#Can you tell how happy I am to be on anti-depressants??

[wholesomexloner]

Summer 2023 was wild but fun! 1/3

[minkkumaz]

A MATCH INTO WATER

seungmin never wanted things to end up this way, he hated seeing you like this. as he kissed up your scarred skin, he let you know that you were in this together, and he was never going to let you go.

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PAIRING kim seungmin x gn!reader WC 1.3k TAGS established relationship trope. angst. hurt/comfort. major tw. self - harm. blood. mentions of depression + anti depressants. blade mention. pet names: pup, pretty. OMI NOTE if you're going through a hard time just know there is always somebody you can talk to. get the help you need my loves!

as you looked into the cracked mirror, you were terrified of the person you’d become. everything was faded into nothing, you were frozen in place. dried up blood littered your wrists and chest, and tear marks stained your face. 

the vicious beating in your chest was telling you that all you could do was cry. this feeling alone made you sick to your stomach, but you couldn’t let it go.

this secret was between you and your abused body. seungmin was blissfully unaware how deep your problems actually were. he never knew about the endless rabbit hole of depression and self harm. however, you would try your absolute best to keep it this way. things would only be worse if he knew, it’d break him.

from your place in the locked bathroom, you heard a door creak open, which immediately set you into a panic. you scrambled around, wiping down the blood stained countertops, hiding the blade in a contact lens holder, and putting your hoodie back on. 

the voices from all the boys piling into the dorms got more prominent. you fixed yourself up to look presentable and left the bathroom to greet them.

“hi guys, you’re home a lot earlier than i expected!” you greet everyone, laughing nervously. seungmin immediately rushes towards you to embrace you in a hug.

“i know, pup, i missed you. chan thinks we all need a break from working on the comeback.” his scent overclouded your senses. sweet but musky, and it was all too familiar. you gently wrap your arms around his waist

“that’s good, i’m glad. are you guys going to hang out here or go out somewhere?” you question, pulling away from your boyfriend to look at everyone else.

“we were thinking about a movie night, you down?” felix asked as you responded with a happy nod, “cool, let’s get snacks ready?”

“i get to pick the movie!” han yelled snatching the remote, immediately getting chased down by jeongin.

“go sit down love, i’ll help felix with snacks and stuff.” you tell seungmin

“you’re too good for me.” he kisses the top of your head and pulls away from you to go to the couch.

as you make your way to the kitchen, you ignore the pit in your stomach, trying to get your heart beat to slow down. you see felix putting two bags of popcorn kernels in the microwave before he finally feels you there. 

“how are you, y/n? i’m just making the popcorn right now, could you please get me a bowl?” he grins at you, truly radiating like the sunshine he is.

“of course! i’m pretty good. excited for your comeback?” you respond, kneeling down into the cupboard below, searching for a bowl big enough. what you didn’t know is when you were reaching, your sleeve rode up.

at first, he didn’t completely catch it. but when he did a double take, he went pale. he was fumbling with the third popcorn bag, trying to stablize his suddenly heavy breathing. 

“um, yeah yeah i am. can you excuse me for a second?” he tells you, walking off suddenly. it was a little weird, but you try your best to ignore it and get him what he needs.

he moves to the living room with heavy steps, seeing seungmin sitting peacefully on the couch and scrolling on his phone, “seungmin can i talk to you privately for a second?” 

felix said this quiet enough that only seungmin could hear, trying his best not to gain attention from any of the members.

“sure, what’s up?” he follows behind felix into the hallway, a little worried about what he has to tell him; especially in private.

“is something wrong with y/n?” he hesitates, fidgeting with his hands. “why would you say that? did something happen?” seungmin puts his hands in his pocket, questioning the boy.

“we were in the kitchen and i had asked them to get a bowl for me, right– when they reached in the back, their sleeve rode up and i saw a bunch of scars on their arm seungmin…” he stared at the floor, “and it’s not like they were faded or anything, otherwise i wouldn’t have told you. but they were still bleeding.”

seungmin had no idea what to say. in that moment it almost felt as if his world stopped completely. his face burned hot, and was almost on the verge of tears. what was he supposed to feel when hearing such gut wrenching information about you?

“fuck... are you sure that’s what you saw?” he mumbled, breathing harder to prevent himself from crying.

“i’m pretty sure, you should just talk to them. i won’t tell anyone i promise.”

felix left seungmin with his thoughts in the hallway. it felt like he was on fire. the mere thought of the person he loved the most hurting so badly made him want to scream. it was then that you came into the hallway, clueless about the interaction you were about to have.

“minnie what’s wrong? felix told me to come talk to you…” you furrowed your eyebrows. the aura he gave off was scary, almost making you breathless.

he didn’t say anything besides grabbing your arm and pulling up your sleeve. it confirmed all of his suspicions, so he let everything pour out.

you felt like a deer in headlights, being caught like this. you couldn’t say anything. he carefully led you into his bedroom, closing the door behind him and sitting you on the edge of his bed. he kneeled between your legs, looking up at you.

“y/n, how long have you been hurting yourself?” he chokes.

seeing him like this was entirely fucked up. you felt absolutely terrible for making him worry so bad about you. it was exactly what you didn’t want to happen. you were so scared.

“i’m so sorry seungmin i– i really am.” you sniffle out, wiping your tears with the sleeve of your sweater.

“pup don’t apologize.. but you need to tell me. is it just your arms?” you shake your head hesitantly before pulling your sweater off your head.

red marks were littered on your previously porcelain skin. it mainly covered your arms, but there were two or three on your chest. he felt sick, covering his mouth in shock. 

“if you want to break up with me i understand… i’m disgusting.” you whimper, feeling the cold air coming from the ac to touch your half bare body.

“fuck.. baby no.” he gets up from beneath you, gently holding you in his arms, “you’re not disgusting at all, it just kills me to see that you’re abusing your body like this. you don’t deserve it at all.”

“i’m sorry.” you mutter, ashamed.

“but why?” he whispers, cradling your head.

“i didn’t want to tell you seungmin.. i was so so scared.” you cried, “i’ve been so depressed for awhile. i tried taking pills i did. it just made me feel so numb, and you make me feel so happy. but sometimes things happen and i feel like this is the only way out of it.” you heard him sigh deeply, pulling away from you and taking your hurt arms in his hand. he gently kissed up your arms, being careful not to hurt you.

“i still think you’re beautiful, i just don’t want to lose the love of my life.” his hands trailed down to yours, rubbing circles into your palm, “promise me you’ll try your best to stop hurting yourself. i’m here to help you.”

“you won’t, i promise.” you sobbed.

“that’s my pretty pup. lets get you cleaned up and in different clothes. we can talk more about this later okay? you don’t have to be scared, i’m not mad at you.” 

you nod quietly letting him walk you to the bathroom, careful not to be seen by any of the members. as he wiped a wet rag against your jagged skin, you felt eternally grateful for how much love he gave you.

it was so hard to come past this, but you knew you could fight back as long as he was with you.

