#Bucky barnes is a theater geek

[no-not-without-you-blog]

Honey

Content Warnings: Sparring, Sexual Tension, Hair Pulling, Steve's an idiot.

Length: 5.5K

Please let me know if you like this! It's my first longer one-shot on here and I am nervous! Thanks!

Not Beta'd, just proofread by my husband, so fair warning!

Divider by @firefly-graphics

Sparing was always a favorite of yours. You loved how it was both a body and mind workout. You had to keep your mind sharp to plan out your next steps while still being present and focused on your attackers movements as well. Lifting weights and cardio were great but you would choose sparring over other workouts every time. Well, almost any other time. Today’s sparring list showed you paired with Steve. You had been on the team for almost a year now and he always pushed you hard. You knew it wasn’t personal, he wanted the team to be as strong as possible. Honestly, you didn’t think anything was personal when it came to your interactions with him. You seemed to fit in well with everyone at the compound and even had some great friends among them but your fearless leader seemed to be strictly business when it came to you. He seemed to be friendly with most of the others, some even more like family, but not you, sadly. Did you have a crush on the Captain? Maybe. But that was all it was ever going to be, a crush. He had no interest in getting to know you outside of work, it seemed. Was it something you had done or did he just not like you? No matter what the reason, you knew you were in for it today. He pushes hard and never lets up. You’re sure to be sore tomorrow.

You start running on a treadmill to warm your muscles up and after a good 30 minute jog you step off and start stretching to loosen up. About this time you hear the doors to the gym open and you look up to see Steve and Natasha walking in, laughing about something. You loved seeing him laugh because you didn’t see that side of him often and his whole face lights up when he laughs. “Morning guys!”, you say while sending them both a smile and a slight wave. Natasha, still laughing, smiles back. “Good morning Y/N.” Steve looks over seeing you smile at him and swallows, his smile disappearing almost instantly. “Y/N”, he says as he nods at you. Polite, professional, and completely impersonal. Your smile falters slightly and a slight sigh escapes you as you go back to stretching. 

Natasha, hearing your sigh and seeing your slight shift in mood, comes over to stretch with you. “Don’t take it personally.”

 “How can I not? He seems open to everyone else but I just can’t make any headway.”

  “You forget the rest of us have known him for a long time. He just takes a while to open up to some people.”

 You rolled your eyes and got up off the mat, eager to let out some frustration on the super soldier. You turned around to see Bucky and Steve lifting weights across the room. Walking over to the pair you hip checked Bucky who was spotting for Steve. “Hey B, are we still on for tonight? I got a new one for you that I know you’ll love.” 

You winked at Bucky, you two had been secretly watching old musicals together since you discovered you both loved them. He didn’t want everyone knowing that was what you watched together and had made you promise to keep them a secret. 

“Yeah Honey, I am down. I have an assignment this afternoon but I should be back by 9. Is that cool?”

 You smiled at him at the nickname he had given you. He called you Honey, short for Honey Badger, ever since he saw the comical video a few months after meeting you. You were small and sweet looking but you had deadly skills and were absolutely fearless. Your innocent looks and sweet personality made your brutality even more terrifying. Once the others had heard the nickname and the reasoning behind it, it became your nickname from everyone. Well, almost everyone, seeing as Steve still called you by your name. 

“No problem B, I’ll still be awake, just come by when you get home. Steve, are you almost ready?” You turned your eyes to Steve who was glaring at Bucky. 

“Yeah Y/N, always ready.” He said that while still staring at Bucky, trying to decipher your conversation. He finally looked down at you, sending butterflies to your stomach. The look he was giving you was one you couldn’t quite decipher, if you didn’t know better, you would say it was almost jealousy. But you did know better, Steve was a coworker and only that. He had made that clear over and over, much to your dissatisfaction. But you couldn’t help but be attracted. He was always so sure of himself and had a quiet dominance that made others fall in under his authority. You felt yourself get flushed under his gaze and turned away before your cheeks gave you away.

You both walked over to the sparring mats and circled for a moment, getting your heads into it. Steve was large and strong but straightforward in his attacks. His movements were all about efficiency and that was something you could exploit. You waited until he made his first movements, stepping forward and punching first right, then left, the right again. You easily dodged all of those punches and slid yourself between his legs, elbowing the back of his knee on the way, making him falter in his stance. You quickly stood up and jumped on his back placing him in a choke hold. He reached up and over, grabbing you and flipping you over, slamming you into the mat. 

You were out of breath but quickly recovered and stood up. This time you were the first to move, you threw a punch at him knowing that he would step back with his right leg and bend his left. You used his left leg as a step, launching yourself onto him, swinging your right leg over his shoulder. You instantly started punching at his face, hitting him multiple times across the cheek and jaw. He growled out in frustration and then did something surprising. He threw himself backwards, falling hard on his back and making you land on your stomach hard enough to knock your breath out. He twisted his body and straddled you, leaning over your body and pinning your shoulder down to the mat. He grabbed your ponytail and pulled it, not so hard that it did any real damage to your hair but enough that it brought your head off the mat as you panted. His body was pressed tightly down onto yours and he leaned down and whispered in your ear. “Not bad…Honey.” With that, he stood up off of you and walked out of the gym. 

You sat up, staring at the door he had just walked out of, dazed and confused at what had just happened. “Did he just call you Honey?” Nat walked up to you and held out her hand, pulling you up off the floor. 

“Ugh, yeah. I guess he did.” 

Nat smirked as she shook her head. “Oh sweetie, you got it bad don’t you?”

Your face instantly turning red. “What? No…no I don’t.” 

 “It’s okay. I don’t blame you for it. He certainly is a specimen. Not my type but definitely not bad.”  Having had enough of the conversation focusing on you, you turn the tables on Nat. 

“And what exactly is your type? Dark hair, metal arm, and curses in Russian?” You knew about Nat and Bucky’s not so secret relationship. They were your best friends and it was impossible not to pick up on the signs of their growing romance.

 “Okay, that’s enough from you. Go get cleaned up, you’re sweaty as hell.” She pushed you out the door and towards your room, laughing all the way at her apparent embarrassment. 

Steve slammed his door after making his way from the gym. His body was pumping with adrenaline and his head was full of conflicting emotions. He had let you get to him and he was kicking himself for how he had reacted. Since the first day he had met you, he had been so drawn to you. You were kind and bubbling with joy and yet at the same time, a fierce fighter and didn’t take crap from anyone. He had found himself on more than one occasion comparing you to Peggy and he hated that. He thought it was sick to be attracted to someone just because they reminded him of her. But as time went on and as he saw more and more of you, he realized that he was drawn to you, not some similarities the two shared. You were so kind but could instantly turn and be so fierce. You roasted Sam and Bucky within an inch of their lives and he loved seeing you let loose with the team on nights out, even if he didn’t feel confident enough to join you. He wanted nothing more than to be close to you but he didn’t know how. You were under his command and all he wanted was to pull you close to him and feel your skin underneath his fingers. It was better to just keep things professional and distant between you two. And that’s what he did, for the better part of a year, he was kind but cold towards you. That was until today. He had dreamed about you last night, feeling your body beneath his hands, hearing soft sighs come from your lips. He had woken up frustrated in more than one sense of the word. He had tried for so long to get you off his mind but he went to bed most nights thinking of you and woke up more times than he could count from dreams of you and him in bed together, sometimes just snuggling and talking…sometimes more. But always with the same effect, an intense longing for you that could only be partially satiated by his morning showers.

Steve sat on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands when he heard his door open and close and heavy footsteps walk towards him. “Well, that was one hell of  a workout. What was all that about? And since when do you call her Honey?” He looked up to see Bucky lean against his dresser, arms crossed, and a curious look on his face. Steve just looked at his best friend and shook his head in frustration. 

“Nothing… it was just nothing. I just got carried away in the fight.”

 “Steve, that didn’t look like “nothing”. And you still didn’t answer my question. When did you start calling her Honey? It’s not like you have ever tried to be her friend or anything.” 

Steve shook his head in frustration, “I’ve never called her Honey before, at least not to her. And I don’t talk to her outside of work on purpose.”

 Bucky looked at Steve confused, “What do you mean on purpo-“ pausing to think for a moment, “Are you fucking kidding me!?! God, I knew you were stupid, but this is a new level! Are you telling me that you have been shutting her out for a whole fucking year because you liked her!?!” Bucky was pacing by now and was clearly worked up over this. 

“Do you think we could bring down the volume and the language a bit?”  

 “No, no we fucking can’t. She thinks you hate her! She thinks that you can’t stand to be around her! For the past year she has felt ostracized by you and had no idea why! Do you know how many times I have seen her down because all she wants is to feel accepted by the team, the whole team. You. She has spent the last year trying to get close to you and you just kept her away. If you didn’t trust her or were annoyed by her, that would be one thing. I could understand that. But no! You are just a fucking idiot who can’t get his head out of his own ass long enough to tell the girl you like that it’s not her fault that you’ve cut her off!” 

There was a moment of eerie quiet while Bucky caught his breath and tried to calm his anger towards his closest friend. 

“How long?” 

Steve finally looked up at him. “What?”

 “How. Long?” 

Steve looked back down at the ground, picking at his fingernails. “Since the moment I met her. I fought the feelings for a while. I thought I was just seeing Peggy in her so I chose to ignore the feelings, but they just kept developing and after a while, I realized it wasn’t about Peggy, it was about her.” 

Bucky huffed out a breath and sat beside Steve. “Well you certainly have a type.” He laughed, thinking about the ways they were similar. “Kind-hearted, fiery, independent women who could knock you on your ass in a heartbeat.” They sat in silence for a moment. “So why did you never make a move? Why keep pushing her away?” 

It was the question Steve asked himself every day and every day he had to answer back with the same reason. “Because we work together. Not just that, but I am her leader. It could never work and I can’t risk never seeing her again if it didn’t work.” 

“Who says it couldn’t work? It’s worked just fine for me and Nat for months.” 

Steve shook his head at him, “That’s not the same thi- what do you mean you and Nat!?!” 

Bucky let out a short laugh. “Jesus, have you been living under a rock? Me and Nat have been together for over six months now. You obviously don’t see it affecting our work or the team. We separate work for personal and it works just fine. If we can do it, so could you. Honestly, dating someone on the team is better than someone that’s not. Who better to understand the stresses of the job? Someone you can actually talk to about missions. Someone who understands and accepts the crazy schedules. It’s twice as hard with someone on the outside.” 

Steve sat in silence for a moment, thinking about what Bucky had said. He hadn’t thought about the benefits of dating inside the team, only the cons. But clearly, some people were able to make it work successfully. “Six months, huh?” He nudged Bucky’s shoulder. “That’s a lot for you. I’ve never seen you with someone past a month. It must be getting serious.” 

“Yeah it is. We’ve been talking about moving in together. Still here at the compound, but into our place, ya know? I’ve never felt this way about someone and it’s terrifying but exciting at the same time.” 

Steve clapped his hand on Bucky’s back. “I’m happy for you, Buck. I’ve only ever wanted you to be happy. And I am sorry I didn’t notice before. I’ve just been so wrapped up in trying to fight this that I haven’t been a very good friend to you.” 

“Thanks man, I really am happy. But I’m not who you need to apologize to. She deserves the truth.” 

Steve put his hands back to his head and rubbed his temples, “I am just so terrified of her not feeling the same. You know I’ve always been a train wreck when it comes to women.” 

“Hey, the train thing is too soon.” Bucky said with a laugh. “But in all seriousness, and I didn’t tell you this because Nat will kill me. But she didn’t just want to get to know you to be her friend. I don’t think you will be disappointed.” 

You spent the rest of the day working on upcoming missions, opting to hide out in your office than to potentially face Steve. You weren’t quite sure what had happened at training that morning but it had been something. Natasha had tried to get more out of you about your crush on Steve at lunch but you wouldn’t say anything else. What was the point if there wasn’t a chance? He obviously didn’t feel the same about you and you had been holding out hope for a year. This morning had been interesting, but one small moment of attention didn’t mean anything, not really. 

You were looking forward to hanging out with Bucky tonight. Just watching a musical and stuffing yourselves full of junk food. It would be good to get your mind off of Steve. You were hanging out in your room around 8:30 when you got a text from Bucky. 

Bucky: Hey Honey, I am so sorry. This recon job just got extended and we won’t be back till tomorrow morning. Can I get a rain check for movie night?

 You instantly felt your mood drop. You needed tonight more than most weeks and you were excited for the movie tonight. He had chosen “Oklahoma” for tonight's musical and you hadn’t seen it in years and were excited to watch it again. 

