#Can you tell something happened today
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I wish it wasnt so hard to convince people that being supportive of every kind of system is actually a good thing that is gonna benefit even the most disordered traumatized systems in the long run
#🍄🐱#I have these discussions out of genuine care#the anti-endo viewpoint is only going to cause harm to even themselves#I dont understand why people dont see it the same way I do#Being inclusive is out of love and respect#not wanting to steal resources or give a middle finger to those who are suffering#The only endos Ive seen have wanted to help traumatized systems get more resources and be less stigmatized#They shouldnt see it as an insult. They are two different experiences and that is acknowledged#even if there is overlap#Traumagenic systems deserve spaces#but they are both systems at the end of the day#and excluding endogenics entirely is only going to create a more negative space as a whole#Can you tell something happened today
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one big thing I’ve learned by 29 is that the Plan, the God’s Plan of it all I mean, is bigger than me and not just bigger than me but also bigger than my understanding of narrative threads and their limitations. And it’s bigger even than just a simple paradox, turning-on-their-head thing way of being bigger. It’s just so vast. And there is so much room for surprise and possibility and hope in that reality.
#again. idk if that makes sense#but I am someone obsessed with the patterns and what the patterns are telling me#and it’s like. sometimes nothing! but also sometimes something!#there is no way to predict what will happen or what will be presented to me or what will unfold#both personally and in a more big picture way#based on what I feel or what I know or what I have already experienced#there are hundreds and millions of different possible combinations#I am making this sound more profound than the revelation is (and also more vague)#but I love to be like ‘oh being this way means THIS thing and this kind of thing always happens to this kind of person’#and actually. it just doesn’t?????? a million different things could happen and do happen every day that are unlikely and unpredictable#even when you think you’ve accounted for that by looking for the unexpected you still can’t tell#and I love that. used to hate that the future was shrouded in mystery#and I still sometimes do. but I am growing to love it#uncertainty and just the sheer not knowing feels better#and God IS surprising. life is surprising!#THAT I feel like I know#every day of my life I wake up and I pry open the blinds and I look out and say.#what is going to happen today#like I do kind of do that a little#or maybe it’s more. what has the night brought.#and you know what the world is so wide. not in terms of me being able to go anywhere travel-wise#or do anything dream-wise. but in terms of what can and DOES unfold every single day/week/month/year.#there are surprises in store! folded tucked away around the next corner#like I just.#I’m getting carried away but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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kissy for the birthday boy 💥💥💥
#AUGHH posting ship art is so embarrassing for me but i wanetd to do something for knuckles anniversary#and didnt have enouhg free time today to start and finish something#and ive had this sitting unfinished for a couple weeks. so i figured why not just finish it and use it even if its not much#so yeah . gay people be upon ye#ive had them on my brain sooo much lately can you tell.#sonic the hedgehog#sth#knuckles the echidna#sonknux#sonuckles#my art#am i just awlays gonna be that one guy releasing little droplets of sonknux into the endless sea of sona//dow#every time something shadow related happens . Well somebody has to do it . might as well be me .#< joking im nto trying to pit the pairings aginast eachother or whatever and the timing here was just a coincidence
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When I saw this happen on stream, I knew what had to be done…
#this was so rushed#the quality could be better but I’m proud at how quick I made this lol#I had to speed run because I’m going on vacation & I wanted to get it posted before I left ;-;#again#you can tell who’s my favorite to draw#I’ll probably have more stuff to post at the end of the trip#I’ll be gone for so long ;-;#do you know how much happens within a day#let alone 2 weeks?!#foolish literally lost his last presidential life today#something nobody thought would happen#so soon#qsmp#q!maximus#q!aypierre#q!baghera#qsmp maximus#qsmp aypierre#qsmp baghera#qsmpshipping#qsmp shipping#tw suggestive#???#furryduo#maxierre#my art
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Mechi has come to the very intelligent conclusion that the best course of action he could take right now is to make the Void angrier so it sends more scary things to attack us.
Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately?), he got the plague before he could do anything stupid. Looks like he'll spend a few days curled up in bed living off coffee. Hopefully, that's the only bad thing in store for him in the near future–
Randy is so very cruel...
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#rimworld#gracie plays#A Mechanitor's Message#art#my art#traditional art#rimworld art#unpolished art#For someone so smart Mechi has very silly ideas#We'll research void provocation next though#He wants what he wants and I won't deny him#I also happen to be sick right now#so Mechi and I have that in common#I don't drink coffee though#so hot chocolate will be my saving grace (haha Gracie grace)#can you tell I'm sick?#that just means there's more coffee for Mechi#win-win!#Randy is being very mean today#Hopefully he does something nice to make up for it soon#but at least it makes for an interesting story I suppose#have a lovely day everybody <3 <3
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idk as far as im concerned penelope featherington pen name lady whistledown can be as nasty as she wants bc every ounce of that nastiness was lobbed at her first
#it is certainly something watching bridgerton as a fat girl.#like im aware in her time this kind of vile attitude towards plus sized woman in nobility was not common#but today??#as it is??#we talk about the weird quiet way autistic people are bullied and i am telling you right now is also lobbed at fat girls and women#like my heart pounds and my breathing gets heavy when that kinds shit happens to pen bc like.#i have lived it.#and it is vile.#and as far as i am concerned she can be as fckn wicked as she wants LMFAO#to whomever#even to eloise im sorry#i love eloise but eloise absentmindedly was one of the people treating pen like shit!!#i dont think it was her intention and i dont think shes evil or cruel or anything#but literally Everyone skinny does it#every one of you#i recognise eloise' words from my sisters#SO! if pen wants to bite back#i say let her lol girl sharpen those teeth#bridgerton#bridgerton season 3#penelope featherington
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i am such a clown. decided to make stickers for my siblings even though i have ZERO design skills or knowledge of any programs that allow you to rotate text except for powerpoint. so i made them in powerpoint. (this took, mmmm, maybe 6-8 hours btw.) then had to find a website that would print and mail these stickers to me. no i don't want 50 stickers. i want one circle sticker and one rectangle sticker. oh that's not an option anybody wants to give me? okay then i guess i will buy 16 circle stickers (the least offered) and 50 rectangle stickers (the least offered. why not 16 also? a mystery). one of the designs is for my sibling's band, so if they like it theoretically they could use the stickers as merch or something lol. but i'm not holding my breath, on account of the aforementioned lack of design skills. i get away with a lot among my family because they're all so willing to react to my questionable creations with aww look, she Tried! but that probably doesn't work for strangers who are fans of my sibling's band. so i guess they will just have 49 extra stickers that they can idk stick to streetlight poles or something. not my problem.
#i originally designed them on graph paper. with like a compass and everything#i learned something new today!! apparently you can curve a text box around a circle!!!!!! that saved me some time#this all came about because my sister was telling me how sad she was that she lost her water bottle because it had a sticker on it#that she had gotten from her travels. and i was like awesome i'll just make her a new one#girl what! you don't know how to do that!!! CLOWNNNNNN#also i don't actually know what the original sticker looked like lol which is probably for the best so i can't 1) plagiarize#or 2) compare my shoddy workmanship to that of an actual professional#i thought about commissioning an actual graphic designer to do this but i quickly got overwhelmed with logistics#and it's so close to christmas i didn't really want to deal with the timeline issue#i really should have done this three months ago but of course i procrastinated#anyway. the website kept being like are you SURE you positioned that image correctly?#and i was like nope! but i don't know what else to do so let's just try it and see what happens :)#it looked fine in the preview. living on the edge over here. the extreme sport of sticker designing
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Transition timeline:
1. Make sure all my blood tests for HRT got done properly (they miss some off sometimes apparently)
2. Appointment to start hormones mid august
3. Once that ball's rolling in a no turning back type way, come out at work and stop using my old name at work (1 billion log ins will need to be changed)
