#But maybe it's finally hitting me
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Okay. Imma complain about my disability for a hot minute.
I like to call it "too-bendy-slippery-joints disease", sometimes "bird bones". But usually it's my knees and ankles that are the ones that decide to slip out of their joints and either break, make me fall down, hurt real bad until I manually pop them back in, etc. Wrist and elbows and sometimes shoulders and hips too. You get the idea.
WELL, I've been having a real rough mental go of it too because can't just have one problem. And today is the first time in WEEKS I felt semi-good. I bought some new things to redecorate my bathroom a little bit. Got some new kitchen stuff. Felt motivated to finally clean my house, dropped off my laundry, lwft my house TWICE today, AND I deep cleaned the bathroom before I decorated.
I *just* finished the bathroom, and I was about to go freshen up another room and change my cat's litter when suddenly my fucking knee came out of it's joint, and because I was carrying the new 35lb litter bin, it caused my hip to also slip (which RARELY happens). I got my hip back in real quick, but apparently too quick because then a muscle in my lower back got pulled. So now I have to sit down (which hurts) and try to wait it out before I can keep doing what I wanted to do: finally fucking clean and organize my house.
I'm just so frustrated because I was finally doing better mentally, whereas I could get my house back in working order after WEEKS of mess, but noooooooooooooooo. I can't bend down. I can't pick stuff up. I can't do anything but wait to see if medicine will kick in and see if I can ease back into light physical activity.
Idk sometimes it feels like I can't win. If it isn't one thing, it's another. Usually, I don't mind being disabled. I just boop and bop around as I can. But right now, I wish I wasn't.
#This is all probably being made worse too because literally a week ago I dealt with outwright ableism and hate#I mainly just shrugged it off#I was worrying with other bigger things#But maybe it's finally hitting me#Because this does not feel good#When I get this big check I'm waiting for I'm gonna hire a cleaning service#I feel like I just need a fresh start#Woof#I almost went to Home Depot to get paint to paint a room today too#Glad I didn't#Because there ain't no way I could tape and paint a wall#Let alone a room
3 notes
¡
View notes
Photo
#selfie bee#me telling a coworker who I have been working with for 4 months and whose name I do not know about my toenails#i'm sorry Tobias (?? Paul ??) it was the only topic I could come up with after I already told you about the big bird I saw in 8th grade#FRIENDS how are you!! :) how has the new year been so far!!#did you have a lot of snow on christmas!#we did and it was really fun! I had a very bad cold so I just watched the snow from inside but that was good too c:#do you have any plans for the new year?#i always have lot and most of the time I do not do any of them but planning is fun#this year I REALLY want to watch all of Star Trek ă˝(´âď˝)ďž#I would also love to learn how to make a handstand#imagine if you could just make yourself upside down#but it is a far away dream because honestly I am not very good at being usual side up most of the time either#but I will try probably at least 2 times to learn it ( á )#maybe I'll finally finish that website!#new years are good and fun#it's wild to think about how much daily life has changed since last year but I feel just the same :)#who knows what this year will bring!#I hope I don't hit a pheasant with my car#I almost hit a pheasant with my car last year and the pheasant made direct eye contact#I wonder how he is doing today#since that moment I think about pheasants a lot#I knew they were real but I had never seen one#just to know they are out there is a mystical feeling#right know it is raining so all the pheasants might be wet#get dry soon pheasants!!#I don't think I've ever seen a wet bird either#I don't know what do do with all these birds thoughts#also thank you for the person who asked about my skirt!! ( ËáľË )âĄ.°â
#I've finished it and its really really bad#but I love it
7K notes
¡
View notes
Text
Can you believe it took me over a decade to come to this realization
#digital art#cartoon art#aromanitc#itsa me!#for the longest time i thought i was some form of asexual but it never quite felt right#i finally started dating and almost immediately got hit with âmaybe you're just aromanticâ#life changing
1K notes
¡
View notes
Text
âHe was lonelyâŚâ
âHe was trying to destroy everything around him! That is not the same as a lonely child! We canât allow that!â
âThe power of the mask made him do it. It was too much for him to handle.â
#any combo majoraâs mask and khux enjoyers in the chat or is it just me being insane#this is incredibly self indulgent and i havenât had this much fun with a drawing in ages. genuinely#khux#ventus#majoraâs mask#kingdom hearts#kh ventus#kingdom hearts ventus#kingdom hearts union x#union x#lalala tags#ok but fr. ven and skull kid. do you see my vision#i donât have time to explain do you see it. theyâre lonely they get corrupted by some dark power#theyâre both like perpetual children robbed of the chance to grow up (for now. maybe ven will finally grow up lol)#i was typing that majoraâs mask summary and got hit with a brain blast so i blacked out over the course of a few days and woke up with this#my art#kind of a lazy image id but it gets the point across i think#khposting
298 notes
¡
View notes
Text
25 Ji, Akasaka de/ At 25:00 in Akasaka (2024)Â I 1.06
"I'll get your bag."
