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herbirdglitter · 4 months ago

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I cannot believe I was just sitting in front of the tv watching cnn, somehow both bored and stressed out of my mind, and Instagram wasn’t doing it for me, so on a whim I opened tumblr almost for the first time since i was 13 and the first thing I saw was that destiel had gone canon, my world was changed, and I haven’t left tumblr since

I haven’t even seen supernatural yet it was going canon so many times I literally checked tumblr religiously every morning for multiple months in a row because every time I would forget, it would go canon again

#supernatural #november 5th #us politics #destiel #COVID me had nothing going on #but it was very fun

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snzluv3r · 10 months ago

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i actually feel so incredibly uncomfortable and isolated in this space right now and i know that’s silly because of how many people there are just like me who share the same feelings but idk…the fact that people even think this is defensible behavior is making me feel sick

#nothing quite like being reminded how disposable you are #during the pandemic that set the stage for everyone to show exactly how much they don’t care about disabled people #i’m tired of people not taking this shit seriously and i’m incredibly angry about it #because i know y’all who are reckless and ignorant and think you’re invincible are going to be the same ones begging to be let in #when they ultimately become disabled too.#and you know what? i’m not ready to give those people grace yet #been screaming it for years but nobody listens until it’s too late #have already had people with obvious long covid who spouted ableist rhetoric this entire pandemic #come to me asking for advice #and honestly? i don’t think you deserve advice #i have so much empathy but i’m TIRED #i don’t fucking care anymore i get that we’ve been lied to this entire time but if you actually wanted to do the research you would #and since i know nobody cares about protecting others #i think you would at least care about protecting yourself considering how selfish you’ve proven yourselves to be #this is at the entire world and everyone who refuses to wake up to the fact that we are screwed #disabled people have been telling you this entire time and it’s still a fuckimg joke #and it will only become serious when it affects them directly #i’m so angry right now #and honestly? if you feel like this is about you at all? in any way? that’s your sign #do fucking better. TEST WHEN YOURE SIXK #stop fucking going out when you’re sick unless it’s necessary #i’m so so tired

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folkloregirlfriend · 2 months ago

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i just feel like. i'm happy with my own company or i have very high standards for relationships with people because i don't like anyone and people piss me off very quickly and i let go of them soooo easily it doesn't even matter to me

#or maybe. the real thing is that i don't form deep connections that are hard to let go #and i don't put myself out there or be vulnerable because i don't think anyone will get it so im just very superficial while talking #or too scared #so even if they leave it wouldn't matter to me #wow!!!! nice #i think i've become so detached from feelings idk #buttttt. i used to be the one who cares. i don't give a fuck about anyone anymore i've become so cold hearted what's wrong with me #and one more thing #i've always been the person who avoids conflict so i don't lose people #and now... well #maybe i find it hard to connect with people #or maybe i'm just an asshole haha who knows #or maybe i just fall out of love with people #or maybe it's because i haven't had real relationships in my proximity since covid #so in my head nothing is real #omg i've become such an out of sight out of mind person i'm a toddler #i used to pray for this when i was too attached

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toytulini · 29 days ago

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when customers at work try to be like "oh i cant hear you through that mask you should take it off!" no bitch, you cant hear me cos im fucking mumbling. get it right.

#toy txt post #me and a coworker were both masked one day dealing w a customer and she had kind of a short tempered vibe in general about things #and she was asking about the return policy and my coworker was explaining the general return policy and i was like pointing at the sign #behind us and trying to point out it was Not Returnable since it was a grooming item and she was like 'UGH I CANT HEAR YOU GIRLS THROUGH #THOSE MASKS' and my coworker seemed like. idk not as confident about wearing the mask so i was just like. (Louder and Pointedly Enunciated #As Clear As I Could): It Is Not Returnable Because It Is A Grooming Item. If It Is Used It Cannot Be Returned.#but then she realized she'd forgotten her wallet in the car so all her attitude disappeared after that thankfully #but also ive had someone come in (unmasked) and ask if i was sick (masked) and i was like no. im trying to stay not sick. and they were #like oh good we're so worried about covid and RSV (UNMASKED???) (WOULD YOU LIKE A MASK? I HAVE EXTRA?)#also the person who asked for hand sanitizer (sure) cos theyre so worried about norovirus (hand sanitizer is not going to protect you from #that. you want to wash with soap and water. we have a bathroom?)#parents are annoying about the mask but if nothing else theyve trained me to have zero patience for the nonsense excuses people try i guess

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camgoloud · 2 months ago

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once again in some kind of hellish limbo where i’m like just the tiniest bit sick but it’s so lowkey that i can’t even tell if it’s like legitimately a contagious illness i should be concerned about spreading to other people or if i’m just being overdramatic about nothing. they should make this illegal.

