#BECAUSE IM LITTERALLY BEING SO AUTISM
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i love my brother making me feel increadibly unsafe
#for context! we got reported to cps again last year- dont want to get into it because it was a wile ago and nothing came of it but yknow#and my little brother has diagnosed autism(i might have it but its aperantly too expensive after my little bros diagnosis)#so uh yeah- today i did laundry and he had barely any clothes in the difty clothes and 3 peices total in the clean bin#also just a few days ago he left the bathroom and i could litterally smell him- not as in could smell soap just body odor#and i dont have a problem with that personally! but we got reported first time because of me and him and older bro being dirty#and outside people can have a problem with it and he litterally dosent consistantly take showers at all-#and it bothers the hell out of me- sorry our dad is innatentive so for fucking years ive had to talk to him about this#we were only able to get him to wear deodorant recently for fucks sake! like if you dont mind that cool#but you have to think of others around you- and your actions have fucking affects on others#and im so frustrated. and tired. sorry i dont know how to exagerate this exept this has been a cycle for years.#every few months i notice again him not changing clothes or cleaning at all and ask him to be better and he trys for a bit until#he lets himself go again and i have to tell him off again because hes ugh#im so tired. ive told him for years that me and dad wont be around forever but it never seems to set in. we cant be there to tell him to be#clean once hes on his own. and he cant just get a partner to do it for him because thats ridiculous.#yeah that it- i know it shouldnt matter if hes dirty but it dose to me because everytime he is im scared the cps people will come again#and make it so im forced to be back in the horible horible place i was taken to when i was a kid. and its scarry
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My turn, bestie~ 🦾💤!! Any character(s) of your choice >:3
*TACKLE HUGS YOU* HI BESTIE!!!!!
JOKES ON YOU IM TALKING ABOUT EVERYONE NOW MWAHAHAHA
🦾 A disability headcanon
Hmm, i dont know much about physical disabilities like i do mental, so i dont write them often in case i say or do something wrong with the subject.
cause Red, Nezha and SWK are autistic in my mind. Macaque has depression, Mk is Audhd and Mei is Adhd. Tang is also Autism. Swk is also Dyslexic.
hmmm, the other disabilities i have in mind for these characters would probably be Nezha's Magic limitations, where he has so much of it that if he lets it overflow his body will litterally shatter and revert to a lotus till he can reform. I sometimes like to think that when Erlang stabbed his spear through Swk's shoulders swk still has chronic pain from that bc it was left there for hours to keep him from fighting and drag him to heaven.
Nezha gets aches in his chest sometimes from...well yeah. that whole situation. Macaque gets cold sometimes, at least back when he still had lbd's magic in him. he'd get really really cold whenever he's upset, cold enough he needs a blanket. and its mostly bc of her magic reaction to negative emotions.
dats all i got tho
💤 A headcanon about their sleep
O.....oh ari >:)
you know im gonna go hard on this one.
Macaque, Nezha, Swk, Mk, Red and Mei all suffer from nightmares.
Macaque has nightmares about swk hunting him down to "send him back to the land of the dead" or about the day h was killed. and in Tangled star's case. He gets nightmares about Swk taking away Xiaohua.
Nezha has nightmares about his childhood, about being back in that house. About thunderstorms and dragons. roaring waters filled with the blood of his innocent friends. of the dragon e slayed coming back to swallow him whole and he's powerless to do anything about it. theres also the nightmare he has about his secret being revealed to all of heaven but that dream doesnt startle him awake screaming.
Swk has nightmares about all the bloodshed that happened on ffm, the burning, the war, then being tortured in heaven, the journey...the circlet....
he has nightmares about losing everything he has right now, even if its not much. Losing mk to the fire or some other demon. losing nezha, losing the new friends he's made . whether it be in a fight or to time.
Mk has nightmares about everything thats happened in the past, the villians winning and he failed to protect his friends. the samadhi fire...lbd. and recently he's had nightmares about being the villian...
Mei also has nightmares about lbd sometimes but she mostly dreams about losing control of the samadhi fire. whether its still possible or not. nightmares about losing Mk or any of her friends because she couldnt save them. she tured her back for one second and suddenly thier all gone.....
to fix this just grab em and let them pile on top of each other and suddenly nightmares are gone. cuddles are the most efficient to stop the nightmares. Mk and mei often have sleepovers and only sometimes play around. is mostly so they can hold each other and fall asleep.
Nezha will sometimes join them, he thinks he can handle the nightmares alone but the more time he spends with mk and mei the more time he finds himself inbetween his sibings.
he sometimes goes to swk too, swk is more used to dealing with the nightmares alone so when mk and mei realise he has nightmares too they break into his house with nezha carryign pillows and blankets and then all of them crash on top of him.
macaque. he's the one that struggles with them the most. he doesnt believe he has anyone to go to for these nightmares so even if he desperatly wants help he doesnt have anyone to go to. even as he sobs and holds himself on his bed and begs silently for help no one will come.
Then mk and mei find out about the nightmares and kidnap him.
they drag him to ffm where nezha and swk are already set up, they seperate swk and mac bc of the subject of macs nightmares and then plop on top of him. Lil Nezha stays with swk.
fluffy monkey makes good matress. and he's nice and cold so thats a plus.
macaque hasn't slept this well in AGES.
Swk is wondering how mk managed to move so much in his sleep his head is on Macs chest and his legs are on swk's chest.
swk and mac laugh at mk and mei takes a picture.
Thier healing, its slow and hard but their healing....
FUCKING HELL ARI IM WRITING A ONESHOT FOR THIS AFTER HOEMWORK JESUS CHRIST THIS IS GOOD.
#ask#ask game#sun wukong#monkey king#liu er mihou#six eared macaque#mk#qi xiaotian#mei#long xiaojiao#nezha#artemismoore
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I HATE DOING DISHES. but after i realized i've got autism, i also realized a lot of why i hate them is because it's so many horrible sensory things at once. the dishes are SLIMY and crusty and smell, the water's hot and LOUD, the dishes clanking are LOUD, i've got an under-cabinet heater under my sink that's LOUD and hot, often i've also got some other sort of mechanical thing going in the background that's LOUD, and it's all HORRIBLE. but i started wearing rubber gloves and headphones n turnin the heater off. and now i can do them more than once a month :')
things get so much better once you let yourself make accommodations and alter the way you do things. i never let myself do that cause i never really realized that there was an actual reason behind why i hated doing things like the dishes. i just never thought much about it, and i listened to what i was told my whole life, which is that i'm just lazy and ridiculous for having difficulty with things.
growing up, anytime i wanted to make accommodations for myself, i was told 'no, that's stupid. you're not doing that. just do it the way you're supposed to'.
i wasn't allowed to make accommodations. i wasn't allowed to make things easier or better for myself. i'm still not really allowed to in certain ways, since i still live at home. but ever since i realized im autistic and started looking at all these different things other autistic people experience, ive begun to realize all of these things that i once equated to me just 'being a pussy' are actually sensory issues related to having a fucking disability.
and because of these realizations, i decided i'm gonna help myself in whatever ways i can. and i've been able to actually DO THINGS i was rarely able to force myself through just by changing the way i do them in small ways, like headphones and no sleeves with the dishes, or a mask and gloves with litter boxes.
anyway, this is a very long rambly way of saying let yourself make things easier. let yourself make things more fun. make whatever change you want if it lets you be able to do something better
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TW: DEPICTION OF AN AUTISTIC MELTDOWN AND TALK OF MASKING AND BREAKING STUFF AS A RESULT OF STIMMING
See this:
This is Reggie ^ (credit to reggie peters fan wiki for the photo which I think I edited to look nice idk i cant remember but credit to whoevers photo this is)
ANYWAY
I love him. I love him very much. Am I projecting onto him? Yes, very much so.
