#Angsty headcanons

[lafayette-paw-arts]

Ur blog srsly brings us the vees polycule we needed. Do you have any angsty hcs 👀

I am glad to bring it! As a poly person myself I was very upset the Vees aren't canonically poly, I was so excited for the rep

As always your wish is my command but careful what you wish for~

Valentino has hit Vox with the glass cups he throws before, it shattered Vox's screen because of the force and Valentino completely panicked. He vowed to never throw things again but being Val it didn't last very long, he's now hyper aware of when he throws something near Vox so it doesn't hit him. While Vox usually sidesteps to move further away from the impact point he knows if he stayed put it wouldn't have hit him.

Velvette once forgot about the extermination and went out to get something an hour before it started, she got caught up in the extermination and got badly hurt. Thankfully the boys were there to protect her and get her back to the safety of the tower.

Vox had also been hurt badly that night because he stalled for time so Valentino could get Velvette back to the tower, Velvette felt so guilty after that, she knows her stupid mistake could have gotten them all killed.

Vox has serious insecurity issues but he rarely talks about them to his partners despite how much they want him to open up, he's worried if he does they'll realize he's not worth their time.

Velvette has scars on her thighs from a particularly bad ex she had when she first got to hell, the boys asked about them only once but when she quickly shut down all questions about it and practically bolted from the room they mutually understood they were never going to ask her about it again. If she wants to tell them she will.

Vox has a nasty scar that runs down his back, Valentino and Velvette assume it's from Alastor but they have no confirmation or denial, Vox keeps it hidden as often as he can.

Val has several scars across his midsection, he's told the others where they came from and the three of them will take the secret to their second graves.

Vox has a special technician he pays a lot to deal with his electrical components including the bigger shit like having to replace his screen or in rare cases of severe damage his whole TV needs to be replaced (tho sometimes it is replaced for upgrades).

He's scared he has to leave his fate in someones hands like this but he doesn't have any other choice. He refuses to let Velvette and Valentino in while his technician is working on him. He feels vulnerable enough during this without them witnessing it.

Vox doesn't tell the others if he's not feeling well, he usually locks himself up and tries to deal with it himself, if it ends up being a problem for his technician he calls them, but if its not he tries to deal with it himself without the other Vees finding out.

Velvette has deep self hatred issues, she's always trying to dress better, look better, be better, but it's never enough for her. The boys try their best to show her that she's more than enough, sometimes she believes them, most of the time she doesn't.

When one of the others is hurt the other will be by the bedside keeping an eye on them. Vox will usually be trying to keep things in all of their departments running while the other one deals with the one who is hurt, it's easier for him to bury himself in work than to worry himself sick.

If Vox himself is hurt Val and Velvette will shut the whole damn tower down and sit with him.

Vox made Valentino cry once, he can't even remember what he did to accomplish it but it freaked him out so badly, he never thought he'd see the moth cry and it was definitely a "NOPE! NEVER AGAIN!!!" moment for him.

Vox and Velvette both struggle to talk about serious matters when it comes to the relationship, Val is just much more open.

Velvette doesn't usually have an issue asking to be held when she's feeling like she isn't enough, but Vox struggles hard, very often unable to ask even for a simple hug because he doesn't feel like he deserves it.

Valentino has severe abandonment issues. He really hates being alone in the penthouse so if the others are working he's usually down in the studio bothering some of his employees for random reasons just to keep from being alone.

Valentino always worries that he's too clingy and that the others hate it. Actually they love that he's clingy and snuggly, they tell him that often, he doesn't always believe them.

They each have their own way to calm the others down. Vox will calmly talk them down, Velvette will give soft touches and hugs, and Valentino will use his wings as weighted blankets and allow the others to play with the fluff at the edges of his wings until they're calm.

Alrighty that's all I got, hope you like it!

As always if you want more please let me know!

[demonzhalo]

Percy, who has never tasted alcohol and gets nauseous at the smell of cigarettes because of Gabe. Who watches Paul closely whenever he has even a sip of alcohol to make sure there isn't a repeat, because he hates how helpless he was back then.

Annabeth, who ever since she ran away, keeps a small travel bag of essentials in case she needs to run again. Who never tells anyone about the spiders that come at night because the last time, no one believed her.

Grover, that since the loss of Thalia, can never look at pine trees again, seeing the child he lost because of his mistakes. Who sings to her tree whenever he can, in case she's still conscious, in case she can hear his apologies and his begs of forgiveness.

[wat-you-get-is-wat-you-see]

Watching Warren and Hypno sitting in a Tree (again) and anyone else out there think that maybe Leo genuinely can't remember who Warren Stone is? As in their first meeting was so distressing to Leo that his brain just locked those memories away and anytime encounters him again his brain lumps any new memories in with them?

I know he does the 'And you are?' to someone else (I can't remember who off the top of my head right now) as well as to Warren Stone numerous times, but in Warren and Hypno Sitting in a Tree, when Donnie was about to cut Warren's arm off, Leo is outright horrified and doesn't seem to remember when Donnie points out that he regenerates.

Donnie: And now to do some light removing of a thing attached to another thing.

