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acewithapaintbrush · 2 years ago

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Leo!!! Don't tease the Baby!!!!!

#rottmnt #tmnt mutant mayhem #rise of the tmnt #mutant mayhem #rise leo #mutant mayhem donatello #mutant mayhem donnie #Rottmntxmutant mayhem #rottmnt crossover #Mutant mayhem Crossover #tmnt multiverse #So messy #But im not capable of more right now

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0sbrain · 8 months ago

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alternatives for ai to design ocs

hero forge

picrew

the fucking sims 4

your local furry artist

bitmoji

shitty photoshoped collage

DeviantArt bases

zepeto

making edits of your favorite character

searching "dress up game" on the app store

learning how to draw

#anti ai #“but im an uwu soft bean and i don't know how to draw”#then learn?#you know you can create right you are capable of more than just “consuming”#im not saying you need to train to be the best artist in the world or that you need to pursue a future in the art industry #you don't need to be perfect you just need to try #that feeling of needing things done right now only works to alienate you from the labor behind the things you love

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umblrspectrum · 4 months ago

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part 4 of a lot funnier in my head than on paper

#before anyone asks its not a series the part 4 is a joke dont go looking #the solver granted me this mental image #definitely not at the right skill level to draw it correctly but i did good enough #nori forgetting her ipod in space and then needing n to launch her into orbit to get it back #yknow now that im actually stopping to think about it v would be the only one of the two in functioning order at this point #or they just waited for n to regen and then forced him to do this #we both know n is fully capable of punting nori into orbit #something something stupid mutt #my hatred for this is growing the more i look at it im gonna finish off the tags #art #murder drones #murder drones n #murder drones nori #murder drones uzi #murder drones flesha #i guess #or #murder drones cyn #serial designation n #one day ill be able to draw n in a way i like #noris text box is supposed to be a rose it did not come out looking like a rose #i dont know how to draw roses help

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fallenclan · 7 months ago

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i switched out Gizmo's collar for a braided grass cord--I think that it'd recognize a collar is too dangerous to have in the wild (choking hazard!), but still want to keep the memory of its life before. The bell probably got stuffed with mud or moss to keep it from making too much noise

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#do i think that the cats are necessarily capable of braiding things? no #do i still want to keep this one concept? yes #maybe they. found the braided grass in the woods. idk #clangen #clan generator #art #fallenart #gizmo #ashblink #toadbelly #sootstep #littleleaf #canarypaw #yes gizmo has polydacylism now. love and joy forever #i am not sure im spelling that right. bitch has extra toes #oh and lmk what you all think of these colors for greenleaf!#ik its Greenleaf not Yellowleaf but. in my experience summertime tends to be more yellow than green. plus i wanted newleaf to be green #but if enough ppl rlly want it to be green i can change newleaf to be pink or yellow or smth

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hunter-burton · 1 month ago

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Here’s Ship Art I did

I am A gabv1al fan I can deny it no longer

AND DAMNIT I REACHED 30 TAGS.

#ultrakill #gav1el #v1 ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #I used to not really jive with the ship #being so real here #I was kinda off put with how unhealthy the pairing COULD be #(ofc not shaming anyone for anything y’all enjoy what calls put to you !!!/gen)#but BUT- I couldn’t get Gianni’s support off my mind YES IM BEING SERIOUS LMAO #and I kept on thinking and THINKING AND THINKING UNTIL I PEICED THINGS TOGETHER ONE:#V1 is a war machine we all know that. a war machine capable of very very stylish killing that requires VERY close attention #to rapid incoming detail.#so what if that was… emotionally too? what if #with their super duper observing powers V1 can basically Psychoanalyse #anyone it so desires #it could be a therapist deadass but it’s a war machine. okay not let’s turn to it’s most obvious client turning to Gabriel this broken #this broken broken angel #up an coming Angel right when DAD LEAVES. council in SHAMBLES oh I have several thoughts about the council but but so Gabriel is #living in a stressed environment and V1 winning several times is like- throwing this guy over the EDGE so much here that I do not have the #words to properly express my thoughts. uh I have a feeling that Gabriel bases his worth on how others around him react? on how his actions #are acknowledged?#ANYWAYS SO V1 AND GABE… I feel like V1 is the perfect ultraobservant subject to be the ‘only one that listens.’#DO YOU GET WHERE IM GOING?#As Gabriel’s opponent #V1 watches and listens to Gabriel’s taunts and attacks.. and eventually digs into the pattern to find more patterns linking some taunts Toto #‘oh shit this Angel is projecting.’ ‘oh fuck this Angel doesn’t have a great home life now does he?’#and then I don’t know how yet but V1 some how communicate’s their finings to Gabriel and he’s just taken ABACK like #‘omg you actually listen to me what?’ cause I imagine that he isn’t really HEARD up there they just work work work and don’t meddle or humor #emotional shinanigans #quote on quote.