He and luke are some of my comfort charichters (I love Alex too tho, so so much) and all of the boys are so autistic/nuerodivergent coded as well as being incredibly gay-coded (I mean alex is actually canonly gay but let's be real all of the characters in this are all Not Straight/Not Cis.)
ANYWAY IM GETTING OFF TRACK.
SEE THIS:
I AM CONVINCED THAT THIS IS CHEWLREY.
It HAS to be.
1000%
I mean check it out:
I mean litterally- it',s almost exactly the same. And the string is covered in beads, also for stimming.
My two theories are:
Reggie always chewed on his bass picks and for his 15th birthday or something alex and Luke got him the necklace for him to have something else to chew on because reggie was always without a pick or stealing their or snapping them in his teeth and having to get new ones. He's really grateful for it but doesn't wear it to their concerts so that fans and strangers don't think he's weird. So when he dies without it on he's really upset that he's not going to have it for the rest of his afterlife, and when the boys find the clothes in the loft he's so exited and puts it on right away.
[EDIT: I've checked and he was wearing it in the opening scene of episode 1, meaning he died in it :( I still think its a sweet idea tho]
(Very plausible seeing as though I used to chew on my guitar pick and only stopped because it broke and now I have no guitar pick and no chewlry.)
OR:
Reggie was trying to mask his autism from Julie because he was scared of what she'd think and stuff and it made him really stressed and he started chewing on everything- his pencils, his guitar picks, his sleeves, his cutlery, EVERYTHING. But hiding all that from Julie was exhausting and so in the end he stopped stimming alltogether and not doing it made him overload and have a meltdown. Alex and Luke sprung into action and helped Reggie through it, he went non-speaking but nodded when Alex asked him if he and Luke could explain what had happened to Julie. She's really understanding and apologises for not knowing what to do. When Reggie gets his voice back he says his favourite stim aside from playing bass is chewing and said that if she was grossed out by it he would warn her before doing it so she could leave the room or something. Instead she buys the chewlrey for him and he never takes it off.
Or as a third theory he couldve gotten it as a kid as a gift from his parents if they weren't as bad as fanfiction and theories say they are.
But yeah. That's chewlrey. Litterally looks like chewlrey.
#He is autistic#And so is Luke#And so is Alex#And Luke has adhd#And Luke has anxiety#And some trauma#And Willie has adhd#And Reggie has auditory processing disorder#They're all queer#And Luke is trans#lgbtq#nurodivergent#Adhd#Autism chewlrey#Actually autistic#Jatp#Julie and the Phantoms#Reggie peters
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How do you feel about gender?
Really complicated.
Basically, I don't know what gender is or the differences and never have. As a kid, my brother wore dresses and did 'feminine things' like played with dolls and stuff. I for one played with trucks and cars and ripped batteries out of dolls. I hated dressing up in fairy princess stuff cuz due to autism i just had this inability to pretend i was someone else yk like i had a shit imagination in that way. if someone said "pretend to be invisible" kid me would be like "but im not invisible." anyway. I really liked the colour pink and saw everything pink. flash forward a bit to like 7-13 i was onn the internet a lot, reguarly stayed up to 7 am hanging with my brother. I was chronically online on multiple social media platforms. So I did see all this shit about 'tomboys' and 'boys vs girls' However I saw it all as satire and fictional. I would see posts showing boys in suits and would be like 'yeah but they can wear dresses too, no one actually is stupid enough to gender clothes' oh little did child me know that society did that 24/7.
One of my quotes I had as a kid was "True tomboys don't give a fuck about wearing "girly" clothing because boys wouldn't care about "girly" clothing because they don't care about clothes" This was my idea, because I knew that boys didn't care about clothes based on stereotypes, I knew that girls cared about clothes. (this was the only gender stereotype I believed to an extent) however child me didn't realize that boys actually did hate feminine stuff especially pink and wearing dresses. So yeah that quote didn't go well. Anway, I also was under the influence of adult cartoons since I watched southpark since 7 and onwards so I just kinda saw myself in the main 4 boys which again further made me seperate to "girl" or whatever. young me just didn't get it. I geneuinly believed girls and boys were exactly the same in everything, I believed girls were biologically as strong as boys, often wondered why i never saw girls fighting boys in wrestling, I believed they topped in all sex same as boy (like switch), I believed boys could have babies, I believed masculine and feminine clothing were for anyone and didn't mean anything, i believed clothes were clothes, I believed boys were not allowed to be shirtless and even told some guy on the stress off for quote on quote showing his breasts ect. so young me just went around thinking that stuff. So then when it got to me being 16 and stuff I had no idea the gender differences, I believed breasts are not girl or boy so when this trans guy said to me that he didn't want breasts , I geneuinly didn't understnad because I didn't gender breasts. same with dicks i didnt gender that either yk. I gendered nothing not even names or pronouns or anything. It was gender equality taken litterally. I vividly remember one of my genderfluid friends getting pissed at me because I refused to wear makeup despite me identifying as a "girl" at the time, I say that cuz all I believed a girl was was the label girl. and i believed boy was just the label boy and nothing else was different between them. I actually rlly was uncomfy with ppl treating me diff based on gender cuz i didnt get why it was so seperated. I sorta realised the social differences over time but it still confuses me to this day. I truly believed all these gender social roles were nothing but memes and satire. Its why I have no idea what my gender is now cuz i dont know what it is, all ik is that i get treated differently based on it. I think I am nonbinary? but idk. and honestly I get really uncomfortable with things like changing my name cuz I never really saw my name as a girl name or a fem or masc thing, i just saw it as what im used to and i like keeping what im used to
#ask#jesus this is long im sorry but i just had to get it all out#i hope this makes sense#sorry if it doesnt#just realised u said 'gender' not 'your gender' well ig my response answers both of these in a way#my gennder = idk#thoughts on gender in general = idk#THIS IS WHY KIDS SHOULD NOT BE ON SOCIAL MEDIA OR HAVING A COMPUTER OR WATCHING SP AT 7#but in fairness my brother had a similar upbringing and he still knew difference in gender#so who knows why i never got it
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IVE HAD HER FOR A LOT MORE HERE'S SOME PROPAGANDA:
she's canonically trans and supported by everyone on the island!! she came out by changing the gender of her name from juanflippo to juanaflippa (and through rendering to herself with feminine words/pronouns when talking to mariana)
SPEAKING OF MARIANA!! her mom is actually bigender!!! he was assigned he/she pronouns by charlie slimecicle and now everyone on the island has accepted that as canon and uses he/she for mariana (this adds to flippas trans swagger I promise)
her name actually comes from el backflippo, otherwise known as charlie slimecicle!! they would backflip together as a family and when they hugged her in the federation heaven room, they did one last family backflippo before she left </3
when she got misgendered exactly one time everybody was quick to correct people, and charlie even said "flippa, my son died right here. but my DAUGHTER?? just hit the SICKEST fucking backflip!!!!!"
