#But that's because I'm spiraling lmao
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AI Junko with these nails would go so hard
#scarposts#Inactive all day wow#But that's because I'm spiraling lmao#tw eyestrain#tw glitch#It is a bit trippy#AI Junko gaining her own sense of style and self separate from og Junko#It's so strange that unlike Chiaki and Chihiro#AI Junko doesn't consider herself a separate entity#She is#Because Junko is dead and she is just code replicating her#Which is probably why her end goal contradicts what og Junko wanted#She's just a Monaca Tsumugi 50 odd whatever the fuck#She's not Junko#Just like how Chiaki is not Chiaki#She died awhile ago and that pile of code will never truly be her#It's just a pile of things about Junko and its spitting out things that seem like something shed do or say#But alter ego also is detached from Chihiro#The called themselves their son#So maybe ai Junko would do the same#This is literally just raiden shogun vs ei huh#Anyway
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Baby I'm Home [Blank Scripts AU]
[Song: Baby I'm Home - ODETARI (feat. Kanii & 9lives)]
#tsp blank scripts au#i made the storyboard last month#then i spedran everything else after that in three days lmao#I'm in a hurry okay I have other things to animate#but I had loads of fun making this one#especially when editing it#you can probably tell from the ungodly amount of transitioning in there#i literally had a headache in the middle of editing this because i had to watch it over and over again and the FLASH#the FLASH kept BLINDING me#Stanley is such a loser in this AU#wowowow he likes drugs and hookers oh em gee i wonder why#what has caused this normal man to spiral into degeneracy?#oohhh ooohhh (I'm trying to make you interested are you interested yet)#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tspud#tsp#tsp au#the stanley parable animation#tsp animation#tsp narrator#narrator tsp#stanley tsp#tsp stanley#stanley x narrator#narrator x stanley#stanarator#stannarator#stanarrator#stannarrator
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Done with our favorite Spider-Boy! Spiderling? Spider... What was his name again?
Avengers paper cutout 6/?
#avengers paper cutout project#art#sorry it's been FOREVER since I did a thing for this series lol#lowkey I've had this done for like... a month... maybe 2 months...?#and just didn't post it because I wasn't 100% happy with it#but well. when someone has a bad day and you want to cheer them up a little you can't be chasing perfection I guess#I also want to do more bird art soon!#just haven't been feeling creative lately due to Certain Life Events:tm:#but today was the first decent day I've had in a while where I didn't go home and then immediately fall into a doom scroll spiral on the co#the couch#stupid tag word limit#anyway yeah hopefully you'll be hearing a little more from me soonish#and by soonish i mean like another 2 weeks probably...#look even when I'm feeling decent I am SLOOOOOOW at this lmao#uhh anyway there's only natasha left out of the OG6 so she's up next#actually probably similar color scheme for peter assuming it'll be a black gun on the hourglass bg#but I kinda hate the black lol it makes the edges look so bad!#we'll see maybe I'll find a picture of her with a different looking gun and use that as an excuse#enough tag rambling I need to post this and then get ready for bed lol#hope y'all enjoy my silly little art#which i guess is kinda seasonally appropriate now??#IGNORE MY RAMBLING UP THERE THIS WAS MY SECRET PLAN ALL ALONG MHM MHM I PLANNED THIS SO WELL
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Wizard 101: Hey kid, you just got pulled into Wizard School, and it looks like you're ready to start. Go down that path and someone will teach you to fight. Oh shit, that's Malistare, uhhhh, *one minor battle later* Good job kid. Go and do some little quests and beat up some fairies, you're doing great! :)
Pirate 101: You're in jail. Pirates are breaking you out of jail! They're... asking about your trauma. You're a pirate, an orphan, the son of a whore and a scotsman, you were raised by another group of people, now you're pulling a jail break and helping other prisoners escape! A uhhh, a guy threatens to murder you. He's the one who locked you up. The pirate guy almost dies and you have to drive his ship??? *one stressful sail later* Hey kid, go beat up this guy who stole from me. I'm gonna cheat and scam you, btw, just so you know. :)
#light's spot#W101#P101#pirate101#wizard101#I'm biased because I'm a Wizard thru and thru#but I played Pirate yesterday and am losing my mind over the shift of tone#in w101 it's like sure I'm the hero of the spiral but it's a story of training and growth and friendship#in p101 it's like I'm a wanted criminal yet I don't have a ship or a name for myself nor a crew and this Armada guy really wants to murder#me specifically???#anyways#Silent Ryan Ironside is my mute pirate and Subodai will forever be my first mate because we're bound by mutual imprisonment and escape#<- She's a Swashbuckler and was raised in Grizzleheim btw. her parents were killed in a mutiny#pretty sure she became a mute after her parents were killed and the Grizzleheim bears gave her the name “Silent” and she took the lastname#of “Ironside” while she was in their care because she'd shoulder her way into battle#fun shift of pace from Natalie BlueFlower who was just like#huh I'm an ice wizard now- HOLY SHIT I'M GETTING MAGICKED AT-#and then never stopped being magicked at lmao
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the irony of cesare slutshaming juan for sleeping in brothels had me with tears in my eyes considering his very first scene in the show is him rawdogging a prostitute like his life depended on it...like babygirl we see you!!!
