#but i literally have nothing right now lmao
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Everyone in the reblogs & tags is dogging on this random for not having voted for Harris, for making her own grave and not being happy to lie in it, for being "arrogant" in thinking the democrats should do anything about the state of our country after she didn't vote for them etc. etc.
And I feel like this kind of behaviour proves the point of people like this?
I could be completely wrong, she could literally just be a psyop (and I think that's what's most likely tbh) lmao, but I feel like this was the take of a lot of people who were disillusioned w the party they would have otherwise been voting for.
And if that party's response to losing the election is "boo hoo, we lost & it's actually your fault & now we're all on a sinking ship & we're just gonna watch & do nothing about it because boohoo we lost" It shows precisely just another reason why people would be disillusioned with it.
And then so much of the stuff said in the tags just shines with hypocrisy? "You just don't care enough about women to disregard all the other unsatisfactory shit and that makes you selfish." Uhhh, okay, by that point, you don't care enough about Palestinian lives, or other xyz group or issue to disregard all the other unsatisfactory shit & are being selfish, like??? That just puts yall on two sides of the same coin, no one is right here?
& then the people who are like "Where is your precious Jill Stein?" Like? 💀
Where is our girlboss Kamala rn? Paying someone to update her website?
Why is your argument "Go to Jill Stein" but the same standard can't be expected from the candidate you voted for? To step up and do something, even though they lost the election?
Are they equal candidates that both equally deserved votes, thus we should be holding the two to the same standard?
Or was Harris clearly the better of the two candidates; thus we should be holding her and the democratic party to a higher standard & expect them to be doing more than they are right now?
I just fucking hate that the response of this fucking party is to cry about losing, and then be satisfied to sit around and point fingers at meaningless civilians while the country literally burns around them, instead of continuing to push for change & improvement, and ask for more from their party, even if they did lose the election.
Someone in the reblogs was like "my family lived through WWII and they knew if you didn't vote for the lesser of 2 evils you were voting for the nazis" and I bet they also knew that if the nazis won, the next step would be to collect themselves, wipe their tears away, and then pick themselves up by their bootstraps and get to work on doing whatever they could to resist, and to minimize the damage to come. Sitting around and pointing fingers for the next four years would not have been an option.
#god like i get hurt feelings#i get being unable to believe the orange man won and being petrified by this situation and needing someone to blame#but the gratification that comes from finding someone to yell at is just that#it does nothing to change anything or help anyone and if anything#it only serves to divide the party more and ensure that this shit keeps happening over and over again#lmao anyone who wants to say copium or whatever don't bother#i literally don't have the time for lazy bullshit that matches the lazy energy of pointing fingers
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You know I've been meaning to ask.. is everything okay? I mean your pfp is blank. I understand you're uploading, but I also want to make sure you're okay
idk if i have some mental connection with you, anon, because how else i can explain that you sent this ask right when i felt so bad??? but yeah i should really put a pfp, i just can’t choose the right pic and at same time im lazy….
