#Category: Spirals

[gender-carnival]

🩷 Jester or Alasdair! 🩷22 🩷 She/He/It🩷

Pinkie pixel credit + Spiral divider credit + Icon and header credit Kinlist Rentry

This is gonna be my gender blog! Probably mostly just going to reblog things and the like ;oP - but thought it'd be fun to do an intro! - I am pro LGBT+ (or queer, for those who prefer that!), pro racial and gender equality, and anti discrimination, but I'm not gonna write a DNI, if I don't want you interacting with me, you will be blocked! And I hope you'll do the same to me if I accidentally violate your DNIs! I will like your posts and/or follow you from my main on @carnival-core! If I have other things to add, this post will be edited ;oP

[eedaeth]

✂️🤡✨

They're not allowed scissors.

I've been chipping away at this for a few days but things were looking dire and the lines were not lining and sometimes my hands refuse to do THEIR ONLY JOB so here we are behind schedule. I know i know,🤩ShoCKER🤩

[fisheito]

rereading the nuca pink doujin and seeing yakumo tear himself apart re: his snake form vs his human form all this agony and self-doubt and silent suffering and fear of rejection like "if i looked less human would u hate me" , "if u saw me in my true form wouldn't that be horrible. terrifying. disgusting" , "if i admitted i want to swallow you whole would you think worse of me"

and i imagine him asking something like this to the crowd of clan members , who are , undeniably,, a group of Kinky Fuckers

they all smile with the serenity and carefully masked excitement of a horny olivine. masterful beautiful reassuring expressions (errr..... masked to different degrees depending on the clan member)

[quiet-admirer]

This time last year I would drive out to shows an hour and a half away from me and my back would already be in pain by the time I arrived. All I could do was stand there and nod along and stand one or two rows back from the pit and hold my arm up to keep people standing if they knocked back into me. By the end of the show I would be fatigued and my feet, my back, my neck, and my shoulders would be in moderate to severe pain, even if I took a naproxen before I left.

Last night I went to a show the same distance from me where the headliner had an hour and a half set. I was on the edge of a rowdy push pit full of sturdy to beefy dudes in their 30s and 40s and even on the edge there was a lot of dancing and jumping and shoving. I honestly only recognized one song from the headliner but I was having the time of my life and was incredibly sweaty and tired out by the end, and only my feet were mildly sore, not even having taken pain meds

It only really struck me last night just how different my experience is now to when I started going to shows regularly 2 years ago, and especially last year at my worst point with pain, and it got me reflecting on what's changed.

I had a breast reduction/top surgery. I had physical therapy, which I'm still seeing the benefits of even though I definitely had some deconditioning after surgery. I switched to slightly better shoes. I also have a different car and the head rest doesn't tilt my neck forward lol. I can't tell if I'm more active or not - I've been going to more shows and going on like 1 or 2 10-min walks per week, but my job changed from hybrid to fully remote so it's hard to tell.

The best part though? Fatphobes can get absolutely wrecked because in the past year I've put on maybe 20-25lbs and my knee and hip pain are gone so🖕🖕

[qprstobin]

I just don't understand how we can have nearly four seasons of a show telling us (albeit badly) that high school drama doesn't matter, that both "jocks" AND "nerds/outsiders" have prejudices that they need to get over and somehow a vast majority of you seem to think that joining a sport is evil and only by being into nerd shit are you being truly authentic with yourself

[wistfulwatcher]

nat + the torn fishnets

[scribefindegil]

I mean this in the ace-est possible way but Dimple-in-Reigen's-body is really hot. sorry.

[ericas-spop-blog]

So I get a lot of comments taking issue with me calling Adora's behaviour towards Catra (specifically in Taking Control, but also just in general throughout the series prior to The Heart) abusive - that it can't be abusive because it's emergent from her trauma, that she doesn't "mean" it, that Adora is good and good people aren't abusers.

The problem with all of those is that they're incoherent.

If you don't consider this - the pervasive boundary violations, the physical assault, the use of a previous abuser as a threat, the straight up textbook DARVO of "I'm the victim because you told me no" - abusive... then what would you?

I'm being sincere here. These are fictional characters; there is no real person who needs defending. There is only your reaction as the audience, which I am inviting you to examine.

As an actual, meaningful question: What line would Adora have to cross, before you treated her actions as her actions? What would she have to do for you to call her abusive?

Can you find that line?

Because if you can't - if that line only exists for the Shadow Weavers and the Catras, the character who you've been told are "Bad" - Then you are admitting that, for "Good" characters, there is no harm they can be held accountable for, no violation for which they will not be absolved, no crime for which they will not be pardoned.

And that is fucking bullshit.

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"Good" and "Bad" are not intrinsic traits, which grant sanctification or damnation to those that possess them. There is no sorting of the sheep from the goats; no fundamental nature that changes the effect of one's actions.

Abusers are not a separate species; some Unknowable Other, irrecoverably tainted by the original sin of Being Born Bad. They're just people, with the same array of thoughts, feelings, and desires as everyone else. The difference is in their actions, and those actions are not modified by purity of the soul.

Abusive behaviours that are emergent from trauma are still abusive. Abusive behaviours the perpetrator believes are acceptable and justified are still abusive. Abusive behaviours done by people you love and respect and look up to are still abusive.

The fact that Adora believes her abusive behaviour is acceptable - even nescisary - doesn't make it other than the thing that it is; a fundamental hostility towards Catra's agency, manifesting in consistent, repeated attempts to control her - through conditional affection as much as through physical, verbal, and emotional violence. She is a person who engages in abusive behaviour patterns, and so she is an abuser. And, as a story element, that's fine. "Adora is abusive towards Catra thoughout much of the show" doesn't mean "Adora is an irredemable character" or "Catradora is a bad ship". It's just a conflict that needs to be resolved.

