#But twitter told me if i don't at least get five likes on my post

[chewysgummies]

Jfc is Twitter really fucking bad. Wtf

[sturnsreader]

scars

TW: self harm

!! requested by @sturns-posts !!

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“y/n?” you heard your boyfriend, matt, call from upstairs. you sighed and made your way up stairs to find matt on his laptop. you walked around the corner and smiled walking up to him.

“yes matty?” you asked cheerfully.

“are you okay?” he asked sounding concerned.

“yeah, why?” you asked confused at by the sudden worry.

“well, im just worried about you.” he sighed. you noticed that he kept looking back down to his computer screen to making glances at your arms.

“you would tell me if you weren't, right?” he asked.

you gulped wondering what he knew.

“yes, baby, please dont worry about it.” you nodded quickly before turning back to go downstairs.

he grabbed your waist and pulled you back into his arms playing with your hair.

“are you sure you’re okay?” he asked again repeating himself. you nodded into his chest before he pulled you back leading you into his room. he didn’t say a word, just sat you on his bed and opened up the screen. on the left hand side of the screen was a recent picture of you in mcdonalds that a camera man had taken, on the right hand side was the same photo just zoomed into your wrist. your scars visible for the world to see. you read the headline over and over in your head sighing.

'HAS TWITTER TROLLS PUSHED MATTHEW STURNIOLO’S GIRLFRIEND OVER THE EDGE?'

“what is this? you told me you stopped a while ago and if you felt like that you were going to tell me. did i do something wrong?” he asked pointing to your wrist on the screen with teary eyes. you couldn't speak, your whole throat had closed up.

he noticed and pulled you onto his lap staring into your stinging eyes.

“i love you so much and i want nothing but for you to be the happiest girl ever. i let anyone hurt you. whether they're old or new, i don't care because i'm here for you now and i always will be." he smiled before kissing your forehead softly. a tear escaped your eye making you smile.

“we don't have to talk about this now, whenever you're ready.” he smiled resting your head onto his chest as he wiped the tears off.

| 2 hours later |

“hey, i know you wanted to go to the cabin back in massachusetts, so were going with nick and chris tomorrow morning!” he said with a smile while tucking your hair behind your ear.

“baby, you didn’t have to”

“shh, i wanted to.” he said as he hugged you around the waist.

you waited at least 10 seconds before letting go. matt’s hugs were the most comforting thing ever. “can you help me pack, please.”

matt shook his head up and down with a big smirk while grabbing your hand and walking downstairs to the bedroom.

“oh, how long are we staying.”

“since were with nick and chris we are staying for a week and a half, but soon we can go alone.”

he was digging through the closet trying to find a bag big enough before you made him stop.

“i love you so much.”

“i love you more, my love” you could tell he meant it. “we are going down to nick and chris’s house tomorrow morning at 4 am. i know its early but i want to get there earlier, if its okay with you.” he said right after he found a perfect suitcase to fit all your stuff.

| two days later |

“hey babe i was scrolling through things to do here and there is a tattoo parlor like five minutes away from us can we PLEASE get tattoos together!” nick said excitedly.

“shut up you have been rambling about tattoos the whole time we-“ chris said as you cut him off.

“nick i would LOVE to get a tattoo with you and i know exactly what i want. follow me!” you said as you go to find matt in the store.

“im getting a tattoo with nick and i just want you to draw stars around my scars.” you say while going through your purse to find a pen.

matt looks at you in awe as he takes the marker and draws the cutest stars ever. you start to tear up. you look up at him as he concentrates on drawing them all.

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not my best work but i tried 🥲🥲

i hope you enjoyed and if you have anything you need to talk about message me! i love you guys sm🩷.

[immaturityofthomasastruc]

#23: “The Miraculous Ladybug Movie May Give You What You Want, but My Show Gives You What You Actually Need! You Don’t Work in Television, so You Wouldn’t Understand.”

I've been running this blog for almost three years at this point, and I've seen Astruc talk trash about various things while claiming his show is better, like Winx Club, Paw Patrol, Pokemon, and Pixar as a whole. I never thought I'd see Astruc act like his show was better than a movie based on his show though.

For those who don't know (and you'd be forgiven, seeing how Astruc has barely talked about it on his Twitter), there was recently a movie that hit theaters based on Miraculous Ladybug called Ladybug & Cat Noir: The Movie. Supposedly, it's meant to be a retelling of how Marinette and Adrien met as civilians and as heroes. While I haven't seen it, it seems to be getting good reception, with some saying it's better than the show it's based on.

Of course, Astruc had something to say about this.

Okay, I sort of get what he's trying to say here. It's hard to compare the experience of watching an hour and a half long movie and a TV show with five seasons under its belt, but at the same time, the way Astruc phrased it still made it seem like he was trying to say the show was the better option because it “gives you what you need”. Nobody was expecting the Love Square to be resolved in a few episodes. Most people at least wanted more stories about the two to be told that don't involve constant padding. Astruc also acts like the Love Square is the only draw for the series instead of, oh, I don't know, the superhero action? You're really telling me they couldn't have tried focusing more on that after resolving the Love Square? I'm just saying, if The Office can continue after Jim and Pam got together, you can at least try to actually write other stories after the Love Square becomes canon.

One user in particular had some things to say in response to Astruc's claims, and you can guess how well Astruc took that.

Again, nobody is saying that working in television is all sunshine and rainbows, Astruc, but just because someone isn't familiar with dealing with network constraints and test audiences, it doesn't mean that they're unable to provide any meaningful criticism.

Also, Astruc is once again using a psychology term, in this case, the Dunning-Kruger Effect, to act like he's smarter than the critics. This man took psychology as an elective in college, didn't he?

But then again, this is coming from someone who doesn't think constructive criticism is a real thing.

Funny how he once again acts like anything that isn't positive feedback of his show is delusional, isn't it?

Eventually, this devolved into Astruc posting a little tangent about how fandoms have only gotten more toxic, which would have been a decent point... it if didn't come after all the things he said about fans not being able to criticize his show.