she's my daughter and if she doesn't win I will tear my mattress apart with my bear hands
I think she deserves exactly 1 (one) win because not ONLY did she lose the other transswag competition; she has never won anything in her entire life. she consistently eats shit and dies due to her parents not being great at minecraft. she's literally died at least 7 or 8 times by now if you count the codeflippa deaths
speaking of codeflippa, she came back to life!! but wrong. trans allegory or something someone smarter than me can read into it
her favorite and first toy was a gun <3 <3
her best friend was nonbinary!! tilin meant the world to her and they were the best of friends I think tilin would want her to win for the both of them bro TRUST 🙏🙏
charlie loves his daughter SO much he's litterally corrupting into code because an imposter is acting like her and he's so grief-stricken he's willing to believe it
Mariana hasn't logged on for months but he also loves her sososososooo much and they built his house together <3 <3
she's dramatic as fuck and will fall into pieces at the slightest inconvenience
you know the rules. slimecicle adjacent character put some autism in that mf. she's my little weird daughter my hueva that means soo much to me
her favorite food is avocado toast!! she also likes green things because of her papa slime <3
a popular headcanon for her design has her wearing a trans pride cape instead of marianas one punch man cape!! they match each other <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
a popular headcanon for both mariana and slime are protect trans kids pins on their backpacks!! along with little patches and keychains of trans-adjacent merch
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CHARLIE LITERALLY WROTE A SONG ABOUT HER ^^
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MULTIPLE TIMES‼️‼️
slime and Mariana literally hatefuck each other on the regular and if they never inherited flippa from her dragon mom (she, along with all the eggs, is adopted) we would never have achieved their on stream gay sex to clocks by coldplay
im so mentally ill about her i once made a full 14 slide presentation in the span of an hour about the misclick family to show to my friends during a sideshow vc night. im 100% serious about this it's detailed too pictures graphs text info walls and all
here are the slides about her specifically ^_^
tldr: please. let my daughter win im begging you
ROUND FOUR - SEMIFINALS
Zedaph/Worm-man: nominated from Hermitcraft. Headcanoned to be bigender, transmasc, transfem and multigender (she/he/they/its pronouns)
JuannaFlippa: nominated from Quackity SMP. She is a character played by an admin and not a MCYT, but is canonically transfem and uses she/her
#qsmp#PLEASEEEE LET HER SWEEP YOU HAVE NO IDEA#I WISHH I COULD PUT IT INTO WORDS HOW INSANE I AM ABOUT HER#LET MY HUEVA WIN!!!!! MY DAUGHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE DESERVES THIS#also sorry for the long ass post i actually cut it short because i tried to stick to exclusively trans-related propaganda#i didnt stick to it very strictly but i cut our most of my tangents sorry </3#Youtube
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“tim drake is so bland, he’s the white bread of food” yeah well huh ever think about people like bland. huh! toasted white bread with butter is one of my favorite Safe Foods. litterally bread and butter. cant get much more plain than that. the crispness of the bread—how it holds itself together, the crunch it makes when you bite into it, the hot, melted butter that ties it all together. i love it so much. its plain and its boring and i know ita plain and boring. i love it because it plain, because it tastes so damn good to me. canon tim drake is an asshole and a misogynist and fuck that dude. but damn. i sure do love to project onto fanon tim drake [*slaps tim* this badboy can contain so much autism and transness]
so yeah. i love to bully time drake, i know you do to babeyy, and i do actually like him, but goddam it sure is fun to see people razz and beat on my comfort characters. when it gets not fun i just ignore the post and move on (like everyone should do lmao). all characters deserve a smackdown, and they can all be taken down a few pegs. especially comic characters. comic writers do the comic characters dirtyy (or rather they take the potential of the character and ruin it). winding down, im not sure if this seemed angry/targeted or wholly sarcastic, but i can assure you, it is most definitely not. i mention again, i am autistic lmao. i worry im coming off as rude but please know im not trying to be. anyways. *kicks out the backs of tim’s knees* *gives him a hug afterwards*
That was a ride but I think I got where you wanted me to in the end. Yeah! All characters need to be made fun of sometimes. It keeps everyone humble lol. The block feature is everyone’s best friend! No point in being resentful and wasting your energy on someone when you can just block (because rest assured, I will block if someone tries to pick a fight with me over a fictional character).
P.S. I actually like when Tim is an asshole sometimes (to a degree). It’s part of his charm, to me. (When it’s not related to him being misogynistic and such.) He’s a little shit, what can you do?
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Not sure how else to explain this but the whole idea that if you tell someone to stop hyperfixating on something or tell them that you cant consume certain things critically is ableist is bs.
Warning, bitch long, yeet
Like, its very very centered around adhd people who have bigoted interests and value their fandom over actual support of oppressed people. Its very clear yall veiw adhd and autisitc people as children who " just cant help it" which is ableist. I personally am professionally diagnosed with adhd and autism, i cant fully control (to an extent) what i hyperfixate on but i can control my own actions.
Like recently, ive found myself wanting to go watch pewdiepie videos and rewatch the anime hetalia, both are things i HEAVILY hyperfixated on for 4 or more years. Both things are horribly racist and i am well aware of this now after their inital popularity waves have died out. However, i am mature enough to notice when my hyperfixation is about to start rehappening cause ive had it before.
Ive hyperfixated and unhyperfixated on fnaf and undertale on and off for years. I know what that first itch of " oooo... Im kinda getting attached again" feels like and any adhd or autisitc person CAN. Its litterally one of the first positive things about haveing these disorders that people notice. We know when a new interest has the potential of starting and wr can quite litterally feel it like every other person, nd or nt.
But the difference between a person who is using the whole argument of " i have adhd so you cant hold me morally responsible for supporting harry potter" as an excuse to keep helping a bigoted creator vs a mature adhd individual who can not control their hyperfixations is their actions after the intial " shit! its by a bad person/its bigoted!"
If someone with adhd and/or autism is drawing and posting fanart, buying shitloads of merch, making cosplays, posting about it, talking about it constantly to friends and reccommending it to people as being the holy grail of interesting things? Thats not critical consumption. Your just being a intentionally blind consumer. Even if they are re-entering an old interest and have old merch, your still wearing it out/posting it in public to advertise it to others.
Your that bigoted creator's walking propaganda
Just cause i noticed that im wanting to rewatch hetalia or pewdiepie dosent mean i dont have the self control to go watch something or someone else that im interested in that isnt racist. People with adhd and autism have self control over these actions. Yeah we cant control if we start stimming or bouncing our legs cause we are getting hyper, but we can control who we watch and what we monetarily support.