Adora has to come to grips with the toxic beliefs Shadow Weaver instilled in her - that care invokes a debt, that there are 'Bad' people who have no right to self-determination, that abuse can be justified - recognize that they are the thing that stops her from being happy, and reject them, fully and completely.

[clowndensation]

do think it's funny that the current roman theories all have to do with him literally fucking people. like i'm not saying it's not possible, the show can do whatever it wants and i trust it'll make sense. but. while there is something oedipally intriguing about the idea of roman replacing his father with another man and then literally fucking him, that doesn't... sound all that likely?

in the wake of "smart people know what they are" it makes significantly more sense to me that he's going to fuck over matsson (who's attempting to buy his father's legacy, and so, his corpse (the company + atn)) and get in deep with mencken as an ally (because the last good conversation he had with his dad was him telling roman that atn and mencken are where roman belongs), and the show is going to continue on it's very consistent path of making all relationships psychologically entangled to a fucked up degree, with no true physical release for anybody.

like. in a show where fucking someone has almost never been literal, i genuinely don't see why they'd stray from the metaphorical now.

[archive-of-fear]

Name: Stefan Butler

Source: Black Mirror: Bandersnatch

Category: Victim

Alignment: The Web, The Spiral

Description: Stefan is a programmer attempting to adapt a choose your own adventure book into video game. Overtime, it becomes clear to him that he’s not entirely in control of his actions. He starts making decisions he can’t explain, and begins to see the recurring symbol of a “branching pathway” all over. He becomes paranoid and convinced that he’s being controlled by something outside of his reality: You.

Black Mirror: Bandersnatch is an interactive movie in which you, the viewer, are prompted to make several choices that determine the course of the story. You’re given a huge amount of control over Stefan’s life; what he eats, where he goes, what music he listens to on the bus, if he takes his medication or flushes it down the toliet, if he destroys his computer or leaves it be, whether he does to therapy or does LSD with his coworker, if it’s him or Colin that jumps off the balcony, if he kills his father, and if so how he deals with the body, and of course, how well the game turns out. Even the foundations of Stefan’s reality change depending on what you chose. Is he being experimented by the government or is there some supernatural force behind the story that causes anyone who tries to adapt it to go mad? Is there some great conspiracy behind everything or is Stefan just losing his mind under the stress? That’s all decided by you, the viewer. And after a while, Stefan becomes aware of this. In some routes, you are even able to speak with him for a brief amount of time. You are entirely in control of his fate, and you are the one ultimately causing him harm.

There is no “main ending” in which both the game turns out well and Stefan is either alive, sane or out of prison. The best outcome for him is to take an early ending: accept the Tuckersoft offer, take your medication, destroy the computer, putting down the ashtray instead of hitting his father with it – all of those lead to the game getting release to poor reviews, but at least Stefan is alive and out of prison. But those all end the game too early, and you are always given the prompt to try again. By playing the movie’s game, you’re ultimately robbing Stefan of his free will and dooming him to whatever fate your decisions lead him to. Regardless of what he wants, you are the one in control. But hey, if you choose wrong, you’re always welcome to try again.

[souporsaladnatural]

god take me back to november 5th last year where it was my first november 5th in the supernatural fandom and movie rumors started flying and i hit post limit 3 days in a row. I didnt even know tumblr had a post limit before that

[lalas181]

Random brain thought, but like. It is frankly unreal how much The Magnus Archives has genuinely helped me deal with being afraid of things. I may still have run away from the almost-entirely-windows fourth(?) floor of a convention center that one time but oh boy did I ever own those way too tall escalators with my epic Vast-based coping mechanisms!! When I get scared I can do one of the things I like best- this being ascribing things to arbitrary categories that matter to and are usually decipherable by Exclusively Me™ -and just kind of solve it a teeny tiny bit more than I used to be able to. If kid-me had somehow managed to acquire time-travelling Internet and listened to the whole podcast I would not have been phased at ALL by any of the uncanny images I managed to be scared of. Uncanny face in my Encyclopedia of Immaturity book?? Not a thing. Uncanny images can't do shit to me, I am a once and future ✨Actor✨ who is made of bendy straws and actually enjoys clowns. I am heavily Stranger-coded. The face in that one optical illusion where it's a normal face upside down but incredibly jarring and scary right side up cannot get me, not because it is an image in a book for children and not real but because friendly fire is not a thing I have observed things linked to The Stranger as being able to do.

This sounds like I'm exaggerating, but I swear to you I am not. I genuinely have a little Vast-based mantra for when I'm on particularly bad escalators and elevators, and the other day I identified the kind of fear I was feeling very quickly once I started thinking in TMA terms and was able to discern how to address and ride it out based largely on that information. I am. Very glad for this podcast being a thing I listened to. Genuinely so.

[plasmafrigate]

i disagree w a lot of this guys rankings but he described the feeling hoffman gives him as wanting to shave his head and join a monastery and not only is that hilarious but also i think i intrinsically understand

[brw]

avengers comics are missing having an insane little guy again who doesn't contribute much to the power of the team but he sure as fuck will have a mental breakdown to be remembered for years. where the fuck is hank pym.

[menlove]

realizing it's almost been 2 years since I moved away from home I'm literally going to be ill

[ssspringroll]

actually i might go back into blender one of these days before everything is ready to be released and make fem frame versions of the rings that are just embedded a little deeper in the chest. wouldnt be too much more work i guess. i dont know how often anyone would even want/need to use them but i would feel a little eh just putting them out like they are i think.