#like they're such whores i'm screaming!! but also so on brand when you think of it. since the real ones both were fucking sancia byeee#i believe the scene where cesare fucks that girl is just a glimpse of the show adapting the Real cesare's General Manwhorishness™ though!#if you're the borgia family enthusiast you already know that cesare has sired 7 illegitimate kids because of his romantic exploits lmao#cesare borgia i love your hypocritical ass fr like yessss#also love their rivalry so much because there's cesare who always wanna one-up juan in every aspect and be seen as the serious and driven#which is true about the hypercompetent and ambitious part!! but he fulfills his duty in the family in ways that are not conventional#meanwhile with juan...he fully embraces his hedonism and isn't ashamed of it. while he's aware that cesare outdo him in everything...#the only thing he has over cesare is his position as a gonfaloniere!! so he winds cesare up with flexing it!!!#the difference is cesare is as much as he hollers about doing everything for the family...he pretty much does it mostly for selfish reasons#his desperation for juan's position and rodrigo's attention made him sabotage the family more than persevering it etc#while juan is genuine but is reckless and incompetent but he Really tries yk? he really does! but he spiraled bc he feels weak and insecure#oh well both brothers are idiots in their own ways#i miss them fr#cesare borgia#juan borgia#the borgias#juan and cesare#text post
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The Magnus Protocol 8 – Running on Empty memes
Credit me if you repost any of these.
#I do not buy the excuse Celia Ripley's excuse at all#what do y'all think?#idk why but tf2 expiration date really works for that last interaction lmao at least a bit#seems like helen made it into the new universe#also I forgot that Celia was in magnus archives & looked & hooooly crap#if this isn't prime Lynn Hammond then it's definitely an AU#also gertrude robinson & gerry keay are alive so it's gotta be an alternate universe or some sort of universe loop or reset right??#saw someone comment about it being a post scratch reset & cackled because like yeah kinda maybe lmao#I'm convinced Helen Richardson exists in this new world; that's gotta be our distortion spiral lady like cmon#mine#op#tmagp 8#tmagp#tmagp memes#tma memes#tma spoilers#tmagp spoilers#the magnus protocol#the magnus archives#tma
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Why are you scared? Isn't this what you wanted?
After 100000 years this is finally done!!
Ref/Edit under the cut:
#art#anime#magical girl#horror#blood#growing up watching anime as Not A Man means having to suffer through so much misogyny even in Shojo animes#I think I'm allowed to draw anime girls doing some murder on the guys that treat them like That#when the safe 2d girls are no longer safe#can u believe this started as me just messing around in a new poser program and it just spiraled from there lmao#I’ve noticed in a lot of my work (maybe not necessarily what I’ve posted) but I enjoy the contrast of cutesy and feminine stuff…#… being recontextualized as dangerous and horrific#and partly it’s bc I love contrast and playing with expectations#And partly because being perceived as harmless and vulnerable got me pissed off#The feminine and the cutesy are very capable of defending and creating harm and I plan on making more art about that I think
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girl help i've been hit with the twentysomething curse of wanting to move to a city where nobody knows my name and where I get to feel and see and be something new✌️
#ok to rb lmao. i'll be fine. just desperately awaiting the day i pack up and move to a dorm#it's so funny actually#because like. so many people associate depression with wanting things to end but i'm in a bit of a spiral bc want it to START#i am a sad lump on the couch because i can't wait for things to BEGIN#i miss people i've never met and i miss places i've never seen and i miss things i haven't had and i miss who i haven't been yet#carly rae jepsen was right. before you came into my life i missed you so bad.#death cab for cutie was right. i miss strangers more than i miss my (irl) friends#TANGLED WAS RIGHT. WHEN WILL MY LIFE BEGIN#i was not built for this (being immunocompromised and in my house all the time)#guess i'l just explore the woods and/or write fic and project about it for the 834384785648th time
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General Valentina Headcannons (Saw X)
Currently planning the "Valentina lives and becomes an apprentice" AU I've been wanting to write so consider this a precursor to that! (I wasn't kidding when I said I had many headcannons about her so enjoy the ramblings of a mad man <3)
Her full name is Valentina Rosa Hernández
She was 32 years old during the events of Saw X.