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wildstar25 · 9 months ago

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What physical part(s) of Arsay does her partners find the most attractive! Is it the same for all partners or does it differ between them?

(also optional bonus ask of what part(s) of/about Arsay generally do they love the most, physical or not!)

Meanwhile, if you were to ask the same of Arsay:

#ffxiv #wolship #g'raha tia #y'shtola rhul #wolgraha #wolshtola #y'shtola x wol #arsay nun #graharshtola #y'shtola calling arsay a pain in her side is very much an affectionate thing btw #and i couldnt pass up the joke of g'raha giving the sweet gentlemanly response only for yshtola to be like 'tits tbh'#her defaulting to an answer that would probably stop the conversation before she has to talk to much about her deeper feelings imo #i have. a lot of feelings about yshtola and arsay's friendship #someone who is constantly trying to build walls between herself and others vs someone who desperately wants to form real connections #its not a 'wearing that person down' type situation either #just one lonely person seeing another lonely person and hoping that they could be less lonely together #or that she could at least bring some cheer to #and idk yshtola strikes me as the type to have been like 'if they want to be my friend they have to work for it'#which arsay certainly did #i could ramble on and on how their friendship lines up so well with yshtolas character development but theres a limit to these tags #so just look at how cute shtola is with the slightest blush on her cheeks #graha is a much more complicated topic since he went from Extreme adoration to I want to be her friend but I dont think im good enough #to 100% Hero worship again to Shes my hero and I love her to Shes a person and I love her #to I love Arsay. Even the parts she can't love in herself. I will love all of her till my dying breath.#he thinks shes the most beautiful person in the world and the most important thing in his life #but he now knows how insane she's been about being everyone's hero and he really doesnt want to feed that beast #so hes trying to build her up in other ways #focusing more on the adventuring side than the saving the world side #and then there is arsay who loves so much about her partners and is in capable of narrowing it down to any one thing so its #'here let me list everything that comes to mind right now' with 0 shame or filter

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leah2eroes · 22 days ago

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tumblr stopped being fun at some point in the last like 3 weeks. i hope it comes back. i feel awful.

#i wish guilt wasnt a factor here #i feel bad about not providing content #idk i just #its 7am here and i havent slept quite yet #im really sad right now #like on the verge of tears but theyre not coming #im saving up to get back on hrt but its so fucking goddamn expensive #my hormones are having a fucking hard time balancing themselves i think #like theres a mountain of problems im faced with right now and theyre too real and i just want to burrow into the recesses of my own mind #and like stay there forever #it sucks when the “i feel broken” thing is manifesting in very real ways #when like your mental health issues are causing real tangible problems n shit #ive been too depressed and lacking in motivation to do anything with my life and its put me in a hole i dont feel capable of crawling from #im just #endlessly frustrated at my inability to function #which gets more potent the longer it goes on and the worse things get #blegh when did this become a vent post no thanks #whatever #people have already unfollowed me in the last 2 weeks of inactivity why should i hold myself back from posting this #i feel like im supposed to turn to drugs at this point lol #like thats the logical progression here #shame thats not a thing im willing to do #unless someone links me to a dubious but entirely safe source of adderall or something #amphetamines save me.....#i need sleep #fuck

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captainseamech · 2 months ago

