#Bella replies

[bilbosmom-belladonna]

Oh I'm very curious about Teach My Hands to War 👀

Thanks so much for asking! 🤗💜💜

This is actually my TCW rarepair fic, a WIP that I've had open since at least April (oh god), so it's come up before in this same game! At that time I talked a little about its origins and themes, so this time I'll just provide a longer snippet.

Because I am continuing to be weird pretentious about this rarepair so I'm going to block out the name of the clone in question. I've leaned too hard into the bullshit and now I have to follow through 🤣🤣

Enjoy!

Around the time CLONE was contemplating which of the bar’s subpar whiskeys he didn’t hate enough to try a second time, something began to shift. Out of the corner of his eye CLONE watched as one by one the patrons around him got up and left, only to be replaced by someone new. And each someone new was watching him and trying to hide it.  The low hum of conversation, punctuated by the occasional drunken laugh or shout, petered off. The beleaguered old music player continued to warble out old jatz standards, and the bartender had begun determinedly cleaning some glasses as far away from CLONE as he could get, but other than that the bar had become silent.  CLONE took a sip of his nearly-empty glass. “If you wanted to talk,” he said out loud to no one in particular, “all you had to do was come and say hello.” He heard heavy footsteps approaching behind him but he didn’t turn around.  “I don’t think you’re here to talk,” someone replied. CLONE tilted his head to the side in acknowledgement. “I’m sure it doesn’t look like it. But if you give me the chance, I’d prefer talking.” “I don’t think you’re in a position to be making the decisions, bounty hunter,” the person behind him said dismissively. That made him chuckle and shake his head a little. “If I didn’t want to talk,” CLONE said as he took a final sip, “you never would have seen me coming.” He set down the glass on the bar with a heavy plunk, keeping his hands in view. “Luckily for you, I’m feeling chatty.”

Thanks for the ask! 💜💜

[study-diaries]

hi, bella! may I know where are you from?

and are you applying for college this year?

Hey dear Anon! :D

First of all, I'm not that comfortable with sharing the country/city/state name because it somewhat gives me creeps so I hope you understand.

And second of all, I'll be applying to college around May next year. I'm currently a senior in high school, it's literally my second day xD

Take care! <3

[sasukesun]

needed to bring this important venn diagram here

[biteofcherry]

So… tell me more about Professor Rogers. What would happen if he needed to call you into his office to discuss the grade you received on the mid term after getting told you what to study?

When he calls you into his office you both dread it and are excited for it. You did your best, but you also consider agreeing that you could do better and imagine yourself bent over his desk.

But Steve doesn't give you that. He makes you simply sit there and listen to his steady, firm assessment of your work and the clear disappointment in his voice.

When he tells you that you're free to go and that there will be an opportunity to change your grade next week, you look up at him quite shocked and crestfallen.

"Is that all, professor?" You ask, feeling heaviness in your chest.

He stands up and rounds the desk, then leans against it with his arms crossed.

"For now, yes. We need to make sure your smart head still works properly and I haven't fucked out your last braincells."

A muscle in his jaw ticks as he leans towards you and grips your chin.

"Because that midterm grade suggest you've been thinking about my dick and being a dumb little fucktoy, instead of the respected professional you want to be one day."

"I wanna be both," you whine, looking up at him.

"Then work for it," Steve barks. "Both for the degree and for the privilege of being my fucktoy."

You nod eagerly, hoping some dark mercy to flow your way and ease the constricting guilt.

Steve's grip tightens and he tilts your head back as he moves to stand over you.

"Open," he orders and you immediately obey, opening your lips wide and sticking out your tongue.

Steve spits into your mouth. The moment it splashes on your tongue your pussy clenches.

"Hold it in." You listen, feeling your saliva pooling beneath your tongue and your panties growing wet.

"No orgasms, no pleasure of any kind for you, until you earn a higher grade. Understood?"

Steve lays the law strictly. You'd whine in protest, if his ruthless rule didn't turn you on so much. You nod, mouth still open.

"Swallow." He commands. "Now go home and get some rest. Starting tomorrow, you're going to put all your brains and dedication into mastering that material."

"And if your results please me-" he continues- "I'll fill one of your holes."

