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there is a unfinished harry potter fan fiction that is 10+ years old. I love it.

I re-read it about once a year.

I once paid a second author to write a conclusion so that i could pretend it didn’t end on a cliffhanger (I did not post the conclusion anywhere out of respect for the original work)

I sincerely hope and pray the author went on to write other things under another pen name and I hope they feel an inexplicable snuggly warmth in their core being every time I Re-read their fic

me, quietly whispering to the ao3 page of an author who doesn’t even know I exist: I am obsessed with you

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the author's barely disguised longing for a kinder world

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I read your fic and i’m excited

Writing is fun! Especially when it feels like you're disembowelling yourself!

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"You showed me just how much I have to live for."

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I got these lovely photos of Gale and Stelle from @foxtatodreams , and I love them 🥹💜 had to draw something based off of them

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did you say the daycare assistant? did you say Sundrop and moondrop?

did you mention Robots whose metal feels so cold and nice on a headache?

or Robots who can heat themselves up to soothe sore muscles?

did you say Sun and Moon?!?

Robots with extend-o arms that coil you into a tight hug.

Robots with a screen face that display a heart whenever you're around.

Robots who trust you to know where their power-off switch is located.

Robots who triple back-up the memories they forge when they're with you.

Robots who weren't quite built for love, but that didn't stop them from trying.

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my perfect day consists of staying in bed while someone brings me my ASD sensory approved ice water and asking me to explain why the psychological health of fictional characters is so important to me.

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for my own sanity I need a fic that’s just druid Tav trying to get the party to stop becoming panicked when they do the owlbear roar in battle like guys no i know it’s scary but try to remember it’s me and I’m on your side okay

i just need exasperated druid tav trying to cope with working with these characters because i keep thinking “could somebody with hands please for the love of all that is holy help astarion up.” and “no you don’t have to run away the owlbear is just me!” or “yeah i could carry this as a two tone giant animal but now I’m a 3 foot tall gnome and someone else is gonna have to take it from me”

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library’s are my personal ADHD & depression hack

i can’t focus in my house because bed and games and tv and chores and i haven’t read in a month and reading makes me happy and im so sad. but if i go to the library i can read in there courtyard and there isn’t all these other distractions like at home and there’s people and sunshine and i don’t have to spend money but the serotonin is boundless

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awwwwe the poor poor baby I love him so much

my personal headcannon has always been that both the boys can tie shoes BUT only from the perspective of tying for someone else so if they ever wore shoes their bows would be upside down since they’ve only ever tied for someone else (does that make sense)

Sun's purposely not telling him how to tie his shoes.

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where’s the inanimate objects Option of my fellow ASD girlies? I desperately wanted to be a door

“You never pretended to be a bride when you were a little girl?” No???? Like literally never?

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just gonna tuck this into my sun/moon Audhd headcannon file mkay? cool

Sun and Moon as Two Broken, Overcompensating Parts of a Whole

I think treating Sun and Moon as opposing coping methods in the same person/body could be an interesting slant to the Daycare Attendant. Where Moon is the part of the DCA that needs them to stop, to rest, they can't keep going on like this. And Sun is the part of the DCA that can't stop no matter what, that has to keep things together, that can't let them rest because the moment they relax everything will fall apart. The need for rest vs the need for progress, acted out in two personalities in one body. Neither are fully right, and neither are fully wrong. They can't give up and succumb to their circumstances (Moon), but they can't keep burning themselves out trying to shove broken pieces back together (Sun). And actually, both are making what the other needs a hostile option. Sun needs to rest, but he can't because the moment he does, Moon will shove him down forever. Moon needs the drive to keep going, but Sun is actively burning them out and making it so excruciating that Moon can't even consider trying. Since neither can reach true peace solely with their own methods, they overcompensate with their faulty coping mechanisms and spiral almost past the point of no return.

That's why merging into Eclipse finally gave them peace. Because together, they have the ability to rest, take things calmly and slowly, not succumb but allow space to breathe. Whereas apart, they literally split at the seams; Sun will forever keep trying to run and Moon will forever keep trying to stop. Crucially, because both are a part of a whole--they'll never be able to operate on their own entirely because they each need the other to be their whole self. Which is literally what Eclipse is. Yin and Yang slotted together.

(This post is a mix of speculation and ideas for how the DCA works in a narrative. It's not meant to be a lore analysis or 100% canon-accurate, just to work from a story perspective.)

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this is perfection

Someone is here for another visit! 🎉

It’s time for Moon crimes (and their consequences)

(Aftermath close ups under the cut)

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Sleepwalker Infection

Where it all began

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Calling anyone who knows even a smidgen about Cult of the Lamb

SO- if you scroll down on my account for a bit, you can see that I made Sundrop x Narinder art, twice. And now that I made it I can't stop thinking about it and now I want to make it a DCA x COTL AU. BUT, while I've been making DCA AU's ever since FNAF security breach came out, I don't know jack shit about Cult Of The Lamb!!!

Like, I know a lamb got sacrificed, and then they made a deal with Narinder, and then they made a cult in Narinder's name, and Narinder is or is not some sort of eldritch god who later becomes one of your followers???

I've merged plenty of AU ideas before, but most of those DCA AU's were always original and never actually merged two fandoms together before. So I need your help. What's the Cult of the Lamb lore? How does the game work? How do weapons and enemies work? (Because yes Sundrop will be the cult leader so he will be fighting). How does the new sins update work? Why is Narinder in the cult? Why is the lamb the last person of their species? (according to art posts about the Sins of the Flesh update). I basically need the biggest, and I mean the BIGGEST rundown of the Cult of the Lamb game.

"Well why don't you just go to wikipedia?" Because I have all of Tumblr here and they've all personally played the game. It's just better and more accurate information.

"Well why don't you get the game?" Because my mother and father will be very concerned if I ask them to get me a game that involves being a cult leader, and yk, sex update.

Please and thank you Cult of the Lamb players.

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listen I know my mental health history and have taken it into account when I say, i would absolutely let them slaughter me

“Fear not…though you have died, he is still in need of you. For now.”

Part Two of Two

First

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DCA Cult of the Lamb AU!

I just DIED drawing so many refs NEVER again. (lie)

It be the idiot lamb who is so incredibly bad at their job of freeing the Fella Who's Patient and forming the actual cult itself that they are in actual need of help. The One Who Waits sends down his two guards/disciples to see if they can make a difference, and...it kinda works. Two fellas trying to do their job and one idiot freaking out and not handling what the hell is going on. Nothing could possibly go wrong here. ... except the fact that there are angy bishops and internal trauma and angst and- part 2 here

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WOMP!!