I have old hetalia shirts, i dont wear them in public. Thats a pj shirt now because i dont want others to ask about hetalia and get interested in it because they saw me in it. I dont want to advertise that i was a dumb kid who liked a racist old anime. Liking hetalia isnt a good thing and i should feel at least abit of shame that i ever liked it.
Im not gonna shame my 13 yr old self for not noticing racism that wasnt blatant and hateful but instead romantizing nazi japan but im still gonna shame myself for not noticing racism period. Yeah, i do believe the 13 yr olds who still support dream and buy his shit and post fanart but think its ok cause they are " consuming critically" should feel ashamed. If you know you like something or someone regardless of their horrendously terrible actions, you should be ashamed of yourself. That dosent mean kick your ass about it but you should still feel that.
Basically, us adhd and autisitc people know when we are about to hyperfixate on something and we feel emotions strongly enough that if we find the bigotry in it to be bad enough, guilt will build up( as it SHOULD. Cause you are guilty of supporting a bigot.) Till we dont feel comfortable fuckin around with it anymore and boom! Hyperfixation gone. I was hyperfixating on fnaf till the shit about scott came out and suddenly, my hyperfix took a u-turn. I was starting to hyperfix on oran high school host club as i was watching it then they started saying tranny and being weirdly transphobic/homophobic and condoning/glorifying incest and boom! Hyperfix is dead in the water.
The thing about autisitc people is we tend to have our own strict moral code that we do NOT want to break. I dont think stealing from random people is a good thing so when i play a video game, i get crazy nervous trying to steal things. If i break one of my own morals, i feel like im rotting alive in anguish. I looked through my gfs phone once cause i suspected cheating, didnt find anything. I think looking through your partner's phone is a pretty shitty and invading thing unless cheating has already been a confirmed issue so i felt very guilty. Planned on staying quiet about it, didnt happen, i told her in under 10 minutes of it happening and she forgave me. We still feel bad for shit that happened when we were like 8.
So yeah, the only time an autistic person wont feel guilty about supporting bigoted work/bigoted artists shit is if that bigotry dosent go aginest that internal code. Yes, that autistic friend of yours who unapologetically supports dream, dosent think racism is bad enough to feel guilty about it. Its not that hard.
Another thing is that we can control our own actions. We arnt immature enough to just be utterly incapable of not watch pewdiepie 😭 when our brain remembers our old interests. We can control ourselves enough to understand that and not click on his videos. We are mature enough to sit down, sigh, remember his actions and the things he promotes, understand the harm he caused to many people, understand that if this hyperfixation is ignored that it will pass then click on a markiplier video and forget about it. Any adhd or autisitc person who tells you otherwise is either a. Not getting the help they need to cope,b. Telling you some bullshit just so youll stop asking why they think a racist is funny or c. Dosent actually care about the damage done by racists enough to feel moral guilt over supporting one.
Final note: people with adhd and autism, though can not control their hyperfixations, can control their own actions. They can stop themselves from consuming shitty bigoted content by shitty bigoted people and " critical consumption" is an excuse.
#levi speaks#anyone who calls my disabled ass an ableist cause you cant critically consume dream while posting fanart can pay me $500#ableism my ass#you can control your own fuckin actions you just dont want the backlash#either that or get some fucking self control#either your immature or you dont care about the bigotry#either option dont worl
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Omega Headcanons
i’ve noticed that, within the aboverse, omegas are usually stereotyped to be all cute, and soft, and pretty and in alot of fic, particularly outside of tumblr, theyre portrayed as always needing an alpha to protect them because theyre just so soft and weak and theyre simply too small and fragile to defend themselves 😿
well i say fuck that!! as someone who sees themselves as an omega but doesn’t fit into any of those stereotypes, i wanna be self indulgent and write omegas who are tough, or generally just go against what omegas are thought to be
do omegas who are soft and gentle and feminine and small and prefer the company of alphas exist?? yes, obviously and its not their fault negative stereotypes get pushed onto other omegas!! but there are also alot of omegas who are the complete opposite of that- theyre rough, theyre mean, they cuss alot, theyre big, theyre masculine, etc. there are omegas who exist in between and omegas who exist outside of those two styles/aesthetics.
there are omegas who prefer alphas, and omegas who prefer betas, and omegas who prefer other omegas, and omegas who don’t really care for dynamic and omegas who arent really attracted to anybody among many, many other possible things
and um this is getting a little bit rambly and i also dont really know how to connect from that to the other stuff i wanna say so im gonna put the rest of my thoughts into a little list:
omegas have something thats kinda similar to an Alpha Voice, but instead of the effect coming from their voice, it comes from their scent
an omega’s scent can be very calming, and omegas are known to use this ability in high stress situations, but its effects are mostly limited to other omegas and pups
like i mentioned before- omegas love platonic scenting!! they find a lot of comfort in it, either from the physical contact, the scent of the other person, or just the act of scenting in and of itself can be comforting to some
neurodivergent omegas!! omegas with autism, adhd, dyslexia, etc
omegas who love being wrapped in heavy + warm blankets not just to fulfill their need to nest but also as form of comfort from sensory overload
if an omega isnt ready for a claiming bite for whatever reason, the mates can opt for scent marking instead
scent marking between mates is basically when an alpha/beta (but works best for alphas) rub the scent glands on their wrists directly onto the scent glands of their partner, which causes their partner to release a certain pheremone/scent which basically lets others know the omega/beta is claimed in the same way a claiming bite would, just w/o a physical mark
scent marking between mates has the strongest effect on omegas, but it works perfectly fine on betas as well!!
related to scent marking- omegas also have scent glands on their inner thighs, close to their genitalia so there is some potential for nsfw if you really want it
okay okay but like- tough/masc omegas who love love love nesting but see it as something to be ashamed of bc it makes them ‘weak’ or ‘feminine’
so a tougher/more masc omega letting you into their nest or allowing you to watch them nest turns into a show of vunerability- theyre showing you the parts of themselves theyre afraid of and hate to indulge in bc they know (or at least hope) you wont judge them for it
same as before but double that if the omega in question ever becomes pregant
theyre allowing you into their most safe space- where they’ll bring their pups after theyre born- and allowing you to stay with them and letting their guard down for you
and since theyre with pup they’d be nesting double time, not just for themselves but for the baby so they basically have to give in to the side of themselves they hate but theyre still allowing themselves to be vulnerable around you 🥺
basically
tough/masc omegas who trust you and let their guard down around you and arent afraid to be vunerable with you >>>
and um this is just me being Gay and Indulgent but in my verse, out of all the alpha/omega relationships (f!a/m!o, m!a/f!o, etc) the ones with the highest chance of producing a large and healthy litter are F!Alpha/F!Omega (M!Alpha/M!Omega is a close second)
in my verse, theres a strong focus on people’s abilities to have children and relationships are judged based mostly on how capable they are of producing pups and, if so, how many
so F!Alpha/F!Omega is seen as the best relationship type among a/o relationships
but its not as ‘forced’ as you would expect it to be due to that??