You: Ugh. Fine! Sometimes being on this team sucks. You owe me big time Barnes!

 You send him the text and a Gif from the Godfather saying that he was going to owe you for the favor he asked. 

Bucky: Is that from a movie? 

 You: Oh dear God, we have so much work to do. 

You now realized that you needed to add other popular movies to your list. Geez, catching up a super soldier is a lot of work. You decided to take a bath instead for the night and had made your room and bathroom into what can only be described as a fireman’s worst nightmare. You had candles lit everywhere and had turned off every light possible. You loved relaxing by just candle light. It made you feel like you were truly alone, despite knowing that the compound was full of other people. You had thrown your hair into a messy bun on top of your head and you were relaxing into your deep bathtub, your one requested change to your room when you moved in. You love taking long hot baths, showers are great for cleaning yourself, but nothing beats a hot bath for relaxation. You had asked Friday to play your classical playlist. You loved so many types of music but sometimes soft classical music was just what you needed. 

Around 9:15 you heard a knock at your door and figured that it was Nat or Wanda. “One second!” You pulled the plug on the drain, pulled on your thin soft cotton robe, and padded over to the door. Opening it you were surprised to see Steve standing in your doorway “Um…hi.”

Steve had paced in front of your door for a few minutes, debating with himself if this was a bad idea, before finally finding enough courage to knock. “One second!” he heard you say and he waited anxiously for you to open the door, stopping himself from turning right around and running away. When you opened the door he almost lost his nerve. You were standing in front of him, hair in a messy bun and in what appeared to be nothing more than a thin cotton robe. He had to force his eyes to not trace down your body right then and there. “Um…hi.” 

It was clear to him that he was the last person you expected to be knocking on his door so late at night. He cleared his throat and started to speak. “I’m sorry for interrupting your night, I just thought we might be able to talk.” He looked back at her room, covered in candles and thought that maybe she was planning a romantic evening with someone. Shit. I’ve missed my chance, haven’t I? “But you obviously have other plans, I will just see you tomorrow. Sorry for bothering you.” Steve started to turn around when he felt your hand on his forearm. 

“Hey, no plans for me, you're welcome to come in.” You gave him a sweet smile which made his heart leap. He was nervous for the conversation he was going to have but couldn’t deny that being in your room with you like this was exhilarating. He stepped into your room and you closed the door, you brushed past him and walked further into the room. “Sorry about the mountains of candles.” 

He laughed at that. “I was gonna say, either you're having a romantic evening or a seance.” You let out a laugh. 

“No, no one but me here tonight, ghosts or otherwise. I just love relaxing in candlelight. It makes the world slow down for me. I am able to push off everything outside of this room and just be present here. Plus I like feeling like I’m in a regency novel sometimes.” 

You laughed heartily at this and the sound of your laugh filled Steve’s stomach with butterflies. How many nights had he dreamed about something like this. Just being with you, not even sexually, although there were more than his fair share of those dreams as well. But just getting to be alone with you and hear your laugh at something he said. You led him over to your loveseat sofa and he sat down on one side while you sat on the other, covering your lap in a small throw blanket, aware of just how naked you were under your robe. 

Steve sat there for a moment, not sure how to begin. “Steve…if this is about this morning, you don’t need to worry about anything. I wasn’t hurt at all. It was a good sparring session and you won fair and square.” 

Steve shook his head. “No, it’s not about this morning…not really anyway. This morning's sparring was…unprofessional of me, and I am sorry about that, but… God I don’t know how to say this other than to just come out and say it… I like you. I have for a long time and I realize that I have been cold towards you since, well, forever. It was just my dumbass idiot way to try to deny my feelings towards you. I can understand if you hate me for pushing you away but I couldn’t go any longer without telling you.”  

You sat in shock listening to his words and then stood up suddenly and started pacing your floor in silence, Steve nervously watching you from the couch. After a few minutes, you stopped abruptly and turned towards him. “I’m sorry, let me get this right. You like me? And because you like me, you have been pushing me away and essentially ignoring me for a year? Am I getting that right?” 

Steve sighed and his head dropped down to stare at the ground, picking at his fingernails. “Yes… and I have no real excuse. I was afraid to damage the team but when Bucky found out he about beat me upside my head.” 

You let out a huff, “As he should have. Jesus, Steve. For as smart and logical as you are, you can be a real idiot sometimes. God, you say you like me but you don’t even know me.” 

You were about to pace the room in anger again when you felt a hand on your arm turning you back around. Steve was standing in front of you, looking down at you with an emotion you couldn’t quite place, somewhere between terror and desire. 

“You don’t like sweet and salty foods to touch on the plate but you will mix salty things together and sweet things together. You love sitting out on the covered porch during a rainstorm. You hate chocolate without nuts because you think every bite of food needs at least two different textures, if not more. You love to cry at books but not at movies and you won’t watch something if it doesn’t have a happy ending. So you rarely go to see anything in theaters because you don’t want to sit through a movie without knowing that it’s going to end well. You hate running but you love hiking. Your favorite movie is Pride and Prejudice and you think that the 2005 version is pure perfection. You will tell people your favorite book is something academic but in reality you love trashy romance novels. You are best friends with Nat and Wanda and you see Bucky as the brother you always wished you had.” 

He paused for a moment and saw the tears growing in your eyes. You hadn’t realized that he gave two shits about you let alone saw all of that. His hand slid down your arm and he held your hand in his. “You are kind, and funny, and don’t take shit from anyone. You care so much about the team and would defend them fiercely. You always put others before yourself and you do your best to make everyone feel safe and noticed and loved.”

He used his other hand to tilt your chin up to look at him. "I know I fucked up by pushing you away and I understand if you don’t feel the same way about me but I couldn’t handle the thought of you thinking that I didn’t care or that I didn’t see just how wonderful you are.” He stared at you for a few moments before pulling away slightly. “I’m sorry for dumping all of this on you all at once. I’ll let you get back to your evening.” 

He started to walk towards the door and felt you pull his hand back towards you. He looked at you, momentarily taken aback by just how beautiful you looked in the flickering candlelight. A moment of silence passed before you shyly smiled at him and interlaced your fingers with his again. “Stay… I-I mean if you want. I was going to watch a movie with Bucky but if you wanted to…we could watch it instead.” 

Steve looked down at you, a smile growing across his face and he slightly bit his bottom lip, sending your butterflies flying. “Yeah… I’d like that.” You asked him to blow out most of the candles and settle himself on your couch as you went and quickly threw some clothes on. You came back into the room and settled yourself onto the couch as well. All Steve wanted to do was be close to you, to feel you wrapped in his arms, to smell your shampoo, but he knew to let you move at your pace. He had dropped so much on you so quickly and the fact that you weren’t raving mad at him right now was a miracle all on its own. He would take just getting to spend time with you. 

“So what are we watching tonight?”

Your face broke out into an excited smile. “Oklahoma.”

“You mean like the Rodgers and Hammerstein musical?” You were shocked at his awareness of it. It had come out years after he went into the ice and you doubted he had seen it since he came out. 

“Yeah…how do you know about it? Have you seen it?” 

“No, not really. I mean…well, sort of. The broadway came out in 1943 and I saw a few songs of it being previewed during my bond-selling days. One of the actors for it on Broadway was in one of those God awful Captain America movies they made back then. I was able to catch an off-broadway workshop of it a few weeks before I did my USO tour. I liked the little bit of it I saw.” 

You looked at him with a sense of surprise. “I don’t know if I am more shocked at you going to see musicals or jealous that you saw a Rogers and Hammerstein production before almost anyone else in the whole world.” 

He let out a soft laugh at that. “Well who do you think went to see all those musicals with Bucky? Do you know how many awful double dates he took me on to see a musical?” 

You turned towards him, now suddenly more interested in this than starting the movie. “You used to go on double dates with Bucky? What was that like?” “Oh God, it was the worst. 95% of the time Bucky ended up with two dates and I either tagged along pathetically or would skip out. Not many women took a second look at me, let alone enjoyed spending time with me. You’ve seen what I looked like.” 

“You were small, yeah, but I can’t imagine your personality has changed that much over the years. Still the same man who can’t help but stand up for others, can’t back away from a fight no matter how hopeless. Plus, short and skinny or not, you were still handsome then. You still had that look of being up to no good. Always a trouble maker, even then.” 

Steve’s face flamed in a blush and he looked down at his hands in embarrassment. You felt your nerves flipping your stomach over and over and felt your heart begin to beat faster as you moved closer to Steve, sitting on your knees right beside him. You hesitantly carded your fingers through the strands of his hair that had fallen down onto his face and then traced your fingers down the side of his face to the side of his jaw. He looked up at you, eyes filled with desire and nervousness. 

“Steve. Can…Can I kiss you.” You knew that he had effectively just laid out all his feelings for you, but you didn’t want to assume that he would just be okay with it.

He sat up, his face getting dangerously close to your own as he searched your eyes. “Yes… please.”  You hesitantly moved even closer to him, not believing that this could really be happening. He gently nudged your nose with his own, taking a moment to savor the feeling of you being so close. Finally, he closed the distance between you two. 

The kiss was gentle but full of so much emotion. Both of you were nervous but eager. You slid both your hands behind his head, while his hands found their way around to your back as they held you close. Your lips worked in unison and you found yourself biting and pulling on his bottom lip, desperate to get closer to him. He let out a gasp and pulled away slightly, placing his hands firmly on your arms. 

“Wait…Wait, Honey.” He pulled away more fully and stood up. “I think… I think that we need to talk about this.”

You instantly recoiled, feeling the sharp sting of rejection, tears starting to cloud your eyes. You were confused. Hadn’t he just confessed his feelings? Hadn’t you?

Steve could tell that you were confused and hurt. He sat back down and lifted your chin with his fingers, making you look him in the eye. 

“Hey, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. I just… I’ve wanted you for so long and I know that, given the opportunity, I would… be less than gentlemanly. I just want to do this the right way. You deserve to be wooed and I don’t want to skip any steps with you. I just don’t want to go too fast. I hope you understand.”

What had been a moment of hurt and confusion was now one filled with admiration and affection.

“Of course I understand. And I would like that, being wooed by you.” Your cheeks stained red as you spoke, the thought of Steve pursuing you. “So…  slow?”

He nodded his head. “Slow.” 

“Can we still watch the movie? And possibly cuddle a little?” You asked with a slight tease in your voice. You were being playful but also trying to be respectful of his desires. He laughed gently at you.

“Yes…please. I couldn’t think of a better way to spend the night. Well, I could but again…slow.” He said while giving you a playful wink, causing your cheeks to flame red once again. 

“Oh boy, you’re going to be trouble, aren’t you?” You asked him, laughing and shaking your head.

“Me? I’ve never been trouble.” 

You laughed, settling into his side and covering both your laps with a soft blanket while turning the movie back on to play. “I’m not sure Bucky would agree with you. Or Tony, or Natasha, or the US Government. Or-” He laughed again, “Okay, okay. I may be just the slightest bit of trouble.” He looked down at you tucked into his side, unable to believe that he was actually here, holding you close. His heart was fit to burst with the happiness it contained. He kissed the top of your head and gently breathed in your scent before turning his attention back to the movie you were now singing along quietly to. Perfection, he thought, this is absolute perfection.

[e-namor-a]

Listen I have waxed poetic about Bucky Barnes for a goddamn second but when I tell you that that was nothing, NOTHING, like the simping I'm gonna do about  Namor/Namora/Talokan. And like even more than the fact that Tenoch Huerta Mejía is breathtakingly handsome, it’s that for the first time in my entire gods damned life, I have seen my culture beautifully represented on screen. It wasn’t in the typical “Mayan’s were brutal people who tore out the hearts of their enemies and crawled around the jungle like uncouth savages” shit we always get.  The actors wore our traditional clothes to the red carpets and the premiers. They got actual Mayan actors. They got actual INDIGENOUS actors to play the Talokan (also, Talokan- Tlalocán??? I fucking geeked over that) leads. They didn't shy away from our mythology, (fr I’m Mayan and I have the name of a Mayan goddess, my sibling too, my son has a Maya name {I’m being 100000000% honest, K’uk’ulkan was on the short list of names.}) In the sound track, the OFFICIAL soundtrack, they have actual Mayan artists rapping in their mother tongue. They didn’t shy away from having Tenoch speak accented English. They didn’t shy away from the Catholic brutality that indigenous people suffered under. Like, the imaging, the faces, the colors, all of it is things I grew up with but never saw, I saw for the first time. For the first time! All the things I hadn’t seen in years because I’m stuck in the US and I cannot afford to go home, to my motherland, to my family. 