Leo: What the? Donnie?

Donnie: Its fine he regenerates, remember?

Leo: Uhh, No?!

So basically, what if Leo doesn't always remember really distressing things.

And then.

What would that mean for the aftermath of the events of the movie?

[vampsquerade]

Doc helping a reader with ptsd headcanons?

yes of course! i hope you don’t mind but i’ll be using a few things that some of my therapists have given me to handle my own symptoms of PTSD (they’re kinda sprinkled in there via the way i am treated for it as well by family members and friends)

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Doc Headcanons: Reader with PTSD

Trigger Warnings: PTSD, crying, mentions of episodes, slight implication to self-harm (no real reference, but there is reference to treatment of it), insomnia, nightmares, unwanted memories

☆ Gustave has dealt with people who have suffered most of the intense effects of PTSD, many of which being his own colleagues

☆ When he found out you had PTSD, he had asked you what symptoms you had and what effects you’d gotten from it

☆ He does his best to try and help understand your situation, he and Harry making sure you’re monitored and taken care of in the case that your effects are on the more extreme side

☆ Gustave also does his best to comfort you, giving you first words of reassurance before then evolving into the friendship you two now have

☆ He’s slept next to you from time to time, urging you to wake him in case you had severe nightmares and unwanted memories of the event that caused your PTSD

☆ Gustave is aware PTSD could never really be cured, but it can be treated with patience and proper care

☆ He would have to gently get you to at least try and sleep, as you would go through bouts of insomnia in order to avoid the nightmares and memories in your sleep

☆ If he couldn’t get you to sleep, Gustave would just have you lay in the infirmary with him while he did some work

☆ Whenever he finds you crying after an episode, Gustave will sit next to you and pull you into an embrace, promising you that you’ve escaped that event

☆ Makes sure you don’t harm yourself in any way, and if you have, Gustave always patches you up

☆ Gustave often also has you exercise with him, and he always makes sure that he doesn’t stress you out this way

☆ Frequently reminds you to take your medication, keep yourself hydrated, and rested as well as you can despite the circumstances

☆ Gustave has most definitely also bought you a weighted stuffed animal, just in case he wasn’t here to keep you company

[pugscoffee]

Guardian Tales headcanon of what Knight has Night Terrors/Sleep Terrors.

-But first! Things to have clear!:

▪︎Some stuff mentioned here isn't nice at all.

▪︎For now. The "happenings" what are mentioned here:

1.- Happened in a lapse of 2 years and a half ingame to me,because fuck canon and their confusing way of spacing their events ingame,like,you can't tell me what that all the shit what has happened before the events in World 17 were done in less than a YEAR??? KAKAO. IT FEELS LIKE EVERYTHING HAS HAPPENED IN ALMOST 4 YEARS IN STORY-MODE TILL NOW FOR FUCKS SAKE????

2.- These happened before the start of the events in "World 12" and some even way before "World 9" events.

3.- I like to portray Knight like the kind of character who thinks what all the horrible and traumatizing stuff what they suffered for a great part of their life and the way what they react from remembering those is "normal" and "necessary" (That's what the "others" made Knight believe),so they just try to "hide it" from the others because "That's not an important thing at all",avoids in all way thinking about it and just act the way what they're (You know,happy,silly and chaotic,etc like Knight is),but there is a moment in their journey in what they're starting to reach to the conclusion that everything what happened to them was in fact NOT NORMAL or good and they've been lied for years,then the realization is getting to them little by little and making them feel horrible in the process till they hit catastrophically by that realization like a truck.

4.-My English skill isn't the best when it comes to "explaining the stuff what comes from my head" but i hope i'm being clear as possible with what i'm saying here. 😭 I'd recommend you to read more about Night Terrors to understand more if possible!

▪︎I swear what i love Knight a lot i promiseeee 🫶🏻 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷 *traumatizes them*💞🩷

5.- Coco and Knight friendship angst coming to your door!!!!! WITH EXTRA KNIGHT ANGST WOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉

Ahem! With that said. Knight has Night Terrors/Sleep Terrors about:

1.- The times what they were experimented (they have PTSD from it). 2.- The traumatic experiences what they had with FP (World 10-11). 3.-Seeing their friends dying in front of them and they couldn't do nothing to save them,like in the Alt-Knight timeline kind of dying. -Note: Option 2 and 3 of Knight's Night Terrors started to happen after World 10-11 events.

▪︎Knight normally wakes up trembling and crying out of them,sometimes feeling nauseous or almost directly vomiting out of it,maybe the rare occasions when Knight wakes up screaming out of them or wakes up in the floor,when they're asleep they tend to also kick,whimper,mutter names (at this point is kinda obvious what names could Knight be muttering) and move heavily in the process all depending of the intensity in traumatic terms the dream is going.

▪︎As some may know,when someone has Night Terrors the person cannot wake up during the dream even if they try,and the person doesn't remember what happened during the dream,so Knight really doesn't know what are exactly the dreams about but they DO have an idea of what it could be (making them feel down).