the main ‘sought after’ relationship types are beta/beta, F!Alpha/Male!Omega, M!Alpha/F!Omega, and M!Alpha/M!Omega
(this is kinda based off of how most abo fics center around m/m or m/f relationships and f/f relationships or even female alphas + betas are rarely shown)
(at least from what i’ve seen anyway)
#a/b/o headcanons#a/b/o dynamics#a/b/o au#omegaverse headcanon#omegaverse#alpha/beta/omega dynamics#alpha/beta/omega verse#alpha/beta/omega#omega headcanons#omegas#scenting headcanons#pup headcanons#omegaverse au#long post#meta stuff??#idk
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Mercs with a girlfriend whos autistic and has body stims, and is insecure about it? Specifically rocking and chewing? Maybe include them catching her rocking while she was alone or seeing maybe one two many chewed up bottle caps or plastics in the trash? As you can tell im self indulgent and I like comfort
Ayy there ain’t nothing wrong with being self indulgent, self indulgence is why I created this blog. And hey, who doesn’t like comfort? Being comforted is like the 2nd best feeling in the world.
Scout- He doesn’t know why he looked. Something in his gut told him...but that doesn’t make any sense to him. Why would a gut feeling tell you to look in a trash bin and pick up a green bottle cap. It looked chewed to all hell. Teeth marks littered the small piece of plastic. Another one was pulled out at random. A yellow cap with the same marks. Rooting the trash revealed more and more chewed up caps. He wasn’t confused or upset. He was more...curious than anything. He decided that the best way to sate this curiosity was to talk to her directly. He tells her that he found the bottle caps and he of course panics when she looks just as panicked as him.
“No no i-it’s okay! I chew on my pencils sometimes! And-And I chew on my fingernails! Look look, see? You don’t have to feel b-bad...”
The bandages are peeled off his hands to reveal red nail bitten fingers. He tries to joke that at least chewing on caps doesn’t lead to an infection...he hopes anyway. He doesn’t want you to feel ashamed about the way she is. If he mocked her for chewing on plastic, he might as well wear a sign that says “BIG FREAKING HYPOCRITE”. He always makes sure to remind her she has nothing to hide from him.
Soldier- He’s caught her a couple of times. He’s seen her rocking in their bedroom and sometimes the rec room. She always seemed to do it alone though. Soldier was never known for his wits or intelligence. No, this man is famous in the team for jumping to conclusions. Once he saw you rock again, he thought back to his time with Merasmus. The wizard sometimes rocked in a similar manner...was his girlfriend a wizard too? Was this some sort of summoning ritual? But what would she be summoning? Aha! A warm blooded American like her (he thinks this even if she’s not American) must be summoning the spirit of George Washington! The next time he catches sight of her rocking, he busts right in and take a seat next to her. Not noticing the panicked look on your face, he copies your rocking movement. She asks him what he’s doing. He, of course, tells her that he’s helping her summon the ghost of George Washington. She then has to explain to him what stimming is.
“Oh. This is...stimming. Can we still try to summon George Washington?”
She tells him that they can try and he is beyond excited to see George again. Her rocking doesn’t bother him, it never bothered him to begin with. To him, it’s just something she does. Nothing to feel bad about. Though he promises to beat the crap out of this “Insecurity” she keeps talking about. She has nothing to worry about when around her Soldier (though she still worries he somehow summoned Washington without her knowing).
Pyro- At first, they didn’t think much of it. So she liked to chew on bottle caps, that wasn’t a big deal at all. They remember all sorts of weird things they used to chew on as a kid. Rubber, hair, plastic, nails, etc. You name it, they chewed on it. They’re about to move past it when they realize something else. All that chewing eventually lead them to chewing on more meaty parts of their body, like their arms and hands. What if...what if she was doing that too? The thought of their girlfriend harming herself brought tears to their eyes. His girlfriend was in for quite a shock when Pyro burst through their door, sobbing loudly behind their mask. They gesture for her to hold her arms out and she obliges. They check her arms and let out an audible sigh of relief when her arms looked to be bite free. His girlfriend asks him what all this was about. Pyro pulled out one of her chewed up caps, though they quickly put it away when they saw the look of shame and embarrassment. They explained (or mumbled rather) that they used to do the same thing, so they understand why she would feel embarrassed and insecure. Pyro reassures her as long as she’s not hurting herself, she’s perfectly fine. They even collect clean bottle caps and give it to her as a little gift.
Demo- He sees her doing it. It���s stimming, right? He sure hope it is, he remembers some of the kids from his orphanage were autistic too. He was even friends with a few of them. They used to do the same thing, rocking and such. He used to laugh about it, it was a little funny to watch honestly, but he quickly realized his mistake when they made an even bigger effort to hide from him. He admits he could be a shitty little kid sometimes. So it’s not surprising that he feels like that guilty little kid again. Why does she feel insecure about it? Did somebody say something? He just sighs and takes a sip of scrumpy. He can’t have his fav lass feeling so down around him or anyone. So he walks into the room, right when she was in the middle of rocking, and takes a seat next to her. He sighs and slowly grabs her hand, squeezing gently
“Aye lass...ya know I love ya, right? Nothing ya do is ever gonna change that.”
He’s not going to make her stop. It helps her with her emotions, right? So why make her stop doing something that’s beneficial to her? Plus, just like when he was a kid, it’s going to make him chuckle sometimes. He’s obviously not going to say it aloud but it’s funny to watch. But also calming in a way. Just watching you rock puts him in a state of tranquility.
Heavy- He keeps finding soda caps in the trash. They always appear to be chewed on? He’s confused to say the least. Is somebody so hungry that they resort to eating plastic? Why though...there’s plenty of food on the base. He considers leaving out sandviches for this mysterious chewing person. He’ll do that later. Maybe his girlfriend might know something. He presents her with a few chewed up caps and asks her if she knows something. The look on her face simultaneously breaks his heart and strikes fear in it. Oh no he made a mistake, here here, just take $7000, go shopping, please don’t be sad. He’s gonna go to Medic and ask him about it. He’s gonna feel like a big insensitive idiot when the doctor explains to him that she’s simply stimming. Oh, that makes sense. He’s gonna bashfully approach her and apologize for making her feel a certain way.
“Am sorry for embarrassing you. Heavy did not understand. This...stimming...is fine. You are fine.”
He wish he could say more but his English is still in need of work. He just wants you to be comfortable and happy. If that means chewing on bottle caps, go right ahead. Heavy does not judge. He may even give her some bottle caps if she wants some. Anything for his beloved.
Engineer- Dad mode activated. Is she okay? Is something wrong? Seeing her rocking alone is immediately gonna worry him. He has a vague idea of stimming and autism since a few of his classmates and cousins were autistic. Though he only really saw them do it when they were overwhelmed and that worried him. She’s overwhelmed, isn’t she? Well that won’t do at all. Cue the montage. This man is gonna do everything in his power to make you comfortable. Dim the lights, quietly berate the team for making too much noise, make the team dinners into something you like all the time. Engie is nice and all but everyone (gf) can see something is bothering him. His gf is probably gonna have to confront him. He’s gonna look embarrassed and try to make it seem like something isn’t wrong. But, being the honest good boi he is, he’s gonna crack and admit the truth.
