#BEAT HEAD AGAINST WALL

[shadowlinktheshadow]

I am going to fucking kill myself (899 korok seeds)

[blacknedsoul-blog]

An unnecessarily detailed analysis of Lenore's face when she realizes how gay she is

(Someone thought to tell me that I wrote "incessantly" instead of "unnecessarily" the last time I did this? Didn't they? You people are terrible).

These two vignettes make me crack up. Partly because it's always funny to see Miss "I can pick fights with the Deans, but thinking about my crush makes me nervous UwU" panic, but also because it's impressive how many things have just clicked in Lenore's head at this point.

Like, this girl must be feeling like when you finish a puzzle. A very gay one.

What she knows so far

At this point, as far as Lenore knows, she and Annabel have not seen each other again. There was a goodbye, and she is aware of how much that hurt her. For me, there are two possibilities:

In this flashback, Lenore has realized that she is in love with Annabel, but it is an unrequited affection.

She interprets these feelings as "oh, I'm attracted to her because she was my only friend and she was painfully ripped out of my life. Yes, friends. Very good friends.

Personally, I prefer to interpret it as the second option (you will see why).

On the other hand, it's impossible not to see how willing Annabel is to give and receive affection when it comes to Lenore: in this scene, she tries to say goodbye with a kiss,

And when they're in the closet, she literally throws herself at her.

And I want to point out one thing: Lenore doesn't remember a romantic relationship, but her body seems to: she instinctively strokes her hair when she cuddles her, even though Annabel didn't ask her to. They have done this before. There is a familiarity to this interaction.

Finally. Lenore learned chapters ago that she burned down her house, stole her dead brother's clothes, cut her hair to look more like a man for…something. She doesn't know what yet, but it had to be something important.

And she remembers it when Ada opens her mouth.

(parenthesis: that comment also makes me laugh a lot, like, Ada, dear, if you knew the CRAZY things this woman has done for love).

Please, appreciate this gay panic

If Lenore had any doubt about her feelings for Annabel (assuming option 2), it has been completely erased: she is in love with her. There is no acceptable way to rationalize this as anything else. She was in the past and she definitely is now. That's what draws her to her, that's why she desperately wants to confide in Annabel, that's why her affection seems familiar.

As if that were not enough, Annabel has that ring on her. Not only has Lenore just been hit by the reality of her own feelings, she has just realized that her love is reciprocated, this is not a one-sided crush, they are going to get married. Suddenly, these invasions of her personal space are understood for what they were: an attempt to have a physical relationship on the terms one would have with a romantic partner. Because Annabel was not her friend.

She was her fiancée.

Also, because Lenore is too pure a cinnamon roll for the world, she must be wondering how much she hurt Annabel with this: how she dodged her attempts to show affection, how she doubted her, and, the icing on the cake, that comment:

And all this mental cocoa is perfectly condensed into the expression she has in these two vignettes.

Honestly, the scene is perfect as it is, with no dialogue, but you can almost hear her thinking, "I…I did…I told my fiancée we're friends, blaze".

[vcb]

[rabbits-of-negative-euphoria]

I actually could support public education in a different day and age. A quality education for lesser-privileged kids is one huge key to success for any community that wishes to flourish. I do understand Thomas Jefferson's passion for it.

The problems with it arose when it became 1. compulsory, 2. industrialized, and 3. federalized.

And the reasons it won't work today as in the past are because 1. kids can get a higher quality, cheaper education at home, 2. communities today are so diverse in values that the taxpayers would never be able to vote on good curricula, and 3. teacher education consists mainly of classroom management, not actual doctrine or pedagogy (and they aren't even permitted to manage their classrooms).

[vaguely-concerned]

one thing I have to keep reremembering every time I'm playing a soulslike/similar kind of difficult game -- and that I wish I could internalize elsewhere in my life as well -- is that you always, always have to suffer through the long dark of an inexplicable failcringe era before you can emerge into a fresh new dawn of competence. faceplanting into humiliating failure in ways you hadn't even conceived of before on a loop can sometimes be the herald of great and wondrous things to come soon. don't be so quick to abandon yourself in the early murk of daybreak because you think you just suck!!!

[realbeefman]

deeply nervous guy came up to me in the student union to ask me to do a survey and it was such a badly formatted survey that even though it was only like 10 questions it took me like ten minutes to answer (the theme of the survey was just opinions about Education for context. like “is education good?” type questions) and the entire time he made small talk about house md and awkwardly sat on the floor in front of me and im only NOW, 24 hours later, realizing how badly i fumbled by not asking for his instagram. or number. something. what the hell. i got distracted by the terrible survey. he was rambling about THE TV SHOW I THINK ABOUT FOR HOURS AND HOURS EVERYDAY. WE HAVE THE SAME FAVORITE EPISODE. FUCK.

[nonpoppie]

[skyloftian-nutcase]

Does anybody have any requests for what Fluffvember prompts should go with what blorbos/AUs of mine? I wrote day 1 already and want to write other days, but my brain has been... quite dead. For like. A week.

[tadpole-apocalypse]

Wild Magic Tavs/Durges, what were some of your favorite wild magic surges in terms of role play?

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

Dca fandom stop making moon sexually aggressive challenge IMPOSSIBLE DIFFICULTY

[hellafluff]

I have the special ability to fail every single 87% chance I attempt

[sadpanda]

listening to Deck Picks and hearing everyone laugh when Henry draws the rogue card

[corpium]

Me: if you want your fic to update, you have to write it yourself

Me: …

Me: *refreshes ao3*

[meownotgood]

i always think what it's like to piss off aki like he doesn't get riled up that easily but when he does he's gritting his teeth and being a sexy smug face. I want him (inside me)

this is so true because I'd never want to make aki mad at me but his little pissed off face is so cute and hot it makes me feel things

[maranull]

AC6 may only held my continued interest for about two months, but I think I can honestly say that it's one of my favourite games. And immediately the second action game I would recommend to anyone (first being ER).

It's honestly so good, and while I sometimes wish there were more things to do in it, I think the game being the length that it is actually enhances it. It said the story/stories it wanted to say, and ended it there (instead of stretching playtime needlessly).

And all the voice actors need to get like a dozen bonuses cause giving so much life to so many faceless and bodiless characters was a damn good job.

[minthara]

nothing will ever beat learning a new language and one of the first phrases everyone teaches you always being "i love you." bc why else would u be learning a new language. the inherent romanticism of it all