#throat has been killing me since last night but other than that/generally being tired there’s not much wrong with me so 🤷‍♀️#i didn’t have any reason to physically go into work today so i just didn’t but tomorrow there are actually things i was supposed to do #that i can’t just do on my computer which means i’m going to have to make a judgement call on whether to call off or not #main issue here is it could possibly be covid because the last time i (probably) had covid it manifested exactly like this symptomatically.#but also there could just be nothing wrong with me and in that case i’ll feel guilty not going in to do my genuinely important tasks #idk. i don’t have any tests on hand/don’t even know where to get ahold of any at this point so #guess i’ll just see how i feel tomorrow morning/wear a mask and stay away from people if i do go in #caseyposting

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bumpscosity · 1 month ago

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i'm gonna be honest i'm doing pretty bad rn. i'll live but somethings gonna snap sooner or later

#germ and disease paranoia mixed with emetophobia mixed with the state of the world #mixed with feeling bad abt feeling bad bc EVERYONE is living thru most of this stuff and is doing fine. they've got jobs and lives and stuff #meanwhile i'm holding on by a thread here.#snapping could be as small as shaving my head or as big as running thru the streets naked screaming i'm not entirely sure #another level of fear for me. what do i do at my breaking point. i've never been there before #but i'm walking on a tightrope rn #it just feels like i get like 5 days out of every month we're everything is okay. and the rest of it is just bad and fear #and i'm expected to use those 5 days to be productive but i have to use it to recharge #and it isn't even enough days to do that#i'm just tired in my head. the last time i wasn't was 5 years ago and that's hitting really hard #and that's an example of what i'm talking about! everyone lived thru covid and they're LIVING THEIR LIVES NOW. i should be able to too #i have no room to complain so many have it so much worse than me #i can't keep having breakdowns in bed at 2 in the morning. it's been on and off for 5 years #when are things gonna be ok again. get good without something else getting worse.#is it ever gonna be that way again? can it please be that way again?#i miss being 10 i miss my old house i miss my hometown i miss when things were simple #i had all these things to do i had friends and was every teachers favorite student and everything felt like it was gonna be alright #now it feels like nothings ever just gonna be ok. i think everything gonna just be wrong forever #i'm gonna go take a shower and try to clear my head i'll be back later #sassy speaks

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tambourineophelia · 5 months ago

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exhaustion induced panic attack incoming

#i am fine with travelling for long periods but i didn't dare to take my mask off long enough to eat #or drink really....#because everyone around me was coughing all the time and i can't get covid again!!!!! especially when i want to go get vaccinated again soon #and then i had hoped the last three hours would be chill but nope people go to Oktoberfest and then go back by train and are loud and drunk #and also coughing??????#and now it's really hitting me that i am just back and have to face everything again and i can't i can't #i don't even wanna go home #theres nothing there for me abymore

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milflewis · 3 months ago

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#two exams down and they were supposed to be my do really well in this so the last two which will fuck me so dry won’t be that harsh on my #average but lol. lolllllllllllll. like. ok. we’re the first not covid year so they Consistently make our exams so fucking much harder than #prev years which i GET but it’s also not. fucking fair. and for once #for ONCE. i fucking tried and studied and yeah i didn’t do as much as i could’ve ok but i did shitloads more than i generally do #and i was fucking trying like i got the material i even liked it if the paper was hard i knew i’d be able to do good on it #for one paper they had a whole ass 10 mark question on ONE SLIDE out of a 187 slide lecture. on smth that has never come up before. like. ok #and the other paper which was inorganic chem which is so fucking weird but i lowkey love it even if one my lecturers is The Worst #HE PUT SHIT ON THE PAPER THAT WE HAVE NEVER DONE #like wasn’t in his notes or directed learning nothing. and it was like seven marks out of a twelve mark question and there was no choice #and now i still have three more exams to go. tomorrow being one of them. and the last two will be sooooo bad lol #it is 11am and i am still in bed and i should be studying bc the one tomorrow is 9am but fuck. fuck.#ok i’m done. don’t need to text me about this i just needed to get it out bc i am home alone and prob won’t be seeing ppl today #delete later

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statisticalcats2 · 4 months ago

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Man, I had hoped my sister could be an ally in my fight for independence from mom but no, she's still too wishy-washy for my comfort.

"Don't go hiding things from her" was said today.

Mom doesn't need to know everything I do!