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//NOW I KNOW WHY IT HAS SELF-HATRED TAGGED ON IT

#🌊 | outside the ship / ooc #[ IT MATCHES WITH MY HEADCANONS IM WEEPING RIGHT NOW ]#[ HIGH TIDE MY BABY BOY PLEASEEE YOU ARE MORE THAN CAPABLE OF BEING A SIRE / CARRIER ]#[ DONT HATE YOURSELF BECAUSE OF YOUR HEAVY ARMOR BUILD I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHHHH ]#[ RAHHHH IM DESTROYED ALREADY ]

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goldentigerfestival · 1 year ago

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#Fluri #at first. AT FIRST. i was suspicious of the wrapping color. BUT I LET IT GO.#and then I got the sidequest for this weapon done and LOOKED at it and was like. wait. that's not. that's. no I've seen this in Yuri's hand #bruh i shoulda just listened to my instincts i let it go and i didn't even need to my instincts were right #my fluri radar just goes OFF sometimes with them and i may not know why at a given moment #but i've now learned and have accepted that when it goes off i should just accept it #this is a shitpost but also ??? im so embarrassed for these two and so happy for their lack of shame #i know gachas like to give a little extra flare to designs but???#same wrapping??? same roses??? same color scheme??? basically same grass accessories???#the bottom bow is just more designed but same color class??? siiigh #i was just going through all my weapons that i needed the skills from so i could get them all learned #while doing post game content/optional dungeons and then they smacked me in the face with their bouquet #the question is who gave it to who bc they are both fully capable of this with each other......

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lilaccatholic · 1 year ago

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how do i do it though. how do i let go of the bitterness and the hardness when they kept me "okay" for so long? does it come when i finally leave? can it ever?

#babes i actually relate to the frigid angry woman more than im comfortable with but this time there's no prince coming to save her and idk #i was never beautiful but i was and am angry and capable and that's served me well but being angry is exhausting #it's a birthright i can't give to a younger sibling. it doesn't transfer.#i dont inspire devotion. there's no version of this that ends with me waltzing with a true love.#im not the type you launch a thousand ships for.#so what's left?#who am i when i have no one? when ive spent my life making *me* less to make others more? when im nothing but a useful piece of furniture.#i know God loves me! i love Him! but it's not the same. i want *people* to love me. i want to be someone that theyd fight for.#im feeling that 'women have minds and hearts but im so lonely' scene from little women 2019 so much right now.#except im not jo. my family loves me but theyd never do for me what jo's would do for her. theyre also all focused on surviving.#i feel like a military ration. there to be consumed but cast aside the moment something more palatable comes around.#how do i become consumed with joy? how do i let go of the cynicism? its all thats kept me safe! but its choking me too.#its like tony stark in iron man 2. the thing thats kept me alive this far is killing me. i need to find an alternative but its looking like #ill have to synthesize a new element to make it happen and that freaks me out.#ive always been derivative. never an individual. how do i become a trailblazer when my job was always to hold the hand of the one blazing #the trail? how do i become myself happy and free?#because i WANT to be more #i WANT to be more than anger and coldness and a useful idiot. i WANT to be me and be so so happy #but i dont know how to get there #and if someone suggests therapy im shooting you. i dont want to listen to one more person pretend to care about me and tell me #all the things i need to change and spend even longer not learning how to think for myself #i want to be more than this. but i also cant stand the thought of taking up any more space than i do #anyway.#anyone who's read all this thank you and i promise im fine im just in my feelings today lol #im going to work out and get some happy brain chemicals flowing and then ill take a shower and itll all be good.#please dont worry about me! im just having A Moment TM #lilac rambles

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berrymeter · 8 months ago

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i feel like as a result of fixating so hard on xiv ive been lacking as a friend & just as a presence in ppls lives & i feel some guilt over it but at the same time ive been insanely depressed & otherwise mentally (& physically) afflicted for so long bc of my living conditions & i still have acted as a therapist & cushion for many many ppl to the point of social overexertion & burnout repeatedly so. Maybe its fine. Maybe people can deal with it