And I wept. I cried in theaters. They didn’t have to include indigenous people, Maya specifically, but they did. They could’ve made us the same “dirty savages” they fucking always do. 

But they didn’t. And that means the fucking world. 

[classylo]

coffee and cigarettes | bucky barnes 

pairings: CEO!bucky barnes x female reader (although this story is from 3rd person perspective…ish)

summary: bucky sees the one girl he hasn’t been able to get over at their high school reunion with hopes he can finally make his move; based on the song “coffee and cigarettes” by the night game

warnings: angst!! mentions of high-school love (both parties are 18 during flash back), mentions of under-age drinking, mentions of tobacco use, cuss words, bucky was a bit of a fuck boy back in the day, one-lone kiss. 

She was out on the patio smoking her last cigarette when she heard the door slide open. She knew exactly who it was. She had been waiting for him to come out and join her. Really, she had been waiting for this all night. Seeing him again, she knew this night was going to be... interesting.

He looked the exact same, well, better. His brown hair was perfectly slicked back and his piercing blue eyes stood out in the crowd of people. She caught her breath the second she saw him, just like she did all those years ago. She wondered how it was possible that someone she knew when she was 18 could still make her feel this way?

He thought the same about her too. He heard she was going to be at the reunion but he didn’t believe it, yet he showed up anyway hoping she’d walk through those doors…and alas she did. She walked in and he choked back his drink as he took her in.

She was wearing a short black dress, with her hair pulled back into a sleek ponytail. God, he loved her in ponytails. He loved her in anything. She didn’t notice him at first, and he enjoyed that.

It occurred to him that she could’ve forgotten him, but that theory was denied the second he met her gaze. Her eyes met his and she stopped mid-conversation, he gave her a soft smile and she immediately looked away biting down on her lip. He couldn’t help but laugh, he always loved how flustered he made her. She was the class president, the homecoming queen, and the most popular girl in school. She could have any guy she wanted but she turned them all down.

She only wanted one person, but even then she never gave into him.

He was the polar opposite of her, the bad boy jock meets theater geek. He was popular in his own way, the way that every girl wanted him and he could have any girl he wanted, except one. Her.

He loved that about her. He loved the chase, he loved the teasing, he loved the game. Until suddenly that’s all it was, a game.

After graduation, she left for college out of state and then went to Boston for law school. He went on to college on a sports scholarship and became the CEO of his own company at 25 (thanks to his dad). Now, his life isn’t all that much different from high school. He’s still the most popular guy in any room. Everyone knows who he is, everyone loves him, except for one person.

Being rich and well-known had its cons of course. Cons in the way that he’s heard from everyone since high school, everyone. Except her.

He thought about reaching out, himself, but he always stopped himself. One day when he was hanging out with an old friend from school he asked how she was doing, knowing the friend had kept up with her. He was amused to learn that she had been seeing a guy who looked an awful lot like him. He told himself to stop thinking about her, he missed his chance, but he never did. He always thought about her, especially late at night when he’d watch tv to try and fall asleep, it reminded him of the late nights the two of them would spend together in high school.

She on the other hand never thought about reaching out. She accepted that she lost her chance a long time ago, she never allowed herself to think about him, he was James Bucky Barnes for fuck’s sake, he could have any girl in high school…she could only imagine how he was now, a playboy billionaire.

She would find herself stalking him on social media, amused by how many girls he’s gone through. She couldn’t help but notice the resemblance between herself and a few of them.

He always had a type, she thought to herself.

Other than the occasional late-night stalk she truly didn’t think about him. She had dated around in college, only one was actually serious but ended once she went off to law school. She had seen a few people since but nothing ever serious came about it.

Now here she is, 10 years later at their high school reunion, hoping that the one guy she wants to see is there. She didn’t think he would be.

Big shot CEO? Surely he has better things to do with a Friday night. But yet... there he was. Surrounded by a few girls and guys, drink in hand, a sideways smile that made her knees weak. The second her eyes met him she knew she was done.

A few hours into the reunion she finally snuck off, hoping his wondering eyes would get the hint to follow. He wasn’t going to talk to her inside so maybe he’d talk to her outside, alone.

“James Barnes.” She smiles as she spins around to greet him.

He was wearing a tight gray shirt and black jeans. His usual look from school and usual look now. In all the paparazzi pictures she's seen of him he’s usually wearing a low baseball cap and sunglasses. She didn’t mind that look, but she loved this one so much better.

Classic Bucky.

“Hi.” He chuckles.

She took another drag of her cigarette and offers one to him. He refuses and she pulls back shocked.

“I’m trying to quit,” he smiles.

“Bad boy Bucky Barnes? The guy who made me smoke one of these and now here I am 10 years later? Trying to quit? Quite responsible of you.” She responds. She tosses it down on the ground and puts it out with her heel.

“You... look great.” He remarks as his eyes dart down to the ground.

She chuckles to herself. Womanizer James Barnes could barely look her in the eyes, let alone speak to her.

“As do you, although I expect nothing less from a billionaire playboy.”

He rolls his eyes at her jab and takes a few steps into her. She smells the whiskey on his breath mixed with his cologne. Jesus, he even smells the exact same as all those years ago.

“Hey now, you’re the hotshot lawyer.” He smirks.

God, that smirk.

“Keeping tabs on me, Barnes?” She raises an eyebrow.

“I have my ways, yeah.” He chuckles.

He steps to the side of her and walks over to the railing, taking in the little city skyline. She leans up against the railing, right beside him, only allowing a tiny space between the two of them.

“It’s good to see you’re still the guy I used to know.”

He turns to her and bites down on his lip.

“Oh?” He asks.

“Don’t flatter yourself.” She jokes.

He turns his back to the railing, still leaning up against it. He looks at her and the silence is comfortable. It’s not like 10 years have gone by. It’s not like she has missed him for 10 fucking years.

“So, where’s the boyfriend huh? I heard he looks a bit like me.”

She immediately laughs at his remark. His cocky little remark. She always hated how his Brooklyn accent was more prominent when he was being a sarcastic asshole. Secretly she loved it of course, but, damn, she couldn’t admit that.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t know you had trademarked brown hair and blue eyes?”

He chuckles at her witty comeback. Man, did he miss that. He always loved her sassy remarks. No other girl challenged him the way she does. This is why he could never get over her. This is why he could never forget her.

“I guess I must’ve missed that between all the tabloids of you globetrotting with different women every week.”

His jaw clenched at her words. Damn did she know how to get to him. He stopped for a second before responding. For her to insult him like that means she knew what he was doing. It means she’s been watching him and keeping up with him just as much as he’s done with her.

“Oh c‘mon Barnes, you used to be quicker than this.” She smirks as she turns her back to him.

He quickly grabs her hand and spins her back around pulling her into him. Her other hand lands on his firm chest and her heart is beating a million miles a minute.

“There hasn’t been a single day that’s gone by where I haven’t thought of you.”

His words send chills down her spine. Him? Thinking about her? Surely he was kidding. The two of them were just young and dumb the last time they saw each other. The two had never even... been together. The two of them were too prideful to admit their feelings back then.

“That one kiss, that one fucking kiss, has driven me insane for the past 10 years.” He whispers.

Oh, that lone kiss. That was the only thing that had ever happened between the two.

It was the night before their graduation and the entire class was at a house party. She and Bucky had snuck off of course, similar to tonight.

The two were sitting outside by the pool, just talking about how their lives were going to change. You know; dumb things teenagers talk about right before they graduate high school.

She never forgot the way Bucky looked at her when she told him she was going out of state for school and didn't plan on coming back.

It was the first time she’d ever seen him show actual emotion. Real, genuine emotion. Before she could explain her decision his lips were on hers and she gave in so easily.

The one time she had given in when it came to him. She was quick to climb on top of him and run her fingers through his hair. He moaned into her mouth and she was done for.

“I’ve wanted you for so long. God, you’re all I’ve ever wanted.” He whispered.

Of course, when you’re 18 anyone would believe those words, and would do anything to hear them again. But before she could give into him completely her best friend interrupted, needing her help to win a game of beer pong.

As she was pulled away Bucky told her, he’d be waiting for her when she got back.  

“I’ll wait forever,” he mouthed.

But when she went back to find him after the beer pong game, he was gone.

She searched and searched and eventually found him with another girl from their class. He never noticed her standing in the corner as he kissed the new girl the exact same way. She swore she can still feel the tears run down her cheek as she felt her heartbreak into a million tiny pieces. She had never experienced a pain like that, a heartbreak like that. She ran out of the party told herself that night that he’d never wait for her, and she should never wait for him. It was never going to work out between the two of them.

After graduation, she moved out of the state rather quickly. She ignored all of his texts and attempts to talk to her. She knew she needed to cut him off. He didn’t actually want her, she was just another girl on his long list of names. So, that’s what she did.

But here she is. Faced to face with the man she was in love with when she was 18. Faced to face with the man who got her addicted to coffee and cigarettes. Faced to face with the man she’s tried to move on from but found herself thinking of him every day.

“Well, I came back for you, and you were gone.” She tells him.

He furrows his brows but eventually remembers exactly what she was talking about.

“I’m here now.” He says.

“Yeah, for how long? Bucky, I can’t —“ she pulls away.

“Doll, wait.”

“No, I can’t do this. I don’t know why I came back here tonight. Fuck. I knew if I saw you it’d just break my heart.” She says, tears forming in her eyes.

His quick to wipe them away as he holds her face in his hands.

“But I’m glad you came, I wanted to see you. I needed to see you.” He says.

“Why?” She asks.

“I told you, I think about you all the fucking time. You drive me crazy. 10 years and you still drive me crazy.”

“Bullshit,” she says pushing him away again.

He tries to chase after her but she spins around pointing her finger into his chest,

“I loved you. God, did I love you. But like I said, you’re still the guy I used to know. A womanizer who knows all the right words to say. We were 18 and I believed you. How idiotic would I be at 28 to believe you?”

She storms off and Bucky chases after her. He watches as she grabs her coat and turns to give him one more look. The look of sheer heartbreak and disappointment. He sighs to himself as she pushes through the doors and leaves him. She left him, just like he left her.

You were gone.

part 2 //

a/n: happy thursday love! hope you enjoyed this one, was a bit in my feels 🥲 (hope you enjoyed the end and see what I did there 🙂) sending you lots of love <3

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ACROSS THE BAY: CROSSOVER FICS YOU DIDN’T SEE COMING MASTERPOST

Thank you everyone for submitting your crossover and fusion fic  recommendations. Below are all submissions and some of our favorites! 

Is it Insensitive for Me to Say by aliciajazmin (EstherJohnTosh | complete | 2441 | T)

Toshiko Sato and Esther Drummond absolutely will make fun of their boyfriend for deciding to attend an audition, while also attending said audition with him. 

Crossover With: The Outer Worlds 

Golden Apples and Norse Gods (Or How Ianto Got His Groove Back) by blackkat (JackIanto | complete | 1592 | G)

Ianto finds himself back from the dead and, apparently, in the position to double-cross a power-crazed Norse god intent on conquering the Earth by taking out a team of superheroes. Must be a Tuesday.

Crossover With: Avengers/MCU

The Magic of Torchwood by Bella the Strange (JackIanto, IantoJohn, JackOther, Non-Torchwood Ships | wip |  546,512 | T)

The Torchwood team have been accepted at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Set between Adam and Reset. Rated T because of Jack Harkness, swearing, mature themes, slash etc… it’s Torchwood!

Crossover With: Harry Potter

Welcome to Torchwood by Jackdaw818 (Gen | complete | 1601 | T)

A strange creature behind the Ralphs, a break-in at the Museum of Forbidden Technologies, and visitors in Night Vale. Overall, a slightly unordinary day for Cecil Gershwin Palmer

Crossover With: Welcome to Night Vale

Torchwait for iiiiit by lady-demacabre (Gen | complete | 3k | K+)

When Shawn and Gus are called in on a case for an eccentric collector of alien objects, they get more than what they bargained for. One shot, Psych oriented.

Crossover With: Psych

Theme and Variations by nemo_baker (JackIanto, GwenRhys, OwenKatie | 5817 | T)

Time Agent Jack Harkness is sent back in time to solve the mystery of a mysterious train bombing. The problem is, he only has eight minutes to do it.