4. Change name by deed poll and finish the rest of the name changes (bank etc)
5. One day get a GRC so my fucking doctor will make the changes I requested on my record.
#the order makes sense to me#my workplace skews older and conservative and i think my rationale is to get my feet under the table physical transition-wise#before i tell them. so they can see im changing. and not just saying stuff. i dont know :(#i dont think I'll ever actually be ready but it has to happen sometime#got included in a 'ladies' again today....i get used to the fact that i dont pass but it still sucks whenever im suddenly reminded#i stopped worrying overly about clothes and hair length around when i came out socially to most people#because why fucking bother? it wont help at all! people see what they are going to see :(#btw i wear men's clothes ALL the time at work - and no one noticed which should tell you something :(
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Might be a little radio silent today and tomorrow, but I'll be back soon. Gonna run off a queue & pop in and out. 💜
#i'll be okay...just not today#tw family death#it’s the day of the funeral and it’s been very difficult#I hate saying I’ve dealt with this since I was a child in my family#but it’s my husband’s grandmother who we were close with#I'm trying to distract myself the best I can and be there for him and make time for my own feelings too#but it’s shitty. the whole thing is#it wasn’t surprising but watching her slowly fade away hurt more than I imagined it would#i keep trying to tell myself i'm fine. that i can keep it together#my first funeral as a child was traumatic cause i didn't understand it and then it...just kept happening to our family#and her (my aunt) anniversary is in September#22 years and it still haunts me in the most bizarre yet beautiful ways#I’m rambling now. I know things get better and it just becomes something you deal with#it doesn’t mean it’s easy#my heart goes out to anyone who knows what I mean#I don’t even know if I know what I mean#sigh. if you read all this thank you and I love you#truly this little corner of the internet has brought me such sweet friends and i cherish you all. so much.#☆.queue
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when ur so hehehdjrbejdjehd that ur family can’t even tell ur joking
#tessa’s posts#lol this happens regularly#Today I asked my mom to watch me do something cool and I went down the stairs two at a time really fast#You can probably tell how that ended up#Yep I got a bruise on my shin now yay#This is my sister I’m texting btw
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Kinda sad how my standards for 21st-century music are so low that I often hear a song and my reaction goes like this:
"Wtf, this is AMAZING! I didn't know anyone was making this music this good anymore!?!! Have I just found my new favorite band???!?"
(I then check the release date and see it's from the 60s/70s/80s)
"Oh... I see, okay. In that case, it's actually just kind of average for that time period. It's a bop, but nothing out of the ordinary for its era."
#cosmo gyres#personal#about music#i can't tell you how often this happens... it's really absurd#the same song is either 'top 2%' or 'middle of the road' depending on its era#bc the average quality of music Back In The Day was just so ridiculously high#that something that would blow the world away today was just 'eh. whatever' back then#happened to me today with the artist 'Box of Frogs'#i knew nothing about them and started to listen#immediately thought 'what?!? this is some LEGENDARY blues rock jam shit STOP THE PRESS'#then i saw the album release date was 1984 and i was like 'ohhhh okay. i mean it's still pretty cool for the 80s but less remarkable'#and then i found out most of the members of the band had previously been in the Yardbirds (formed 1963)#and with that contextual knowledge i didn't even find the music particularly exceptional anymore#because i was putting it in its correct historical context#it's kind of sad to me how this can happen but i'd rather be informed than not i guess#tag rant#musicblogging
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you know if we do accept the last epilogue-esque sequence as a sort of dream/wish of ted's and therefore not necessarily canon, very funny if we then simply go "yeah, trent's book is called 'the lasso way' actually. he didn't change that. nope."