Again, there's nothing wrong with what he's trying to say here, but it feels less like a critique of how fans have become more toxic with the advent of the internet, and more like he's complaining about how mean people have been to him lately.

And, of course, this led to the usual fare of people calling out Astruc for his close mindedness, and Astruc once again saying how people aren't allowed to criticize his show in any way that isn't blind praise.

And here's the thing. We're still not done yet. This little tangent only warranted more comments about how Astruc handles criticism, only this time, it's also about calling out the people who think they can do a better job handling the show.

First, do you mind giving us an example of what kind of constraints you have to deal with, Astruc? We all know that TV executives suck, but I think we'd have more of a reason to understand your struggles if you actually explained some things that needed to be changed because of executive meddling.

Second, nobody wants a beach episode, Astruc, especially after that one issue of the comic you're choosing to ignore. We just want a more consistent story that doesn't rely on endlessly padding out the Love Square.

And finally, did you just say you have to be French if you want to rewrite Miraculous Ladybug? What does being French have to do with any of this? I remember seeing a little tweet a few years ago suggesting you would be a good choice to write a Superman story, but last time I checked, you aren't American.

Let's review in case you got lost. Someone tweeted that they thought the Miraculous Ladybug movie did a better job at the story it set out to tell than the Miraculous Ladybug TV show, Astruc tried to explain how his show is still good in its own way while justifying how long it's been going on for, he ranted and raved at fans for daring to criticize his team's writing before going on a tangent about how the internet has made people more hostile over the years, and when people still weren't happy with him, he claimed that you could only criticize or rewrite the show if you're an experienced French TV writer like him.

So just keep that in mind, fanfic writers. Unless you're French and have experience writing for television, you don't have a chance in hell to successfully write your own version of Miraculous Ladybug.

[kaiowut99]

Duel Links Re-Translation Mod Project (Announcement post I guess?) - Dark Yugi In-Duel Line Re-Translation Test (WIP)

(Alternate project tagline: #LetYubelSayLove)

(Forgive some video stuttering, my Nvidia game recording thing was a bit buggy 😩)

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So. For the longest, I've been hella curious to figure out where the text for Duel Links is in the file assets, the in-duel lines in particular--as I'm sure most folks know, the English dubtitle text applied for the English dialogue is, nine times out of ten, inaccurate or decently simplified vs the Japanese audio played on the same line, and it's a bit wild that we still don't have a second English option for a more faithful take this long after Konami gave us the Japanese voices natively on Steam and made modding the game to get them a thing of the past. But for all my occasional searching through the files, I had little luck due to encryption and junk; at some point in September, I got curious and did more digging and was able to find some card text, at least, but nowhere near as much as is in the game now, and still no dialogue lines.

And then, 2-3 weeks ago, I saw that Aura (Octomaidly over on Twitter, part of @entamesubs handling Studio Bridge-era YGO fansubs for SEVENS+) had been working with a couple of folks to decrypt and re-translate the in-duel lines for SEVENS characters and came across her video on Twitter sharing her progress; I immediately reached out to find out how they're doing it and mentioned how I'd like to try and re-translate pre-SEVENS stuff, lol. (You can watch her latest video demoing her re-translation for GO RUSH world here; find her work as it develops on the NexusMods page for it.)

After connecting with Aura and the folks helping her and getting set up to work on things, I set up a quick re-translation for Dark Yugi's lines, had it all imported for a test-run, and recorded this demo test vs Kaiba to see 'em in action; I did fix a few things since recording this, like some line breaks here/there, but also fixed the one mention of "Dark Magician" in the cut-in shot since this was a test of my OCG-name translation (more on that below) and thus "Black Magician" should've been there--but all told, it looks pretty good overall!

All that to say that this is now another lil' project on my list 😅 It's very cool that this is finally doable and I'm looking forward to working with Aura and co to make it happen--though do note that it'll be at a bit of a slower pace since work on my finalized GX subs (currently revision work on 117-119 is underway) and Tag Force Special is a bit higher priority. That said, the nice thing is that working on in-duel lines in TFSP kinda does half my work for me here, lol; maybe half of Dark Yugi's lines, for example, are recycled verbatim from TFSP--the only difference being that Shunsuke Kazama is actually voicing him--with the rest being lines newly added for him in DL, from lines for dueling other characters to cards he didn't have lines for in TFSP, and this should be the case across the board for anyone who showed up in TF[SP].

My intention is also to work on two translations: one with OCG card names and one with the TCG names, as we're doing with TFSP, and I'll be starting this off by working on the first five characters from each series that appeared in TFSP, since that's how I'm working on the story events there (so for DM, working on Dark Yugi, Kaiba, Jounouchi, Ishizu, and Mai first), and then once done through VRAINS, that might probably be the first version of the mod I'd release. Or maybe I'll release a version as I get each set of five done; we'll see lol. I do plan to contribute my translations to Aura's project, as well. (Also we just recently dug up event dialogue text so those will be re-translatable, too; doing this for the older series' events that likely won't get reruns will at least be worth it since you can spend Gems to get those event scenes)

But overall, it's pretty encouraging--stay tuned!

[prettyboybuckley]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @saybiwithme @bi-buckrights @zainclaw

How many works do you have on ao3?

160

What's your total ao3 word count?

1,070,239

What fandoms do you write for?

I've mostly written for 9-1-1, though I started off with Shameless (6 fics) and I have written some for Teen Wolf (5 fics). There's one 9-1-1 crossover with Schitt's Creek.

Top five fics by kudos:

parents always yelling (telling us to get our acts together)

i just want something to hold on to (and a little of that human touch)

I will come to you (even in my sleep)

open up again (i believe in second chances)

exes and the oh's

Do you respond to comments?

Always, even if it takes me months. I actually just caught up again (there's still a bunch to go, but right now the oldest is 17 days ago instead of 250 days...). It's just a rule I have for myself, and even with the backlog I've kept it up so far, so I'm not going to stop doing it now.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I'm not a big fan of angsty endings, I generally try to at least make it a hopeful ending or, in the case of the college au, use an epilogue to fix things.