▪︎Another thing to know is what the persons who wake up from a Night Terror tend to be sweating,their heart is beating fast,they feel accelerated,panicked,etc,Knight knowing the implications of what kind of dreams could've,they try to calm down as fast as possible and get the "clouds" out of their head just to "put everything what happened under a rug and don't think about it for the rest of the day" and act like nothing happened to them with the others..... (But fool of them because they can't be holding like this forever isn't?) Sometimes they just go for a walk far away of the others in Heavenhold or play their Lyre (Knight tends to play it late in the nights when they don't really want to sleep) for a while when they wake up early in the morning from those,there were times what Eva,Craig,Loraine or Coco found them playing the Lyre and had a convo with them for a while,luckily avoiding suspicions from them.... (except for Coco and Loraine) but well,how those convos went are to talk for another day.

▪︎Knight rarely had Night Terrors,but after the events what happened in World 10-11 it became a more of an often occurrence.

▪︎The only ones for now what knows about Knight having in fact Night Terrors are Lapice,Coco,Marina,Bianca,Arabelle and Eugene. Knight had this with them (except for Coco) happening in 4 occasions,all of them happening when they had a pajama party,afterall they all were sharing the same room to sleep (3 happened before World 9 and the other one after World 10-11 events),all of them waked up,alerted,by Knight's sounds of "pain" and excessive movement. The girls haven't really tell/mentioned anyone about this happenings because of Knight's "odd request" of not doing so. Also,adding what Knight started to assist way less to their pajamas party after those "incidents".

•Marina understands Knight situation because she also has Night Terrors (but it seldom happens to her).

•Arabelle pretends to gave a f about it,but she actually cares,the way what Knight looks in pain and horror when sleeping,the struggle,is something she can relate to at some extent.... but she doesn't know how to act in this kind of situation so she just tries to ignore it to not feel that feels of "disgusting guilt and pity" according to her (Someone send everyone to therapy fr). Lapice swears what she was this close 🤏🏻 to punch Arabelle when she said that.

•Bianca,worried,offered to help Knight with their Night Terrors with Dream Terapy (and Yuze assisting her if possible) so she could in a way reduce these,afterall is clear what is NOT NORMAL for a person of their age to have Night Terrors with that frequency and neither is good for their mental and psychical health,"Oh Bianca don't worry! I tend to have these a lot,but! I don't really mind it- "YOU WHAT????? WHAT. WHAT YOU MEAN WITH WHAT YOU HAVE THESE A LOT DUMBFACE????" *proceeds to shake them like they were a ragdoll* (also she was the one to tell the others what Knight was having in fact,Night Terrors) . Knight aggressively refused Bianca's idea in a "She touched a nerve" kind of way (thing what surprised her,she knows Knight can be stubborn like a mule when it comes to accept any kind of medic help,but,the way they reacted when she mentioned it.... That made her wonder why they had such reaction to it,it felt so odd...)

•Eugene and Lapice got really worried when it happened the first time,Lapice was hugging Knight and crying when they got up (Knight was honestly confused of such reaction) from it and Eugene was really frightened,both wanted to comfort Knight,according to them when Knight waked up they looked so destroyed.... Like if they just came back from seeing something so horrible,something unspeakable..... But well,friends help friends when they feel bad isn't?,but Knight refused them with telling a "Don't worry about it! It's not a big deal!" to them.

•Coco is actually the one who knew about Knight having Night Terrors before,to me,Knight and Coco have sleepovers together only the two sometimes,they tend to share stuff what they normally don't share to others (you know! Silly secrets✨️),they're very close to eachother,not in a kind of LP and Knight relationship kind of level but yeah! they're very close to eachother,and no,Knight didn't tell to Coco what they're an..... That's a topic very...... complicated to touch....

▪︎Coco,after seeing what her friend situation is going to a worryfing level for her and she really din't knew what was exactly going on,she decided to search what could be the main source of Knight "sleeping problems",she investigated stuff about it and then there is when she learns about what Knight was having "Night Terrors" by the symptoms what they were presenting. Everything was pointing what the reason behind Knight Night Terrors could be because of a "traumatic event what they had before",it could've been Knight's lack of sleeping but a trauma was the most logic reason for a young adult like them to be in that kind of state according to the info she searched.

▪︎Coco told to Knight the current situation what they were having as a way to help them,she also mentioned how trauma affects a person,and how those mold the personality of the person if these happened in their childhood one time. One time. Coco still remembers for a moment,how Knight looked at her when she stopped talking,for a moment,Coco swears what Knight's bright eyes turned sad and tinted themselves in black,soulless and voidless..... Knight never gave her a response about it,actually,Knight never had mentioned something about their childhood or the stuff what happened to them before becoming a Guardian so Knight is for the others a kind of a mystery in that type of topic....A kind of mystery what Coco wants to solve,afterall the whole thing is suspicious as hell! when Knight is asked about stuff related to it,they just,simply doesn't respond it,ignores the question or changes the topic!