#25 ji akasaka de#at 25:00 in akasaka#userrlaura#userfaiza#userharu#moonlightsdream#userlera#jdrama#jdramasource#bl series#japanese bl#nagumo shoma#yamase kazuma#kazuma yamase#was this gifset just an excuse to gif nagumo shoma.....MAYBE!!!!#i mean just look at him - gorgeous beautiful etc etc etc#also i think it finally hit me: kazuma is supposed to be yuki's foil bc he's confident speaks assuredly and knows exactly who he is#and i looooove that#plus even when he's not stirring the pot he's still stirring the pot#talking loudly and prodding about that rumoured relationship#letting yuki leave quietly from the party and making sure asami doesn't notice it until the very last minute - I SEE YOU SIR!#mywork
224 notes
¡
View notes
Text
I beat Veilguard.
It's 4am. I'm a mess. I'm in tears.
#datv spoilers#the moment that completely broke me#''Ich entlasse Euch aus meinen Diensten''#Ar lasa mala revas#you are free#and so am I.. I feel like I've ascended from Solavellan Hell to Solavellan Heaven after ten flippin years#I think an embrace would have hit me even harder than a kiss at the end.. but it was just done so beautifully#I've always had one wish for Solas' story regardless of all the speculation and theories made over the years#and that was for him to find peace#so these are mostly tears of joy#I'm too overwhelmed to find the right words now#this game had many glaring problems to me but I still had a great time and there are many things to love#and maybe I mourn the potential of what could have been#the Veil still being up is.... very unexpected to say the least?#but Act 3 was incredible and god did that ending hit all the right spots for me#it's so strange to say ''goodbye'' to a character that you've been thinking about for so long#but I'm so thankful to have closure now#my heart is full#you know what's crazy?#right after that final cutscene ended I saw that it had actually started to snow outside for the first time this season#snow symbolizes purity or something right?#and that just made me think of how Solas used to envy Sera for her purity of purpose that he lacked#I like to think he regained it now#thinking about a little Wisdom spirit#hmm#I don't think I can sleep now#I think I'll just watch the snow a little more
66 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Alright here we go, third attempt and still improving all the art skills but more fanart for You Wouldnât Like Me Alive by @ectoplasmranch
Maybe Iâll finally be satisfied (Who am i kidding??)
[ID: Digital fanart for Danny Phantom, showing Danny in his ghost form, crawling across the floor. His hair is in wisps, his mouth is a jagged line like a jack-o-lantern with blue mist leaking out, his tail turns to grey smoke, and his chest has his glowing green ribs open, dripping green ectoplasm onto the ground. End ID.]
#danny phantom fanart#Danny phantom#Danny Fenton#fanart#eh#Itâs been bothering me for so long that I havenât been able to properly portray this#Maybe Iâve finally hit satisfaction#idk though#body horror#cryptacrematorium#image described
105 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Inspired by @aidakhar 's dad!Knives AU (brainrot-inducing)
After venturing out, Azrael gets caught by ill-intentioned individuals
#trigun#trigun stampede#millions knives#oc#dad!knives au#cw blood#cw decapitated head#comic#shinxo art#hi.. i finally went on the website to be able to upload more than 10 pics...#humbly offering this comic as proof of its power to capture and stimulate the imagination 𤲠endless praise to aidakharđŤĄ#only needed 2 days to thumbnail the pages bc i fREAKING LOVE THIS AU and got hit by the INSPIRATION BEAM#it has been giving me lots of â¨ď¸thoughtsâ¨ď¸ about Knives's approach to raising a child#also knives going berserk for his boyđ¤#my hc is that he wouldn't want his kid to see/experience the hostility of the world (towards plants)#bc then maybe the kid would get to grow up in a gentler environment than he had#he'd still have this deep-seated hatred and violence towards humans but want to hide it from azrael and only show him his softer side#bc he doesn't want the stars in azrael's eyes to fade if he realizes the same things he did
290 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Close to a year and four rewrites later, I present to you...
Stem's Thoughts on the Game Design of Harvest Moon on SNES
Iâm not going to lie, if you donât like farming sims, you wonât like this one. At their core, every farming sim (at least in the rpg genre) is nearly identical, and thatâs because of this game. In a way, I might dare to say that Harvest Moon for the SNES is the perfect farming sim because it has every one of the usual elements in their most simplified form and it just works straight from the get-go. It works so well in fact, that after this game came out in 1996, four more entries to the series were released before the year 2000.
If you are someone who does like farming sims, I canât recommend this game enough. Itâs simple and to the point, with a fast pace and enough random events and points of intrigue that the game kept me relatively engaged for my whole playthrough.