But I guess sunny skies & summer highs qualifies as an angsty ending simply because of the cliffhanger (and yes, there is still going to be a continuation, I'm working on it 🙈).

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Choosing one out of 160 is really hard, but I think tell me, will you stay or will you run away is definitely one that deserves a mention here, because it already has a happy ending and then the epilogue just makes it even better 🥰

Do you get hate on fics?

Not commented on the fic itself, no. I've had some people talk shit about my fics on twitter, though, and not even vaguely but calling me by (user)name.

Do you write smut?

Is grass green? Yeah, I write smut 🤭 Thanks to two times kinktober, I have 95 explicit fics, by far the most used rating for my fics.

Craziest crossover:

let's have some fun tonight is my 9-1-1/Schitt's Creek crossover fic for 9-1-1 Rarepair Week, and my only crossover fic

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

My head over feet Buddie valentine's two-parter got posted as one chapter in Wattpad work with over 30 fics once. Filed a DMCA and Wattpad took it down within two hours.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Two of my fics have been translated into Russian afaik, one on ao3 and one on Ficbook

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

Nope. It may be a nice challenge for the future? Not sure who I'd do it with.

All time favourite ship?

Gotta go for Buddie on that one, lol. Especially if you look at my writing history. But I often tend to hyperfixate on one ship at a time (current reading obsession is McDanno)

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Buck's POV of if love is art then you might be my masterpiece. I really want to, but at this point it's been two years since the original so I don't know if it'd be worth it either. (I know not everyone was happy about how I ended it, but I doubt any of them are still waiting for more). Writing a different POV of the same fic takes an amount of planning that my brain just really struggles with. And I could pick up where the last chapter (before the epilogue) picks up, but I think that way there would be some crucial information about Buck missing.

What are your writing strengths?

I've been told quite a lot of times that I am good at keeping characters, well, in character, even when putting them in partial or complete AU's. Of course, what is in character or not is subjective, but I do always challenge myself to work as much of the canon backstory and personality into who they are in the AU as possible.

And I like to think I'm pretty good at writing smut.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I'm terrible at pacing, which multiple of my long fics prove. It'll be drawn out first and then suddenly rushing. And being ESL I do struggle with things like sentence structure and grammar pretty regularly still.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

As long as there is some kind of translation provided somewhere I like it, but I'm not so quick to use it myself. Not beyond a few Spanish words here and there (generally pet names between Eddie and his family we've seen on the show or the occasional curse word when I feel it fits better than an English one, but I usually need to employ help from Spanish-speaking friends for those).

First fandom you wrote in?

Shameless! I binged that right before I started 9-1-1 and combined with the creative writing minor I was doing, it was actually what got me back into writing in general and what made me write my first ever fic.

Favorite fic you've written?

My in your arms i feel safe-series (which I always lovingly refer to as the ace kink fic) is definitely one of my favorites simply because of how personal it is to me and for the reason behind me writing it in the first place.

Other strong contenders are i would've loved you forever (it's never enough but i wanted it to be) and i'm begging you, come home to me (Teen Wolf, Thiam)

tagging @monsterrae1 @rogerzsteven @loserdiaz @watchyourbuck

[joseac96]

"IT'S...ME!"

Around the time the Five Nights at Freddy's movie was coming out, like shortly after the first trailer dropped, I made this canvas painting of Golden Freddy leaned back against a wall with the phrase "IT'S..." "...ME" with the Vengeful Spirit, assumed to be Cassidy, along with the 4 animatronics, Freddy Fazbear, Bonnie the Bunnies, Chica the Chicken and Foxy the Pirate Fox above the yellow bear. Oh, don't mind the red stains splattered around btw, that's just pizza sauce... nothing suspicious....OK, this is FNaF, what do you expect? 😂

Anyway, this painting was actually made for one of my cousin's kids as they happen to be a fan of the FNaF series and I thought it would be a good way for them to get hyped for the movie. But to my surprise, after giving them the painting, around the time the movie came out, they actually took the painting with them when seeing the movie and guests at the theater they went found interest in the painting, or at least that's what I was told by them.

I heard that the sequel is in the works and releasing some time next year. Wondering if I should do another painting for that movie as well.

Originally posted on Twitter on August 22, 2023

[salarymanwaka]

WAKA!!!! IF U PUBLISHED AN ORIGINAL BL COMIC!! I WOULD PAY FIVE MILLION DOLALRS TO READ IT

UEEEEEE that is so sweet of you to say haha, even if you can't sponsor that many coins right now, the sentiment means a lot to me so thank you so much for your kindness, really..!! (இuஇ`｡) I actually told myself while making new year's resolutions that this year I want to try getting over my fears and share at least a little bit from my original BL works publicly, whether it's character design or basic settei... but honestly it is a big risk in many ways and if it goes badly I don't know if I can recover haha;; The main barrier for pretty much every person I know who wants to make original BL/comics is (1) no money to rent their own free time from the capitalist society for drawing, and (2) anti LGBTQ+ troubles in their environment.... And even if they are not in the closet like me there are many differences in taste/culture and taboo topics between east and west when it comes to BL works that can be confusing to navigate, so some of my friends have experienced unexpected controversy and attacks with international publishing, and in many ways even if it's something so simple like posting your own OC on twitter, it feels very scary...!! Anyway I am very grateful to everyone who has ever expressed interest or support in my original works, (without even seeing them haha) I've thought about using something like pixiv fanbox or patreon to help with piracy and income etc, but at the moment I don't think I can release something on a consistent schedule that is worthy of sponsorship, so I don't want to disappoint anyone o(; u;)o;;; I will still try to figure out how to fulfil my new year's resolution this year though!! Thank you again for your message which lends this silly snail a lot of courage!! I'm sorry I don't know why the reply became so long and self-centred!! I hope that you will have a wonderful weekend and find $20 on the floor!!!!!!

[clover-system]

I follow 750 people, and about 20 of those are mutuals. I joined almost ten years ago at this point, way before there was an algorithm like the for you page (which is like two years old, max). Back before they started generating a feed for you the only ways to see posts at all would be following users to get posts on your dash or by exploring tags. Exploring tags constantly can get annoying so I followed people.