“I see you rocking sometimes. I know you’re different and all but are you okay? I just want you to feel at home in the base here, honey bee.
That’s when she’s gonna have to explain to him how stimming works. Yes, she does it do because she’s overwhelmed, but she also does it when she’s feeling a strong emotion. It’s calming for her. Engie is gonna be both relieved and happy when he hears that it’s a calming mechanism for her. But he’s gonna be worried again when she admits that she’s insecure about it. Insecure? Why should she feel bad about something that makes her feel better? Either way, he doesn’t want his love to feel bad anyway. So she’s gonna have to deal with his constant reminders that he loves her and his constant feats to make her comfortable in the presences of the public and himself.
Medic- Oh, she’s stimming. He isn’t surprised considering she’s autistic. He already kinda knew she was autistic after the first few days of knowing her. He is a doctor, after all. A crazed one but not a dumb one. So he’s okay with her chewing. But he’s really not okay with her chewing on bottle caps of all things! Gott, doesn’t she know how dirty these cheap factory made caps are?! Think of all the germs!! Their wearing down her precious teeth!!! Ahem, as a semi professional doctor, he doesn’t scream these complaints at her. Rather, he tells her out of nowhere while he’s working that he knows about her cap chewing.
“Those caps of yours carry so many germs, mäuschen, you don’t vant a dirty mouth, do you? Not to mention that they wear down you’re lovely teeth.”
He says it so calmly and offhandedly that it’s easy to assume that he doesn’t care that much or he’s insulting you. Quite the contrary, he cares very much about matters that concern your health. He doesn’t mean to sound mean. Plus, he does show he cares when he gets you a couple of chewy toys or items, ones that won’t wear down your teeth. Wait you’re insecure about your stimming? Now you’re just being irrational. It’s completely natural for someone like her. How can he shame you for stimming, he would have to admit he has failed as a doctor and boyfriend if he did such a thing. He encourages you to stim with the items he bought you.
Sniper- Growing up in the middle of nowhere with two parents and spending most of his life in near isolation, he’s not gonna know much about autism. Least of all what stimming is. So he’s not gonna judge her for her behavior or mannerisms. That’s just how some people are, can’t really do much when it comes to how people’s minds work. He’s caught her rocking sometimes. Though he only sees her doing when she thought he was asleep or in the other room. Ah, he figures that it’s something she likes to do in her private time. Perfectly understandable. So he just pretends he doesn’t see anything and just moves on with life. Though there comes the day when he accidentally walks in on her rocking. They both freeze and just stare at each other. The look on her face reminds her of his own face when’s been caught pissing in jars or baby talking a cute stray. Shame and embarrassment. He closes the door and just isolates himself. He embarrassed her. He loathes embarrassment and he just hates himself for just making her feel that way. After returning from his self banishment, he’s gonna immediately apologize.
“Mmm sorry...didn’t mean to barge in on your personal space, roo. Wasn’t thinking straight...”
Whether or not she tell him what stimming is, he’s gonna respect her privacy. He’ll leave the room if she starts stimming or stay out if she is stimming. It’ll always be “her” private activity so he’s not gonna invade her privacy. He’ll gladly stay if she says it’s okay for him to stay with her. He knows that she’s insecure about it and he understands completely, he’s one of the most insecure people on the team. To combat her insecurity, he’ll chase everyone out of the room if she needs to stim or remind her that you just do you.
Spy- He’s not gonna actively root through some trash Scout but he does notice some chewed up caps. He’ll raise an eyebrow. Well, sees like someone on the team has a bit of a chewing problem. He’s willing to bet that it’s either Scout or Pyro. Being the nosy bitch he is, he’s gonna pay extra close attention to his team. His girlfriend isn’t safe from his snooping either. He quickly learns it’s her when he’s cloaked and he catches her chewing on some bottle caps in the (supposed) privacy of her room. He watches her for a bit before slinking out the room. He doesn’t tell. Of course he doesn’t. But he does want to talk to her. He’s just not sure what to say. He’s not bothered by her chewing, it’s just another special little quirk of hers. He’s mostly worried that confronting her about it will lead to her getting emotional and he’s just not ready to handle that. But he sometimes say things that hints that he knows about her stimming.“Mon amour, do you want me to buy you something from the grocery store? Some water bottles, perhaps? Or some sweets, maybe?”She shouldn’t be too surprised when she sees that some brand new chewy items have been left in her room. If she doesn’t use the items as left, then she’s gonna find a stack of bottle caps. The caps look and smell cleaned? It’s obvious who's leaving these gifts around. To help with her insecurity, she’s gonna be receiving a lot more soft kisses that seem to last longer than usual. Still insecure? He must buy more of what she wants and needs.
Miss Pauling- She’s rarely home long enough to catch her stimming. She usually comes in, gives her a quick kiss, drinks some coffee, and is out to work again. So her girlfriend can stim all she wants in the safety and privacy of her home. Pauling is well aware of stimming so she already knows her girlfriend stims. But she does find it a little odd that she never sees her stimming in front of her. But she doesn’t dwell on that thought too long since she needs to focus on the work at hand. She only catches her gf in the act when she finally gets her yearly day off. She stumbles into the house in the dead of night, ready to crash and enjoy the day sleeping and cuddling her girl. She walks into the room and sees her rocking. At any other time, she would sit and talk with her. But now? She was already half asleep and didn’t fully comprehend the gravity of the situation or how embarrassed her girlfriend looked. She just sleepily mumbled.“Sorry babe, did I interrupt...I’m so tired. Come lay with me please...I wanna lay in those soft arms forever...”She’s gonna hit the bed and pass right out, whether or not she was in her girlfriend’s arms. She only realizes everything in the morning. She’s kinda embarrassed about how she acted. But at least she got to see you stim! But she looked embarrassed...was that why she did it alone. Then she feels shitty for interrupting. She doesn’t feel the need to talk with her about it. She just lays with her on the couch all day and watches whatever she likes. She’s a lot more affectionate with her that, but only if her girlfriend is okay with it. When she’s busy at work, she’ll make sure to leave little cheesy love notes everywhere. And her short breaks are spent in her girlfriend’s arms. She loves her for who she is.