Written for Reel Torchwood screening 8 on Livejournal. Movie Prompt: Source Code (2011)

Crossover With: Source Code 

Day Tripper by Croquemboucheballpit (Gement) (JackBessie the Third Doctor’s Car, Bessie the Third Doctor’s CarLightening McQueen (past) | complete | 2360 | M)

Bessie’s like any other companion: far from home, more than she appears, and always up for an adventure.

And Jack Harkness really will seduce anything that moves.

Crossover With: Pixar’s Cars 

An American Volunteer by That_one_kid (SteveBucky, BuckyJackSteve | Complete | 4395 | T)

What if Captain Jack Harkness met Steve & Bucky during the war? What if he ran into them again, present day?

AKA

Captain Jack Harkness and his mission to seduce the two gorgeous, capable soldiers who keep running into him.

Crossover With: Captain America/MCU

Statement #0041708 - Future Sight by Jackdaw816 (Gen | complete | 1690 | T)

Statement of Lisa Hallett regarding a peculiar mirror found at a car boot sale

Crossover With: The Magnus Archives

(Un)Welcome Aboard by Jaune_Chat (Jack | Complete | 4,154 | T)

To make ends meet, Mal listens to a suggestion from Inara than he rent out the other shuttle. She has the perfect candidate, a charming Companion named Jack…

Crossover With: Firefly 

Death and the Definitely-Not-A Maiden by Odsbodkins (JackIanto | Complete | 3,6K | PG-13)

When Jack dies, Death is there to meet him. Every time. Written in 2008 for the Doctor Who Crossover Ficathon. Takes in Torchwood to end S2, Doctor Who to end S3, Discworld to Soul Music.

Crossover With: Discworld 

Remarkable by snowwhiteliar ( JackIanto, IantoLisa | Complete | 20.971 | PG-13)

Summary: Once upon a time, in a small village in a distant province of a peaceful kingdom, there lived a boy called Ianto

Crossover With: Fairy Tales 

Got That Friday Feeling Again by NancyBrown (OwenOther, JackIanto, GwenRhys, GwenOwen | Complete | 18.3K | R)

HELP HELP HELP HELP

I AM TRAPPED IN A TIME BUBBLE

The magic marker all over the nice chintz wallpaper bled and smeared as Owen wrote in increasingly desperate lettering across the walls. Ls and Ps dragged down, wiggly at the end or drawn out in slashed strokes.

He ignored the pounding on the door frame. He’d shoved the wardrobe in front, which always kept Jack out for twenty three and a half minutes. He ignored the sweat and tears and snot dripping down his face, down his mouth. He ignored the high-pitched singing from his own throat, “If you want my future, forget my past,” chanted over and over.

HELP

Crossover With: Groundhog Day

Back, and Back, and Back a Little More (Future Optional) (JackIanto, JennyVastra | Complete |  32591 | M)

Accidentally shot into the past by a time-travelling car, Ianto has to fix his own mistakes or he won't have a future to go back to.

Crossover With: Back to the Future 

Truth, Justice by NancyBrown (SupermanOwen | complete | 414 | M)

The green shit does not work. Warnings: dubcon (AMTDI)

Crossover With: Justice League Unlimited/DCAU/Superman 

Quis Custodiet Ipsos Custodies, or, A Humourous Interlude Between Epics by  copperbadge (Gen | complete | 749 | T)

Ianto neglected to introduce himself as he informed the senior staff that Atlantis was now under the jurisdiction of Torchwood, whatever Torchwood is.

Crossover With: Stargate Atlantis 

Never Have I Ever by  st_aurafina (JackIanto, JackDoctor (past/implied), PepperTony (implied) | complete | 1714 | T)

Written for the prompt Ianto, Donna and Pepper end up at a secretaries'/assistants' conference and have a conversation about their bosses.

Crossover With: Ironman/MCU

Beware the Sparkles by elisi (JackIanto, JackEdwardBella | complete | 4793 | T)

It's terribly simple. The good guys are always stalwart and true, the bad guys are easily distinguished by their pointy horns or black hats, and we always defeat them and save the day. No one ever dies, and everybody lives happily ever after. Oh and Jack has sex with sparkly vampires.

Crossover With: Twilight 

The Death Note Discovery by KaibaGirl007 (JackIanto | complete | 18,992 | T)

“You’ve clearly just got a notebook belonging to some geek, a rather sick geek I’ll give you that, who likes to keep note of people’s deaths.” - Will the team resist the urge to use the Death Note or will one of them give into temptation? 

Crossover With: Death Note 

A Confluence of Personalities by  galaxysoup (JackIanto | complete | 4839 | T)

Conner Kent’s body might be dead, but his soul has apparently decided to take the scenic route.

Crossover With: DC Comics/Young Justice Comics 

Imposters Among Us by  gwendolyncooper (JackIanto, GwenRhys | complete | 9117 | M)

The Torchwood team (+Rhys) are out for a night of fun when they end up on a spaceship with no power, no info, and no crew. Known only as THE SKELD, the team tries to fix the ship and figure out what happened to its previous occupants.

But something out there is killing them.

Something that may be someone they know.

Crossover With: Among Us 

Traitors (Among Us) by princessoftheworlds (JackIanto | complete | 440 | G)

In a happy future, the team plays Among Us, and Ianto suffers.

Crossover With: Among US 

Tagline: I saw the VIDEO. Got the CALL? What Next??? by  BricklingGhost (TeamGwenee) (JackIanto, JackSamara | complete | 2424 | Not Rated)

'Tagline: I saw the VIDEO. Got the CALL? What Next???

Bollocks. That’s just a myth. Some git showing off and claiming to be the one person alive who Samara doesn’t bump off. He’ll be boasting that he’s been chosen to kill Voldemort next.'

When another unsuspecting victim falls foul of the cursed tape, he is pointed towards Captain Jack Harkness as his only hope for salvation.

Crossover With: The Ring

(My God, He Just) Came and Went by  Brokenpitchpipe (SteveBucky | complete | 1591 | M)

It starts on a cold, snowy September night in 1916, on the day Winifred Barnes walks to Doris Lindow’s house to see her new telephone and catches the eye of a handsome young man on the other side of the street. He tips his hat as she sees him, and she flushes scarlet and nods in return.

And nine months later, a little baby boy screams his way into the world.

But that’s not when it starts. Not really.

Crossover With: Captain America/MCU

Beast Inside by Flamingbluepanda (JackIanto, OwenTosh, GwenRhys | complete | 26934 | M)

"Argue with anything else, but don’t argue with your own nature.” - Phillip Pullman

Inside us all, there is an animal that expresses our soul. How would the world change were those animals outside?

Crossover With: His Dark Materials

Rifts and Robots by Paycheckgurl (JackIanto | complete | 3021 | G)

Jack and Ianto’s date at the movies is interrupted by two robots with no theater etiquette.

Crossover With: Mystery Science Theater 3000

The Jack and Ianto Show by Paycheckgurl (JackIanto | WIP | 7392 | T)

Jack and Ianto are a regular couple, living a quiet life, and trying to fit into the quaint Village of West Castle. Sure they're keeping the secret that Jack is an immortal time traveler from the future, with a fantastical machine called a vortex manipulator that can manipulate time and space around them, but they have much more pressing concerns. Such as strict bosses and nosy neighbors. Everything is perfect, a dream come true.

And Jack is going to keep it that way.

Please Stand By...

Crossover With: WandaVision 

Mutually Assured Uncooperation by  princessoftheworlds (JackIanto, OwenTosh, MarthaMickey, FitzSimmons, LincolnDaisy (past) | complete | 31547 | T)

Aliens, time-travelling, resurrections. These are all experiences familiar to not just one but two top-secret organizations that have a hard time keeping a low-profile. Figures that they would encounter each other eventually.

Or: the five times that SHIELD and Torchwood had an encounter that neither were pleased with, and the one time they had to work together when two of their own were taken.

Or: There's Kree running amok in Cardiff, including a murdered one, and Torchwood is on the case, but so is SHIELD. Also, don't forget the memory-manipulating aliens there too!

Crossover With: Agents of Shield/MCU

all i know is (infatuations) by  princessoftheworlds (JackIanto, JackJohn,  OwenTosh, LisaIanto | complete | 439 | T)

Seventh-year Slytherin Ianto Jones handles a break up, getting a boyfriend, terrible emotional misunderstandings with his best friend Jack Harkness, being miserable, and reconciliation. (Not precisely in that order.)

Crossover With: Harry Potter

[steves-legs]

dating sebastian stan would include ...

a/n: sorry this is so short, im trash. as a fellow leo i feel i nailed this completely ok ur welcome everyone

★ no one even remembers when you two started dating

★ seriously, it’s a mystery to everyone. it came out of nowhere & it honestly just feels like you two have just always been together

★ you’re such a huge marvel fan and it cracks him up every time you geek out

★ you’ll rep the merch, see the movies multiple times in theaters, and even grill him on his tenacity with not spilling any tea about upcoming movies.           ★ that’s one thing he doesn’t ever really budge on, the spoilers                 ★ you think it’s because he likes to see you struggle                 ★ but really it’s bc he loves to see how happy u get in the theater

★ you are literally the most chaotic celebrity couple ever           ★ meaning y’all constantly fuck with paparazzi                 ★ obscene gestures, insane facial expressions, swiping their gear           ★ and the pda is, admittedly, a little excessive                 ★ sebastian is the handsy type                 ★ calling you ‘princess’ or ‘doll’ in front of anyone & everyone                 ★ seb comments “wow mine” and “fuck this is perfect” on all of ur                                   posts           ★ meme wars & instagram stories                 ★ videos of you two just yelling vine references back & forth                 ★ posting funny pictures of each other           ★ commenting inside jokes on each other’s posts

★ sebastian is kind of the softest human being ever when ur sick           ★ he literally knows everything about any type of cold, cough, flu, etc                 ★ he blames his knowledge on his mom           ★ seb invests in organic medicines, like from whole foods n shit                 ★ one day that you’re sick, you see sebastian heading out to whole foods in joggers, sandals, a t-shirt, cardigan, and his gone-too-soon man-bun                 ★ you tease him for literally hours about his suburban mom getup

★ he tries to teach you romanian (since he wants to take you there one day)           ★ but let’s be honest, it’s kind of a shitshow. he refuses to teach you anything but swears.                 ★ “here’s an easy one... say ‘taci dracului din gură...’”                 ★ you smack him on the arm when you finally figure out what that one means

★ you know everything about each other, be it a weakness or a virtue           ★ you know when sebastian is about to have an anxiety attack                 ★ if you’re right next to him, you’ll hold his hand to keep him grounded. it draws the least amount of attention to him and he appreciates that more than he could ever tell you           ★ and he does the same for you: creating a safe environment when you have your own setbacks. he knows what helps you, personally, and acts accordingly.

★ he’s a sucker for the beatles           ★ he doesn’t really like to sing in front of people, but if the beatles come on he’ll go wild in front of anyone           ★ he also claims that bucky barnes most definitely likes the beatles, too                 ★ “i play the character so if i say it’s true, it’s true”

★ you never doubted that he loves you           ★ he doesn’t even say it all that often; there’s no need. he’s always doing things to show it                 ★ getting down to tie your shoe for you                  ★ playing your favorite song in the car when you’re not having a                         great day                  ★ asking you to call or text whenever you arrive somewhere else so                         he knows you’re safe                  ★ always rooting for you to do the best you can                  ★ talking about a definite foreseeable future with you

[shenanigans-and-imagines]

½ First of all, happy anniversary!! I would like to ask for a male Marvel ship. For you, I’d ship you with Bucky Barnes because I feel like the two of you could spend a lot of quality time together and you could show him some of the things he missed when he was in HYDRA and I feel like he would love your dry sense of humor. I also feel like he would have a lot of respect for you and your space (because he would need some too) but would always love to spend time with you.

2/2 For me, I am a more introverted person and can be shy at first glance, but I come out of my shell once I get more comfortable with a person. I am the definition of geek who knows way too much about Star Wars and other fandoms. I am a very loyal person and I think a lot more than I say, but I try to be an overall bubbly and positive person. I love to do anything artsy and musical wise and I LOVE color! Thank you so much and have a great day!!

I ship you with Miles Morales

Not part of the MCU, but still Marvel, so he counts!

Miles has a special talent for getting people out of their shells.  You guys will be comfortable with each other in no time and go on for hours talking and laughing.

You first bond over art, but soon branch off into other areas.  You’re more of an overt nerd than he is, but he takes it in stride. 

You exchange music constantly as he wants to get you invested in artist he likes while you’re determined to make him a theater nerd.

You have some different interested, but you’re both fundamentally positive, loyal people who just end up having a lot of fun together.