▪︎She tried to brush the topic the most what she could to see if they dropped by accident info about it but nothing was get,not even asking directly helped,Knight still shut their mouth about it. -They even reached the point of having an argument about it,and let me tell you what it didn't ended that well....Coco was mad about Knight hiding stuff from her knowing what doing it was clearly affecting them,she wanted to know why,she wanted to help her dear friend,she just can't stand here and see her friend destroy themselves like this,she cares so much of them,SHE TRUSTS KNIGHT,she wanted Knight to tell her their worries and those things what make them cry out loud of how horrible those things were....Like Knight did for her,Knight was the only one who get to hear all of Coco's thoughts,hear her heart,those bad things those good things..... Why Knight didn't want to tell her? They didn't trust her enough?....Why?.....

▪︎They really didn't talk that much to eachother after that,Knight wanted to talk like crazy about it with Coco,she trusts her a lot but it was so hard for them.....Why it was so hard to say?...... An horrible feeling always accompanied them when they tried to think about it....What if she started to look at them in another way?....Knight wanted to fix things out with Coco's friendship at least but the attack of the Invaders of Heavenhold (World 12 events start) ruined that plan for a good chunk of time unfortunately.

I would love to talk about this completely but i would be making a Bible out of this,so i am leaving this here!

[funtimespringscare101]

Some random headcanons for the Human! Indominus AU

@chaosverse-mainblog

Both Jack and Indy are Bisexual, with Jack having a male lean and Indy having a female lean. In other words, like father like daughter.

Indy kept a makeshift grave she and Jack made after Costa was taken because every InGen worker thought that she was dead or something. Every year, on the siblings’ birthday, Jack would sneak into the inclosure with flowers for both him and Indy to put on and replace on the grave. They kept this going in the reserve where they live until Costa was found.

Jack got into dinosaurs and later into InGen because of the book that Alan wrote mentioned in the first Jurassic Park film. Meeting Mr. Grant was like a dream for him. While Alan was having flashbacks of the first film with the kids lol.

The Nedry style character that helped kidnap Costa (they’re still unnamed at the moment) was part of a group of smugglers looking for a quick fix. However, they left the group after seeing the immorality of the job, taking Costa with them and hiding in the underground market. Although they look untrustworthy, they really stepped up as a parent and was more than happy to meet Jack, their fellow “parent-in-law” when he and Indy came into the arena following a lead on another member of the aforementioned smugglers.

[hongchenzhu]

I just finished watching ep 3 of session 2 of Link Click, cause me and a friend decided to watch some ep before head before reuniting and finishing everything in season 2.

But after that, I was listening to a song, a sorrowful song that I had been binge listening to for the entire day and it's called 我用什么把你留住 (What Can I Hold You With, the English translations)

A video with the English Translations

So the entire headcanon goes like this, Chen Xiaoshi sacrifices his life to save Lu Guang and Qiao Ling.

Then we have Lu Guang grieving for the death of Chen Xiaoshi which is where the song comes in, where Lu Guang has lost in his memories of Xiaoshi and loses his meaning of life.

Did I mention Lu Guang might have suicidal tendencies, but don't worry he lives, because he wanted the story of Chen Xiaoshi to live on and the shop

(I need time to plan this fic, but also I need to heal from this emotional damage (╥﹏╥)

[fairiesthrum]

reader who can’t stand satoru but then he gets hit by a curse that turns him into a cat. you find him, to his dismay, and take him home, only for him to realize how different you are when he isn’t around to pester you.

at first, he causes a lot of trouble. breaking things in your house, tearing up the pillows. he just wants to be a human again, but nobody can understand him! but you still take care of him and coddle him no matter how much trouble he causes, so different from how people treat him normally, as if he were a nuisance (which he kind of was on purpose). and he finds himself falling for you without realizing it.

so he stops being a bad cat, steadily losing hope that he’ll ever be human again. and satoru would be lying to himself if he said he didn’t enjoy how you stroked him while you read a book or let him sleep beside you at night. maybe it wasn’t so bad? so he decided then if he was going to be just a cat, he was fine with being your cat.

the higher-ups had taken note of his absence, obviously, and he only knows cause you’ve mentioned it to him. you had this endearingweird quirk where you’d talk to him as if he were a real person.

throughout his stay in your home as a house pet, satoru finds out a lot about you. you’ve always kept to yourself, but you vent your frustrations out to him while he’s like this, and he offers his comfort the best he can. which you appreciate, rewarding him with kisses that he secretly enjoys.

once he turns human again, by some miracle, his first thought is to go and find you. and when he does, you give him the cold shoulder like you used to, and it surprises him. before he realizes that, ah, he wasn’t your pet anymore. he was gojo satoru.

satoru realizes his feelings for you in that moment. when he feels the ache in his chest from your dismissive behavior, it leads him to starting his most important mission yet—winning your heart once more.

but this time, it’ll be as a person, not a damn cat.

[cassandracain52]

so I’ve seen lots of fics about Bruce coming back and finding out things like Tim loosing his spleen or Damian getting shot (on multiple occasions by different people) and he almost always finds out by either having dug into the Batcomputers records and stumbling across it or just seeing it on scans or something after Tim or Damian is injured

but imagine for a moment Bruce finds out, not on his own, but by the others telling him.