Also, by nature of this being the first game and therefore hard to cover concisely and by nature of taking so long to write this... it's long as hell! Enjoy! :) <3
I canât say my appreciation of this game doesnât come with a few caveats. Iâve intermittently played HM games all my life, starting with the GameBoy port (GB1) all the way to Pioneers of Olive Town, so while I donât know exactly how the series has evolved, Iâve seen it at some of its earliest and at its latest. My vague childhood memories of GB1 (a game I didnât own and didnât play much of) were that it was pretty sparse and bland, so knowing that this original game was allegedly the same thing but with a little more content, I was expecting the bare minimum. I was prepared to never even be able to leave my farm, but the first thing the game did was shuttle me off to the nearby town and blocked the exit until I talked to everyone there.Â
(Maps of the town, mountain, and farm via The Spriters Resource)
You learn everything you need to know about the game right here at the beginning; Firstly, that this town is small as all hell and has hardly anyone in it aside from the five girls you can marry and their immediate family members. The next thing youâll learn is that thereâs a fence on your farm, and you need to be taking care of that. Of the few repetitive lines of dialogue any given person in town has to share with you on any given day, a fair amount are devoted to reminding you to fix your fence, to make sure itâs in good repair. There was just a big storm so watch out! Remember to check it every day! Are you chopping enough wood? Because youâll need it for that fence!
Iâm being dramatic of course, you arenât reminded about it that much, though the thin variation of dialogue means it comes up a lot. The emphasis on your fence does exist, and it isnât for nothing: while it doesnât matter as much if all you do is grow cropsâ if you keep animals, the game tells you that the ideal thing to do for yours and the animalâs happiness is to put the animals outside to graze. Animal feed bought from the livestock shop will keep them fed, but it's nothing compared to fresh grass grown on your farm. You canât even buy animals without a certain amount of grass planted! And sure, you can cut the grass to store for later, but itâs at its best straight out of the ground. However, the way the game is programmed, the animals only eat when the day rolls over, so putting animals outside for the day and taking them in at night isnât an option, and on top of that, thereâs things that come out at night that can hurt your animals. This is where your fence comes in.
The Utility of Fences
At the entrance to your farm is a cluster of buildings: your house, a small lumber shed, a barn, coop, and silo, a tool shed, and an old, dried up well. Just barely surrounding all of these is a little wooden fence that looks more like a row of upright logs than anything else. Despite this farm having presumably been abandoned, the fence is in perfect repair. Youâll quickly discover that the fence as it is wonât work out; thereâs hardly space to plant anything within it, and with the well dried up, youâre forced to hop it to get to a water source to fill up your watering can. Itâs pretty clear that youâll need to expand your fence, and itâs easy to do with all of the tree stumps littering the massive field that itâs blocking off.Â
On top of needing to expand the range of your fence, the individual planks eventually will rot away and leave useless stumps. They show up more frequently after rain or a large storm. The posts donât rot away completely so they have to be manually removed, but replacing them is as simple as smashing the old post with a hammer or ax and popping a new post in its place. It becomes a very natural part of your daily routine to run a lap around the farmâs perimeter before you go to bed to make sure everything looks safe and secure. Itâs a good way to ensure your animals are put away and debris is cleared out, too! It slotted very nicely into my daily schedule until a certain point.
With how much time you have to spend hopping over the logs to get to the rest of the area too large to fence in, you might be tempted to leave one out of place for easier traversal. When night comes, itâs clear why that would be a mistake. Sometimes when you go to bed, youâll hear your dog barking. Itâs a small detail, one that took me a long time to notice because I didnât always play with the sound on. There are wild dogs that prowl around the wilderness surrounding your farm, and only at night do they dare to come close. Your dog, if left outside, isn't able to do anything other than warn you of their presence if they show up. Thereâs nothing to notice during the daytime if it happens, unless you happened to leave one of your animals outside. There was one night that I left my chickens outside, having thought my fence was in perfect order and repair. I went to bed and heard the dog barking, followed by a horrible crunch. When I went out in the morning, I saw where my chicken had been before, it had been replaced by a pile of feathers. On the north side of my farm was a rotted fence post Iâd failed to fix.Â
The Reality of Fences
After losing my chicken, a cluster of pixels on my screen it may have been, I didnât feel comfortable leaving my animals outside. I didnât want to take a risk again, the sound and sight of feathers was upsetting enough. On a more logical note, the chickens didnât even lay eggs if left outside so there was no value in it. Cows were a pain to put back inside the barn too, because of some silliness with the gameâs collision. As much of a disappointment as it was to not have my animals roam around, it was just easier. At the time, I was focusing on upgrading my house anyways, so I didnât have time to take care of my animals outside where time would pass when I could use that time gathering wood, and everything I had was being saved up for the house so I didnât have any extra materials to repair my fence with. My fence was all rotting away. Because it was inconvenient for getting to my crops, I started smashing all the old posts as they went, too. Thatâs when I noticed something: the wild dog wasnât coming anymore.