honestly i promised myself i wouldn’t vent online and irl because i don’t wanna be annoying or be the kind of person people get tired of. but i guess i just feel emotional rn sorry again
well 2025 kinda kicked me in the face already LMAO, it already reminded me that some people will always pick someone else and some things are just not meant to be yours. i just got reminded once again that i’m super replaceable to person i really loved and cared about. so now im realising that i was just there to pass the time until they found smth better, someone better. and they did, they did and that’s just unfair for me, i literally loved this person for 10 years and that's how i ended up
not exactly the fresh start i was hoping for lol
been feeling like a ghost in my own life lately so i guess i made this blog to just be somewhere, to talk to people, to share things i love, to feel like i exist in some small way. to find friends? idk. sometimes i wonder if i’m just taking up space here, but deleting this blog feels dramatic so whatever. although i thought bout this a lot and still think about it, but i guess im just being... yeah, dramatic, i mean i am, ive been told. so, i don't know, deleting feels rude ? and i don’t wanna be rude, i hate being rude :( i still hesitate every time i post though. and i don’t want to be that person who craves reassurance but damn, it gets lonely and im embarrassed to even say that rn
+ last year drained me so much that i couldn’t even start anything for a whole month. its about my work, i just felt stuck, exhausted before i even tried. things are getting better now with my work, though. it’s actually tied to people and honestly, i love that?? i mean, i love people very much. in general. so whenever i meet someone kind or understanding in my work, it lifts my mood
but when it comes to writing or fics, i feel like i’m always fighting myself. actually i enjoy writing, ive been writing since… 14? 13? so i try, i push through, but nothing ever feels right lately. i don’t know if it’s just a phase or if this is how it’s always going to be. why i always feel like i could’ve done better or that maybe i shouldn’t have posted at all
anyways….. i don’t usually post stuff like this. i really don’t want to be like this, i hate sounding so negative, i really do. i promised myself i wouldn’t. i usually just keep things to myself, but you seemed like you genuinely cared, sweetheart and i figured i might as well be honest, i appreciate your worry! thank u sm angel! ♡
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what do I do when someone asks to show my art and I only have fandom art like one single fandom art
#there's this girl that's coming to dinner tonight and my sister wants us to share art bc the girl draws too#and like my sister called me asking me where she could find some of my recent art so she could give her a preview#and my public account is literally dead I haven't updated it in years so she went#where do you have your recent one#i was about to say I got it on tumblr but no nope#like i could show it on my fandom insta but how would that conversation go???#excuse me I've had art block for years until covid came around and i found myself rediscovering old habits and falling back full force#into 1d :)#perfectly valid reason tho#i am working on some good omens art tho#and i have plans for non fandom art#but i literally have nothing right now lmao
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you NEVER need to wait “until you have the money” to start practicing witchcraft. you do not need ANY money for witchcraft. you can have all the money in the world and practice witchcraft every single day without spending a single cent on it. everything you need you already have, inside of you and around you as well.
#i mean this literally. incredibly literally.#you can do advanced forms of magic without ANY MONEY. even if you live in a city and cant forage or anything.#you have YOURSELF. and you are a powerful being.#energy work! look at that! you need nothing for it!#you can INCLUDE ANYTHING in your craft#you dont even need to though#witch tips#witchblr#beginner witch#baby witch#closeted witch#closet witch#this is from a secular witchcraft perspective btw ik there are religious practices that require specific tools etc. but i know nothing abou#those because i am a pantheist pagan lmao#but i mean. i know a little bit about deity work so im also gonna say you don’t necessarily NEED anything to work with them either!#unless its a specific tradition youre following#but offerings can be actions instead of physical goods. you can do divination using like.. the clouds.#AND TECH MAGIC! if you can see this right now then you have every form of tech magic available to you right now.#txt
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what if i just completely threw out 60% of the existing plot concept for the novel i'm already writing the second draft of
#i literally gave myself a stress headache today just thinking about this lmao#writing is hard and i just want to have all the tricky parts figured out for me so i can just do the fun parts lmao#i've been writing at least 400 words a day for the last few weeks but its become increasingly obvious that im muddling around#doing nothing going nowhere because my plot outline doesnt exist and i need to figure out story beats#and now im like. maybe its going nowhere because i have everything arranged for the finale right from the beginning#and maybe i should spend the length of the book having the characters arrange things for the finale themselves#so basically now i'm just. messing everything up? to give my characters something to fix?#im doing this when i COULD be writing some completely different new shiny distracting idea :T
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So... Link Click Bridon Arc.
*curls up on the floor and sobs pathetically*
#it talks!#guys I'm not okay#this is even more tragic than ALNST ivantill wtf#I was crying through the last few s2 episodes#then bridon Arc hit me right in the guts. Literal K.O.#link click... truly a hidden treasure#this is gonna be my blog topic for a while now lmfao get used to it#I need to change my banner dear Lord#I NEED TO DRAW THEM#ITS A PRIMAL NEED#seriously though I adore Lu Guang and Cheng Xiaoshi#everything about them is so tragic... and yet— so perfect. Fragile and fragmented yet still whole#link click has changed my brain chemistry holy shit man#also I whipped up a mini prompt for them#literally woke up from my half asleep state to type it out as if my life depended on it#dunno if I'll post it tho#will prolly draw it if I get the time. It was mainly meant to be like a scene dialogue of Lu Guang speaking to Cheng Xiaoshi...#and a lot of scenes from s1 timeline#I have way too ambitious ideas for my still developing skills... I'm trying to balance it okay-#oh and of course. the classic yearning scene of the MC's thoughts being spoken while the soon to be dead love interest is happily smiling#that's my fav part. It comes at the end :D#okay I think that's it lmao please comment if you read this far I've no clue if people even read my posts half the time#link click#shiguang daili ren#tags mainly for sorting purposes and nothing else
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me, someone who really likes dinosaurs and is trying to learn more about them scientifically: new folding ideas video on fossils!! yay!! time to learn!!