I might be more sociable if Bucky is the one I’m hanging out with.

(22/30)

Ships Still Open

[dottieapple]

Avengers Endgame Positives

(SPOILERS, obviously.These are the sole opinions of me, Dottie, fanfic author and geek-over-35.) 1. Honestly, I really liked it, thought the pacing was great, and I was pleased that it was exciting for every single person in my sold-out Friday-afternoon-matinee theater. My two movie pals loved it.  2. EPIC. I thought they couldn’t outdo the Wakanda battle from IW, and I was amazed.

3. MJOLNIR CAP.

4. The Clintasha fight brought me to tears because (a) I honestly couldn’t predict who would win and (b) that seemed very on-brand for what should happen there. (This may have been intensified because I like Clintasha as a ship, but whatever.)

5. The WS elevator-scene redux -- some people were looking at it as bad that Cap hailed HYDRA, but my theater seemed to know what was up based on all the noises everyone was making when Steve acknowledges Rumlow.

6. I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE KORG AND MIEK, YOU G U Y S. 

7. NOT SORRY -- I like that haircut on Clint Barton.

8. Bucky Barnes looks good. (DESERVES WAY BETTER, but looks good.)

9. They gave Carol the power-queer haircut from the comics, and I lived for it.

10. Speaking of comics Carol, she gives Rhodey a look for about a half-second that made me think about the comics again. :)

11. Steve gets to be closer to the Steve I know from the rest of the movies/transformative fandom, in that Steve Rogers is a huge little shit. 

12; America’s Ass.

13. HE SAID “SHITTY”.

14. Regular-size Man.

15. Rhodey being Rhodey! Rhodey content at all! 16. Absolute Angel Sam Wilson, aka the Falcon, aka the future Cap YESSS I LIIIIIVE 17. That Captain Marvel battle entrance.

18. That Wanda rage.  19. That team-up of ladies.

20. Am I the only one who saw Okoye one-shot Proxima Midnight?! 

21. Okay, last thing off the top of my head: Tony Stark is truly an engineer. You give him a problem you’d like solved, and if it’s something he’s even remotely interested in, he can’t stop thinking about it until it’s solved. (I’m making a face at the engineer to whom I am married while typing this and they’ve got no idea why haha)

[ao3feed-buckybarnes]

What They Go Home Too

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2ZXObRT

by Crystal_Waters

Tony Stark, the resident rich-kid and quote unquote player. That’s all people like to think they know about him.

Steven Rogers, the high school baseball pitcher and the son of a Baptist preacher with the moral compass to prove it He’s the one everyone wants to know more about.

Clint Barton and Natasha Romanoff, the foster siblings glued to the hip as if they were siblings by blood. He’s the asshole archer and theater kid that never fails to make you laugh. She’s the beautiful flutist that walks with deadly grace. He’s the one who everyone knows almost everything about, while she’s the one everyone knows nothing about.

Bruce Banner, antisocial science geek with severe anger issues. No one wants to know anything else about him.

Thor Odinson, a Norwegian immigrant who loves traveling and American football. He may not get American slang, but he does try his best. He’s the one everyone thinks they know everything about.

Six people, each with horrendously different lifestyles.

Six people, who go home to something different, something unexpected.

And lastly, six people, who all take part in peer counseling.

Words: 1395, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: Multi

Characters: Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes, Sam Wilson, Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov, Bruce Banner, Thor Odinson, Loki, Phil Coulson, May Parker, Nick Fury, Maria Hill, Maria Stark, Howard Stark, Sarah Rogers, Odin, Original Characters, Margaret Carter, Pepper Potts, Sharon Carter

Relationships: TO BE DETERMINED - Relationship

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - High School, Howard Stark's Bad Parenting, Odin (Marvel)'s Bad Parenting, EVERYONES BAD PARENTING, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, explicit scenes of child abuse, Self-Harm, References to Depression, Panic Attacks, Avengers Family, eventually, Not at the beginning though, steve is a pitcher because I am tired of the football trope, Tony Stark Needs a Hug, Everyone Needs Hugs, Tags to be added

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[kahuna-burger]

Continuing stargate/mcu fusion

Second (longer) part of my Stargate fusion.

Things ceased to be fine just after they were shown into Stark's office, before Bruce had even finished his introduction. One moment Bucky was trying to blend into the expensive wood paneling, the next his sidearm was aimed directly at their host’s head.

“Buck?” Steve drew his own weapon and tried to get between Bruce and Stark while also keeping the door in his peripheral.

“He's a Goa'uld.”

Stark didn't seem phased by either the accusation or the weapon pointed at him. “As the internet kiddies are saying these days,” he made finger guns at Bucky, “No, you.” He cocked his head in puzzlement and one hand turned to point at Bruce. “And maybe you? What's up there?”

Before the scientist could do more than blush at the reminder of his unique situation, Steve stepped in. “That’s not the issue here. Who are you, and how did you avoid the screenings after they got you back from the Trust?”

“I'm Tony Stark - you came to me, remember? And I accepted the MRI that was offered.” Before he could respond to the dodge, Stark continued, “If you’re asking why they didn't detect my roommate, we worked out how to avoid scans and hide her naquada signature years ago.”

That also explained why Rumlow hadn't felt anything when the former host accompanied the extraction team, but the implication that a major industry leader had been a Goa’uld for years wasn't making him feel any better. “There's no ‘we’ for your kind, and even if you’re claiming to be a Tok’ra, I wanna talk to the snake, so again,” Steve raised his gun in a more obvious threat, “Who are you?”

“I'm afraid Thal's more of a silent partner, so the only me here to talk to is me, Tony Stark. Try a new question.”

He was distracted from his frustration by Bucky's hand on his arm. He had a look of intense concentration which usually meant he was trying to get information from his snake. The Goa'uld assassin which called itself Winter Soldier had been suppressed but not removed by their Wakandan allies, and had a wide range of helpfulness depending on its mood. Finally, Bucky nodded curtly at Stark. “Show us your mark.”

The man obviously knew what he meant, because he stood immediately and began removing his shirt. “Without dinner first? How forward; we haven't even been formally introduced.”

“These are Sergeant James Barnes and Captain Steve Rogers,” Bruce put in helpfully. “Though I imagine you recognize them.”

Stark nodded absently. “Sleeping Beauty and the Lost Knight, stars of all my childhood fairy tales.” He gave Steve a narrow look. “I assume all the good qualities my dad couldn't stop talking about will become more apparent when I'm not under suspicion of being a false god.” He slipped the shirt off his shoulders, and Bruce took a half step forward to gaze at the iridescent mark on his chest that seemed to be a smiling theater mask.

“Thal… Thalia, the muse of comedy?” The scientist blinked a moment and Bucky lowered his weapon in seeming satisfaction. “I would have guessed Urania.”

“She's most known for comedy, but has strong interests in the sciences, too. Turns out she also loves programming.”

Steve admired Bruce's encyclopedic knowledge of seemingly every topic they might run into, but briefly wished Clint were here so he wouldn't be the only lost one. “Okay, so instead of being a metaphor, muses are snakes that partner like the Tok'ra? I really think we need to talk to it directly.”

Bucky shook his head. “The Muses aren't like the Goa'uld, or the Tok'ra, for that matter. They never take over their hosts, not even to speak. They communicate with the host mostly through feelings and images, and give inspiration for creation, which they then enjoy experiencing…” He broke off with a thunderous scowl and the odd eye movements which usually meant an internal argument with his own parasite then snapped angrily, “You absolutely are not!”

Steve wondered if the snake was really being annoying enough to throw Bucky out of his professionalism, but decided that is was probably more of a signal that he believed Stark to be harmless, and went with it. “What's it doing now, Buck?”

His best friend turned to him with a long-suffering look that wouldn't have been out of place on their middle school teacher's face. “Winter wants to be known as the Muse of Combat.”

Stark fumbled the last of his shirt buttons in his helpless laughter, and Bruce even smiled. “Well, with the way you describe his behaviour in the field,” the quiet scientist began.

“It’s not a Muse, it's a damn backseat driver!”

Finished redressing, Stark approached Bucky, raising his hand slightly. “May I?”

Though he had relaxed out of combat mode, Steve still watched with concern as his friend made Parasite Face again then nodded. Stark touched Bucky's face gently, moving well into his personal space, and in spite of his usual aversion to touch, he returned the gesture and tilted his head down slightly so they were almost sharing breaths. Stark's eyes were shimmering in the first true sign of possession he had shown, and Bucky's were closed tightly.

After a few minutes while Bruce stared in fascination and Steve started to feel distinctly uncomfortable, both men stepped apart simultaneously, taking deep breaths as if they had forgotten the need for oxygen until separating. “Thank you, Sergeant.”

“Um, sure.” Seeing Steve's concerned look, Bucky gave a reassuring smile. “The snakes were talking, uh, directly. Like how they can recognize each other, even in new hosts? I guess when they are close enough it can get pretty detailed.”

“That's amazing,” Bruce breathed. “That pheromone based communication could be considered an actual conversation? You'll need to write up a full brief on it later.”

"Actually, it's not- well, actually we should probably get back on the original track rather than a further digression.” Stark settled back behind his desk and took a deep breath. “I cannot be a part of Stargate Command, or consult on any projects to combat the Goa'uld.”

Steve straightened and felt his anger rising. He should have known it was too good to be true. “So your snake plays by different rules but is still loyal to the System Lords? You realize that they are at war with us? That’s treason.”

“Cool your tits of patriotism, Rogers.” The man was infuriatingly calm. “Muses are neutral in the wars between the System Lords, with the Tok'ra or Asgard, rebellions against Goa'uld, and even the intra-planetary wars of humans. Thalia is a contemporary of Apophis and Anubis and spawned with that principle in place from a Muse even older; you are not going to be the one to sway her.”

Bruce had been doing his usual conflict avoidance, but spoke up suddenly. “You became her host when you were a hostage in Afghanistan. That's why you divested your weapons division into its own company back then.”

“I agreed to do it when we bonded.” He shrugged slightly. “The weapons contracts were holdovers from Howard's time, and a feeling of responsibility to the troops, but I had been focusing my efforts more in other areas even before Thalia came along. The new company is doing fine, though we had to do some fancy footwork on contracts for me to take all the patents I held personally with me.”

Steve was about to respond when Bucky touched his arm gently. “Don't go there, Captain.” His face was pinched like it had been continually before he and ‘Winter’ came to a rough truce. “From the history I'm getting, the Tok'ra and possibly some of our other allies would take serious offense if we tried to strongarm a Muse. And he didn't say he couldn't consult with the Program at all.”

“Oh!” A huge smile spread across Bruce's face. “I'd love to have you take a look at the dialing computer! I think some of your work on learning programs could really translate well to the decision trees we're working with.”

“Now that does sound interesting. Why don't we talk NDAs and security concerns, and we can work out a rough consulting schedule. Oh yeah, and I almost forgot.” He turned back to the two soldiers who were starting to ease back out of conversation range. “Don't think you're keeping that gorgeous piece of tech hidden under your jacket, Sergeant! I took my shirt off, fair's fair.”

Bucky let out a deep sigh and started unbuttoning his jacket while Steve tried to keep a straight face if not a supportive one. “God damn geek catnip…”

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WinterIron? 10 please. High school popular/nerd au. Thanks in advance if you proceed. If not, then you’re still awesome and thank you for existing on my dash!

Aww, aren’t you sweet!! Also I reversed the usual tropes here so Bucky is the nerd and Tony is the popular one so I hope you don’t mind! Also this is with Winter Soldier lookin Bucky but you know. Younger.

***

“I don’t get what you see in him,” Christine says, head titled to the side. Tony looks over at Bucky sitting with the rest of the drama crew and various other art geeks and shrugs.

“Dude has a nice ass,” he says in his own defense. Plus there’s something about Bucky’s quiet nature that Tony finds appealing. He hadn’t always been that way but after the car accident that took his arm he’s been a lot more reserved unless he’s on stage. Tony could watch him do Shakespeare plays all day even though he’s convinced Shakespeare faked his talent by writing shit that made no sense but sounded cool enough that people stopped caring and then decided was genius. But Bucky makes it look good.

“Still think you can do better,” Christine tells him, giving Pepper Potts a pointed look.

Tony wrinkles his nose, “Pepper? Really? I mean yeah we get along well and she’s awesome and all that but dating material? No.” Besides that he’s about ninety percent sure Pepper has a thing for Natasha, who may or may not have a thing for Clint Barton for some reason. Tony has no idea how someone as hot as Nat could like Clint Barton of all people. Guy has a coconut head.