I only have about 200 followers total but I've had multiple posts breach containment - to keep my sanity I just turned off push notifications entirely except for when I get a dm. If you really want to stop a post from clogging up your activity feed while it's blowing up, the mute button has never really worked well according to reports - but you can delete the original post if you want. You'll never get a reblog in your feed again.

The reason I follow so many people is because I do like being able to see as many posts as I have time for - I follow a large amount of artists, some who only post once or twice a month, so that alone would truly be an empty feed. And on top of that I'd estimate at least 150 of them are dead blogs that haven't updated in five years because I don't have the heart to unfollow people who've moved on. I like to reblog a lot - before a lot of people flooded in from other social medias, reblogging was "the thing" you did on tumblr to a post you liked. It was really common for a post to have more reblogs than likes, with likes functioning more like bookmarks than anything. I haven't really changed how I view interacting on tumblr in a long time, but the culture here sure has changed around me. When I'm in the swing of things, I run a queue of 45 reblogged posts a day. I prefer to see posts to reblog as they get posted and reblogged by people and blogs I know, instead of always seeing posts from strangers. In my head the same post can have a different flavor coming from different users reblogging it. I enjoy having a lot of posts on my dash but I don't want the tumblr algorithm (which has a history of being flaky, making nonsensical decisions, and not giving you enough control over what you see) to be in charge of the content, I much prefer to see stuff curated by people I trust and share interests with. I hope this makes sense. Good luck with the too many notes! Tens of thousands really gets overwhelming at times.

If you really want to stop a post from clogging up your activity feed while it's blowing up, the mute button has never really worked well according to reports - but you can delete the original post if you want. You'll never get a reblog in your feed again.

Finally, someone who actually addressed the issue! Thanks!! Though I kinda wanna keep the post on my profile as functionally a souvenir, lol. Maybe I'll take it down if it bursts again.

before a lot of people flooded in from other social medias

When was this btw? What was the tipping point? When did likes become more common than reblogs? I always make sure to reblog/queue a bunch because I was told about that immediately. There have been a few movements to and from Twitter, TikTok, and Reddit.

before a lot of people flooded in from other social medias

Ack, why 45? That's so close to 50, the limit!

Good luck with the too many notes! Tens of thousands really gets overwhelming at times.

Yeah, thanks. Have fun in the processing vortex.

[takaispog]

Intro :]

I'm Taka, but I also go by Blake or Peter. [preference order; Taka, Peter, Blake]

I use he/they/it pronouns, I DO care what you use for me, I hate she/her pronouns with a passion I will never EVER use them for myself. [preference order; he, it, they]

I am an artist, but don't expect much from me cause I am awful when it comes down to actually drawing. Most of my drawings either take a few hours or a whole week, I literally cannot sit down at my computer and focus for more than 10 minutes, it's hard living in such a world.. [adhd + autism]

i am single.

Oh, also I'm a writer and I spend a lot of my time writing more than I do drawing. I've made several AUs [mostly DSAF] that I would love to share with you all!! I'm the creator of Broken Promises on Twitter [@dsafbrknpromise] and although it's been a while since I've actually done anything with it, maybe this'll give me the motivation to continue it / make content related to it.

Not in a lot of fandoms because I can't have more than one interest at a time due to not being able to get into stuff easily. Mostly cause DSAF is such a huge hyperfixation as of currently and I can't watch anything without going "haha dsaf" whenever somebody says the name Jack or Peter.

The fandoms I am in are as follows; [ Most liked to Least liked ]

Dayshift at Freddy's [DSAF]

Dialtown

How To Train Your Dragon [HTTYD]

Pokémon

Slime Rancher

Overwatch

Five Nights at Freddy's [FNAF]

Also a HUUUUGE Group Chat fan [ Isaacwhy, Softwilly, etc.. ] so if anybody out there a huge fan too, hmu.

Will mostly be a DSAF account, will probably post about Peter Kennedy a lot due to him being my husband and us having three children and a house on a hill!

BYF;

I make jokes about wanting to kms and sexual jokes towards fictional adult characters, I'm also really REALLY into DSAF so if spam about the game / fanfiction / art pisses you off gtfo. I do not give a damn. [if you also hate the game get off my page idc about ur opinions]

I make die jokes towards close friends [unless told not to] and type in all caps sometimes, if that makes you uncomfortable in any way you are free to leave!! :] I don't want anybody on my page to feel uncomfortable or anything, I do genuinely care about the people of this fandom, you guys are funny / cool / incredibly talented and I cannot wait to meet new people and make friends.

I sometimes come off a little strong / rude and that's because I cannot read my own tone!! So sorry if I sound sarcastic sometimes or if I sound mean about something, I don't mean to be!! I will make it known if I meant to come off as rude though.

I am an OSDD-1b system. If you don't know what that is, you could do research about it!! If you don't want to idc I tend to keep my system off my shit.

DNI;

Basic DNI shit, if you're a weirdo gtfo. Proshippers, pedophiles, the whole bunch of you, I DO NOT LIKE YOU. If you step foot into my account I will get angry or something idk.

DSAF hater / disliker, if you don't know what the game is I will gladly teach you!! I loooove DSAF, it's my comfort game, I write / draw for it every day. I will point my long, wrinkly finger towards the door if you say anything negative about it.