This makes her younger than Cecilia & Mateo and older than Diego and Gabriella
Valentina’s birthday is on the 27th of July (thus making her star sign Leo)
Let’s those close to her call her Val for short.
Is still trying to put an exact label on her sexuality but knows for a fact she isn’t straight
Valentina struggles to fully trust and open up to people as she’s been hurt by many throughout her life; she often uses her feisty, sarcastic personality as a shield. Though if you manage to break through this prickly facade, you will find a loyal woman with a lot of love to give.
Valentina loves doing her makeup and is quite the talented makeup artist. It was almost like her pre-work relaxation ritual for the night, doing her makeup while blasting some of her favourite music.
Loves heavy metal and rock music! It was quite rare but when she was able to go to concerts, she’d be in the mosh pit.
As well as having her ears pierced, she’s also got her belly button pierced.
Has a younger half-sister named Carmen who is five years younger than her. Val loves her above all else and is fiercely protective of. Aside from this has no relationship with any of her immediate family.
Growing up it was just Valentina and her father; her mother wasn’t really in the picture. She was really close with her father. However, he passed away when she was 12.
She was then sent to live with her mother, step father and Carmen. Her mother and step-father were cold and neglectful towards her, it was always clear that they didn’t want her there.
As a result of this she grew into a trouble making teenager.
At first, she was distant from her little sister, envious of the love her mother and step father seemed to give her. However, as the pair grew older Valentina came to realise that the amount of pressure they put on her, even from a young age, was harmful within itself. They didn’t love her, they loved the idea of her and as soon as Carmen strayed from what they wanted she was punished. From that moment onwards Valentina vowed to love and protect her sister.
In fact, she started trying to change her trouble making ways so she could be a better older sister.
Valentina left home the age of 20 after a huge argument with her mother and step-father. The only person she stayed in contact with was Carmen (and she had to fight to stay in contact with her, their mother tried to prevent it but was unsuccessful).
Had little to her name when she left home and ended up couch surfing at friend’s places for a while.
Eventually saves up enough to rent a little place of her own, it was small and little bit rundown but it was hers. Carmen ended up moving in with Valentina after also having a falling out with their parents. Times could be tough but they were happy to have each other.
Valentina always wanted to provide a better life for her sister than what she was able to and this is why Cecilia was able to convince her to join the scam. She promised Valentina a life changing sum of money in exchange for pretending to be a nurse for a couple of days. Valentina had her doubts but at the end of the day, such a large sum of money to pretend to be a nurse for a short period of time??? She’d be a fool not too, after all this was for her sister. And she’d do anything for her sister.