“Better than Barnes. Seriously, he hangs out with Steve Rogers,” Christine says, wrinkling her nose.

“Okay we’re in agreement there, but I hang out with you so we can’t all be judged by our friend choices,” he says, earning an offended noise and a smack on the arm from Christine. He lets it go in favor of waiting for the optimal moment to shove her through the open boys bathroom door right outside the caf and today is taco day. She lets out a loud shriek as she goes in and he runs as the various students behind him start laughing.

*

Bucky is trying to memorize lines when he notices Tony looking over at him. He decides to resolutely ignore the fact that he turns away and starts talking to his friends, obviously about Bucky, because its not really worth his time. The popular kids hated the theater kids- that’s what TV has told him anyways. And real life kind of lives up. He hadn’t really been like that when he had been popular but after the accident and his arm and all that, well. 

People weren’t really prepared to deal with the personality change, which he resents given that it had been him going through the change and everyone else acted like his newfound depression had been an inconvenience to them. It meant he lost a lot of friends and he’s not really bitter about it anymore. Their loss.

So when Tony saunters over Bucky sighs, prepared to deal with whatever stupid comment he’s about to make and since its Tony its bound to be snarky and rude. That’s just his style. “You doing anything tonight?” Tony asks. Bucky looks behind him, confused. “Dude, you’re sitting against a wall and I’m obviously not asking the wall out,” he says.

Asking the- “What?” Bucky asks intelligently.

Tony grins, “I’m asking you out- you free tonight or not?”

He doesn’t even look nervous and honestly Bucky doesn’t know if that makes him want to smack Tony, kiss him, or be him. “I um. Work till eight,” he says.

“Great, how do you feel about a movie after?” he asks.

“If you don’t mind me smelling like the frozen food section of a grocery store okay,” he says, regretting his words immediately. Who even says stuff like that? What happened to that suave nature he used to have back before his stupid arm got violently ripped off in a car accident? How is it that his arm went and his entire sense of self went with it? Stupid damn arm.

Tony laughs, “I’m sure it’ll be fine,” he says. “I’ll pick you up from work.” He walks away and Bucky frowns, wondering how Tony knows where he works.

“Um, you know I have no left arm right?” he calls after Tony like a fucking idiot.

“Pretty sure I observed that, yeah. And Rhodey’s in a wheelchair, if I cared about disabilities I probably wouldn’t be friends with him either. I’ll see you at eight,” he says, turning and walking away with enough confidence that Bucky kind of wants to take a hit off of it. But then if his ass was that nice he’d have a lot of confidence too. 

When Steve sticks his head out of the art room door Bucky grins happily. “What’s that for?” Steve asks, looking after Tony suspiciously.

“I have a date!” he says excitedly.

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I don’t know anything about movies so do it. :-D answer as many as you can from 1-60

Oh my gooooodddddd. Soph this will be my death. Okay, okay, I got this.

1. A movie you’ve seen most times in the cinema.

I’ve never seen a movie more than once in theater, but I kind of wish that I would’ve gone to see Gifted more than once bc crying in the theater is an e x p e r i e n c e.

2. Your most rewatched movie.

Captain America: The Winter Soldier

3. A movie you quote on a daily basis.

I just quoted Mean Girls earlier today.

4. Favorite movie soundtrack.

The Greatest Showman.

5. Top 5 films of your favorite actor and actress.

I’ll choose Sebastian Stan for this (even tho Richard Armitage is my favorite):

-the Bronze

-I, Tonya

-the Martian

-the Captain America trilogy

-Gone

Meg Ryan:

-Fan Girl

-Anastasia

-Sleepless in Seattle

-You’ve Got Mail

-City of Angels

6. Top 5 performances of your favorite actor and actress.

Seb’s are the same except replace Gone with Political Animals, his performance as TJ is iconic and I’m so sad they ended that show. Meg’s are the same too.

7. A movie storyline you wished you had actually lived.

I’ve always dreamt of being apart of the Fast & Furious movies soooo

8. A movie that reminds you of your mom.

Any of the Star Wars.

9. A movie thar reminds you of your dad.

Grease.

10. Favorite movies from your childhood.

My parents didn’t care what I really watched as a kid so a lot of my favorites consist of actual kids movies and horror movies. Disney movies like Robin Hood (I loved both Disney’s version and Prince of Thieves), Mulan, Cinderella, Aladdin, Lion King 2. And then other movies like Underworld, Van Helsing, Halloween, and Resident Evil. I had a strange obsession with the third Resident Evil.

11. Favorite quote(s).

I can’t remember the exact line, but “that kid from Brooklyn who didn’t know how to walk away from a fight, I’m following him,” which Bucky says to Steve in the first Cap film. And obv any Mean Girls quote.

12. Top 5 female performances.

-Hayley Atwell as Peggy Carter-Emilia Clarke in Me Before You-Helen Mirren in Winchester-Michelle Pfeiffer in Grease 2-Michelle Pfeiffer in Stardust

13. Top 5 male performances.

-Martin Freeman as Everett Ross-Benedict Cumberbatch as Stephen Strange-Sebastian Stan in the Bronze-Leonardo DiCaprio in the Departed-Jack Nicholson in the Departed

14. Favorite year for movies.

I don’t think I have a specific year? Although 2018 has been a fantastic year for movies so far. I do have a preference for movies from 90s and early 2000s.

18. An underrated actor.

A year ago I would’ve said Sebastian Stan, but he’s recently been doing a lot of big things and has like four movies he’s doing that he plays a main character in. Now I’ll shoot for Blair Redford.

19. An underrated actress.

Emilia Clarke. People need to appreciate her more.

20. An underrated director.

Taika Waititi.

21. An overrated actor.

I’ve never cared for George Clooney tbh.

22. An overrated actress.

I love her, but Scarlett Johansson.

23. An overrated director.

Woody Allen. Not even sorry.

24. A film you wish you had seen on the big screen.

Every MCU movie besides Guardians of the Galaxy and Black Panther. I watched Black Panther with my sister and saw Guardians at a drive-in. I had to wait to see all the others :(

25. A movie you’ve seen that you think no one else here will have heard of?

Like Sunday, Like Rain. Please watch it. It’s absolutely amazing.

26. Favorite movie characters.

Oh my gosh. Okay. Doctor Strange. Bucky Barnes. Thorin Oakenshield. Lance Tucker. Everett Ross. Jason Bourne. Owen and Deckard Shaw. There’s more, but that’s who I can think of rn.

27. A film that was better than the book.

I personally prefer the Hobbit movies over the book, but the book is great too.

28. Best Remake.

The Goodbye Girl!

29. Your first favorite actor.

I wanna say it’s Josh Hartnett? Maybe Paul Rudd?? I loved the Halloween movies as a kid and Josh was in H2O while Paul was in the Curse of Michael Myers and I loved them both. As a kid I didn’t really care much about the actors, but I’ve realized a lot of people I liked in movies as a kid are now some of my favorites.

30. Your first favorite actress.

Like I said, loved the Halloween movies. Jamie Lee Curtis. Also Milla Jovavich.

31. Favorite animated film.

I will always, with my entire heart, love Lion King 2. I still have the VHS tape.

32. Your most anticipated films.

Ocean’s 8. Robin Hood. Solo. Ant-Man and the Wasp. Incredibles 2. I wasn’t that into Venom, but after seeing the trailer, I’m pumped.

33. Last movie that disappointed you.

The Apparition was made a while back, but i didn’t watch it til recent and I really didn’t like it whatsoever.

34. Last movie that surpassed your expectations.

Like the Apparition, Dance of the Dead was made a while ago, but I watched it about two months back and oh. My. God. It was glorious. Watch it. It’ll be worth it.

37. Share an unpopular film opinion you have.

I love romance and I don’t mind seeing it in movies that don’t necessarily need it. I mean, of course I draw the line somewhere, but for example, Kili and Tauriel’s romance in the films? I know it wasn’t in the book, and a lot of people didn’t like it, but I loved it.

38. Favorite Oscar win/speech.

This is a tie between two speeches that happened right after one another at the 2017 Oscars. Gael García Bernal’s speech before presenting an award, and the Zootopia directors’ speech when they came up to accept that award. It’s truly a wonderful thing and I remember watching it and being so grateful for people like them.

39. Biggest Oscar snub(s).

Literally. Every. Time. Leonardo. DiCaprio. Lost.

40. Who do you think is overdue for another Oscar nomination/win?

Tom Hanks.

41. How many movies have you seen (rough estimation)?

Close to 1,000, I’d think.

42. A movie that made you go ‘wtf was that’.

The Apparition and The Shape of Water. At least The Shape of Water was actually good 👀👀

43. A film that scarred you.

Oh my god, I don’t know the name, but it was something that was on tv at like 2 am when I slept in the living room one time as a kid and it terrified me. It was something about werewolves and made me question my love of werewolves for days.

44. Most movies watched in a single day.

I once watched 7 of the Fast & Furious movies in one day.

45. A film that always makes you cry.

Gifted. I cried three times when I saw it in theaters and I cry every time I rewatch it.

46. A film that always makes you laugh.

Ferris Bueller’s Day Off.

47. Movies that you think everyone should watch (not necessarily your favorites).

The Jason Bourne series. 10 Things I Hate About You. Blended. Back to School.

48. A movie that took you a couple viewings to appreciate.

Princess & the Frog. Now it’s one of my favorite Disney movies.

49. A book that you want to see adapted to the big screen.

Either I’ll Give You The Sun by Jandy Nelson or Stalking Jack The Ripper by Kerri Maniscalco.

50. A book you really, really, really don’t want to see made into a film.

I love the third Percy Jackson book so so much, and I’d kill to see that scene where they’re all on Apollo’s sun chariot on the big screen, but if it turned out like the other two Percy Jackson movies I don’t think I’d ever forgive myself.

54. Favorite coming-of-age film.

Like Sunday, Like Rain.

55. Favorite superhero film.

The first Captain America just bc it’s nostalgic for both me and those characters, and Doctor Strange. I love the Winter Soldier too so I might as well include it.

57. Movies you know you should watch, but can’t bring yourself to do it?

Thor: Ragnarok. That’s the only one I’m absolutely sure that I need to watch.

58. Favorite genres.

I’m a big rom-com and action geek tbh.

59. Least favorite genres.

Not a huge fan of paranormal type horrors, but once in a while I’ll find one I like (like Winchester).

60. Biggest movie pet peeve.

I’m not too picky, I guess? I just don’t like when they don’t give enough details so the story doesn’t make sense or they mess up and the facts don’t match up.

Yep. It’s official. Sophia, I’m dead.

[faithers10911]

Love Triangle (Part 4/??)

Summary: After making it through the movie you decide to take Bucky to a cafe near by and try to catch up. 

Characters: Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter, Bucky Barnes

Warnings: Angst, self blame, talk of broken relationship

Word Count: 1,737

A/N: Excited to see where this leads, I’m still working out some ideas that I have, sorry that I haven’t posted in a while, hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving!

Part 1// Part 2// Part 3

There’s a small cafe not far from the movie theater that you walk to.  On your way there you send a text to Steve: I don’t know what you think you’re doing Steve, but I am not happy with you.

Steve: I’m sorry sis, it was Peggy’s idea.

As you hold your phone, reading Steve’s reply, you notice your hands shaking.  You quickly put your phone in your pocket and rub your hands on your shirt.  

“Y/N? Are you alright?” His voice seems distant, when you finally register that he is talking to you, you look up and see him holding the door open for you.  

“Sorry.” You shake your head and walk inside the cafe and find a booth in the corner by the window.  

Sitting across from him it’s hard not to look at him without being obvious that you are avoiding his eyes.  You order a cup of coffee when the waiter comes by, then you try to decide what you want to say to him.  

But he is the first to speak.  “So how have you been?”

You wrap your hands around your coffee and take a deep breath.  “I’ve been okay, my job is boring as hell, but otherwise not much going on in my life, and you?”

“Things are good, the job is good.” He nods, “I’m starting to miss Emma more and more.”

“I’m sorry that you only get to see her every other weekend.” You say.  “You deserve to see her more than that.”

“It’s okay, you don’t have to do that.” Bucky sighs.  “I don’t want you to be doing this because you feel bad for me.”

“That’s not why I’m doing this.” You shake your head.  “I’m doing this because I feel bad for myself.  I feel bad for what I did to you, everything that happened in our relationship, all of this, all the pain, it was all my fault James, and I, I just figured that out and now I can barely live with myself.”

“Is this because of Emma?” He asks.  