#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 headcanons#tf2 imagines#tf2 scout#tf2 solider#tf2 pyro#tf2 demoman#tf2 heavy#tf2 engineer#tf2 medic#tf2 sniper#tf2 spy#tf2 miss pauling#asks
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i wish my partners stayed the fuck out of my dm’s off my reddit, anf out of my fucking socials. Theres a reason i dont post there anymore/ Tumblr is the last safe space because theyre not here
cant even go ask for help because it would “mAkE tHeM lOoK bAd”
content warning for emotional manipulation, verbal abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, CSA, SA, crossing of boundries, and kink related discorse.
cant hop on reddit goin “hey, im in need of a wheelchair because im looking at loosing all my mobility in about a decade, and i would like to be used to having one and not consider it an emergancy considering im already in need of one now, just not very regularly., so im opening emergant comissions to help afford a wheelchair” without my bf and gf coming to me privately and telling me to take the post down because it makes them look like theyre not supporting me.
used to vent in a kink related discord server were all in about my struggles with being both asexual and hyper sexual (i think that the only way ill be valued is if i give myself to someone sexually, but if/when i do, i get severe anxiety and guilt and feel nausious over it, not to mention the EDS bullshit that comes with it) but i cant do that anymore because when i talked about it, the post was taken down due to it being seen as talking bad about fellow members of the discord. IT WASNT FUCKING ABOUT THEM, IT WAS ABOUT ME AND MY TRAUMA
tiktok is my personal journal that i keep public for memory reason (sometimes i get a post that an alter posted and it reminds me to do something) and i cant even vent there. I made a vent post about the ants we had a while back because i have severe paranoia around bugs and hallucinations and they make me litterally become suicidal if ants crawl on me, and i was told to talk it down because “it made my bf look neglectful”.
i specifically told my gf not to go through my discord DM’s because i didnt want her seeing certain things. including but not limited to: pictures of me as a minor (both appropriate and inappropriate), vent things where i explicitally state that the first way i explain things will always be offencive because of autism, and i vent to help get around that, people who ive closed the dms of but not unfriended/blocked because i forgot who groomed me or sexually abused me, PROOF of sexual and physical abuse (including pictures of me bleeding) and so much more. she ignored it specifically because she, and i quote “didnt think i would tell the truth” about a conversation i had with a friend. she didnt even fucking feel bad about it till bf said that he was dissapointed in her.
Litterally the only reason tumblr is anywhere near safe is because they dont have a tumblr and refuse to make one. not even my facebook is safe because i have blood relatives on there and ex abusers who want me dead and people who plan to mock me for having something as simple as a bad day. i have no safe, private spaces, and im so fucking tired of it.
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How slowly or quickly would you say you eat? I’m a pretty fast eater for the most part - I always have been.
Do you remember how you felt on 9/11? Confused, maybe a bit frightened? We were in school when it happened and ended up watching it live on TV during French class.
What outfit makes you feel the most attractive? Cute dresses, skinny jeans and nice tops.
What do you think of people who always wear make-up? I don’t - people are free to wear whatever they want, surely? I used to wear it daily but I sweat a lot in my current job and end up all mucky so it’s just a waste. What’s a smell that absolutely makes you gag? Dustbins in the summer.
Is there a smell that gives you headaches? Yankee candles - any of them. They just smell so artificial and strong to me. I’m glad I discovered The Little Wax Box Co as their melts smell so good without the artificial-ness.
What about one that reminds you of the past? Boiled rice.
What’s your least favourite thing about summer? The humidity.
What’s your least favorite thing about the holiday season? How busy and crowded the shops get, and the expectations to have a the perfect day and time.
Other than yourself, who knows you the best? My husband. How long have you known this person? Six years. Do you have any embarrassing qualities and, if so, what are they? I don’t really find myself embarrassing and I wouldn’t want to spend time with people who felt like I embarrassed them. I can be quite clumsy though and I suppose some people could find that embarrassing.
What did you do the last time you were with friends? Went out for coffee.
Did you enjoy this activity, or not so much? Sure, it was fine.
What’s one complaint that you have about school? Because it’s designed to fit everyone, it generally doesn’t fit anyone, especially those who are neuro-diverse. Being autistic and going to a school that focused on team work and socialisation was really fucking horrible.
What do you do while you’re on campus but not in class? I used to go to the library or Starbucks.
What do you think of people who’re home-schooled? Nothing at all, really - sometimes I envy them, really. Do you know anyone who has Autism/Asperger’s syndrome? That’s me. My dad, aunt and cousin also have it.
Has anyone of the same sex ever hit on you? Yeah.
Are you open to a same-sex relationship and why or why not? Sure, I would be if I was single.
Do you ever look down on people you don’t know? No.
Have you ever dressed like or worn clothing belonging to the opposite sex? I’ve worn Mike’s hoodie and t-shirts and stuff before, yeah.
What do you think of people who litter and do you? It’s scummy, lazy and inconsiderate and no, definitely not.
When was the last time you climbed a flight of stairs? About an hour ago when I went to get a hoody from my wardrobe.
How much time do you spend online daily? Ages, but I run my business online, watch TV via the internet and play games online too.
Do you remember your first time using the internet? I remember the first time we got it at home, yeah. It was painfully slow dial-up and took FOREVER.
Do you remember life without the internet? I sure do. We didn’t get internet at home until I was 13 and it was dial-up until I was about sixteen or so.
Do you wear sunglasses regularly? No.
Would you rather have six months of extremely cold winter weather or six months of blistering, brain-frying heat? The latter.
Have you ever found yourself to be ugly? In the past, sure.
How much have you eaten today? I had some weetabix with fruit for breakfast, and then calamari and veggies for lunch.
Have you read the Twilight series and do you like it or dislike it? It was fine - I mean, it’s not meant to be highbrow literature, it’s a teenage vampire novel, lol.
Look at your nails; Do they need to be cut? No, I cut them yesterday.
Have you been on any type of online messengers today? Facebook IM and also my business messenger.
Who was the last person you called? My mum, I think.
What are you wearing on your feet? Nothing.
Can you crack your toes? Yeah, my toes crack constantly.
What are you currently dressed in? I’m wearing black leggings, a black and white floral tunic dress and a grey zip-up hoody.
What was the last thing you watched on the TV? Keeping Up Appearances.
What was the last thing you looked up on Google? I was just googling the photo that was at the top of this survey.
What is your state’s minimum wage? The minimum wage in the UK is £9.50 an hour.
Are you listening to any music right now? If so, what are you listening to? No, I have the TV on at the moment.
Is your hair naturally straight? No, it’s very curly.
Do you own a pair of slippers? Yes.
Is there anyone that you’re mad at right now? Nope, not at all.
What kind of cologne/perfume do you like the opposite sex to wear? I don’t mind as long as it’s not too overpowering.
Where are you planning to go on your next vacation? I have no plans at the moment.
Is there something you want to say to someone but can’t? Nope.
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honestly this is random of me to say but getting diagnosed with autism at 6 was so bad for me, like not only did it cause years and years of bullying because my mum made this huge deal about me having it to everyone, and embarassed me, and friends and family a like yelled at me for any autistic trait i showed. But it also is the reason my social skills are even more sht cuz young me (who for whatever reason was allowed to have a computer and be online at as young as 7) was like 'let me google how to not be autistic' and then now i cant even relate to other autistic people anymore because me at 7-17 had trained constantly to be aware of every autistic trait I had and now I dont even know what autistic traits I have anymore. I went to multiple autistic youth camps and I related to no one. none of my therapists ever thought I have autism, my recent therapist wants to see proof that I have it like bruh
I know it sucks to have it diagnosed later in life of course it does but I just feel liek I don't know being diagnosed with autism at a young as age can be really horrible too, it was for me at least. trained myself so much to not have any autistic traits that I accidentaly trained a way a huge part of my personality lmao. like I must sound like an asshole rn but I geneuinl find it so difficult to relate to both nt and nd people, cuz like everything most nd people I've seen do now days was stuff I did at 7-16, like all the questons and all the research. and all the stuff they are already knew is stuff I never learnt until now. and im still treated like as if i know nothing about autism ect... even though I was diagnosed with that shit at 6 like not to complain about autism culture? whatever it is i dont even know, but I feel weird when people tell me I don't know anything about autism or that I'm not autistic just because I said "I have autism" rather than "I'm autistic" like, I don't get that. I am just doing what I'm used too.