folding ideas, 20 minutes into a 90 minute video: so anyway, about creationism and flood geology
me, also a xtian: oh my giddy fucking aunt.
#apply table directly to the forehead#oh my godddd. what if we didn't ruin everything. WHAT IF.#i don't want to hear about evangelicalism i don't want to hear about evangelicalism i don't want to hear about evangelicalism#have i not done my time. have i not. is it not enough that i live through it. can i just have dinos and science for once. please god. pleas#may be because i'm still not in a Great Headspace Right Now but i am like. on the verge of tears lmao#being a Leftist Christian Killjoy just means literally nothing is ever 100% enjoyable there's always Something#there's always fucking SOMETHING you have to Learn To Live With#christ on a bike i need like. i don't know. i don't know what i need i don't know if what i need Exists#aster chat
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THE BEST OF MASS EFFECT: VIRMIRE
Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard and Cmdr. Dominik Shepard With: Lt. Kaidan Alenko, Gun. Chief Ashley Williams, Urdnot Wrex, and Tali'Zorah nar Rayya Ft. Special Guest Appearances by: Spec. Saren Arterius and Sovereign There is a realm of existence so far beyond your own, you cannot even imagine it... Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)
#mira makes gifs ✨#sophie shepard#dominik shepard#kaidan alenko#ashley williams#urdnot wrex#tali’zorah vas normandy#mass effect#me#mass effect legendary edition#dailygaming#it’s been so long since i’ve made a BEST OF: lol but virmire called to me the other night#this isn’t really the same as the ME3 ones i’ve been breaking from tbf but also virmire is my favorite mission in ME1#and tbf this is a BEST OF: ME in general#i might make a series but i'm not quite sure yet this was just something that popped into my head when i was playing a UNC the other night#but i did get to use both the kids this time!!! :D#my favorite mindoir twins :)#bc we love BOTH sheps in this house!!!#but this was a lot of fun! i got to do some more interesting stuff with the editing and the coloring than i usually do :)#i was also planning on using a vision shot? but those are so jittery (right word?) in gif form that i scrapped it tbf#also pls excuse soph looking different in literally every gif pack i release lmaooooo#this is the last iteration of her head i promise lmao (actual canon ME1 appearance i swear ignore everything else lol)#finally fixed that sculpt and gave her her piercings and i think she matches up with dom a lil better now :)#tbf dom also went through 50 other iterations of his sculpt but i never giffed those. those are just in a screenshot folder on my PC lmao#i was gonna say OG dom versus now dom isn't that far off but tbh dom did have a CC head at one point#i call that head dan now bc i don't associate it with him anymore it looks nothing like him LMAO#OG OG soph looked crazy different too tbf. and she was an adept at one point before i scrapped that entirely.#oh OG versions of my kids how different you looked and how much you have changed#but the kids are alright! and i'll stop screaming about them now. :)#i’ll stop using the tags to rant now even if it is the mira special™️ but have a good day wherever you are!! :D
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its so important to me that you know how much ive already cried over this wip and its literally only been two days
#if this ever gets finished it will be a blasted miracle#god i just. it is just so much to me#its right in that sweet spot where it fits exactly with the image of the character in my head#AND its pressing on the bruise of an enormous hangup for me in my real life as well#i say this very genuinely: i think if u are not used to the creative process of things like making art/writing/music/dance/drama etc#its difficult to really get into how emotionally significant and worldview-changing those processes can be#obviously they dont HAVE to be. u can sing a song just for the sake of singing it and it doesn't need to mean anything at all if u want#but when u are actually CREATING it. like from nothing. boy that can really get u (in a good way and a not-good way)#and i dont say this to make the creative process sound all superior and grandiose just to make myself feel better - i really do think#that there is smth profoundly transformative and tender inside it that it is so important to feel#i mean. essentially its the feeling that the high school theatre kids are addicted to lmao#but they r totally right to be because it IS addictive and it DOES feel really good#when it comes to writing fic for me it can be such a powerful emotional experience#i only used to get that from dance (and that didn't start to happen until at LEAST 11 or 12 years after i started)#its not always SO intense. but when it is then it Really Is#and i think you can kind of tell when you read it#sometimes its emotional bc its the satisfying execution of a singular vision - its motion capture/out of my head/resist and elongate#and sometimes its bc the feeling is so intensely and overwhelmingly personal - return to me/blood sugar baby!