I didnât pay much attention to it until I was looking up a completely different mechanic and discovered a forum explaining how the fences were broken. Rotted posts attracted the wild dog, they said. It didnât matter if you had gaps in your fence, or even a fence at allâin fact no fence was the best kind to have because the mere existence of posts that could rot was a liability.Â
I was hesitant at first to test this concept, after all there wasnât much I could gain from it. My chickens wouldnât lay outside, and my cows would be too challenging to get back in if the forecast called for rain. The thing that got me to finally try it was when I was trying to hatch more chickens. My coop felt like a nightmare to navigate due to its current population. I wanted less animals inside that I had to feed, so I threw a couple chicks outsideâthey werenât laying yet anyways. Lo and behold, the dog didnât come. More days passed and more animals were left outside, and it never came. My fence had rotted until there was nothing left at all. No dogs could ever come to my farm again. And I realized that the gameâs own insistence on its mechanics was all a lie.
How Youâre Told To Play - How The Game Lies
Of course, my animals didnât stay outside. For a minute it was fun having a crowd of cows milling about while I tended to my crops, but letting them wander free and uninhibited made it impossible to find and milk all of them without any trouble, and there were the rainy days to watch out for. After the novelty wore off, they went back inside and stayed there. The thing is, that didnât make a single bit of difference in how much they liked me compared to how they were living in the barn. On top of that, they didnât seem to care whether I was feeding them grass or store-bought food either, though I mostly stuck to the grasses since they were cheaper and easier to get. Nothing about how I was told to care for animals really mattered past feeding them every day, petting it and maybe brushing it, if it was a cow.
It gets worse. The most basic aspect of the game is the fact that time passes. The story takes place over 2 and a half years, running through each day until the end, and these days last from 6AM to 6PM according to the gameâs own internal time setting. After 6PM, all of the shops aside from the bar will close and you lose the ability to sell anything as youâre told it would rot in the shipping bin overnight, so thereâs nothing to do but sleep until the next day. Issue with this is that when the days stop at 6PM⌠they just stop. Time doesnât flow anymore. The game doesnât give you any kind of clock to know the exact time it is until after youâve upgraded your house, so all you have to go by before that is the color of the environment and whether or not your character has played an animation to eat something (youâre automatically fed when you wake up, at noon, and at night). I discovered this because I was curious if I could actually see the wild dog by staying out, and left the game running for probably 20 minutes in real life only for nothing to happen. Because of the time freeze, the time after 6PM actually becomes really valuable for farm logistics. You canât sell anything, no, but you can pull up all the weeds on the farm, water your crops, fix your fences, feed and care for animals if you hadnât already, and harvest wood for fences and house upgrades which would have taken a lot of valuable time to get during shipping-hours. The only thing that gets in the way of doing all that is you running out of energy.
Your energy is what allows you to use your farming equipment like your ax or watering can. Running out of it doesnât mean you fall unconscious or anything, but your character will play an animation of them stumbling over and will fail to use any tools. The most obvious fix to this is to simply go to bed, as sleeping gives you a full recharge. You can also, however, recharge it by going to the hot spring on the mountain, or by eating food bought at the restaurant in town or foraged for in the forest. You canât tell easily how much is refilled, as thereâs no visual indicator like a health bar, but youâre able to eat more than once, and jumping into the hot spring seems to count whether you did it or not more than how much time you spend in there, so you can hop in and out a couple of times and call it good.Â
Individually, time freezing at 6PM and energy being endlessly replenishable arenât bad things. Even together, theyâre not the worst. Having free time to focus on profitless chores is nice, and I think itâs important to be able to replenish your energy in case you have a limited amount of time to do things like for example, cut all of your grass before winter kills it. What makes an exploit out of these is the fact that the resources in the forest will never run out. Every time you re-enter the forest, all forage items and tree stumps are respawned. The infinite amount of forage makes for infinite energy refills, and could also make for an incredible money exploit if you didnât have a very limited amount of time to ship things. You donât have a limited amount of time to cut up tree stumps though. If you wanted to, you could run up to the forest after 6PM, chop every stump, then simply reload the area, and everythingâs back. You can get all of the wood you would ever need to fully upgrade your house in one night. Itâs a bit of a grind to do all at once, but itâs a grind youâd be doing over time anyways. Itâs not the worst exploit in the world, since you still need money to pay for the house upgrade, but arguably because of how you have to focus your energy elsewhere for most of the game, the wood is the harder thing to get. Additionally, when the game has very little to do in both fall and winter due to the lack of crops, this exploit takes away just about any reason to play those two seasons other than to take care of animals. Itâs an optional exploit of courseâas all exploits areâbut once you learn about it, itâs hard to resist the desire to get the grind out of the way all at once and mess up the pacing of the game.