"One hole for each good grade you get this term, since it appears that fucking all three regularly really turns you into a mindless cumslut."

[bilbosmom-belladonna]

*gasp* you don't like bananas??? truly, how could you, that is so Problématique™️, to eschew the penis metaphor fruit!!! unbelievable... i thought i knew you 😔

Yep, I'm a monster. Sorry you had to find out this way, I know I act like a normal banana-loving person but it's all a well-constructed lie!

No one is ever who they seem on the internet...

[study-diaries]

I need your opinion if you don't mind... I'm in my last year of highschool and in four days, there is going to be the responses to all the uni I applied to (if they accepted me or not...). And I don't really have a subject or a job that I really like. Don't get me wrong, I'm a very curious person and I'm interested in many things. But my main goal for a job is not my passion or the things that I like. My main goal is financial. So I'll chose my studies upon the salary that it will get me in the future. The thing is, everyone around me is telling me that I'm thinking wrong and that I'll hate my job if I chose my studies that way....idk what to do and I need your help on that. Thanks and I love your blog btw :) sorry if that was too long....

Heyy! :)

Okay so... First of all, congratulations on passing out highschool alive cause I'm serious, it's a huge milestone! Second of all, that is believe it or not, something that I can very well understand and related to.

And it's okay. Like, definitely okay to have a whole different approach for selecting your majors and jobs. Now, I'm assuming you've already have a vague idea about what major you want to choose since you've applied already.

Generally, if you've taken professional majors (medicine/law etc) then the general pay is good and higher than usual but you need to atleast have an element of interest in it since the majors itself are difficult.

If you've gotten into something that pays alittle lesser etc etc then i can suggest you to take up some part time jobs or even gain experience or develop some skills that could be helpful.

Basically, you can take up something with the idea of getting a high salary but try your best to find some amount of interest in it, make sure you won't get bored with it. (And there's absolutely nothing wrong with your pov about choosing based on the salary or pay!)

I personally think that you can experiment with your subjects and the career options cause I know many people that studied one thing and took a completely different career field. And just because you have the idea of only gaining financial security and stability from your major/job doesn't mean you'll end up hating it.

It's not about with what idea you're choosing your major, it's about how you can steer your major according to what you need and like you said, you're a curious person, you're interested in many things so i believe that you'll do good :)

And the fact that most of the time, we come to love something that we're constantly doing. Passion or interest just doesn't arise out of nowhere, sometimes force is important too and not to mention, hardwork.

Whatever you're choosing, with whatever belief, whether passion or with the idea of financial belief, it doesn't really matter because if you have a really good determination to achieve the end goal, you'll find a way to enjoy the process.

For now, I'll stress on the fact that you focus on choosing the major (if you can check what papers you're having in each semester it's better) and then after you choose your major, experiment more, like research about job opportunities in and around the field, develop skills, gain experience, explore because it's all an experiment, isn't it?

I hope you'll be content and happy with whatever you choose and don't really mind what everyone says, if you want something badly, there's no shame in working towards it. I hope i didn't confuse you even more. And I'm glad you like my blogs, i really appreciate it :)

Take care 🎭✨

[arthurtaylorlester]

i’m a trans guy and i love the concept of t4t arthur and bella but my brain keeps getting stuck on “well how did bella die then, clearly it couldn’t have been in childbirth” which then leads to me thinking “well if arthur carried faroe and gave birth to her how did he abandon her for an hour after her birth” and i land on the conclusion that makes me laugh a lot: arthur gave birth to faroe and then just fucking walked out of the hospital. he decided he’s had enough of this parenting thing. then he changes his mind and just comes back later like “actually nvm i’ll take the baby” and the hospital just let him

yeah no this is canon now actually it's too funny not to be just imagine

arthur, visibly teary-eyed and drunk: hey guys can i have my baby back

doctor: sure ig

though, anon, how do you think bella died then?

[miidnighters]

@starlyht | continued ☾

It was one of the rare times Bella was not paying attention to Sol'rys as he spoke - utterly enchanted by the Myconids and the way they danced. Each time they came past one, she would stop and grin, and someone often had to shuffle her along. And now Sovereign Spaw was singing for them and bestowing a gift upon them.