/reeling/sea change/#in my mind i think you can really see it in my human nature series - the one with warden and vega#i dont know if thats purely bc that series means so much to me - its been my baby for almost 2 years now#or if its also bc much of it has happened during a very emotionally intense part of my life#in any case when i say that these things are very personal i don't mean in a literal sense necessarily#im not ACTUALLY out here building stalker museums or cannibalising prison guards or splitting the fabric of time#bc whats important is how it FEELS - at the heart of those fantastical things are emotions that aren't magical or supernatural at all#feelings and fears and desires that i have in my life - translated into something much bigger and grander and easier to talk about#do not worry because this is not going to be read by anyone. but if i were your english teacher i would tell you#to go and have a skim of one of the fics i mentioned just now#and i wonder what you think i was thinking about when i wrote it#what i was afraid of or what i was wanting or what i didn't know how to deal with#i dont have to ask because i already know. but i think you could guess if you really really wanted to
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some byIers be like "well, yeah everyone in hawkins from kids to teens to adults knew that will was gay and called him all sorts of slurs and made fun of his clothes and laughed at him but that's just because they had secret knowledge bestowed upon them by a higher power or something about him being gay. clearly it wasn't because will is visibly gay and does not act like other boys (aka is gnc) or fit in with them aside from his party who are also outcasts for different reasons. everyone knew that he was gay even though will has never tried or done anything with another boy, and it has NOTHING to do with how we're told in many ways that he does not act like, dress like, or like the same things as everyone else in literally under the first twenty minutes of this show. will is our conforming #hypermasc king who isn't ever scared of anything, has never needed to be saved (and definitely not repeatedly), never cries, never gets called slurs aimed at feminine men, is on par with hopper when it comes to being a manly macho all american man, and would fight anyone and everyone with pure ice in his veins. fuck you if you call him sensitive or acknowledge that he runs away and hides when confronted with danger bc obviously being scared and fighting in any not offensive&aggressive way is Bad and Emasculating and something to be Ashamed of. embracing will's canon traits is Bad and instead acting exactly like lonnie does is Good and makes you an exemplary ally btw. so is taking everything about will and plastering it onto mike instead somehow for mental gymnastics reasons that i will never explain to you bc i know it's dumb."
and somehow..... i'm supposed to respect some of u and ur opinions? 🤨
#rmr when i said tht will gets scared easily n is often scared and ppl got mad at me.#or when i repeated exactly what joyce said to hopper and ppl got mad.#or when i pointed out what the st bible says and people got mad.#or when i pointed out tht will never fired his gun. how he never chooses violence until it's his only option left. how mike is the one that#swoops in to protect and save him and he moves behind him. and so on and so forth.#and how that's all okay and there's nothing inherently bad or shameful in that.#but somehow THAT'S the Bad opinion. even though it isn't an opinion; it's literally just canon#and you can go and see it for yourself right now if you want lmao.#like.............. naurrrrrrrr idc girl i don't have amnesia or suffer from memory loss and also i actually#like this show n the characters how they are and wouldn't change them at all. not even s3 mike#LMAO#but anyway.