#statcat life blogging #she noticed me avoiding talking about my plan to go get my vaccinations today in front of mom #mom's not one of those super anti-vaxxers but she still has *opinions* and only got one covid vaccine back at the start #i didn't want to hear any opinion or even tones #but i had to anyway #and mom does just have trouble with tones even when it means nothing #but i know her opinions on vaccines and this one could mean something #and sister got to make it like we're both at fault when i did my own defensive warning against mom's tone #ugh #i'm just gonna uber next time #i really need to start ubering to escape the enforced family hive mind

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 years ago

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A very interesting cloud formation!

#I don't think I had ever really seen clouds like this before? it looks like a cool painting or something :0 #Pulling just a few images from my cloud and sky photos folder which has like 650 pictures in it becvause I'm obsessed with the sky lol #I will usually spare everyone the cloudposting but... in some exceptions when it's really cool I must Share #(upcoming covid mention in tags for those avoiding the topic)#I WANT TO BE ON AN AIRPLANE SO SO BAD I am going to start casting evil spells to explode all these 'back to normal' bastards who are out #spreading virus and shit HHHHHH... Covid is NOT over actually contrary to popular beielf especially for people with health conditions #that make them more vulnerable or would have worse consequences if they were to catch it etc. etc. wearing a mask in public is #in MOSt cases not THAt much of a horrific terrible evil inconvenience and it helps keep everyone around you safer including these #vulnerable populations!!!! Even if I didn't have any problems myself I would STILL be masking because it's a small gesture that can make a #big difference in people around me being comfortable. It's not like people with health issues just never have to go out or go to the stor #or whatever. There are still people out there who could be helped by extra precautions that are being overlooked. grrrrr...#Like at this point since I'm vaccinated and everything I would MAYBE consider flying on an airplane IF everyone else around me #was masking and being just as careful as me. But at this point it's just the wild west and I would literally be the only one who gives #a shit or who gets tested freqeuntly before after and during traveling and wears the proper type of mask well fitting and not half off my f #ce and blah blah blah. And precautions work best when EVEYRONE is participating. There's only so much you can protext yourself if everyone #around you is doing nothing. So.. alas.. I still do not feel safe traveling. And probably won't for years until more progress is made in #terms of like understanding and treating certain long covid issues and etc. Since I think it's inevitable that if I start going out again #I would get covid. Me and my household bubble are some of the only people I know who haven't had it yet (or at least not knowingly so - if #so it was one of the asymptomatic cases etc.). So if I was GOING to get it anyway I'd at least like the assurance that whatever long term #issues I inevtabley suffer because of it will be more easily treatable at that point instead of entirely disabling even further than I'm #already disabled. etc. AAANYWAY!! all that to say. I JSUT REALLY WANT TO be on an airplane!!! I dont even like traveling and going places I #hate vacations and would rather be at home working on my projects I'm fixated on lol HOWEVER I love the view from airplane windows #like the very few times in my life Ive actually been on a plane and the window is so COLD when you lay your forehead on it and sometimes yo #even see little ice crystals and it's like you're just in a landscape of clouds with a sea of clouds above and below and aaaAAAAAA #Literally I want to get on a plane just to go up in the air and then land and fly back. I don't even want to go on a real trip. I just NEED #to see the sky I need to be IN the sky I need to have that VIEW and the cold and everything!!!! gRGGHGgg... And I will do that the entire #time. I think my longest plane ride was 7 hours and I do not watch movies. I dont text or play games. I literally do nothing to entertain #myself except stare straight out the window for 7 hours (with a few eating and bathroom breaks). not even joking lmao. It's like a trance #I LOVE the sky and clouds so much and the view you get from an airplane is like incomparable!! also I love airports with the big windows an #people watching. but mostly I just long for the sky view again. GRRR.. sobbing and yearning >:T

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vraska-theunseen · 6 months ago

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aughhhh. aughhhhhjhhhh

#everhoneignore this post classic rant post i don't have real problems everyone can move along #truly have had such a bad couple of days here and i am not even close to finishing the assignments i need to finish in welding being in #clsss makes me want to quit and die i don't know why i'm so slow i don't know why everyone else can intuit this stuff and improve and #understand how to do it and im always always falling behind if i could try harder wouldn't i be able to do that ive got no drive to push #myself at all i guess i like the english and i can do the physics i thought i at least liked drafting and metals fabrication but i feel so #stupid everything i do makes me feel so stupid and my teacher talks to me like i'm always doing everything wrong when i do some classroom #ettiquette breaches that everyone else does too and i can't get myself to go to sleep on time can't get myself to go in early i have hours #and hours and hours and i blink and it's gone and i've done nothing i should've welded today and gone in early to draft but i didn't because #im stupid and im slow and i can't do anything right i have always been able to square away a little bit of pride on being precise on doing #things well because people are always telling me that i am but i am below average here i just can't do things right and i feel like everyone #hates me and thinks i'm obnoxious and i don't know how to interface with my class or my teacher or how to improve or how to be less anxious #and i feel even stupider for that because i am so stuck up not being able to deal with even a little bit of failure or issue or hardship #and everyone around me is sick all my classmates and people in my dorm are sick im sure it's covid they haven't said it's covid but none of #them would test and i've been wearing a mask again but im certainly been exposed to it already and no one else is wearing a mask anyway so #what difference does it even make and i can hear them coughing in my dorm and in the classroom and when i go to get food and i miss seeing #my friends from philly and everuthing will be terrible forever and ever #alex talks