“I don’t know, maybe.” You shrug, taking a sip of your coffee.  

“You know this is the most we’ve spoken to each other in like three years.” Bucky sort of laughs, seeming to try to ease the tension between you two.  

You let out a breathy laugh.  

“So what exactly did you want to talk about?”

Your stomach flips when he asks.  You tap your fingers on the table, your eyes dart between the bottom of your coffee cup and him.  “There’s just been a lot on my mind lately.  Ever since you picked up Emma on Friday, things have just been flooding my brain, I just can’t stop thinking that maybe I made a mistake.”

“Y/N listen, I don’t want you to think that this is your fault, everything that happened in the past, that was all my fault.  I was a terrible husband, you deserved way better than me and I acted like a complete fool.  I never made time for you, I didn’t notice you and I barely noticed my own daughter, I never want to be that man again and I promise you I will never act that way to Emma.  She is my entire world, please don’t think I would ever do that again.”

“James, you can’t think I would ever take her from you, you’re a good father, she adores you.” You promise him.

“Y/N, you can call me Bucky you know.” He gives you a slight smile.

“I’m sorry.”

Steve’s POV

“Y/N’s not entirely thrilled about your little scheme Pegs.” I say to my wife as I read the text from my sister.  

“Well they obviously made it through the movie if it took her this long to text you, I just think they needed to be put in this situation, they need to get over this.” Peggy says.  

“What are you guys talking about?” Emma asks from the kitchen doorway.  

“Nothing sweetie, where’s Tommy?” I ask her.  

“We’re playing hide and seek, but I didn’t feel like going to find him.  I thought Uncle Steve was supposed to be at the movies with mommy.”

“Well sweetie, something came up and mommy needed to take some time to herself, she should be here to get you soon, why don’t you go find Tommy, he’s probably getting impatient.” I say to her.  

She shrugs and heads back into the living room.  

“What do you think they’re doing?” Peggy asks me.

I shrug, “Don’t know, she never texted me back, so…you don’t think they’re…like doing something they’ll both regret do you?”

Peggy crosses her arms.  “They aren’t that stupid Steve, your sister is smarter than that and she wouldn’t do something that she would regret.”

I nod.  “You’re right, I just hope that our meddling wasn’t too much.”

“Like I said Stevie, it needed to be done.” She wraps her arms around me and plants a sweet kiss on my lips.  I smile at her and hold her close, my smile fades slightly when I see Emma watching us from around the corner of the couch, her eyes filled with sadness.  

“I need to go talk to Emma.” I say.

Peggy nods and kisses my cheek before I walk away.  

“Emma, can I borrow you for a second?” I ask her.  

She follows me into the foyer and sits on the chair across from me.  “What is it Uncle Steve?”

“I just want to make sure everything is okay with you, you look a little down sweetheart, do you miss your mom?”

“I want my mom and dad to be like you and Aunt Peggy.” Emma says as her legs swing forward and back, bouncing off the chair.  

“Oh, I see.” I nod, trying to think of something to say to her.  “I know it’s hard not having them be together with you, divorce is hard, loving someone and staying with them through bad times is really hard sometimes Ems.  There is not a doubt in my mind that they both love you more than anything and they would do anything to make you happy, but they have to be happy too, they wouldn’t want to do something that wasn’t best for everyone, do you understand what I’m saying?”

“Was it my fault?” She asks me.  

“Oh sweetheart of course not.” I run a hand over her hair and sigh.  I take her into my lap, taking her place on the chair.  “You are the light in their lives, if they knew you were thinking these things they would be crushed, I promise you Emma, you are not to blame, things just didn’t work out.  I’m really sorry that your mom and dad split, it was hard on me too.”

“Really?”

“Of course, I loved your mom and dad together, they were amazing, I wish you could have seen them.” I say to her.  

She smiles at me.  “Do you have any pictures of them?”

“Probably, hold on, I’ll be right back.” I set her down on the chair and go to rummage through some photo albums.  I grab one from when we were in high school and bring it back to Emma.  I show her pictures from when Bucky and Y/N got together, events in school, back when we all used to hang out together after school at the lake and back when they first fell in love.  

“Can I have this one?” She asks of one of the pictures of the two of them.  They are sitting on a picnic table, Bucky’s arms around Y/N, both smiling as they look at each other happily.  

“Sure Ems.” I slip the picture out of the album and hand it to her.  

She smiles at me.  “Thanks Uncle Steve.”

“I don’t want you to get your hopes up kid, but sometimes moms and dads fall back in love, maybe that could happen for them too, I just know how in love they used to be and it just makes me hopeful, but promise me you won’t think about it too much.”

She nods.  She’s really smart for such a young child, but I think maybe I might have gone too far.  

Regular POV

“Can i ask you a question?” You say to Bucky as you walk back to your car. Things went better than you thought, you talked about things but, also you still didn’t know how you felt. It was truly amazing to talk to him again, to be close to him. You hated that even though you had spoken things still were weird.

“Anything.” Bucky acknowledged.

You suddenly forgot what you were going to ask. He was being so sweet to you and it felt wrong. After everything you did he should hate you. He should be repulsed by your presence but here he was speaking to you as if nothing ever happened. As if he didn’t catch you with another man. So you decide to ask him why. “Why don’t you hate me?”

Bucky stops in his tracks and looks up at you with confusion across his face. “How could I hate you when everything was my fault, if I should hate anyone it should be me.”

You shook your head. “No Bucky it wasn’t your fault, I cheated on you that was my fault.” you reach your car and wait for him to reply.

“It’s more complicated than that and you know it Y/n.” Bucky insisted. “You wouldn’t have cheated on me if I was being a good husband. If I was the husband you deserved well then we wouldn’t be having this conversation.”

You have to fight back tears because maybe he was right, but it still didn’t change what you did and how terrible you felt just a couple years after the divorce. “I had fun tonight, it was nice to finally talk to you again.”

“I agree.” Bucky nods. “Maybe we can do it again sometime.”

“I’d like that.” you agree. “I’ll see you later Bucky.”

He unexpectedly pulls you into his arms and hugs you. “Bye Y/n.”

You get in your car after letting go and completely lose it. The tears flow like waterfalls as you stare ahead and grip the steering wheel tighter and tighter, knuckles turning white. Your emotions were running wild, you wished you knew what to do.

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Hi ya’ll!

And welcome to the 6th edition of our Geek Talk Series!

Infinity War is in our door’s steps. Marvel’s most daring crossover is coming to the theaters this week and right now the excitement is reaching insane levels.

As a Marvel fan, I cannot begin to describe what it means to have all the superheroes (and some of the best villains) on the same screen.

I’ve been anticipating this movie for such a long time and my hopes for it are so high that I’m bound to be disappointing.

Except that Marvel only disappointed me once before with Thor: The Dark World and they more than made up for it with Ragnarok.

I’ll gush to y’all about Infinity War after seeing the movie. Right now I want to unite the fandom with some love for two majors protagonists in the movie, two characters who are currently at odds with each other and unfortunately pitch against each other more often than not by the popular masses.

Steve Rogers aka Captain America and Tony Stark aka Iron Man.

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Let’s be honest, whether you were betting on Steve or Tony, Civil War left most of us with a bitter taste in the mouth. It was a brilliant movie with a strong deep political and social message  but for the hardcore marvel fans, the comics readers and the Tumblr addict? It was also heartbreaking.

There was no victor at the end of it, only anger.

Tony and Steve’s image and hero’s status were wrecked at the end of it and as a fan of both of them, it was very hard not to completely ditch one in favor of the other.

Civil War divided the Avengers and successfully pushed the fans to choose a team: Cap or Tony.

3 years and 5 movies later, there is still tons of resentment on both of those teams and this post is here to remedy to that!

So without further ado, Find out the 5 reasons to love Tony Stark + 5 reasons to love Steve Rogers:

     1. They are both badasses

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It doesn’t matter how much they screwed up in Civil War. Let’s not forget that when the world called, they answered.

They are heroes but contrary to popular belief being a hero is burden whether you carry it gracefully or not.

They are human. Both Iron Man and Cap are willing to die for everybody else.

In face of danger they both stood strong and they didn’t let despair swallow them. They are both Avengers until the very end.

2. They were both wrong

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What happened with Bucky in Civil War was a great tragedy.

I can’t quite bring myself to blame Tony for his reaction, Barnes did kill his parents. It does matter that he was brainwashed when he did it and therefore cannot be held accountable for his actions since he was under Hydra’s will.

But he still did it.

Tony never got over the death of his parents, especially his mother who he loved dearly. Tony saw Barnes strangling his mom on screen. Tony suffered for PTSD. What kind of reaction did everyone expected?

Of course he was going to try and kill Barnes, of course he didn’t care.

It doesn’t excuse the fact that it was wrong of him. Tony completely allow his hatred to overpower his brilliant rationality. But I feel like a lot of this had to do with Steve’s betrayal.

I love Cap, I really do but he was unfair and dare I say cruel.  Hiding the truth from Tony about his parents’s murder?  It was a betrayal and no amount of hero-ship for Steve will blind me to that. I admire Steve’s love for Bucky and I find his wiliness to do anything, absolutely anything for him very beautiful, heartbreaking and raw.

I get it. This is the kind of devotion I wanted to Thor to have towards Loki.

I understand why so many fans supported Cap for it.

But it was selfish. Let’s not forget that Steve’s dishonesty opened the door for Zemo’s plan to work.

Love is not an excuse to hurt other people and that’s exactly what Steve did to Tony.

In Civil War, the only innocent in their conflict was Bucky.

3. They both suffered

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They both paid the highest price for their bullshit.

Despite being a legend and role-model, Cap is a soldier. The ultimate soldier, America’s perfect war symbol. But Tony is the true heart of the Avengers, he built them up and gave his all to the team. And I’m not talking about his money.

Cap was stripped of his hero’s status and rightfully so. It would be too long to explain how stupid and crazy it was of him to completely reject the Sokovia Accords, without even trying to have them amended. However it’s important to note that Captain America chose to go above the law. He did it for his best-friend, but he was still wrong.

And I’m sorry but when the entire world tells you to move, they might have a reason to do so.

So no. You don’t get to plant yourself like a tree. Jeez.

Tony lost his family. The avengers were everything to him. Even his relationship with Pepper have face many hardships because of the lengths he was willing to go to protect the world.

He was betrayed by the last person he expected it from and also the worst person considering his personal issues with the history between Steve and Howard Stark.

He was beaten up by someone he considered a friend and by his parents’s murderer. Two against one.

His best friend lost the use of his legs.

That’s enough for anyone to lose faith in the whole Avengers Business, even Iron Man.

4. They are both loved

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Deeply.

By many people.

Despite their faults.

And that’s because they are both worthy of love.

The most significant relationship for Steve is of course the one he share with Bucky. Sam Wilson’s almost fanatical loyalty towards Cap does not impress me and Black Widow is only loyal to herself.

I feel like the rest of Team Cap’s members only follow him out of worship and misplaced loyalty, especially Ant-Man, who left his daughter to fight for something he knew nothing about.

Bucky is the only true connection to Steve, the only character that allow us to witness Cap’s human and vulnerable side. Him and Peggy Carter were his heart and soul, so it is no surprise that Steve wanted to preserve and protect Bucky at all cost.

It’s a little different for Tony. He is not as closed off as Steve but he definitely have a huge amount of self-hatred that you can’t find in Cap. Tony has trouble letting people in which is why he doesn’t quite know how to let go when they leave.

Tony’s fragility and strength are probably the reasons why many people love him so much. Pepper, Rhodes, Happy and recently Peter Parker who was a delight in Spider-Man Homecoming and offered us a glimpse into the kind of father Tony would make.

5. They are both most likely to die in Infinity War

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So let go of all of your issues and grab a tissue!

This is the end of an era, people. Chris Evans and Robert Downy Junior played those roles for so long that I cannot imagine another Captain America or another Iron Man. They gave a breathtaking life to those icons and it’s going to be devastating to watch them die on screen.

Marvel has done a lot to positively shape the younger generation as well as entertain the older one. Black Panther is proof of that. Many grew up reading the comics and watching the movies so trust me when I say that Infinity War is an event to celebrate whether you are a fan or not!

I’m sure that the two Infinity War movies will pay a wonderful tribute to the legend of Captain America and Iron Man.

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Thank you for reading

See y’all in the next talk!

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The Falcon and The Winter Solider Star Describes “Awful” Filming Conditions

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Anthony Mackie has described the latest leg of production on Disney+ and Marvel‘s The Falcon and the Winter Soldier as “awful.”