And by “tell him” I of course mean that they all automatically assume that he already knows about all of it(because he’s the worlds greatest detective so obviously they don’t need to say anything) so they never bring it up until they mention it one day in passing and nearly give him a heart attack.

for example:

Bruce: Tim, I need you to come with me to speak with Dr. Thompkins down at the clinic about that new drug that’s been circulating

Tim: Oh, sure thing, just let me grab my mask

[Bruce not saying anything but looking at him confused because Tim is already fully suited up and wearing his domino mask?]:

[Tim, now wearing a surgical face mask]: Ok, I’m ready! [Bruce just staring at him, waiting for some explanation. He doesn’t get one.]:

Bruce: Tim

Tim: hm?

Bruce: Why are you wearing a face mask..?

Tim: Oh! Well Dr. Thompkins got mad at me last time I came to the clinic without one because there’s a lot of sick people there and I should be more careful since I’m immunocompromised-

[Bruce, immediately cutting him off]: Wait, what?

[Tim, slightly confused]: She got mad at me when I didn’t wear one last time..?

[Bruce, equally confused and growing very concerned]: No, not that. You’re immunocompromised?

[Tim, now completely lost because this is all common knowledge?]: Uh, yeah??

[Bruce, even more concerned]: How??? What do you mean??

[Tim, getting annoyed and rolling his eyes]: Well that’s what they call you when you have no spleen, Bruce.

Bruce: What.

[Tim finally realizing that, just maybe, they skipped a step]: I have no spleen? It got stabbed so Ra’s took it

[Bruce, about to have an aneurysm]: RA’S DID WHAT-

______ Or like him finding out Damian had his entire spine replaced

Bruce: Hey, do you think it’s strange Damian’s so small?

Dick: No?? He’s ten?? Ten year olds are small?

[Bruce, audibly concerned]: No, I mean don’t you think he should have grown some by now? Is he not eating enough?

[Dick, immediately relaxing]: Oh, that? Yeah, it’s fine

[Bruce, still concerned]: Are you sure? I was taller than that at his age

[Dick, waving his hand dismissively]: Nah, he’s fine. I think the spine replacement just stunted his growth a bit

Bruce:…

Dick:..?

[Bruce, near hysterically because all his kids somehow keep losing pieces of their insides and none of them seem bothered by it??]: his wHAT- ____

Dick has to spend the next several hours trying to stop Bruce from making everyone do a mandatory medical examination so he can make sure none of his other kids are missing anything

Dick promises that it was just the two things

Bruce is not reassured

[kidovna]

from this fic by @andiwriteordie

[smutinlove]

random jason todd headcanons

•jason is so touch starved and he's scared to touch you himself. my pookie bear just wants to be hugged and loved <3

•he isn't clingy. but when he's drunk, that's a whole different story. like that man with grab you by your waist, hold your hand, and take you to pound town

•he'll randomly get drunk and text you, "I love you. I need you. 'wanna hold you so bad and touch you" and then twenty minutes later, dick will text you a picture of jason half-passed out on his bed, saying, "come get your man, bitch."

•before every mission or patrol, he'll kiss you and say some corny shit like, "I love you to the moon."

•i feel like he would definitely pop a hip randomly. and he looks hot.

•this man is THE leader of the sassy man apocalypse.

•he's so traumatized and avoids talking about it. like baby, we love you. us jason todd girlies are gonna go to war for him and he's all: no one loves me... I LOVE YOU

i would kill for jason todd

[completelyalien]

I had the idea of the brothers sharing their music tastes with each other. Then it turned into this.

In case you can’t read my handwriting the songs are:

-“Black Bear Road” by C.W. McCall

-“Lay All Your Love On Me” by ABBA

-“Candy Paint” by Post Malone

-“Numb” by Linkin Park

-“Hurt” by Johnny Cash

(Also to be clear, Floyd is happy that Branch has similar tastes in music, not that he’s sad.)

(Also also, I think John Dory would have a complicated history with country music since I love the idea of JD and Delta Dawn being exs lol)

(Also also also Poppy gave Branch the boom box, that’s why is has some stickers on it)

[wat-you-get-is-wat-you-see]

And then adding on from the last one..

What if one night Leo is really anxious and upset and his mind just won’t let him calm down. He keeps hearing Krang 'you think you’ve won...' and 'Little PEST!' And the sound of the krangified train baring down on Mikey and Donnie. And Raph’s screams as he’s being turned into a Krang zombie. The sound of Raph's shell being pierced by the Krang killing him instantly (No shut up it didn't happen like that) All three of his brother’s hurtling to earth to their deaths (No! They're still alive). And the thoughts aren’t stopping. They just keep cycling around all jumbled up, his mind twisting things to the worst possible outcomes for each. Over and over. Every time one plays in his mind it feels like it’s just happened. Doing the katas are the only thing that are stopping him from getting swallowed completely in his thoughts. So he Keeps. Going. Until he’s shacking with effort and exhaustion. And he still keeps going because it the only thing stopping the thoughts from fully taking over. The one thing stopping the panic overwhelming him. He’s staggering his way through one kata when one of his brother’s finds him. And he still can’t stop. Even when he collapses into their arms, he's picking himself back up. To start over. To keep going…

(I like to think whoever finds him is eventually able to draw him out and ground him. And then give him some form of comfort while he calms down. And assure him that he is always welcome to go to one of them, no, if things get bad like that again he needs to find one of them. So it doesn't get this bad again. Anata wa hitori ja nai you are not alone.)

