazzardo con la tua anima
Obbedisci, qualunque cosa tu faccia, evita di svegliarti e sentire odore di corruzione
   Quando la tua libertà è letale, dimmi come fai a farti del male
Vi definite pacifici
Voi mostri siete persone
Voi mostri del cazzo siete persone
   Obbedisci, ti facciamo vedere come ci si comporta
Obbedisci, è piÚ carino se non vedi le catene
   Obbedisci, ci auguriamo che passerai una bellissima giornata
Obbedisci, non volete che usciamo a giocare
Via, sĂš, sĂš, non câè niente da vedere qua
Ă tutto sotto controllo, stiamo solo giocando dâazzardo con la tua anima
Obbedisci, qualunque cosa tu faccia, evita di svegliarti e sentire odore di corruzione
Odore di corruzione, odore di corruzione
       5. Bring Me the Horizon â Itch for the Cure (When Will We Be Free?), traduzione
Prurito per la cura (quandâè che saremo liberi?)
   So perchÊ sei qui, sei stufo della paura
Non ne puoi piĂš del mondo di fantasia che hanno creato in modo che non puoi vederci chiaro
Qualcosa si sta staccando dalla corrente
Câè un glitch nella tua fiducia
Hai un prurito per la cura, ma hai paura di uscire dalla porta
Sono qui per dirti che câè un universo che vive senza legge
Qualcosa si sta staccando dalla corrente
PerchĂŠ continui a chiederti: quandâè che saremo liberi?
   Voglio diventare un regicida
Qualcosa si sta staccando dalla corrente
Câè un glitch nella tua fiducia
Voglio diventare un regicida
Qualcosa si sta staccando dalla corrente
Câè un glitch nella tua fiducia
       6. Bring Me the Horizon â Kingslayer, traduzione
Regicida
   Ciao, stai cercando lâaltro lato?
Hai lâimpressione che non torni mai niente?
Hai un piede nella fossa?
Ti ecciti col dolore come se fossi corrotto?
Ho bisogno di sapere a chi sei fedele
Diâ un poâ, hai intenzione di abbaiare o di mordere?
Vuoi davvero girare il coltello nella pancia del mostro?
   Alzati, cazzo
Svegliati, cazzo
Formatta il sistema e fai un salvataggio, cazzo
Sei una marionetta
Quando ti taglieranno via i fili, non tornare strisciando
   Regicida, distruggi castelli in aria
Regicida, per lâeternitĂ mio amato
Sacrificherei la vita per trovarti, angelo della lama
Regicida, vieni a prenderci dalla notte
   ćăăăăŽčŚăăŞăä¸ç
ăžă ćśăăŞăćŞćĽ
ăă ćăŤĺ
Ľăăă un altro mondo *
   Errore del sistema
La vita è criptata
Tu sei modificato come un virus in una filastrocca
Artificiale fino al giorno che muori
Sciocco programma, sei corrotto
   Alzati, cazzo
Svegliati, cazzo
Formatta il sistema e fai un salvataggio, cazzo
Sei una marionetta
Quando ti taglieranno via i fili, non tornare strisciando
Sei da solo
   ăă ćăŽ
ćăéăăŚ
čĄăăă **
   Regicida, distruggi castelli in aria
Regicida, combatterò per te fino alla morte
Regicida, distruggi castelli in aria
Regicida, per lâeternitĂ mio amato
Sacrificherei tutto per guidarti, non dovrai mai lottare da solo
Regicida, vieni a prenderci dalla notte
   Questo è un campanello dâallarme
Entriamo nel vortice dellâignoto
Sei pronto? Non ti sento
   Volete âsta roba qua?
E beccatevela, cazzo, merde schifose
    * Questo in giapponese dovrebbe voler dire: âBuio, questo mondo è cosĂŹ buio che non ci vedo / Il futuro non scomparirĂ / Ma io voglio ottenere un altro mondoâ
   ** Questo invece: âAdesso andiamo ad aprire la porta del tempoâ
       7. Bring Me the Horizon â 1x1, traduzione
1x1
   Mettete fine alle mie sofferenze
   Disconnesso dal mondo di nuovo
No, il sole non splende nel posto in cui son stato
Ma perchĂŠ continui a far finta che io non esisto?