That's about it!! Thank you for reading <3

[play-now-my-lord]

twitter retrospective

i was active on twitter from 2018 to the present. i can periodize this as hanging gently on the robes of more popular posters 2018-2019 developing a following 2019-2020, and the Pandemic Hell Years, during which i found myself influential on social media for the second time in my life. it was vertiginous, and while i don't believe it was a waste - people showed up for me in my times of need, and i think i had a positive impact on people around me - i also don't think my behavior was blameless, because essentially no one's can be in such a brutal environment. i think nothing in particular will keep me awake at night about it, though. i posted some funny shit and had fun reading other people's funny shit. i developed a sort of battle-hardened attitude towards the horrors of the world that i think i'll have to spend a while unlearning. i do not like the degree to which being on twitter encouraged me to view these horrors as a spectacle to be commented on with glib detachment.

i guess that's the thing that stands out most to me, and has been standing out to me as i try to stake less of my life on the success or failure of one website over the last few weeks. a friend of mine once wrote something to the effect of, "i think being popular on the internet breaks your brain". i think that's true. i think the ways the internet mediates microcelebrity are horrible, and i don't wish it on anyone. the money's shit, not worth the trouble. i once told another friend that i viewed my twitter presence as a sort of outsider performance art, with the "art" in question being the category of influencer. most of those people are bought and paid for by shadowy donors or organs of the state of one variety or another. i'm not, and consequently could never have their reach or their cultural importance. i think this comes out in the wash because my soul will not burn in hell as theirs will when i die, or at least if it does it will be for different, more personally significant reasons. i'd hate to spend eternity in the malebolge on the MyPillow guy's account, is all i'm saying. podcasts guested on: one. viral tweets: about a hundred, give or take. enemies made: like five or six, maybe did it get my dick wet: no overall rating: mediocre. Try your best next time!!

[nova-ayashi]

The Problem with Bluesky

So, I've been struggling with my anger over this for a week or so, and instead of a one-off post, I'm going to use Tumblr for what it was originally intended, and I'm going to write a blog post.

Yup. A whole-ass blog of a post.

Since Musk farted up and destroyed Twitter, there's been a huge influx to Threads and Bluesky (or, at least, for those who can get invite codes). Threads has been a mild experience, and I haven't seen very many trolls, or people with so much delusion that they see themselves as site-wide moderators.

You've probably guessed, in that latter statement, that I'm referencing Bluesky.

In the interest of keeping people with PTSD and other neurological issues safe, I will be mentioning these people by the names they use on bsky.app.

A little over a week ago, one of the handful of trans women I follow on Bluesky was trying to find more trans people to follow. A normal thing to do, since that's a practice we all see a lot of the time. The community is sometimes hard to scrape together.

Bennie (@bennie.gay) was someone I started following from the beginning. I thought she was kinda cool, despite the participation in the pollution of the timelines with senseless shitposting, as if we're all hanging out on Something Awful still, in the year 2023.

Previously, Bennie had been posting about not having enough money for food, and struggling, and this is how I came into contact with her. I gave her around twenty-five bucks with no expectations about it, so that she could feed herself. I don't say this as a way to say, "Man, this shouldn't have happened, I gave her money!" but more as a way to say, this person does not care at all about any of the people around her, even if said people do care.

Now we'll fast-forward back to the part I mentioned about Bennie making a post in an attempt to wrangle up other trans people. It wasn't the fact that she posted asking to find more trans people, or trans women specifically, it was that her post solicited other trans women by calling every single one of them "trannies."

As someone with a large background in dealing with hate, discrimination, being slurred, being accosted, being threatened, losing friends, losing jobs, being completely alone and to myself for years at a time, etc, etc. This isn't really something that's easy for me to see, let alone type in a long-winded explanation about why Bluesky is bad, and what's wrong with its biggest accounts.

Seeing this set my brain into a kind of panic, scorched Earth sort of mode, as it does, when you have specific neurological issues related to abuse and trauma. In as kind a way as I could muster, I told Bennie that maybe she shouldn't be posting actual slurs like this directly onto the timeline without any warning.

Enter: Backlash, lack of empathy, and "You can't police the words I use to identify myself with! We've reclaimed tranny! It's not bad anymore!"

I want to say that I've been dealing with people like this for a very long time, and when you come at me with this kind of extreme narcissism, and inability to sympathize, or empathize with those around you, it pisses me off. It makes me blood-curdling angry.

(See: the saga I was involved in being manipulated by Laurelai Bailey and threatened should I ever speak out against her)

It makes me even more angry, when your followers, or what I would call sycophants, come into my notifications to essentially tell me that my feelings don't matter, that I'm alone, and I have to deal with everything on my own, and nobody cares.

I don't know if these people decided that they're all incapable of empathy over my current state of not transitioning due to numerous life situations I happen to be in, or simply because I said, "Hey, maybe we shouldn't put this on the timeline without warning."

I could go into a whole spiel about how reclaiming slurs is a personal endeavor and it is never universal, you can never speak for millions of people, but that's a whole other point. A point that, if you don't understand in 2023, I'm just going to automatically assume that you're dangerous.

I told a few of her rabid followers to "Fuck off," or "Shut the fuck up," and then I blocked every single one of them.

But that wasn't the end of this. This is where the bad part of Bluesky comes in.

On Bluesky, you have the ability to craft public mute lists, lists that are available for everyone to see on your profile. And on this website, one specific trans community large-account-holder has somehow made a name for herself as some kind of pretend community moderator ... on a Twitter clone.

This might not seem bad just from that statement, because more social media websites could use a trans person as a moderator.

But it goes deeper than that.

Bennie and Kairi (@estrogenempress.gay) are involved with each other. To what extent, I don't know, and I don't care. Kairi runs multiple mute lists that many, many people subscribe to. Lists that describe themselves as lists for people who "scared the hoes," or "people with weird vibes" or just nasty people in-general.

Yes, I saw Bennie begging Kairi to put me on her mute lists. Her trans community, massive-following mute lists that got her interviewed by large tech media magazines.

This is the important part of my whole entire novel length rant: Public mute lists that can be subscribed to by complete strangers, without proper vetting, and much like the Blockbot of Twitter-past, are prone to abuse, in which they are often used to silence innocent people. Used to silence innocent people by malevolent agitators with an agenda.

I have spent years dealing with people like this, being silenced, denied any kind of platform, and largely due-in-part that I don't take bullshit, I have trauma that I deal with, and it's not unreasonable to ask someone not to put very real slurs in front of all of their follower's faces without warning. Whether they're using an offensive, violent slur as an identity marker, or not.

I used to feel this way about "queer," but I've come around on that topic. "Tranny" on the other hand serves no purpose other than to dehumanize, and it has been used against me numerous times while I was still actively able to transition. And I have a lot of trauma. No, that isn't her fault, or Kairi's fault, but it is their fault if they're not willing to listen, not willing to empathize, not willing to move even an inch on anything, and would rather resort to literal abuse.