It wasn't until her senses began to sharpen further, and Bella lifted hands to rub at her sensitive ears, that she looked back at Sol'rys. He seemed more relaxed than she might have thought, and Bella leans into his side, wanting to take advantage of the brief reprieve from the constant anxiety.

"Aren't they darling?" In truth, Bella hadn't even really known such creatures existed. Everything she knew about the Underdark tended towards warning or threat. "Maybe I'll come back and live here once all this is over."

[sasukesun]

something very lgbt just happened to me *visibly shaken, haggard and covered in blood *

[elbdot]

do you play any tcgs?

Aaaah no, I only like collecting cards, but I don't know the rules to a SINGLE TCG! I have a few Pokemon cards I got gifted by friends and then also a HUGE collection of Bella Sara cards, which was more for trading than playing with anyway.

DOES ANYONE REMEMBER BELLA SARA??? IF ANYONE DOES, PLEASE TELL ME WHICH ONE WAS YOUR FAVORITE HORSE, I GO FIRST:

NANNA and GREY from the first Bella GOLD series

And then I also really loved Inupiat and Aleut from Native Lights And then also 50 other horses as well, I have WAY too many favs...

[dragon-spaghetti]

Can we see more Bella? 🥺👉👈

The Fuckin Thang

[sugarsnappeases]

GIVE US QUILLKILLER THOUGHTS!!!!!!

i would be delighted to!!! i’ll try to say things we (@quillkiller and i, we’re conjoined) haven’t said before lol…. please be warned. this post got LONG (lots more under the cut)

so for me the general trajectory of the quillkiller relationship is devotion -> betrayal -> haunting (and the devotion and haunting are sort of synonymous, no? different shapes of the same undying love) so i’ll try to follow that trajectory in this post too

so. Devotion. we’ve said before that a big part of bella’s character is her need to devote herself to something. she’s a follower at her core, and before she meets voldemort, she finds this in rita. rita who’s mean and nasty and genuinely believes she deserves to be worshipped (major god complex). bella who wants to worship her, wants to give her everything, wants to give herself up to rita like an offering, a sacrifice.

and it digs deep into the both of them, this devotion, claws its way into the marrow of their bones until they can’t let each other go. they’re in different hogwarts houses and come from what feels like different worlds but bella’s sneaking into the ravenclaw common room at night, they’re passing notes in class, exchanging looks in the great hall, meeting up in secret nooks and crannies. bella is getting married but rita is the journalist at the wedding, kissing her before she walks down the aisle, sneaking off to fuck in one of the side rooms later. bella sending patronuses like ‘come over’ or just showing up at rita’s flat, clinging onto each other even when they know they probably shouldn’t and that it can’t last and that it’ll have to end at some point, taking as much of each other as they can get bc they know that it can’t be forever and they didn’t even think it would last this long… i imagine them waking up together like this:

and the thing is!! there’s so much love. so so so much love. like even w bella married and everything, that’s never an issue at all. they’re happy, they have fun and they make each other laugh and they love each other so so much and so so well even if they both think that’s it’s ultimately gonna fall apart. and that brings us to Betrayal.

it’s the idea that both of them are selfish and obsessive and cruel but before they’d always been all of these things together. but bc they are these things and bc they’re always pushing each other and challenging each other and making each other more, they’re always, inevitably, gonna cross a line that the other cannot. for rita, this is her article, and for bella, this is her dark mark.

and to me, their respective betrayals happen kinda concurrently, like either one of them could happen first, but they don’t fully fall apart until both of them have happened bc, for example, if the article happened first, bella wouldn’t forgive rita (it’s disloyalty and bella can’t understand or forgive it bc she’s unendingly loyal <- another core bella trait) but bc of the disconnect there, the way they both can’t quite understand how unforgivable what they’ve done is to the other, i don’t think rita would necessarily see a huge issue. like they’ve fought before and it hasn’t been final and if rita called, bella would still show up, ofc she would. and vice versa. if the dark mark debacle happened first, rita can’t forgive her for that (bc no matter how morally reprehensible she is, rita can’t justify or support genocide and doesn’t understand how bella thinks she could), but if bella called, rita would go.