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[uvonobu]

Some thoughts abt the new chapters cause they come out soon and I’m gonna die

(Not predictions, just me yapping)

okay dawg. So we all know the phantom troupe members are almost DEFINITELY gonna die. So I’m gonna yap abt what I need to see from them before they die bc if they all die stupid anti climatic deaths I’m gonna CRASH OUT

So I’ve known Shizuku and Nobunaga were gonna die from the start. With Shizuku, I’ve prepared myself for her death. So I won’t crash out THAT bad. Though, I really hope we get some dialogue about why she joined the troupe. I’m calling it right now, it’s gonna be that she joined the troupe because she wanted meteor city reforms but the useless fucking village elders don’t do shit so joined the only group that had actually made changes in meteor city. Yes, she knew what she was getting into, and yes, she knows they aren’t heroes. But their influence is super important to meteor city and I think it’d also be a good way to show the troupe’s relationship with the meteorians in a way that doesn’t feel forced. Plus it’d also flesh out Shizuku’s character more. Two birds with one stone pls hear my cries Togashi pleas

With Nobunaga, I’ve also accepted his death. Though there are certain things I need to see before he dies to be fully okay with it. For example, seeing his hatsu. If he dies without us seeing his hatsu, I’m crashing out. Actually, yk what’s worse? If we see his hatsu and it’s FUCKING STUPID. LIKE. DAWG. WE’VE WAITED YEARS TO SEE NOBUNAGA’S HASTU AND UR GONNA TELL ME ITS SRSLY SOME DUMB ASS SHIT. BRO. I KNOW HES AN ENHANCER BUT CMON…. I’ll forgive both of these things if Nobunaga gets to talk or think about Uvo one last time before his death. You guys know how I am…. Rrrrr… uvonaga….. but overall, if he dies in an anticlimactic way at the hands of hisoka I wont crash out THAT bad. I’ll be annoyed, but I could handle it

Now…. There’s a theory going around that Nobunaga might go by himself to fight Kurapika if he learns he’s on the boat. And I’m not here to talk about the logistics of that, but if that DOES happen, ohbmy god. Nobunaga straying from their mission to kill Hisoka so he can kill the chain user would be SO . OH MY GOD. It would be so selfish. But oh my god, it would be so good… it would really show how strong their bond really was. Nobunaga dying for Uvo genuinely might make throw up I’m getting nauseous thinking about it god that would be such a perfect way to end their story imgonnadie

Okay sorry moving on . If Bono’s gonna die PLEASE make it later down the line. Pls . I cannot handle his death vro. I mean, like… I’ll understand if he DOES die but I won’t be happy abt it…. We just need some more time with him pls Togashi pls… let the readers form an attachment to him first…. PLEADHHRHEJKSK all I’m asking for with Bono is more time and more dialogue thats all I want

Machi was already set to die. It’s so crazy, but Togashi wanted to kill her off when Hisoka woke up. She’s basically living on overtime right now, she was NOT meant to live this long. So I can’t really be that mad if she does die cause he was already being generous in giving us more time with her

Okay so I actually will not be crashing out if Phinks dies . Like at all. Sorry Phinks I love you but your death would be SO interesting. God, can you imagine Feitan’s reaction to that? I need to see it so bad. I’ll be super sad if he dies but I’ll also be excited because it’ll open the door to so many interesting paths to take the phantom troupe with

Feitan will probably be one of the last to die so I will probably be numb by then. I’ll probably cry cause he’ll die with all his friends gone and he wasn’t able to protect them and that’s rlly sad to think abt so I won’t be crashing out per say but I’ll definitely be depressed

So. With all the other members, I had been thinking about their deaths since I started rewatching hxh. But. It only recently occurred to me that Franklin might die. And !!! I will be brutally murdering all of you😄😄😁 I will kill everyone on tumblr I will kill everyone on TikTok I will definitely kill everyone on twitter and I will kill everyone I know irl you guys will see me on the news for mass murder I will GENUINELY crash out none of you will be safe from my wrath I will have unprecedented levels of pure rage in my system and I will be doing nothing but screaming in agony for multiple days on end you guys will unfortunately have to deal with my posts about her death for at least two weeks straight I will not be nice about this I will grab a gun and air out this fuckass app in memory of Franklin she means so much to me I will cry so hard I will NOT be okay

And Chrollo’s just not dying. I FULLY believe that Hisoka will just leave Chrollo alone after killing all the spiders. Why? Because it’d be so unspeakably cruel. And it would fit the narrative themes so well. I think Chrollo losing his nen and Kurapika saying he’ll have to understand understand the grief of losing the people he loves was foreshadowing... or maybe I’m delusional… but think about how insane that would be guys I fully believe this I’m sticking with it unless I get proven wrong

And that’s all thanks for my listening to my yap sesh if Franklin dies I will livestream viral rope and chair challenge😁😁😁😁😁😁

[dumplingprincessextraordinaire]

I try not to post too much about antis because I want the proship tags to be filled with happiness more so than rants, but I haven’t seen anyone point these two people out much so here I go.

Britney Venti and Meatcanyon. MC is simple. He uploaded a video called “the worst fandom” and basically shat on lolicons and spread that stupid school of thought “your brain can’t tell the different between drawings and the real thing-“ No meaty, maybe YOUR brain can’t tell the differences but most of us well adjusted adults CAN. In fact, I think he maybe really can’t tell the difference, remember that disgusting video where he drew that foot ball player getting grossly intimate with his son (a real child, a real father) AND then made a joke about the foot ball abusing the wife for laughs? A real woman as well I’m assuming? Maybe I’m just sensitive to women’s issues because I am one, but gross. Why didn’t more people call Meaty out for that?? I didn’t hear a buzz or a thing about it.

Okay so Britney Venti. Basically she’s a pickme who hates other women, shits on sex workers and lolicons alike. She also likes to join discord servers that are properly marked and labeled as the exact thing she hates just to “expose them”.

At first she’ll try to shit on sex workers by saying stuff like “well I’m just looking at the fact and the psychology about how sex workers are always depressed and aboooosed” and then she’ll turn around and make fun of these same women with really petty low jabs like “wow she looks so retarded and talks funny” (a Venus angelic video iirc) to top all of that off, she’s also apparently dating the incel king himself think before you sleep SO.

And to be clear, I’m a little murky on how good sex work actually is for women myself. I honestly don’t know and I have some misgivings about it, but the difference between Britney and I, is that I’ll never make fun of SWer’s abuse stories, body shame them or victim blame them for what they’ve been through. Basically, Britney sweetie, maybe your brain hasn’t quite caught up to this type of nuance yet, but you can dislike sex work without hating sex workers and being misogynistic.

Oh yeah, after spending years attacking that shark girl vtuber and intruding on proship spaces and saying we’re all monsters, someone dug up a clip of her flirting with a little boy on stream. SO.