Sento di essere pronto a morire, ma non riesco a impegnarmi
   Per cui mi chiedo: quandâè che imparerò?
Mi darei fuoco per sentirmi bruciare
Ho paura che non verrò mai aggiustato
   Mettete fine alle mie sofferenze
La mia mente sembra la mia nemica numero uno
Non riesco a guardarmi negli occhi
Non so cosa fa piĂš male: tener duro o mollare
Rivivo i miei ricordi, e mi uccidono uno dopo lâaltro
   Mi sono autosabotata di nuovo
Ho il cervello tipo un uragano
Io e quella troietta, no, non possiamo essere amiche
E non me ne frega proprio niente, no
Mi ha fatto sprofondare in un posto oscuro
Senza amore
La gemella malvagia nel sottoscala
Oh mio Dio, mi sa che mi aspetta una lunga notte
Sono sola, sono sola, sono sola, sono sola
Terrorizzata, ma non provo piĂš niente
Lâannichilimento non è mai sembrato cosĂŹ bello
Taci!
Tappati la bocca, parli troppo
   Mettete fine alle mie sofferenze
La mia mente sembra la mia nemica numero uno
Non riesco a guardarmi negli occhi
Non so cosa fa piĂš male: tener duro o mollare
Rivivo i miei ricordi, e mi uccidono uno dopo lâaltro
   E sono qua a fissare il vuoto di nuovo
Non lo sa nessuno in che pasticcio mi trovo
Le voci che ho nella testa dicono che sono solo paranoico
Ma fa male alla salute quanto mi odio
Soffoco
Il peso mi trascina a fondo
   Mettete fine alle mie sofferenze
La mia mente sembra la mia nemica numero uno
Non riesco a guardarmi negli occhi
Non so cosa fa piĂš male: tener duro o mollare
Rivivo i miei ricordi, e mi uccidono uno dopo lâaltro
GiĂ , mi uccidono uno dopo lâaltro
E mi uccidono uno dopo lâaltro
       8. Bring Me the Horizon â Ludens, traduzione
Ludens
  ��Alcuni si oppongono al futuro, alcuni rifiutano il passato
Comunque sia, è un bel casino se non riusciamo a scollegare il fatto
Che un mondo ricoperto di cavi non è progettato per durare
Per cui non fare la faccia sorpresa quando comincia a impallarsi il programma
   Come faccio a creare una connessione se non possiamo nemmeno stringerci la mano?
Sei come un fantasma che mi saluta
Tramiamo nellâombra, ci vediamo sulla forca
Fermi in un loop per lâeternitĂ
   Lo sai perchÊ i fiori non sbocciano mai?
Ci riprovi o fai riprendere il dolore?
Ho bisogno di un nuovo leader
Abbiamo bisogno di un nuovo Luden
Venite fuori, è ora di vedere la marea
Ă lontana dagli occhi, ma non lontana dal cuore
Ho bisogno di un nuovo leader
Abbiamo bisogno di un nuovo Luden
   Le botte potranno anche farmi male, ma la fitta passerà presto
Invece gli insulti sono capaci di scavare tante di quelle fosse che non sai piĂš dove mettere piede
E non mi sento piĂš al sicuro se non câè qualcuno che mi segue
E lâunico modo per nascondermi è dare spettacolo di brutto
   Come faccio a creare una connessione se non possiamo nemmeno stringerci la mano?
Sei come un fantasma che mi saluta
Tramiamo nellâombra, ci vediamo sulla forca
Fermi in un loop per lâeternitĂ
   Lo sai perchÊ i fiori non sbocciano mai?
Ci riprovi o fai riprendere il dolore?