that’s them one betrayal in ^^ (i.e. rita post bella’s mark showing up at lestrange manor bc bella called. or bella post rita’s article showing up at rita’s flat bc she called). and they need both the betrayals to happen to be fully over (and obvs both the betrayals are inevitable bc of who they are and the circumstances they find themselves in even if they’re trying so hard to cling onto each other). i think by the time of both the betrayals, they’re already hanging on by a thread - hanging on so so tight, don’t get me wrong, but things are already falling to pieces, they just haven’t noticed yet, or haven’t let themselves notice yet.

it’s been building and building bc they both want everything, they want to have their cake and eat it too, selfish and hungry and wanting, that eventually they cross they line and it all falls down. they lose their ‘one good thing’ (<- bella says this about rita), they lose the woman that they still love, the only woman they ever have and ever will love, bc they just kept pushing for more:

and it’s both of their faults but they blame each other and hate each other and love each other just the same and they don’t realise that the closest they ever were to everything they ever wanted was when they were together. until later. thus. the Haunting.

and i have a lot of visual aids (quotes) for this part lol. this spans the rest of their lives, and i tend to mostly consider it from rita’s pov bc she’s not in azkaban and a lot more mentally present and also lives a lot longer so i think it’s more tragic for her (bella is also very much tragic but i will say that by the end of her time in azkaban, she’s really not much more than a shell of herself and she would’ve had most of her happy memories (a large part of which are w rita) sapped from her by the dementors and therefore it’s hard to say how much capacity she would’ve had for being haunted, being as, in and of herself, she would’ve been little more than a ghost x)

we’re gonna kinda gloss over everything here bc i have lots to say and this is already so so long but i have quotes that refer to a) rita’s general existence after the break up:

(obvs we're referring to her articles here. and just everything she writes in general. and everything she does. and everything she is.)

b) rita after bella breaks out of azkaban in 1996, and she sees her on the cover of the daily prophet:

and c) basically just rita for the rest of her life. forever. til the day she dies (this quote makes me a little insane...... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!):

IT IS MY KNIFE AND MY HEART TOO!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! anyway i'm gonna stop talking here bc i've rambled on for far far too long (although i have more to say if anyone wants... i'll always have more to say about them i think) but for now!! i'll love you and leave you with a few links to posts/fics that i think vaguely encapsulate our quillkiller conception (and by that i mean reccing jen's fics and a couple other things i've said):

life-changing fic 1 (rita writing bellatrix's obituary) | thing i wrote (unsent letter from r to b after azkaban break-out) | life-changing fic 2 (bella visiting rita post-azkaban break-out) | thing i wrote (another kinda quillkiller thesis...) | life-changing microfic (nsfw, that good old bellatrix black devotion)

[sasukesun]

Nikki Giovanni, The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998

[theplottdump]

lets go tumblr

[mvndrvke]

@wastheheart : i’m here, nothing can harm you.

“It’s not me I’m worried about.” Bella looks down at Maria, curled up asleep in her arms. She’s so small. She’s terrified any little movement she makes will break her. She listens for a moment to her daughter’s heartbeat before she looks at Esme. “I’m so scared I’m going to do something wrong. That I’m gonna’ raise her wrong, or something bad will happen and I don’t know what to do. She’s so little, Esme.” She looks back at Maria. “I don’t know how to do this.”

[bilbosmom-belladonna]

maulrex for the do i ship it pls (:

Hiiiii! Thanks for asking! Ship ask game here

MaulRex, you say?

You know, as much as I think Maul is an amazing character, I've read very little fic shipping him, so color me intrigued! I would definitely like to know more about this one.

I can see lots of juicy potential for these two. Jedi!Maul with Rex as his captain? Purge Trooper Rex and a Maul still loyal to Sidious? Rebel Rex and Crime Boss Maul? Maul corrupts Rex? Rex corrupts Maul? The classic good guy/bad guy begrudging team-up?

10 Things I Hate About You AU where leather jacket!Maul pretends to ask out goody-two-shoes!Rex???

I'd love to see some fic recs if you're so inclined, dear Shevek. Or from anyone! Feed my curiosity!

Thanks so much for playing! 💜💜💜