[lunaz-virtual-diary]

entry # 2

today was also a pretty good n peaceful day! ૮꒰ྀི⊃´ ꒳ `⊂ྀི꒱ა

me n my mom have been lookin after the kittenz again today!! Im very sleepy though (˵ˊᯅˋ˵) I had all of the kittiez on my lap n i got a picture!! ૮꒰⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝꒱ა

they're SO CUTE!! I don't know how I could ever be depressed with these babies around ໒꒰ྀིᵔ ᵕ ᵔ ꒱ྀི১ I could die happy cuddling them... honestly, I don't trust anyone who hates cats. if cats dont like you they probably have a good reason for it! I think my biggest flex is that animals and kids love me (˶‾᷄ ⁻̫ ‾᷅˵) last night was crazy though. blinkin knocked everythin over n was goin crazy but turns out all he needed was some love! (๑>ᴗ<๑). I connect with love on such a deep level, I don't know why, though. if I were to be a princess or a goddess to represent anything, it would be love 100%. I don't care what kind of love, its just ME. I heard the word for this is lovekin? I don't know. but i AM love! That's probably why me and Lady Aphrodite are so close!

another thing I haven't really been able to stop thinking about is becoming a good person. I don't know if I am or not. a lot of the things I believe in, I believe are good, but others are disgusted by it. like im anti harrassment and pro para. a lot of other things too. people think I should end my life because of that, well I think if you tell me to end my life over trying to be as loving and accepting as I can, then maybe its not me thats the bad person, it's you! I don't know. I want to be pure and kind but its hard when you have disorders that get in the way... ໒꒰ྀི⸝⸝•᷅ࡇ•᷄⸝⸝꒱ྀི১

but I have had a good day! I've just been a bit sleepy is all ㅤ ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Some replies about us, about latest drawings, about twst in general and about other stuff.

I also added some new high resolution pngs of recent drawings on our Ko-Fi shop in case you want them… 👀

Anonymous asked:

I went to go check on your second account today (I was on a trip recently and wasn't checking twitter). But I couldn't find it? Was it nuked?

Yeah, but it’s back now! Fortunately…

Anonymous asked:

long time lurker, first time asker here bc OMG 14 YEARS?? CONGRATS!!! MAY YOU TWO HAVE MANY MORE 🥳

Awwhhh thank you so much, Anon!! <3 This is very sweet!

Anonymous asked:

14 years?! Tbh it feels so weird knowing people on the site are in relationships and such. It always feels like everyone here is just depressed single 20-somethings screaming about fandoms at each other all the time HAHAHA

I wish the both of you nothing but the absolute best!!! Seeing the both of you keep unabashedly being you even in the face of hate and shitty antis and whatnot just helps me so much with my own courage. I used to be a huge people pleaser, and it’s been so refreshing to instead ignore all the nasty people out there and just be my own problematic shipping self! I’m sure it’s the same for many others as well!

Of course, I can’t go on without mentioning your absolutely delicious art! They’re so gorgeous I’m always super excited whenever you upload! You really knocked it out of the park with the recent Sebek/Jamil piece. I’m frothing at the mouth seeing Jamil’s dark expression!!!

Also please give Mila lots of pats for me. She’s super cute and I love her face <3

I get it, Anon lol To be honest, I feel like if I weren’t lucky enough to meet Katsu, I would’ve been single as well. Maybe Katsu would too.

Thank you so much for your kind words!! I am super happy to hear that the way we deal with these issues help you out as well in a way. I say it a lot, but I can’t stress it enough: I really want people to be self-indulgent when it comes to fandoms and art… please, keep enjoying stuff that you like! <3

And thank you for enjoying my art, especially that Sebek/Jamil one! It’s funny because it was one of the sketches that I didn’t like too much initially, but Katsu did, so I worked on it a little bit, fixed some stuff, and ended up liking it as well. So it’s extra nice to hear that it ended up being a good drawing.

(Mila got both pets AND smooches with the words “this is from our tumblr Anon”.)

eh-nonnie-mouse asked:

About your new Halloween illustration: Sebek looks like he's trying so hard to look cool in front of his Malleus-sama where Jamil is exuding cool guy mafia vibes.

About the Actual Kitty Shroud Brothers: ASTAJSKSINDHH ♥️♥️♥️♥️ OMG SO CUDDLY CUTE AND PAWSSS *ahem* I love how you can clearly tell which is which and the personality between each one.

Jamil is just so effortless! He is way to cool… Poor Sebek gotta try harder lol He really wants to be the coolest and most handsome gent around.

And THANK YOU SO MUCH I’m so happy you liked the kitties!! I want to draw more kitties now… 🥹

Anonymous asked:

"(gym teacher/badly performing student)"

Gee, I wonder who

(related to a reply about Vargas being a top)

Hmmm, could it be a certain third year that was forced to do punishment exercises during the Vargas Camp? Who knows…

Anonymous asked:

Curious if you've ever thought of it. Have you ever considered a Human or Beastman! Grim?  Top or Bottom? Who would fit him the best out of the cast?

Good question, Anon!

Ironically, I find it kind of difficult to imagine Grim as a human or a beastman, and whenever I try, I imagine something similar to his animal form – a hungry little gremlin lol I should draw his humanised form at least once!!

He’d probably be a bottom. The type that acts big and cool but in actuality just wants to be coddled and cuddled. The type that does something stupid and reckless and then looks down all guilty and mumbles that he’s sorry. He’s also an “ore-sama” type of character, and for some reason we tend to see those as bottoms, so I guess that tracks lol

As for the ship, I don’t really know… maybe Ace? Or Yuu since he is the one that ends up taking care of this animal lol But also Stitch because why not.

Anonymous asked:

Have you ever watched spy x family? It might not sound interesting with how family friendly is but I have a feeling you could like the main male lead and his bratty dark haired brother-in-law

Unfortunately, Anon, it’s a bit too straight and family-focused for us; I doubt we’ll be able to push through the main characters’ dynamic and story :(

Still, thank you for your recommendation!

Anonymous asked:

Are you interested in romance games? If so you should check Touchstarved, good world-building set in an post apocalyptic medieval era, the love interests are eye catching and if creating a oc to ship with is not your cup of tea the guys dynamics between each other have a lot of shipping potential~ (two are exes/fuck-buds/situationship)

I think I heard about it, but never really dived deeper into it. We’re not suuuper interested in romance games, but it looks interesting! We’ll keep it in mind :)

Thank you for your recommendation!

[whoiwanttoday]

Merry Christmas everybody. Be it a day you are set to enjoy or not, I still hope it's good. I am well aware the holidays are not for everyone. I am sometimes one of those it's not for. I am all about Peace on Earth and Good Will to men and so on but a lot of the other stuff around it can be draining. This isn't some hack anti-commercialism thing, I actually quite like buying people presents, it's nice, it's just that big dates have big expectations and not everyone's life is set up to make it satisfying. In part that's on us, in that we shouldn't be slaves to expectations set by others. Hell is other people and so on, the road to self actualization and happiness is tossing aside other's expectations but you know, also, we live in the world and I haven't figured out how to give no fucks yet so I am not sure why I'd expect everyone else to. I am here to tell you if you don't love your Christmas I am sorry and you definitely aren't alone out there but it is just one day. Focus on getting through it and you'll be through it before too long. And if yours is a good one that's great, I hope you really enjoy your day, there is real magic out there sometimes so embrace it when you have it. I am posting Hannah Ray again cause I just liked her Christmas stuff and I have sort of punted all week given I was traveling and going through a pretty nasty depressive episode (which somehow some people guess. They saw though my pouting and acting like a giant baby and figured it out, wild) so it's been easy to just post girls in sexy Christmas stuff and Hannah has been my favorite so she is showing up here again. Merry Christmas everybody. Today I want to fuck Hannah Ray.

