#Before Crips

[chainedspectre]

here's to all the little sacrifices we have to make as disabled people.

here's to skipping a friend's party because you were in too much pain, or because you had no energy.

here's to dropping out of clubs because they became too much for you.

here's to all the times we've said "no it's okay, you guys go ahead, i'll hang back here."

here's to all the things we've held ourselves back from just in case they hurt us.

here's to moving seats in class away from your friends because your back was getting a draft and the cold hurts you.

here's to us. here's to letting ourselves heal. here's to being cautious, being safe.

here's to the things we can do. the things we're allowed to do. here's to enjoying those things, enjoying our lives.

here's to making the most of being us.

[extreme-dyke-syndrome]

Currently mourning the fact that some of my friends didn't know me before I was in pain all the time.

I was different. Just as cynical, but I had momentum. I moved with a constant trajectory.

I wish they knew me before I got slower.

[tumble-tv]

Probably the most devastating thing about my hand mobility decreasing at an exponential rate over the past year isn't that I can't draw. It's not that I can hardly write. It's not that I can't wash my hair without aid. It's not that I can't paint my own nails. It's not that I'm struggling with hand sewing.

It's that my dream of playing the bass can never and will never come true.

I'll never be able to be part of a band and be the sexy bass player, I'll never be the guy to have a bass on my wall that's covered in stickers and we'll loved, I'll never be able to collect my picks and have a little collection. If I'm every part of a band, I'll be the singer, and my jaw can't do that shit anymore.

[mightbedisabled]

Kellogs should pay me with how much my body advertises for them. My joints constantly snap, crackle, and pop.

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

One thing I find funny about Caprico's arc is the way we just kinda.... Don't grapple much with his crimes lmao that man was out there doing implied and/or on-screen human experimentation. He commits Crimes Against Humanity with Glow. Then comes with us in North. Gets back his memories and..... Goes back to his usual illegal activities. Help

[criploveproject]

Crip love is having seen so many beautiful cool badass people using mobility aids that when you start using a cane it makes you feel sexy

[akumaruis]

akari sitting in the veilstone game corner for 6 hours and volo stands behind her with a dissapointing gaze

[majaurukalo]

I’m in my angry and frustrated era.

[theplantqueer]

Crip Tip: if your bed frame will support it, get a drink bottle holder for bikes for a few bucks online and attach it to your bed frame. horizontal hydration!

[ID: a dark wood bedhead with a gap in the slats. A plastic drink bottle holder is attached to the bedpost between the slats, and there's a large disposable plastic drink bottle in it. There's also a swan neck style black cane resting on the wall behind it. /end ID]

And to avoid as many trips to the tap, have a few of them stashed somewhere within reach of yr bed.

Bonus round: My lightswitch is within cane's reach of the bed so i can turn off the light from a lying down position ✌️😜

[adhdbraingoburrr]

Today I had someone tell me that drinking milk with fix my EDS…

Like, Ah yes why did I not think of this sooner/s

Abled people are dumb

[alexandrium]

I don't even share a wall with them I can't imagine what my other neighbors hears

[pearwaldorf]

Because I needed the reminder and maybe you do too: the best way to deal with political frustration is to do something.

A real and immediate impact you can have that will directly help a Palestinian is to buy an eSIM and send it to gazaesims@gmail.com. This allows Gazans to access mobile data so they can get news out and keep in touch with their friends and family.

If you have never done this before, here is a step by step guide, complete with discount codes. It is slightly technical but still fairly easy (imo, ymmv). If you can't/don't want to buy one directly, you can donate to Crips for eSIMs and they will buy one on your behalf.

You don't have to top up the eSIMs when they get low/run out, but I find it comforting to do so. It means somebody is still alive, and that you've made a hellish experience a tiny bit less terrible.

[matchakuracat]

I used to love running. It was one of my favorite things.

I used to live very close to a big forest and the best feeling I've ever felt was when I ran through that forest completely alone, breathing in the fresh air and nothing but nature around me. Feeling the wind in my hair and the soft green moss under my shoes, making me feel like I'm flying. It's nothing but a distant memory now but I can still remember the feeling. I can't remember what it was like to be able to run or even walk without pain, but I will probably never forget how happy running made me feel back then.

Over time I started being able to run less and less, and eventually I couldn't run anymore without my legs giving up.