#perth.txt #like... i deserve a break right? im not being selfish am i?#i love being there for & helping my loved ones but im already tired & unstable all the time as is #my capabilities are far more limited than i realise & its really time i start setting firmer boundaries #so this is my reprive. losing myself in the videogame. after years of living in these conditions ive earned it. maybe.#ill play therapists again some day im sure but for now i dont want to think about it

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sarcastic-clapping · 2 years ago

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so. im finally getting the Dark Hank plot i’ve been hoping and begging and pleading and praying for since season 1. they’re….they’re finally giving me what i asked for :)

#but at what cost #insert that thanos meme here #if it isn’t the consequences of my own actions….#the price was extremely high and im traumatized but like. i do still want that tho. i am still very much on board.#it’s fine i’ll just invent a delusional au when the show is over and believe whichever version is more convenient at any given time #every week i get on here and talk about the new succession episode and only the new succession episode until it’s time for the next episode #but right now i am only capable of thinking about barry actually #hbo barry #barry spoilers #barry hbo #noho hank

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britneyshakespeare · 2 months ago

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I can't believe the Younger Brother (1689) by Aphra Behn has the only one bed trope

#act iv scene i #olivia is in disguise as mirtilla's page endimion and she's wooing welborn on her own behalf #and welborn is like well im hosting a gentleman in my lodgings right now but u can sleep w me #and olivia is like uhmmm uhmmm i can't do that not for any particular reason i just can't sleep in ur bed #(bc she's modest but she is kinda tempted. but also worried if she denies too hard he might suspect her of being actually a woman)#and he's like what are you afraid my bed's diseased? do u think im gay? im telling u there's nowhere else for us both to sleep #im not gonna make u sleep on the floor kid #PLEASE #the younger brother might be one of my new favorites from behn. i haven't finished it yet but it kinda has everything i love from her #mirtilla in particular is such an interesting character #text post #aphra behn #restoration comedy #in the edition edited by janet todd for vol. 7 of the collected works #i believe it's based off of the original quarto text that was published after behn's death #i highly suspect a lot of this prose dialogue is supposed to be blank verse #SO. MUCH. of it flows exactly like blank verse. it kinda bothers me #i do dream about editing and publishing my own edition of behn's plays and i would definitely amend these to be verse #i wonder if montague summers' version is verse? idk this is the first janet todd edited play ive read #i dont yet know the differences between their editing styles #god i wish more than 2 ppl in history had ever bothered to edit and publish this woman's collected works #oxford world classics should definitely put out another volume of her plays #i love the one they have featuring the rover/feigned courtesans/lucky chance/emperor of the moon #but she's got what like 15 other extant plays? and oxford world classics has the range and capabilities to do it #or if penguin classics ever wants to pretend they're really as good as oxford they can print their own #as far as diversifying the canon and widening the availability of older texts. oxford still beats penguin any day #but it does piss me off that no classic book publishers take this period of early-modern women's drama and proto-novels very seriously #or rather. no big ones that i know other than oxford #im not counting print-on-demand companies that reprint the texts of public domain works w no editing #those serve a purpose but those are not leaders in the publishing industry for a reason. theyre not sposta be

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a-rebellious-waffle · 5 months ago

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urgh you know that post about "people who weren't abused don't wish they were abused"

I'm having a real fun night wrestling with that

#add these together real quick for me #high expectations plus high capability but executive dysfunction making me fail at school for 17 years 12 grades and one year of college #fucked sleep cycle bc i was recovering from school so late into the night that i rarely got more than 6-7 hours meaning i woke up sleepy #for all of high school needing to run to school to not be late so on top of waking up late I'm also exhausted when i get to school #having friends but no real close friends *in* school plus a bad relationship giving me serious abandonment issues #and dealing with parents and family that constantly Know Better Than Me especially when im being political #plus ADHD making it difficult for me to argue effectively or even converse for a long time bc i lose focus and space out way too easily #i don't. i. i just. urgh. i know i'm a bit of a basket case but i don't have to like it #...can't even cuddle my blahaj right now... hell world hell world hell world #i think i will simply try to cry. i say try bc i spent years suppressing my ability to cry bc i was supposed to Be A Man and Men Don't Cry #so that'll probably fail. but ill try anyway. and put on some music #then fall asleep and hope that i wake up feeling a little better #...i think im an optimist bc pessimism would kill me

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bitegore · 2 months ago

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ngl i think i kind of was a genius for being like 'yeah this character is a scary killyou cannibal scary killer who scary kills you' and then realizing that the way my worldbuilding works out is that there's a nonzero chance that if you leave literally any body parts over they can just come back, depending on what they believe in their heart of hearts can kill them. Of course she'd start eating her kills. She probably tried normal stuff first and then realized it didn't work and she had to try harder if she wanted to actually keep them dead.