[call-sign-shark]

To my mutuals, to Heaven in Your Eyes Readers, to everyone in the Peaky Blinders fandoms

Thank you so much for your support and never ending love.

When I checked the masterlist post to add an the incredible moodboard one of my wonderful and skilled mutual gifted me, I’ve realized it has reached 410 notes. Even if most of them are likes, and some are my own reblog, it left me impressed. Also, it made me think about how grateful I am everyday for the love and the support you’re giving to this series.

When I started working on it, it was supposed to be only a moodboard and a quick one-shot (which ended up being the first chapter of the whole fanfic). The rest of the stories would have stayed in my head. But then, I decided to write it for me. I’ve told myself that it was okay if no one ever read it, but at least I’ll be happy to eat the whole thing from time to time when I’ll come back to it. At least I would have given Arthur some love, and Heaven a complete story.

But then you’ve showered me with love, comments, reactions, pictures, songs and even moodboards? Do you all realize how much it means to me? I’ve never expected people to support me like this, and I’ve never expected to be so amazingly welcomed in a fandom. You’re making me feel at home. You’re making this place a safe and comforting zone which literally helps me in my everyday life. Now, this blog is +800 followers and is an anti-depressant.

So here is just a little message to thank you again and to tell you how much I love you all. In the meantime, all I can do is shower your works with love too and thank you from the bottom of my heart. ❤️ hope the rest of the journey will bring you many emotions!

Check out the new chapter: Closer to Heaven or to Hell?

~ Shark

[candle-wax-and-polariods]

analyzing each back cover

i love you its ruining my life

shes saying out right that the person shes in love with is simultaneously ruining her life. we can infer that this is most likely YB wanting a quiet life and her not being able to give that, and him wanting her to be little and small. this came at the grammy’s where she got to be big and bejewel

you don’t get to tell me about sad

shes saying that the person shes presumably arguing with cant tell her about her feelings and mental health. this may be referencing the feelings of sadness that depression (something we know that taylor has struggled with at least at one point while writing midnights, see anti hero) brings. this was announced in Melbourne after singing red (a song about the different sides of love, the good happy side and the angry aftermath) but before singing your losing me (a song most likely about joe alwyn and her having a slow decay in their relationship)

am i aloud to cry?

the first and only punctuated back cover. shes asking someone most likely her partner or herself if she can cry. she is obviously upset, most likely very angry or very sad about something and wants to cry and let it pass. this was anounced affter singing HYGTG (asumably because killatrav was in attendance) and before signing a mash up of white horse (about relizing someone isnt what you thought they were) and coney island (a song where the narator is wondering where their partner went) with sabrina carpenter.

old habits die screaming

this is talking about how the habit (maybe the habit is a person) begins trying to come back but it is already dead. the habit may be the relationship or the habit may be symbolic for YB. the habit died screaming trying to get the person making the statement (presumably taylor) to come back to it. this was announced affter playing a mashup of long story short (a song about how journey may seem long but youll survive) and the story of us (a story about a relationship that went bad) and before playing a mashup of clean (a song about a relationship that your finally done and over with that you wont go back to) and evermore (a song about hope and taking things day by day at your worst just to get through something, also has references to 2016).

Cover art

you can see that as the varients go on the color gets darker and the covers get less of that closed off sexiness. you see she goes from the closed off sexiness in the first cover with her hand on her head (seprate note please get taylor advil, she looks like she needs it) to slowly losing that closed of sexiness and while still having time to on the front of the first on the back shes just in a bra and sweat pants, most likely exhausted(physically and mentally) and just trying to get by.

TLDR

the covers get increasingly sad and show the decay of a relationship, and the words get more gut wrenching

[tiptoptoad]

Tw for mentions of s/h, depression, and stuff ; nothing graphic just kinda sad stuff BUT THIS IS ABOUT SMTH GOOD HAPPENING

Sorry guys for being rambley emotional on here but like I only have two irls I can comfortably tell and I need to get it out 😇

Text below the cut if I did it correctly

So I finally told my dad about my problems over text. I’ve kinda been trying to for a while but getting words out is so stupid hard!,!,!,!

even worse that we are both just hanging out how am I a upposed to bring it up while we are both having a good time yk

So I send him a long winded text after I got upstairs to my room and it’s written in my voice that’s like “I don’t feel good I think about hurting myself all the time and I haven’t been able to bring it up bc it makes me feel sad and guilty sorry I love you”

And dawg sending that was so stupid difficult I sat on it for like 15 minutes before pressing the button

So we talked a bit and man I don’t even know

Anyways it went so well I’ve never asked for help and it’s just not the kind of person I am but I’m just really happy I did it. Like I asked for help from one of my older friend the other day and now I did this after like…a year.

Life is beautiful ; thank god my parents are good; Im proud of myself; uhhhhhhh yeahh

Might be going on anti depressants..?

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✨Genres: sci-fi, fantasy, supernatural, action, drama, psychological, LGBTQIA+

✨Subgenres: dystopian, cyberpunk, biopunk, solarpunk, post-apocalyptic

✨Common themes: diversity, anti-capitalism, female empowerment

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Since I like both anime art and storytelling, I'm planning to make light novels. Some of them may be short stories, standalone novels, or series. :3 Going to put some of them on Wattpad and Tapas.

I try to balance unique settings with complex characters.

🌊About Me🌊

I've been writing and drawing since I was little. And before I could write, I would tell my mother my story and she'd write it down for me. I've always had a crazy imagination. When I was a tween, I got into anime and manga, so I learned how to draw in that art style.

I am 26, queer-romantic asexual, and feminine-presenting nonbinary. I identify as both a girl and a demi-boy. You can refer to me as she/her, he/him, or they/them. I don't mind. I'm also white and have ADHD, dyspraxia, anxiety, and depression that prevents me from getting a "real" job.

I'm pretty shy and anxious, but once you get to know me, I may say some weird stuff and dad jokes. I'm a big nerd and simp as well.

I am also a Vtuber, but made this alt identity since I didn't think my work would fit that persona.

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Here I am going to post about my WIP stories and some of my art. I will also reblog others' art and writing. Many aesthetics, fandoms, and other stuff may be reblogged as well with tags if it inspires my work.