[somewhereincairparavel]

Percy this. Percy that. It was always about Percy Jackson. All the fucking time. 

It was always about the Hero of Olympus, the one who defeated Kronos and led the battle of Manhattan, the one who was offered immortality by the king of the gods himself, the one who restored glory to Rome by returning the golden eagle, the one who became praetor of the Roman camp in 2 weeks with limited training. 

His Roman camp. Jason Grace's Roman camp.

Percy Jackson had pulled off everything in 2 weeks that Jason Grace wasn't able to accomplish despite dedicating his whole life for duty. 11 years of blood, sweat and tears, simply gone down the drain.

Jason had failed his camp. He had failed his home. Turns out, he wasn't as great as the people of Rome had once preached about him. It was obvious considering the less than warm welcome he had gotten from his so-called “home”. 

He received no hugs, no cheers, no “we missed you jason!”, no “I was so worried about you!” or even a single pat on the arm by his “friend” Dakota. Dakota and Gwendolyn hadn't even spared a glance at him.

Nothing. Instead, this new Jackson boy was held up to worship like a god amongst the people who once considered Jason a “hero”.

Jason laughed bitterly. Was it selfish of him to be disappointed with Reyna? With a pang, he got to know that Reyna hadn't sent a single search party out to look for her “best friend”. Not like Annabeth did for Percy, not like Thalia did for Percy.

With a pang, he got to know that the whole camp basically deemed him as ‘dead’ and Reyna hadn't even set up a memorial of remembrance for him. The camp had simply moved on with their new hero. Without a single shred of thought for Jason Grace. 

The forgotten Hero. The lost hero. Jason Grace.

These thoughts of doubt gnawed on Jason's mind, slowly eating him up ever since he'd first seen Percy Jackson in those damned praetor togas that once belonged to him. 

He didn't dislike the boy, of course not, it wasn't Percy's fault that Hera wiped their memories or switched camps.

 But it was hard for Jason to not resent him, or feel even the tiniest amount of envy, knowing that Reyna willingly replaced him with Jackson. Very quickly too, at that. He overheard Octavian blabbing to his lackeys about how Reyna “was head over heels for Percy almost immediately” 

“I guess that's it. Maybe I am someone who is easy to replace.” Jason thought, his eyes pricking as he looked over from the flying ship, at the place he once used to call home. 

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Jason watched remorsefully as Thalia, Grover, Percy and Annabeth were all gathered at the table in camp half blood, cracking jokes about dam french fries or whatever that meant.

Thalia caught Jason's eyes, staring at all of them from a distance. She smiled softly, and gave him a tiny wave. He weaved his lips into something that was meant to look like a wry smile, but it came out as a slight grimace, as he waved back.

Thalia was so close to Jason, yet so far away.

He knew she loved him, but it felt different. And an annoying, nagging part of Jason had known that Thalia would never be as close to him as she was to Annabeth or Percy. 

Ironic isn't it? Jason and Thalia were always connected since they came from the same womb, yet she was closer to Annabeth, a girl she'd found after she had run away from the same woman that had given Jason to the wolves. The same woman who had turned his life upside down by abandoning him. 

Thalia had found Annabeth right after she thought she had lost Jason. In a strangely ironic way, Jason felt like he'd been replaced all over again.

Thalia had replaced Jason as a younger sibling with Annabeth without even realizing it, all of this took place mere months after a baby Jason was considered to be dead. This situation had strangely reminded him of Camp Jupiter, how he was replaced by Percy right after Jason was considered “dead” by Camp Jupiter.

This made Jason reach the possibility that if he were indeed “dead”, he wouldn't be missed. People wouldn't bat an eyelash. Since there was always someone better than him. Someone like Percy Jackson, who could easily fill the void Jason would leave behind.

His eyes watered, as he looked at how much fun his sister had with his friends. Knowing full well, that he'd never be able to do the same.

Jason felt ashamed that he had to ask Percy about Thalia’s likes and dislikes, he was thalia’s brother. He was supposed to know.

Jason watched as Thalia quickly hugged the trio, as she left their table to leave with the hunters, not even realizing that there was one person whom she forgot to hug.

Don't take it personally. Don't take it personally. She just forgot. She doesn't hate you. She just forgot. She doesn't prefer Percy over you. She's in a hurry. That's why she forgot. Jason repeated that like a mantra, the only person he was trying to convince was himself.

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“And he rejected immortality!- oh you should've seen Zeus' face!” Annabeth exclaimed to Hazel excitedly, as Percy was blushing at the compliment fountain being poured at him by Hazel and Annabeth.

Jason had always been fascinated by that story, the almighty Percy Jackson getting offered to become a god, by Zeus.

His father. Jason's father, Zeus. 

Jason felt stupid and guilty for getting envious, it's not the fact that Percy had been offered immortality, no. Jason couldn't care less about being immortal. It was the person who offered Percy invincibility that bothered Jason so much. 