#red rambles #im working on a character who i made up years and years ago and wasnt even happy with then because he didnt seem to have enough like #interior thoughts he was just like a guy who killed people when he was stressed and his life was constantly stressful and then he killed on #person too many and they were like 'this is fucking untenable and he has to die' and then they killed him #which is soooooooooo absolutely nothing honestly. Like it works as a barebones summary but i want to stress there was actually straight up #nothing else there. the entire rest of his whole whatnot was just being entangled with Haven who is a different character who at the time #ALSO felt unsatisfyingly lacking in interiority but at lesat he had really complex motivations and action flowcharts. that werent just 'i #get grumpy and i just go kill some random person with no regard for what the consequences will be and then i am so mean and i kill you'#now theres a lot more happening. i really didnt. like.#okay so i had a Backstory worked out but it was vague because i didnt know what the fuck he WANTEDDDDDDD right like. i had no motivations a #literally all except 'oohhh i kill people ooohhh i like killing people ooohhh im erratic i kill people' and the background i HAD was like.#Upper class scion of some rich family whose family honest to god just did not like him very much and also [gestures vaguely] i guess he #maybe kicked dogs or something and then he ??nebulous timeline meets haven and then kills his sister or kills his sister and very quickly #thereafter meets haven but i usually lean toward the former because haven LOVES convincing people to kill their whole families its like #cathartic for him because he would love to kill his entire family but physically cannot do it. but like kind of the implications of this #as far as i was concerned given this is set in the mid 1800s was like. ehhh he's getting away with this because he's rich white and male an #it pays to turn a blind eye to his indiscretions or w/e. a genderswap means that she'd be subject to a lot more scrutiny on basis of like #misogyny. LOL. and i already had the preexisting 'hates half sibling' (i genderswapped the sister into a brother because why not) and 'hate #parents' and 'parents strongly dislike her' and 'unsettling' and it worked nicely to start giving me actual fucking. Literally anything to #work with there. because it means that by going off with Haven she walks out of one situation where she has like 0 agency into another one #and like to be clear i respect anyone who is sitting around in haven's general vicinity for snapping and just starting to kill people. me t #but this works. SOOOOOOOOOO much better for real #im still working the kinks out but like also this means that she wins. she wins like multiple times actually. she comes closer to killing #haven than anyone since he learned what fucking species he was and causes him more trouble in the interest of getting the FUCK out of there #than anyone else has and then she fucking gets what she was going for against literally every effort haven could've made over ~five decades #get owned loser.#every time i draw her i cant help it i write some shit like PLEASE JUST GET DIVORCED on it even though i wrote the fucking narrative i know #it will never fucking happen and thats why she does all this shit instead #in another world she'd be like the wildly capable owner of Raytheon 2 or some other shit like that. like she'd never be a nice or good #person but she wouldn't be dead. god she could be in charge of a country or some shit. Alas. Please get divorced.

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kimjunnoodle · 6 months ago

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sent my best friend my recent art and he's ... always been my number one critic to help me grow/learn more but ah today hit too hard

#i mean its true #he said i draw very flat and w/out expression #hes known me since we were 13 so he knows what im capable of but #it still sucks sometimes when i think im doing good #ahh #anyway hes right i have to practice more and get better but im going to be proud of myself even if its just me :(#im really getting better i think #uggg #noodle posting #dakota is a bastard man 😭😭 now he’s going thru all the art i’ve sent him and giving me advise #he’s not even an artist i 😪#i love him but next time he sleeps over i’m kicking him in the teeth

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