The Charm of the Game
Learning that the fences were completely broken as a mechanic was a huge disappointment for me. From the moment I got a grasp on how the game was supposed to work, I wanted to eventually surround my whole field with fencing and keep my animals outside so I would have some life on my farm while I worked. I didnât just want this, I was excited for it! This was something Iâd never done in a farming sim that didnât already manage putting animals in and out for you like Stardew Valley or newer Story of Seasons games do. My routine is always the same: I go into the barn and coop to tend to each of my animals, I take care of my crops outside, then run straight to town to talk to everyone, and go to bed. The change in routine that would come from taking care of the animals outside and patrolling the fence every night felt fresh to me. It made me feel that even though this was the first game of its kind, it was different and required new things of me. But in the end, I played it exactly the same.
Harvest Moon is still very different from all of the games that followed it, though. In many ways, itâs because it has less âstuffâ in itâ both in terms of items and things you have to do. But I wouldnât say that it feels incomplete. Harvest Moon runs over the course of 2 and a half years before your work is evaluated. Until that happens, you have the ability to farm four different crops, you can raise both cows and chickens, you can upgrade your house to have more features, upgrade your working tools, build relationships with the townspeople to a small extent, go to town festivals that happen each year, and you can get married to one of the five girls living in town with whom you can have up to two children. Everything that you would come to expect as a fan of games like this is already here from the very first iteration. The most notable lack this game has, and one that seems to be completely unique to this game, is that there arenât any crops in the fall or winter, which means that unless you have animals, thereâs a whole half of the year that you donât have anything to do. The game is clearly aware of this though, because in an average playthrough, this is where youâll start to run into the story events.
There isnât much of an overarching story in the game, past the general concept that youâve run away from home to work on an abandoned farm. The conclusion rests on how good of a job you actually do. In between those two points are smaller events, usually tied to when you get tool upgrades or special ones for each of the romantic interests. The first event youâre likely to run into happens on the very last day of summer, where one of the woodsmen comes to your house in the morning to ask if youâre okay because he heard a huge crash at night and you should check your farm. What I found was that a tree in my field had fallen over, and its remaining stump had a big empty hole in it. When I inspected the stump, I was suddenly underground in a cave filled with loud and industrious music, and I was faced with two, little green peopleâHarvest Sprites, though I donât know if theyâre called that yet here. One asked me if my scythe worked well, and when I said yes, told me that they had made it and that I should check my shed tomorrow for a better one. Other tool upgrades are obtained in similar fashion; one comes from feeding a starving sprite a mushroom and another comes from another hole in the farm opening up to reveal another part of the cave system that has a couple of hints on how to unlock other things.Â
The events for romantic interests happen at less scripted times, as theyâre tied to how strong your relationship is with each girl. Each girl only has one event, and it only triggers when your relationship is high enough that you would ask her to marry you. The events usually take up a whole day, and donât necessarily add much to each character. Ellenâs revolves around how sheâs no good at keeping petsâ something established on your second day at the farm when you get your dog from her, Eveâs hammers in her fraught relationship with her grandpa, and Annâs is about losing the chicken weathervane, or âweathercockâ which sits on the roof of her workshop and goes missing every time thereâs a storm. Conversely, Nina and Mariaâs scenes bring up entirely new events that bring up a number of questions while providing no answers. Nina disappears while looking for a medicinal plant because her mother is apparently sick, and Maria vanishes for days until you find her hiding away with the woodsmen for some reason. All of these events, whether they share new information or not, manage to add some greatly appreciated depth to each character by giving them more room to speak and be sincere than their short and repetitive day-to-day dialogues do.
The dialogue in this game is simple, to the point, and sparseâ probably because there was only so much memory that could be reserved for approximately 15 people who all have multiple lines of dialogue, and only so much money to pay someone to write more. There is simple dialogue that doesnât tell you much more than âhello, how are youâ would, more dialogue that Iâd label as tutorial text, and a few lines that I truthfully couldnât understand well because of the sub-par translation this game received for english. The dialogue that exists to inform the world really manages to create a unique vibe though. Ninaâs dialogue, almost always about plants, goes into forays about how theyâre creatures with wills to live, too. Ellenâs uncle who runs the ranch shop tells you that itâs much better to feed your animals fresh grass if you try to buy any from his store, and if you decline to purchase he laughs as if heâs won something. Thereâs even dialogue referencing the silent player! Multiple lines exist to comment on him not paying attention, and inspection prompts have people telling you not to touch something rather than being an item description. It was the last thing I expected, to get the same level of personality out of the main character as I did from each of the girls, albeit very subtly. He went from a kind of nothing, self-insert into being what I perceive to be a hyperactive boy, akin to a border collie who was let out into a field of sheep for the first timeâthe exact kind of person crazy enough to take on an abandoned farm and succeed.