But that's what you get when random people are allowed any modicum of "power" whatsoever.

And that's why, when all the dust settles, Bluesky will very likely not make the cut.

I would rather spend the next 10 years rebuilding my audience for my work on Threads, than struggle with disingenuous manipulators out to silence anyone and everyone who even so much as slightly disagrees with them.

And, if you're curious, these are the mute lists I've been subjected to, because I asked a random trans woman with a lot of followers to please not put "tranny" in my face.

[pettyprocrastination]

hiiii congrats on ur story being accepted to a lit journal!! ur writing is rlly gorgeous and hope more good things come to you 💌🫀!!

+ i guess i did have a question lol (and feel free to ignore or not answer!!) how did u find lit journals to submit to i guess? like what was your criteria for looking / how did u know how to go about looking lol. again! if you don’t want to answer totally fine :))) hope u have a great day !!

thank you so much love! And I'm happy to answer your questions!

one of my biggest pieces of advice is to look at small journals! I know personally it'd be nice to be able to get into a big journal on the first try but sadly for many (or at least myself lol) that usually isn't the case. My acceptance was from a very small run journal with a following of only about 100-130. It isn't to say that you don't have the talent to get into bigger literary journals- but there going to be much more competitive because they'll most likely have a lot more submissions to go through as well.

there are lots of small-run journals I've found through looking on instagram and twitter: often times when you find one you like their following list will be similarly themed/subject literary journals of the same vein or will have posts recommending fellow journals that you'll also find as good fits for your work!

Use submittable! It's a wonderful website that lets you filter through calls for submissions for art, essays, poetry, short stories, and media pieces of the like for contests and journals around the world for free as a writer/artist. It also allows you to keep track of your submissions and withdraw them easier than just doing so through plain email. (screenshot of website featured below)

Don't feel any pressure to submit to journals that require a submission fee- there are plenty of amazing journals both big and small that you can submit to for free

Now I will say that some literary journals you may find won't use submittable (because a subscription to it as a literary journal is quite expensive) which is also fine! That just means you'll have to be more content with checking your email more often for responses

I know personally I had to look for journals that allowed more "outside of the box" writing/subject matter simply because my story featured cannibalism quite heavily and things like that can be a big no-no for other journals because it may not fit the general theme of their issue/clash with the stories they had already accepted for that time slot. So look for ones that best fit to your style! My professor had told me it's best to look for literary journals that don't worry about genre but it can be hard if you write for genres that are often hard sells (ie horror) for others.

i'd say the biggest thing personally was submitting to a lot of places. Many journals allow simultaneous submissions (submitting one story to multiple journals at once) but it's best to let them know initially and then withdraw as soon as you get accepted somewhere else. Sometimes it really is a numbers game of "if i submit this story to five places I'm more likely to get an acceptance from at least one of them" but keep in mind that 1. Not all journals allow simultaneous submissions and 2. If there's one journal in particular that you really really want to be featured in I'd recommend submitting your piece to only that one so you don't get jinxed and get accepted somewhere else before they have a chance to respond.

I know it may sound moot but keep an ongoing list of the journals you like and plan to submit to!! If you aren't using submittable, it can be very easy to lose track of the journals you want to submit to without anyway of definitely remembering them so I've started by making a google docs full of journals I come across that I want to one day be accepted in + their next submission deadline because once you look at so many its definitely easy for the titles and dates to slip your mind without thinking

And finally my biggest piece of advice is to be patient and take rejections with grace. Coming from somebody who has had her stories rejected multiple times and is currently on staff for a literary journal: rejections don't mean your story is bad. It can mean they already accepted too many of the same theme/subject, the story doesn't match the theme of their current issue or many other topics. You're a talented writer and you can't let rejections pull you away from submitting! As frustrating as it is, publication for a lot of us is a small group of fish in a very big pond of rejections, as is the way of writing!

Anyways- be patient, be confident, and have fun!

[scoupsahoy]

speedran the stages of grief in less than a week and this is just the culmination of that

i just think that if you are best friends with someone for five years and lived with them and their girlfriend for two years that maybe they have a right to know why you stopped talking to them right before you got engaged and why you're not inviting them to your wedding

i like. i don't even want an invite anymore i just want to know why you don't like me.

clearly something happened, maybe it was when i was upset about you being inconsiderate to me over over again in the last year of our friendship and you didn't like it and never apologized, maybe it's that i don't have the money your girlfriend does, maybe you think i'm immature or annoying or going nowhere in life, maybe you don't like my girlfriend, or maybe your girlfriend doesn't like me (though they have at least pretended to want me in their lived and even wished me a happy birthday when you didnt), or maybe youve wanted me out of your life for years and i just couldn't take a hint

i don't even care what it is at this point. i just want like some kind of acknowledgement that either you're treating me in a way i don't deserve, or you DO think i deserve to be treated this way. or maybe you've stopped caring about me a long long time ago and haven't thought about my feelings at all. maybe you haven't cared to notice how you've been treating me.

of course i won't get any of that. and i have to be fine with it. i have to stop expecting things from people. i have to stop expecting an explanation as to why people don't like me anymore. it's hardest i think because you were my best friend for so long (and i know i was never yours) and you knew how much hurt id felt with things like this

it's just so funny because i was so upset when i heard about the engagement because i KNEW you were going to propose because you told me your plan last year, and i had offered to hide in the bushes and take video and pictures, but i found out you did it on twitter. for a week i was in shock because i thought i was the kind of friend you call and tell that youre getting married. and it turns out i'm not even the kind of friend you invite to the wedding. isn't that sad.

i'm the friend who has to ask if im going to get a save the date that i know you sent out, and get and impersonal "hey! you're not. sorry!" which, well. i'm not much of a friend at all i guess.