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neige-leblanche · 1 year ago

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eggs and ramen with eppy 💜

#txt #kinda happy rn bc i just send a card to my sister & i have done like Nothing the past few days (sick with Probably Covid so can't go out #anywhere) and the eggs came out really nice 🥹 just gotta keep on keepin on #the thing was just that i havent had a fever or been bedridden yet (mom has been testing & she's been negative w the same symptoms of me)#*as #& have been really low energy anyway so ive gotten barely anything done #even though i do have some low energy tasks that i could have done so im mad at myself for that

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tracle0 · 2 years ago

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Next - here Previous - here First - here

#crow comic #art #artist #artist on tumblr #original comic #original art #I'd like to add a note here explaining the panel with just the flag of England #from that I mean to. Discuss how the influx of Christianity twisted England especially into being power hungry and corrupt #something something monarchy as a power of the church. something something beating the celts out of their home #I can't remember exactly what my thoughts were but I'm 99% sure it was along those lines. Hence the. Flag of England #st. georges flag??? I want to say??? Lemmie check #yea st georges flag cool #anyway.#current update is I might not be able to go to uni after all :))))))#oh actually this links to this comic #I made this during a college course I did that basically let you get a level 3 or level 4 in art media and design #this comic had no end input into it but I did make it as part of my final major project. Should have been graded - was not due to COVID #(I made it in 2020)#I got a level 4 which is the same as the first year of uni in the UK. Cool! Cost me nothing to attend #however now I'm applying for a student loan I'm. Not able to get one. Because I already have a foundation/year 1 qualification #and the student finance body won't give you a grant for re-doing a foundation year #is what I can understand from what I've found out #I need to call someone up about it but everywhere is shut until tuesday so. Wait until Tuesday I guess???#sigh

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 1 year ago

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skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

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kabutone · 2 years ago

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ppl that still wear a mask regularly you are more punk than anyone else

extra points if you’re in a really shitty area where there’s a bunch of anti maskers/anti vaxxers/overall shitty people around. you are extra more punk than anyone else

and ppl engaging in any kind of community care u are more punk than anyone else it’s about love and care babey!!!!!!

#was talking w a friend who so much braver than i #you WILL care about other ppl #anyway when the gov is pushing deadly misinfo it is NOT punk to just go along with that shit. stand up against it #i know a lot of ppl feel social pressure to not mask bc nobody else is but daring to be brave and stand out should be the norm for u #don’t fall in w the normies dare to be different and care for others. esp if nobody else is #and when i see other queer ppl who don’t mask it’s like.. hey man! did you know a disease wiped out a huge chunk of us in the 80s?#the gov said it was a ‘gay disease’ and of course they wanted gay people to die so they did nothing. they let us die #now that covid has become a ‘only disabled people disease’ do you think it’s ok for the gov to do this again?#i see other hawaiians not masking or even PROUDLY being anti vax #and again i’m like hey man! did you know hawaiians almost completely died out bc of foreign disease?#our land was illegally annexed bc so many hawaiians had died there were too little to fight back! do you think more of us should die?#i’ve heard ppl say if you don’t mask you’re not a leftist and that’s true but it also applies to so many different identities and cultures #it’s like if you claim to care about the earth but you litter on the beach. like do you really care if you can’t do the bare minimum #anyway. if u see this and u need high quality masks literally DM me and i will send you some

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thetriangletattoo · 2 years ago

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what do I do when someone asks to show my art and I only have fandom art like one single fandom art

#there's this girl that's coming to dinner tonight and my sister wants us to share art bc the girl draws too #and like my sister called me asking me where she could find some of my recent art so she could give her a preview #and my public account is literally dead I haven't updated it in years so she went #where do you have your recent one #i was about to say I got it on tumblr but no nope #like i could show it on my fandom insta but how would that conversation go???#excuse me I've had art block for years until covid came around and i found myself rediscovering old habits and falling back full force #into 1d :)#perfectly valid reason tho #i am working on some good omens art tho #and i have plans for non fandom art #but i literally have nothing right now lmao

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