Itâs these short little character details that bring life into the game. Each day, youâll really only see one line of dialogue from each character, be it new or old, with that dialogue usually only changing if thereâs a change in season or festival coming up. The repetitive, pretty mindless routine of the game can turn into a sort of meditation if you let it, where you spend your time working thinking about the folks in town and what they had to say to you the previous day. The developers took this concept in stride and gave the side characters loads of dialogue about life, about God and religion, and about⌠very basic morals, but morals nonetheless. Itâs a childrenâs game after all. When you take the thoughts, questions and prompts the characters give you back to the farm to do your long and tedious routine, you have to ask yourselfâ what are you working so hard for? For the feeling of accomplishment? Recognition from your peers? For the sake of some higher power, if you worship one? For me personally, it was to write this essay, but it was also for a good grade on the high score screen at the end, so to be honest a lot of this stuff was lost on me until just now when I was reviewing the game to get screenshots.
Setting The Standard - Why You Should Play HM SNES
You may read all of this and still think, well, it doesnât sound like the game has much in it. And you would be right, itâs a very small game, but itâs also extremely quick. On average, my days only lasted about three minutes of real life time. Everything flew by, and I think I finished the game in 20 hours or less. I barely got a chance to notice that there wasnât much going on because every second of my day was spent busy doing something, and when I wasnât busy, the break was appreciated. I didnât start to run out of things to do until I was finished with the second year, and when I looked up what I needed to do to get a decent ending, I was already most of the way there. It was easy to push through those last two seasons to get to the end, and it was so, so worth it.Â
As I mentioned earlier, the game ends with a high score screen, meaning it has to track all of your accomplishments. These include, but are not limited to: the number of things you ship, number of each crop you grow, number of animals you have and how much they like you, how upgraded your house is, who you married, how much all of the girls in town like you if you didn't get married, how many kids you have (which basically equates to how long you were married), your happiness score (increased by going to festivals and decreased by having animals die), and how many times youâve pet your dog. In addition to these being tallied up and presented to you, you get special cutscenes not just for each one of these accomplishments, but additional ones for if you managed to do even better! I got a cutscene for having a cow, followed by one for having lots of cows, followed by yet another for having cows that loved me! Watching them play one after the other felt like taking a victory lap even without getting the best possible result. Seeing all of my numbers come up at the end made me want to try again to actually get those other cutscenes, not to get to see them, theyâre so easy to find on Youtube, but because the game made it feel like an accomplishment! If I werenât following this game up by immediately playing its GameBoy port, I absolutely would have started a new file right away. Iâve been playing the Harvest Moon series since I was a little kid and this was the first time Iâd actually managed to beat one of these games. I struggle to think the finale of any game following this will feel as good as this one did.
I started writing this whole thing about the fences because it was an easy and silly entry point to get into my core issue with the game, and so I could have an opportunity to dig into game mechanics and the way the knowledge you have of them will completely alter your playstyle, because thatâs all fun and interesting for me to talk about. Another reason why I focused on that was because it was near impossible for me to pick any kind of focus point when talking about this game. After all, Iâm trying to study a whole series of games that spans multiple decades, and this is not only the first game in that series, but a game that created the whole genre of farming sims and defined that genre so thoroughly that you can see its DNA in every single game that followed.
 I didnât expect much to come out of my experience with this game. My expectations for it before I even picked it up were that it was going to be basically featureless, as informed by my experience with one of the first games I ever played as a child, Harvest Moon GB, which I will get into next. This game was not that at all. I think that everything it did manage to get working right came together just about perfectly. Harvest Moon is exactly what it wanted to be, and where it wasnât, it lied about how it worked to try and make you play the correct way anyways. When I believed that lie, my time playing was even more enjoyable. Maybe if farming worked just a little bit more like how youâre told itâs supposed to, and if there was just a little bit more story, those would cover the things I felt wanting for the most. But maybe a little flexibility and ambiguity is a good thing. Maybe actually maintaining a fence is just too hard, and maybe if the girls were more fleshed out, I wouldnât be able to enjoy filling in their gaps in my head.
There are many more things I could say and wanted to say about this game, but this has grown far too long already so I'm cutting myself off here. I'm sure my later entries aren't going to get near this length. If you managed to get to this point, thank you so much for reading!