I still keep my running shoes next to my other ones by the door. Somehow after all these years, there's still a part of me hoping that I'll be able to use them again like before. There's a big part of me that doesn't want to let go of it. Still, I know that there's nothing I can do but accept it.

getting disabled over a period of time is so weird, because sometimes i’ll just see something, let’s say about running, and think “i should do that!” and then i slowly realise that i can’t run anymore. i can barely even walk. it’s weird because there wasn’t one event that happened that made me like it. there wasn’t a day where i woke up and couldn’t run anymore. it was slow and gradual. and sometimes i realise how much ive lost that i didn’t even realise because it all happened so gradually. sometimes it feels like yesterday i could run and today i can’t, and sometimes it feels like forever ago that i could.

[beautifulscreaminglady]

I don't know if I'm going to continue watching Baywatch. I love season one but season two has a wildly different tone and what's worse, in a way that feels obvious and forced. I don't know if there was a writer change or what but the drama and the stakes go up to 11 and things get fucking DARK. Also they replaced Hobie's actor and also seemingly de-aged him which is a real trip.

[studyingsocialjustice]

7 Days of Productivity, Days 1-3

Well, I had certainly hoped to be able to upload daily instead of all on one day. Alas, I ran out of time and energy after doing work all day to post any updates. But here we are! I'm honestly not super happy with how the last three days have gone, but I'm hoping for tomorrow and Friday to be better.

Monday Dec 4 - Day 1: As you can see by my Study Bunny daily study hours, I didn't get much work time in this day. I had a really hard time getting up and moving in the morning and ended up sleeping half of the day. My body definitely needed it, but it's not ideal when you have deadlines! I did have a productive rehearsal for my scene for my Directing class though. We didn't get to everything I had planned so I'll have to prioritize the last chunk during my rehearsal tomorrow. After rehearsal, I went to the library and started my final project for my Social Justice Education class. My topic for the project was the concept of Crip Time, and I had a little bit too much fun researching it! I am so passionate about the field of Disability Studies so I kept getting distracted by all the articles I was finding, even if they weren't actually useful to my project 😝 I guess that's a good problem to have, but again - deadlines!

Tuesday Dec 5 - Day 2: Unfortunately another day where I didn't spend as much time as planned on working. I had planned to spend the entire day at the library, but due to a miscommunication my anxiety got really bad right before my partner dropped me off at campus, and it took me probably three hours to be calm enough to get any work done. I used the Study Bunny app when I first got to the library, but after a few hours it just didn't make sense to me to bother using it since I was just going to work continuously. Next time I'll use the stopwatch function instead of the countdown. While I was at the library I created a universal annotation key for myself. I like to color-code my highlighting but it always slows me down to take the time to set up my color key, so I thought I would just create one that would be applicable to everything that I read, not just course readings. After I got home and showered, I was ready to do more work, but it seemed my cat had other ideas! I still managed to get another couple of hours of progress on my project though.

Wednesday Dec 6 - Day 3: I finished my project on Crip Time and thus finished my Social Justice Education class! I'm having a hard time being happy about it though. I spent 5 straight hours finishing the project, and didn't have it completely finished until just before I presented it to the class - and I was the last to go. I am happy with the final product, and I feel like I learned a lot from my work on it, but I'm pretty unhappy with myself for my utter lack of time management with the project. Oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ there's always next semester. And hey, I don't have to worry about it anymore! That's one class down, three to go.

I also got my grades back for my two Incomplete classes. I got a B in both classes, which is honestly better than I was expecting. I didn't finish all of the work (and didn't finish most of the work for one of them) for them, so I thought I was going to have a C at best. But the B is a huge relief! And like with Social Justice Ed, it's done and I finally don't have to worry about it anymore.

Up Next: [] Make a plan for how I'm going to complete all the work for my Directing class [] Prepare for my rehearsal tomorrow [] Finish the text analysis for the scene I'm directing [] Complete my production critique for All's Well That Ends Well [x] Choose the other two productions that I need to watch and critique [] Order the gifts for my boyfriend's mom, grandmother, and stepmom for when we visit them all for Christmas. I'm thinking of getting candles for each of them as hostess gifts. We'll be spending 5 days with his mom's side of the family and then 5 days with his dad's - I'm nervous!

Wish me luck for a better and more productive day tomorrow! And I wish you the best of luck for your day and your exams as well. We got this!

🎵: Einaudi: Experience