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working with children really will make you examine your thought processes and emotional reactions like nothing else. I've found myself being so much more thoughtful in my daily life about how I respond to my emotions and environment, as well as the reasoning behind why others behave the way they do
#yesterday i got really frustrated and overwhelmed at one point because this one little girl keeps getting really upset when she cant help me#like shell ask to help and i wont have a task (or ive run out bc shes already helped) shes capable of so i tell her that#and thank her for being thoughtful and helpful. admittedly the first time this happened i was really frustrated w her already#bc she had made a huge mess doing something i told her not to do and then didnt want to clean it up and she only came back#and asked to help because her friend had been helping me. so i was like girl. you didnt even clean up the last mess#but i also had nothing for her to do. anyway she started screaming and hid under a table so then her friend did it sith her just. because.#idk kids will see their friend freaking out and they do it too. and i understand it but my god. i dont deal well with really loud noise#and she did it again yesterday. i let her help me and then i ran out of tasks and she started crying and saying i never let her help#and for some reason there were like 6 other kids in there all wanting to help so then several of them started freaking out#and i could not handle it. i literally told my coworker like im about to cry right now lmao#and later the little girl was like wanting to hug me and talk to me and acting like nothing happened and i found myself wanting to withdraw#like i was feeling like i wanted to avoid her and not speak to her or be cold but i also knew i didnt want to treat her that way#and i took a couple minutes by myself and thought about why i felt that way‚ what the effects of that would be‚ and how the kid felt#and i really just had to remind myself that she was feeling just as many emotions as i was but that shes only had 6 years#to learn how to manage them and deal with them in a productive way. she wasnt trying to upset me. she wasnt trying to make me mad#she was just dealing with her emotions in the only way she knew how. and im an adult and if she can get over it i really need to get over it#long ass tag story sorry
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applying to more jobs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha :))))))))))))))))))
#i guess this isnt too personal but i work in the library field and to be an actual librarian you need a masters degree in library science#(which i dont have yet. i dont even have my bachelors until june)#(but i DO have almost 8 years of public library EXPERIENCE which has to count for something right?)#anyway my hopes are low that i will get any of these jobs and getting lower by the second because they ALL require an mlis#and thats fine! i dont mind working an assistant job until im 40 if thats what it takes#but i just need to FIND ONE#i just need ONE job that pays at least 30k. maybe even at least 25k and i could make that work#im not in a position to move out rn bc im still paying for college which kind of limits my choices#so im trying to keep it together lmao. when i graduate i may still only be able to get a part time but maybe at a high enough wage#and then i can MOVE there and i wont be pissing money into my gas tank#:( i wish i picked a different field#i know i can change my field whenever and i fucking WILL at this point but i need something NOW so i can move out#and all i have is public library experience :(#when i graduate ill start thinking genuinely about alternative fields i could get my foot in but for now im just sad and poor and stuck#i think about how different my life could have gone if i chose literally any other field and it makes me burst into tears#i HATE money. i hate having to fucking worry about this all the time#like i love it (bc i need it desperately) but there is nothing i hate more#well. back to applications :(#im being so dramatic btw. for ref ive literally applied to 2 jobs my entire life and only been rejected to one of them#which happened last month#i do think these people will all reject me but i dont have evidence yet to become all kms about it#im just scared lol
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I actually realized i hate work. Won't be putting any effort into this anymore ♡
#sure whatever#it's funny because when i applied there i really really wanted this job#and it had nothing to do with that one person i got a little overly attached to#and when i started working there it was fine but i think really the only reason i liked it was because of that colleague#and now he's gone there's only annoying things left#also maybe i got too cuddled by him because he's always had my back until now#but i have to try to get things from the design team now and they just straight up ignore me lmao#like. my colleague asked me last week if i could ask them to edit some images which i did and they ignored me for 2 days#then HE sent them a follow up message and surprise surprise the images were there within 30 minutes#now again. he asked me to request some images and then built them into the journal#i request them. i hear nothing back. i send a follow up saying it's kinda important. i get nothing#oh well sorry man. guess you'll have to do that yourself after all (:#(i think it's really nice he's trying to give me so much more responsibility and all but if he's not there to back me up#it's literally not working because Everyone Is Ignoring