#harvest moon#story of seasons#harvest moon snes#hm snes#game review#m.txt#hm posting#i think i hit the image cap also? it wouldn't let me put in more even though i dont think there are that many. maybe it was a different cap#im happy to answer questions about things i didnt cover here too lol and i have notes from my playthrough if anyone is interested in those#those notes are the only reason i was able to keep all of this straight given how long it took me to write#anyways finally hitting post after like 3 days because i keep forgetting until weird hours
161 notes
¡
View notes
Text
when someone comes out of episode 31 and 32 still believing nanami is in love with touga
#this reaction series i'm watching has really gone downhill. used to be some pretty good analysis for a first watch#but then he hit episode 30 and immediately began having the most basic surface level (wrong) interpretations of literally everything#his read of utena and akio's relationship especially make me want to bang my head against the wall#(but that's maybe just because i'm particularly insane about that part of the show)#he keeps talking about how young the characters are and even has a running bit about how old akio may or may not be#but he refuses to call anything abuse. it's all just âthey're sleeping togetherâ and âhehe they kissedâ SHUT UPPPPP#i am. scared for 33 next week. his audience has apparently been hyping it up as some grand epic finale to the arc too#hope it hits him really hard and snaps him out of whatever the hell it is he's been thinking lately. i hope it makes him cry#bad takes#m
56 notes
¡
View notes
Text
i think way too much about Lucas' Palutena's Guidance convo
#lucas mother 3#mother 3#mother series#âwhy does he fightâ âmaybe that's how he copes with his feelingsâ sakurai murders me through smash once again#yeah flint as the first spirit and hinawa and claus as some of the very last weren't fucking enough huh#it's like. imagine. maybe he can't cry anymore. he's cried so much he needs to make himself cry not through surface things but through pain#hitting feels like he's letting things out; getting hit hurts and while he wins so often he still can't cry#and he hates it and he still doesn't understand anything or why it still hurts but he just can't stop until he's finally free of this weigh#tbh this talk would make a lot more sense if Lucas wasn't smiling in ultimate but it fucking hurts to say tho ngl#also this convo is one of the rare viridi Ls in the convos but a huge L tbh
30 notes
¡
View notes
Note
would you like to talk about how bad the mha ending was hella
as much as i would love to give like. a comprehensive response i genuinely dont think i can get my words together just yet without it being a constant unintelligble stream of 'AND ANOTHER THING-' and bc it's become quite torn in the fandom on if the chapter was good or bad i want like. an actual coherent response here. so i will reblog this if/when i can word it but know IM NOT FUCKING HAPPY
#paragraphs and paragraphs about the villains' endings alone. hawks hpsc president. midoriya's ending#the fact hero society is barely changed and the changes that do happen feel very much TELLING the reader it happened#as opposed to actually showing us how society changed on it. this is smthn ik people will argue w me about#bc yes it was a 400+ chapter manga arguably showing us how society changed but like. did it actually show that#like do u honestly think any community would watch televised battles between TEENAGERS and bad guys#and have the majority of them go 'gah! i cant help but sympathise with the bad guy who just suckerpunched child extra no.28!'#so like. why are they all suddenly on board with massive systemic reinvention. where's the rage where's the bitterness#this wasn't a story on showing the villains as redeemable and working towards society sympathising with them#and slowly painfully coming to a conclusion where japan was ready to change as a COLLECTIVE#this was a story of showing a group of redeemable villains (first step CHECK) getting DEFEATED IN BATTLE#THEY ALL FUCKING DIED EXCEPT SPINNER AND PRESUMABLY COMPRESS#WE DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO DABI AT THE END ONLY THAT HE WAS PUT IN THE EXACT SAME POSITION#HE WAS IN WHEN HE WOKE UP FROM HIS COMA AND DABI WAS BORN. 'DABI' AS A PERSONA MEANT NOTHING#we still have an abuser who didn't come to justice. we still have the corrupt government body now being led by the guy they trafficked#and abused and conditioned into the perfect soldier. do u think maybe his opinions are a little biased in regards to that gov. body#maybe. perhaps. slightly. and we still have hero charts!!!!!! every kid in the last chap is still obsessed w becoming a hero!!!!#and dont get me STARTEDDDDDDDDD on midoriya being a teacher. 'i think it's cute he finally gets a life of peace đĽş#this way he can help the next generation directly đĽş' womp to the fucking womp he was supposed to be the world's no.1 hero#he barely sees his friends anymore. 'it's realistic to adulthood!' i dont want realism in my superpowered teen and up manga#put them in the avengers mansion NOW#so as you can see i waffled regardless of saying i specifically wasn't gonna do that and some of these points bother me more than others#with some being personal I Didn't Like It and some being i genuinely truly believe it to be bad writing#but my summary is mha ultimately felt like a story where a group of individuals unlearned (eh) the beliefs of a toxic society#and tried to save the people that society failed and then they themselves DID NOT FUCKING SAVE THEM#(i have a hit on the redemption via death trope on the dark web for ten bajillion pounds)#and while yeah that isn't objectively an evil story to tell i think 1) it was done poorly#and 2) isn't what a lot of people believed the premise to be nor what i think horikoshi himself was trying to write#ask#mha spoilers#mha
42 notes
¡
View notes
Text
don't ask me why, but me and my friend were talking about how carlos is going to be free from fraudrrari in less than 20 days and we ended up comparing him to the virgin mary (i swear it will make sense and we both grew up in christian italian families as atheists) and... how her given festivities actually add up with some of his important dates ??? buckle up!
â§Ë
â "Festa dell'Assunzione di Maria" â august 15 she was raised to eternal life without bodily death, and very close to it carlos announced he signed with williams.