Jason knew that even if he went to the ends of the world to accomplish something, his father wouldn't be able to praise him or even talk to him for a long time. 

Zeus and Jason could never be like Hades and Nico, or Poseidon and Percy. That's just how it is.

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Reyna had come to camp half blood for a fun visit. Jason would've been ecstatic in other circumstances, but in this case, he wanted to be as far away from her as possible. Because currently, Reyna seemed to be looking at everyone, but refused to meet Jason's eyes. She seemed to keep her distance as she laughed at something Percy and Piper were saying. 

She may as well have just stabbed him, it would've hurt a lot less. 

He had truly been naive to believe that he could make amends with Reyna. Now he knew, it would never be possible. There was too much pain mixed with bitterness on both ends. But seeing her get along with Percy reminded him of the old times of friendship he and Reyna had shared. Keyword: had.

Once again, the fates had shown him that Percy Jackson would always be better. 

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As Jason Grace lay on the cold floor, coughing out blood. He realized he was alone, he was dying, but he was alone.

Like always. The sickly voice of Gaia, that had once haunted his nightmares, boomed in his head. Jason knew he was hallucinating as a result of blood loss, Gaia is in deep slumber. But that did not stop the voice in his head that was invented by his insecurities. Even in the end, you've been forgotten, Jason Grace. Because that's what you will always be. The second best. The leftover. The pawn who is discarded, after his purpose has been fulfilled. Percy Jackson would always be better in everyone's eyes. 

To the Romans, you are simply the one who betrayed his lineage. But Percy is the one who restored glory. He did your job for you.

To the Greeks, you are simply a burden, one whom they were forced to welcome.

To your father, you are merely one of his many sons. 

To your sister, you are a stranger.

Jason's resolve to live had weakened, hot tears were streaming down his face as he closed his eyes in defeat, he had come to the painful conclusion that nobody is going to come find his body. Nobody is going to mourn him.

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“Oh I will always be much better than you at this! Bring it on, dude!” Percy laughed as he striked his play sword lightsaber at Jason's. They clashed. 

“You wish, Jackson!” Jason shot back jokingly, as they sparred playfully with toy lightsabers.

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“Jackson, you jerk. You were right after all, you will always be much better than me” Jason laughed bitterly, as he recalled that memory of his sparring session with Percy.

 Suddenly everything went black. The life had successfully ebbed out of him.

Little did Jason know, was that someone had indeed come to look for him. Tempest, his Pegasus had come to retrieve his body, but Jason was long gone. People had indeed mourned him. His friends were, indeed, anguished. His sister was, indeed, heartbroken.

Jason's soul parted this world, with the knowledge that he'd always be The forgotten Hero. 

The lost hero. Jason Grace.

[xixovart]

hc that piper looks way too much like silena and that’s why drew is immediately defensive against her. because let’s not forget that drew is silena’s little sister who felt so irreperably betrayed. and she knows that silena was manipulated, but if drew casts silena as a villain then she doesn’t have to deal with the agony that is grieving. so when piper comes she undoes all of that. piper is a wrecking ball that shreds whatever progress drew thinks she’s made. and not only does she look just like silena but she has the audacity to act like her too. how else is drew supposed to react. she doesn’t know what to do when her dead sister shows up at her door.

[transvampireboyfriend]

Here's a bit from a fic I'm not sure I'll ever start writing. for context, this is Corroded Coffin's first tour and they brought Steve along (bc Eddie would never even imagine having it any other way)

Jeff and Eddie are walking towards the green room discussing the way their melodies turned out at tonight's show, when Gareth catches up to them, a little winded,

"Hey," he pants, "Freak says he wants to try that tacos place we saw on our way into town, you guys up for it?"

Jeff simply nods and Eddie shrugs, "Sounds good" he answers,

Gareth claps them in the back and says to Eddie "Awesome, I'll go ask your wife",

He goes to skip ahead between them but Eddie grabs him by the scruff of his tshirt and yanks him back, causing his head to slap itself against Eddie's waiting palm.

Jeff snorts but Gareth isn't amused.

"OW dude! What the fuck?!" he demands with wide eyes. Eddie doesn't buy it for a second, launches into the same warning he always gives them,

"I told you! if he hears you saying that he could get really pissed, and then you'll get me into serious trouble!" he still has Gareth by the scruff, so he yanks him again for emphasis,

"Do you want me to be in serious trouble, man?" Gareth shakes his head, Eddie yanks again,

"Do you want me to be in serious trouble because of you?" Gareth frantically shakes his head but holds his palms up as he weasels out of Eddie's hold, half-laughing as he turns to face them and walking backwards as they advance,

"I do NOT say it around him!" Gareth defends, Jeff scoffs beside Eddie and Eddie just narrows his eyes,

"Plus, I told you that he's into you, man!" Gareth continues, Eddie rolls his eyes at that so he can't see the significant look Jeff gives him, agreeing with Gareth.

"This again" Eddie groans, "you're delusional. Just stop calling him that altogether and we'll be good," he insists.