Me :)))#also two weeks from now I'll be alone in our office because my other colleague who's in the same office as us#has announced she's gonna go share the office with someone else because she's gonna be alone otherwise#lol thanks#also some other shit someone posted in the group chat today which really pissed me off#AND the fact i got ignored AGAIN when i asked for work :) like bitches. i literally just watched netflix on my private laptop#while wiggling the mouse on my work laptop until i got off lmao#i won't go to the office tomorrow either#i was gonna go but i can't do shit there if i get ignored again#at least at home i can do whatever i want when they decide i should just get money for wasting my time ♡#i might actually just not work tomorrow#I'll probably log in just to see if there's any updates on the images situation but if not I'll fuck right off#fun times#(also maybe just maybe I'm generally a little negative these days. that may play into it. I'm sensing that sweet summertime blues ♡#((who cares if it's because of my father's death or because of my colleague's going away or because of general existential despair due to#university.... i'm just annoyed) )#void screams
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well this is what ive been doing for the past 2 weeks
#sorry for using chrome. drive sucks on firefox. i use firefox for everything else. literally it's open right next to this for other shit#so what im doing is making a list of every creature you ever encounter in dai (that part is complete. it took a week)#and making note of its important stats and now its chance of each elemental immunity with the walk softly trial on#because i am genuinely planning that solo nightmare all trials run and the most important thing is making sure i can actually hit everythin#you will notice that NOTHING is EVER immune to spirit damage. that is due to a bug that i personally discovered in the trial implementation#the only creatures that can gain immunity to spirit through the trial are cretahl and hurlock alphas (only the ones in the descent)#and the only creatures naturally immune to spirit are in dlc (mostly trespasser but some in the other dlc too)#so basically what this means is that you NEED spirit runes lmao. or i guess runes to damage specific types of enemy#the least likely immunity of the three core elements is electric which is good because chain lightning is VERY powerful for solo runs#you've just gotta be mindful of hitting yourself because friendly fire WILL be on for this run fml#oh so those percentages arent technically correct. they're inflated for most creatures#for normal-ranked creatures (rank 0) there's a 20% chance they'll be promoted to elite (rank 1) and then all elites--#(whether promoted to elite or already elite) have that chance of immunity. so you can divide them by 5 for normal-ranked creatures#except for the 100% ones. those are from preexisting immunities#yes im putting way too much thought into all of this. i went into the all trials and the solo nightmare runs without doing too much work#it's just that on nightmare you get FULL immunities and with no companions you've gotta make sure you can deal with that#because you might end up in a situation where you just cant damage something AT ALL#(a good reason to diversify your abilities. also you CAN damage them it's just capped at 1 damage per hit)#and no abilities that decrease resistances help because an immunity is +1000% resistance and nothing comes close to getting that under 100#im having fun at least. i wouldnt keep doing this if it was too boring#some of it has been tedious (especially going through some of the areas with dozens of the same enemy) but ultimately feels worth it#the spreadsheet has 5678 lines ftr. fortunately around 2.5k are npcs so i dont have to do anything more with them#anyway. i usually post about what da-related thing im up to every now and then and it's been ages so i thought id give an update lmao#personal#da#dai#undescribed#there are also a lot of interesting things like. you'll see that poison spiders CANT be immune to nature damage#and that's because it wont apply an immunity if the creature is already immune to that element OR its associated effect#so poison spiders arent immune to nature damage but they ARE immune to poison so they wont gain nature immunity from the trial
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really feel like whether or not your inquisitor drank from the well of sorrows is gonna have some weight in veilguard
#it should right? the way its built up in the moment#and then kind of gives you nothing in the game beyond OH SHIT flemeth is mythal#and now she has the power to literally stop you in your tracks#OH OOP solas just sucked her soul out though wonder what that means#YOU CERTAINLY WONT FIND OUT IN TRESPASSER#i still cant decide if i want it canon for my trevelyan to drink from it or not#mostly bc i kind of hate having to account for it in my fic but lmao
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getting my family to watch the new dr who with ncuti. my friends advised me to start with Wild Blue Yonder so we did tonight. it was so good
#i NEED ncuti though#david tennant is a good actor and all but ive had enough of him tbh#tomorrow night <3#for context i have literally only ever watched three era doctor who#like nothing else#its a funny little bit about me lmao#one of my friends told me to start there bc he knows i love 70s and camp#and he was right#three era is everything to me <3#dr who is something i know i could really really get into some day#but not yet#im sticking w x men for now
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