â "La NativitĂ della Beata Vergine Maria" â she was born on september 8th, he was born on september 1st (BOTH VIRGOS)!
â "L'Immacolata Concezione" â december 8th, "from the first moment of her conception, the Blessed Virgin Mary was, by the singular grace and privilege of Almighty God, and in view of the merits of Jesus Christ, Savior of Mankind, kept free from all stain of original sin."... and what happens on december 8th? his last race in fraudrrari, exactly.
she was the lightly brushed by melancholy blue print after all!
#il vaticano hates to see us drop this hits ngl#i show my hatred for this religion by blasphemingly ruining their iconographies with these postsđ#you thought you saw everything with carlos being san sebastiano NOW GET READY FOR CARLOS BEING THE VIRGIN MARY!!!!#another hit post if i know my chickens well#no but fr#what were the fucking odds of the dates being actually so similiar???#carlos sainz jr and christian iconography? sign me tf up#virgin mary#frauddrari's worst nightmare bc they're always comparing the other one to the pope and carlos gets compare to LUCIFERO#SAN SEBASTIANO#LA VERGINE MARIA#c'è chi puo' e chi non puo' đŽâđ¨#carlos is just so mystical and lovable you can't help but compare him and worship him like a god#(he's just a man and im a 23yr old teenager with mental issues and a lot of time to think)#this being said#he also gave birth a lot this year#and he's finally about to be free of sinđĽ´#is this considered web weaving?#leave it to him to be so poetic in just living that my brain automatically does this#lando being god's lamb and him the virgin mary GET A BETTER DUO#maybe its because maria was always a figure that stuck with me more than anyone in the bible and her sufferings and her not having really#much of a choice in her life and having to accept her faith... idk#but this makes sense in my head#carlos sainz jr web weaving#carlos sainz jr#carlitos#cs55#f1#formula 1#carlando
27 notes
¡
View notes
Text
sekai au đđ
#my post#hatsune loopku.....#isat#in stars and time#isat siffrin#isat loop#I was SUPPOSED to make a modern au but look. where that got me#prpject sekai.....#hsatsune miku......#woaw.........#I haven't planned this yet. I just wanted to draw loop with Miku's pigtails really badly because I came up with the shape idea and went lik#ogguuguuuuGUG#oh bell yeas#actually well I have a little#small group of college students who met via tutor group (by odile) that turned into a book club and maybe band?#they would all suck playing instruments honestly#I made it a sekai au because I needed loop to go SOMEWHERE and went insane trying to figure something out till I finally went fuck whatever#fine#siffrin made a sekai and loop is there. fine. whatever. fine. yeah. fine#I don't know how the timeloop will come in.#I cant have both a timeloop and a sekai at once.#I would forget the other exists#and focus all on one#or it would be too much at once#also its kind of hard to do a timeloop like the one in-game in a modern way?#there's no good rocks to be crushed by that aren't like a collapsing building anyway#OH OH also this might be the last project sekai related art you see for a WHILE#this game hit my brain worse than project sekai I'm so serious#I've burned through almost all of my sketchbook and there are three(3) drawings that aren't siffrin#THREE.
99 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Not sure how to feel about that last reblog now.
#like yeah I get why they would want him to be a ghost again#but couldnât he at least reunite with Molly again as Todd? and Molly get closure?#with him as Todd?#I can see why they would want to have the roles switched and have Scratch be the one to bring joy to Molly like she did for him#I just donât know about the idea of scratch becoming a ghost again so early#like I know thereâs fans that perfer his ghost form more#(again this is coming from someone who was self shipping with Scratch as a ghost for about two years before the reveal)#it just feels like he finally got to live again only to get it tossed away#maybe it just affects me a little bit more since I relate to Scratchâs story of being afraid of living life for so long#and how much comfort the show and characters gave me while I was suicidal at the time#and that seeing scratch grow in the show and finally faced his fears of living just hit home to me#like he was my role model#I wanted to live again because he wanted to too#sorry for getting emotional Iâm just⌠idk Iâm very conflicted#suicide tw#suicide mentioned#suicidal tw#suicidal mentioned#added the tigger warning tags just in case#đŹ chy chatter đŹ
39 notes
¡
View notes
Text
filed away in my wikipedia after my death
#just realized i can share this now that iâve actually done something with these poses#this was actually a screenshot from when i was testing out the pose to see if i needed to adjust anythingâwhich i didâŚ#i ended up editing it in the process just to mess around w painting cigarette smoke and the glow around the cigarette#this was days ago⌠before The Sickness hit me#anyway. iâm waiting on a phone call right now so iâm just going through my drafts while stuck in limbo#maybe will post these oc templates finally if i can lock in my answers already#oh. found out recently that theo and i are both 6w5s btwâŚâŚâŚ which could mean nothing#đđ#river dipping#matthias evanoff#theodore doe#a burning house to live in#echthroi#:3#ts4#ts4 screenshots
20 notes
¡
View notes