#listen on one hand#i think that like#i don't think ted actually changed trent's mind about the title#i think trent changed it because ted asked him to#and like that's especially interesting bc he even made a point of being like#'tell me if you disagree with anything and i'll tell you why you're wrong'#but he respects ted; more than that he likes him and he wants him to like the book--like him#anyone else and trent would have told them to fuck off but ted? ted asking him to change the title? yeah#i think he didn't agree with 'it not being about him'--and not bc of any feelings he may have for ted--but if we accept that him changing#the title is canon then like. he did it because ted asked. nothing more nothing less#maybe he felt he owed it to ted as the subject of the book; maybe he just respected him too much not to#maybe it's partially bc of his feelings; maybe it's because he just couldn't say no to ted#but it's ultimately just. because ted asked him.#and trent respects him; trusts him; cares about him#and that's pretty heartwrenching#but like on the other hand if we say 'no that was ted's wishufl thinking trent definitely went 'sorry ted it's called the lasso way''#also like.... him being like. like quietly not changing it and if ted said something him just. being like#ted. i respect you. i care about you. i trust you. but with all due respect absolutely not#yes it isn't ONLY about you but YOU made this happen. YOU are special and YOU have a place here whether you can stay forever or not#yes it's about the team and the coaches yes you aren't a one man band but ted. TED. you touched lives. you changed lives. and that was YOU.#that was you and your philosophy and your attitude.#you made richmond what it is today. yes the team deserve credit too for the kind of bond they have now but YOU facilitated that#none of the coaches currently here woudl be coaches if not for you. the diamond dogs wouldn't exist. literally every single one#of our friends--OUR friends--wouldn't be where they are and probably wouldn't be as happy#you got through to people over and over again who were hurting and lashing out. to rebecca. to roy. to jamie. to nate. to me.#and you can be humble but there's being humble and there's acting like you don't matter to any of us like you didn't have an impact#like you can just leave without a trace. we don't blame you for leaving--i especially don't--but acting like we won't miss you and like#your time with all of us--our time--meant nothing is more insulting than it is humble because we /love you/#and yes. it was the goddamn lasso way that built this place#this community.
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Bleh
#I gotta rant n I don’t really have a place but here lol#but man is my past relationship weighing heavy on me today#(caveat of pls don’t be weird and make this his problem)#but I still just feel so lost over it#like obviously breaking up with no ill will is the ideal situation#but being forced to confront that someone you spent so much of your life growing with#can just decide they don’t like you like that anymore#like there was distance for a while before the breakup#that I don’t hold against him at all#but reflecting on the first several years of our relationship compared to the last 6months or so#feels like night and day#like you can go from someone being obsessed with you and you obsessed with them#enjoying all the parts of growing into adults together#to just feeling so unwanted bc the reality is they stopped wanting you a while ago#like going from telling friends my only holdup on polyamory was that I didn’t know if I could love another person as much as them#to having to bring to their attention that it wasn’t okay that I came to their family’s house n all he said was hi to me for the first hour#and then confronting that you didn’t do anything wrong#that shit just happens sometimes and neither of you knew how to navigate it#and fuck it makes me so scared for future relationships#because how can you not be scared when you can lose such intense love as the result of a few years passing#I almost wish it had been something I did :/#bc at least then I knew what to work on and mitigate going forward#but I can’t stop people just..#not liking me anymore
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Was doing so good holding it together today but now that I’m laying down and trying to sleep I’m tearing up and I can feel that I’m about to burst into tears any second now
#my mom called me like ten minutes before I was off work today#and asked if I had talked to my grandpa lately and I was like yeah some why?#I’ve been showing what I’ve been cooking with him and my grandma because I was proud of myself#and she was like oh so you know about his potential surgery?#and I was like. his what???????#apparently his pace maker is dying and malfunctioning and he needs a new one#but this is the third time it’s had to be replaced and as he’s gotten older he’s had a lot more health issues#and they’re not even sure his heart can handle getting it replaced…. he has an appointment tomorrow to find that out#and no one told me. no one fucking told me it was that bad and I’m so#like man my feelings on my grandparents are so insanely complicated but I do love them#I love them so much and they practically raised me and loved me more and treated me better than my mother EVER did#they’re the only family members I’ve ever been legitimately terrified and upset over not accepting me cuz I’m queer#like my mom and siblings? I could not give a flying fuck if they hated me for my gender or sexuality#if my grandparents had a bad reaction I think I would fucking kill myself#and idk the point is I love him and I’ve barely seen him at all the past few years because we live far away now and I never visit because I#hate the rest of my family#but what if he can’t have this surgery?????#or what if he can but something goes wrong??????#what if he’s dying and I’m only able to go down and see him one more time#and he could be fine. it might all work out and he could be fine#but man I’m terrified that won’t happen because WHY WOULD NO ONE TELL ME ANY OF THIS#and yeah no I’m fully crying now I can’t do this#he taught me to draw and he built the house I grew up in and he got me into lord of the rings and would take me book shopping#and and and I’m gonna fucking throw up#kaz rambles
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(un)popular opinion: matrix should have been a standalone.