Ho bisogno di un nuovo leader
Abbiamo bisogno di un nuovo Luden
Venite fuori, è ora di vedere la marea
Ă lontana dagli occhi, ma non lontana dal cuore
Ho bisogno di un nuovo leader
Abbiamo bisogno di un nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
   E tu questa la chiami una connessione?
E tu questa la chiami una connessione?
E tu questa la chiami una connessione?
E tu questa la chiami una connessione?
Pff, ma fammi il piacere
Pff, ma fammi il piacere
Pff, ma fammi il piacere
(Okay)
   Lo sai perchÊ i fiori non sbocciano mai?
Ci riprovi o fai riprendere il dolore?
Ho bisogno di un nuovo leader
Abbiamo bisogno di un nuovo Luden
Venite fuori, è ora di vedere la marea
Ă lontana dagli occhi, ma non lontana dal cuore
Ho bisogno di un nuovo leader
Abbiamo bisogno di un nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
Un nuovo Luden, nuovo Luden
   Lo sai perchÊ i fiori non sbocciano mai?
Ci riprovi o fai riprendere il dolore?
Ho bisogno di un nuovo leader
Abbiamo bisogno di un nuovo Luden
       9. Bring Me the Horizon - One Day the Only Butterflies Left Will Be in Your Chest as You March Towards Your Death, traduzione
Un giorno le uniche farfalle rimaste ce le avrai nel petto mentre cammini incontro alla morte
   Vicinissimo al punto del non ritorno
PerchĂŠ cazzo hai continuato a mandare tutto a rotoli?
Non voglio doverti seppellire
Ma mi sembra che non ti entra niente dentro quel cranio
Un giorno le uniche farfalle rimaste ce le avrai nel petto
Mentre cammini incontro alla morte esalando il tuo ultimo respiro
Non mi piace farti notare che io te lâavevo detto
Però guarda quanto si vedono i lividi
   Diâ un poâ, come sarĂ stare senza avere le mie braccia strette intorno, strette intorno a te?
Scommetto che fa impressione quando comincia a venirti via la pelle dalle ossa
Per il mondo non esistevi piĂš, adesso non esisto piĂš io per te
Sei una presenza in casa tua, non hai piĂš niente da perdere
Comâè possibile che ti ho lasciato affondare le zanne fino a questo punto?
Lo sai che non sei capace di respirare da solo
   Salvarmi non è piÚ possibile
PerchĂŠ ho continuato a sfidare la sorte?
Il buco che man mano ti ho scavato nellâanima è diventato troppo grande per non farci caso
Un giorno le uniche farfalle rimaste ce le avremo nel petto
Mentre camminiamo incontro alla morte esalando il nostro ultimo respiro
Pensavo avessimo un futuro, ma non abbiamo la minima chance
   Beh, diâ un poâ, come sarĂ stare senza avere le mie braccia strette intorno, strette intorno a te?
Scommetto che fa impressione quando comincia a venirti via la pelle dalle ossa
Per il mondo non esistevi piĂš, adesso non esisto piĂš io per te
Sei una presenza in casa tua, non hai piĂš niente da perdere
Ti ho lasciato affondare le zanne fino a questo punto
Lo sai che non sei (sono) capace di respirare da solo
Come fai (faccio) a respirare da solo?