Here I hope to find more creators to connect with and find some epic creations. Feel free to message me if you'd like, though I am kinda shy. :3

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✨Tag games

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✨Aesthetics/genres: vaporwave, cyberpunk, pastel, eco punk, nature, grunge, post-apocalyptic, solarpunk, steampunk, fantasy, LGBTQIA2S+

✨Movies: Alita: Battle Angel, Ultraviolet, Aeon Flux, Spider-Man 2, Howl's Moving Castle, Black Panther, The Matrix

✨Shows: Doctor Who, Stranger Things, Umbrella Academy, The Witcher

✨Anime: Death Note, Attack on Titan, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure

✨Games: Skyrim, Baldur's Gate 3, The Sims 4, Minecraft, Fallout

✨Cartoons: Aeon Flux, Batman The Animated Series

🌊WIP(s)🌊

Ultra Drive - Intro Post | Directory Post

Links: Wattpad | Tapas (coming soon)

✨Genre(s): sci-fi, cyberpunk, action, drama, psychological, dystopian

✨CWs: fascist government stuff, pandemic mention, gore probably at some point, discrimination and oppression, violence

When AlexiKa was a child, her world was changed forever when her family was forced to immigrate to the imperial city of Venicula after the Ebony Plague - caused by mysterious eumalyptus spores - infected her home town. Now a young adult, she works as a courier (and secretly an anti-corporation activist). When going on a delivery, she accidentally uncovers dark secrets and ends up infected with the same Ebony Plague that haunted her hometown as a child. But when she survives the illness and instead develops superhuman abilities, she joins a mutant resistance group to fight against the Veniculan Empire, the Gaia Corporation, and other mutants with immoral goals.

Adventures in Alsteria - Intro Post (coming soon!)

Links: N/A

✨Genre(s): fantasy, comedy, slice of life, action, adventure, LGBTQIA+

✨CWs: None ATM? Violence probably?

A trans femboy wood elf named Nel finds the homeland of his people - the rain forests of Falinor - and goes on an adventure to form a guild of adventurers! Still kind of in the vibes stage I guess, but I have some ideas formed for lore and characters. :> Something more cute and lighthearted for me to write in contrast to Ultra Drive.

Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don't have much that I can share at the moment due to much of my writing being lost (school assignments or lost on old computers) or attached to other identities. I also had a looong writer's/art block.

[theflintwarlock]

One pet peeve of mine is those "anti depression spells" I see in some witchy spaces. As a practitioner with depression I hate when people act as if a happiness spell will get rid of mental illness. They're talking about minor sadness, not clinical depression. My anti depression spell is taking my antidepressants and going on a walk. But the reality is that I am disabled, and I will be disabled no matter how many spells I perform. Healing spells are for spiritual healing, for helping to tip the balances on your favour, but anyone telling you they can 'cure' you with Witchcraft are trying to sell you a scam.

[salt-pepper-jolex]

No Matter What: Chapter 2

Chapter 2 of No Matter What; Arizona gives the Karevs devastating news and they realize they have a village.

Side note: This fic is chock-full of sad, heavy angst, and dark topics. This chapter contains: Discussion of therapy, child loss, injury, depression, anti-depressants, vomiting, and eating disorders/self-purging.

Also, I am 100% aware of the sh*t ton of medical inaccuracies.

No heartbeat. Your baby has no heartbeat. The words Arizona had said hit Jo and Alex like a tornado.

She jinxed them. They were happy, over the moon, and truly, nothing could take it away. Except for this.

"Will you excuse me for a second?" Jo wobbled as she stood and walked across the room into the bathroom. Arizona and Alex could hear her sobbing, then retching, then nothing.

"Jo?!" The worry in Alex's voice was clear, his voice rough and cracking.

"Alex, hey, look at me. You have just gotten the worst news possible news. This is hell for you. But it's worse for her. That shouldn't be possible, but it is so much worse for her, Alex."

"I wish I could protect her. I just- I just wanna hold her and make all of her pain go away and tell her it'll end up being okay. Arizona, I need her to be okay. Luna needs her to be okay. If she doesn't make it through this, I won't. And Luna needs us. She needs her mommy."

"Luna is amazing, she is bright, and funny, and strong, and she'll have her mommy. She'll have her daddy too." Arizona offered a small smile, and wrapped him in a hug so tight, he turned red. Even so, he never said anything, because he could really, really use the hug.

"Okay. I'm going to open that door, but before I do, you will walk out of this room and hug your daughter. Are we clear?"

He didn't respond, and she knew he was spiraling.

"Okay, we're gonna do it like this," she muttered, knowing what she was about to do was her last resort.

She pulled him up onto the chair nearby, and walked away. After two minutes, she came back with Luna, now 4 (and a self-proclaimed big girl), in her arms.

"Stay right there, okay? Play with your daughter."

The rest was a blur as Arizona opened the door, Jo pale and lying on the floor.

Alex was in shock, still as sobs wracked his daughter's body.

"Daddy, help her!" The little girl begged.

"Luna-bug, I can't." He signed.

"But you can always fix her! Daddy, please!" The little girl sobbed and melted into a puddle as she screamed and kicked in her dad's arms.

"Luna Elizabeth Karev, watch it. Mommy is hurt, but me and you and all your aunties and uncles are gonna help her get better. You are allowed to go cry it out, but we do not hit and kick, okay?" His tone was stern, gentle, and sad, all at the same time.

She sobs even more. "I'm sorry, Daddy. I want Mommy to get better."

"I know, Moonshine. I do too," his voice cracking and tears falling from his eyes as he held his little girl as close as he could, sobs wracking both of their bodies as Luna buried her head in Alex's neck.

After about an hour, Bailey came by Arizona right behind her. "She has suffered extensive loss. Her road to recovery will be long, and she will need you."

"She's close enough to term that she should deliver. This is my professional opinion, but as someone who's experienced it before, it'll be the hardest thing you've ever gone through." Arizona says, her voice breaking slightly, mostly for Jo and Alex, but also for what she and Callie had gone through.

He nods solemnly. "How long do you...?" Alex's voice was raw. Bailey knew what he was asking, just that he couldn't bring himself to finish.

"Best case scenario, she'll be in that bed for 4 days. We've put her in a medically induced coma, to let her body rest and recover. When she comes out, she'll probably be emotional, so we can sedate her if she needs it. "

Then, Bailey's voice changed, it became more empathetic.

"I'm asking you to take time off. I'm also telling you to go spend that with her and Luna. I'll be by every so often to check."

Alex shakes with sobs, going to hug Bailey.

"Thank you. For everything."

"Go. I'll come back in an hour. Don't worry, no one will round on you."

He only nods sadly, saying 2 simple words that meant everything in that moment.

"Thank you."

4 days passed by in a whirl. Alex sat vigil by Jo's bedside, leaving only to use the bathroom, pick up Luna, and round on his patients.

He just wanted his wife to be okay. He wanted his daughter to be okay. He knew it wouldn't be easy, he knew this would break her. But, she was strong, he would help her pick up the pieces and eventually, she'd be whole again.

Suddenly, Jo stirred.

"Hey, baby. How do you feel?"

"I'm just tired, and I-," she sighs shakily, "my body hurts."

Alex's heart broke, right then and there.