it hurts from both of you so much, but you and i had a fake wedding once. you picked out and named my cat. we talked about adopting and raising kids together. my parents don't understand why one of the only friends of mine theyve ever loved isn't in my life anymore and i don't have an answer and i never will and it's not because we had a fight it's because you stopped caring about me and that's just. i guess what happens to people when they grow up.

i'm fine to send you memes on twitter and wish you happy birthday and think of you on fridays when i do karaoke a two minute drive from your apartment even though you never come when i invite you and even though we used to love to sing together. i'm fine to type out this pathetically long post on an account you would never see because i'm not the kind of friend that you would even want to hear this from.

i'm fine because i do have other friends that care about me and love me and enjoy my company. i have friends from college and friends who would travel the ten minutes to hang out with me because they would want to if they lived that close. i have friends who have traveled hours to see me. i have friends who wish me happy birthday and i have friends who want me to be happy when it's not my birthday. ive made good friends who i sing with and who invite me to hang out with them when we aren't singing. i have friends who would tell me theyre engaged even if we haven't spoken in a while and i have friends who want me to come to their wedding. i have friends who would probably put me in their wedding.

so i will be okay. because i think i actually am a good friend. and other people think so too even if you don't. even if neither of you ever even did.

[lindsaywesker]

Good morning! I hope you slept well and feel rested? Currently sitting at my desk, in my study, attired only in my blue towelling robe, enjoying my first cuppa of the day. Happy Hump Day!

Here is my new idea for Wednesday’s status. I hope you like it?

I am calling today’s status WEDNESDAY WORDS.

I love words. I have written stage plays, radio plays, TV scripts, novels, short stories, songs, newspaper articles and, obviously, this blog every morning, so you must know I love words!

Here are the rules of WEDNESDAY WORDS: if you decide to post a comment today, just post some words that you really love. Let me repeat that: IF you decide to post a comment today, just post some words that you really love. It could be a few words from a novel? A few lines from a poem? Some lyrics from one of your favourite songs? A profound quote? A philosophical thought? A great line of dialogue from a play or film? Anything you want. Long or short; five words or 30 words, I don’t care! Don’t give us any names or titles, just give us the words they said. If people really like them, they can ‘Google’ the source.

I will start.

“Ism's in my opinion are not good. A person should not believe in an -ism, he should believe in himself. I quote John Lennon, ‘I don't believe in Beatles, I just believe in me.’ Good point there. After all, he was The Walrus.”

REMEMBER: if you decide to post a comment today, just post some words that you really love.

Saw a great ‘vox pop’ on my Twitter timeline the other day. An English journalist asking English people how much they thought medical costs were in America. His respondents were fairly freaked-out when he quoted the figures. Without health insurance, the average per-day hospital cost in the U.S. is $2,883, with California ($4,181) the most expensive, and Mississippi ($1,305) the least. The average hospital stay is 4.6 days, at an average cost of $13,262. If surgery is involved, hospital costs soar through the roof. Calling an ambulance can cost you $400, visiting the ER can cost you $150, pancreatic cancer treatment can cost you $31,000-plus, breast cancer treatment can cost you $48,000-plus. When the government gets rid of the NHS, we can all look forward to these costs but, as we’ve all got loads of available cash, this shouldn’t be a problem.

One of my students was playing me some music by one of his favourite artists. A successful, young trap act from Atlanta. He asked me my opinion. I had to tell him I preferred – what for me is – the golden age of hip hop: EPMD, Biggie, 2Pac, A Tribe Called Quest, De La Soul, Jungle Brothers, Busta Rhymes, The Roots, Outkast, Mos Def, Pharaoahe Monch, Common etc. The video he was showing me was slow and grungy, used the ’n’ word about 200 times and featured really dark violence. No wonder kids think nothing of killing each other! There was no bass line just a very low, distorted sound. I told him that, back in the day, hip hop was dance music (‘Don’t Scandalize Mine’, ‘Talkin’ All That Jazz’, ‘Treat ‘Em Right’ etc.) He said that young people danced to this music. I was not shocked. What passes for hip hop these days is often very slow and very depressing. Definitely a generational thing!

Have a wonderful and well-endowed Wednesday. I love you all. Yes, a crazy, bald man loves and cares about you.

[teaveetamer]

Them: They took us out of context!

The context BWIIDT didn't include: people in the server at the time calling it out for being uncomfortable, gross, and reminiscent of Nazi propaganda.

I censored the names with different colors. Here I have three members of the server calling it out at the time. There's at least two other people who called this out in this conversation but I didn't include them because I didn't feel like digging up those screenshots.

And you wanna know the kicker? Yeah this guy doesn't give a fuck. You know how I know this guy doesn't give a fuck? Because I talked to him about it directly months ago and here's what he said:

(Different display name because he's using a nickname in the Edelgard server, but I just took these and the pfp is the same obviously)

"Had someone mentioned that to me in the server I would have addressed it immediately" at least FIVE SEPARATE PEOPLE mentioned it in the server and your reaction was to threaten to fucking ban them!

So I'll just follow up with what I actually said directly to him about this shit [Context: this comes shortly after HE LITERALLY SAID TO MY FACE that Nabateans are alien invaders who deserve to be genocided]

Me: "Hey even if you're ignorant that what you were saying is Nazi shit I am trying to educate you as someone who's family has experienced this trauma so you can be better informed and more careful in your language so you don't accidentally perpetuate harmful things in your community" Response:"ThE fAsCiSt EdeLcRiTs ArE tRyiNg tO siLeNcE MEEEEEEEE". I'm not kidding. He literally called me a fucking fascist in his """"victory"""" lap announcement to the Edelgard discord server. After he told me I deserved to be harassed and I could go fuck myself. Like. Yikes.

And now here's the thing that gets me. Of course rn they're probably screaming about how the evil Edelcrit mooners are so mean, obsessed, discourse brain-rotted, etc. They don't seem to comprehend that people other than them can be affected by racism and xenophobia and sexism and queerphobia and want to call it out. They think we bring this stuff up because we're just obsessed with discourse and we want to "score points" on them. To them, whenever they bring up Social Issues(TM) it's because they caaaaaare but when we do it we're just identity politicking harpies who hate a PNG and them and want to destroy them.