   Tramonta il sole sul nostro amore, temo
Liberando nellâatmosfera la nostra solitudine
Le sorti della nostra possibilitĂ di ribaltare la sorte stanno cambiando
Non pensavo di arrivare mai a vedere che mi cadessero le unghie
Non câè lâamore nellâaria, non câè lâamore nellâaria
Non câè lâamore nellâaria, non câè lâamore nellâaria
#bring me the horizon#post human survival horror#dear diary#parasite eve#teardrops#obey#itch for the cure when will we be free#kingslayer#1x1#1 x 1#ludens#one day the only butterflies left will be in your chest as you march towards your death
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Esami, per lâordine e per la mente
3 Dicembre 2022
Questa cosa è definitivamente diventata una specie di diario. Ho modificato tutti i post e aggiunto le date, come si fa con i veri diari di bordo da marinaretti. Mi rendo conto che mi trovo a scrivere solo nei momenti tristi, e non capita mai qui di vedere qualche momento felice. Ma questo perchĂŠ non ho un momento decisamente piĂš felice della norma da tanto tempo. Da qualche anno ormai, non ho un momento di emozione e batticuore. Provo a ritornare con la mente indietro, ma non câè niente di ciò. Certo, ci sono stati attimi e giornate piĂš serene, momenti allegri. Ma lo spettro nero della palla nera è sempre aleggiato. Come se stessi camminando in una piazza, su un lungo mare, e la situazione è calma, come direbbe S. i vibes sono buoni (che modo stupido di dire) e câè anche allegria. Eppur, dietro un lampione o un albero, seminascosto come per farsi vedere da nessunâaltro che da me, che mi fissa con sguardo vacuo, câè questo me, adolescente o piĂš giovane comunque, non magro ma consumato, non solo spento ma addirittura grigio e scuro in volto, che mi guarda e sembra mimarmi con il labiale âio sono comunque qui, dopo tornerai da meâ. Dovrei disegnare questa metafora, questâimmagine. E non câè stato momento, o serata allegra in cui io non sia tornato a casa e non abbia ripensato a tutto, che non sia ritornato nel fango. Come se queste occasioni fossero gli attimi in cui raggiungo la superficie per respirare, ma ho un sasso legato al piede, che impone la maggior parte del mio tempo sottâacqua. E fossero quelle le occasioni diverse, e la tristezza la normalitĂ , e non il contrario.Â
Oggi ho affrontato lâesame di stato. Pensavo fosse molto, molto piĂš semplice. Siamo stati bocciati in metĂ . Io so che dovrei scusarmi, che ho fatto troppe cose insieme, che forse non avrei dovuto. Ma gli altri ce lâhanno fatta, perchĂŠ io no? Gli altri, gli altri.. Io passo la mia vita a mettermi in confronto con gli altri, in una competizione in cui metto la mia depressione a gareggiare con i filtri di instagram. Eâ razionalmente impossibile vincere, o nemmeno pareggiare. Questo esame rappresenta lâennesima delusione. Io funziono cosĂŹ: incapace di riconoscere eventuali notevoli meriti, insensibile di fronte a eventuali possibili fallimenti. Ingigantisco, io vedo solo difetti e sconfitte. E sempre tutto è sotto esame, tutti sono sotto test. Niente è rilassante, e tutto deve essere perfetto. E nel mio intimo, anche inconsciamente, mi odio profondamente.Â
Un poâ invidio mia sorella. Lei ha tante amiche con cui parla, tutti i giorni, dei suoi problemi. Anche intimi. Non so, e non ho memoria che lo sia, non so se sia sempre fortunata con le amicizie. Ma almeno lei ha la forza di aprirsi con qualcuno, di aprire la corazza. La mia corazza non si apre. Dico corazza ma in realtà è una camicia di forza, che mi impedisce di vivere serenamente. SerenitĂ , anche quella na robba che continuo a lamentarmi di non avere. Non scopro il fianco comunque, non mi fido, ma vuol dire anche che non ho con chi stringere un legame. Io non ho nessuno. Io ho solo la terapia, in cui parlare dei miei problemi. Ho un amico che si fa sentire quando câè da raccogliere i kiwi, ma che per dare confidenza non si è piĂš mostrato. Unâamica che ho sempre paura di disturbare. Altri che vanno, altri che vengono e poi se ne vanno. Chi ridicolmente non trova un paio dâore in cinque mesi per trovarsi, ma poi ti manda messaggi prestampati, scontatissimi, perchĂŠ è evidente che ha paura che ti arrabbi. Ma lasciami andare no?Â
Le serate cosĂŹ sono deleterie. Mi sdraio sul letto, chiudo gli occhi e lâoscuritĂ mi prende. Mi alzo, cammino avanti e indietro, e penso. Penso tantissimo, il cervello non si riposa mai. Io penso troppo, perchĂŠ non penso nemmeno cose belle.Â
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