"You have warm hands," Jo said, clinging to the fact that Alex was always there for her.

"What do you need?" Alex offered.

"Can you just hold me?" She whispered, patting the bed before breaking down.

"Of course, babes." He said, waiting for Jo to lift her blanket so he could climb in next to her, wrapping his arms around her.

"I'm scared to have this baby."

"I know. But you got this. You can hold him, and rock him, and it'll be just like he's sleeping, okay?"

"Okay," she said, curling into his body and burying her head into his neck.

For a while, they didn't need to say anything, they just laid there with each other, watching the world go by.

"I think Luna should get to name him," Jo said, her voice soft, but resolute.

"I think that's a great idea. I'll go get her."

He comes back with a tired, red-eyed Luna.

"Hey, sweet girl. Mama missed you. I'm sorry I scared you," Jo said, taking Luna in her arms.

"That was scary, Mommy."

"I know, but you're so brave for staying with Daddy."

The three of them laid in the bed together for a while.

"Hey, Luna-bug, you wanna name your brother?" Alex said to her, hoping that it would make her smile.

Suddenly, a small smile lit Luna's face, slightly morphing into a focused expression. Then, she whispered a name. "Asher. And his middle name is-" she leaned in to whisper in Jo and Alex's ears.

"But don't tell anyone yet, it's a surprise." She said, very seriously.

"That's beautiful, baby," Alex said, tucking a piece of hair behind Luna's ear as Jo nodded in agreement. Luna was fast asleep when Alex's pager beeped urgently.

"Go. I'll be here, but somebody else needs you right now," Jo whispered.

"I love you. I'll be back before you know it." He kissed her on the cheek.

"I know. Now go." She turned him around before motioning towards the door.

"Wow. Are you trying to get rid of me?" Alex feigned offense, slowly smiling as Jo's laughter filled the room, a sound he hadn't heard in over a month.

"Who would do such a thing?" Jo mocked him, playfully pushing him through the door.

"Okay, alright, I'm going. I'll be back soon, love you, baby." He squeezes her hand.

"Love you." As soon as he walked out of the room, Jo's facade crumbled. She sobbed, and coughed as her entire body tensed and tightened.

Slowly, she made her way to the bathroom, positioning herself over the toilet, sticking her fingers in her throat reluctantly. "I'm sorry, baby boy. Mama's not feeling good right now," trying to cover up the actual reason behind her actions, even though she knew it wouldn't make a difference.

After what felt like forever, Jo could feel the bile rising in her throat, shuddering as it all came out in front of her. She wasn't aware anyone had been watching until she felt a hand rub up and down her back.

"C'mon, let's get you back to bed. Then, we can talk." Bailey voice said warmly, because she knew what Jo was doing.

She'd walked in on Jo purging before, and every single time, it was out of fear or stress. Every single time, Bailey would help her get better. This was her first relapse since adopting Luna, and Jo knew Bailey was disappointed.

Jo just nodded, and let Bailey help her. She went to wash her mouth out and flush the toilet, a ghost of herself as she went through the motions.

"Where's Luna?"

"Robbins took her to daycare."

"Are you mad?"

"No, but you know I need to tell Alex about this."

She nods, like speaking would kill her.

"Thank you," Jo croaked, tears in her eyes as Bailey hugged her.

Soon, Alex comes back, a red-eyed, groggy Luna in his arms.

"She wanted Mommy, and truth be told, so did I." He says, a worried look in his eyes, a clear indicator that he'd talked to Bailey.

"Alex..."

"Jo, we talked about this. You said you'd tell me. I had to find out from Bailey again." Alex said, sadness overwhelming every other emotion racing through him.

"I'm sorry," she says, hoping it would tell him everything else she so badly wanted him to hear.

"Next time, tell me. We'll figure it out. Okay?" He moves to envelop her in his arms.

"Mhmm," she responds, leaning into him further.

Over the next 3 days, Jo began to put herself back together, Alex, Luna, Arizona, April, and especially Bailey, helping her.

Then one day, Jo's world stopped.

As Arizona, Bailey, and April came by and helped Jo feel a little bit better about things, she felt a warmth travelling down her legs.

"I think my water broke." Jo said, her voice tinged with fear.

"It sure seems that way," Bailey said, as she, April, and Arizona rushed to get her ready.

"Let's page the other Dr. Karev," Bailey pauses as Jo whispers to her, "and tell Drs. Grey, Shepherd, and Pierce."

An hour passes before Alex finally shows up, Bailey, Amelia, Maggie and Mer all waiting for him and visibly fuming.

"How far is she?" There's worry clear in his voice.

April and Arizona come out to give him an answer, and both of them are clearly furious at him. Arizona tells him, her voice full or frustration. "She's 8 centimeters dilated." April sternly adds, "You couldn't have bothered to find a replacement?" She puts her hands on her hips and waits for Bailey to come out.

"Where have you been?!?" Bailey all but screams.

"I had surgery and Hayes couldn't cover for me!" He puts his hands up defensively before entering the room.

"Get in there before you never do surgery again!" Alex wasn't sure if she was joking, but he didn't want to find out. All that mattered right now was Jo.

Speaking of which, Alex was glad he entered the room when he did, because Jo looked like she had seen a ghost or... someone else he did not want to think about right now, or ever. He knew Jo was struggling and she was terrified outside of her mind, and if he didn't do something soon, she would be panicking and hyperventilating.

As soon as he was close enough, Jo grabbed his hand, her own trembling until in his.

"Where were you?!"

"Hey, princess. I'm sorry, Hayes couldn't step in during surgery." Alex said as he stroked Jo's hair, planting a kiss to her forehead before he wiped her tears away.

The only response is Jo curling further into his chest, sobbing and groaning loudly out of pain.

"I got you, babe. I'm here." He plants another kiss to her head before moving to rub her back.

"It hurts, Alex. Make it go away, please." She begs desperately.

"I know it does, baby. I'm here." He squeezed her hand, careful not to hurt her.

In turn, she squeezed his hand 300 times harder, and almost broke his hand, but he didn't dare say anything.

Alex wishes so much that he could take her pain away, but they both knew that wasn't going to happen. He hated seeing her like this, but he knew it would be worse after she gave birth, and not just for her.

"One more push, Jo, and then it's over," Carina says, her voice calm, but tinged with nervousness.

"Come on, Jo. You can do it." Alex leaned in closer as Jo buried her head into his shoulder and clutched the scrubs on his chest.

She pushes, hard. Then, the pain stopped. No crying, screaming. Their son was pale blue. The only sounds to be heard were Jo and Alex sobbing, knowing their son never got to meet his sister.

Arizona comes up with Asher in her hands, and she's the only person to not know his full name.

"What's his name?"

" Meet Asher Robin Karev. After the greatest mentor I could've ever asked for, and one of my best friends."

"We were about to ask you to be his godmother, since you and Mer are Luna's but then..."

At this point Arizona has tears in her eyes. The room is empty, except for the three of them, and Mer, who was currently explaining to Luna what happened.