I kind of feel similar with lgbt too cuz I was like nonbinary when I was 3 tbh like Ig you could call it that because at that age I denied femininity and she/her pronouns and even being called a girl and just wanted to be called my name, and that carried on until 17 where for the first time ever I worked out the difference between girl and boy, but nowdays now everyone is being like "oh wow look a guy in a dress super cool" but I just kinda thought that was already a normal thing? like I never got the separation of male and female ever, when young me saw feminism and gender equality online, I took it litterally and believed it was girl and boy are exactly the same, so now I'm seeing twitter and tumblr talking about all this like "oh let a guy wear make up cmon its 2023" but I thought that was normal already and don't get why its a big deal and never did. like its hard to explain how I feel not saying its a bad thing though but stuff like that always confuses me. But Ig thats what happens when you're exposed it at a young age, you don't really see the culture or become apart of the culture, or understand the separation to begin with.
#just ignroe this i just needed to vent about my#autism#somewhere#probably will show this to my therapist or something
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What and how i feel when i get an autism attack:
I feel like hot electricity flows trough me, i get clammy and sweaty skin. My body starts to shake.
Yelling: when i talk some of my words come out in a yelling way. But more holded back with nervousity/frustration and pain in it.
But without talking it will be yelling grunting trough a closed mouth.
I start to feel hot, twitchy and scared. Overwhelmed and claustrophobic.
It feels like my skin burns and i wanna jump out of it.
Now that im older im able to sense it when i start having it. multiple things can make start triggering it such as: the normal triggers wich various from person the person. With me it can be crowded places. Or having physical contact ( i dont have normally problems with this, just sometimes when im tired/overwhelmed or strangers etc). Having chaotic mind/surrounding or interaction wich leads to confusing and distress wich leads to the attack.
What could help (this is personal for every person so make sure to ask them question of consent before taking any action.): for me what helps is sitting on the ground knee's up my chest while holding my legs. Back rubs but not always. So ask for my permision. Being alone for a moment. Depending how i feel when sitting in my comfort position cold or warmth ive experienced i needed to cool down litterly, or some heating. A consoling hug BUT again ask permision. Music. Having someone in my presence even there is no talking or just the person talking to me even if i dont react back. Something i will always enjoy and will help with anything a car ride. Specially the ones at night. So i can see the diffrent lights from streets and towns.
As i got olders these autism attacks got less and less. Till completely non but they can still occur. But when they do they dont completely trough. Or they dont last that long. I wish people around an autistic person to understand that they cannot controll this specially in young age. Dont be mad or get offended what happens. We are having a litteral error and when i did the stuff while having an attack i tried understand whats going on and the more diffucult it is the heavier the attack but once i understood it. It will slowly go away and i calm down but thats not the end. After im calm about what it triggered and my body is calm i still need time go completly come to sense. Then its the moment in my comfort position and thats a moment u could ask me if its allowed to touch me. If i yes give me a back rub. Because the best i can explain this is that iam streetdog that is scared for touch and pats and needs to get used to it. It could be i start shaking again but thats the part of me being scared and getting oke with receiving physical affection.
Its draining these attacks. Its scary and weird for others. Im scared it would push away people and being un able to be in a relationship. Because rlly only people only dealth with me having one was my family.
Im sorry im weird and broken. But it wont change my frienship/love and care towards you. But i understand if u dont want to know me anymore after seeing something like this.
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So i went through this guy and i am genuinely disguested. Like i litterally want to fucking puke.
First off to make this abundantly clear, he is a white trans man.
First off he is crazy fucking racist. Its called "white panic" i believe. Believing poc are somehow privilaged over white people, arent oppressed and saying they'll " report him sitting next to them as a hate crime"
Next im gonna go off cause im autistic myself. He has a picture of the crying cat meme wearing a hat that says " please be patient, i have autism". Shows no proof of being autistic himself and is not only being hella ableist but using autism as an insult.
Not to mention calling multiple people ret*rd and ret*rded, whist Misgendering someone. Ablism layered with transphobia? Nice!
Now hes not only being nbphobic by calling a gender spectrum thats been around longer than anyone on this site has a "craze" but litterally denying the fact that yes, thats what the white stripe is for.
Heres a nice definition straight from google. Im sure he can find the nice video floating around about the creator litterally saying that thats what the stripe is for! Especially during pride month!
And we circle back to lesbophobia! Saying that because gay men( whom have flags! Look it up on here! Or google! Take your pick!) dont have an independent flag, lesbians shouldnt either. Disguesting.
So congratz dude, your not only a transmed whose transphobic! Your also racist, enbyphobic, ableist, allist and lesbophobic! Enjoy! Your litterally one of the worst people ive met on this site and ive spoken with terfs nicer than you! Fuck you!
has any man ever looked as good as a butch woman? no
#receipts#call out post#transmedfrog#largic#such-justice-wow#here we go with more transmed lesbophobia#lesbophobic#lesbophobia#transphobia#racism#enbyphobia#nbphobia#ableism#allism
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Ew aphobic and panphobic like you can choke. Also you’re against people with Aspergers? That was a medical diagnosis before it was changed to be included in autism spectrum disorder. Some people don’t have the money to just go and get their diagnosis changed that they got as kids and therefore have no control over. Just admit you’re against poor people with diagnosis that they can’t change and go
1. Not aphobic. Im litterally aro-spec. I also dont have any aphobic stances. If refering to the fact that despite being neutral on ace discourse i feel more comfortable around exclues, its because ive been on both sides. From my own experiences, ace inclues tend to run in homophobic ass circles, supported pedos being added to the lgbt community and harass lgbt people who dont want to be called q*eer. I watched it happen to muturals i had and damn did i figure out i was litterally just in a validity circle jerk.
2. Im panphobic because of its history and the fact the misinformation spread by the pan community about the bi community causes actual damage to the bi community. My community.
3. Aspergers was coined by a nazi to seperate the " salvageable" autistic children from the ones who should be sent to camps to die :). Im also pro-self dx so you can litterally just call yourself autisitc. I'm autisitc so ik wtf im talking about.
This is also really funny to tell to me, a poor person, whose been fighting to get an offical diagnosis for my debilitating and disabling joint pain for going on a year now :) your really doing us poor disabled motherfuckers justice!
#levi speaks#uh oh sisters#someone read my beliefs section and not the about me section!#what a fuckn idiot
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