#raj shitposting#istg i rewatched the entire trilogy today ofc idgaf about the new ones and they should've def called off the 5th one- but who listens to me#fucking hated everything after the first one. THAT WAS ENOUGH GUYS THAT WAS FUCKING ENOUGH. LET STORIES BREATHE.#THAT WAS ENOUGH THE EXACT SAME WAY TBOSAS AS A STANDALONE PREQUEL IS ENOUGH LEAVE IT ALONE SUZANNE.#ISTG SHE IS FUCKING THINGS UP SO HARD. LIKE WHY CAN'T Y'ALL STORYTELLERS MOVE THE FUCK ON LIKE FUCKING LEARN SOMETHING FROM CHRIS NOLAN.#FR I AM DONE WITH THIS SHIT LIKE Y'ALL OUT HERE RUINING STORIES THIS IS WHY I DON'T LIKE FRANCHISES.#anytime someone asks me to start a series be it a book or film i always back out BECAUSE SEQUELS AND PREQUELS RUIN EVERYTHING.#TBOSAS is fucking great as it is leave the enigma idgaf what happened to lucy gray CANONICALLY. I HAVE MY OWN INTERPRETATIONS.#MATRIX WAS FUCKING GREAT AS IT WAS IDGAF WHAT HAPPENS AFTER NEO REALISES HIS FULL POTENTIAL BITCH THAT'S ENOUGH.#make it a story about empowerment and then fuck it up because the protagonist needs a FUCKING GIRLFRIEND BITCH WhaT-#STOP RUINING STORYTELLING AS A SUBJECTIVE ARTFORM I DO NOT NEED YOU TO TELL ME WHAT HAPPENS AFTER!!! I HAVE A BRAIN THAT THINKS!!!#AND IT THINKS OF MULTIPLE THINGS AT ONCE!!!#VISUAL MEDIA HAS NO RESPECT FOR THE INTELLECT OF ITS AUDIENCE WHICH IS SOMETHING I'LL SCREAM INTO THE VOID TILL I TURN GREY AND DIE!!!#stop thinking that people are stupid and curious. people can be smart and curious too.#smfh#film#the matrix
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one important thing about work emails is that whoever you send them to can forward them to anyone else, or reply to you and copy other people. so if you're going to talk about a third party in your email, only say things you would be okay with the third party reading. because people can and will just suddenly CC brand new people on a long email chain, who will then be able to backread anything you've ever said in any of your previous responses that you were sending to only one person. word to the wise.
#i mention this because this just happened to me today BUT it was fine because i already do this#i was writing to client A and mentioned client B who has been making both of our lives harder#but because it's my policy never to trash talk one client to another client (they all know each other btw)#(and some of them are contractors for others of them)#the thing that i said about client B was not something i had to then regret a few days later#when client A for some fucking reason CC'd client B in her response to me#i worded it like 'i'm sorry this has been so hectic and last-minute. it took me a while to understand what client B wanted.'#which has the virtue of being true and also not denigrating client B in any way even though what i meant was#'client B has been so confusing in everything he has said to me that i couldn't give you any advance warning'#but i didn't SAY that. so we're golden#the thing is you will be SO tempted SO often to tell someone that something is a third party's fault#because it will often be a third party's fault!!!!! but you must resist every time. especially in writing#<-this is not universal advice bc sometimes you need to stand up for yourself or whatever. i just mean in venting situations#no venting to clients about other clients. sometimes you need to vent with them in order to build rapport and get them to see you as#an ally rather than an obstacle but you cannot vent ABOUT other people. they can do it but you can't. you have to find other things#to vent about#my posts
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