The highly-anticipated Marvel Cinematic Universe spinoff is set to reunite Mackie’s confident hero Falcon and Sebastian Stan’s often-brutal and psychologically damaged Winter Solider, as the pair are forced into a begrudging team-up against foes new and old.

The project had almost finished filming at the start of the year before the depressing events of 2020 delayed its shoot. Now, the pair are back in Prague to film the final scenes on the series, but progress has been naturally slow-going due to the new safety measures that the cast and crew must observe.

“Everybody’s very afraid of each other. The food is bad because they have to pack it up somewhere else and bring it to us in Ziploc bags. Yeah, it’s awful. You’re literally living in quarantine. It’s not like the NBA bubble where they had a barbershop and friends to hang out with,” Mackie told Entertainment Tonight, adding “No, if you get within six feet of somebody, there’s some little Czech dude coming and poking you with a stick saying, ‘You have to move.’ So it’s rough.”

Mackie went on to share a personal memory of late actor Chadwick Boseman, who died earlier this year from complications related to colon cancer. The pair starred alongside each other in Marvel’s Captain America: Civil War, Avengers: Infinity War and Avengers: Endgame.

“It’s funny, I have a lot of memories of Chad and I cared about him dearly as a friend,” recalled the actor emotionally. “The first time I met him was in 1998 [when he was directing a play]. My girlfriend at the time brought me into the theater [and] he was in the black box in an office chair spinning around the room. She was like ‘hey, Chad, I want you to meet my classmate at Julliard, Anthony’ and he goes ‘wait, I’m concentrating, don’t break my vibe’ and he just spins around the room, and I was like ‘…it’s nice to meet you, man’ and he was like ‘I’m almost there!'”

Mackie says he brought up their first encounter in a later conversation, but Boseman rebuffed him playfully, saying “I don’t wanna talk about it! I was going through a lot in my young age.”

The Falcon and the Winter Soldier stars Mackie as Sam Wilson/Falcon, Sebastian Stan as Bucky Barnes/Winter Soldier, Daniel Brühl as Baron Zemo, Emily VanCamp as Sharon Carter and Wyatt Russell as John Walker/U.S. Agent.

Disney+ has not set a new release date for the series yet, but the streaming service is still eyeing an early-2021 drop.

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Happy Accident pt. 3 - Bucky Barnes x Reader

A/N: I wasn’t sure whether I was going to continue with this series or not, but your response overwhelmed me and I couldn’t help it! I’m not sure whether this is the last part or not, but I do know that I love that I could fulfill your requests! Part one can be found here, part two is over here.

Taglist: @cassandras-musings​, @courtneychicken, @-episkey-,

Summary: You met on the subway, now you’re meeting at a coffee shop - it’s time for your double date with the man you accidentally grabbed, his strong but silent friend, and your own outspoken friend.

Warnings: Your friend is, as ever, entirely inappropriate and entirely based on my own. No language because Steve.

Other Notes: Reader is still gender neutral, your friend is still female and referred to by Y/F/N, too many Hamilton references, and I still love you guys!

“Isn’t it ironic? You met on a subway, and now, look at this. The coffee shop is next to a Subway.”

“You’re just hilarious, Y/F/N, good choice.” You rolled your eyes as your friend excitedly rambled on about the location.

“This was your choice, silly. Now, you look great, you sound great, let’s go in and razzle dazzle ‘em.”

“I’m going to the washroom, I’ll meet you there.”

She grinned and ushered you away, telling you to hurry and come back as she went towards the tables.

Once finished in the washroom, you gave yourself a good once-over in the mirror - smoothing down your hair, brushing off your clothes, and flashing the smile you had carefully rehearsed.

“You lied to me, Y/N!” 

Ah, yes, your friend was blunt as always.

“Goodness, woman, I leave for less than a minute and already you’ve found out the secret I kept from you and want to form a harem.”

“I’m just saying, if you really loved me you would share him,” she replied shamelessly.

Steve raised an eyebrow. “What have I gotten myself into?”

“Don’t worry. Just let me stay here by your side-”

“I don’t think your Hamilton references are being appreciated to the fullest,” you laughed, shaking your head. “Ah, and hello, James. Recovered?”

He raised an eyebrow. “Mentally… or physically? You impacted them both.”

“You’ll live,” you replied, raising an eyebrow at the fact that your drink was already made. “Y/F/N, since when do they make these so fast?”

“Since your date orders them. Duh. Don’t worry, I knew you’d never factor in that you take forever to finish up at work, so I told Bucky here what to get you.“

You raised an eyebrow, turning back to your date. “I thought only your friends called you Bucky? What’d I miss - and don’t you start, Y/F/N-”

Mid dance with her mouth open to start singing, she stopped and shot you a heartbroken glance.

“-while I was gone?”

“Anyone who’s looking out for you is a friend of mine, Y/N.”

“Are you lactose intolerant?” you could hear Y/F/N stagewhisper to Steve. “They’re so cheesy I think it’s giving me gas. And I’m not even lactose intolerant!”

“Why were you invited?” you mused, shaking your head at your friend.

“The Queen needs no invitation, Y/N, I thought we’d been over this. Now, tell me, both of you, what do you know about this fabulous city that we, as lowly civilians, do not?”

Two empty cups and several lengthy discussions later, your friend’s focus on serious topics was almost gone as she was informed that a karaoke bar in the city entirely devoted to musical theater existed.

“Just imagine it, Y/N, one is open in our very own city!”

“We live in New York, what doesn’t exist?”

“We have to go there! Wow the crowds with your McDow!”

“McDow?” repeated Bucky, blinking confusedly.

You sighed, shaking your head. “It’s an acronym,” you replied, taking out a pen and writing it down on the napkin. “For my singing voice. Mating Call of the Dying Orca Whale.”

Bucky laughed. “Can’t be that bad. Your speaking voice is downright angelic, after all.”

“Too much.”

“Kids these days,” murmured Steve. “I wouldn’t be impartial to seeing one in particular again, though. When are you free, Y/F/N?”

“Brave man. Signing up for my unadulterated weirdness. I’ll text you… or, on second thought, call. Cell phones must be weird for you. Come on, Y/N, you have to come with me otherwise you’ll be stranded with two men. Who are Avengers. Wouldn’t be so bad but I can’t give you the car keys. See you later, boys.”

You waved shyly at Bucky, who returned the wave with a grin and a mouthed, ‘Call me.’

“Now, who could foretell that it would go so well?” asked your friend, with a spring in her step.

“Newsies?”

“What? No, RENT, Today 4 U. Downright shameful, Y/N. You’re going to have to come to that karaoke bar just for a musical theater education.”

“I don’t know that I can handle even more geeks like you.”

“You’ll survive.”

A/N And how was that? I think that’s about all I’ve got for this little fic, but I do take and love requests! If there’s anything you’d like to see just shoot me an ask on or off anon. I really only do Avengers, could be tempted to do X-Men. Thanks for reading!

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Love Triangle (Part 3/??)

Summary: You are feeling lost right now, it seems everything you have done in the past has come back to haunt you and you are starting to regret everything.  Steve offers you advice and some time to clear your thoughts.

Characters: Bucky Barnes, Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter

Warnings: Maybe swearing, but otherwise none

Word Count: 1,198

A/N: This part is kind of boring and I’m sorry about that, hopefully things will heat up a little next time! Hope you guys are enjoying this series so far, I’m really enjoying writing it! 

Part 1 // Part 2

You don’t think things could have gotten any more awkward than they did after finally looking Bucky in the eyes.  Part of you wishes that you hadn’t done it, but it was too late to do that now.  It was done and now you weren’t sure what to think.  You had never seen him take off so fast.  After putting Emma to bed you decided to call Steve, big brother always knew what to do.

“I did it, I looked at him.”

“Um, what?” Steve says, not understanding your statement.

“Emma forgot her teddy bear in Bucky’s car and she had already gone inside, so he had to give it to me and I looked at him.” You sit down on the couch, biting your lip.  “I said something to him Steve, it’s been like 3 years since I’ve said something to him.”

“Oh, shit, how did that go?” Steve asks.

“Bad, well I don’t know, he took off so fast it was hard to tell how he felt.” You say.

“Did he say anything back?”

“He said it was good to see me.”

“And how do you feel?” Steve asks you.

“I feel like you’re trying to be my therapist right now.” You lay back on the couch and sort of giggle.  

“I basically am your therapist sis, you’ve been coming to me with your problems since you were sixteen.” Steve reminds me.  “Seriously though, how did it feel to talk to him again, to look him in the eyes and get over yourself?”

“You’re being awful hostile for a therapist Stevie.” You accuse him.

“Stop avoiding the question.”

“I don’t know, I don’t know how to feel. I mean it was nice to finally look at him again, to feel like I didn’t have to avoid him anymore, but now I feel even more awkward because of how he reacted.” You sigh heavily.  “I just feel like maybe it was a mistake.”

“I don’t think so.” Steve tells you.  “I think it needed to happen, maybe now you’ll figure out how you really feel and maybe understand why you’ve been shutting down so much.”

“Maybe, everything just feels so weird.”

“Just relax Y/n, things don’t have to go anywhere if you don’t want them to, you don’t even have to talk to him again, I think that it’s just good that you finally did at least look at him, you were together for five years, I just don’t think that you guys properly worked out your feelings.”

You breath out heavily. “I'm going to go to bed, I'll see you tomorrow at the movies.”

“I'll have Peggy pick up Emma from school and I'll meet you at the movie at 4, ok?” Steve says.

“Sounds like a plan.” you hang up the phone after saying goodbye and set your phone on the table. You feel tired, but you don't want to sleep, you're scared you might dream about him again. You turn on the T.V and eventually you fall asleep on the couch.

Your alarm wakes you up in the morning to start getting Emma ready for school. You make breakfast like usual, get dressed for work and try to comb through your daughter's mess of a hair.  You get her dressed and once she's eaten breakfast you drop her off at school.

The work day drags on. You try your best to keep yourself busy and not think about Bucky, but it's no use. Finally 3:30 rolls around and you punch out and head straight to the theater to meet Steve. He sent you the ticket ahead of time and you made your way to your assigned seat after buying a big tub of popcorn and a drink.

You keep checking your watch as it approaches 4, it's not like Steve to not arrive early. You look around seeing if you can find him, but he's nowhere in sight. You sigh checking your phone to see if he had texted you. Nothing.

Finally as the lights dim you see him sit down out of the corner of your eye. “About time.” You turn to face him and your stomach drops when you see Bucky’s face looking back at you. “you aren't Steve.”

“And neither are you.” he says back.

“That son of a bitch.” You whisper. Steve had told the both of you to meet him at the movies and now here you both were sitting next to each other, no Steve in sight.  You couldn’t help but scoot as far away from him as possible as the movie began to play.  You didn’t know what to do, it felt wrong to be sitting with him so close to you.  It was the closest you had been in years outside of when he picked up Emma.

The movie was an action comedy, a kind of movie that both you and Bucky enjoyed.  You snacked on your popcorn as you watched, sneaking small glances at Bucky.  He was enjoying the movie, laughing at the ridiculous humor, his whole body moving as he did.  You used to be obsessed with his laugh, whenever something was really funny he would grab onto you for support.  Something that never failed to make you smile and make you laugh too, even if it wasn’t funny.  

You set your popcorn in the middle of the two of you, offering to share since he hadn’t bought one.  You reached to grab some and found yourself touching Bucky’s hand, you pulled away as quickly as you felt his skin.  He looked at you and smiled slightly, but then looked away just as you were about to smile back.  

Your heart was pounding so hard against your chest you swore the whole theater could hear it booming.  Honestly you didn’t know why just being next to him was doing this to you.  Things ended roughly between you two, that was nothing you could deny, but now that Steve had said something you felt like maybe you made the wrong call all those years ago. It was all too much for your brain and heart to handle right now.  

After the movie you stood up and walked outside with Bucky in silence.  Neither of you could look at each other, it felt ice cold between you.  Bucky didn’t live far from the movie theater so he probably walked here, you could see your car parked not too far away, but just as you made a slight right to head for it you suddenly changed your mind.  You turned on your heels, facing the direction Bucky was going.  “Hey James.” You call out the words barely making it out of your throat.  

His head spins to look at you, shock plastered on his face.  “Yea?”

“Can we talk? Maybe grab a bite to eat?” You bite your lip, afraid that he’s just going to say no, but at this point you kind of expect it, why would he want to talk to you after all that you did?

Finally after what seemed liked five minutes of silence, he ran his hand through his hair and half smiled.  “I’d really like that Y/n.”

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