#saw#saw x#saw x valentina#sawposting#saw franchise#saw movies#headcannons#I am so normal about her /j#It's funny that this originally started because I wanted to headcannon a full name and age for her#And then it just spiraled from there lmao#And yes her last name is the same as her actress's pls excuse my lack of creativity there LMAO (I overthink names far too much)#Also something that's silly is I gotta lowkey hype myself up to post any writing I do 'cause I'm worried I'll somehow get it all wrong loll#Which is RIDICULOUS I know haha#But I gotta show my girl the love she deserves#cause I am forever cursed to care about characters who have little to no cannon info about them#also not to be rambling in the tags but y'all can pry sapphic Valentina from my cold dead hands <3
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people not only acting like rory kissing jess at truncheon was some plan of hers the whole time but also that it was as hurtful or even more hurtful than some of the things he did to her is my villain origin story
#gilmore girls#gg 6x18#like listen i love jess and i love literati and i understand his choices were never out of intent to hurt her#but neither were her choices??? so why do shippers love to villainize her when she hurts him but are so forgiving when he hurts her#and like. even if i understand the how and why i think fully leaving your girlfriend of several months without telling her#is a lot worse than kissing someone and running away in a panic lmao#also i know we never see jess again after that so people can invent an aftermath but i really do not think he'd go into a horrible spiral#i'm tired on rory's behalf always#see this is why it's so hard to find good fic for them because people are just insane about her character
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I'm trying to find ways to slowly ease my way into taking walks (debilitating social anxiety) so I was going to download pokemon go again but my phone is too old :(
#im actually very upset abt this lol#all of the other tricks ive found rely on having a dog to walk#and like i would love to get my own dog but i absolutely cannot afford one lmao#so i guess i just. still can't go on walks#nobody seems to understand just how impossible it is for me to walk down the street when im not trying to get somewhere#like just going for a walk for fun/to look at nature feels like im being killed#people are LOOKING at me and when someone even so much as glances at me while im walking i instantly feel like I'm doing something wrong#or like they're going to misunderstand my sort of odd behaviors#i can't walk slow because they'll think im a stalker. i can't walk fast because ill get out of breath and they'll think im disgusting#i can't keep a normal pace because im too nervous and i just spend the whole time tense and hate myself even more when i get home#like. what the hell am i supposed to do lol#getting a dog is the only way i think i could stop myself from spiraling like that bc of COURSE im walking slow and leisurely.#im walking my dog. my dog wants to smell and has to poop or whatever#im no longer a freaky fat stalker im just some guy walking my dog#this became more of a vent than i was expecting lmao but if anyone has any actual tangible tips for how to go on walks i would appreciate it#when i had to walk 2 miles to class i used to take a small part of an edible right before i got on the bus lmao and that worked WONDERS#but i don't want to have to do that just to walk around my own neighborhood when i eventually move out#i just want to be normal lmao i want to go out and find bugs and look at leaves#i guess i could walk in the woods but what if i get lost#i want to be able to look at stuff. i want to be able to stop and look at a plant while some person passes by me#without feeling like im going to blow up or like they're going to hit me or like IM going to hit THEM#im used to anxiety but i always feel so erratic in public places. when everyone wore masks i was a little better#i still mask most of the time but it doesn't help anymore bc now im like one of the only people that does it#so now instead of blending in AND having my face covered i just stand out more#my face is still covered so it still helps but its like barely a net positive lmao#i want to be able to look around without worrying that someone is looking at me from their window and thinks im a stalker#truly how the hell am i supposed to do that without a dog lol
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oh boy... i'm never gonna be able to trust anybody because if i start wanting things from someone and putting faith in them i will literally kill myself if they leave... the only thing i can do is try to make myself as independent as possible and never rely on anything so i never feel like i will crumble into dust if someone i love and rely on disappears from my life
#got intense anxiety earlier because i have no human adult life skills so thinking about leaving my parent's place or them dying legit sends#me spiraling. which is funny because like... i'm not blaming my mom but the fact that i rely on them so much#and they really haven't taught me a single thing about how to be an actual functioning human being...#lmao it's just funny.#like i still need to learn how to drive and uhh lots of other things that would be pathetic for me to mention#but i'm just so scared at the thought bc i don't know how to do anything rn and any change in my life feels like a finger getting severed#but like. emotionally. eh whatever#point being idk if i can ever genuinely feel secure with anyone who i'm not tied to completely and utterly#if someone has the possibility of leaving me i feel like they will take it at any opportunity because i'm. too much#so if someone doesn't want me and they leave me and i put any amount of hope onto them. god#i know this all sounds majorly stupid because it is and i'm sure that's just life for most people but#excruciating emotional pain is not fun so i'd rather just not