If my end goal here was to "win" some kind of stupid discourse competition then trust me, I would have dumped every screenshot and recording I have into a google drive link and spammed it every second I could. I don't do that because, guess what, not everyone sees this as some kind of stupid sports game they can "win". My only goal is to get you to leave people the fuck alone already when they block you and tell you not to interact with them anymore. I want nothing to do with you guys and I am only forced to engage with you because you will not leave me the fuck alone.

I wasn't really planning on posting these screenshots. I have a post in my drafts where I explicitly tell an anon who asked that I wasn't going to. I'd really rather move on from all of this shit. But like, you know I've also had an anon trying very hard to sexually harass me for the last few days, and Raxy-poo whining about me because I had the audacity to tell him to stop block evading and reposting screenshots of my fucking blog onto his twitter. So yeah I'm kind of done at this point. I think all of us are. So anon, here you go, a sample of the shit they need to clean out of their house. I'm genuinely sick to my stomach knowing that this kind of thing goes unchallenged in a server for a series I love, and I'm disgusted that some people seem to think I would treat the rhetoric that led to the genocide of my family like a fucking game.

Edelstans: We love Edelgard because of her moral grayness! The people who like her "as a villain" just hate nuance and deliberately misread her character to make her simple and evil!

Edelstans:

[glitter-bunny420]

for your viewing pleasure, here is a list of some of the most iconic quotes from snapcube’s sonic the hedgehog fandub series

*sighs* "I miss my wife, Tails. I miss her a lot. I'll be back."

“Oh!” “Bitch, you are gon’ get in this car or I'm poppin’ between your eyes!" "Wait, I know you! I saw your dick on Twitter!" “AGH! GOD DAMN-!”

"What the fuck?! Is that Shadow's dick?!"

"Who posted my nudes on Twitter dot com?! Oh no! Oh no, they put it all the way in the fucking islands! Now everyone’s gonna know about my secret egg dick. Where do you think you're going, cucker?" "I don't talk to people whose dicks are less than three inches.”

"I can't believe your tits are one polygon!"

*evil laughter* "You fool! I have seventy alternative accounts!"

"Ah! I just remembered a traumatising experience in my past. Hang on, I have to stim and I'll feel better."

"Welcome to Tilted Towers! Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Memphis Tennessee and I'm part lizard."

“I peed on your wife, Robotnik. She's mine now. That’s the law." "What the actual shit?! What?!"

"Alright, since Team FurAffinity fucked my wife, I’m going to have to have you both be a part of my team. Why is the camera zooming in?!" “I mean, I guess that’s fine as long as I get my weed back, I don’t really care.” “I don’t have a character motive.” “Listen! We’re going to explore this island. You’re going to find Sonic. He has all the weed that you need - the gonja, that mary jane. Mari-jamij! All in his pockets. He is your local drug dealer and I’m going to blow up the island. Now go look for Sonic. And hurry up, you... fucking... cuckhogs.”

“I'm going to kill you. And then kill you again."

"Hi, Mr. President! We need your help! Some masked villain named the Glitch-” “Sonic! My long lost lover! It’s fi- Oh.” “Wha- Hey, I told you not to bring that up anymore. I'm putting that behind me, Mr. President.”

“You didn’t think I had legs, did ya? I’m like Gru, except I’m the one before Gru. I’m... Eggru. Ooh, gottem.”

“But Maria, you smelt it! Therefore, you are the one who dealt it!”

“You motherfucker! You just left me to die!" "Top thirty reasons why Sonic is sorry. Number five will surprise you." “Top thirty anime deaths! Number one! Your fucking ass right now!”

”All of that you see before you? Everything the piss touches, that is your kingdom. And you, my son, shall go forth and inherit it.”

”What are you two fucking talking about?!”

”Well, ten years have passed and I feel the same way, Rouge.” “You still wanna pee in a Hot Topic?” “Yes, Rouge. Thank you for listening to my insane ramblings about peeing in a Hot Topic.” “Listen, I’ll take you to a Hot Topic.” “Finally... A place to release myself.”

”Oh, this? It’s my arm!”

“Do you see this? This is the diamond that I’m going to give to my brand new husband and/or wife. It’ll be theirs for the rest of time. With the GameCube 2. So if you want-” “Whoa, he’s bisexual! I didn’t know that-” “By the way, I’m bisexual.”

“Are you my mom?!” “No? What... the fuck?”

“Maria.” *explosion sounds*

“I don’t feel so good. Why are all my limbs slack? Why can’t I move my eyes? Why can’t I move my mouth? Is this an internal dialogue? I can’t see the end of the horizon. HATSUNE MIKU, IS THAT YOU?!”

*various voices repeating “Maria” all at once* “I never learned how to reeeaaad.”

“Silver, you know what? You’re a twink. I’m gonna go smoke some weed now.” “How long were you waiting to say that?” “The whole dub, baby!”

“One!” “Yeah, one.”

“This is an advanced skateboarding trick.” “Yeah, it’s called ‘Digging Up Atlantis’.”

“I... will fucking... end you.”

And last but certainly not least...

"I've come to make an announcement. Shadow the Hedgehog's a bitch-ass motherfucker! He pissed on my fucking wife. That's right, he took his hedgehog fuckin' quilly dick out and he pissed on my fucking wife, and he said his dick was ‘THIS BIG’, and I said ‘That's disgusting!’, so I'm making a callout post on my Twitter dot com. Shadow the Hedgehog, you've got a small dick. It's the size of this walnut except way smaller. And guess what? Here's what my dong looks like!” *explosion sounds* “That's right, baby. All points, no quills, no pillows. Look at that, it looks like two balls and a bong. He fucked my wife, so guess what, I'm gonna fuck the Earth! That's right, this is what you get! My super laser piss! Except I'm not gonna piss on the Earth, I'm gonna go higher! I'M PISSING ON THE MOON! How do you like that, Obama?! I PISSED ON THE MOON, YOU IDIOT! You have twenty-three hours before the piss drrrop-o-lets hit the fucking Earth! Now get outta my fucking sight, before I piss on you too!”