Gareth just sighs "Fine. Can you go ask your very platonic friend, that you share a bed with every night, if he wants tacos? Or should we not even ask his opinion?"

Eddie flicks his ear and Gareth frowns dangerously, meeting the end of his rope.

Jeff says "Okay-" and holds his hands up placatingly, but Eddie doesn't like his chances so he sprints down the hall laughing and Gareth takes off hot in his heels.

Jeff groans as Freak catches up with him,

"Children." Freak states, tutting.

---

When Steve comes back to the green room he finds Eddie and Gareth wrestling on the floor.

"Um-" he starts and Eddie, who had been making Gareth slap himself turns excitedly to him,

"Stevie!! What did you think?" he asks, wanting to get Steve's opinion on tonight's show, and probably very specifically, the melodies he and Jeff had been working on for weeks now.

Steve's lucky that Gareth pulls on his hair and distracts him by slamming him on the floor, otherwise Eddie would have totally noticed him blushing.

He'll never get over Eddie wanting his input, especially when it comes to something as important to him as his music, his band.

"OW!" Eddie shouts as Gareth pulls his hair again, reaching to pull on Gareth's nose.

That brings Steve back. He ceremoniously places his hands on his hips, and calls "Children!",

It startles Eddie into slapping Gareth's arm away particularly hard and Steve hears muttered apologies as the two of them sit up criss-cross side by side.

"He started it!" Eddie accuses, playing along with Steve's babysitter bit, "He said we shouldn't ask your opinion on dinner," Gareth gasps indignantly and tackles him again.

Steve just sighs, used to them buzzing with energy after shows.

He hears Jeff and Freak enter the room and turns to them as if they had been there all along, "Dinner from where?" he asks them,

Freak looks up from the boys wrestling and says "Remember that tacos place we saw on our way in? last Thursday?"

Steve's expression clears with understanding, he nods "Oh yeah! Yeah, that place! Okay. Sounds good." Freak nods and goes to their clothes rack.

"Soon as these two finish," Jeff comments.

Gareth has Eddie in a chokehold now and Eddie is trying to lick his arm while also pulling on Gareth's hair.

"I should record you and put it up on the internet," Steve threatens.

Jeff joins in "It'd humiliate our lead man, but it's a risk I'm willing to take" he claps his approval on Steve's back and goes to the clothes rack as Freak goes to change his outfit.

Eddie taps twice on Gareth's arm to be released and Gareth raises both arms above his head triumphantly.

Eddie points a finger at Steve, then Jeff and says "I'm vetoing that!"

Steve frowns. "I didn't know you had vetoing rights" he teases, tilting his head.

"He doesn't" Jeff and Gareth answer in unison,

"You just said I'm the lead man!" Eddie whines to Jeff,

"I was talking about Gareth" Jeff shrugs.

Gareth puffs out his chest and Eddie shoves him, knocking him on his ass again.

Steve can't help but chuckle at them. Eddie turns to look at him with mirth in his eyes then, extends his arms to be helped up.

Steve pulls him to his feet with his heart in his throat.

"So?" Eddie asks,

"What?" Steve asks quietly,

"What'd you think?" Eddie asks again, quiet too like it's their secret, giving his arm a little impatient tap, reminding him he hadn't answered before.

Steve doesn't remember when he started smiling so big "It was good." he tells him, just as quietly, having created a little bubble for the two of them without meaning to, but not wanting to burst it.

"Yeah?" Eddie asks, the corners of his mouth twitching up,

"Mmhm," Steve confirms, starts fiddling with one of Eddie's many chains, "I think the change you made yesterday was smart, the crowd was definitely wilder tonight" he comments,

"Well, that was Jeff, 'member?"

"Hmmm" Steve hums, letting go of the chain and leaning his elbow on Eddie's shoulder to turn to Jeff,

"Well that was a very smart change Jeff!" he calls loudly, enjoying Eddie's flinch. He has to clear his throat because his voice comes out raspy for some reason.

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Jeff frowns, confused.

"The new arrengement from yesterday," Eddie clarifies, eyes on Steve. Jeff ignores him, but takes the clarification all the same,

"Oh! thanks! Man, did you see the crowd tonight?" Jeff marvels,

Steve says "That's what I was just telling Eddie!" and they launch into specifics that Eddie misses.

He's thinking he usually doesn't like being teased but his cheeks are burning and he can't feel anything other than a pleasant warmth right now, Steve Harrington broke him.

He shakes his head and comes back to reality just in time to see Steve turn to him and say, "You did great tonight, Eds. You were super comfortable using the space on stage tonight, people loved it,"

Eddie doesn't say he was only comfortable because he had a clear view of Steve in the crowd.

"Thank you Stevie" he tells him instead. Steve smiles brightly at him. It makes Eddie want to rub his face on Steve's shoulder.

He pinches Steve's waist instead, gets all up in his space, still buzzing with energy from running around on stage.

"Help me pick something out for tacos?" he requests, hopeful. He loves the idea of Steve thinking about what would look best on him.

"Yeah," Steve agrees, grabbing the hand that pinched him and leading Eddie to the rack.

Gareth rolls his eyes at Eddie as they walk past him and Eddie flips him the bird.