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In my opinion, Artemis and Angeline have very similar experiences of paranoia as a symptom of
And thus every single family vacation will have a like, medieval war general moment where you can watch them animatedly debate the merits and/or weak points of whatever barricade they've constructed in front of the hotel room door
#I jest but I HC that Artemis' paranoia somewhat genetically comes from his mother's side whereas his issues with dissociation and#reality assessment is more genetically on his father's side of the family#The twins occupy this weird space in the family where they were born after a lot of things exacerbating mental illness in the family were#less present than when Artemis was young due to the Fowl empire#like my personal version of this is watching my aunts' kids grow up in a house where they were diagnosed with autism and adhd really really#young bc their mothers work in early ed. and are really knowledgeable about how to apply that in their home so that they have the support#they need#and let me tell you watching young autistic relatives exist and interact w kids their age who are so much better#about including 'different' peers socially then when I was a kid? that is so fucking surreal#I am very much an 'autistic Artemis truther' and I know Fox has some posts about Tim being autistic too during an era of the Fowls where it#wouldn't have even been 'masking' to borrow a contemporary term so much as just learning Not to Act Fucking Weird ever and performing this#whenever there is someone else present#but to return to the point of this post Artemis and Angeline will see a 5-star resort with insane security and go 'what I'm hearing is that#when the sun sets we will be in the Purge'#Artemis' form of paranoia is fascinating because he experiences it in the 'struggles trusting people and can spiral and believe people are#out to get him and harm him when that is not realistically assessing a situation' but also has horrible risk assessment which is so realist#realistic lmao
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"You're a fighter. You're one of the people who'll make it", is something I've heard a lot. There's a part of me who holds onto life like so hard. Who keeps kicking no matter what. Like even in a black-out-drunken state I drag myself to the psych ward to collapse right in front of the doors like someone who searches shelter in a snow storm because their life depends on it. My therapist finds this remarkable lol but I hate it.
I wish I was someone who gives up. I don't want to continue making the right decisions. I want get up right now, walk to the next gas station, buy a couple bottles of vodka, get on a train and never come back to anywhere. But I don't. And I don't even know why.
I wish I could give up. I wish I wouldn't care. I don't want to be a fighter. Someone else can have the part of me that clutches on to life. I don't want it. I hate myself for being this way. I hate how much I exhaust myself yet keep on going. And I'm tired of being praised for it.
#personal posts#tw suicidal ideation#but as always there is no need to worry because I just keep on and on and I make the right decisions#I always do#I'm so tired of the praise I receive for it#I want to be able to just let go and let it spiral#one last bang#chaos#like an inferno#and then#silence#I know it's worth it#I know the future holds lots of beautiful moments#but I don't want to continue#yet I do I always do#I swear I'm like so dead inside don't even know how I'm still alive lmao#it's muscle memory#ape instinct#I'd make a great cave man#I'm like so jealous of everyone who just goes ape shit#I tame myself the way lions in a circus are tamed#and i feel so caged and restricted
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scared they're just. keeping in touch. because I give them my money by buying tickets and merch orz
#stupid anxieties and paranoia lmao#maybe this is why i have such a hard time getting to know people irl and forming proper interpersonal relationships#because i tend to be cringe and overshare way too early#and it's not like i scare people off BUT i scare myself into withdrawing and the connection doesn't go anywhere from that point in#*on. and there's always this aftertaste of of i told them way too much too fast#this is awkward and i'm so embarrassed. they know way more about me than i know about them.#and then i kinda. run away and isolate#making everything even worse and not fixing anything#maybe it's just. the fear of people seeing my innermost self. and thinking i'm disgusting and ugly and broken and not worth their time#IDK just. low key spiralling 👍#i should shut up my brain and just watch saw. maybe that'll calm me down
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jesus christ genshin
im glad i upgraded my storage
mhy fr jsut eating storage like potato chips
#Lunney's Ramblings#between genshin HSR and ZZZ mhy is sjut gonna have an entire drive dedicated to teir games at this point lmao#but mhy games are pretty good considering they're free to play and like 99% of content can be done for free#floor 11 or 12 of spiral abyss /might/ be rough for f2p but certainly not impossible and spiral abyss is 100000% optional#i don't even do it unless i need a quick primo injection lol#and since i really only pull for male characters that's been hardly ever#might need to for the begining of 4.0 tho because we've got lyney freminet wriosthley and neuvilette back to back#i'm not even going to try to spell those names right you knwo who i'm talking about and that's too many damn letters#to guaruntee all the 5* i'd need 360 wishes lmaoooooo lyney already guarunteed
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