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3 months go by, and Jo and Alex go back to work. She'd regularly been taking anti-depressants, but slowly started needing them less and less.

After Jo finishes her final consult of the day and Alex's shift ends for the night, they're in the elevator together, and suddenly, she presses the stop button. They make eye contact for a few seconds before Alex steps closer.

"Hey, you okay?" He looks at her, his eyes filled with concern for his wife.

"I think I have to go back to therapy," Jo fidgets with her ring, waiting for a 'no' or an 'absolutely not' or a 'why should you?' she never got.

"Okay. I mean, we'll have to tell Luna, but it doesn't matter what I think. If this is something you need, we'll do it."

Jo lets the flicker of shock in her eyes cross before she leans into him, tears silently falling.

"Thank you." That was all she could say, but she knew Alex understood it meant so much more than that.

He moves to press the stop button so they can go home, but doesn't let go until the door opens.

That night was the first where no one had nightmares about what happened.

fin.

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I finally did it! One month later, but still!

Also:

I know, I'm sorry about this! I promise the next chapter is adorable and minimal sadness ensues, but there definitely will be some next chapter.

In this fic & entire series, and probably all the others one I'm imagining, Jo's in OB, and right now, an attending. She's also in General, which we might see later on. Alex is Chief/Head of Peds, but still also a General Surgery attending. Also, it's implied for most of the story that Luna can't hear very well, but she definitely hears to a degree.

This particular series is set in season 16 (because we're pretending Alex never left and Jo gets Luna earlier.)

Thanks so much for reading!

xo, Nikki

[beevean]

Im also starting to like n!Trevor out of spite. He cant be compared to canon Trevor (he'd get kicked into the sunset) in any way but as his own character he is a decent dude with a tragic past. And both his "friends" and the narrative keep treating him like a joke and a punching bag even when he's demonstrating genuine camaraderie by letting them in his childhood home.

And i cant believe how trevorcard turned into the main ship of this sewer of a show. I want the games duo to be all lovely n affectionate w eachother while i want n!Trevor to punch n!Alucard's fangs in

And honestly im glad he got pushed to the side by the show i cant imagine what s3 would have done to him if the writers thought he was pretty enough for the sexual abuse treatment

No joke, I think N!Trevor is my second favorite character in the show, right behind Dracula. Third if I count N!Hector in S2 and S2 only. Definitely one of the few I don't despise.

Like. He's not great. He's a generic anti-hero down on his luck and with hehe funny alcoholism, and largely inferior to Trevor who despite popular conception has a solid character, strengths and weaknesses. But he's perfectly inoffensive? He has a decent character arc, a decent backstory that explains his flaws, good intentions, and the story doesn't need to tell you that he's good deep down despite his rough exterior: it is shown when at first he walks by a Speaker getting harassed, but then he reluctantly intervenes. I like how in the finale of S1 he directs the mob to defend themselves against night creatures, showing that, when push comes to shove, he's a great leader. I like how, while he's not an expert in magic like Sypha or intimately familiar with Dracula like Alucard, he's genuinely knowledgable about monster lore and proud of his heritage: he's so happy when he finds the Morning Star! Also yeah, lines like "I am Trevor Belmont, and dying has never frightened me" are pretty cool.

He's a cool guy! And the story just hates his guts for no reason??? I am appalled by the amounts of abuse this dude gets put through by his friend and girlfriend?? And then the story who just gets tired of him halfway through????

Trephacard as a ship makes zero sense to me. Trepha, I can kind of understand because, while she is an utter prick to Trevor in S1 and 2 (oh no she learned to swear thanks to him! this is the same girl who wanted to make him drink her piss because he was "rude"), at least the two genuinely bond more in S3 and 4, although in the most useless excuse of a subplot conceivable. But adding Alucard into the mix is like poisoning a well. He's unpleasant, I have really no other word for him. He's mean, cruel, dismissive, insulting, petty, disrespectful... to a guy that did nothing to deserve this constant barrage of insults, in fact Alucard should be more than grateful that this dude wants to help him in this emotionally devastating mission... and Sypha defends him because his Depression™ is worse than Trevor's Depression™.

"yeah you're sad but i can make fun of you and you react to me, yay! he's just a poor uwu baby who is too Sad to feel anything other than Sad, feel sorry for him" no, I don't think I will :)

Petition to save N!Trevor and N!Hector and put them in a story that actually treats them as characters and not as chew toys pls

[sakurachan7734]

Stressed out

One off story

Tw: drug use

Writers note: happy pills in this universe are not anti-depressants It’s just a drug that makes a very very happy for a couple hours 

Aristotle pov

Everything has been so incredibly stressful lately so much pressure from school so much pressure from my job and acting cause I have to put on a fake face for several hours but sometimes a bunch of pressure from my parents to get straight A’s and be my best and I have been feeling depressed because of all of it and I feel incredibly lonely because my dad’s are always working I just want a break and forget about everything for a while and I have tried nearly every relaxing thing I can think of going for walks, breathing exercises, f**k I went to the beach alone a few times but nothing seems to be working and what I’m thinking of using will get my parents insanely pissed but I don’t really care and I know that their is a drug dealer in the alleyway behind my school so I think I will talk to him tomorrow after school, now I know what you’re thinking “ why don’t you just tell your parents you’re feeling like this? Maybe they could send you to therapy or have to take a break from school and work for a little bit” and I’m not gonna do that cause I feel like they’re gonna tell me I’m being overdramatic because I know their work is important so…. Trying drugs it is for me. 

The next day

Aristotle: hay Jackson?

Jackson: yes?

Aristotle: do you know if that guy next to the school will be here today? 

Jackson: that guy that tried selling crack to people? Yeah he’s here every day you know that.

Aristotle: ok good

Jackson: why do you wanna know?

Aristotle: so I could avoid him

After school

?????: so you want the painkillers and the happy pills?

Aristotle: yes

?????: all right 50 bucks 

Aristotle pays ?????? Takes some of the happy pills and painkillers walks home

Dýo: you’re in an awfully good mood did something happen at school?

Aristotle: no! I’m just so excited for work!

Dýo: oh really? Are you gonna be doing another magazine shoot? I know those ones are your favorite.

Aristotle: I don’t know but it doesn’t matter!

A half hour later Aristotle leaves for work

Lavender: hay father 

Florence: yes lavender?

Lavender: Aristotle has been acting weird since they got home

Florence: yea they were walking like they were dizzy from something

Lavender: maybe they are sick

Florence: yea probably

Two months later Aristotle is chaperoning lavenders field trip

Lavender: hay look at the giraffe! 

Aristotle: yea giraffes are really cool! Look there is a baby giraffe other there

Lavender: where?!

Aristotle: near the corner and I got to go to the bathroom stay with Zachary

Lavender: ok

Aristotle walks to the bathroom

Lavender: hay Zachary has Aristotle been acting weird around you?

Zachary: kinda their eyes look weird too and they once said that they were dizzy

Lavender: I heard something rattling in their bag 

Zachary: what?

Aristotle pov

These aren’t strong enough for me……..now I know I’m going to get killed if i am caught with fentanyl but that might work to clear my mind and I know my sister might find it but I will hide it underneath my mattress and hopefully my parents don’t catch on

After the trip Aristotle buys some fentanyl behind a grocery store and takes a handful and gets into the car

Florence: why did you want to stop here?

Aristotle: I….just had to…..pick something up

Florence: did you run? Why are you breathing heavily? 

Aristotle: no it’s just hot

Florence: hmmm alright

They all arrive home and Aristotle immediately runs upstairs

Florence: so how was your field trip?

Lavender: it was good but Aristotle felt to the bathroom for a long time

Florence: really?

Lavender: yea their eyes look weird and they looked dizzy and I heard something rattling in their bag

Florence:…… I’ll be right back…..

Florence:* walks upstairs and opens Aristotles bedroom door* are you ok?

Aristotle: yes….why?

Florence: your sister said you acted weird on her field trip

Aristotle: i’m just tired

Florence: do you feel sick? 

Aristotle: no

Florence: alright but you know you can tell me anything

Aristotle:…..I know….

Three months later Florence was picking up the main floor and accidentally knocks over Aristotles bag and find their happy pills and painkillers that Florence knows they weren’t prescribed with

Florence:* calls dýo* come home now

Dýo: why?

Florence: I found drugs in Aristotles bag!!

Dýo: what?! I will be home right away!

15 minutes later dýo arrived Home

Florence: Aristotle come downstairs now!!!

Aristotle:* runs downstairs* yes?

Dýo: don’t act all innocent can you explain what your father found in your bag?

Aristotle: What?

Florence: why were there unprescribed painkillers and pills in your bag? And don’t you dare say that someone put it in your bag because we can just have the school check cameras

Aristotle: those aren’t mine!

Dýo: then why were drugs in your bag?!

Aristotle: I don’t know!! Why won’t you believe me?!

Florence: Aristotle you hid stuff from us all the time tell us the truth

Aristotle: no I don’t know whose drugs those are!

Dýo: Aristotle we love and are worried about you and we don’t want you addicted to these!

Aristotle:………

Florence: if you don’t tell us now you’ll be grounded for two months

Aristotle: fine!! Those are mine!! I have been taking those because I have been feeling incredibly stressed and pressured by everything and I have been feeling lonely because you two are aways working and I don’t know what to do!! * trying to grab the pills* are you happy now?! Now give me those!!

Dýo:* holding the pills of his head* you could’ve told us instead of hiding and get addicted to these!!!

Aristotle: I’m not addicted!!

Florence: Aristotle you are wrestling your dad for those!! You are clearly addicted!! How long have you been taking these?!

Aristotle: five months!! Give those back dad!!

Florence: dýo do you think five months of them taking these is enough to send them to rehab?

Dýo:* pushes Aristotle off of him* yes

Aristotle: I’ll be fine without a rehab! 

Florence: if that were true you wouldn’t be trying to fight your dad right now! You are clearly having withdrawals and you need help! We are dropping you off tomorrow no buts about it!* walks upstairs into Aristotles room*

Aristotle:…..fine…….

Dýo: what else are you taking?

Aristotle: nothing else

Dýo: are you sure? Your sister said you threw and passed out last month and you weren’t sick

Aristotle: no I’m not on anything else

Florence:* runs down the stairs holding a bag* Aristotle is also taking fentanyl!

Dýo: what?! Aristotle do you not know how dangerous this is?! Where did we go wrong with you?! 

Aristotle: I do but-

Florence: no but get in the car I’m dropping you off!

Aristotle: fine!

Florence and Aristotle drive to a rehab center

Lavender: what happened?

Dýo: Aristotle is going away for a long time

Lavender: why?

Dýo: they were caught doing something very bad and they need help to stop doing that very bad thing

Lavender: when will they come back?

Dýo: about two months

Lavender: ok

Meanwhile with Aristotle and Florence 

Florence: Aristotle if you would’ve told us what was going on this wouldn’t have happened. We would’ve let you take a break until you felt better.

Aristotle: I know but you want me getting perfect grades and I won’t get that if I miss school

Florence: it’s clear you’re not mentally OK that would be time I wouldn’t care if you missed school now I know rehab will suck but it’s for your own good 

Aristotle: I know I just needed to relax, and I didn’t know what to do 

Florence: well never turn to drugs again if you do I will kick you out of the house

Aristotle: ok I promise I won’t ever do that again

End of story 



[all-pacas]

An Allison Cameron apologist blog in the year of our lord 2024?! I must have died and gone to heaven. I've been fighting for my life defending her on reddit for a decade and I thought I was the only one who liked her. While I'm savouring my scroll through your blog, if you're still taking pic requests, the thing I've always wanted to read is Chase's stabbing and the aftermath as if the divorce/Cameron leaving never happened. Him coming through the ED while she's working... my heart. I know that's kind of heavy and a big ask though. I am happy to read everything you put out, you're a phenomenal writer. <3

Firstly: I am almost entirely driven by spite, so trust me: the more people talk about how awful Cameron is, the more I am driven to defend and rewrite the show to make her better. It's hard sometimes!

Secondly, though: That's actually a hard request, lol. The circumstances that led to the stabbing seem to be to be pretty dependent on the divorce, in that Chase in S8 specifically has been so shaped by his evolution into House — taking a year off medicine just to wait for House to get out of prison, the fact that No One's Fault/Chase are so much about him and House and how Chase is gonna take over Diagnostics and how that's not necessarily a victory — that it's hard to imagine both the timeline where Cameron is still around, and a timeline where Chase isn't a very different person because she is.

I started to really tangent here and I'll make it it's own post, but: I don't think Chase would have returned to Diagnostics and House if not for the divorce. He spent years avoiding both before that, and it's telling that the second his life falls apart he runs back. Diagnostics is safe. House is safe. And in a world where Chase is getting his Approval Fix elsewhere, where he actually has a loving family in Cameron, he doesn't need that as much. And he probably doesn't take a year off medicine and surf because House isn't around to employ him. And he probably isn't waiting for House to get out of jail. And he probably isn't as reckless/careless, because while I wouldn't say Chase is depressed (I mean, he's always desperately needed some anti-depressants, but you know) — he's not poor uwu sadboy — it's also true that he stops caring by S8, he gets more reckless and doesn't get attached. He turns more into House because House is all he has left.

It's also kind of hard for me to picture — I do think there's a timeline somewhere out there where Cameron and Chase stayed together. But (I actually was just watching the episode yesterday with a friend) their engagement alone was about ten different red flags, and throw Dibala in and they were probably doomed.

So it's hard for me to imagine the stabbing happening in a timeline where Chase and Cameron have been together this whole time. A different stabbing? Sure. But that set of circumstances to me is so entrenched in the canon of the divorce and Dibala and Chase having no one but House.

But, that all said, I will see what I can do. Hurt/Comfort and sick Chase I can probably manage, even if it's not exactly the letter of what you asked for. :)